#its genuinely so fascinating im obsessed

[bunnieswithknives]

Guess who finally watched Return To Oz!!!!!!!!!!! I am obsessed with this fucked up and evil creature

[autisticaradiamegido]

day 169

this is it, the dynamic

[fruitsofhell]

I am amazed by so much about Hazbin Hotel now that I'm finally, FINALLY watching it. There's so much to comment on but I have GOT to get this out of the way that has been distracting me going into the final episode. I need you to know that I'm like grimacing in a mix of pain and amusement rn. I feel like a teacher about to tell a student their essay earned the most entertaining F I've ever seen.

I want to do a little case study in Vivziepop's design ethos in the Cannibal Town bit y'know. I don't have the steam to write a full essay right here but I will try to get into this and how it relates to something that so fascinates me about her art. I was a fan of Vivziepop back in like 2014 when she first gained some notoriety in the animation community from her Die Young short and I watched nearly every piece of her old art content where she expressed her character designs and story ideas. I was really invested in them when I was younger, I thought and still do think her designs and ideas are very evocative in a good way, but which have slowly unraveled with time and scrutiny in all respects.

In her show... there's a district in hell run by cannibals, and the WHOLE gag of them is that instead of being your usual sort of racist stereotype they're a kitschy little victorian looking district who still sing about loving consuming flesh and blood and all that. See, this was evocative IN 2014, but it's not 2014. Which is not really interesting to say in itself because the show is utterly drowning in early 2010s Hot Topic-ass design sensibilities that I will probably talk about some other time, what I'm really getting at is the hypothetical thought process behind this.

Vivzie is a lover of all things impish and vintage, so of course in hell she thinks there should be a place full of cannibals who go beyond the usual stereotypes. And in her mind she's imagining how evocative the idea of smiling genteel demons running around eating human fingers is and goes with it. And a plus for her, it skirts around the racialized baggage attached to the taboo of cannibalism, maybe she even thinks its anti-racist to spin things like this. But like. It really really just stops there.

Hazbin Hotel wants to use its framing of heaven and hell to make a social commentary on morality obviously, and in the way its doing it it also is creating a sort of statement on class. There is this idea of moral meritocracy that angels are exploiting to keep themselves and those humans they like above those they dislike for arbitrary reasons, and just in the language - written and visual - of how heaven and hell are distinguished you see this slums vs metropolis thing going on. But I mean, someone else can probably tell you about how busted it is so I won't get into it, I'll just say that comparing hell to any sort of metaphor for a ghetto where disadvantaged and flawed people are grouped together unsafely looks bad for Vivzie lol.

This is where I come back to Cannibal Town which is so so so SO obviously a chance to make the most blunt-obvious social commentary on human exploitation that Vivzie just DOESN'T cause she finds people in victorian pristine garb talking about eating flesh funny and that is the full extent of her conversation on these ideas together. There's really really nothing else it seems that Vivziepop feels like saying about a kitschy upper-middle class town of people who eat other people other than isnt it funny when upper-middle class people want to eat others. And it does boggle my mind when so much other talk of exploitation, abuse, and class stratification is so laid bare on the table of this show.

In design and narrative this show really likes to touch on these deep but kinda basic tenets of social commentary but keeps doing the 2014 Hot Topic reversal of motifs and then just leaves that there like its something in itself. MMMaybe we could be doing more to say something about how when a bunch of people are arbitrarily thrown together in a lawless area under very broad assumption of moral degeneracy some seek to wield powers over others by reinforcing their simultaneous dehumanization. And how then those slumlords try to sell scraps of privilege to enrich themselves and stuff and how bad that is.

Like we kinda do sometimes, but then you have Cannibal Town which could have so fucking obviously been about liiiike??? IDK, the overlord of the area is someone who takes peoples souls and then gives them an insatiable urge to consume both physically and material goods that is symbolized through cannibalism and exploitation of other demons so that they are further reliant on the overlord??? ANd they all sit in their little village thinking theyre above others because they keep everything so orderly only by running themselves on the exploitation and consumption of other human resources. I don't even fucking know man but I just know that the Cannibal Town in the show is nothing but a joke and wank session for Vivziepop's historical fashion fetish and it drives me up the wall.

I want to be really invested in the politics of this world but this Vivziepop motherfucker just wants to create things like the town of white middle-class victorian cannibals for the lolz.

[br1ghtestlight]

Airy doesn't even feel guilty though bcuz he doesnt really understand how he's hurt the contestants. he DOES visably feel guilty about causing the deaths of the season one contestants (probably because he can empathize with dying in an accident out of your control) bcuz he didn't know how to bring them back, but now that death is temporary and he has every intention of sending everybody back when he's done with season two he doesnt seem to understand that Kidnapping them is wrong. he doesnt feel guilty because in his mind they're just all playing a fun game together and then they'll go back home ^_^ which yknow doesnt make it right but..... he doesnt seem to be afraid or avoiding the s2 contestants because as far as he's concerned he hasn't done anything wrong. he Knows liam is angry at him but he doesnt understand why

[gontagokuhara]

how to say “i want to study this person” abt someone rbing old deh posts of mine from 2017 but in like a respectful and non zoo-animal type way

[mediumgayitalian]

¡hi! I just wanted to mention I found your ficts like, a week ago by pure chance and I am absolutely obsessed with the way you characterize will and the rest of the apollo cabin. Haven't actually interacted with any pjo content in a WHILE but i just absolutely ran through most your ficts in such few time, i adore how you write oh my god. It's everything i've ever wanted for these characters I so rarely find any content but am still mildly loosing my mind over.

🥺thank u..........that is so kind. and if ur looking for more stuff i can list some of my biggest inspirations!!

my fave pjo writer, even above rick riordan, is @cordelia---rose -- she is the will solace author of all time and gets him like no one else does. and me personally im more of a character writer than a plot writer, but BOY can cordelia do both. here's her ao3.

another writer i love is @the-ghost-king, who is not only right all the time but has some EXCELLENT niche headcanons for will that fit so so well. he's also got great analyses in abundance about the entire canon series, as he's currently rereading it, and on nico in general. his ao3 is here.

GOD does @rottenpomegranate (could not tell u if this is the right blog, im going off ao3 username) ever get not only solangelo specifically but how to write really intimate relationships. i stg im regularly picking thru their fics for instructions. anyways. ao3 here.

@anything-thats-rock-and-roll u wanna talk about PLOT! they have ur back!! they come up with the most fascinating story ideas and i eat it up every time. delicious. they are also an autistic will truther and i love that. ao3 here.

OVER TO THE FCKN CLASSICS IT'S @rosyredlipstick !!! ive been reading her stuff genuinely since i was 11 years old. i GREW UP on conchell. her stuff is so interesting and her shorter stuff is so cozy i reread on the reg. ao3 here.

ANOTHER ENDLESS CLASSIC! been reading @buoyantsaturn 's stuff just as long. he's got a HUGE collection of work it's my aspiration. they're really good at writing drew actually which is niche but i love her. ao3.

and a third classic! @percyspandapillowpetperry ive been reading their fics forever and it's funny cus their username is so specific it Sticks in my memory. i remember where i was when reading a lot of these for the first time. they write a lot of silliness and they're great for a laugh ! ao3

THE PJO ARRANGED MARRIAGE ROYAL AU....😭😭😭 @gatesofember COME BACK PLEASE I NEED TO SEE HOW IT ENDS!!! i used this fic as inspo for my own royal au. i drank up every word and i think of will's family dynamic in it ALL THE TIME. ao3.

@percyinpanties wrote my favourite smutty solangelo fic of all time and they actually generally write a lot of good, kind of plot driven but mostly just GOOD smut and i am there w a notepad every time. i stg. ao3.

i disagree with @ughdomenico a Lot but i can never pinpoint why and im always mad that even tho i disagree i also agree a little. even if i don't want to. she always has something fascinating to stay and it sticks in my mind forever. always inspired. ao3.

nikkiRA when i fucking catch you nikkiRA. "Will dreams of the people he cannot save. They're mad a him." changed my fucking LIFE youre evil youre sick and twisted. ao3

THE GOLDEN APPLE THE FUCKIN GOL okay. @thegoldenappleofdiscord has this one fucking fic and its unfinished right. has been for years. of will growing up with plague powers that he hates. and it fucking HAUNTS me it changed the way i wrote will solace forever PLEASE COME BACK (ao3)

@ghosttotheparty dude his solangelo is great of course but their PERCABETH...their percabeth fucking gets me bad. ao3.

look if you're frothing at the mouth for a royal au. and i so often am. @theroyalsavage as you can maybe guess, has you COVERED. they get the weirdo power dynamics means sucker punch intimacy of a royal au SO good...like she knows what she's doing fr. ao3.

OKAY ONTO ARTISTS:

@mothmanavenue hasnt been doing much pjo stuff lately but when she does it's fire!! she made my pfp too.

@skysmadness is less active here but he's pretty active on instagram (same username) and just posted some nico art actually!! i love the way he draws faces. AND in general i love how he draws nico, he styles him really well.

oh boy @cindersart hasnt drawn pjo in FOREVER but they've been drawing since i was a kid. i have soooooo many of their works saved on my phone bc their comedic expressions KILL me and inspire so so many fics.

brand new follow for me but @the-sunniest-angels angels holy moly!!! they use colours SO well it shocks me so bad. i love how whipped nico is in their art lol

@delicate-sketch ... oh all of you know delicate sketch. she's got pfp's all over this site lol. and HOO boy do her paintings knock the breath out of you.......ive been thinking of her children of hades painting for a while like im always thinking about delicate demigods now. they are. they are

hasn't gone here in a while either (i am noticing a trend 😭😭) but @clingonlikeclingwrap drew a couple of my fics and they captured will angst SO well. love that to pieces.

and finally @cometjuice HI BELOVED.....theeeeee apollo cabin artist OF ALL TIME like oh my goodness i scroll thru their blog every day like the paper. endless endless w's.

ANYWAYS this was a lot but i hope ur can curate ur tumblr experience!! so many brilliant minds at work here!!

[bruciemilf]

bruharvey, thoughts? been rereading your other bruharvey headcanons and im kinda obsessed

Genuinely, am so absolutely weak for the married dynamic, but like. A marriage built on long, hard, exasperating, shifty, complicated, beautiful years, is so fascinating to me. These two could write biographies for each other and you wouldn’t even notice.

That being said, for me, it’s a MUST that they take every single chance to embarrass their kids by acting cloying and domestic.

Harvey calling Bruce “sugar tits” at lunch time, Bruce pulling the ‘don’t make me call your father!’ Card when Damian’s acting up with bringing 3x more pets in.

Once Jason re-enrolls in college, they take every chance they can to pull him out of class for bat business, but also, “because we miss our little baby of course”.

And if lying to the Batman is hard, try lying to Harvey when you wanna get out of trouble. He and Bruce communicate so seamlessly its almost creepy.

Teenage Dick trying to sneak off with Kori and being like, “Bruce is okay with it. He thinks it’s valuable intel.”

Harvey and Two Face snort in sync. “Really. That why he has a whole ass folder with your team in his nerd computer?”

“..”

“Get her some flowers. Chocolate. Condoms,—“

“EW!”

“If that’s your reaction, clearly, you ain’t ready for it, but whatever. Be a goddam gentleman. Come back at midnight, I’ll leave the doggy door open.”

“You could just… Open the door when I come back.”

“I know. That’s much funnier, tho.”

[vandme12]

FEED ME MORE RONIN(KC)XREADER FICS VRVSVSVSVVRVD I LOVE U SO MUCHHH

but genuinely im getting fed so much i love your writing style plus creativity, if i can req a fic can it be where reader and ronin have like something going on but reader likes to play with people's feelings so they suddenly disappears from the server like entirely and ghosts people after they make a big impact on someone, like they cannot be found for weeks even months because the reader is so mysterious and ronin goes like batshit crazy about them and everyone is also affected since like reader made a big impact on them also but not as big as ronin, but like reader had already warned everyone in the server when introducing themselves to not get attach to them.

Soz if its too long I'm just pouring out my ideas ;^;

TW : mention of de@th, blood!

Ronin is a idiot

You had warned him once—long ago, before you entered the chat— In the intros, don’t get attached to things that could disappear.

And then you showed up. And then you disappeared.

And he, the self-proclaimed devil in the chatroom, the one always five steps ahead, became nothing more than a dog chasing after a ghost.

You had warned them.

The first thing you ever typed into the server was simple:

"Don’t get attached. I won’t stay."

It was the kind of warning that people either ignored or found irresistible. Ronin, of course, had been in the latter camp.

You were a busy person, an enigma wrapped in a perfect storm of contradictions. Flirty but distant. Charming but untouchable. Every word you spoke had weight, a slow drawl of honey-laced poison that left people craving more. Even Angel, the femme fatale of the server, found herself at odds with you—unable to outmatch your game.

But Ronin?

Oh, Ronin was fascinated.

You didn’t just worm your way into his mind—you nested there. Coiled up like something ancient, something destructive. He knew what you were doing, of course. A little push, a little pull. A joke that lingered in the air too long. A flirtation that was never quite serious, except when it was. You’d called him “dangerous” like it was a compliment. Had laughed when he asked if you were afraid of him.

Ronin had grinned like a sinner at the gates of hell.

"Then you and I should have dinner sometime."

And you had never said yes. Never said no. Just left him hanging in that in-between space, dangling on the edge of a thrill that never quite came.

And then—one day, just like that—you were gone.

No warning. No goodbye.

Not even a whisper of where you might have gone.

The server felt empty without you.

Conversations continued. People laughed, joked, killed. But there was something missing, and everyone felt it.

Angel tried to brush it off, but her frustration leaked through in the way she typed. Misaki felt sad, claiming it was "boring now." Even Luca—carefree, go-with-the-flow Luca—admitted that things felt different without you.

But Ronin?

Ronin was unraveling.

It wasn’t obvious at first. He still cracked jokes, still played the part of the charming devil. But something in his usual flair was off. His comments were a little too sharp, his laughter a little too hollow. He was waiting, always waiting, for that green dot to appear next to your name again.

It never did.

So he searched.

Deep dives into old messages. Cross-referencing time zones, speech patterns, the way you used punctuation. Every breadcrumb you’d ever left, he followed.

It led to nothing.

You had covered your tracks too well.

And Ronin—Ronin, who prided himself on being untouchable—felt the bitter taste of obsession settle on his tongue like blood.

He dreamt of you.

It was always the same.

A smirk that knew too much. A gaze that pinned him, dissected him, peeled him apart like he was something to be studied.

"You miss me?"

It was never a question.

And in the dreams, he never answered. Just stared. Just burned.

He woke up with your name on his lips and the echo of your laughter ringing in his ears.

Days turned into weeks.

Weeks turned into months.

The server moved on.

Ronin didn’t.

"You're still hung up on them?"

Angel was the only one who dared ask.

Ronin, for once, didn’t have a clever response. Just stared at the empty space on his screen where your name used to be.

"It’s not about being hung up," he muttered finally.

Angel scoffed. "No? Then what is it?"

Ronin ran his tongue over his teeth, considering.

"It’s about principle," he lied. "They made a game out of this, and I don’t like losing."

Angel studied him for a long moment.

"You're full of shit."

And she was right.

But he wouldn’t admit it.

Because admitting it meant admitting that you had gotten to him. That you had burrowed deep, deeper than anyone else. That, despite all his bravado, all his warnings—

He had gotten attached.

Months passed.

Seasons changed.

You never came back.

Ronin stopped looking. Not because he was over it, but because he had reached a conclusion—one he didn’t like, but one he accepted nonetheless.

You had won.

And worse?

He almost respected you for it.

He still thought about you.

At odd hours, in quiet moments. Whenever he saw something he knew you would have liked. A song lyric. A particular brand of sarcasm. The way the sky bruised purple at dusk.

He never reached out.

Never sent messages into the void.

Because he knew, deep down, you weren’t coming back.

You had never belonged to him, or to anyone.

You were a phantom, a ghost, a passing storm that left nothing but wreckage in its wake.

And Ronin?

Ronin would carry your absence like a scar. A beautiful, painful thing.

Damn Ronin, You should start a book.

It was just eight months..

It’s been eight months.

Eight months since you vanished. No warning, no explanation—just gone.

The server didn’t die without you, but it sure as hell dimmed. Conversations became routine, predictable. Even the chaos felt… hollow.

And Ronin?

Well, he didn’t ask about you anymore. Didn’t mention your name. But every time someone else joined the chat, he scanned their words for echoes of your voice—just in case.

You were the itch he couldn’t scratch. The ghost haunting his circuits. The one person who managed to pull off what no one else could—leaving him behind.

Until tonight.

[You]: hi.

Simple. Innocuous.

Like you hadn’t just fractured reality with a two-letter greeting.

The server goes dead.

No typing indicators. No immediate response. Nothing.

For a second, you wonder if you’ve been kicked—or if no one’s left to care.

Then—

[Angelic]: …you’ve got to be f*cking kidding me.

[LUCA_IS_SO_COOL]: nah, no way.

[Hitmeupp]: LMFAO. holy shit. they’re alive.

[Feli]: You're back!

You lean back, half-smiling. Same old chaos. Same voices. They missed you—you can taste it in the way they scramble to respond.

You stretch your fingers over the keyboard.

[You]: what happened?

What happened?

Ronin nearly broke the world looking for you.

He tore through every trace you left behind, lost hours of sleep chasing nothing but air, and when that failed, he sat in silence—waiting. Wishing he could hate you as much as he missed you.

But sure. Let’s play dumb.

He doesn’t respond right away.

You notice it immediately. No sharp-tongued comment. No obnoxious flirt. Just… silence.

And that’s when you know—he’s pissed.

Still, you press on.

[You]: you all sound so dramatic. did someone die?

[Angelic]: baby, you’re lucky I’m not tracking your IP and strangling you right now.

[Hitmepp]: seriously, what the hell? ghosting the entire server? iconic, but rude.

[Luca_is_so_cool]: ngl, kinda missed the chaos.

[Feli]: People assumed you were dead. Ronin almost burned down a city/j

You blink.

…He what?

And finally—finally—his name pops up.

[goreboy]: oh. look who’s back.

The words sit there, cold and casual, but something in your chest tightens. You’d half-expected fireworks—some grand flourish of rage or obsession. But this?

This is worse.

[You]: no hi? no welcome back? rude.

[goreboy]: thought you didn’t want anyone getting attached.

Touché.

The others keep talking, but you barely register their words. It’s background noise—white static behind the gnawing tension curling between you and him.

You tap out a private DM.

[You → goreboy]: miss me?

A beat.

Two.

Three.

Then—

[goreboy]: no.

Liar.

But you’re not going to let him off that easy.

[You → goreboy]: cute. is this the cold shoulder?

The typing bubble flashes—then stops. Starts again. Stops.

You can feel him wrestling with himself, and it’s delicious.

And you? You’re patient. You know exactly how to unravel him.

So you wait.

[goreboy]: you left.

Blunt. No flourish, no charm. And for once, he isn’t hiding behind a smirk.

[You → goreboy]: i warned you.

[goreboy]: doesn’t mean i liked it.

For all his swagger and venom, Ronin isn’t built for absence. He wants to possess—to hold and devour and keep. And you? You slipped right through his fingers like smoke.

But even now, even after all this time—he’s still here, isn’t he?

[You → goreboy]: and yet, here you are. waiting for me.

A full minute passes.

And when he finally responds, the edge is back—razor-sharp, dangerous.

[goreboy]: careful, darlin. you might start thinking i care.

[You → goreboy]: don’t you?

No answer.

The public chat hums on without you. Angel, Misaki, Luca—laughing, teasing, dragging you for disappearing.

But you’re not paying attention to them anymore.

It’s just you and him.

And the weight of everything unsaid.

He cracks first. Of course, he does.

[goreboy]: why come back?

You could give him the truth. That you missed the chaos. That nothing else felt quite as alive as being here.

Or you could keep playing the game.

And you’ve always loved the game.

[You → goreboy]: thought you’d be fun to haunt.

For a long time, nothing.

And then, with the kind of dangerous sweetness only he can pull off—

[goreboy]: careful what you wish for, sweetheart. haunting goes both ways.

Title: A Vanishing Act (Part 3)

[You → goreboy]: you killed me.

A joke. Light. Playful. Exactly the kind of thing you know will sink its claws into him.

You expect a quip back—something smug and biting.

But nothing comes.

Just dots.

The typing bubble flares up—dies—flares again. He’s hesitating. Ronin never hesitates.

Until you.

[You → goreboy]: because.

[You → goreboy]: you really did.

And oh— You know it’s cruel.

But he deserves it.

When he does respond, it’s not words—just:

…

Quiet. Too quiet.

And that—that’s when you know you’ve hit something raw. Something bloody.

You lean back, fingers hovering, letting the silence stretch. Knowing he’s somewhere out there, gripping his phone too tight, the weight of your words crawling under his skin.

He always wanted you obsessed—so why shouldn’t you haunt him?

[goreboy]: funny.

His first word in five minutes.

But that’s the thing about Ronin. When he cracks, it’s never gentle.

[goreboy]: maybe i did.

You should leave it there. Let him sit in it.

But you never were good at leaving well enough alone.

[You → goreboy]: hahahahahahaha

He doesn’t laugh back. Not yet.

But you can feel it—something sharp, curling. The temperature’s dropped, and you know he’s right there on the edge.

So you push.

Because if you know anything about Ronin Beaufort, it’s that he always pushes back.

[You → goreboy]: what if i told you…

[You → goreboy]: you were right.

More dots.

Longer this time.

And you know—he’s unraveling.

[goreboy]: right about what, doll?

A little too casual. A little too smooth.

He’s covering. And poorly.

[You → goreboy]: i died.

Simple. Plain. Like saying the sky is blue.

[You → goreboy]: you did it.

And that’s what does it.

The dam breaks.

He laughs.

It starts soft—a low, choking thing—then spills out, full and wrong. You can almost hear it through the screen, that breathless, sharp-edged sound.

[goreboy]: HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

[goreboy]: oh, sweetheart.

[goreboy]: that’s rich.

And you know—deep down—you’re cracking something wide open.

But you? You’re too far gone to stop.

[You → goreboy]: it’s not a joke.

The chat has gone dead quiet.

Angel hasn’t spoken in minutes. Misaki? Silent. Luca? Vanished.

It’s just you and him now.

And whatever’s left of the sanity between you.

[goreboy]: so you’re a ghost now?

His words are honeyed poison. Slow, syrupy, deadly.

And when you don’t answer—

He laughs again.

[goreboy]: god, baby.

[goreboy]: you’re such a tease.

He’s trying. You’ll give him that. Trying to hold onto the thread of normalcy. But you’re not going to let him have it.

Not when he deserves so much worse.

[You → goreboy]: it wasn’t quick, you know.

[You → goreboy]: slow. messy.

And there it is—

The cracks are showing.

[goreboy]: mm. sounds like my style.

But the words aren’t smooth anymore.

They’re tight. Stretched thin.

He’s feeling it.

And you’re not done.

[You → goreboy]: you didn’t even notice, did you?

The typing bubble flashes—stops.

Flashes—stops.

And then—

[goreboy]: no.

A confession.

Soft. Small. Wrong.

And if you were still alive—if you still cared—you might feel sorry for him.

But you don’t.

Not anymore.

[You → goreboy]: you missed me.

A taunt.

A truth.

And you know it’s killing him.

He doesn’t deny it.

Doesn’t lie.

Doesn’t run.

He does something worse.

[goreboy]: yeah.

One word.

Bare. Raw.

And you should stop.

But instead, you press harder.

Because if you’re haunting him—he’s going to feel it.

[You → goreboy]: do you regret it?

No dots.

No laugh.

Just nothing.

Until—

[goreboy]: no.

And oh, that—that sends a shiver crawling down your spine.

He doesn’t regret it. Not for a second.

You could break him—drown him in the guilt—but he’d still smile. Still reach for you through the blood.

Because he doesn’t want forgiveness.

He just wants you.

[You → goreboy]: good.

A low hum of energy coils beneath your skin. You know he’s hooked now—tangled so deep he couldn’t cut himself free if he tried.

And you?

You’re not done playing.

[goreboy]: what now, baby?

His voice—his tone—it’s too soft. Too hungry.

Like he’d tear the world apart just to touch you again.

[You → goreboy]: i’ll haunt you.

A promise.

A curse.

And his answer?

It’s not fear. Not regret.

It’s delight.

[goreboy]: oh, sweetheart.

[goreboy]: i’ll see you in hell.

And you believe him.

Because Ronin Beaufort always keeps his promises.

And he’ll never let you go.

"Do it"

On the 6th Month

You let him kiss you—slow, sweet—like you weren’t about to make him cross a line neither of you could come back from.

And then—

You asked.

"Do it."

His hands curled around your throat—gentle at first. Testing.

And God—you laughed. Laughed.

His grip tightened.

And for the first time—you thought, Maybe.

He could do it.

He would.

"Say it again," he rasped. "Tell me you want it."

And you did.

Over and over and over—until the words were raw in your throat and his hands were shaking against your skin.

"You’ll do it, right?" you whispered. "For me?"

He kissed you through the tears—yours, his—you couldn’t tell the difference anymore.

[sabertoothwalrus]

OK PREFACING WITH IM SORRY IF I ALREADY SENT THIS EXACT ASK BUT MY WIFI KILLED ITSSLF AS I SENT IT SO IDK IF IT ACTUALLY WENT THROUGH. but in case it didn’t . i know youve gotten this countless times in the past because i blog stalked just in case youve mentioned something similar before but i need to know if you have any specific inspirations when you draw exaggerated expressions specifically like these two images of marcille. ive actually cried laughing over this comic and being able to communicate this type of visceral emotion is such an insane skill and ive followed your art for probably close to a decade through various fandoms so watching you develop this style has been fucking awesome and epic. like i cannot articulate how funny these are to me i just need you to understand i look at this comic to inspire me to draw now. the closest comparison i can draw to the feelings they evoke are like those mspaint reaction images and also mspaint tails i included for reference even though you probably know exactly what im talking about anyways but its actually so much harder to do that intentionally when you study art. also i lied you literally don’t even need to answer this i just had to let you know how obsessed i am over your silly comics and now ive written out a whole ass discussion post about it. im sorry if this is weird at all i think my daily prescribed amphetamines r wearing off and i know this is such a dumb specific thing to fixate on and im so sorry if its not something you want to hear about your art. ive just always seen that as an artist this type of expressive stupid silly style is something that comes after a significant amount of time and practice and study and style development despite being “simple” in theory. its just so cool to have worked with your own style so much that youre able to go “off model” from it and still maintain consistency with the rest of the piece. i said it already and im sorry this is actually rendundant now but the ability to communicate such raw emotion somehow decreases from at its height when someone is a beginner artist learning how to proportion and keep a steady line and what looks “normal” but somehow it all comes full circle because taking all that experience and using it to almost return to where you started but in a fully informed and intentional way so you can make choices to draw characters like this when the situation calls for it is just dhcidogakgoshfhw. i think i need to cut myself off or im going to talk in circles im sorry tumblr user sabertoothwalrus i just am fascinated by your style and progress and the years you’ve dedicated to art can be seen in so many places but this is just one that stands out to me specifically.

MMMMM what a fun question!!!

I'm not gonna lie, I think it's just Letting A Drawing Be Bad. I definitely think the people that struggle with this the most are people who have genuinely very pretty art styles, to the point of being kind of perfectionist about it. and to Draw Funny often means Drawing Fast and Weird. Pretty is kind of the antithesis of funny (unless being pretty is the punchline). do drawings that make yourself laugh. tracing/lining funny sketches almost always makes them less funny.

one of my favorite types of humor is when it skews more deadpan, actually. This is one of the reasons I love Adventure Time. minimal expressions and flat line delivery + absurd context is a really good combo. the key to comedy has more to do with contrast! if your drawings are allllll crazy ren & stimpy all the time, they're not funny anymore cause it's just "normal". if it's all subdued UNTIL it's extreme, and vice versa, then it's funny. The reason this comic is so funny is because of the complete lack of any expression. I feel like the one you sent of Marcille shouting "WHAT" is funnier when you know how much she tries to be dainty and feminine and delicate, how much she values her appearance, and how averse she is to "gross" or "weird" things.

something I find really annoying (and this is with comics/animation in general, not the expressions themselves) is when the joke goes on for too long. Like you'll have the joke, then the punchline, and THEN the characters reacting to the punchline??? Like the author didn't trust that their audience would find the joke funny, so they basically drew in a laugh track. But, this is distinct from a character's reaction being the punchline (like how the examples you gave from my Marcille comic are). MY POINT IS sometimes expressions aren't as funny on their own as you think, and context can affect how you feel about it!

as far as inspirations go!

my own face! even if I don't have a mirror, I like making the expressions myself so I can "feel" where the points of tension on my face are, and it gives me a sense of what to exaggerate.

my brother's art, believe it or not! we've been trying to make each other laugh with our drawings since we were kids, and he's really good at it.

ATLA has some great expressions

OK KO has been a reallyyyy good source for me lately. That show is so tailored to my sense of humor and the expressions and line deliveries feel exactly like the kinds of things I'd come up with. The tone, timing, and art style are all really close to the tv show pitch I'm working on, so when I feel like I've "strayed" too much from it (like after drawing a bunch of dungeon meshi, and my art feels tighter and... idk "manga-ier"?) I like to go and watch a couple episodes of OK KO to loosen back up

A lot of things like OG Spongebob, Calvin & Hobbes, the Simpsons, Chowder, etc etc

memes in general. if it makes you laugh, keep it in mind

and lastly, I wouldn't say I ever try to mimic funny expressions I see. Like if I watch a show for inspo, I'm not pausing it to copy specific drawings, I'm just trying to notice patterns and pay attention to what about it I find funny.

talking about being funny is really bizarre and I dunno if it makes it lose some of the magic. Ultimately it's something you can't think about too much, and just gotta go with your gut.

[str8upjorkinit]

Why do you like the brat

(genuinely want to know lmao)

funny you should ask that...

it all started when I saw that one ad where leo was kicking his feet in the bathtub...(big yap warning)

shallowly, he gives power bottom energy. i was prepared to not like him since my friend was further in the game + picked leo bc she thought he looked cunty and quickly found out that she hated him, but my first meeting of him was that ad.... that ad.... hes so like girly and like cutesy and and :3c!! so then i actually met him in the game... hes so girly and cutesy omg, i live for that fake bitch energy. hes so like... pathetic and two faced and cute like....

so basically i have this thing where i yearn for this kind of dynamic where i can overpower him but hes smarter than me and also very interesting so i just let him boss me around. hes so like... weak. and i love his voice i need him to moan in my ear especially when hes being fake and cute bc he wants something from you? "captain~<3 can you please open this bottle for me?~ <3" ugh. fuck. boner. hes such a vixen. hes such a diva.

also him crying... oh my lord LEO CRYING!!! UGHHH. the world's prettiest crier <3 and his goddamn tongue piercing

also like the switch up is hot too, the duality of man <3 my pretty delicate princess!!

psychologically, hes such a fucking wreck and i love that, hes such a bitch, and hes so manipulative, and hes so jealous, and insecure, and such a liar, im so fascinated!!! does he know how awful he is? does he realize how toxic hes being? is he toxic on purpose?? is he a shit friend on purpose? is it a power trip to make sho pay for his food or is he just lazy? i want to know what hes thinking

his relationship with sho is so fascinating too, like its so clear hes scared of losing him but in a way he also hates/loves him. like wdym you have other friends besides me??? you're starting a business??? ugh, ur so lame. and he actively tries to isolate him, is he jealous of sho's popularity? his talents? his social life? or does he hate the things that takes sho away from him?? he also does not give a shit about shos happiness either bc he like badmouthed him to subaru just so subaru could leave him alone... wow... what a fucking asshole... im so invested, drama!!!! also the valentine's day line where he doesn't mention getting anything but sho does,,, it means something no?? dude, like, leo is everything and nothing, i bet he feels so worthless but to make up for that he uses sho and internet validation

hes built like a reality tv character, THE instigator but hes smart about it. hes such an attention whore, like .... regina george... guys real shit i have a mean girl kink /j

leos the type of bitch to flirt with and sleep with his boss to make more money.

ANOTHER THING he has like a weird sense of justice?? like he hates ppl who've made the world shitty (ref to when he jumps off the building) and so him and sho scamming old rich guys is kinda like them being vigilantes? leos kinda like an anti-hero in a way. hes so interesting!!! AHH!!!

omg also hes in his self-destructive era and i need to see how it goes, like will he be a villain? will his life get ruined bc of himself?? will he get punished? will he redeem himself? does he regret his choices??

ngl i tho im actually not romantically interested in him, which is pretty surprising considering how much i like him. im obsessed with him in the most objectifying way possible

but yeah i love my toxic fruit tart boy <333

[pseudosaprophyte]

now that we’re 5 years out from the inception of the dsmp and a couple years? from its ending? i guess? (it well never end to me but im insane) i really want to talk about the audience’s response to tommy’s character and how it reflects both in-canon views of him and a phenomenon i’ve noticed at large.

this is prob gonna be long asf

a big reason i latched onto ctommy so early on was him not being the “ideal victim”, something people have talked about in the past ofc, but i wanted to talk about the specifics of that. there are characters who go through trauma and come out worse off, who lash out, who brood or are mean or flawed, and tommy had that as well, but i think the biggest thing both in universe and out, was that ctommy was ANNOYING. from the beginning he was loud and disruptive and rude. he would grief and steal and fight and just be a pain in the ass

and to many, being annoying is a far greater crime than being “flawed” in any other way. people like a brooding mean man who’s cruel because of his dark traumatizing backstory, you literally can’t escape those kinds of characters, but a character who’s just genuinely fucking annoying? people want those guys dead.

there was a popular tumblr post i still remember that was something along the lines of “a character can be a murderer but they can’t be annoying” and i never vibed with that but i do get where the sentiment comes from. from a purely entertainment perspective, it’s way more enjoyable to watch a villain than a character who you just want to shut up, i get that.

but what’s so interesting to me is the people who watched the dsmp and didn’t like ctommy because he was annoying were reacting the same way characters in universe reacted to ctommy.

i always go back to his death, or rather the characters’ reactions to learning he was dead. post prison-death, people celebrated, people cheered, and they had never done that before when a character had died.

(take this with a grain of salt because im not gonna rewatch hundreds of hours of minecraft livestreams to verify this, just take my dsmp-obsessed word for it)

when schlatt died, kinda the original and archetypal villain of the dsmp that all others would either emulate or at least reference, there was that moment where quackity was glad he was dead and ate his heart, but i don’t remember a wide spread cheering-in-the-streets kind of response, at least beside that initial “omg yay we won the war”

when wilbur died, he was much more complex than schlatt as a villain, but he very much terrorized people during his descent in pogtopia, and blew up the country they just fought a war for. yet there was no cheering at his death either.

but tommy, the annoying ass kid who griefed people’s homes and started little fights and was loud and rude, when he died? MULTIPLE people celebrated

and this isn’t a condemnation of that, i think we’re far enough out from the dsmp to not have to moralize these characters all over again, i just find it fascinating

because that’s a response i’ve seen many times before, to many different medias, and in real life as well. being annoying or cringey is a far greater crime than being cruel or violent

during the height of the dsmp, there was a very large group of viewers who HATED ctommy, and i’m sure there are still a few but i (luckily) never see them. and this wasn’t just one group, it was fans of all different characters who watched all different povs, and still so many people hated his character. and i think that’s an interesting reflection of the in-universe viewpoint of many characters. characters who had either bad faith or incomplete views on him who just saw a nuisance and a problem that was finally gone when he died, instead of an incredibly complex, loving, and hopeful character, subjected to abuse at the hands of multiple adults, charged with his safety

ctommy is a loud, annoying, at times painfully unfunny teenager, which to me makes his story hit so much harder. he’s not a sweet cherubic boy who never did nothin to nobody and was whumped by the narrative, he was a realistic teenager who was subjected to abuse and trauma, and not once did he deserve it

(no matter what those cdream apologists used to say back in the day)

the crime of being annoying is an interesting one, and one every single person is certainly guilty of

[wackywatchdotcom]

cataloguing info on pomni merch and. obsessed w this description of her....

the 'hilarious' thing reminds me of what i JUST had a convo about in this post

the way it describes her problems is so interesting... doesnt have a sense of wellbeing. isnt satisfied with her current existence. isnt aware of current goings-on. not adjusted to new body. no changeable outfits

the adjusted to new body part is notable... we havent seen much of that whatsoever in the show itself (aside from the scene with her looking at the mirror in the pilot) but this is definitely implying she doesnt feel great about it...

no changeable outfits. which fascinates me that theyd say that for her and not the others when they ALL dont seem to have changeable outfits. im of the belief that she genuinely cant take that hat off at all. its esp interesting to me considering she DOES have a different outfit in ep 4...

It's Pomni!

[deafeninggalaxycandy]

✨️HEIDI TURNER HEADCANONS✨️

i know i said give me like a week to write this, but I got inspired as of lately, so I decided to just fast track and post it now. You guys really like Heidi, so let's go!! Also, pardon me if im a shitty writer. I'm projecting in these bc I've been through what Heidi went through, but I'm bad at explaining things.

• Heidi Ramona Turner

• She/Her

• Born on January 7th, 2004

• 4'11"

• Asexual

• After her breakup with Cartman, Heidi had a talk with her parents and they decided to send her to a therapist. She continued with these sessions until she turned 12 which happened to be about the same time Cartman got sent to a psych ward.

• During these sessions, she truly realized how mistreated she was. Not only with Cartman, but generally in her life. She's an only child with two working parents with full time jobs and never had a lot of genuine friends. She stayed out of the way mostly, was quiet, shy, unproblematic. This led to her being seen as a "houseplant" and ignored when she developed her own problems.

• Before Wendy decided to take on the role, Heidi was the mom of the group. She was the gentle sweetheart everyone dumped their issues on and she absolutely didn't care because she had so much empathy for everyone. She later realized it wasn't just empathy, but more so low-esteem and guilt which led to an obsessive feeling to fix everyone's problems compiled with insecure pride and a desperate need to make herself appear fine or "easy to deal with".

• With time however, Heidi learned to love herself. She took a break from school, social media, everything. She began to exercise again, go on nature walks. Just generally do things she wanted. She focused on her studies, her interests. She felt guilty at first for being "selfish" but her therapist made her see she needed a loooong break from carrying everyone.

• She's still kind-hearted, selfless, and charitable but much more of her authentic self, less quiet and complacent, and absolutely will not take any shit from anyone. She follows her feelings more than logic sometimes, so her reactions to other people messing with her are a lot more harsh. She'll warn you once. You fuck with her again, whatever happens next is your fault.

• She also managed to forgive Cartman even before he came back from the ward, she decided to forgive him so she can move on. Turns out, she still had some feelings for him and after he apologized, with time, decided to give the relationship another try.

• Heidi took up an interest in psychology and neurobiology. She'd always been fascinated with how the human mind works. She wants to be a psychiatrist. Specifically a child psychiatrist, she's great with kids.

• Her favorite movie is A Fault in Our Stars. It makes her cry every time.

• Listens to Pink Floyd, Babe Rainbow, Jimi Hendrix, and Ultimate Spinach.

• Has a dog, 2 cats, a rabbit, a parrot, a turtle and a lizard she adopted with Cartman.

• Volunteers at animal shelters, a food bank, hospitals, basically anywhere she can.

• Hard-core vegan.

• Has a green thumb. Her entire house is covered with plants. She also has a plant garden and she grows a lot of her food.

• Best friends with Wendy, Kyle and Kelly

• Hates violence but can fight. Wendy taught her mixed martial arts and Cartman taught her how to put someone in a headlock.

• Deleted social media entirely. She only uses her phone for texting.

• Makes her own jewelry and taught Karen how to make hers.

• Heidi is an omnist (someone who finds some form of truth in all religions). Her parents do not approve.

• Practices mediation and does yoga every day.

• Plays the violin and electric guitar. She can sing too but she's shy.

• Heidi gets a really pinkish red face when she's angry and everyone thinks its adorable.

• LOVES to sew and crotchet. She helps Bebe make clothes a lot and makes a majority of her own.

• Studies eastern philosophy and Greco-Roman myths.

• Likes snails for some odd reason. Nobody questions it but she just picks up and keeps random snails she sees.

• She moved out of her parents' house when they started calling her a witch for wearing an evil eye necklace.

I 1000% leaned into the idea of her going to therapy and turning into a hippie, honestly. It just feels right to me.

Also I just heard my first Babe Rainbow song and I'm hooked. Go listen to it, it's a rlly good band. :)

[vixeneptune]

2024 : MANIFESTED ALL MY DESIRES IN ONE YEAR

Part 2

Love life :

I'm having the best relationship this year! It's literally the healthiest relationship I've ever been in, its even beyond what I imagined! I literally met my perfect match our compatibility is off the chartsss we're so perfect together. He's def my soulmate we get eachother so well without even speaking. It's amazing how much fun we have together , it's so lighthearted yet deep , it's transparent and beautiful and pure. Ugh our love is so powerful! He treats me so well he spoils me all the time like I'm his princess all I do is just exist and he's like "omg goddess I'm obsessed with you". Not to mention he's so loyal, honest, generous, kind, masculine, secure, handsome, rich, he provides for me endlessly, he makes me laugh, I feel so comfortable and safe, our dynamic is the best I feel so grateful and he feels the same. This is literally one of the biggest highlights for me this year 😍 a love so powerful, passionate yet peaceful and uplifting. Marriage is def around the corner!

Social Life :

My popularity increased so much this year! Everyone seems to wanna be either my lover or my friend! Ig bc I've been focusing on myself and my life everyone is so magnetically attracted to me! I made some really amazing solid friendships this year ♡ I feel so blessed to have such good genuine friends who share my interests! It's amazing how much my social circle expanded this year I've def been getting out of my comfort zone and feeling much more extroverted, outgoing and confident socialising and connecting easily with others! I'm so charming and pretty and smart that people fall in love with me easily, I'm so easy to love, I lost count of how many love confessions I got this year! So many men interested in me and pursuing me, I'm literally everyone crush this year! I'm such a people magnet, my aura is so attractive and magnetic people find me so interesting and fascinating! Im not only pretty but i have a great personality, the best energy, and a beautiful rich mind and soul, that's why everyone is so drawn to me. I'm so good at relationships , I'm consistent, secure, open to give and receive. It's easy for me to maintain relationships and allow them to grow and flourish naturally and beautifully! I feel so blessed to be surrounded by supportive loving trustworthy people who understand me and want the best for me, they truly care about me. I love how comfortable I am meeting new people and forming genuine deep connections, it's so natural for me. Everyone is so sweet and kind to me, they treat me so well, they buy me gifts ,they constantly spoil me with love and attention ,they see my worth and value.

Extras :

I'm such a money magnet! I'm making sooo much money this year it's crazy it's like money is obsessed with me lol. A high value expensive woman like me deserves the best and attracts the best always ♡ I'm treated like VIP everywhere I go. My energy is so powerful it shakes every room I enter, I'm easily the center of attention cuz w my charismatic presence, everyone's eyes are hooked on me they're so infatuated w my beauty. My aura radiates abundance , security and confidence, I'm so calm and secure which makes me naturally the most confident girl in the room. My confidence, my charm, my popularity and my charisma increased dramatically this year! I'm fully tapped in my inner siren inner goddess energy this year and it SHOWS. My sex appeal and my beauty is beyond compare. I'm known as the it girl and everyone is inspired by me and thinks of me constantly, they're waiting on my every move bc im so iconic and such a trendsetter. I put myself out there and I succeed everytime without a doubt. I'm born to be seen I'm such a star girl ☆

For my 2024 subliminal visit my YouTube channel kali777

[lilith-13x]

i find it genuinely fascinating how people can read the same thing and interpret it so differently ! (and i know this could sound hateful esp because of what im talking about but i swear i just genuinely think its interesting lol)

with acotar and the whole elucien/elriel/gwynriel, debate, i guess is the word i’ll use haha. some people see azriel as obsessed and adoring with elain specifically, but to me i just see him protecting women generally (esp feyre), and just feeling entitled to elain because his brothers mated her sisters - all opinions though !!

and then people will see lucien being pushy or trying to force her when he is a) trying to fight their biology being away from her (both rhys & cassian say it’s hard even before its official) and b) he just wants to get to know her because they’re mates but also because he cares about feyre and wants her to be happy by making her sister happy. and tbh i think he seems “pushy” because we see him through nesta, who hates him lol

anyways that’s my thoughts ! i’m definitely an elucien (i could talk about them forever; mr. sunshine and ms. i need sunshine) and a gwynriel shipper but im not offended by any ship

(as long as it’s appropriate im looking at you tamlin x anybody especially nyx 🤢)

[itsmelloww]

MacTavish

This is so unnec istg i reach at every opportunity, but i loooove names/surnames etc so just been googling stuff ok

Got really into Soap randomly over the past week, which led to a manic obsession with OG Soap, Cap MacTavish (MAN.) so i've been deep diving into him.

Of course i had to google his surname (feel free to correct me btw im just having fun here)

So MacTavish means 'Son of Thomas' , which in Gaelic is 'MacTamhais' which comes from the Gaelic personal name 'Tamhus', which is pronounced as Tavis, hence, MacTAVISH. (Mac means 'son of' in case that wasnt clear)

So the MacTavish were actually a pretty prominent Clan in Scotland, and due to their history, the surname can signify or allude to the below:

People of courage and resilience

rich heritage of bravery and familial loyalty

association with wisdom and maturity

---

I can imagine most Soap fans have gone through the journal, but i strongly recommend really digging into it cause Captain is just... such a perfect description of the above traits. Reading that made me think if it was intentional, using that surname. Captain MacTavish was genuinely nothing but a hardcore, handworking guy, super brave, super resilient and you could tell he genuinely cared for others - his strong feelings about loyalty (whole page in his journal), and how he writes and feels about Roach and Price. It's very evident where he stands and he comes off as such a clean person, his mind not fogged, he knows where he stands and whats important to him.

He also comes off as very mature overall, trying to always stay in shape, pushing out distractions, staying focused , while he naturally has to be intelligent to be where he is, and his intelligence really comes off in his planning, how meticulous his notes are, etc etc.

UGH I love Captain MacTavish so much , i genuinely think he's fascinating.

Like i said, lowkey reaching cause ofc im going to relate him now to these few points i pulled from online (its like the zodiac lol), but i really think its fitting!! COD has many fascinating characters but Soap actually blew me away, that journal was such an amazing addition i swear it added so much colour to him

And i keep talking about Captain Mactavish, and he feels quite different to me when compared to Soap (the Sergeant) , but Soap himself also feels like he fits that description perfectly. Guts of steel, and he's loyal too as hell too.

Ugh, getting emotional really. 10/10 characters. love.