#its 3am and im having thoughts
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It's interesting, I don't think my father really ever thinks about the ways his identity as a mixed race Japanese man has affected his life and the way he moved through the world, because most of his life was spent around other poc and in communities that didn't really view him as an oddity so he never really had that explicit discriminatory experience where his race was made the defining piece of his identity if you know what I mean, but I have this distinct memory in my mind of the way he would talk about the movie "Harold and Kumar Go to White Castle", the way his eyes sparkled and his face lit up when he talked about this movie versus other films with similar vibes, but with all white casts instead. There was something about seeing the face of young John Cho dressed in clothes that could have come from my father's own closet go on a stupid stoner boy adventure with his brown friend that made my father happy in a way no other stupid stoner boy movie ever did before, it was the only one of those movies I ever remember him even talking about let alone the amount of times he would bring "Harold and Kumar" up in conversations completely unprompted, and maybe it was just the writing that hit him differently, but I have this vague memory of him saying something about how it stuck with him more because there had never been a movie like that starring Asian guys before, that the fun and cooky oddball roles never went to men who looked like my father, but it was his personality, he was the type of guy to try to go White Castle and end up on fifty comedic tangents when he was the same age as Harold and Kumar. It's just one of those things that I've never forgotten, I doubt he even knows how much those comments stuck with me all these years, but it was one of those moments as kid you can't forget, when you see a certain emotion on your parent's face that you've never seen before. It took me years to realize exactly what it was on his face and what it was about "Harold and Kumar" that made it so special to my dad, I don't even know how much he's aware of the fact that the representation in the movie is a big part of what endears him to it, but I think about it a lot. About how that one small bit of representation, in a movie most people would probably write off, made my dad feel seen in a way he never really did before
#ignore me#harold and kumar#personal#john cho#kal penn#its 3am and im having thoughts#watched a youtube video about comedy movies and then showed john chos face from a different project#but it made me think about harold and kumar#and whenever i think about harold and kumar i think about my dad#because i just remember the way he would NOT shut up about that movie when i was a kid#im surprised he never forced me to sit down and watch it with him 😭😭😭#my dad generally isnt a big fan of comedies like that#like he likes a good comedy but i feel like the only comedies i can remember heeping praise onto were galaxy quest and harold and kumar#which like very different vibes yk#those raunchy stupid stoner boy movies were never a thing my father gravitated towards#pretty sure his opinion on adam sandler and comedy of a similar style is abject dislike#but harold and kumar?#my dad could not and would not stop talking about those two#if i remember correctly i think he even regarded it as like a shifting point in the genre#media#representation
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binding vow
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#megumi fushiguro#fushiguro megumi#megumi#fanart#jjk fanart#done....collapses#up until 3am last night n sitting fr another 8 hours today to finish....#g o d#the things i do fr him.....#let it no longer b said that i only do elaborate paintings rife with symbolism tht feature gojo. megu my one true muse#as is Correct and Just#real talk tho i was just sketching th things i wanted to include without giving much thought to the Themes#w the exception being the spider lilies lmao I Know What Those Mean#but i ended up with a REALLY good life/death/marriage/loyalty thing going on????#w the lotus/spider lily being purity+rebirth/death#((not 2 mention 'far from the one he loves' like HELLO?????))#also w the temari balls being associated w femininity but having him dressed in groom's attire#like???? 90% unplanned but i ended up both cooking And eating#also happy 2 report that betta fish were kinder 2 me than the koi were :) no trouble from these lil guys#in fact everything abt this piece kind of came easily beyond the initial colour swatch??#thank u fr being an easy subject megu ilysm im sorry abt all the death imagery i dont mean it pls focus instead on th Life imagery :((((#i put a ring on it so u gotta wake up.....cant leave yuuji @ th altar ....#SPEAKING OF THE RING IK ITS ON THE RIGHT HAND we've been over this and its Okay#if i read a single comment .........#sorry 2 that one person who was like 'the next binding vow better be at itfs' wedding' ik this probably wasnt what u meant#but it did inspire me smile :)#anyway i need 2 stop looking at this its been over 24 hours
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I don't think we talk enough about how Stargate's wraith aka space vampires had one of the most outside the box vampire powers to ever grace TV. Like kudos to whoever said "hey fuck it we're gonna take one of the most one dimensional villain races we've ever made which can very accurately be described as space vampires and just completely blow that idea out of the water with a single scene showing that they have miles more depth than you could ever guess".
I mean come on why am I not seeing more vampire fanfic where the vamp can give life in the same manner that they can take it?! It's such a groundbreaking idea in a trope that short of this the most recent big change of pace was glitter.
That single scene where it looks like Todd just killed John but then he turns around and gives him back more years than he took? Mwah chefs kiss. Possibly the most efficient story telling I've seen.
Anyway I support queer agenda that episode suggested and am eternally devastated that Todd didn't become a Teal'c level character but with extra gay because telepathy.
#its 3am so this probably makes no sense but goddamn i have thoughts about this 10000 year old shithead#todd the wraith#sga#stargate#stargate atlantis#john sheppard#if you made it this far and am wondering wtf im on about#this is your sign to go watch stargate#all of it#except maybe sgu that kinda sucked#oh also#vampires#i suppose
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This loop has to be the one. Nevermind that you said it last loop, and the one before, and the one before that, and most of the ones before that. THIS was the one you'd stop the King in his tracks. You push a few of your many potions to the side to make room on your desk. None of them worked to stop him, so they were useless. He's still about twelve, fourteen? hours away, so you have enough time to make the bomb, eat and take a fat nap before you go pick a fight. Maybe this time, it'll work! It has to!
You've gotten better at making the Craft Bomb. It hasn't blown up on you before you intended to use it in... a long time. You can make it fast enough, now, for it to still be light outside! You've become silent while you work, which Mirabelle has told you is ''worrying'', but you don't see why it is. Are you really that loud? (Yes. You are.)
It's hard work. Soft light bathes your desk, your work, you. You reach out, past your potions, and grab your water bottle. Take a big swig, and
Hmm. That's not water.
How. HOW do you keep making this mistake. You look at the bottle in your hand, and sure enough, it’s one of the potions; your water bottle is shoved in the back of the collection of other containers. The taste is caustic, your throat begins to burn. You shouldn’t be this calm for having just drank something that’ll kill you in a handful of minutes, but it’s happened before. Despite the pain you don't bother trying anything. Just push the finished bomb to the side and lay your face against the wood of the table. Feel the blood start to pool in your mouth and dribbling out, staining the wood. Mirabelle, or Euphie or whoever comes in next, they can use it this loop. It's not the first time you've drank one of the many, many dangerous potions on your desk, and it's probably not the last. Maybe you'll actually clean the crabbing thing off before you work.
Whatever. You have next time. You have all the time.
Perhaps a bit too much, actually.
#isat#in stars and time#isat claude#claude looping au#isat au#isat spoilers#<- just in case#Im maintagging this#im gonna keep claudeposting until you lot r as invested in her as i am!!!!!#this is a Drabble it’s not getting the fanfic tag#implied character death#<- it happens just not in the text lol. o7#cw poison#?? do I really need to tag that? idk I’m just being careful#I’m not tagging 4 the bomb tho that’s like her entire shtick#chimera writes#I love this au actually. best 3am thought ever#she’s soooo fucked. looping b4 the king even gets to the damn house#from what I’ve concepted this au COULD lead into canon [or. anything actually?]#thinks she can stop the king -> can’t -> timeloop shenanigans -> accept fate and stop trying -> looping stops#looping au where you have to accept your fate and just let the world do its thing my belovedddddd#I’ve been making adjustments 2 this post for like 45 mins I’m done. goodnight y
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I love being delusional <3
#my neck hurts oh god#its 3am and i have work tomorrow hah#im not a backgrounds guy okay#i did what i could#they occupy all my thoughts your honor#the vees#hazbin hotel#hazbin hotel vees#hazbin fanart#hazbin hotel fanart#moje arty#hazbin vox#hazbin velvette#hazbin valentino#anyway uh.. going to sleep#added sum texture :D
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Ngl atla AUs are so funny in the sense that white people don't really exist in the original avatar universe.
I think these concepts of putting your favorite characters into such a rich and interesting world and the allure of making them benders is fun and I enjoy it myself from time to time but. There is Something be said about inserting white characters into an inherently poc centered story and world that draws inspiration from those cultures, so it falls kinda flat. (And could even come across as tasteless since the story is again inherently a poc one and has such political? I guess. Themes as like the main conflict ignoring it kinda takes away from half the worldbulding or whatever. Whaaateeeverr idk)
Again this isn't like hate to people with atla AUs I enjoy them but idk food for thought.
#yes this is abt httyd aus...#atla#but also applies to all of them. really#im sorry it just makes me laugh like these characters are So white and theres just like a complete lack of effort in regards to like#intersecting those cultural aesthetics in a thoughtful way its kinda embarrassing? idk. like you could go a route w leaning#particularly into nordic cultural aesthetics and be more faithful to it than#canon httyd i think that'd work quite well but on the otherhand might feel whitewash-y idk#this is another seeing smth and having that gut 'youre white arent you' feeling#this isnt hate its not meant to be mean just like an observation and also suggestion to use our critical thinking skills#atla au#white fandom#yeah i suppose#im black tag#obviously. not asian or indigenous so im curious on others' opinions on this#again like food for thought. discussions like this could honestly be a hobby for me atp#its 3am god im tired but cant sleep#moth.txt
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#i went to sleep at 3am and its 6am now bc i criedmyself to sleep 👍👍#sorry to ventdump my annoying insecurities again#i cant bring myself to do something i really want anymore#been having these thoughts since last year but this year its a lot more apparent#ideas are not scarce but the motivation/time to execute them are#i wish i could take an indefinite break on taking commissions bc by the time im finished with all of them im too burnt out/1#to draw for my blog and by the time it passes my motivation for these ideas also vanishes/2#I cant actually stop now bc im still an unpaid internee working for experience+portfolio so I need the money#I feel like shit whenever i can't get art done at the appropriate timing (ex: thematic holiday/character bday/event etc)#everything passes too fast and its already too late and the hype dies#its so hard to stay relevant and charismatic enough#Looking back I can't say im 100% satisfied with ANY art i posted this year#“was it worthy? is it still relevant? did I waste my time doing this?”#im too overly emotional over this (unfortunately) popular fictional lion beastman#“I want to yume/draw him more often/talk more about him!”#why? hes already popular enough. He has louder and more popular users who do that for him. nobody would care if it's you.#you'd get a swarm of hate. nobody would send you nice asks about it.#you don't get nearly half of the asks you used to receive back then. people just aren't interested in you anymore.#maybe you should delete your blog and start drawing trendy doodles of whatever is being hyped up at the moment.#.#if I can't execute original ideas what's the point of it?#I hate HATE having to do trendy art of whatever unfunny meme is being hyped up at the moment#but sometimes its necessary for the algorithm to boost you and to get some actual crumbs of engagement and new followers#what else can I do? being interesting on your own or having an interesting oc is no easy feat. I envy those who manage.
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Love tumblr
But fucking hate it when i want to read about my favourites fucking each other.
How are you going to tell me I can search a ship but to actually find anything I have to scroll for hours just to find one piece of work, through y/n x characters.
Fuck y/n
That bitch doesn't do anything for me.
Do you know how nice it is reading mlm. I can easily imagine its me. But y/n? Fuck no. Because y/n always ends up being female with a few, very slim, non binary peeps and no fucking male ones.
So how is it y/n if I cannot related to it at all because this ballroom has fucking balls?
Rant over.
#3am thoughts#rant#y/n#fuck y/n#and fuck her stealing all the ship spots#its the x#im telling you#x y/n#thats what fucks up the searches but theres physically no other way to search this site without it#oh and cod ones?#dont get me started#you dont even have to be lookinh for ships and its all fucking y/n#quite literally btw
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imagine if Sun had light sensitivity and Moon loved light but since it's the only way for them to come out they'd either had to stay in all the time or out and suffer in sensory hell
and what if they fought over being the one in control but not because they want to be but because they don't want the other to suffer so one of them sacrifices himself for the other
at least we have dim lights ig
#fnaf#fnaf sb#fnaf security breach#fnaf sun#fnaf moon#fnaf sundrop#fnaf moondrop#fnaf daycare attendant#fnaf dca#fnaf dca headcanon#fnaf headcanons#headcanon#why is my brain like that#why i always have so many so horrible thoughts#im feeling violent today#3am#its 3am#3 am thoughts#staring into the void
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i love ryomina
no but seriously. even when i’m thinking about other things that captivate my interest, i find myself coming back to them and feeling like i fell down three whole flights of staircases every time i do. they are one of my favorite pairs in media and are very special to me.
it’s the way that ryoji and minato’s lives are inevitably intertwined with each other due to the circumstances 10 years ago on the moonlight bridge. without no minato, there is no ryoji. minato as he is today is because of ryoji. they have irreparably affected each other’s lives that you cannot discuss one without bringing up the other one.
ryoji mochizuki, who is death, pharos, thanatos, nyx avatar, the man of many names and identities, is the perfect summation of p3′s messages and themes.
minato arisato, the wildcard and protagonist, who has boundless kindness in his actions despite the unfortunate cards handed to him.
the two of them complement each other and tell a beautiful story from start to finish.
minato’s personas capture this perfectly. he awakens to orpheus, who’s flames burns bright, is snuffed out by thanatos during the encounter against the arcana magician. a visual precursor of the idea that ryoji stole from the life that minato could have had.
it’s the way that over the course of the game as minato interacts with pharos, talking throughout the dark hour, forging a bond that cannot be broken, that allows ryoji to exist. minato humanizes death.
november. the bells toll, calling the appriser. and yet, it’s peaceful... quiet, and full of life. ryoji, who breaks free from death’s chains, refusing his role, is given the chance to live for a month. to make the most of the humanity that minato has given him over those ten years. and what a life he lived. ryoji’s life is a reflection of what minato’s life could have been like in another universe.
it is the way the two of them are reflections of each other. ryoji with his hair down is just like minato. they are both stubbornly committed to choosing to be kind, to love life, yet are chained down by the cards the narrative dealt them with. they finish each other’s sentences, knowing each other intimately in a way no one else does.
how is that, a boy who lived for only one month, profoundly changes the course of the narrative? he is simultaneously relevant and irrelevant. blink, and you miss it, the beautiful life that he led.
ryoji is horrified at the revelations of being the appriser. he who so desperately wished to forget that his existence was meant to bring the end to all life, was unable to escape the inevitability of death. in a non-human way, of course. he becomes remorseful. a shadow of his brief time as a human who was enamored by the small beautiful things that life had to offer.
he is swallowed by grief. grief knowing that his very existence will take away not only minato’s life, but everyone else’s. the very thing that ryoji loved- life, fundamentally went against the role he was born for- to be the harbinger of death. and unable to grapple with this sadness he believes that the best thing for minato to do is to kill him, so that SEES can live in bliss not knowing about their inevitable end.
SEES is left rattled, calling into question what the meaning of life is and what they do when faced against the inevitability of death.
and!!! minato chooses!! for ryoji to live!! even in spite of what ryoji is MEANT to embody, minato still stubbornly chooses to defy death itself! and if that’s not cool i don’t know what is!! minato wants everyone to have the chance to live!!
so he climbs. he ascends tartarus, to meet ryoji, again, who is now the nyx avatar. and i just think there’s something so so beautiful about being able to use messiah, minato’s ultimate persona, against nyx avatar.
messiah, being the fusion of orpheus and thanatos is peak ryomina to me. because ryoji and minato have established an unbreakable bond from having been entwined for 10 years, minato still has a piece of death with him, and by proxy!! ryoji is able to defy and rebel against nyx trying to bring the fall! and i think that’s fucking cool shit if you ask me!
even when all of the arcanas have been gone through, it’s still not enough to stop the fall. and yet. minato knows. in the way that ryoji was sealed in minato 10 years ago by aigis... minato becomes the great seal so that everyone can live. it comes full circle.
march rolls around. he fulfills his promise to SEES on graduation day. minato dies from exhaustion. but goddamn does his sacrifice make me weep- he’s had such, such a tiring journey. he’s been through so many things because he was at the wrong place at the wrong time. but at the end of it all, he’s reunited with ryoji in death.
and i think this is why ryomina continues to evoke so much emotions for me, to this day. the relationship that they have embodies so much of persona 3′s messages and themes that it makes me feel like a microwave with nothing running in it.
p3′s message is very hopeful, for me. my favorite takeaway from it is that even if death is inevitable, appreciating the life that we were given and choosing to live as best as we can with kindness (even if we can’t feasibly do everything), is just? really nice? and you see this manifest in both ryoji and minato’s personalities and what they do for the other characters.
ryomina just feels so distinct to me, the flavor that their relationship ties back to my favorite takeaways from this game and im just!! god!! i love you minato arisato! i love you ryoji mochizuki! im so glad that i could meet them! i’m happy that they changed my life! they made me want to appreciate the connections in life even if they were fleeting! they made me!! want to pay attention to the good moments in life and cherish them!
i love ryomina so much!!! i’m so glad that these two could bring so much joy into my life! and i hope that others can have this joy too! 💛💙
#lizzy speaks#persona 3#ryomina#ryoji mochizuki#minato arisato#meta#long post#(literally)#HI SO UM YESTERDAY I COULDN'T FUCKING SLEEP so to cope i was like 'i will talk out loud about anything and everything'#and somehow that turned into me talking about ryomina out loud and something about verbalizing my thoughts made me feel crazy about these-#two again. i mean for the record i continue to love them always very dearly but like my p3 braincells sometimes go into hibernation bc-#ive been on a really huge splatoon kick. but anyway my voice was like cracking at 3am because i was tearing up#i was like 'THE!! IM! SO NORMAL ABT WHAT ORPHEUS AND THANATOS AND MESSIAH SYMBOLIZE' etc etc etc#so i kinda just went to sleep like 'ok well you GOTTA type it out. everyone needs to know about this.'#and um i didnt mean to make 1069 words! sorry! not really! but i love them!!! even if im very quiet these days!#ohhh how lucky i am to have had the chance to experience ryomina they are such a gem. they make me so goddamn emotional#they really mean a lot to me because of well. (gestures at the entire post) but also they came at a really good point of my life and FUCK!!#im so so grateful to them!!! i love them!!!! the themes that their relationship and characters convey just !! IM SO NORMAL ABOUT IT!!!#they've affected me so profoundly and deeply and i wish i could make better art to get this across. but its ok. one day i can. one day#they make me so fucking talkative like actually but um. i had a lot of fun writing this! i dont think ive had like. a proper appreciation-#post for them that articulates why i like them so much (unless you count the essays i write in my art tags) so it was nice to make this.#admittedly theres a lot abt p3 that im rusty on since its been a goodwhile since ive interacted with the source material#and in a way you could say that like. i need to renew my p3 license LMAOOO but god some parts of p3 still have such a huge death grip on me#and what i mean by that is that the big Fucking Events have such!! clarity!! in my mind!! i recall them and i wilt on the spot!!#oh god i cant fucking shut up. the tags are probably 500 words long. enjoy my ramble. i wish every ryomina enjoyer a Good Life <3#actually no. i hope that EVERYONE on the dash today has something that sparks joy for them the way ryomina does for me.#everyone deserves 2 have something that makes their brain do a little excited dance that makes them blow up and explode. its good for u!#BYE FOR REAL this is why i have to post my thoughts very spread out otherwise yall would have so many WORDS on ur dash pls help i have so#many emotions and i am so tiny i cannot possibly fit all the feelings i have about ryomina and other things inside my tiny little body
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i think bugsnax is the one fandom where i cannot give a shit about any ship except the canon ones but like queerplatonic wiggle/gramble is so real to me . in my heart. they're both aroace but so so affection starved and kind of idiots about it so they mistake it for romance Do you see my vision
#🐠.txt#bugsnax#i was rambling abt this with my qpp the other day and its on my mind again#i know its probably meant to be read as romantic between them by the end but i don't CARE!!!!!!!#its 3am and articulating thoughts Hard but like#wiggle probably isnt really close with most ppl. most attention/love she gets is in an extremely disconnected celebrity kind of way#but gramble likes her!!! he just enjoys her company no matter what kinda stuff she makes#and shes not used to that and mistakes it for romance#similar with gramble except he has like. full on neglect trauma#hes Desperate to have someone he can trust to be close to#anyway im done i prommy#<- actually ill probably add on later#like i said its 3am as of typingthis
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*sits up in the middle of the night* in this next universe where vampires seem to have taken over the world, marceline probably either never met simon or he died soon after they met, which means that since her mom also died when she was really young (too young to remember a lot about her i bet), she most likely raised herself completely alone through the apocalypse and never really learned about Morals which is how after getting bitten she joined the vampires and, became evil i guess. we see that even with simons good influence in her formative years she went through a rough path after getting bitten so it would make sense that shed turn out nasty if it wasnt for him. she is part demon. we just saw an universe where simon lost marcy and was fucked up and now we're gonna see one where marcy lost simon and became fucked up
#thinking about the flashback in the ep simon petrikov where hes like#''youd be fine if you didnt meet me better even. as for me...''#itd be so so cool if the show showed us that actually she Wouldnt be fine. they both needed each other to keep their sanity and morals#during the apocalypse#like itd be neat#this isnt me saying marceline is naturally an evil person shes literally my favorite character im just saying that like#if ur a child in a post apocalyptic landscape that didnt have anyone to teach you what morals are#aside from ur mom who died when u were like 5#youd probably turn out a bit fucked up too. like look at bonnie lol#im jusy using ''evil'' as a descriptive bc its easier and also we havebt actually seen this marcy so i cant speak much on her personality#but at characters arent usually that 2d#also we literally see simon being the one to teach marceline morals. Vandalism Is Wrong Marcy#and we see her having demon instincts- the wazzup dog in obsidian#i always thought that demon and vampire prolly didnt mix up well and she had to work a Lot to get to the level of stability and ethics that#she is now#so im excited to see a world where she had no reason to work on that skfhsjfhejfhejf#ok im rambling. its 3am and i have to be up in 2 hours help me#adventure time#fionna and cake#watch me be completely wrong when the ep comes out#but thats just a theory... a cartoon theory
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my ears aren't trained enough to spot em all (except the Obv ones) but these references and callbacks to prev sagas are making me ascend i want to shed my mortal coil and get mixed into the music like a beaten egg
#didnt keep count of how many times i got shivers god i love musical theater#hearing warrior of the mind and legendary leitmotifs in well be fine#telemachus having my most fave songs...mayhaps recency bias#i can remember just subsisting off the draft versions for the last year and now that its here im in disbelief#i mean its deffo good that epic's production process is so well documented jrh is doing what most directors wouldnt be able to do#(side eyes dave malloy's moby dick)#(wdym the musical was too fucking long mr. malloy please i beg give me life-changing thought-provoking lyrics about the human condition pls#tbh ive had delulus of going to japan or korea to watch waitress or hadestown#like i wont understand the dialogue but i knew those songs by heart dammit#OUGH im remembering when korea was gonna put on a production of the great comet (sobbing crying weeping)#3am!dio back at it again with the thoughts#dellet-asides
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I always thought is very tricky to draw that wrinkle that goes from the nose and around the mouth and still male it look good, but gosh you nail it in every art, super expressive and pretty. Looking at all your drawings 🔍🕵♀️ to properly appreciate and study it. But wow really in love with your art style is so expressive and pleasing to look at, and the colors are so pretty 👌👌👌👌
i LOVEEE drawing wrinkles!!! it makes faces soso so expressive and i try to add wrinkles to every character i draw whenever i can. and the fact i also love drawing characters smiling (they make me happy, so i want to be able to share my joy to other people by drawing them smiling too!) which of course makes that wrinkle around the nose and mouth more prominent :-)
im not a person that can draw well from memory, i use references excessively even if it doesnt turn out the same way from the reference im copying from in the end 😊
i drew these out real quick but i have no clue how to explain any of these so i just thought about sharing it with you anyways!
call it "cheating" or whatever, but most of the time i even trace over the reference just to have a base i can copy the expression im trying to draw from. i do art for fun and if it makes my process that much easier then. well!
anyhoo, ignore the fact these are all mr lassos... i just love him a whole bunch 💛
#im not saying 'tracing is good!' as a whole. never trace from other people's work and pass it off as your own obviously. i just think you -#can learn a whole bunch of tricks and how to draw specific things if you just Trace Over References#'ohh but youll never Get Good by just tracing though! :/' who cares. i love drawing men being silly and thats enough for me.#Getting Good be damned!#apologies if this doesnt make any damn sense LMAO !! i just got home a couple hours ago and its now 3am zzzz#pn.ask#theres also the matter of me being obsessed with handlebar facial hairs and how it 'removes' the upper lip when im drawing so i use the -#bottom part of the mustache as the line for the mouth itself#ITS THIS WHOLE PROCESS.... IDK!!!! wish i could explain it any better but i am. so bad at writing down my thoughts. why cant i just beam -#them directly into your mind smh#THANK YOU FOR THIS ASK THOUGHHHH i waited till i got home before answering it because i have some stuff i wanted to say
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sic transit gloria mundi / burial
#i have SERIOUS thoughts on this but also. a little funny ok tai just finally manages to adjust her view of van#and sort of sway in her own beliefs#and van is like so anyway. atheism 2! gif#anyways.#SOMETHING was out there with us vs i just figured it meant SOMETHING#the juxtaposition of her talking about something supernatural vs her own purpose as a person#and how thats THE SAME FUCKING THING#grasping at something to believe in. a higher power that can save them. save her#losing it because its all just too much. losing it as an adult with a scary diagnosis#her reaction to lottie in modern timeline to me RIGHT NOW feels like. being terrified of hope#i almost died so many times i almost stopped believing i even can die and i put all my faith in you#and now my own body turned malignant and i need to be cynical i need to be REALISTIC#because to hope and to have faith can bring such a crashing disappointment#idk what im saying anymore its 3am anyways . van . vantai also. if you even care#yellowjackets blogging#van#van x taissa
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What if I gave Victor asthma
#this is a joke#i have asthma#i think its a funny thought#also its 2am and im tired#everyone's running for their lives and they gotta stop to wait up for Victor#who's just doubled over trying to catch his breath#it is in fact 3am not 2am#i am so tired i thought it was 2am#gn#vicious ve schwab#vengeful ve schwab#victor vale#villains series#vicious#vengeful#villains duology
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