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Wer is grumpy jk! We badly need it đŤđ
summary: you and jungkook are getting closer, moving forward â but to where, exactly? what does that entail for your relationship?Â
w/c: 3.3k
note: this is for all the girlies who asked for part 2 for this drabble. nothing but fluff in here ): ive been thinking abt college jk lately and i lowkey like this grumpy!jk guy⌠basically this takes place two months after the first drabble u may read this amm for grumpy!jk for a brief bg on what their relationship has become before u go read this parr. anyway the ending is a bit diabolical and im saying sorry in advance
also pls listen to come here by kath bloom, its literally so them đŽâđ¨đ
Itâs almost natural the way Jungkook immediately slings his backpack on one shoulder, heads straight out of the lecture hall, and starts the almost ten-minute walk from his department building to yours the moment his last class for the day was dismissed.Â
He waits outside by the hallway along the lecture room, scrolling through his phone mindlessly, knowing that any minute now youâll be coming out of the door.Â
And just as a slew of studentsâ chattering becomes louder, their heavy footsteps coming out from the hall, Jungkook instantly spots you; talking to a friend animatedly â Joy, maybe? â before you look to the other side and finally see him.Â
âJungkook!â You exclaim with excitement, smiling up at him and even doing a little wave. Jungkook watches as you turn to your friend. âSorry, I gotta go. Zoom meeting at five, right?â He hears you say before she nods, bidding your goodbyes to each other before she goes in the opposite direction while you saunter towards him with that usual dashing grin on your face.Â
Jungkook meets you halfway, lips curling up slightly at your enthusiastic greeting. Even more so when you donât fight off the way he goes for your tote bag, taking it off your shoulder and wearing it on his own, the weight not adding that much to his own bag perched on his back.Â
He remembers the first time he tried to do it (awkwardly, might he add), and you vehemently refused. But Jungkook can be persistent sometimes when he wants to, and eventually you gave up trying to resist.
Currently, as you walk along the hallway out of your building, standing close together, Jungkook tries not to think too much about how easy this feels. Like itâs normal the way you immediately interlock your arm around his own, skipping a little bit upon your walk as you begin speaking.
âYou really did cut your hair.â You marvel at him when he looks down at you. And he canât help it; the blood rushing to his cheeks and certainly on his ears.Â
âI sent you a picture.â He simply says. It was yesterday. He originally went to his barber for just a trim but he remembers you saying something about a particular actorâs haircut⌠and look, itâs not like he was trying to look like that man but it may have influenced the decision a little bitâŚÂ
Anyway, he thinks it looks okay on him. He trusts his barber and Hoseok said it suits him. From your response, you also said it looks nice.Â
And you tell him so. âI like it! You look so good. Especially with this frame!â You point to his eyeglasses, smiling up at him. âI was thinking you were just sending me a random picture last night.âÂ
Jungkook chuckles. âI wasn't, and uh, thank you.â
âYou're welcome. Anyway,â you say, âDid you wait for long earlier? Sorry âbout that. Prof. Shin had to extend a little bit âcause there were a lot of questions about our new project.âÂ
âYou have a new project?â
âYeah, but nothing really heavy. Just a hotel lobby interior design. We got a week and itâs a paired task thing, thatâs why you saw me with Joy earlierââ
He sees a flock of students ahead huddling by your side of the pathwalk, and because you have a tendency to not really pay that much attention to your surroundings, he takes you by the waist slightly to avoid bumping with them, causing you to stumble closer to him.Â
You crane your neck to look behind you for a moment, gaze falling back up to Jungkook with widened eyes. âSorry.â you say with a jutted lip and a little frown.Â
âItâs okay.â Jungkook says with a reassuring smile. He means it. He likes being close like this and if you donât watch your surroundings, heâll just do it for you. He doesnât mind.Â
You grin. âAnyway⌠I was saying, itâs a hotel interior. But! The thing is, itâs a themed hotel, which Iâm really excited about âcause Iâm tired of designing contemporary, luxury ones. They always tend to be so redundant.âÂ
Jungkook nods. âI think so too. Whatâs the themed hotel about?âÂ
âHave you heard of a film called Metropolis?â He shakes his head. You nod at that. âWell, yeah, me neither. At least a week ago. Prof gave it to us as an assignment and itâs a silent film from the â20s. A sci-fi tale, so very futuristic â at least for that time. So thatâs the theme of the hotel, right, and Joy and I immediately thought of art deco.âÂ
Jungkook intently listens as you go on about your initial ideas, and he doesnât even have to worry about the terms he doesnât understand because you always take time to explain it to him in laymanâs. Itâs funny, really, because ever since heâs learned that you study interior design and started to talk to him about it, he found himself taking interest in it as well. Two months ago, he couldn't have given a single care about a couple named Charles and Ray Eames and their weird chair called La Chaise, but here he is, anyway.
Maybe itâs because of the way you so passionately talk about it. Your zeal oozes out so much when it comes up as the topic of conversation, and thereâs always been something about you that pulls people right in. And Jungkookâs at peace with himself now that heâs just one of those people.Â
Heâs willing to be pulled right in, anyway. You donât exactly make it hard to.Â
And Jungkook finds that the newfound dynamic between you two isnât⌠so bad. He finds excitement at the prospect of seeing you after his classes are concluded, going to Fro-yo for a quick snack because youâre obsessed with it, and studying together at his place later in the day.
A lot of people would say heâs making up for all the times heâs ignored you. The times when he pretended to not care about you. The times when he was just unprovokedly mean and treated you the way he regrets now. And sure, it may have started that way. Ever since your Environmental Science project was finished and the term was over, Jungkook started to feel like he couldnât go back to the life where you werenât within his perimeter. Couldnât imagine you both being back to â practically â regular strangers, so he just⌠opened up to you more.
He shares his own stories now. Tells you about his day after you do so, and invites you to Fro-yo and other cafes and restaurants around campus whenever your schedules align.Â
And maybe at first it was, indeed, because he was trying to make up for his past behavior â but that may have only been what he convinced himself of for the first few weeks. When the week stretched into months and the months suddenly involved you doing sleepovers at his place whenever his roommate, Hoseok, is not around, Jungkook is starting to question himself if this is all still about simply making it up to you.Â
Because frankly, heâs starting to feel like it's a little more than that.
Heâs not just buying you frozen yogurt and helping you with any assignment (that requires his silly and minuscule math and science expertise) and letting you borrow and keep his hoodies and shirts whenever you sleep over because heâs trying to make up for the past â heâs doing all of these because he genuinely enjoys your company and would like to do more for you⌠with you⌠to you⌠and just⌠just more.Â
He wants more with you.Â
And every single day is a daunting battle for his internal mullings.Â
Because he knows heâs been stupid all this time not to realize right away that heâs got romantic feelings for you. That his confusion when it comes to you didn't come from the reason that you were extremely extroverted and had way too much energy â it was that those things made him like you and his little heart and brain couldnât comprehend any of it the way he can easily wrap his head around math equations and concepts.
But he keeps himself on the sidelines. Thinks about keeping himself there until heâs sure of what you truly think about.Â
Youâre always nice to him. But youâre kind of nice to everybody⌠so that gets him a little twisted.
On Monday, when you were supposed to hang out â when you usually sleep over at his place, you bailed on him to study with Jae, as per Taehyung's words, your mutual friend.
He just canât tell if the way you treat him is different to the way you treat everyone else, and thatâs whatâs been on his mind lately.Â
âOh, Kookie,â you say as soon as Jungkook takes out his keys, going for his keyfob when you arrive at the parking area. He looks at you in question, completely ignoring the way his heart flutters a little at the nickname. He kind of hates it, thinks it's too childish when other people call him that â but with you it sounds so much like an endearment, so he doesn't protest. You press your lips into a thin line before you say, âI canât go to Fro-yo today. Joy and I agreed to have a zoom meeting later to start conceptualizing.âÂ
âOh,â Jungkook blinks. âRain check?âÂ
You pout. âYeah.âÂ
âYou can do it at my place? Hoseokâs doing an all-nighter with his study group, so he wonât be there âtil the morning.â
âBut I didnât bring my laptop today.â
With furrowed brows, Jungkook steps closer to you. âItâs alright. We can drive to your place, get your laptop then go to mine,â he smiles. âSleepover?âÂ
Jungkook doesnât want to toot his own horn but he may have seen your face light up at that. But it comes off easily and he begins to worry.
âI want to, but I donât want to impose.â You say.Â
Instantly, Jungkookâs forehead creases. âYou wonât be imposing.â When he sees that youâre about to decline again, he lets out a, âPlease?âÂ
At that, you stop. You stare at him for a moment.Â
âUhâŚâ you trail off. âYou sure? Are you not busy tonight?â
He shakes his head. âIâll probably start on an assignment so we can be both busyââ you nudge his arm at that, laughing. ââ but other than that, no. Iâll cook us something. Or do you want to get take-out instead?âÂ
âIâd really, really appreciate your black bean noodles tonight.â You muse, looking at him like he holds the stars in the sky. With you gazing up at him like that, how can he say no?
âI think we have the ingredients in the fridge. Black bean noodles it is, then.â Jungkook says before youâre muffling your own squeal in your excitement, saying your little delighted âthank youâ when Jungkook ushers you in the passenger seat after opening it for you.Â
He rounds the car before he settles on his side, and when he starts the engine, he canât help but smile slightly at the way you lean comfortably on your seat, as if youâre so used to being in his car â which you are.
And Jungkook finds he likes that. He likes you that way; being used to being around him.Â
âYouâre done?â Jungkook looks up from his computer, seeing you doing some arm stretches and leaning into his gaming chair to do it on your neck as well.Â
âYep.âÂ
âThen come here already.â He shuts his laptop close, places it on the bedside table, and pats the space on the mattress next to him.Â
Itâs nearly 10pm and your zoom meeting with Joy went for nearly 4 hours. You got on it immediately after you two ate your dinner, and like clockwork, asked to borrow one of Jungkookâs shirts because your top was getting a little too uncomfortable on your body. Youâve both already showered â separately, of course â and thatâs one of the many things that Jungkook smiles about when he enters his bathroom sometimes. Because the fact that you shower in his bathroom means your essentials are slowly making a space for themselves in his own place; the yellow cup holder of your toothbrush sits next to his blue one, and a bottle of your moisturizer is also in his lavatory cabinet.Â
ââM so tiredâ You let yourself fall on the mattress, bouncing a little on it face down, sprawling across the bed like some starfish, your other hand landing on Jungkookâs abdomen.Â
âMeeting went well?â Jungkook asks, and heâs a little disappointed when you remove an arm on him, but thatâs okay, because soon youâre leaning sidewards to properly look at him and it makes him smile to see you so cozy like this. Barefaced and in his shirt.Â
âYeah, we got some work done,â You say. Jungkook watches as you try to get comfortable on your side of the bed. âI think Iâm sleepy now.âÂ
âYeah?â He follows after you, and he doesnât hide his huge smile when you go and turn your back to him immediately after he slides his arm under your neck, spooning you from behind. Snuggling closer to him, Jungkook wraps his other arm around your waist and lets out a contented sigh against the back of your head. âMy first class is at one thirty pm tomorrow.âÂ
âI have one at eight am. Then the next one is at ten.âÂ
âTough.âÂ
âI know⌠I wish I didnât enlist in morning classes.âÂ
He chuckles, closing his eyes as he starts to feel that familiar lull of sleep dancing behind his eyes. But truth be told, he doesnât want to give into that just yet.
âYou were with Jae on Monday?â He asks, carefully treading through the subject. Itâs Thursday now. It's not like Jungkookâs a jealous guy⌠it just kind of threw him off a little, because you didnât tell him you were with Jae.Â
âUh⌠yeah?â Jungkook feels you freezing in his arms. âHowâd you know?âÂ
âTaehyung told me.âÂ
âOh.â He can practically hear the wince. âHe has such a big mouth.â You say drily.Â
That earns you a laugh from Jungkook. But he decides to take down the jokes for a more honest and open conversation with you tonight.Â
âWhy didnât you tell me?â Itâs not accusatory. Itâs soft and gentle, the way he asks it, with his thumb rubbing the exposed skin of your hip due to the hem of your â his â shirt riding up.Â
Your answer takes awhile.Â
âI was⌠getting help with estimates.âÂ
â... Okay,â Jungkook tightens his hold around you, growing confused. âBut Iâm really good with estimates. I couldâve helped you.â It was easy math for him. And you never shied away from asking him for help before⌠why now?
âWell, he offered.âÂ
Jungkookâs brows crease deeper. âThatâs notâŚ" he trails off, then continues, "You know you can ask me for anything, right? Jaeâs not even on the dean's list. Howâd you know heâs teaching you the right stuff?â Â
Silence hangs in the air before Jungkook hears your laughter. Shuffling in his arms, Jungkook loosens his hold around you to let you turn to him. When he sees your face, there's a huge grin on it.
âHeâs not even on the deanâs list?â You sound intrigued.
Jungkook assumed you were curiously speaking, and so he nods, looking into your eyes seriously. âHe isnât. Look, Iâm not sayingââ when he notices your smile only getting wider by the second, he realizes youâre just trying to fuck with him, so Jungkook cuts himself off, letting out a sigh. âIâm sorry. I sound like an asshole.â
You scoot closer until both the front of your bodies are stuck. Jungkook tries not to think too much whether youâre wearing a bra underneath his shirt or not.Â
You shake your head. âNot really. I believe youâre way smarter than him.âÂ
âThen why come to him and not me?âÂ
You stare at him for a moment, then you let out a heavy breath. âI just feel like youâre doing so many things for me nowadays. You were also really busy on Mondayâ donât deny itââ you say before he opens his mouth to oppose that. He shuts his lips close, listening to you go on instead. ââ and I was just being considerate. Jae offered because we saw and sat next to each other at the library, and I didnât tell you because I didnât want to disturb you.âÂ
Jungkook blinks, processing your words. After a pregnant pause, he slowly nods, still dumbstruck.Â
âAh⌠okay. I understand.â he says, embarrassment slowly filling his system.Â
You smile at him. Playfully. âSorry for asking help from someone whoâs not on the deanâs list.â Jungkook drops his expression into a poker face at that, which makes you laugh even more. You nibble on your bottom lip before you stretch your hand to his cheek and pinch it. He doesnât bother dodging your hand. With a giggle, you say, âSorry, sorry. That was just so funny. Youâre so funny without even trying sometimes, you know?âÂ
âNot really.â Jungkook says and you can tell the tell-tale signs of his grumpiness starting to kick in.
What he doesnât expect is the way you suddenly squeal and launch yourself on top of him, causing him to lie fully on his back with you sprawled all over his body, hugging him tight and burying your face in his chest.Â
âYouâre so cuddly and warm. Can we stay like this for awhile?â You break away from his chest and look at him from a low angle.Â
Jungkook meets your gaze.Â
Sure, youâve been cuddling (platonically) all these past few months â but they never went to this length. And heâs not sure what the difference is, anyway â just that youâre much closer like this and Jungkook can feel everything. Still, that doesnât deter him from wrapping his arms around your waist, slightly locking you in the position. Quite frankly, he doesnât even want you to move.Â
âAlright.â Is his simple answer. Not like he needed to think about it.
âIâll sleep now, okay?â But you donât wait for his response before you lay on his chest again with your cheek pressed on his hoodie.
Because the moment just feels right somehow, Jungkook lets his hand wander on your head. Then slowly, he lets his fingers comb through the strands of your hair, tentatively at first, lest you didnât want him touching you or something like that â but once he hears a sound akin to a purr coming from you, he continues and finds himself getting comforted by the action as well.Â
âThe Jae thing really bothered you?â You ask suddenly, not breaking away from the position youâve assumed on top of his body. But your words are slightly slurred in the haze of sleep.
Jungkook hums. âYes.âÂ
âSorry for not telling you myself.âÂ
âItâs okay,â Jungkook reassures you. His gaze falls to the ceiling, hand still caressing your hair. The surface is empty, and thereâs not really much going on. Meanwhile, in your own bedroom, you have those glow in the dark star stickers pasted on your white ceiling. Heâs never slept over there, but he thinks it would be nice to lay under your makeshift galaxy with your homely scent surrounding the two of you. âAre you not gonna ask why I was bothered?â He says after a beat.Â
âI was gonna. But I think I know.â You answer, and Jungkook doesnât expect that one bit.
He stops his ministrations on your hair, and itâs obvious that youâre about to question it when you suddenly peel your face away from his chest again.Â
When you do, Jungkook meets your gaze and with a leveled tone, he asks the question heâs been mulling about for the past two months.
â__, what are we?âÂ
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plot ââ tasked with interviewing actor drew starkey about his latest movie, you unintentionally steal the spotlight, leaving him blushing and lost for words under your mesmerizing gaze.
content ââ reader being toooo pretty that drew is just like woah, drew being so observant ugh love him, reader not even trying to get his attention at all but ure just so alluring to him
authors note ââ yea FUCK my series even tho i made that poll tbh im just so unmotivated. i saw this pic of drew n had some ideas for this lil oneshot of reader interviewing him post-premiere or something and him literally falling in love n reader noticing the little things n he becomes soheart eyes for u omg
you were a little nervous, to say the least. it was supposed to be a one-on-one interview, which somehow felt more intense than group ones with an entire cast. at least in those, the attention wasnât entirely on you. but now? now it was just you and drew starkey, a handful of questions, and an awkwardly large camera crew standing just out of frame, watching everything. no pressure, right?
your boss had insisted that this interview focus on drewâs performance in his latest film. fair enough, but it also meant no backupâno costar to bounce off of or share the spotlight. it felt intimate in a way you werenât entirely comfortable with, no matter how many times youâd done this. at the end of the day, it was just you sitting across from a celebrity while everyone else quietly judged your ability to hold a conversation.
you had almost turned this job down when you first started, not because of the nerves (though there were plenty) but because of the sheer vulnerability of it. still, the exposure wasnât bad, and the paycheck? even better.
as you stepped into the room, clipboard in hand, the tension in your chest tightened just a bit. drew starkey, an actor you were only somewhat familiar with, sat casually in his chair. outer banks, hellraiser, the other zoeyâyouâd done your homework, skimming through his projects like your career depended on it. because, well, it kind of did. and he was . . . well, better looking in person, if that was even possible. the kind of face that made you forget you had questions to ask in the first place.
meanwhile, drew had been at this for hours. interviews were basically part of the job, but after a while, they all blended together. same questions, same conversations, just with different faces. he was tired but not miserable, holding onto the thought of dinner plans with some friends later that night.
interviews werenât badâhe liked the connection when it happened, like the guy he was first interviewed by had laughed when he cracked a jokeâbut there was only so much charm drew could muster after a full day of talking about himself and the same film.
when you walked into the room, he barely glanced up at first. another assistant, probably, or someone from the crew running around to keep things moving. he didnât pay much attention until you stopped right in front of him, introducing yourself and the network you worked for, arm extended for a handshake.
his gaze flicked to yours, and for a moment, he forgot how to move, but he pulled himself together quickly, or at least he hoped it looked that way. he shook your hand, smiling the kind of easy, practiced smile heâd perfected over the years, but there was something a little shaky in his voice when he said, ânice to meet you.â
he sat back down, reminding himself to focus. you were a professional. he was a professional. this was just another interview. but it was hard to ignore the way his heart picked up every time you looked at him like thatâfocused, curious, maybe even a little nervous yourself. he wasnât sure what it was about you, but for the first time that day, he couldnât wait for the next question.
his hand went to his earlobe almost instinctively, a nervous habit he hadnât really noticed until now. yeah, you were . . . stunning, in the kind of way that made him feel like he should stand up straighter or check his hair. if someone had told him you were a celebrity, he wouldnât have questioned it. but the fact that you were here to interview him? that just felt unfair.
but the interview was smooth, the kind heâd done a hundred times before. the questions were predictable again, circling around the same themes: his character, the challenges of filming, the energy on set. drew answered easily, slipping into that familiar rhythm, but every so often, his focus waveredânot on the questions, but on you.
you glanced down at your list, scanning it for the next prompt, and then back up at him with those eyes. god, those eyes. drew swore they could make anyone feel like they were the only person in the room, even though he knew there were at least ten crew members just beyond the cameras.
he noticed it, thoughâhow bored you seemed, even if you were too professional to let it show. your smile was polite, your tone unwavering, but every now and then, you hesitated just slightly before asking him a question, like you were already tired of the script youâd been given.
and then there was him, barely able to hold eye contact. it was almost embarrassing when he caught himself smiling at you, just a small, almost shy curve of his lips, but it was enough for you to pause, tilting your head slightly as if you were studying him.
"are you okay?" you asked softly, your own lips quirking into a smile that practically knocked the wind out of him.
it was such a simple exchange, but drew could feel the heat creeping up his neck. âyeah. yeah, iâm . . . awesome,â he managed, clearing his throat and looking away for half a second before his eyes found their way back to yours. he had to play it off, had to stay professional, but the way you smiled back at him, like his answer had made your day a little brighter? it felt like a win. still, he reminded himself: there was only so much time left. you were on a clock, and he couldnât afford to waste it, even if you made it almost too easy to get distracted.
you just laughed, accepting his answer, but the moment lingered. your smile lingered. and the questions rolled on, one after another. nothing groundbreaking, but you kept it light, adding just enough to make it feel like a conversation. drew appreciated that. but eventually, after a particularly shared laughâhe couldnât even remember what the joke had beenâhe leaned in slightly, his voice carrying a hint of playful curiosity.
âokay, so what did you think about the movie?â he asked, a smile tugging at his lips. it caught you off guard; he could tell by the way your posture shifted, your pen stilling over your notes.
and then you started talking.
at first, it was simpleâa few observations, some praise for the direction, the performances. but the more you went on, the more animated you became, your voice lifting slightly, your words flowing effortlessly. you dove deep, unraveling moments and emotions from the film like youâd been holding them in since the premiere. drew leaned back, one hand resting against his chin as he watched you, utterly mesmerized.
you talked about the subtlety of his character, how his guarded exterior felt like a shield hiding something raw and vulnerable. you mentioned the tension between the charactersâthe way their connection felt like a push-and-pull dance neither could fully commit to but couldnât walk away from either. you dissected the music, the cinematography, how it all wove together like a symphony of yearning and restraint.
and the way you talked about his performance . . .
you didnât gush, which he appreciated, but your words were thoughtful, specific. you spoke about his quiet expressions, the way he held so much in his body languageâthe hesitation in his glances, the way his character seemed to pull back just when you thought heâd lean in. it was like youâd been watching with a magnifying glass, picking apart moments even he hadnât considered.
he couldnât stop himself from grinning. not just because you liked the movie, though that didnât hurt, but because it was you. you, sitting across from him, completely unaware of how captivating you looked while tearing apart his work in the best possible way. if someone had asked him to focus on anything other than the way you gestured, your fingers brushing lightly against the edge of your clipboard, or the way your lips curved when you spoke, he wouldâve failed miserably.
drew just sat there, watching you, and he couldnât help but smile. you werenât just prettyâyou were sharp, insightful, and clearly so much more than the routine questions your clipboard suggested.
âyouâre good at this,â he said when you finally paused for a breath, and he meant it. but he couldnât help the slight teasing edge in his tone, the way his smile softened just a little as his eyes met yours again.
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i- i the Curly obsession has been sparked i-
Curly with reader on her period? can be sfw & nsfw; love your work ty <3
I'm going to cry I love writing period fics sm â¤ď¸â¤ď¸â¤ď¸ also guys I wanted to let you know that the expected release date for my full length Curly slow burn is Christmas day, it might be done before that but I'm gonna put it off for Christmas as a gift â¤ď¸
Tw/cw; Afab!reader, mentions of blood kinks, mentions of cunnilingus, normal nsfw stuff
Not proofread
Sfw
Idc what you guys say this man knows what a period is and is going all out to make sure you feel comfortable.
If you were to text him while he's at work, saying you're on your period, he's dropping everything and showing up at your doorstep 30 minutes later with chocolates and ice cream in one hand and pads and tampons in the other.
He didn't know what brand of pads/tampons you preferred, so he got a variety of boxes and just hoped for the best.
If you get period cramps, Curly is going to have a bottle of Tylenol in his back pocket just to have on standby. He is NOT going to let you suffer đđ
I feel like he'd run warm baths each night for you, just to help you clean up a little bit before bed. Is this aftercare? Yeah. Yeah it is. IM the writer, I can write whatever I want, and I'm saying these baths ARE aftercare
You probably won't need heating pads if Curly is staying over. He's a human furnace and would be more than happy to cuddle you. Just tell him where you're hurting and his hands will be there.
Nsfw
If you think blood is going to scare this man away, you're dead wrong. Curly would literally preach, "a real man isn't afraid to get a little blood on his sword", you aren't turning him off by leaving a metallic taste in his mouth đ
Speaking of which, yes, he'd still eat you out if you were on your period. Blood just doesn't weird him out, so practically everything would be the exact same as it would be otherwise.
Chat this is a hot take, but blood kink. I'm definitely NOT projecting, Curly has a slight blood kink.
I think that he just likes the sight of blood covering your inner thighs and his face after he eats you out. I'm not sure why he's into it, but he is.
Sex with Curly while on your period is mostly the same, but he would be a LOT more gentle. Which, doesn't really say much, since he's already very gentle with you.
His grip on you wouldn't be as tight as it usually is, his thrusts would be more slow and rough, but most importantly, he lets you top.
I've gone over this already, Curly is a switch that mostly tops. But, you're on your period, things must be rough for you, he knows that! So he lets you take control, get a little rough with him. You know what you need in those moments, so he'd rather you take control as opposed to him not giving you what you need.
A/N; hhhhhhhhhhhh
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Damn i really want to know tf happened in the writing room of arcane s2. Some of the downgrades were inevitable due to the show's corporate limitations (not being able to progress the class war story in a meaningful way, having to tie things back to league of legends in terms of making playable characters more appealing to well, play... rip Mel and Viktor in particular), sure. But i still feel like it's even worse than that? There are so many bad decisions that i couldn't even start listing them all... the characters, plot, pacing, themes, it's just such a mess? Even the dialogue writing, it feels much more mm Marvel at its worst i suppose. What i am most bothered by is probably just the straight up harmful messaging so um... Cycles of violence and abuse can be broken by individual decisions to become a better person! Got nothing to do with systemic oppression, living conditions, mental health issues, you can just conveniently ignore aaall the social context, live laugh love and then things get better automatically yep, oppressors famously stop oppressing you when you show them that you're harmless and won't put up a fight anymore. Literally three out of three suicidal characters dying to redeem themselves? Not even in a tragic/cathartic way but in a bittersweet 'they finally atoned for their mistakes' way? Groundbreaking lmao. Romantic relationship between Vi and Caitlyn including no communication about their biggest fight, just conveniently skipping to sex and getting back together - would have loved that if it was framed as the unhealthy fucked up thing that it is, skipping over Vi's hurt and her background to once again become a cop, her girlfriend's direct underling at that (!) due to her not having any other support systems... But nope that was our cute lesbian romance wrapped up, a good thing all around, not concerning at all. Jayce telling Viktor that what he 'always admired about him' was his disability and his deadly disease (??? from a character who spent the whole s1 and first act of s2 desperately trying to help Viktor find a cure? sure) and that those imperfections don't need fixing, just wtf truly. Magic bullshit was also weird, some implications of 'natural magic is ok, but achieving that power through other means corrupts you into a crazy robot bitch or just wilts your trees i guess', but tbh it was written in such a weird and inconsistent way that we can skip this one... Yeah actually a lot of things were just such a mess that I feel silly pointing to specific moments or lines I didn't like, I mean duh, it barely makes sense as a story at all... I am happy we have s1 which comparatively was a masterpiece, and i also really enjoyed s2 act1, i truly believed it would lead somewhere good at the time, my mind still kind of cuts off the story at that point when i think about it, that WAS the open ending of the show to me (is it possible that there were rewrites? targeting act 2 and 3? idk, wishful thinking perhaps). Despite my extremely negative feelings about this season's conclusion i remain glad that so many people appreciate the show regardless, it is clear that there was STILL a lot of love in the process of its creation (although i'd argue that even some of the visual aspects of the show suffered in quality, once again i have to wonder about behind the scenes mood of it all) and i get very upset when i see creatives online despairing over reception of their projects even when i'm absolutely in the disgruntled crowd hahaha... ...however yeah, this wasn't great In a world that increasingly grows more and more right-wing politically... we really needed something different i think.
#tbh i also feel a little annoyed that all the league jayvik fans were right all along#i always rolled my eyes like oh shush changing the characters doesnt mean ruining them#and here we are#boo boo the fool jpeg#arcane spoilers#arcane s2 spoilers#arcane critical#negative#ranting#text#long post
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ok here is the official frankie fluffyglass ceo of wigglefunny explanation of the plot of Something Ain't Right (this will be LONG)
It takes place a bit after The Cost of a Snack (as evidenced by Shelda having a new snakified leg), and starts out with Wambus internally monologuing about how he knows what the journalist (whom I'll be referring to as Stranger or "the stranger" for the rest of this post) did to Gramble, that specifically being feeding him bugsnax in his sleep. However, if you've read COAS I'm certain you recall that Wambus was not there and did not see what Stranger did. So how does he know they did it? The answer might surprise you: he doesn't.
Wambus is projecting. In the past (before the events of the game, and even before the events of The Fight), Wambus fed Gramble bugsnax. This is represented by the repeated motif of Kweebles rather than Strabbys. While in the present Gramble has a Strabby arm, when Wambus fed him bugsnax, he had a Kweeble arm instead. On the third page, when the stranger turns around and has Wambus's face, this is Wambus's conscience reminding him of what he did.
Wambus then turns to denial, asking himself different ways Gramble could have become snakified. Sleepwalking, lying about it, et cetera, but Wambus knows these aren't realistic. He knows what he (and by his own extension Stranger) did. Stranger being lit in red and Wambus being lit in green represent the respective bugsnax they gave Gramble. Also from this point on, Wambus isn't snakified, showing that the following events all take place in his mind rather than in reality.
Gramble's body being covered by black squares (which I'll refer to as censors) is Wambus's mind trying to block out things he doesn't want to see. Stranger showing up out of nowhere is kind of just an outlet for Wambus to incite his own self hatred. He hates and wants to kill the stranger for what they did, because he hates what he did in the past.
Throughout the ensuing fight, Stranger and their dialogue is censored. Why? Because Wambus isn't fighting the stranger. It's a reenactment of another horrible thing he did to Gramble in the past, that being The Fight. The censored dialogue is what Gramble said during the fight (which is irrelevant to the story), mirrored by Wambus parroting his own dialogue from then as well. That's why some of the dialogue doesn't seem to fit (see "Not when you've hurt so many", and him cutting himself off from saying "Weepy little rancher").
Then is the Big page, the only clear memory of the entire comic. He's blocked out so many things, but Wambus is never able to unsee the look of horror on Triffany's face when she witnessed The Fight. He's not looking at Gramble. He doesn't want to see Gramble. He can only clearly recall the instant he knew he was Guilty. Guilty. Guilty.
The following page is mostly a blur. He sees Triffany (with Filbo hiding behind her; the two of them lie to cover this up later by calling it a fight rather than a one-sided assault. Also I'll mention that Gramble was so out of it that he can't remember The Fight either, so literally nobody can contradict the lie), then he sees Gramble, and then everything is drowned out by the knowledge that He Is Guilty. The last panel shows him waking up (now snakified again, this is real) in horror. Triffany next to him is censored because he can't stand to think about her face, looking at what he did.
Ummmm yeah that's basically the story of Something Aint Right. Other stuff that didnt fit anywhere else is the main pop colors being Blue and Orange which are Wambus and Stranger's fur colors, and Gramble's hat eyes always staring at Wambus.
This is the official explanation of a weird surreal art piece I made that is supposed to be speculative but I love talking about my own work too much to keep it that way.
Something Ain't Right - Bugsnax
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Arcana Main 6 as Animation Styles
A/N: Here's some short headcanons for what what style of animation the Main 6 remind me of. These are mostly based on vibes.
Asra: Psychedelic animation
...Come on, you know why I picked this
To be fair, I also see Asra as 2D because of the sense of wonder and whimsy, but this was too fun to pass up on(It's what they would have wanted)
It's just perfect for him, it's literally Asra's flavour of mystery and what the heck aura, it's colourful and very Lisa frank in vibe
No thoughts, no purpose just trippy landscapes and bright colours with underlying meanings
Julian: 3D Animation
Like Julian, it is very popular with the crowds as well as the industry itself
There's also a connection with the theatrical as 3D is meant to create the illusion of real life in 2D animation by lighting and using the right setup
It's main purpose is to (aesthetically at least) please the audience, adding debth and life to the world, which I feel like really goes well with Julian's personality and effect he has on others
Moreover, It's one of the only types of animation that get used in the Medical Field to illustrate how diseases develop and progress in the body, which Julian would definetely be fascinated by :D
Nadia: Graphic Animation
This is frankly the only style I could see Nadia as
Have you Seen this woman's cursive? This works really well
Graphic animation needs creativity, it's efficient, practical and always aspires to be stylish and desirable, much like the Countess herself
I think it also makes sense from the perspective that Nadia has to be always well-presented herself as a person in a position of power(I mean this style's most popular uses are in Marketing and Business)
Muriel: Stop-motion Animation
The use of an unmoving and limited movement material that gets manipulated to create a very specific line of action hmm...
Honestly, aside from traumatic connotations, I really feel this style suits Muriel because it just does.
I mean from vibes alone...It's uncanny, eerie but also very life-oriented and grounded which are so him in the start of his route.
Also a very versatile style of animation that can use an array of objects(often more environmentally friendly) to work, so maybe it can be compared to Muriel choosing to live in the middle of the woods.
Portia: Rubberhose/ Traditional Animation
Just Bubbly, energetic and vibrant, it feels like classic 2d is just perfect for Portia.
I especially love rubberhose for her because of her lively nature and child-like wonder she presents.
Plus seriously Portia is all about her fictional books and fantastical adventures so it's not too hard imagining her just being so immersed even in modern cartoons.
Don't be fooled though this style of animation took (and still does) incredible dedication and putting your soul in it, which could subscribe to Portia's strength and hard work ethic.
Lucio: Rotoscope Animation
Rotoscope animation looks like being between the real world and another entirely, which is just very reminiscent of Lucio's state for a certain 3 year period...
It essentially "uses" or "takes" elements from real life to create movement, which I think is just a very funny pararel to Lucio basically wanting to snatch MC's body to come back to life XD
Much like the man himself though, there's also some controversy with it as a technique, as many people think it just a way to trace and a shortcut to animation .
Using it in projects can also be quite expensive too so yeah, very Count all in all.
#the arcana#the arcana game#the arcana headcanons#asra alnazar#asra the arcana#julian devorak#julian the arcana#nadia satrinava#nadia the arcana#muriel of the kokhuri#muriel the arcana#portia devorak#portia the arcana#count lucio#lucio the arcana#magpie writings#I have a special place in my heart for this post#also don't you love when timblr POSTS sth#instead of keeping it in the drafts#:)
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one of the things that's the most fucking frustrating for me about arguing with climate change deniers is the sheer fucking scope of how much it matters. sweating in my father's car, thinking about how it's the "hottest summer so far," every summer. and there's this deep, roiling rage that comes over me, every time.
the stakes are wrong, is the thing. that's part of what makes it not an actual debate: the other side isn't coming to the table with anything to fucking lose.
like okay. i am obviously pro gun control. but there is a basic human part of me that can understand and empathize with someone who says, "i'm worried that would lead to the law-abiding citizens being punished while criminals now essentially have a superpower." i don't agree, but i can tell the stakes for them are also very high.
but let's say the science is wrong and i'm wrong and the visible reality is wrong and every climate disaster refugee is wrong. let's say you're right, humans aren't causing it or it's not happening or whatever else. let's just say that, for fun.
so we spend hundreds of millions of dollars making the earth cleaner, and then it turns out we didn't need to do that. oops! we cleaned the earth. our children grow up with skies full of more butterflies and bees. lawns are taken over with rich local biodiversity. we don't cry over our electric bills anymore. and, if you're staunchly capitalist and i need to speak ROI with you - we've created so many jobs in developing sectors and we have exciting new investment opportunities.
i am reminded of kodak, and how they did not make "the switch" to digital photography; how within 20 years kodak was no longer a household brand. do we, as a nation, feel comfortable watching as the world makes "the switch" while we ride the laurels of oil? this boggles me. i have heard so much propaganda about how america cannot "fall behind" other countries, but in this crucial sector - the one that could actually influence our own monopolies - suddenly we turn the other cheek. but maybe you're right! maybe it will collapse like just another silicone valley dream. but isn't that the crux of capitalism? that some economies will peter out eventually?
but let's say you're right, and i'm wrong, and we stopped fracking for no good reason. that they re-seed quarries. that we tear down unused corporate-owned buildings or at least repurpose them for communities. that we make an effort, and that effort doesn't really help. what happens then? what are the stakes. what have we lost, and what have we gained?
sometimes we take our cars through a car wash and then later, it rains. "oh," we laugh to ourselves. we gripe about it over coffee with our coworkers. what a shame! but we are also aware: the car is cleaner. is that what you are worried about? that you'll make the effort but things will resolve naturally? that it will just be "a waste"?
and what i'm right. what if we're already seeing people lose their houses and their lives. what if it is happening everywhere, not just in coastal towns or equatorial countries you don't care about. what if i'm right and you're wrong but you're yelling and rich and powerful. so we ignore all of the bellwethers and all of the indicators and all of the sirens. what if we say - well, if it happens, it's fate.
nevermind. you wouldn't even wear a mask, anyway. i know what happens when you see disaster. you think the disaster will flinch if you just shout louder. that you can toss enough lives into the storm for the storm to recognize your sacrifice and balk. you argue because it feels good to stand up against "the liberals" even when the situation should not be political. you are busy crying for jesus with a bullhorn while i am trying to usher people into a shelter. you've already locked the doors, even on the church.
the stakes are skewed. you think this is some intellectual "debate" to win, some funny banter. you fuel up your huge unmuddied truck and say suck it to every citizen of that shitbird state california. serves them right for voting blue!
and the rest of us are terrified of the entire fucking environment collapsing.
#spilled ink#writeblr#i hope it is clear here that i actually very much care about equatorial countries#and that's part of what makes me so angry bc im like. climate refugees exist.#they've existed for a while!!!#and the reply is almost always ''should have thought about that before living on an island"#like fuck dude. do you need to like how people vote before ur like#your entire house shouldn't burn down each summer????#so many of these people make it their life to mock california that they think it's FUNNY#and im like. girl you should be fucking trembling. TEXAS??? ARE YOU LISTENING??#this is one of those times that like. i need to stress how fucking stupid it would be#to let trump win. bc he could have âreached across the aisle.â covid could have been#a MASSIVE commercial success. he has such a huge and bigoted and brainwashed following.#literally just a PR campaign called COWBOY UP and it's pictures of cowboys in bandanas#trump reinvisioned as the lone ranger fighting for the american people against covid. EASY SELL#and instead. companies bought him. it became political. it was not ''oh shit this is 1 enemy let's all be human''#it was ''you deserve to die.''#climate change should be GLOBAL. it should be like ''yeah i hate u but. we do all live here''#i don't have to LIKE my group members to do well on a team project bc we are ALL getting graded.#is that simple enough of an under-explaination lol
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hi *transgenders your lester*
#this is actually just me projecting onto Him#i think it would be interesting#like adding on to the body dysmorphia apollo is already dealing with in that body#you add on a healthy dose of gender dysphoria#i think it would be neat#and gods could you imagine dealing with a wildfire and drought infested socal with a binder??#literal nightmare#also yeah that last drawing looks sus but leave me alone i didnât realize it looked like that until i finished it đ#anyway iâll probably make more of trans lester#trials of apollo#lester papadopoulos#toa#pjo hoo toa#toa apollo#my art
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This is exactly why I called it âbreaking my silence.â Because no one who has a criticism about Con can ever voice it without being called a bully. Because I know for a FACT that there are people who donât like his rendition but pretend to because they donât want to get jumped on. Like Iâm sorry that I wanted to vent. About a thing that drives me crazy. And that apparently you all took that to mean âI have the only right opinion and everyone who disagrees is stupid and wrong.â Sorry for not slapping every other sentence in my original post with âthis is my OPINION btwâ, because it was for venting. And idk about you, but when I vent about something, i dont exactly worry about everyone taking everything I say completely literally because itâs VENTING.
YOU even mentioned expression under "there is so much more to singing then just being able to hold a tone", this is again more a question of taste so youâre welcome to a different opinion but you have to get over the fact that TO ME and a lot of other people Cons vocal expression is great and just makes me FEEL things.Â
That's fine, you're allowed to have your own opinions. Music is subjective. To a point. But I can tell you that I personally was never very good at being expressive in performances, and you can bet I got notes on it. And if I had performed the way Con did, I absolutely would have gotten notes on expression, breath control, diction, pronunciation... I don't think it's too much to expect that a professional actor who is getting paid to do this to actually excel at it. Especially since it's prerecorded. And I assume they would have done multiple takes. You're allowed your opinion, and you're moved by his performance. I'm allowed my opinion, and I wasn't. And I listed the things that I would have liked to see done better (or done at all) for me to like the performance. Again, my opinion.
not even a vocal trainer?, your "source" is âI took singing lessonsâ? Everyone can do that, that says precisely nothing about your own qualification.
Again, this was a vent post, I wasn't really expecting anyone to interact with it, I didn't realize I need to give an outline of my education and experience. It also was a bit of a joke that apparently you missed.
Being a classically trained vocalist is miles away from âI took singing lessons.â Itâs the difference between saying âI can speak on biology because I have a degree in biologyâ versus âI took biology classes.â It means that Iâve been trained in vocal techniques like mouth placement, tongue placement, breath support, posture, projection, vocal balance, etc etc. Iâm not trying to sound superior, Iâm just trying to say that I know more about this topic than the average person. Is a geologist being superior by citing their degree in order to speak on a geology-related subject?
âthen donât read it! How entitled are you to think that every fanfic author in this whole entire fandom has to agree with your taste in music? Donât like it? Donât fucking read itâ
Yeah I generally donât. But I canât exactly avoid it when itâs not really something that can be tagged??? Itâs something that tends to just pop up in fics??? And I wasnât actually saying that I think everyone needs to bend to my whims or some shit. I was expressing something that annoys me. In an overly exaggerated way. Not every sentence needs to be taken literally. Like if I said âugh I hate nuts in brownies, brownies should NEVER have nuts in themâ Iâm not actually saying that everyone needs to stop putting nuts in their brownies because I said so. Iâm saying I donât like nuts in brownies, this is how much I donât like nuts in brownies.
ââIâm not saying that Con doesnât deserve this oneâ -except you literally just DIDâ
I didnât. I said that people win awards who donât deserve it all the time. I said that to indicate that having won an award for something doesnât necessarily give credence to an argument, in general. Not necessarily to this particular situation. I didnât fucking say Con doesnât deserve this award. I said maybe he did. I donât know because I havenât seen it, and I donât really want to tbh, but I donât have to see a performance from 40 years ago to critique a performance from last year. Like I said, voices change. Skill levels change. Especially if youâre not actively working on keeping them up. I donât know what Conâs vocal practice looks like, or if he even has one anymore, but I can tell you my personal opinion on this performance, based on my own education.
Itâs not hateful to vent about something that bothers me without specifically saying that this is my opinion on it, and weâre allowed to have different opinions. Itâs not hateful to outline the reason something bothers me. If you interpreted my tone as being superior or aggressive or âeveryone should have my opinionâ, whatever that means, then fine. I donât care. I do care about being called a bully when I was venting about something that bothers me, speaking generally into the void of the internet, having tagged it appropriately as a critical post, not expecting anyone to interact with it. That âdonât like donât readâ goes both ways. Donât like a post, donât interact. Just block and move on. The block is there for a reason.
Okay Iâm breaking my silence. Conâs voice is not good. His rendition of La Vie en Rose is bad. And grating. And his French pronunciation sucks. Sure he can hold a tune, but thereâs so much more to singing than that that he doesnât have, or isnât trained in. Timbre. Intonation. Expression. Resonance. Breath control. Source: Iâm a classically trained vocalist.
There. I said it. If I see one more fic talking about how beautiful/gorgeous/amazing/whatever Izzyâs singing is, Iâm going to throw something. Surprising is fine. Because it was surprising (and out of left field) for Izzy to sing. But beautiful, it ainât.
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Want to know what I believe? It's right here
Dig a little deeper and it's crystal clear
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(WIP)
#atla#avatar the last airbender#zuko#atla fanart#prince zuko#atla art#clear#twenty one pilots#wip#atla zuko#baby zuko#agni kai#Some random general#I have literally nine projects going on#And I started this thing today *sigh*#Good news! If I have the chance to work on it then it'll be ready tomorrow#Be prepared for some angst#fire hazard siblings#This for you two my sweet little turtleducks#You know those moments when you're listening to a random song and a particular lyric just *smacks you in the face*#Well...yeah#I present to you: TĂP x ATLA#Because I can#And because Clear is SO Zuko/Royal Family/Iroh coded it's not even funny#I mean#âWhere's your home? Where are you going and why are you here? Have you asked these questions? Have you been sincere?â#âI will tell you what I can but your mind will take a stand. I sing of a greater love. Let me know when you've had enough.â#If these aren't the most Iroh lines you have ever read then *takes out a gun* our deal is off#âIntrospection is the name of this session. Spread this infection. Reflect it on the next one the next one the next one.â#âAnd when we're done we'll all have made something new under the Sun.â
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I was wondering, does Fiddleford still have a wife in your Halloween au? And if yes, does she know about him being a vampire?
I've been sitting on this ask for a bit, but I think I should finally answer.
In my AU, Fidds is actually pretty old-- not like ancient or anything, but surely a few centuries?
Anyway, so way back, when he was human, he did have a wife and a kid!! But when he got bit and became a vampire, he actually outlived them :(
He tries to think about them often, but it's definitely one of the things he chooses to erase when he creates the memory gun
#if you were a bored immortal what's the first thing you're doing?#exactly-- wait around until the 1970s to go to a college that happens to be no one's first choice where you get a roomate that you befriend#and after graduating with an engineering degree and waiting a few years you get a call from him while workin in your garage#and he ropes you into coming to live with him to help him with this big project#and then you really DO get roped into his project literally and you're traumatized by the experience so you quit and leave#but y'know it just so happens that you received an invite to a vampire âmeetingâ that really is just a party#and you don't have a good time but on the way back to your motel you run into this guy that looks a little like your buddy but he's greasie#chubbier just grosser in general-- oh yeah and a werewolf#and then it turns out that your buddy actually managed to fall into the nightmare portal and his brother the werewolf#wants to get him out and he finds out that you helped build it originally#so you get tied in to domestic hijinks with the brother of your friend while you both try to work together to build the portal#and you accidentally fall in love with your friend's twin brother- the werewolf#or well that's what i would do if i was a cursed immortal y'know#cole's answering#gravity falls#grunkle stan#stanley pines#fiddleford mcgucket#fiddleford hadron mcgucket#stan is really only mentioned in the tags they kinda got away from me sorry guys this always happens#werewolf stan pines#vampire fiddleford#gravity falls au#gravity falls halloween au
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A collage I made for one of the characters from my newest story. His name is Kundel by the way hes an absolute manfail and a menace
#i promise promise promise ill post a test chapter soon#im just not sure yet where i want this project to go so im avoiding actually writing it but i have all of the art prepared#its going to be so fun though its so polish and yyy fantasy like and yeah just trust me#although thinking about characters is way easier than writing so i do it constantly#ill probably make more collages like this for other ocs too#i missed talking about my characters so ill do it in the tags#besides being an absolute boyfail kundel also owns an awfully old bmw car that he uses to drive his friends around#and literally EVERYONE complains about his driving#pirat drogowy behavior#besides that hes the brother of the main character from my last post about this project#her name is marysia#also his name translates to scrub. like the way you describe animals#or mutt#digital artist#oc#oc art#digital art
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this month has literally just been confirming to me that i'm a fandom Elder my god, me vs explaining 2021, 2022, and 2023 fandom lore to various different people đ
but yeah ! macklin is really interesting cause i would say there's a decent amount of scholarship on him, but not a lot! he seems, by all accounts, a fairly regular kid, but i think the lack of media bubble around him has also meant we haven't really gotten as much information about him in comparison to other draftees (this also might just be a big gap in my own information because while i have followed this dude for a long time, last year as a whole is a year where i feel hockey did not exist to me for 80% of the year)
i would be careful about third hand accounts though, because i think a lot of us are partial to twisting the narrative to how it fits our own headcanons (very much guilty of this sometimes, but i really do try to be accurate). there's a lot of stuff on adam fantilli in particular, and the reasons he left the canadian hockey system that are inaccurate, or stretched to a large degree. i fear that has been applied to macklin's story too, which he himself has refuted. so i would def encourage to be diligent in doing your own research ! and forming your own headcanons outside of the third hand accounts :)))
connor's masking is so insane and it's gotten more and more blatently obvious since he came into the nhl. before, of course he had his pr voices and everything but every once in a while he'd break character and we'd get a glimpse at the true him. now it feels like unless we're getting another friends livestream, we're never seeing that again đ
i don't think any of them were raised normal tbh and you're right in saying we can only take what the media says about them. i hate comparisons in anny way though, and even though it's great media foddder, it honestly serves everyone involved terribly because well....
time to talk about shane wright.
shane wright was, from the time he was 14! projected to be the top pick in the 2022 nhl draft. people called him the next one. he was connor before connor was connor. exceptional player status in the ohl, was playing with people 3-4 years his SENIOR by the time he was 15 and eating them alive. everywhere this kid went, people were telling him he was great.
and then covid hits. and he doesn't play hockey. for a year. despite so may other people going overseas to play in europe just to try to continue their development, shane wright doesn't. he sits on his hands. he waits for the ohl to begin again in a year it never does. there was speculation at the time that it was because he was struggling with the idea of being so far away from his family at so young, which. objectively. makes sense. 16 in europe alone is a lot different from billets in the same province as his parents. (also what they won't tell you is that 50% of the players who did get to go overseas was because they had dual citizenship, look at i.e. mctavish and othmann going to switzerland because they were dual citizens, because at the time no one else could cross the borders).
but he does u18s. he looks fine. GREAT even. breaks all kinds of scoring records. consensus heading into the 2021-22 season is that he's still going to be the first overall pick. nothing seems wrong.
until it is. because he has a subpar year in terms of scoring. and there's other competition making their cases for top pick. and it looks like the canadiens will be picking first overall while the draft is in their city, and it's a bigger deal than most first overall picks regardless of who it is.
and i think part of why connor was so hesitant to say "when i'm drafted" the next year in 2023, and always reverted to "if" is because shane makes the mistake of saying in a mid-season interview that he deserves to be the first overall pick in 2022. because that's what everyone's told him since he was 14? so it must be true right? no one has indicated to him anything otherwise?
the habs don't think so. they hate it. they consider it entitlement, but they don't say it to his face. the habs wine and dine him, they send scouts to his games consistently throughout the year to talk to him, habs fans are even asking him to sign habs jerseys with HIS name on it before the draft and he stays on the carpet longer than they're allowed to just to do that
but then the pick comes. it's not him. the habs don't even have the decency to call and tell him. devils are next. they don't change their plans. it's not him. arizona. they don't change theirs either. it's still not him.
imagine being told for your entire life that you are destined for greatness and then the last four years being told you are meant for greatness even higher than the GREATEST of the greatness. you were supposed to be the next mcdavid, gretzky, crosby, all of them. and it fell apart at the last moment, only because you repeated what THEY said to YOU and they didn't like that you broke that unspoken social rule not to. i think i'd be pretty pissed! i would NOT have reacted as calmly as he did on that day, lmao i burst into tears about that, and several people i knew who had followed his journey for years, did too.
he didn't have a complete meltdown, which is a miracle. but he did have one according to everyone's standards of him and how hockey players were "supposed to act". all he did was "glare" at the habs table for a split second and suddenly, he had attitude problems and he deserved what he got and he will be booed at bell centre for the rest of his life. the number of people who sent this kid VITRIOLIC hate for a half second break in his mask, is insane. INSANE. they sent ME hate for defending him. AND THEY LEAKED HIS SNAPCHAT PHOTOS. he was universally blacklisted p much, for "acting like he was above 4th overall" when he smiled SO big in every photo and was genuinely excited to be a kraken. but it wasn't enough for anyone because he was privileged and spoiled and thought he would be the first overall pick out loud.
and ik i said i hate comparisons but part of where my personal headcanon for him comes from is how he reacted to slipping in the draft, compared to adam fantilli (people loved to use this one at the time too so i must include it). adam was THRILLED to be going to columbus. but shane had the equivalent to what would be a personal meltdown to him, and while he maintained high spirits, you could tell that he was heartbroken that it seemed like he lost what had been promised to him. all as a result of him just not understanding the social rule that you don't say you're going first overall.
meanwhile he's captained several different teams and no one had ever mentioned "attitude issues" until the night of the draft. there's more stuff too on his autism, like how he is has literally one hobby and talks about it in every video (guitar and he self admits its his one thing)
and how he acted at the space needle, while it was spinning
seemingly obsessed with moving floors ! he also liked them in the haunted house video from last month and kept saying everything was fine when he looked like he wanted to die.
and he said earlier this year that he liked that the kraken had a new podium for their media space because now he actually knows where to put his hands
saw the tags on your rb, and as a fellow "connor bedard has autism" headcanoner, i would love to know more of your thoughts đ
it's less of a headcanon and more of a divinely correct vibe check. but like am i wrong...???? although I do see it more as they're the same flavour of ND with different presentations, like Connor is hyperfocus ADHD, and Macklin is inattentive (this comes from someone with mixed presentation ADHDš, they also tried to diagnose me with austim but my legs were too long i make eye contact BUT!!! 93rd% "indicating that Cassie has many behavioural characteristics similar to youth diagnosed with ASD." raaaaa đŞđŞđŞ 93% is an A!! i ace even the tests i fail!!!) Plus his rigidity with his diet, is bonkers for someone that young (and it's been going on since he was like 14-15)
Like especially with the way that Connor's constant practicing, after practice until the zamboni kicks him off, and then on off days and optional skates hiding his gear to make him take days off?? that is pretty classic hyperfocus ADHD. And especially with the way he blames the teams loses on himself, like please sir seeing you in the mirror is not good for my health!!
And with Macklin, people often mischaracterize inattentive ADHD with not being motivated or good at routine and while yes those two things are a normal part of human life, and more-so with ADHD, he has shown many times how deeply he cares about hockey........ but I think (and also remember i am projecting) his father being THAT hands on with him and his brothers training (even now which yuck, you have your own job get your grubby paws off of your kid's job) has made him unable to self propel, and get himself into that routine? (AND AGAIN I AM PROJECTING) like something Macklin has said a few times is how the shift to a pro-hockey schedule has been hard, and yes it is an adjustment, but he has been essentially living away from his parents for YEARS, two years boarding at Shattuckk, one year (presumably) billeting in Chicago while playing in the USHL, and one year in college at BU, and I think the real shift is that... daddy is planning his workouts again, full time not just summers (also, the travaling doesn't help) AND THAT (i am projecting) is HELL to someone who built a routine, and any hope of getting back into one was dashed when he went of IR for his hip after one game. the boy needs CONSISTENCY!!!!! And until they get him 1) away from his freak father who has his hands al over his development plan, and 2) on simple routine with max five types of days (home game, home practice, home rest, away game, away rest) he will not get situated.
BACK TO BEDARD <33333
the man loves rules and procedures. him at his first training camp all doe eyed and "wanting to make the team!" so much that Kyle Davidson... maybe it was Luke Richardson who said it...??? either way his coach or his GM pulled aside his MOTHER to tell them that they needed to start looking at apartments. Before getting drafted it was never "when" it was "if i get drafted".... like dude.... it's gonna happen! Whenever he get's sen't to the box its always a "they hate me, don't they know I am unable to break rules!! not because they don't apply to me but because I can NOT break rules!" vibe (I am only kinda projecting on this one)
and I do think the type of media around them during their developmental years up has affected them, Macklin's media was always focused on his father, which reinforced his reliance/dependence on him, whereas Connor's was focused on him which encouraged him to focus on himself and what HE can do to improve.
also Connor has that DOG IN HIM
^ connor bedard real not fake (also my childhood psychologist had this PROMENENTLY displayed in her office and i think seeing it every two weeks had an adverse affect on me)
š and a bunch of other learning disorders, dyslexia, dysgraphia, dyscalculia, audio processing disorder, also anxiety, depression, and cutie patootie disease (fatal đ)
#anyways#that's my thoughts on this and hopefully that was a good shane wright primer lmao#he's a sweet kid everyone just overblew everything about him and it was really sad#i think what made it worse was that it was clearly just he didn't understand the social cue and that's what cost him#q speaks
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most of you will not understand the agony of this outfit. but hey here's fantasy au Howdy!
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yes. i know. he looks like a gunslinger. but I think it'd be funny if Howdy shows up and he minorly tweaks the genre simply by Existing! plus, he has to make himself useful beyond being a traveling salesman - he doesn't have a scrap of magic in him! so! alchemist gunslinger!
due to much of this "final" outfit design being Miguel's (@indigopoptart <3 thanks for your help homeslice <3) influence, i have less to say than usual! i'll talk about the things i Kept from the first terrible, terrible draft!
i wanted him to have full-coverage gloves because One, gloves fuck, & Two, shooting gloves! plus, he regularly works with dangerous materials! gotta keep his hands as safe as possible! speaking of his guns, they were a Ton of fun to draw. i wanted to make them ornate... Howdy seems like he'd enjoy nice things? fancy stuff perhaps? anyway the guns have his tavern "logo" on them!
the "second safety" mentioned triggers a magic-oriented mechanism that allows him to piece the guns together! they "unfold" into a big ol clusterfuck of a powerhouse weapon! unfortunately, using this immediately breaks the guns and they have to be repaired, so it's a "break glass in case of emergency" ace up the Neighborhood's sleeve!
i like to imagine that his bandolier, while cool, stresses everyone out a little bit. each bullet is full of pressurized weaponized magic. If they break while on the bandolier, well! Howdy would probably be very much Royally Fucked! i also drew the bullets too large here, so imagine that there's a lot more than shown and they're a lot smaller. I didn't realize this mistake until right now! oopsies!
i want to keep elements of the canon outfits in these fantasy ones. hence why his vest is striped and blue, he's still got the reddish brown pants, and! why his cloak clasp is shaped like a tie! and why the inside of his cloak resembles his apron!
i like to think that Howdy got his magic pack by swindling some poor soul out of it! when the buckles are undone, it unfolds into a vendor stand that looks Much different than the tiny scribble provided! said scribble is there to ah... what's the word. Demonstrate? get the point across? it's actually quite a nice stall! he has space to sell, and a workbench to tinker on! the pockets on the bag actually do function as pockets, though.
#'why does he have a ponytail' yeah i dont have an excuse for that one#im projecting my mullet & mullet-esque hairstyle loving self i suppose!#he's just like me now....#< nah im jesting! my back floof isnt nearly that long!#anyway howdy my absolute beloved <3#hes so funny. i love thinking about him#in general but also this is an au post! thinking about That!#i love it when he comes along on adventures#everyone is having downtime and he's on the side of the road handling volatile materials and bothering passersby#its a good thing he's coordinated! probably!#he's coordinated right? ehhhh i have faith that he is#scribble salad#wh fantasy au#ohhhh i should draw him with his hood up...#OHHHH I SHOULD DRAW A LIL FANTASY AU RAINY DAY THING#< i say this as if i have the energy!#its been low lately... very low...#i love being tired and drained for literally no reason!
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ep 43 had me tearing up in a fucking shopping centre âźď¸âźď¸
b+w alt version that I truly couldn't decide if I liked it more . Also I included a lot of thoughts in the tags but they're somewhat incoherent<3
#i dont know what i expected but i was waiting for a friend and too excited to wait until later#malevolent podcast#john doe#john doe malevolent#john malevolent#malevolent fanart#grimm art#ep 43#ep 43 left me with a lot of thoughts ... i didnt quite like how much of a recap it felt like at times but that might#be because ive been relistening and like yeah everyone knows that john đ but that's not the case for everyone and with monthly uploads#things get forgotten easily#i find the discussion of âhumanityâ so interesting because John has shown that without someone that he has forcibly grown to value as an#equal... something he cannot do as the king of yellow as he is superior to all of his realm and presumably stays out of other elder god's#anyway. without that equality and enviroment to grow he fails to reach his goal of compassion and falls onto old ways.#John. The King in Yellow. shown by both times each has found themselves in human form do not just crave power and influence!!!#THEY CRAVE COMMUNITY!!! an endrich being not born or raised with nothing but power and ego#CRAVES COMMUNITY.#His goal of âhumanityâ is not a selfless goal like John projects - it is ultimately somewhat selfish as he does not want to be alone!!#which makes this desire so much more human#i don't know maybe this is just me spelling out whats already there but the way john and the witch argued about humanity frustrated me#it felt like they were missing the point or that perhaps the âgood/evilâ âblack/whiteâ retoric was already realised by me and john needed#realise it himself . which is fair !!!#i dont know!!!!#the witch was talking about how bad everyone was and how humanity is cruel and john was talking about Lily (#who also frustrates me how shes used in the plot somewhat she was literally just a nurse doing her job bro#) but to John - yes internally he is struggling with his moral greyness and im so proud of him for growing being himself SO PROUD#JUST.!!! he wants community. he needs community. he loves his friend. 'humanity' at its core does not matter as long as you try to be bette#and i think thats awesome and i really enjoyed the episode#guhh im rambling enjoy my tag rambling i dont know i want john to have more friends :(#yorrick can be another friend godd i love you yorrick so silly
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even more filipino haji
imagine him holding your baby cousins or nieces and nephews and they all call him kuya hajimeâŚyeahâŚthatâs good shit
always blesses
will dance cariĂąosa and sayaw sa bangko with you even if heâs bad at it (super excited on the inside. will have a heart attack every other second thoughâŚare his hands sweaty? is he smiling too much? is he not smiling enough? did he lift you too strongly? what if you fall off the bench?)
(he was worried about the wrong person falling off the bench. while he was thinking about this, he missed his footing and fell on his butt.) (heâs fine)
youâll see him in his pambahay one way or another. ratty ass t-shirt or sando with basketball shorts and tsinelas that he flips up from his foot to catch and point at tooru for dramatics
legs of steel. definitely has those calves and thighsâŚsigh đ
doesnât really like eating whole fishâŚhe likes the fish, donât get him wrong, itâs just the process of removing the meat from the bone and all. but if you donât know how to/like taking the meat off the bone, heâll do it for you. likes the crunchies so if you like the belly or head meat you guys are perfect
before a party, the two of you are probably in a corner of the kitchen rolling lumpia and/or turon. heâs really good at folding the rice paper
walis warrior! if you donât like sweeping, heâs the man for you
he DEFINITELY smells like katinko in the summer. barely has to put it on cuz he rarely gets bitten but never likes the feeling of even one itchy bite. drown that hoe in menthol!!
awkward pictures alllll the time. he can walk near a sign that says california or something and his mom will make him stand and smile in front of it
his mom also told her friends hajime plays volleyball and then told him to play volleyball for them. âmom itâs notâ huh?? i canât play FOR them, itâs not performative!â
it might be a little annoying sometimes when he comes off as unnecessarily mean or overprotective when he tells you (in a harsh voice) to move away from the road or lock your car doors but he just cares and doesnât know how to show it
hajime in a barong. thatâs it
heyyy @mercuriians enjoy đŞđź
#iwas literally thinking about him all day#he's just...soo...yeah#one day i'll sit down and actually write a drabble or something but alas#i like the head and belly btw. schlurp#im bad at folding the rice paper so you would be able to CLEARLY distinguish the ones he did and the ones i attempted#mostly teenage hajime because i'm projecting *smile*#haikyuu#iwaizumi hajime#iwaizumi x reader#filipino iwaizumi#haikyuu headcanons#haikyĹŤ!!#haikyuu!!#dorian.yaps
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