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rainbow-arrow · 2 years

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‘it’s foreshadowing for what’s going to happen with luka’ cool, but yo, ephemeral already had the grandest display of foreshadowing when ladybug was like ‘someone can’t know both heroes identities it’s Not Safe’ to luka who, indeed does know both heroes identities, and ever since that moment i have accepted they might just kill him.

#let's go #'they wouldn't KILL him'#it's what i've expected and accepted #i am in no way HAPPY about it #no one loves luka couffaine how i do #mlb season 5 spoilers #i guess???????#i just pointed out luka wasn't there?#also vesperia isn't in the lineup but it might have to do with her hero form still Under cover?#reading way too much into this i just really love him #and he's been hurt so bad #and i just know my gut feeling it's gonna get so much worse for him #and if they Send Him Away i fucking already did that in untitled so i'm suing #miraculous ladybug #anywho wato is updating on sunday

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fideidefenswhore · 4 months

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the downfall and execution of a tudor queen (2023) / the boleyns: a scandalous family (2021) / the king's pearl: henry viii and his daughter mary (2017), melita thomas / anne boleyn (tv miniseries 2021) / the mirror and the light (2024) / elizabeth (1998)

#web weaving #sort of?#i never feel like my edits really fit #they're more like collages #anyway...me on my island with the one other tudor fan that liked AB 2021 lol #'our expectations were low but holy fuck' sounds like a lot of consternation about a pretty...solid script?#what i loved most about it was moments like the above #the ability to summarize really complex dynamics borne of circumstance #in such a way that you can believe in the world and it serves as its own 'previously on' that a miniseries inherently lacks #esp when it only covers five crucial months #tl; dr there's a lot of smugness evident in many books of this genre #when it comes to anne's attitude towards her stepdaughter #bcus she was quote proven wrong unquote; becaues mary got quote the last laugh unquote...#when really. as per the quotes i've been posting #it doesn't seem like mary's reconciliation with her father was the idyll many have made it #thus we have anne's letter #and offer. knowing that others are offering her better futures #but saying this is the best future you could have. limited time only.#and it seems the future proved her right; not wrong (at least the immediate future)#bcs while matters; had she accepted; might not've been substantially better than they were under the auspices of a 'more gentle' stepmother #it also doesn't really seem like they would have been substantially worse #anne was right that her enemy's supporters wanted her disgraced and/or dead. she was right in that they wanted elizabeth disgraced #and/or dead. she couldn't have predicted what happened to herself in the exact matter it did- mainly bcus it was unprecedented #but it seems she had a pretty clear view of what mary was doing: playing both sides. attempting to ingratiate herself to her father while #also conspiring against him. and she knew it would have been better to have her on side #(and in a more jaundiced view: have her where she could watch what she was doing; who she was seeing)#but perhaps underestimated how impossible it would be to get her there in the first place #('on side' ; that is. not at court. although probably not that either. with the conditions she demanded)#but her fears of mary were not paranoia. they seem to have been grounded in realism #and a clear view of the situation at home and abroad

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inexplicably-spookified · 5 months

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diversity win! this witch is bi... lingual?

#anise #murasaki #my ocs #scribblins #because i feel like dumping some worldbuilding:#witches don't really 'do' sexuality the way humans do #because their cultural understanding of gender/presentation is a lot different #tldr ambiguity and neutrality is the default and the specifics of someone's gender are none of your business #unless your relationship with the person requires you to know or they trust you #to the point where even asking for someone's pronouns is considered rude (you're expected to use neutral terms by default)#and even past that they don't have a perception of binary male/female or cis vs trans #you are what you id as and whether or not that's your 'birth' sex is irrelevant (most witches are a little gender fluid anyway)#anyway all this to say is that for anise being bi (or at least the same sentiment) is like... the default in witch culture #but in human culture while it's accepted it's still not the norm #and she's aware of that but knows she doesn't quite understand the full extent of how it's viewed #(hence her anxiety at telling mura)#wow i think this is the most oc lore i've shared publicly for a long time huh #to clarify... this has nothing to do with cs it's original verse stuff #the lines between my fan ocs and my actual ocs are extremely blurred do not ask me how it works

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existential-dread-in-the-am · 7 months

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Ok I figured something out.

In order to let go of anger, you need to hold it first.

Meaning I fucked up by not allowing myself to be pissed off about my former friend group's bullshit and could not get over the issue for a long time until I finally allowed myself to sing along to the 'fuck you all of you' type of songs for a month, and I'm only now starting to let the feeling go.

You can't process your anger if you never admit that you were angry in the first place, you get trapped in what you refuse to acknowledge.

#like. the whole point of me and everything I've learned ever is that I don't get angry #it's unproductive and makes me impulsive and it's better to think rationally and understand why people do what they do #and then just accept that and plan your own actions based on that without feeling any way about it #but it's not always realistic to live without emotions and certain situations are going to cause stronger reactions #stronger emotions are harder to work through and calmness about whatever caused them takes time and work #and I've been trying to skip ahead straight to 'no I don't feel any way about this this is normal' when it is in fact not #and I should feel some way about it #and AFTER THAT work through the entire thing until I can have peace with it #assuming I should be unaffected by everything all the time is not a reasonable expectation

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sar-per · 8 months

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#my shit #things I a german did not expect today: tatort? and it's gay?#i've only ever seen this show in south germany #watching it with 50 year olds #what happened #tatort saarbrücken #also the one time a street got closed down for filming in the north #however #saarbrücken is not a place i expected queerness from #you look away for a sec and bam more media acceptance?? i think???

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codacheetah · 2 months

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I keep thinking of how I want to taxonomize Siffrin and Loop bc it feels significant to me that Loop and Siffrin both have inherently diverged from the same Traveler Mold they came from. But because I am like a 7 year old I keep sagely nodding to myself going "ah yes... just like mega mewtwo"

#do u understand me. do u understand my vision #they're both siffrins they are just two pathways of how the same one guy develops through their experiences in timeloops #that are the same in basic structure but different in how they affected them #so like siffrin and loop are distinct people. but they're also just branches of preloops siffrin. much like mega mewtwo x and y are distinc #but they are also mewtwo #<-(said like this is somehow profound and not stupid)#liek do you guys get me... i think loop and siffrin are very much in sync #to the point where as seen in canon it's pretty easy for loop to divine what siffrin's thinking down to the phrasing #it's really striking how much loop talks and siffrin fullass does not reply but loop keeps on rollin just fine #but fundamentally they don't think the exact same way when it comes to bigger things #like how loop never fully accepts the idea of talking to the king as something reasonable to do #or how act 4 siffrin is in their own damn world while loop is left going. Stardust what the hell are you on (morose edition)#i think it's fun to find the gaps between them #i've always thought it would be fun. in a postcanon timeskip scenario #for loop to be. flatly worse at reading siffrin than they expect to be. because siffrin has been healing and trying to get better #while loop has been becoming steadily bitter as they tried and failed to cut the rope on their own attachments as some kind of last measure #of self defense against the pain of paving over their old relationship with the party with a new name new role new personality new stardust #to exist alongsides #likewise i think it's fun if siffrin overextends his new understanding of loop as being another self and the feeling of recognition for loo #is simultaneously comforting and Tremendously grating coming from Fucking Stardust #especially if siffrin just assumes shit wrong cuz for as much as hes the only guy who can relate 2 being trapped in a timeloop for months i #was not exactly the same now was it.#isat spoilers #Sorry this is a lot of thinking outloud on a post where i call loop and siffrin mega mewtwo x and y

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tanicus-caesareth · 5 months

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guarana drama, damage control

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rjalker · 1 year

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"Reverse misogyny" stories are not the progressive, feminist power move you think they are, especially not when you expect your readers to be happy and content with the status quo presented by your story. Biological essentialism and sexism are never going to be progressive even if you try to dress them up like they're feminist. They're just not.

#Rjalker reads The Books of the Raksura #Martha Wells #Martha Wells critical #and many other authors I assume #but Martha Wells is the only one I've read so far who's done this...#Reverse bigotry societies where we're supposed to just accept the bigotry as normal and fine and unchangeable...#instead of something that needs to be fought no matter its current presentation....is not feminist.#The Books of the Raksura #Raksura #Moon is presented as an outlier who should not be counted #the rest of the consorts --and arbora-- are perfectly happy with the way they're being oppressed.#if you think The Books of the Raksura is arguing against sexism or biological essentialism you don't understand what biological essentialis #is. And you don't know what feminism really is.#you should figure that out before trying to argue that the books of the Raksura ARE Super Feminist Actually™#Like IDK how to tell you this. Turning it from ''women are treated like property and expected to breed to be worth anything''#to ''men are treated like property and expected to breed to be worth anything''#and they're all happy with this situation and no one is protesting or unahappy with it because it's Biologically Natural™#IS NOT IN ANY WAY SHAPE OR FORM FEMINIST OR PROGRESSIVE #feminism #transfeminism #writing tips #writing advice #feminist writing tips #feminist writing

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pinkinsect · 2 months

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they should've changed the side chigiri's hair was braided on when he joined manshine

#i've not the most football knowleve but since he usually played on the right i would have accepted his hair only being up on the left side #because that's what he needs to see. but on manshine he's on the left now and now his hair is covering his peripheral vision.#but also i should not expect this from bllk character designs..#masayapping

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girlcrushau · 6 months

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#me? about to use tumblr as a diary again? in 2024? unfortunately:/#but here have a waterfall i saw on a hike last week as payment #i am sO tired and exhausted emotionally after dating #there's this guy that i fr thought was going to last and be around for a long time. we spent like every moment together that we could for 2 #months straight and if we werent physicaly together we were texting or calling or on ft . just every part of our day had the other in it #not once did i ever feel unwanted undesired or uncared for. not once did i feel that i wasnt sure of his intentions. i felt safer with him #in those 2 months than i ever did with any one else i could think to compare to.#until one day he just didnt think it important to communicate any more. after 3 days of nearly nothing .. hardly any talking . i asked if #he was ok if we were ok. what was going on in his head. he said some ive just been with my buddies and family and havent been on my phone #and just. immediately thats heartbreak yanno. thats :// thats what they say when theres a new girl. but there'd never been a reason to think #there was another girl so i was like ok we're gonna trust bc this dude has been So good in every way. so i said imy but i understand. enjoy #your time with your buddies and with your fam -- i cant wait to hear about it (and hold you)#and i havent heard from him in the 3 weeks since. just randomly #so last night #i send the dreaded 'i miss you' text.#i dont expect to hear back and i accept the hurt that will come with that and the confusion that i've felt settles deeper into my heart #until this afternoon i hop on ig and see a hard launch that was posted an hour after my text was sent #that shit kinda hurt different. but also sent me into a bit of a delirious state where all i could do is laugh bc are you for fucking real #did she see my message? i know it. bc i know him and i know that he wouldnt hide anything from the person he's giving his heart #and his softness to. i can almost imagine how he showed her and promised her theres nothing to worry about #and there really isnt anything to worry about because he genuinely is the type to give his all to the relationship he's in #which feels silly to say after what happened w us. like no there wasnt a title ever #it sucks to call it a situationship because a month ago we were laughing in bed together about how we could never bc we were all in.#just the timing of the hard launch makes me giggle. did my text push them to have a conversation about what they are. was she really the #reason that he went away on me.#im trying not to blame myself . trying not to think about the phone calls i didnt answer. about what i could have done differently. trying #not to think about where we would be if i didnt let my anxieties hold me back. if i wasnt scared about what he'd think of the parts of me #that i keep hidden just a little bit longer than the rest.#and at the same time im trying not to put him on a pedestal. but that pedestal is just where i wholeheartedly believe he belongs #he set the bar for me. he set the standard. i was never too much. i was never too little. he made me feel perfect just as i am

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aeolianblues · 2 months

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pop stars aren't born in the 70s anymore like they used to be. These days they're born in a year uncomfortably close to my own which makes me clutch my chest and cry out

#music #musicians #Nia Archives was on radio the other day going 'my album's the first jungle album to be nominated for the Mercury Prize in over 25 years #that's such an honour! The last one was Roni Size and I wasn't even born then' --hang on a minute #that album was like. 1997. 'I wasn't even born yet'?#Folks she is a year older than me 😭(❤️ but also personally 😒)#Cat Burns' Mercury shortlisted album is called 'early twenties'. It is a term I am told I can no longer use for myself.#She says 'the album was a 4-year long process. I started writing it when I was 20.' Cat Burns is my age.#CMAT. Dublin's 'global superstar'. 1997. Literally she's such a classic popstar/country star I'd have expected to read like '1987' or somet #not in terms of saying she's old or anything; just that that seems appropriate for someone who's in control of their career #CMAT is like 2 years older than I am. It's so wild to me #especially this time! There have been a lot of debut albums you see #and I'm really proud of all these--I suppose at my age I'm allowed to say--kids; my peers? But it's also so strange to see #My peers are at the Mercuries. Declan McKenna is like a year older than me #That has been in my head ever since Brazil came out. He was 15. I was 14.#sigh it's a long road to either acceptance or such radical change that I 'catch up' with everyone; whatever that means #yes I'm well aware that comparison isn't a thing to do. I know it's not productive.#I try not to let it get me anxious; afterall what do I do about it?#It's not like I've got the ball rolling on anything significant to speak of. I'm just at ordinary work #idk also the industry I work in doesn't exist anymore hahahaaaa so yeah. No career. Only far away admirations! :)#We will have no infrastructure and we will be happy.#Don't read all this; just laugh at the meme about age and move on #growing up

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anouri · 2 years

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this is probably tmi but i'm already oversharing atm anyway might as well continue i could write an essay on how important kyd!regulus is to me if only because of the representation of someone who tried to come out and was simply told "no" and shoved right back into the closet

#literally i've never seen that depicted before #and that's what happened to me #like you always see families either disowning their kids or immediate/eventual acceptance #either way it is a “one and done” sort of thing #when i came out to my family i was so ready to be disowned #what i did not expect is my family to just be like “oh. that's not true” then pretend it never happened and then #i just have to accept that i'm back in the closet again #despite worrying over coming out for literally years #...#this is probably oversharing #a decomposing dump of my thoughts

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butts-bouncing-on-the-beltway · 3 months

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I think I've been touchy lately about my feelings of access to/participation in generativity. I've been feeling really overwhelmed lately by how much needs doing and how much disparate but necessary information I'm keeping in my head. I should probably get back into my thought maps for the work on the yard and house, because I think that will make it easier for me to empty my head when I'm not actively trying to work on something.

#i'm feeling a sinking recognition that i need to build a life for myself that's functional #even if it means accepting norms that i have been trying to cight for a long time in my relationships #boundaries are weird and hard and i've never been particularly good at them #but if the comversations i have with my clients are anything to go by #i have a solid understanding of how to identify and communicate them #i just don't seem to have the will to stand by my decision when push comes to shove #so people around me carry on doing what they've always done #and going all shocked pikachu face when i finally collect myself enough to remind them exactly how i feel about their behavior #oh i have no idea you felt like this!!!#why are you so angry and snappish all the time?????#i just don't have any idea what else you expect from me i already spend all my time thinking about what i expect you to expect of me?#what do you mean that's not the same thing as actually having open lines of communication with me and treating me like awhole fuckin person #i work so hard not to take my frustration out on anyone #to be kind and calm and clear when I talk #to love the things about them that i love and enjoy the time with them that i enjoy without feeling compelled to seek disappointment #asking for more or different just won't happen so what's the point of looking to feel hurt #and i do have a lot of different areas of my life that fulfill different needs of mine #so i understand that i'm lucky and should really probably accept that i am much less alone than I often feel #i just wish i had someone in my life who was both willing and able to see all of me with affection #or at least. someone who was willing and able to take on that role and who I am willing and able to trust with the role #therapy helps #my new therapist is nice and seems open and understanding #but i understand our relationship probably better than most patients given the circumstances #i know how important it is that she never be more than a facilitator of space in my life #she seems good at doing that and i appreciate having the space again #i don't really know what i want anymore but i know i'm tired of feeling unwelcome in my wholeness of self

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trans-xianxian · 11 months

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also I just never really learned the skill of Making Friends With Someone. I don't really get how it works. like I am Incredibly good at Getting Along With People and being performatively charming, I can get along with almost anyone and be polite and friendly and have continous positive social interactions with them, but I don't know how to turn that into actual friendship. and some of this is my fault because I Know that I'm chronically afraid of over stepping and not realizing that I'm pushing myself onto a person who doesn't actually want to be friends with me so I just never reach out and that's bad and I need to stop doing that. but also how is it possible that no one ever reaches out to Me. ever. at all. I never have the chance to Accept the offer of a potential friendship. like what am I doing so wrong to signal to other people that they shouldn't try to be friends with me. like whats the deal

#like can I just not tell? are ppl trying to be friends w me and I just don't get it so they stop?#do I need a shirt that says I can't take hints throw rocks at me?#I refuse to accept that there is just something irrevocably wrong w me that makes it so no one wants to be my friend. so whats the catch.#I know I can make friends I have some. and by some I mean 5 #my entire social circle aside from ppl I'm literally related to #is 5 people #and theres nothing Wrong with that #I just wish it wasn't true about me #but I just don't get what I'm doing wrong #it feels like a stupid hopeless game no one ever told you the rules to but you're expected to understand anyway #anyway sowwy I've just been feeling very lonely lately lmao #need to make new friends need to be gay kissed #ghost posts #text

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optigami · 1 year

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finally watched the season 5 finale....ermmm what was that

#LITERALLY ADRIEN DID NOTHING??? 😭#i was expecting for the reveal with adrien and gabriel but we got NOTHING. THEY DIDNT FIND OUT #maybe it could have been good of we didnt spend 2 episodes on the stupid chloe plotline #uuugh like i've been saying since s4 that gabriel should die + emilie lived but like....i got what i wanted and i still didnt like it 😭#also like...emilie just resuscitated and. did everyone just accept that #like did no one find it weird that sdrien's dad is gone and his mom is suddenly alive LMAO #miraculous season 5 #miraculous spoilers #rambles #also how did nathalie live #like i love nathalie but didn't she die 😭

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rawliverandgoronspice · 6 months

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I just: finished my translation work 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

#thoughts #IT'S DONE!!!!!!#IT'S DONE!!!!#I've been working on this game since almost exactly 2 years #two years and one month to be exact #so I'm a little emotional!!#it's going to be a really sweet game I'm happy I got to work on it #with a story that is simple and approachable but with pretty neat character depth #like a hot cocoa and cinnamon cookie during a rainy day kind of game #ALSO I got my first feedback on the unmanageable thralls outline #and the issues weren't where I expected them to be #it's always the thing I assumed I had nailed...................#actually once I secure an acceptable v2 #I Might look for people willing to give me feedback #especially on the most sensitive parts (but also overall)#I just need to be more sure of myself + have some kind of sample scene that I can slide alongside so people can get an idea of #what it actually looks like re: medium and mood etc #ANYWAY

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