#it's the intellectual connection for me
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I hate to do it because I try not to disrespect the dead, but the temps are forcing my hand here. Trina asking Spencer if he really understands her when she's talking about her art perspective and him immediately responding that he does with zero hesitation, was such a posthumous "fuck you" to Rory.
Trina would try to bring Rory into her world, and he would always give her this blank smile and admit that he had no idea what she was talking about but that he loved watching her talk.
And you could tell how discontent Trina was with that because she so clearly wants to be understood. Spencer understands her.
#general hospital#trina robinson#spencer cassadine#rory cabrera#i know he's looking up sad as hell#it's the intellectual connection for me#temps throwing down the gauntlet 👀
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oh you get it
#when I telllll you that the show uses tumors / livers / organs to denote romances and codependent relationships I Mean it.#house is able to better emotionally connect when his relationships are medicalised in some ways. you just have to trust me on that.#I'm not even particularly a hilson truther because I'm a cuddy girl through and through but I enjoy queerbait. it's more intellectually#satisfying than canonised bland gay romances <3#text#house md#liverisms tag#sort of
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#an art#Fuyuhiko kuzuryu#Hajime hinata#I once again feel so much better after talking to a friend#Sometimes after a while without close friends I feel like some sort of invasive organism into human life#Like I just cant connect to other ppl at all. I'm like a marionette. BUT.#Talking to my friend who gets me makes me remember I DO have a rhythm with someone and they do get me#Intellectually. I have other friends who get me socially. Another who gets me emotionally#Both very important. I am more confused about how to portray it maybe#But conversation. Those two exclusively do that. Someone you can talk to forever without having to pause to explain#Very valuable.
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if you don't understand the options, Odd Nation Cartoons just released auditions for Disventure Camp Season 4, with an original cast! while the names may be fake, the character profiles and lines are theoretically real. bios below the cut.
i think i need a line of text here to get the cut to work. hello.
#disventure camp#disventure camp s4#since i don't have enough options let me explain how i determined pairs#basically i tried to pair people who i thought had stuff in common#“hassan”/“marcos”: both seem over-the-top and might have something to do with food#“lily”/“john”: both seem to say the wrong thing and seek approval from others#“riku”/“lionel”: both seem to be nerdy/intellectual young men with some level of frustration#“nia”/“devin”: both have lines relating to athletics and are connected to people/opinions from their past#“cecilia”/“ariana”: both seem to have a positive vibe and might be someone spiritual#“cindy”/“bob”: the two oldest competitors who seem to be a bit judgmental#“matteo”/“skylar”: both seem to be artistic and somewhat goth-y?#“nadia”/“aurora”: both seem to have themes of appearance and will possibly be abrasive (mention those who don't like them)#“ruby”/“louise”: both seem to be competent and independent young women#poll
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#i have so many behaviours and fears and#no emotional regulation and issues and disorders and fearrrrr#and i do not know how to explain it so that ppl who dont relate can possibly understand it#but it is like i am trapped in a nightmare dimension where everything is always bad#my brain isnt even wired to see anything in a positive or hopeful light#which is how humans are wired typically to ensure survival lol#in swedish avpd is also called anxious personality disorder#which can clue in on the fact that if you know what a personality disorder is#(your brain hasnt developed normally but in a disordered way. often bc of trauma etc)#my brain is wired to be anxious abt wverything all the time#so i always naturally see everything in a negative and dark and bad and horrible light#which is fucking terrible. it makes life exhausting and like a constant fight#other ppl dont get that bc their brains arent wired to have this horrible outlook on EVERYTHING#so thid just gives me extreme trust issues and my brain always fights to make sense of things#bc it cannot do so in a rational manner#and basically i just feel so ashamed when i think of how like... overly emotional and fearful i am#as soon as anything happens im like wow this person literally wants to kill me bc humans are evil#which i know intellectually isnt tru bc if it was i'd be dead by now 💀#ig i just feel so lucky that one person still is my friend after almost 2yrs now#despite my whateverthefuck moments when idek what im saying..#'working thru my emotions' in a way that doesnt make sense#esp when hes seen some of what i've written and im like NOOO i was spiraling when i said that i dont mean that i think most likely i dont#anyway.. feeling grateful 🙏 i wish i was normal#or at least had th ability to have connections and relationships most ppl w mental illness are still capable of having#avpd is fucked upppp it is such a weird mental disability.... 0-o#bc of my fear i also struggle with relaxing into it bc im like no imma fuck it up soon or no hes gonna leave me soon bc i suck and dont#deserve having him in my life at all. i really wish my brain wasnt wired to be terrified like i hate my brain and myself like why cant#i just be normal!!!!!! ☹️ i am thankful for every moment still.
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Obsessed with how expressive Victoria Coren Mitchell is
#I have a frankly unreasonable amount of screenshots of her that I’ve been obsessively taking#I’ve been binging only connect and man#Victoria in charge and intellectual and occasionally complimentary fucks me up#there will probably be more parts to this because man I have a lot of photos of her#also I’ve never related to her more than when she made that expression while trying to do math. like girl me too#victoria coren mitchell#only connect#cats does countdown#8oo10cdc
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I do tend to like the trope of "one or both characters faking or being disingenuous about their role in a relationship but ending up being shaped by it anyway"—and yes "fake dating" and all its variants are included in that! but! that is not the end-all-be-all; the possibilities here are endless. for example:
fake mentor/mentee
fake siblings
fake bodyguard/person they are protecting
fake parent/child
fake prisoner/guard
fake royalty/servant
fake rivals
fake divorced
even just. fake friends please I love fake friends
#tropes#fr though the situation with Shallan and Jasnah in The Way of Kings was so compelling to me#I cannot understand why some people said those sections were boring I was waiting for them specifically#the only thing getting me through Kaladin's long depressing bits sorry#bc like. She's coming into being the student/ward with ulterior motives#and intent to betray and steal from her mentor?#but she still respects her and wants to learn from her#and does learn from her#even as she's plotting behind her back#and you can see them connecting intellectually and personally and learning and developing as people because of their relationship#but we know that it can't last bc the trust is going to be broken#and that scene in the bath where Shallan almost steals the soulcaster had me absolutely on the edge of my seat#!!!!!!!#anyway#as an example
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I’m gonna chew off my own toes if I see one more insane literature opinion on tiktok
#the Angel on my shoulder says ‘delete tiktok’ and the devil on my other shoulder says ‘funny videos of cats are very important’#fr though tiktok is one of the few ways I stay connected with one of my old friends so I don’t want to delete it#but I HAVE to stop watching booktok videos. They only make me irate#There’s too many young people on tiktok tbh. Am aging? is this what aging is like??#anti intellectualism#is rampant on there. It’s like 2012 Tumblr. Probably not good for my health#what hath booktok wrought
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#reminder to self: talk about the ecstatic joy felt when you fall down an internet rabbit hole#and you are no longer a flesh and bone creature existing to meatspace#but a purely disembodied intellectual force#connecting with they hivemind of the internet to internet the love letters#from artists/developers that are cryptic Easter eggs and hidden messages#(to decipher the love letters that are Easter eggs)#from artist/developers to the void that is loving inhabited by humanity at their most obsessive#I love when my body falls away and I am only intellectual pursuit#(yes I am drunk and watched several Jacob Geller videos)#including the one about shadow of the colossus#involving a group of internet obsessive who loved and believed so hard#the developers were moved by their passion and created the last great secret they sought in the remaster#compete with cryptic instructions to unlock a door that only existed#because they believe in the base game it could be opened (when it couldn’t)#that is love#that is love passed from one group to another in communion#until you love the very thing you were seeking into existsnce#believing in something so hard you MAKE it become#birth it into existence#it’s moments like this that remind me why I don’t actually hate humanity#sometimes I wish we’d all die in a firey cataclysm because I hate our stupidly so much#much this reminds me that we love so hard we deserve the world
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ok but the thing is that "hurt" is an adjective, verb, and noun. so the linguistic poeticism is still there, albeit in a slightly different way. yes, "hurt" as a description of a person's state holds true across tenses because it is indeed an adjective, but the fact remains that it's a lexicologically interesting word! personally, what i find really neat is that "hurt" is both an intransitive verb used for the person being wounded and a transitive verb for the act of wounding someone. it's an intriguing concept to think of pain as something that draws connections between people. something that weaves together victim and perpetrator in some inseparable way. that you can't hurt someone without it changing you as well. idk what exactly that says about pain as a human experience, and it's a lot of using imagination and metaphor to extract and extend meaning from language, but it's still fascinating!
#also hot take the culture of dunking on people for mistakes for the sake of likes or reblogs is a toxic part of this website#and the whole internet in general tbh#like#of course people make mistakes. not everyone has spent hours researching linguistics.#that doesn't make them stupid#your knowledgeability of grammar doesn't make you intellectually superior#maybe your pretentiousness about it actually just makes you unkind#just a thought#op was just excited about the idea that even words capture the lasting nature of pain#you don't need to belittle them and stomp on their joy just because they made a syntactical error#you can tell people they're mistaken without being a dick about it#and i LOVE linguistics and connecting with other language nerds getting overly excited about the magic of words#but having that as an interest doesn't make me inherently better than other people?#i'm not god's prettiest little princess just because i get excited about lexicology more than the average person#and all of this would still be true even if “hurt” wasn't a cool multipurpose word!!#just. people should be able to not know everything about a topic and not be ridiculed for it#horribly cheesy middle school posters were RIGHT bullying isn't as cool as you think it is#ok this post about yay words has turned into an overarching critique of the lack of human empathy and grace#time for me to shut up#linguistics#languages#language stuff#lingblr#my thoughts
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i have literally nowhere else to put this i apologise for the spam. the absolute best thing to come out of s3 trent is without a doubt the fucking earnestness... like in s1-2 he always came across as a very self-assured kind of guy, who knew how he came off (ie: intimidating) and enjoyed it. but seeing that paired with him being silly + completely relaxing in certain company??? pulling ridiculous faces at vodka + scrunching up his nose when he smiles @ colin + making the most ABSURD 'i really wanna say something right now but i feel like im interrupting' noises ive ever heard in my fucking LIFE??? its like. he is cool as shit and he is self assured AND he can make dumb fucking sherlock holmes jokes and dance ridiculously. its like!!!! he's lame but he's also not bc he's exactly as confident in being lame as he is being cool. do u see the vision. he has killed the part of him that cringes!!!! its just.. that unshakeable self confidence that u see in his fucking swaggers into frame includes all of himself + his different moods and eccentricities and that's just so based to me idk. unironically live ur best life wear the loudest combination of prints and patterns and primary colours uve ever seen in ur life while espousing the virtues of extended museum hours!!! contain multitudes! get silly with it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
#ted lasso spoilers#combined with james lance's hc abt trent's past its just. like!!#the growth from 'i can't be what you want me to be so im going to be Better than them + tear them down'#-> 'i know my reputation so im going to lean into that + be ruthless + intimidating' ->#'actually fuck this? fuck this! im just gonna be me and if anyone has a problem w then L To Them I'm Actually Living'#also this is just my hcs at this point but like. i do think ted helped a lot w the latter part of this process in so much as. ted embodied#someone who was Visibly weak + vulnerable and had no armour/no sense of self preservation#(the opposite of trent's persona) and made no effort to change anything abt himself to prevent attack. obviously ted has a lot of social +#class advantages that make that less risky for him than it would be for others but like. u get the drift#and i THINK. seeing how without that armour/facade ted was able to be rlly direct + earnest w connecting w ppl#like asking an interviewer 'what do u love?' and rlly genuinely wanting to know the answer#and bc TRENT was specifically in the position of 'i could fucking destroy u rn and u wouldn't put up a fight'#that kind of. shifted his perspective a bit? like. damn what would that say abt me if i wrote a hit piece on this guy rn#i disagree VERY strongly w the idea that trent's more positive character development moments happened ONLY bc of ted (i don't think that's#true for anyone in the show tbh) BUT i think ted's presence at a pivotal point in his life was what helped him confront the fact that#at this stage in his life all his intellectual armour was doing was making him into someone Mean rather than just incisive#like. 'is this a fucking joke' is not cutting journalism. u get me??#and arguably that's a fine and even safe choice to make when ur younger and have no support/reputation backing u up#but after decades? its like man wtf are we doign here if were literally just living preventatively#smth smth i hope i am not just a tumblr blog to u but a blog who is inventing the brain chemistry of a sitcom side character#w each new episode they watch. trent crimm is my best friend irl i know he would have scorching hot takes abt each new season of survivor#and would earnestly heckle the jury and final 3 alike
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andy samberg is quite literally the last person i ever expected to be married to joanna newsom wtf
#as an outside spectator who has no actual connection to them it just seems to random to me dsfsdvghsfdhg#hes like a jokey meme guy and shes like this serious intellectual musician its so whack to me#but good on them for subverting my expectations. i was expecting some random other dude but andy samberg???????????????????????#the fuckin. im on a boat guy??????????????????????????????????????????
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#the problem is that... yes i do want friends but...#talking to guys i always feels like there will always be this divide between us that can never be bridged#and that we can never fully understand eo#but the thing is with women..... hmmm i dont really fw most women#bc women dont care at all abt other women#and women gaslight and victim blame eo to hell and back#i dont feel safe or comfortable around women either#so idk it just sucks bc i cant fully relate to guys but i cant relate to women either#im alwayyyyyyyys unable to relate and connect to any of them#it's so fkn alienating and it drives me crazy#because i just cant relate or connect or understand anyobe#anyone*#and no one ever understands me#it's such a lonely existence#and i WISH i was like everyone else#idk why i had to be cursed to be this way. i WANT to be normal and think and be just like everyone else#being different and abnormal is extremely painful#i dont fit in anywhere and i cant connect to anyone and im always ... and outsider and outcast#*always*. everywhere. it's so sad#i cant just pretend to be normal and like everyone else bc i just feel sad and empty and dont keep it up#i just think maybe i should die.... this world will NEVER understand me#and to be honest i will never ever understand this world#even if i do understand it on an intellectual level i dont understand it on an emotional one#i hate it sm. i dont wanna be alone#but i simply cannot relate to anyone i meet
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y’all, I am making a new friend 😭
#SUCH a kindred spirit#Hung out this afternoon and this evening#talked about books and movies and our mutual love of England#Found out she’s an intellectual swiftie like me!!!!!!!#We studied and read Wendell Berry and Mary Oliver poetry#She extolled the theme of subcreation and motherhood in Barbie to me#Honestly I might cry#It’s so extraordinary to me anytime I make a new friend???#Like#I think it’s caused by my insecurities in part. I fancy myself rather unlikable#And I’m judgy and snobby by nature and perhaps those flaws appear larger in my own eyes?#Plus I’m an introvert with some unusual interests and life experiences (not so noticeable here lol)#ANyWay#the point is#connecting with someone feels so rare and precious#A true gift from God#I’ve had such a lovely evening and now I will fold laundry and watch a movie hooray#it’s me hi
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I think part of the reason why I struggle to feel close with anyone is like. I really only know how to get my social need filled through judgement and approval and rank-climbing.
It's part of why I keep wanting to involve myself in Greek Life, despite knowing how toxic it is. I'd have people around me always, constant social events, and the expectations would be clear and harsh always. So I'd have clear and easy ways to get supply. If someone's "love" is conditional, then I know when I'm doing the right things, I know when they're approving of me, I know when we're "connecting". I crave it.
But the system's close friends? They'll approve of us no matter what. So like. What then? How do I feel that connection? If I don't have to earn their care, what direction am I supposed to go in? What do I do, what do I talk about, how do I act?
#just spilling thoughts everywhere rn but ugh#im so lonely#saw smthn online that felt like it was calling me out directly lmaooo#about not caring about individuals and only caring about avoiding loneliness#(like i care abt ppl's well-being but i have no personal investment)#it felt like a strength. grey cares so deeply about specific people but also gets cut just as deeply bc of it#meanwhile i could get attention from anyone and be just as satisfied. couldn't care less about who it was or if x or y person randomly#stopped talking to me#(b4 anyone comes at me. again i intellectually care about the well-being of individuals. like i want them to have a good life and a good da#yknow. and im not a jerk. and personally i DO *want* to connect i just dont know how. the emotions and drive aren't there. it's not persona#at all. and it's fine if that's a dealbreaker for ppl but i'm not evil for it and i don't treat people badly bc of it)#my supply-seeking and overworking myself and ED behaviors are all caused by the same underlying need#i don't know how to exist without people. which is so funny bc for so long i've acted like i'm so invulnerable and independent and don't#give a shit about anyone's approval. but i do. so fucking deeply. and since direct interpersonal relationships are terrifying#my brain seeks out the next best thing - societal approval. no names or faces attached. just anyone. something. anything.#when i'm talking one-on-one with someone - yknow what no gonna make this another post and try and work it out separately
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#i spent the whole day consuming haikyuu content and i'm so inconsolable right now#the series has had a special place in my heart for years now but i've never entirely understood why#like it's a very visceral‚ instinctual and emotional type of love that i haven't been able to feel towards any other series#and this is even when i haven't reread/rewatched the series in a long time#but it's always at the back of my mind and i always mean to come back to it eventually#now that i've watched/read some analyses on it‚ it's clearer now how furudate-sensei's masterful writing was what made hq so special to me#even if i couldn't intellectually understand‚ the raw emotion that this series continues to pull out of me is a testament to how good it is#the series isn't just about volleyball‚ it's about passion‚ life‚ connections‚ hunger#there's so many good life lessons you can get from it and relearning them is just one benefit of rereading it i think#it's so utterly dense that if you sit back and think about it or read up about it�� you can see how intricate each journey is#and it uses volleyball as a vehicle to convey these themes#i'm getting so emotional again holy shit#god haikyuu is so good y'all#it means so much to me#still one of the best pieces of fiction i've ever had the pleasure of consuming#haikyuu!!#The Cloud Talk
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