#it's sunshine to me

[seokminfilm]

the place we made | lee seokmin

pairing: lee seokmin x reader

warnings: idol au, angst and fluff mix together in this, crying, mentions of being alone, mentions of anxiety & overthinking, "missing your boyfriend seokmin" hours, reader is reminiscing on their and seokmin's relationship

now playing: place we were made - maisie peters

word count: 849

a/n: requested by the amazing pookie @kyeomssant!! i think i'm going to start taking requests now so don't feel free to drop something in my inbox <3 ALSO ALSO i really love hearing from you guys :( if you like it, don't be afraid to comment or reblog!! it makes me happy seeing you guys enjoy my silly fics <3 okay enjoy 🪄

It was so quiet without your Seokmin, running around the small apartment with energy to spare as he kept you on your toes. He'd jump around the kitchen happily on a Saturday morning just like this one, excited to cook breakfast for the two of you as he brewed your favorite coffee.

The sun dipped into the silent kitchen as the birds began to sing, and you sluggishly pulled open the refridgerator door, tears in your eyes as you sighed heavily.

It had been almost a month since your boyfriend had left on another world tour, and you had two more weeks to go (which you hated to think about). Life had become quieter, which would be good to some, but to you, it was the worst thing that could have ever happened.

Seokmin was your rock, the one who grounded you when things got overwhelming or depressing. He could always put a smile on your face when all you could do is cry, and even if he didn't understand your struggle, he would do his best to put himself in your shoes and give you the best comfort he could.

You did everything together, from little things like cleaning the house on a Friday evening, dancing to music as he took his hand in yours to going grocery shopping, Seokmin's hands slyly brushing across your waist as if to tease you while he was reaching for something on the shelf. It always brought a chuckle from you, seeing his terrible ways of hiding the displays of affection he loved giving to you.

You never tried to take things for granted with Seokmin because you knew he had tours like this where he would be gone for weeks on end, but you couldn't help like you missed a core memory when Seokmin hugged you one last time before disappearing inside with his luggage and bags.

It was a reoccuring thing, too⎯you always swore to spend the most time you could with your sweet boyfriend before he left on world tours, but it was impossible for you to feel fufilled without your other half.

Trying not to spill your tears on the english muffin you were trying to prepare, you sighed, looking to the sunny day starting to arrive. Butterflies flitted back and forth in front of the open window, and you stared at them, watching how they played with each other.

The butterflies reminded you of the way Seokmin would cheer you up by playing tag with you, chasing you in the backyard during the summertime just to catch you and pounce on top of you, landing on top of you as you giggled under him. He would stare into your eyes, lips curving into the prettiest smile before he kissed you just seconds later.

........The butterflies weren't helping your situation, were they?

"Oh my god," You whispered aloud, in disbelief at the amount of sadness that was filling your body. Everything was shining outside, yet it felt like a dark closet in your house without the light of your life.

"I've got to do something better than sit here and cry over my breakfast." Leaving the kitchen, you trudged your way down the hall to your (and Seokmin's) shared room. Finding your boyfriend's hoodie drawer, you tugged out one of your favorites, sliding it on as the lingering smell almost made you break.

When would you feel his arms around you again? When would you smell the faint trail of his cologne a mile away?

Falling to the ground, you finally let it out, tears appearing on your cheeks in a matter of seconds as you finally let go. The room was quiet, save for the sound of your labored breathing and small sobs, but it was comforting, in a way. It was as if the whole apartment was comforting you in your loneliness.

"I'll be okay." You whispered to yourself, imagining your boyfriend's sweet voice whispering "You'll be okay," as he hugged you so tight, you felt as if you could melt into him, nothing but joy and peace resonating from you forever and ever.

He always joked that he would cry if you melted away, but right now, you'd rather do that then suffer alone like you felt you were right now.

Sighing again, you wiped yourself of your tears, putting on a smile as a sliver of hope turned into a burst of hope in your chest. Your whole body was warm with nothing but happy thoughts of your sweetheart, your dear prince Seokmin, and you felt as if you could go on forever without him if you had too, the memories so sweet and so tangible you could relieve thim every second if you desired.

You wouldn't have to live without him though. He would be back home. Two more weeks, and he'd be back with you in his arms. Two more weeks, and you could feel his kiss again. Two more weeks, and you could kiss the end of his nose as he chuckled under you.

Two more weeks, and your place that you and Seokmin made would be complete again.

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