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I'M ALIVE, I'M REVIVED, I SURVIVED!
#revived by derivakat fits him so well??#idk why#it's probably because it's 1am#tw blood#tw body horror??#a bit#of it#the face#ahit#ahit fanart#ahit snatcher#ahit art#ahit prince#a hat in time snatcher#snatcher#the prince ahit#a hat in time the prince
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you open my Super Important Documents and its just pictures of charles xavier
#xmen#mcu#xmen movies#xmen first class#charles xavier#professor x#snap sketches#todays schedule has been ruined by my ever occurring need to practice drawing movie charles its horrendous#i started this sheet last night but then i kept adding to it and i keep wanting to add to it but i MUST stop myself#in an ideal world i get paid to draw charles xavier and erik lehnsherr but no i live in this baka society#sleepless charles WAS inspired by me starting this at 1AM and forcing myself to sleep at 4AM#and then here i am picking i up still later .... i need professional help i fear but i aint got time for that#NEVERTHELESS I THINK IT GOT IT NOW. I THINK IM OK. i think i know how i wanna go bout drawing him now ...#chat can i confess that like. .5% of the reason i barely draw FC charles i because of his hair#for some reason some demonic entity prevents me from drawing it easily i am in STRUGGLE CITY#the only thing that gets me is that whenever i draw him i can only think of the likes of a disney prince but man thems the strokes ig#i also drew a quick dark phoenix charles but i figured id just keep this first class oriented#anything else i want to say ? uh. hm. its funny i never do any of these sheets for erik#genuinely On My Life made One (1) sheet and was like 'no yeah i got it. i got it down'#literally not my fault his head is So Shaped and defined but anyways. this aint about him.#i mean it could be. i still wanna do a doodle page concentrated on drawing how his powers show#more specifically how do i wanna draw the glow cause i cant decide on it ... also i wanna draw the 'levels' ...#but thats for another time. for right now i should probably eat i havent eaten all day#bye bye !!!!!! here's to hoping i draw something thats not a doodle sheet one of these days
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What if Bruce so obsessively worked to keep his identities separate, he actually gave himself a split personality?
Like, when the cowl is on he IS Batman. Not Bruce, Bruce has left the building. Batman is in control now.
Oh, and at parties, the Brucie mask starts to become *more* than a mask. Brucie is here, queer, and ready to paaartay! Batman? He doesn't know the man! Literally forgets Batman is a part of him too.
So, what I'm getting at here is any type of Truth toxin, serum, test, whatever. None of it would work on them. Batman IS Batman. Brucie doesn't know who Batman is. Bruce Wayne is smart and skilled enough to not be caught under forced truthfulness.
It would take a LOT of asking the right questions to get Batman's identity behind the mask. And I would love to see a villain try!
#dc#batman#bruce wayne#brucie wayne#dc prompt#dcu#batfamily#batfam#batman prompt#Bruce is the original identity#and knowingly or created the others#does he even realize the others exist?#i feel he has both the most and least control over the system#because he can make the others take control to suit his needs#but relinquishing control so often probably makes him lose control more too#like a case comes up and suddenly Batman is in the drivers seat#or a reporter suddenly comes up and now Brucie is directing this show#Bruce’s paranoia backfires#his needs for complete order and control has made him lose his own control in a way#or something#i feel im not wording this quite right#but it's 1am and im doing my best
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Lilia, done hearing Rio talk in her ear: Fine you girls want a fight?
Agatha, readying her magic: I can drain you easily
Rio: In more ways than one
Lilia: Not the fight I was foreseeing
Rio: Madre dios
Agatha: Am I- I mean yes, my wife and I can take you in a fight *slaps Rio on shoulder to get her attention*
Rio: Mommy, break me, choke me, use me—
Agatha, covering her mouth: Too soon, dear
Lilia: I’ll teach you both a lesson
Agatha, let out a light moan: Oh, yes teach us—
Rio, shoving Agatha: Spit in my mouth, and RIDE ME—
Lilia, tired sigh: I have a long night ahead of me…
#funny story#it’s past 1am where I am at I should probably get some sleep#but then as my brain does#it creates#some shit that I had to write down and this time post#because I was like…yeah yall will want this now rather than later#more to come when I actually finally sleep#yes I haven’t sleep in five days and I’m happy to finally feel sleeps cold embrace#agatha all along#agatha harkness#rio vidal#agathario#agatha x rio#kathryn hahn#agatha all along spoilers#aubrey plaza#marvel#lilia calderu#incorrect quotes#incorrect marvel quotes#agatha all along incorrect quotes#lilia decided to beat agathario at their own game#later today#we will see what happens
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Getting berated and being told you do nothing only makes me not want to be seen doing anything at all around the person that made the comments.
I'm tired, I'm trying alright. I put art as a top priority when I'm even able to get into drawing. I still have drawings I want to get done for the upcoming con. I have a few comms but yeah that's considered doing nothing.
I know I'm in the wrong for not helping out around the house nearly enough. I already know I'm disappointing for taking so damn long learning driving theory and not going to the course nearly enough. I don't even want to learn driving at this point because the "so did you get your driver's licence ? It would help your mom a lot if you knew how to drive" Does not make me want to drive at all. I'm tired of hearing this.
The same way I stopped playing the piano, because I hated playing when someone was around and making comments, and I never made progress in the end. The same way only vacuum clean when the room is empty because I don't want comments on the way I proceed and how inefficient it might be.
Hell I got judged because my sophrologist helped me writing an e-mail and making an administrative call. "Why do you keep leaning on others and having them do things for you." Is what I got told.
And when I tell that it's hard for me and it really helped and I felt better I just get told "then go see a psychologist if you're struggling so much !" Alright cool. I already know that. Once again, getting anything started involving making appointments or calls takes so much time for me. "Mais bouge toi ! Sors un peu !" Is of no help.
I found an exercise routine that works for me and that I can do throughout the day and everyday ? Dismissed. "You should go walk outside instead."
Worst is I know my mom is just really worried about me for the most part of it all but her way of idk showing it just makes me feel like an adult disappointment..
Man I just want to be happy, love myself and exist doing what I love. I'm already slowly giving up on my dream of being an artist as a full time job I don't need to be side eyed all day long.
Sorry for the rant I'm just really tired about this and I don't know what to do, but writing it down helps a bit I guess ?
Here's my cat as compensation, I love him so much, his name is Pots (like Spot the dog but cat bc he has a spot on his nose and mouth)




His striped cousin's name is Quiquiche :> bc she's kind of dumb (a quiche in french is the food item but also designates a dumb person.)
#rambling#defo getting a job w/ animals if I fail at art because yeah fuck anything that involves calls or customers in a public space#and by “if I fail” I mean I probably already failed oh well#was supposed to shower at 2pm the other day and ended up showering at 1am bc I kept pushing it back for no reason happens all the time#there's so many small things like that that make me waste my time all the time but I won't try explaining that#bc I know it will be somehow dismissed and I'll just be told to “move and do spmething” as usual#yea#cant wait to go to the con for a whole weekend
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Your Possessiveness Will be the Death of Me

pairing: caleb x reader
TW: graphic descriptions of blood and injuries, toxic relationships
Summery: caleb won’t let you go to the hospital
Word count: 3,833
Notes: I promised someone that my next Caleb fanfic would be fluff but apparently I am incapable of writing anything happy 😭😭 might be a little ooc

A wanderer. Claws. The stinging feeling on your abdomen. The rest was a blur.
The city had recently become more dangerous with an increase of wanderer sightings. You thought—foolishly—that because of your hunter training, this wouldn’t affect you in any significant way. More on site work, perhaps, but nothing more than a minor inconvenience. It never occurred to you that you could become a victim of a wanderer yourself.
You had been walking down the street when out of nowhere, in a cruel sneak attack, a wanderer had jumped out and ambushed you. Rendered defenseless for a few moments, it was able to leave a pretty nasty gash on your abdomen before it was promptly dealt with.
It stung badly.
It felt as if the sky was very low. It was cold as shit out. You could see your hot breath rise up in puffs of white through the inky black sky, and as if the universe conspired to spite you even more, it had begun snowing.
Your blood glistened brightly in the neon lights of the city.
It was around 2:30 in the morning. You have to be up early tomorrow. God…
You raked your brain for a moment. The warm blood seeping between your fingers made it hard to focus.
Linkon Hospital was too far away for you to walk to without collapsing half way through. And, in some cruel joke, your phone had been smashed on the pavement while you were fighting the wanderer so there was no way you could call anyone for help.
You only had one option. But it was your last resort.
Caleb lived close by, but he didn’t want to see you. It wasn’t just a hunch or a feeling, you knew. Although he didn’t outright say it, you ended on pretty bad terms last time you saw each other. Regrettable words were thrown, tears were shed. Even though Caleb tried to explain himself—why he left, why he lied about being dead—you called the conversation there, saying you weren’t in the mood to fight anymore. Since then, Caleb has sent you countless text messages in hopes of staying in touch. At first, he would apologize continuously. Then, when he perhaps realized that his attempts were futile, he resorted to simply sending short messages about how his day went, what interesting things he saw today, and good morning good night texts. You pridefully ignored all of the messages. They angered you, even. You felt as if he was trying to guilt you into forgiving him by using his status as a long-time best friend and pretending like nothing was wrong.
He knows what he did. And you couldn’t forgive him that easily.
With those thoughts in mind, you promptly blocked his number until further notice. Although sometimes you wondered whether he was still sending you messages despite knowing they weren’t getting through to you.
If you showed up at his door now, would he turn you away? Even if he was angry at you, he wouldn’t turn away a shivering, injured woman. Right? But even if he didn’t, it would be so awkward to confront the issue with him again. Perhaps you just won’t say anything unless he brings it up himself. Still, he could simply shut the door in your face and leave you on the street. And he had every right to do so, with the way you’ve been treating him. You probably would have done the same in his situation. Probably.
Swallowing your last bit of pride, you began shuffling over to Caleb’s residence, your hand pressed tightly against the fresh wound. He had sent you his new address during one of his routinely text messages, and you had unconsciously memorized it because it was a part of town you always passed by to get to the train station.
With every step you took, you felt pressure in your wound. It would open up again and again and fresh blood would seep in between your fingers. This only made you more antsy and you felt your heart speed up.
After what felt like an excruciatingly long walk, you finally stood at the front door of Caleb’s house. It was cute. A townhouse surrounded by similar looking buildings in the middle of the city. Even though the others had distinctions about them—flower beds hanging out windows, chairs and fairy lights dotting the balconies—Caleb’s house was the one with the least character. It stood there, gray with no lights in any of the windows, as if he had only just moved in a few days ago.
You brought your hand up to knock on the door, but then you hesitated. You were angry at him, but that was fine because you knew that sooner or later you would forgive him. But you couldn’t have the same assurance that he would forgive you.
You shook your head, eracing the image of Caleb’s darkened eyes from your mind, and knocked.
Whatever happens happens.
For a few moments, there was silence. It would only be natural if he had gone to sleep, considering the deep hours of the night. But then, to your surprise, you heard the noise of shuffling coming from the inside, followed by another short silence. Just as you thought that he was ignoring you, the door swung open, revealing Caleb’s tall frame in the doorway.
He was a bit paler since the last time you saw him. And a bit thinner too. You guessed it was just in your nature to worry about him, as you had done so many times in the past.
It was still cold as shit out. Your thin hunter uniform is doing little to protect you from the chilly air. But somehow, your skin still felt hot. Snowflakes still slowly glided down into your hair.
You cleared your throat, “Caleb.”
Just as the words had left your mouth, you wished for the earth below you to open up and swallow you whole. You come to his front door in the middle of the night looking like hell—exhausted, dirty, blood pouring out of your side and your nose—and the only word you can manage is his name? Were you stupid?
You scanned Caleb’s eyes for any emotions. Was he angry? Or at least disappointed in you?
He didn’t speak for a moment, his gaze falling onto your wound. You shifted self consciously.
“What happened to you?”
His question caught you off guard, prompting you to look up at him again.
“I got into a fight.”
“Yeah, I can tell. You look like shit,” he said, and you sighed.
Surely this was the same Caleb you knew. He wouldn’t just leave you out here.
“Does it hurt?” He asks.
You swiftly shake your head.
“It's minor. I’m not crippled. I’ll live,” you lie through your teeth, “can I crash at your place? I’ll be out of your hair by morning. It’s really cold out here.”
You dragged your one of your hands against the bottom of your nose, smudging the blood pooling there.
Caleb stepped aside, a familiar smirk decorating his face, “be my guest.”
***
Caleb’s residence was just as barren inside as it was outside. Only the bare necessities scattered his living room. But it was warm.
You tried taking off your shoes, but with your wound, it was a little hard to do. Once Caleb saw you struggling, he quickly leaned down and helped you.
“Thanks. Do you by chance have any disinfectant? And some gauze?”
“I thought you said it didn’t hurt.”
“No. It seriously doesn’t.”
“Don’t lie to me missy. You’re not getting rid of me that easily. Go sit on the couch.”
You did as he commanded, stumbling over to the couch before sitting down. Momentarily, there was the sound of running water and soon enough, Caleb came back with a clean, wet towel. He tried to gently lift up your shirt, but your hand stopped him.
“I’m fine. Really. Can I sleep on your couch? I’m really tired.”
Caleb’s worried eyes met yours, “you are not fine. You’re bleeding all over my floor. Stop being so stubborn and work with me here, yeah?”
He spoke in that same friendly voice, but it was obvious that there was concern in his expression.
You gently let go of his wrist with some hesitation, biting your bottom lip as he pulled your shirt over your head, discarding it somewhere on the couch next to him. Your wound was now completely exposed, along with your bare stomach. You knew he wouldn’t do anything to hurt you, but just having the wound out in the open was enough to put you on edge.
He inspected your injury. His brow furrowed before he brought the damp towel to your skin. You hissed and recoiled slightly. Caleb flinched, but held the towel gently in place.
“Sorry pipsqueak. It’s gonna hurt no matter what. Just… squeeze my arm if it gets too much.”
You didn’t say anything.
Caleb’s touch was warm. You felt his soft fingers on the tender skin of your side. It almost made you shiver.
“Why didn’t you call me sooner? Any later, and you would’ve bled out on the goddamn street,” he murmurs, and for a moment, you didn't know how to reply.
“My phone broke,” You say dumbly.
Then there was silence for a few moments. It was quiet. The only sound was his steady breathing and the clock ticking as the seconds slipped by.
“Are you angry?” You ask when he didn’t say anything.
Caleb shook his head, “no. You have every right to want to avoid me,” he sighed, “I just wish I wasn’t your last option.”
Silence again. Tik-tok… tik-tok…
“I thought you might turn me away,” you finally admitted.
“You know I wouldn’t let you bleed out on my doorstep. No matter how angry I get at you.”
“No, I don’t know that,” you whisper, “I feel like I don’t really know you anymore…”
Caleb finally looks up at you, a hint of hurt betrayed in his eyes, “Do you think… you think I changed that much?”
“I don’t know. But the Caleb I knew would never pretend to be dead for a whole year, leaving me by myself. So, yeah… I guess I don’t really know you anymore.”
“You had other people to turn to for help.”
“Sure. But in the end, who’s taking care of me?”
Caleb sighs again and turns back to your wound. Although he is trying to seem preoccupied, you can tell that he has a lot on his mind.
“We’ll continue this conversation later,” he finally says, “for now, let’s take care of your wound, yeah? The bleeding hasn’t stopped yet. I’ll need some water to wipe you down and see how deep your injury really is. Let me take you to the bathroom. It’ll be easier to do this there.”
Caleb helps you up. Then, he helps you walk over to the bathroom, his arm wrapped around your upper torso firmly but gently. Then, when he’s sure that you are able to stand upright on your own, he meticulously picks out the temperature of the water, making sure it’s not too hot or too cold.
He soaks the towel under the thin stream of water. Your old blood dyes the sink red, leaving a gruesome sight.
You feel dizzy from the blood loss. And slightly sleepy too. You grab onto the edge of the skin in an attempt to pull yourself together. The dim, buzzing light and the splashing of water continuously lull you to sleep.
Finally, when Caleb decided that he got most of the blood out from the towel, he wrings it, and brings it up to your wound again.
You take a sharp breath, colorful curses spilling out of your mouth unchecked, “haah… Caleb…”
He gently wipes away at the edges of the wound, trying hard to be as tender as possible. Despite this, he cleans up your wound with practiced efficiency leaving you to wonder how many times he has patched himself up during dark nights like these.
“You’re doing well,” Caleb says, running the towel under clean water again.
The cycle repeats a few times. By the time Caleb deems that he had cleaned the wound thoroughly enough, you are standing there, subtly trembling in pain. The sink, the floor, and both yours and Caleb’s hands are covered in your blood. You hope that it looks worse than it actually is.
“How is it?” You ask finally.
Caleb rustles through one of the storage compartments, and takes out fresh white gauze. However, your blood on his hands stains it as soon as he touches the bandages.
“It’s pretty deep. You’ll need to take it easy for a while,” he says.
Gritting your teeth as he wraps the gauze around your abdomen, you hold your breath.
“Relax,” Caleb utters, “the worst part is over.”
He wraps the gauze around you a few more times before securing it with a little bow at the end.
“There. Good as new.”
He lets out a sharp sigh, dusting his hands off like a mechanic, and straightens out to look at you again.
“How are you feeling?”
“Better. But I’m worried. Should I go to the hospital?”
“No need. I’m here to take care of you, right?”
You nod.
You didn’t know what came over you then, but your body acted faster than you could think. You placed your hands on either side of his face and planted a small kiss on the edge of his lips.
He seemed stunned for a minute.
“You know I missed you, right?” You whisper, your fingers gently running through his raven hair.
“I thought you hated me,” he breaths.
“I do. But I can do both at the same time. These two things aren’t mutually exclusive.”
“I missed you too.”
“I hope you never leave again. Because I won’t forgive you a second time.”
Caleb’s eyes flicker before he leans in closer and presses a firm kiss to your lips.
God, it was as if you were made for each other.
All of these years of yearning to the most recent worries that plagued your mind came bubbling up to the surface until they finally exploded like a volcano.
He wraps his arms around you. The need for him to be closer to you became stronger, to the point where it was almost animalistic. Your exhales became his inhales as he pushed you up against the skin, deepening the kiss. Your fingers tangled within his hair, and his hands slowly mapped out the bare skin of your back. You couldn’t help but shiver.
You hated him so much. But God… it was impossible to stay away. You were drawn to him like a moth to a flame, knowing that nothing good was going to come out of this. Maybe he would hurt you again. Maybe you were stupid to come running back to him at the first sign of affection. But that didn’t matter at this moment. Right now, you only knew him. He was your world. And you were his.
“Wait, wait. Caleb,” you gasp suddenly, “fuck.”
Caleb immediately steps back as if he was burned.
“What’s wrong?”
You look down at your wound. It was still bleeding. A faint dark red color peaked out from behind the bandages, a signal to it probably opening up again.
“Shit, I’m sorry. I don’t know what came over me.”
“It’s okay. It’s very late. We’re both not in our right mind,” you say, heart still hammering in your chest.
Caleb hesitantly nodded. His face and t-shirt was smudged with the blood that undoubtedly came from your hands.
“Maybe I should go to the hospital,” you say again.
A dull throb pulsed over where your wound was, and although you trust that Caleb did a good job of cleaning it, you knew that he wasn’t a medical professional. Maybe you needed stitches. It would be a shame if you bled out in Caleb’s apartment for no reason other than your own carelessness.
“Damn it,” He curses, “I should’ve been more careful, you’ll bleed through these bandages too.” Frustrated, he ran his fingers through his hair. “You’re probably right, but I’ll be honest, I’m not really comfortable with letting you out of my sight just yet. I just… just let me try to add a few more layers of gauze, yeah? And if that doesn’t work, we’ll figure things out from there.”
Caleb takes out more gauze and wraps it around your lower torso again, a bit more tighter this time. He steps back to inspect how much of the gauze has already been bled through, his brow furrowing.
“Damn it…” he mutters.
You put your hand on his arm to stop his continuous fidgeting, “Caleb. Calm down.”
“You’re right. No… I just… You’re bleeding. How are you still bleeding? I’ve never seen you be this chill about an injury before. You remember when you were learning how to ride a bike when we were kids? You would cry so hard when you so much as scraped your knee against the pavement and would run to grandma so she could comfort you.”
“I remember. You were not the best teacher. It’s a miracle I haven’t gotten my front teeth knocked out.”
“You were sensitive as a kid.”
“I grew out of it.”
“Apparently.”
There was another pause. It seemed that every time you and Caleb found a common ground, there was something that would always bring you back and remind you that everything had changed. He was not the reckless little boy from your childhood that you remember. And, in turn, you were not the sensitive little girl that he remembers.
When did everything become so different?
Caleb’s apartment suddenly became cold again.
Caleb shook his head before speaking, “never mind. Have you had dinner? Are you hungry?”
“I don’t know if I can stomach anything right now.”
There was a beat of silence again, as if Caleb was choosing his words carefully, “not even rice? Or maybe some broth?”
“I don’t know.”
“Come on. I’ll order you something. Whatever you want.”
***
Caleb lended you one of his shirts since yours was stained with blood.
As promised, he ordered you takeout from a place that worked late and forced you to eat dinner. Even though you felt a little sick, you still made yourself eat.
He didn’t have a dinner table, so you sat on the couch while Caleb fed you.
“Why don’t you have a dinner table?” You inquire, “haven’t you moved in months ago?”
“I just haven’t gotten around to it.”
It was nice to catch up with him, even though it was a little awkward at times. You would talk for a few minutes before falling into silence again. Then someone would say something and the conversation would strike up again.
No one mentioned the kiss from earlier.
The familiar and slightly domestic atmosphere was almost enough to make you forget your previous worries. Almost.
There was a slight buzzing in your head, and then a wave of dizziness overcame you, harder than before.
You calmly, although wobbly, got up from the couch, and looked down at Caleb.
“Caleb, take me to the hospital.”
Caleb followed you up, “Hold on. Wait.”
You started walking towards the door, feeling like you could collapse at any moment. Caleb beat you to the front door, blocking it with his body.
“You’re not in the condition to go anywhere. Look at you. You can barely stand!”
“Then you take me!”
“Listen. I’ll take care of everything. You can’t go anywhere, even with my help.”
“But—“
“Don’t argue with me on this, pipsqueak,” He grabbed your arm a little more forcefully then he intended, “You’re not leaving in this state. No one will take better care of you than me.”
You bite at your bottom lip. What has gotten into him? Was he really just willing to let you bleed out just because he didn’t want you to leave?
Mustering up your last bit of courage and strength, you forcefully tug back on your arm that Caleb was holding, causing him to stumble forward a few steps. The plan was to get around him when he was caught off guard, however, when you retreated your arm in such a sudden motion, the muscles on your abdomen contracted, causing you to shudder in pain.
You collapse onto the floor, unable to put up a fight any further.
“Damn it, pipsqueak. I told you not to argue with me on this.”
Caleb gently helped you up, not minding your little stunt. He helped carry you to his room, tucking you into bed, bringing the covers all the way up to your chin even though you were hot. His scent enveloped you.
He planted a gentle kiss on your forehead, “you know I only want what’s best for you.”
You nod.
You realized that perhaps you should’ve seen this coming from the very beginning. The way he clung on to you when you first came, the way he never let you out of your sight. He wouldn’t let you go now. No matter how much you struggled against him. And you couldn’t say that you hated the idea. This was the person you loved the most. The person who knew you best. The person who would take care of you better than anyone.
He was the person you turned to at the end of the day.
Caleb respectfully sat down on the floor across from you, resting his head on the edge of his bed. Lost in thought, his fingers met yours. Then he brought them up to his lips and placed a gentle kiss.
“I’m mad about you,” he whispers, “I think I’ll die if you ever continue to ignore me like you did.”
“I won’t.”
“Good. Sleep tight, pipsqueak.”
It was four in the morning and the door was closed and Caleb's breathing gradually evened out. The light sound of cars passing on the street below was the only sound. In the haziness of the deep hours of the night, you were back in grandma’s house for a moment. You had snuck into Caleb's room again because you were scared of the sound of cars outside and the shadows on the wall of your room.
The pain in your side is unbearably excruciating. You carefully peel the blanket up to see Caleb’s sheets covered in blood. Your shirt had completely soaked through, and there was no doubt that your gauze had done little to prevent the blood flow. You felt unbearably hot, and your heart was thumping out of your chest.
Without thinking much further, you covered yourself with Caleb’s blanket and turned to the side, scumming to deep sleep shortly after.
At least you were with the person who knows you best.
At least you were with the person who loves you the most.

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#okay don’t read too much into it#it’s good if you don’t squint#i probably need to edit it#but i’ll do it tmr evening bc it’s 1am rn#anywayz my next fic will probably be a rafayel fic#and then after maybe i’ll write something fluffy for caleb#because i’ve put that man through enough for now i think#also i have not read anything related to caleb in the actual game#so this might be a bit ooc#love and deepspace#love and deepspace caleb#l&ds#love & deepspace#love & deepspace caleb#love & deepspace x reader#l&ds x reader#l&ds caleb#l&ds x you#lads caleb#caleb love and deepspace#caleb love & deepspace#love and deepspace x reader#love and deepspace x you#love and deepspace x mc#caleb lads#lads#lads x reader#lads x you#caleb l&ds#rike rites
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Really really old topic but
Jimmy wasn't a psychopath, he wasn't an excessive manipulator, if most a liar and exaggerated person. He was polite and only started to lie and manipulate curly when his actions started to have consequences and stuff wouldn't go the way he wanted.


Post crash is when he starts to be a manipulator and a liar, pre crash never showed him as a deceiving, repulsive, bad person to be around/talk to. (By pre crash I mean before Anya told curly she was pregnant and curly broke the bad news.)


Something I think or theorize (which is probably canon) is that Jimmy eventually started to show symptoms of cabin fever.
I'm too lazy to write what's cabin fever so Wikipedia screenshots.


So yeah. Jimmy wasn't born evil, he doesn't kick puppies on the street, he doesn't skip baths for pure evilness. He was just a guy that mental health came crashing down. Like the ship. Get it? Because Jimmy crashed the ship? Okay I'll stop writing now.
I honestly wanted to get this off my chest because I've seen a LOT of people get facts wrong because they REALLY mischaracterized jimmy and saw him as pure darkness so yeah I don't expect attention or anything I just really really needed to write this down
#it pissed me off when people mischaracterized Jimmy as a evil villain that physically tortured curly for fun#i mentioned the skipping baths thing because i remember seeing someone saying that jimmy was probably a person that stank??? what???#i wrote this at 1am but accidentally lost what already had written so i had to do it again so now I wrote this at 2:40am.#have patience please#tell me if something is wrong or i got a fact wrong i Speedrun a mouthwashing playthrough#mouthwashing curly#mouthwashing#mouthwashing jimmy#Lover_of_cats2 yaps the fuck out
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did Kevin have to unlearn all this on his own? like
or does he still play like this as a fox and it's just specifically because the trojans are committed to good sportsmanship?
what's the go?
the way I need kevin pov like it's actually so serious to me that I know him inside out and back to front, tell me everything

#i feel like these posts make me seem like ive never read these books before but i promise im die hard since 2016#i just dont retain any info because idk chronic pain brain fog probably i have zero memory of most things#my aftg autism is mostly based on feelings and not facts of the books yaknow? idk whatever tell me everything there is to know about kevin#PLEASE#if it turns out this info is in the EC ill kms like i cant read all that ive tried#anyway i cant go to sleep because i can only think about having finished the sunshine court again so im wide awake at 1am#thinking about#kevin day#aftg#tsc
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#the perspective here is probably super wonky#but i don’t care#because i drew this at 1am#my art#undertale#undertale fanart#sans#sans undertale
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an aspect of shadow's trauma that i've been thinking about a lot since the sa2 replay is how fucked his perspective of gerald must be after everything, especially assuming he was family to shadow just as much as maria was [which i do every day]. the man who raised you, created you from nothing but tissue samples and energy and hope, the man who could have easily decided you were a simple thing to be used and yet welcomed you into his family as easily as his own granddaughter, who treated you as a person when so many others treated you as a lab rat or a weapon or another soon-to-be-failed prototype, in a moment of unfathomable despair, decided you were to be a tool that would carry out his final plan. perhaps treating you this way was another symptom of his mental breakdown, perhaps deep down he's always seen you as nothing more than a thing to reach his goals with. you will never know, because he is dead. every comforting memory you have of him, every time he encouraged your curiosity or stayed with you during a test he could have observed from afar or told you how proud of you he was, forever tainted by the thought that it could have all been a lie. a variable in an experiment, a means to an end. how would you ever trust anyone ever again man i'm in shreds
#and sure in shth he gets to know what he was made for and that he was never meant to be a weapon but it's hardly closure#because that recording was from before gerald's breakdown. it could've been the illusion of caring as much as anything else#to be clear this post isn't saying that gerald didn't love or care about shadow. personally i think he really truly did#but he said and did some awful things while he was grieving too much to think straight and didn't have his family to ground him anymore#and he was killed before being given the chance to process his grief and what he was doing or to reunite with shadow#so that's the last version of his creator that shadow will ever know. and it'll probably eat at him for the rest of his life#sorry for 1am shadow sadstuck i promise i have a funny post queued up for next time#just fucking whatever#shadow the hedgehog
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There is a woodpecker hammering at the side of the house and it's a bold take for 10:30 am, bird.
#my brain is so Off its soaked in goop.#I also really fucking need to stop waking up at 1am and staying awake until 5. my friend joked I have such a dedication to the bronze age#I became biphasic and I'm worried its true lol. At least I got some reading done last night though.#Did you know they hunted elephants in Babylonia? That was cool to learn. Also that there was a family of scribes in southern Mesopotamia#who were dedicated to preserving and maintaining Akkadian/Sumerian culture that they were still inscribing tablets into the#100BC and that <333 I want to write about them. That really stuck with me.#Instead I have to do the same colloquial thing with my actual real live thesis lit review. 0/10. Scared.#High-key I also need to do rp responses and belarus is poking me to respond to dms. About 2 seconds from dropping my guy#I also have the liztlie au revolving more.. Maybe if I take two weeks after the end of classes I could switch off my brain and try to finis#I'm so close! But if I get selected to go to Turkey I'm going to have to defend and submit by mid-July.#And this is all on top of NOT HAVING ANY FUCKING DATA FOR THE COLUMN.#which is not MY fault its the development of a method and I need to... idk man. Idk. figure something out myself probably even tho#it's the other team's problem. Or switch my thesis around which is probably best even if my advisor is not in on it because#Why Would My Advisor Be Here? You Thought My Advisor Would Be Here? You Are Sadly Mistaken.#Highkey there needs to be a support group for people who's advisors are out. I'm grateful she trusts me to keep my head#above water for a month as I'm writing this fucking thing but also I feel abandoned and in distress.
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Sam's left hand
I've seen people talk about how Sam keeps looking at his hands at the beginning of each Game Changer episode, but as the season progresses I get the impression that he puts more and more emphasis on his left hand as he says "I've been here the whole time".
Which I think is interesting considering his left hand is very prominently featured in the Game Changer Season 6 poster.

And I find it suspicious how he's featured wearing a ring in the poster but doesn't wear one in the show. Now, I checked some videos and he seems to not be wearing it even before this season and he could have taken it off for many reasons (which is obviously not mine or anyone's business) but with each intro he keeps showing his left hand more and more prominently… and I can't shake it off.
Edit: I just realized he's looking at his hand in the poster.
#this is probably a good time to say that i don't have a dropout subscription at the moment#because no money and also my productivity would plummet if i did#so i got all this from the videos on their socials#am i onto something?#idk man it's 1am#i did this instead of my thesis#game changer#dropout tv#sam reich#samuel dalton#my post
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Doctor McCoy
#he gave me some PROBLEMS but not so much as Spock or Jim did#probably because I did those two drawings at 1am curled up on the couch#deforest kelley is fun to draw though#what is up with that hair swoop#star trek tos#deforest kelley#leonard mccoy#bones mccoy#lichqueen art
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Your recent update made me wonder about something. I don’t know how much you know about this but wanted to try asking anyway. Hopefully this makes sense? Why would the English translation choose to censor things? I assume translations are being done in America where queer things are slowly becoming more accepted but is that a factor? Are the translators themselves changing certain things due to their own biases? I don’t know who they are and don’t want to assume anything about them, but I can’t help wondering if that’s part of the reason? Or is it because of something like, for example, sometimes movies or TV shows have certain content removed based on where it’s being aired, so is it something like that? Is the game being released in regions where queer content is banned or removed? Now that I wrote it, I feel like this is the most likely answer but what do you think? I basically just rambled in your ask my bad. Also, do you know if the Korean and/or Taiwan servers have censorship too?
oh there's more than just the Asahi thing and i have mentioned it in passing before but i'll cover it properly here. "the miles i fell in love with is so cool" -> "it was so cool! i guess that's miles for you" is definitely the biggest example though.
First off, a minor thing. it doesn't really happen anymore but in the earlier translations they quite often use words other than partner, like "pals" and "buds", in the VBS story. Probably one of the best examples of this would be An and Kohane's 3rd kizuna title, which the JP name was often fan-translated as "Making each other better" or "Raising each other up", and is called "Two supportive pals" on EN. Which does have the same meaning but the "pals" seems so unneccesary when they could've used partners. The original text is Takameau futari, the first part means "to raise" or "to lift" and futari means "two people" or "a pair/couple". So it technically is a good enough translation but using pals when partners would be more accurate to canon just seems.. off.
I’m assuming their avoidance of the word partner is because it could easily be misinterpreted as romantic, but they seem to have moved on from that at this point.
There's also THE POWER OF UNITY where they switch out "love" (daisuki) for "cares about a lot" when KAITO is comparing the relationship between Arata and Souma to Akito and Toya. Daisuki literally means "likes a lot" so often you'll see people translate it as love, though likes a lot is still valid. "Cares about" is not a direct translation but definitely can still convey the same meaning, so again instance of valid localisation it just seems like an odd choice when using love would've conveyed the exact same meaning and been more true to the original.
Then you've got another instance of them not translating daisuki correctly in Dear Me, As I Was Back Then (sorry this one is a wiki screenshot my phone died). This is worse. Like I guess if you really want then it does have a close enough meaning to the original. Like I guess daisuki meaning "like a lot" or "love" could be localised as "you're the best" if you really wanted it too. But even then, the line before this is "I'm gonna show just how much I admire her!". Minori's shout of "I LOVE YOUUU" from the original would be way more fitting here. "You're the best" feels too casual and buddy-buddy - even if Minori didn't know Haruka at this point, Haruka still had a big impact on her life and imo "I love you" would be the best to use here.
There’s also this one from Walk on and on that removes one key thing. In the original, Toya says something more along the lines of “I was able to make this track because I want to continue to be a partner who can stand shoulder-to-shoulder with you from now on and always”. This is a bit more similar to the Asahi incident in that they’ve restructured the sentence to make it two, adding in the thing about performing which isn’t even there originally, and replacing “korekara saki mo zutto” with “keep singing with you”. And “keep singing with you” still works, but it’s much more toned down, let’s say. You know what really is odd about this translation though? If the quote I put seems familiar, it’s because it’s also the name of Toya’s event card. Kinda odd they omitted that from the story then, huh? The thing is the translation of the card is very accurate so removing it from the story starts to seem intentional, especially when everything around it is accurately translated like with the Asahi incident. Also doing this removes the fact that the card name references the story so what the hell are you doing EN? It's the same sentence, if you can translate it correctly on the card you can translate it correctly in the story.
There's definitely more than this, this is just what came to mind first and I don't want to make this post too long.
These were certainly... choices. Especially with the ones that avoid translating daisuki as love because they do translate as that on other occasions, most frequently with An and Kohane. I'm assuming the reason they omitted it with the guys is because it's far harder to pass off guys saying that they love each other as platonic because societal expectations or whatever, but I'm actually surprised by the change to Dear Me because normally they're pretty good with Minori and Haruka usually. Like they've translated daisuki correctly for them before and leave in everything else that indicates Minori has a crush on Haruka, so why not this line?
I'm tempted to say that they just change the things that they think are too hard to safely pass off as platonic, but then again they left all of the unsubtle ship teasing in Buddy Funny Spend Time, which has a lot of focus on Minori and Haruka's relationship (and they even added in Haruka saying that Minori makes her heart tickle in her card story), so I'm genuinely not sure why they left that in but then changed one instance of Minori saying she loves Haruka which doesn't even have to be interpreted romantically. Like what is the limit here? An can say she's going on a date (with Kohane) and the WEG regulars can ask who she's been seeing, but Asahi can say he fell in love with Tsukasa's character and it gets removed. Both of them have romantic connotation. The only thing I can think of is that An's comes from a whole card story and event, but Asahi's is one line that's easy to remove. Same with Toya saying he wants to stay with Akito forever.
In other words, it's a mess and I don't think any of what I just wrote is coherent either.
Interpret all of this however you will at the end of the day it’s all just ship tease which is up to interpretation anyway. Except the Asahi thing. That one is a censor.
Oh and the KR and TW servers don’t do this.
#i got this one peer reviewed on both my main account and with an irl who doesn't know anything about the game.#oh because someone will probably bring up the hiraga gennai 1koma i don't consider that one a censor#that one's definitely a localisation bc barely any players would get the joke since gennai isn't well known in the EN server regions#there's a whole discussion to be had over the fact they did completely change the joke and the context which we actually have had before#it was rui's birthday post if you go through my rui tag you can find it.#asks#mod talks#apologies for the quality on this one it's 1am right now for me
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Me hurting my own feelings over here
#rottmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rise donnie#rise leo#desaster twins#Desaster twins angst#Leo#Donnie#angst#I did this at 1am#someone please notice the fact that Leo is kinda unfocused in the first memory of him#but then more defined in the second one#because like#something something last memory of a loved one#idk#someone can probably word it better than I can#I’m more of a ‘communicate through visuals’ kinda person
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comic I made last night :O
#my doodles#i think this counts as a#diary entry#because this is just what happened yesterday. like i even forgot to wear my tie that day#and nobody noticed all day B) because people in my school treat me like i don't exist and i try to avoid everyone#the only thing inaccurate about this is that i exclusively wear the type of headphones that go over the ear#i'm just having trouble figuring out how to draw cats wearing that type of headphones#i never wear ear buds i find them extremely uncomfortable#but for now i guess i'll just have to represent listening to music like that :[#also notice how in this i'm still not in my pyjamas at 1am?? thats so sad thats the worst feeling ever#its currently 1am again as i'm typing this and i'm not in my pyjamas!!! why does this keep happening to me i want to be sleeping right now#sorry i'm posting this then probably going straight to sleep i do not want to be awake#take my poorly drawn gay cat comic and wish my good night on the way out :[#I MISSED MAKING THESE COMICS SO MUCH!!! okay thats all goodbye night night#my comic attempts
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