#it's not my favorite season but it's a pretty good one

[polaris-likethestar]

umm theres a few but thats so true by gracie abrams

not super into it anymore and the last season wasnt great but the umbrella academy brings me really good memories of when i first got into the show

probably writing, i dont do it often but when i get an idea its so much fun

when i feel like im in a sort of movie montage you see when the characters are all having a blast at the end

for me the best self care is finding a good, chapter book/fanfiction and sitting down and giving myself time to read it

probably something candy related or sugary

my friend group from camp last summer

probably the feeling of my favorite stuffed rabbit

maybe going to six flags with my friends

just a few days ago i was watching this show the derry girls, that was so funny i was laughing the whole way through

like i mentioned before, my stuffed rabbit

weirdly, fanfiction even if its the most intense or tragic story it has my comfort characters in it

sadly, havent taken a bath in a while but showers are pretty relaxing for me

graduating from the school im at now (its not until june sadly but i cant wait)

call me basic but pizza, but from specific places

well im writing a chapter fanfic now, im used to doing oneshots but im hoping to finish this longer one soon

when people remember specific things about me and take extra care in me and my interests even if they dont like it

possibly somewhere in my twenties, i cant explain it but it just feels right for me

cant think off the top of my mind but i do remember receiving an anonymous christmas card some years back and my friends all thought it was some sort of confession (it most likely wasnt but it was funny back then)

at the end of fifth grade one of my classmates threw an end of the year party, that has to be one of my best days ever

coffee all the way

that one hyperfixation that will always hyperfixate

yes i have

not sure at the moment to be honest, i have a few pretty close friends however

umm maybe a dark red or a violet

i would love to live in soho in nyc, not sure with who though, most likely one of the friends i mentioned before

no lol i think nature and flowers are beautiful but i dont really participate in gardening

not sure honestly

sometimes, but ill admit, im closed off and selfish as well

umm reading, writing, singing, listening to music, etc

✨soft asks✨

What song makes you feel better?

What is your go to comfort show?

Reading or writing? Why?

Whats your favorite feeling?

How do you like to take care of yourself?

What’s your favorite candle scent?

Who do you feel most like yourself around?

Whats a fabric/texture that’s nostalgic for you?

Best childhood moment?

When was the last time you laughed so hard you cried? (or just felt really good afterwards)

Do you have a comfort item? Tell us about it!

What calms you down?

Bath or shower to relax?

Whats something upcoming that you’re excited for?

Comfort food?

What’s something you want to create soon?

How do you feel best loved?

What age in life do you think you’ll feel most yourself at?

Have you ever written or received a love letter?

Tell us about a memory you hold close to your heart.

Tea, Coffee, or hot cocoa?

Name of your favorite playlist?

Have you ever received flowers?

Who is your bestfriend?

If your soul was a color, what would it be?

If you could live anywhere with anyone you want, where would it be and who would you bring?

Do you like to garden? Have you ever grown something?

What are you proudest of?

Are you a kind person?

What do your hobbies look like?

[hayatoseyepatch]

HELLO ALL MY LOVELIES!! I am officially back with some new content coming soon that I’m super excited about (but that’s for another time it’s a secret). BUT I recently hit 1000 followers here on tumblr and I wanted to celebrate ٩(ˊᗜˋ*)و ♡

First off I want to say a huge huge thank you to all of you for being here like that wasnt even a number I thought I’d ever see on this blog and I love you all so much (ˊ̥̥̥̥̥ ³ ˋ̥̥̥̥̥)♡

Enough of the SAP THOUGH onto the event! I wanted to hold a little holiday themed moodboard event to celebrate you and your selfships! These can include OCs, self-inserts, poly ships, all is welcome!

So the gist of this little event is please send me an ask with your selfship following the criteria below and I will create a cute holiday themed moodboard for you and your f/o! Off and on anon is fine. Please provide a picrew or self/oc description to aid in making your moodboard as well as answering the questions and reviewing the rules below. ଘ(੭ˊᵕˋ)੭♡︎

Thank you again and I so look forward to this fun time, the world is pretty gloomy and scary rn so I’m gonna be your Samta’s elf (hehe) spreading some holiday cheer!

➼ Tell me a bit about your selfship. You can include as little or as much detail as possible (also because I just love hearing about all of your ships). This will help put a little personal touch to each moodboard!

➼ What is you and your f/o’s favorite part of the holiday season?

➼ Are there any traditions you and your f/o have that you do every year? Any holiday themed dates you’re looking forward to?

➼ Preferences: Are there any specific colors you want/don’t want? Any parts of the holidays you like don’t like? Would you prefer a winter theme if you don’t celebrate? Any preferences you have!

➼ Please provide a picrew (if you have one), selfship art, or a description of you/your oc so I can make these as accurate as possible!

RULES:

➼ As always this is an 18+ only blog, please even if submitting on anon make sure we’re all 18+.

➼ The fandoms I’ll be including in this to choose from are Windbreaker, JJK, Demon Slayer, Tokyo Revengers, Blue Lock, Haikyuu, and Love & Deepspace.

➼ Please be kind, if you don’t like it let’s not be hateful about it this is all in good fun!

➼ Also please be patient, I do work full time and will get to these as soon as possible just bear with me please. (*꒦ິ꒳꒦ີ)

I’m going to run this event for the rest of the month so deadline to submit a request is by December 1st! Thank you all again so much for 1000 and I hope you enjoy this little token of my appreciation. ૮꒰ྀི∩´ ᵕ `∩꒱ྀིა♡

Banner and dividers by lil ol’ me ૮꒰ྀི∩´ ᵕ `∩꒱ྀིა

[sage-nebula]

No, I disagree. While Silco absolutely enabled Jinx's worst impulses and instincts, he was never the reason for her hallucinations. I mean, to begin with, Jinx's psychosis is genetic; she was hallucinating long before she ever met Silco and before she experienced the traumatic incident at the cannery, as evidenced by how she hallucinates when peeking through her fingers in the very first scene of the very first episode.

But after arc 1, and through the rest of the show? Vi and her past were / are the reasons for Jinx's hallucinations. They are the trigger every single time.

Let's take a look at when Jinx's hallucinations acted up the most in acts 2 and 3 of season one, shall we?

The first big moment is in Jinx's very first appearance in act 2; while fighting the Firelights during the shimmer transport, Jinx comes face to face with a girl who has pink hair. This girl reminds Jinx of Vi, to the point where she has difficulty telling them apart, and her hallucinations take over.

Later in the episode, after Silco benches her for ruining the shimmer shipment, Jinx has a conversation with her hallucinations while in her workshop. While the latter half of the conversation is her angry with Silco benching her while letting Sevika clean up the mess, the conversation (and hallucinations) start with her again focused on Vi — or rather, the girl she thought was Vi. She's arguing with the Mylo and Claggor hallucinations, insisting that the girl wasn't Vi, that she knows that, and that she just got confused.

Her insistence, too, that she isn't weak, is peppered with Mylo hallucinations. Because Mylo was the biggest voice in her childhood saying that she was a problem, and needed to be benched.

She's good for the rest of the episode, though. After she murders "half a dozen enforcers" to steal the hex crystal for Silco, she doesn't have a single hallucination, and instead rocks out in her workshop while happily working on Fishbones. So in the first episode of arc 2, we see that thoughts of Vi and her past trigger hallucinations, while her work for Silco does not.

Or at least, it doesn't until it reminds her of her past. In episode five, while studying the hex crystal, it causes a minor explosion reminiscent of what happened at the cannery. This once again triggers Jinx.

(Beautiful moment I captured here, I know.)

To be honest, I wouldn't even call these hallucinations; it's more like a series of rapid fire flashbacks to Mylo's and Claggor's deaths, which is pretty impressive when you remember that Jinx didn't actually see them die. Nonetheless, the explosion here triggers those traumatic memories, and she runs away in tears. If we wanted to tie this to her psychosis, we would say that, again, her trigger was tied to her past family, not anything Silco has done.

The next hallucinations (or actual hallucinations) she has in the episode are when she visits the old arcade. Specifically, when she fixes the boxing machine and turns it on, she remembers Vi's voice. And that's when we see it.

The sketch marks are Vi's name repeatedly, over and over, as she hears Vi's voice in her head. She screams and literally cries as she attacks the machine, hallucinating her sister all the while.

She doesn't hallucinate again for the rest of the episode, but she does talk about them to Silco. She says, "I keep seeing them. That day," when talking about why she can't crack hextech. Silco then takes her to the river for the baptism scene, and after, she's able to work on the hextech again, hallucination-free.

Episode six brings us a lot of hallucinations, though. The first happens when Sevika tells Jinx that Vi is in back in town.

My screenshot didn't catch all the sketchy bits, but they're there. Complete with the whispered voices.

Next is during my favorite scene to date in the entire series, when Jinx lights the flare and "Guns for Hire" plays. She first remembers / hallucinates Vi's voice, and then — after the flare is lit — hallucinates Mylo and Claggor at her back in their last moments.

You have no idea how hard it is to capture exact seconds with Fireshot, which is what I use to take screenshots due to Netflix's blocking, but trust, the sketchy marks are indeed there.

She hallucinates again when she thinks that Vi was tricking her, and was really just working with Caitlyn all along:

When Vi touches her arm:

And at the end, when Vi is taken by the Firelights:

In her first scene in episode 7, she's giving herself bad first aid (e.g. stapling her pants to her leg). She hallucinates Mylo taunting her through the entire scene, and what is he taunting her about?

Vi caring about Caitlyn more than her. Once again, all of Jinx's hallucinations are about Vi, triggered by Vi, and the exact opposite of what Silco instructed her to do. (Let it go by "letting Powder die" — i.e., kill the part of herself that saw that she needed Vi more.)

I can't capture the exact flashes of sketch across the screen no matter how hard I try, but the next time Jinx hallucinates she IS with Silco — talking about Vi. It's when Silco reminds her that Vi left her after the cannery (which was never actually an abandonment, but that's how Jinx perceived it), and that he gave her a home, that the hallucinations are triggered. Again — her sister, her past. I would show screencaps if I could, but it's really hard to capture when they're that fast, so I'm giving up for now before I'm here all night.

The next time is on the bridge of progress, when she's watching Vi and Caitlyn say goodbye.

And then again when she sees Vi run back for Caitlyn after Ekko was shot. (Side note, but — Ekko was the one shot. Why didn't Vi call out for him??)

And then again when she comes face to face with Vi helping Caitlyn after the explosions:

(For once I got the timing just perfect.)

After that, she fights Ekko and then blows herself up, and in episode 8 Silco takes her to Singed. Now, she does hallucinate a lot while undergoing the shimmer transfusions. And Silco did bring her there to undergo those transfusions. But if we're going to hate him for trying to save her life by any means necessary, then we also have to hate Jayce for doing the same with Viktor in season two. Additionally, although Jinx hallucinates Vi a lot during that process (as well as Caitlyn taunting her), I really do think it was just the pain of the procedure that was causing her hallucinations there, so I'm not going to include them. They weren't really triggered by Vi, as much as they were just triggered by pain.

Episode 9 is, of course, the cursed dinner party. And her hallucinations are going wild during that dinner party. The two biggest are when she shoots the Mylo doll ("shut UP! we're talking!") after Vi promises Jinx that she's on her side and isn't lying about it, and then, of course:

Now, to be completely fear: the sketchy lines started when Silco told Jinx to "finish it", referring to killing Caitlyn. But things only kicked into overdrive when Vi started shouting at her, calling in every single name that could possibly trigger her: Vander, Mylo, Claggor, their parents, and finally Vi herself. Jinx says "stop" and "no" but Vi doesn't hear her. And these hallucinations push Jinx to the ground.

Then it's all over. Jinx reacts to the sound of a gun, and kills Silco. Silco, according to the script, gives Jinx "the affirmation of love she's always wanted" just before he dies. Then she chooses the Jinx chair, because Silco did what Vi was (understandably) unable to do after the cannery: he gave her unconditional love after she had a fatal accident.

After choosing the Jinx chair, she says, "I thought maybe you could love me like you used to. Even though I'm . . . different. But you changed, too. So, here's to the new us." This is Jinx giving up on Vi, and any hope she had that things could go back to how they were before the cannery. This is why she isn't hallucinating her brothers anymore. This is why she's not tormented by thoughts of Vi. Because she gave up. She let it go. She killed the part of herself that saw that she needed Vi more.

That said, it's not as if Vi has completely lost the ability to make her hallucinate! Because as we see in season two:

She starts hallucinating again at the mere sight of Vi in that enforcer uniform. (And the glowing eyes and sharp teeth . . . just like the sketchy faces over the enforcers on the bridge of progress in the very first episode of the show. While she gave up on Vi, she still has enforcer trauma, it seems, made worse by her own sister becoming one of them.)

Jinx doesn't hallucinate Silco despite being the one who killed him because he forgave her for it, instantly. He told her he would have never given her to Piltover, and that she shouldn't cry, because she was perfect. So she isn't holding guilt over his death — just despair. But she held guilt over what happened at the cannery, and until Silco's death, couldn't let go of it. And that, plus all of her trauma surrounding Vi (abandonment trauma despite that Vi never meant to, inferiority complex, what she perceived as conditional love), meant that the surest trigger for her hallucinations was and is Vi.

It's always been Vi.

So are we all in agreement that Jinx is hallucinating less in season 2 two because Silco was making her worse?

[lucy-moderatz]

Mulder, the truth is out there. But so are lies.

[pinkmirth]

god he looks so kissable

[colorful-horses]

Watched helluva boss like I said I would (months ago .... lol) and my review on it can be boiled down to "it looks really good, i like the character designs, and it has a really decent framework. but it is SO melodramatic 24/7 about literally everything"

[livelovecaliforniadreams]

Conrad + Belly + Parallels + Callbacks + Moments of Growth (Season 2)

[ravenwolfie97]

i have successfully made malanga fritters from In Stars and Time and God are they good bros

[socialistexan]

Holy shit, could you imagine if David fucking Bowie was not only on Doctor Who but played one of the most over the top campy characters in the shows history in one of the greatest stories the show has ever made?

I would have killed to see this.

For reference if you haven't seen Caves of Androzani (which you should, even if you don't care about Doctor Who, it is must watch Sci-Fi), Sharez Jek is mad scientist who molded in the type of the Phantom of the Opera and is clad head to toe in leather that resembles fetish gear

I would have lost my mind over this.

[1nt3rnalpu7ref4ct10n]

its 4am and im gettin viscerally upset over a kids show just because the One Character i was looking forward to finally coming back actually didnt

[talesfromthebandgeekmafia]

Properly rewatching A Court of Fey & Flowers for the first time I forgot how good this season was it’s honestly even better on the second watch

[thefleshyougoveggie]

early tma episodes truly hit different

[mikimeiko]

Books I read in 2024

Nemesis Games - James S. A. Corey (2015)

[sarakiz]

lots of talk in many directions about the team event but never enough about this

[eggsistential-basket]

every year i survive until Christmas and then i survive until next Christmas

[bugsongs]

i've rewatched s1 of elementary many times but i dont think i've ever rewatched any other season... mostly bc i remember thinking 2-5 were underwhelming and not as good but every once in a while i remember kitty and think maybe i should do a more complete rewatch someday...