#it's literally all about dean
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old number seven, the devil makes three
#impossible to choose one lyric from this song#it's literally all about dean#āangels start to look good to meā#are you joking#supernatural#cw supernatural#spn#dean winchester#castiel#dean and cas#deancas#destiel#lyrics#lyric posting#the devil makes three
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having talented friends is so wild!!!!!! like. YOU!!!!!!!!!! YOU made THAT. YOU DID THAT?!?!?!?! YOU created!!!! THAT!!!!!!!!!!! WOAH!!!!!! praise!!!!!!!! praise for one thousand years!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
#sjonnie.text#this is about any skill by the way#writing art music crochet knitting editing#literally so so so so wild#yes this is about isaac and cody and taylor and nick and joey and dean and rain and mer and greg and jo and amanda and pie and zeph and jes#and daphne and jack and merv and angie and#sam and dex and jenna and tj and nahla and jenny and val and em and literally every single other one of my mutuals!!!!!!!! GAH!!!!!#you all are so talented it's SO cool#40k
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i lied theres no sex. were gonna sit down and watch supernatural while we analyze the way almost every character is queer coded especially dean
#supernatural#dean winchester#spn#destiel#castiel#deancas#sam winchester#theyre all queer because i said so#at this point it feels so wrong to call deans queerness a headcanon like it so soo heavily implied its literally canon#sam however......#and if i said a character who has always felt like they dont belong and something is inherently wrong with them is heavy queercoding......#like wow thats Queer Experience literally#ALSO U KNOW WHAT IM SOOOOOO UPSET ABOUT OMG#like i LOVE LOVE LOVE when in dean and cas live together and claire and kaia come over and hang out im gonna cryyyyy#and they sooo shouldve done that in the show#anyway a queer show (real) for queer people (debatable)
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I think its absolutely hilarious that Dean and Castiel go through inhuman amounts of trauma over the course of a decade plus, and somehow they still arent the human x angel ship on the show that has gone through the most detrimental mind bending shit. Michael and Adam were literally trapped in hell together alone for over 1000 years and they walked out the other side healthier than Dean and Cas could ever possibly be. Iconic really
#spn#supernatural#spn musings#destiel#deancas#midam#adam milligan#random thoughts because the inherent hilarity of it all is fantastic#like midam LITERALLY was abandoned and forgotten about by both the characters in universe and writers#fuck sam and dean for that fr though#dean winchester you are full of So many problems and issues#cagecore#nobody is doing it like them#and by them I mean every party involved because what the FUCK is going on there#how did the writers keep getting away with this#how do you consistently write the most batshit things ever without considering the implications involved
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so much supernatural discourse boils down to claiming a thing we actually see dean do on the show is something he would not do, claiming a thing we see dean specifically not do on the show is something he would do, claiming something all the main characters do is something dean alone is doing, or claiming something sam does on the show is something dean did.
and im so confused. because the answer is comically simple and it's a thing we all allegedly love doing and that is... watching supernatural?
#you have invented a man to be angry with but i have never seen this man before in my life?#and i dont mean like left up to interpretation shit#i mean like claiming dean always hates monsters and sam always supports them#or like how people totally memoryhole dean criticizing john#and sam often defending him#shit like dean sam and cas all having a plan to kill and or lock jack away at various points#like please just rewatch the show#or maybe watch it for the first time cough cough#a few weeks ago on twitter people were yelling at me because dean kills demon vessels with the knife#and none NONE of them listened when i was like... well literally all of them kill demon and angel vessels like... a lot.... ?#me: enjoying watching and talking about supernatural#versus#some people: enjoying *talking* about supernatural#many such cases
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Cas really read dean to filth within an inch of his LIFE three (3) minutes after meeting him (What's the matter? You don't think you deserve to be saved?), threatened him the very next time he saw him (You should show me some respect. I'm the one who dragged you out of hell. I can throw you back in.), then the time after that overshared about being a good little soldier (Can I tell you something if you promise not to tell another soul? I'm not a... hammer, as you say. I have questions. I have doubts)
absolutely insane writing from the destiel show
#look i don't even know where i was going with this post#im just.... the timing of it all#like literally their first three interactions#in this exact order#im just fully insane about s4 and the way cas changes almost instantly after meeting dean in person#destiel#don't ask me to make sense of this post please it's almost midnight and i got like 4 hours of sleep last night#and lord im about to do it again#spn#it's ya boi rach
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there is interesting johndean subtext and insinuations across kripke era, usually through an antagonist insinuating parent-child sexual violence in order to exert dominance over dean. this type of mockery exploits that ambiguous relationship between john and dean and reminds dean that he never had a normal relationship with his father, and that makes him gross and wrong. it doesn't actually matter in the end whether john was sexually abusive to dean. the core of their relationship was damning enough: dean was made to take the place of john's wifeāto comfort john and raise samāwhile simultaneously being his son. the codependent nature of their relationship implies the incest that underscores their dynamic. again, this is regardless of what literally occurred between dean and john because there is enough doubt toward the nature of their relationship that multiple antagonists can use it against them.
sonwife, brotherhusbandādean is stuck in a liminal space between family and lover and is unable to put his feet firmly on just one side and instead has to accept both together or abandon both together. he doesn't get to have a relationship with his family without it being simultaneously incestuous. he plays the role of wife to john and mother to sam as mary's replacement; he therefore becomes more than a son and transcends the boundaries of the familial into the incestuous. it's baked into the dynamic and he can't hope to escape the liminality in which he's stuck without abandoning his entire family altogether.
this ambiguous relationship is further acted out with sam, where people perceive them as lovers rather than brothers; where their mutual devotion trumps, neglects, and disallows any other close relationship outside each other; where their physical closeness is viewed through an unusually sexual lens despite no literal sex acts between them taking place on screen. once again dean is stuck in a liminal space, paralleling the ambiguous and uncertain relationship he had with john.
in the end, sex (and sexual violence) is just a symbol of this codependency and uncertainly incestuous dynamic. sex acts in kripke era end up being symbolic: misinterpretations of sam and dean's relationship; accusations of sexual violence; literal, on-screen sexual moments between the brothers and someone else. it's a literary device that highlights the incestuous themes of the show. dean hand-picks women for sam to fuck because it allows dean to be symbolically part of sam's sex life. henricksen accuses john of raping dean because it is a symbol of the unhealthy, codependent relationship dean had with his father. the samulet stays on during sex because sam is symbolically integral to dean's sexual gratification (seen too in the way both dean and cassie in 1.13 appear to kiss the amulet at least once in the dark room). sex is used to signify more than what's literally on the screen, and the connections between the literal sex acts and the blurred lines of dean's familial relationships allow for a reading of incest between both john and dean and sam and dean.
it never mattered whether johndean or samdean had a sexual relationship in the canon because that was never the point. the point is the liminality that permeates the narrative. sam, dean, and john all stand upon a threshold between acceptable and taboo. the point of it all is the doubt and anxiety, the are-they-aren't-they that is never answered. the absence of incest within the text invites the understanding that the incest was, in fact, always there.
#supernatural#wincest#samdean#johndean#i've been thinking about this yesterday since i talked about it with mac#figured i could share it here too and hopefully move on lol#i tried so hard to make this easy to understand but i fear that i will be misinterpreted nonetheless#i suppose that's what happens when your topic of choice is literally Doubt Uncertainty and Liminality#i focused this on dean's relation to the liminal incest of the narrative only because he's the common thread between johndean and samdean#obviously sam dean and john all equally occupy the liminal space here#dean simply worked as a good focal point through which i could make the argument#.txt#spn posting
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#spn fanart#spn art#destiel#dean winchester#castiel#spnfanart#wiggleart#I love this mating dance#the joke here is ladies and gentleman and all in between that dean complains at that point about personal space but in the end they wind#up so literally infused into one another theyāre always so close lmao#after 1518 Iām sure Dean mourned any indication of wanting personal space even a decade prior#Sorry sad thoughts Iām done I promise
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never ceases to amaze me the lengths that people will go to in order to pretend like sam isnāt naturally compassionate / kind and claim he only pretends to be, while emphasizing his supposedly āmonstrousā traits that he supposedly must always be fighting against. why are you (broader fandom) pretending like every single thing he says is a part of an elaborate scheme. can you at least pretend to actually care about who sam really is for literally one singular second
#been said many times before bc this happens literally everywhere. āconstantly fighting against his inner demonsā do you mean the justified#anger from growing up in an unsafe and abusive lifestyle.#this goes hand and hand to me with people pretending like the only emotion that motivated preseries (& also s4) sam was anger#yes that is part of it but there is SO much more there that people are just refusing to look at because theyāve convinced#themselves sam must be lying. because how could someone Monstrous / Tainted be genuine#it feels like it all just comes back to the idea that he has to be Sam (monstrous) or Sammy (baby brother) when there's literally#a whole episode about how sam is a combination of multiple parts and he cannot be whittled down to just one#stop projecting dean onto sam to make dean look better. it's not fun#you're thinking about the characters the way that the other characters in-universe think about them and that's not fun either <3#sw#star notes#(i've had this in my drafts for half the day and i'm finally flaring enough to not care and post it godbless)
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one of my favourite aspects of supernatural that you very rarely see in paranormal shows is that sam and dean are already versed in the world they live in. thereās no sudden discovery of ghosts and demons and now they have to learn about them along with the audience; they are born into it and already know all about it. it allows the audience to follow their personal story instead of also trying to figure out this new world and its rules
the first season is full of knowledge we never see them learn; āw*ndigoes are in the minnesota woods or- or northern michigan. iāve never even heard of one this far west.ā [ā¦] āgreat. well then this [his gun] is useless.ā (1x02), āyou donāt break a curse. you get the hell out of its way.ā (1x08), d: āitās a god. a pagan god, anyway.ā [ā¦] āthe annual cycle of its killings? and the fact that the victims are always a man and a woman. like some kind of fertility right.ā [ā¦] s: āthe last meal. given to sacrificial victims. d: āyeah, iām thinking a ritual sacrifice to appease some pagan god.ā (1x11)
almost every episode in the first season is a monster theyāve faced before that they then explain to the audience in a way that should feel patronising; like itās the same speech given over and over again but instead, the audience almost feels included in the knowledge. itās stated with such an innate confidence and comfort in said knowledge that it feels like we already knew it too; āspirits and demons don't have to unlock doors. if they want inside, they just go through the walls.ā [ā¦] āthe claws, the speed that it moves; could be a skinwalker, maybe a black dog.ā (1x02), āit's biblical numerology. you know noah's ark, it rained for forty days. the number means death.ā (1x04), āno no no, not the reaper, a reaper. there's reaper lore in pretty much every culture on earth, it goes by 100 different names.ā [ā¦] āyou said it yourself that the clock stopped, right? reapers stop time. and you can only see 'em when they're coming at you which is why i could see it and you couldn't.ā (1x12)
they already know and, at least in the first season, already have what they need to kill whatever theyāre hunting; already know to salt and burn bones for spirits, fire for a w*ndigo, exorcisms for demons, a silver bullet to the heart for shapeshifters. thereās only three times in the entire first season that they run into something new to them; 1x14 when sam gets his first vision that leads him to another psychic, 1x16 when dean calls caleb for help on the sigil he put together and he tells him about daevas, and 1x20 when they find out vampires are real- and they only donāt know that bc john thought they were hunted to extinction and not worth mentioning
(thereās also technically two half instances if you count one of them knowing something the other doesnāt - sam figuring out the tulpa in 1x17 and dean already knowing about the shtriga in 1x18 - but those still rely on sam and dean having prior knowledge)
even when theyāre uncertain about facing something, itās not bc they donāt know what it is; itās precisely bc they know what it is and acknowledge that itāll be a difficult hunt (āi don't know, man. this isn't our normal gig. i mean, demons, they don't want anything, just death and destruction for its own sake. this is big. and i wish dad was here.ā 1x04)
so much of the tension in paranormal shows typically comes from the main character(s) not knowing what is happening to them/the people around them and having to find out how to resolve it. supernatural is unique in that it operates more like a police procedural. the tension comes from solving the clues and identifying patterns to figure out who (what) the killer is and intercepting before they can take another victim
itās such a different tone to go for when compared to other shows that came both before, during, and after its run. it sets sam and dean on even footing with each other since they both have the same knowledge going in, and it puts them in a place of authority usually reserved for an outside character
the shows i compare spn to most is charmed, buffy and teen wolf; every main character in those shows are brought into the paranormal world knowing nothing, putting them on the same level as the audience, and they have their mc interact with others already knowledgeable about that world in order to overcome their problem/monster of the week. the audience organically learns about this new world as the characters learn about it. itās a sound writing strategy that prevents āas we already knowā-style exposition but something that complicates it is if your world building isnāt unique or intriguing enough, this slow introduction can become boring
weāve seen shows like these before; sitting through the same tropes of characters learning to use their powers, struggling with no longer feeling normal/relating to the regular world around them, and not knowing how much they can trust the people already involved in this new world gets repetitive. all three shows eventually reach the same level of comfort with their new world that spn starts with but if the characters arenāt enough to draw you in, you can end up dropping it before they reach that point (and often, before the overarching plot can really kick in and evolve the show beyond the villain of the week format)
itās the superhero origin movie in tv format; dragged out and overplayed. dropping the audience into an established world of course comes with its own problems but you also have the benefit of pre-existing established character dynamics that let the audience slot in like theyāve always been there instead of just getting to know all the characters while the characters also get to know each other
sam and dean already knowing about the supernatural lets the audience immediately get to the core of the story; the conflict between sam and dean, the search for their father, and the mystery of what killed their mother
#i could go on forever theres literally so many examples#dean figuring the ātwo dark doublesā is a shapeshifter sam figuring out the changing ghost is a tulpa#also peak how many of these examples come from dean despite them pushing so hard for sam to be the one knowing hunting theory#this format is why i cant stand watching the first season of charmed despite loving it so much#i just cant be bothered watching them have the same struggle ive seen a hundred times play out again#different genre but sons of anarchy does this well too; all the characters are already in the club life and already have inner conflict#spn having such a natural introduction makes me so glad they didnt go with the original plan of sam not knowing about hunting#that wouldve been Painful#watching spn so young has really shaped my view of media bc i legit cant stand things with a learning curve#give me an established world damnit#lord of the rings never stops to explain what a dwarf is! you just go with it! and it rules!#dean is just as theoretical and lore savvy as sam and id go as far to say he actually knows more#instead of trying to do this bullshit brains v brawn divide they shouldve done new tech vs analogue#sams laptop is famous and he also knows how to hack thing where the second dean doesnt know something he defaults to books#have dean be the one where if its written down he can find it almost like a proto bobby#they even kind of support that by him being the one to find the phoenix in s6 when they go through all their books#but this was 2005 and characters could only be so conplex and theyd already decided dean needed to be the hot one and sams the nerd one#side note how many of these metas am i going to write on this rewatch? tbd#side side note included all the quotes and episode numbers makes me feel so academic#coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt#carry on my wayward son#talk meta to me#meta#supernatural meta#spn#supernatural#dean winchester#sam winchester#save post
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As someone who watched Supernatural with family I have to say, the majority of the straight male audience identify with Dean, he was my father and brothers' favorite while Sam was my mother's favorite, my brothers always had some derogatory comment to make about "Sammy's girly hair" and my dad found him annoying when he didn't sit still and obey Dean immediately.
what I mean is I hate it when that part of the fandom says Dean is sweet and submissive, while sexist 50 year old men who watch the show are literally running around saying "that guy is just like me"
preach.
#and not just hellers but most wincest shippers also see dean as a subby omega ish bottom#despite his canonical violence and craving for control over sam#also apparently people donāt know or pretend to not know#that kripke (as well as jensen) is a straight dean truther and literally said dean would want a TRADITIONAL family#+ all those times when dean was compared to a father by the writers#the show was so blatant about dean becoming the family patriarch after johnās death#but ofc the fandom will always prefer the fanon version of this show aka poor abused gay boy dean and his boyfriends#spn
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people whoāve only seen hatchetfield: starkid has like practically no gay characters :/
the avp trilogy which has been sitting right there for probably most of their lives and is the foundation of everything:
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plus these less explicit more headcanony (but like, BARELY) examples that i really think are worth mentioning as well, i have receipts donāt tempt me i will literally make an entire video about this stuff (and i might actually):
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#i will literally fight you over lavender btw#i was tempted to put her in the first category#(i will fight you about ron as well)#also likeā¦#girl nobody Has to watch everything but if theyāre gonna make sweeping statements like this and act like authorities Yes they do actually#harry is fruity as hell idc what that incorrect subtitle of scarfy in avps says#(no seriously the subtitle is wrong he says METROSEXUAL iāll die on this hill)#that man L O V E S zac efron#in fact basically all the men do#starkid#team starkid#avpm#avps#avpsy#avpt#avp trilogy#a very potter musical#a very potter sequel#a very potter senior year#a very potter trilogy#also seamus & dean are canonically polyamorous????#if 'being open to the idea of both dating ginny at the same time' counts#in which case. draco is also canonically polyamorous
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CASTIEL: Stop. What's the point if you don't mean it? You fear me - not love, not respect, just fear.
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a godstiel pity party. i'd like to thank an anon i got way back in february of 2021.
#spn#vid#spnamvarchive#so fun fact i started making this more than a year ago. got it 90% done. and then was like no this isn't working#i will come back to this later.#it turns out that i needed to make some videos about cas and angels (the love club + help i'm alive amvs)#in order to make this one. anyway this video is about french mistake robert singer voice season six#i really struggled with it because i could NOT find the thread until i realized that it needed to be literally godstiel pov#it's about love and desire and jealousy and hurt and omnidirectional rage <3#it's about the fact that cas is so utterly dependent on dean for his self-image - however dean sees him that's it#it's about having a moment of reflection about lashing out before you do it but doing it anyway#it's about taking cruelty and dishing it out#and crucially. it's about being pregnant#mpregpocalypse#fun fact: i made a post about working on three season six amvs all the way back in nov. 2022#and only now have they come to fruition (this one + love club + metric)#anyway. have you heard that cas is obsessed#the thing is i do kinda want to add some specific director's commentary here. like the first verse is about cas being like.#incredibly deeply emotionally vulnerable to dean. as in: his emotional state and self-image is totally dominated by what dean thinks of him#and if dean is mad at him. and then the second verse is about... dean upsetting him and him responding to that by Killing Everybody lol#like he has a moment of reflection ['certain regrettable things are now required of me' + killing rachel] where he's like i've 1) also done#bad things and 2) i feel bad about it so maybe i will regret Killing Everyone. but then he does it anyway due to everybody keeps turning#on him. i feel like the rest of the amv is self evident. i guess i should note that 'share a paradise' is about how both of them have#a nostalgic view of the early days of their relationship when it wasn't Like This lol. but everything else i think is self evident.#oh and the reason the other angels flash onscreen with their burned wings at the end is i'm EVOKING the image of cas' wings burning. even#though it doesn't happen. i'm evoking it
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and dean winchester thought he was unlovable and didnt deserve happiness he hated himself and thought eveyone would eventually leave him and then a literal fucking angel fell in love with him. like loved him more than anything else in the world.
#and yes people have pointed out that cas has always been fascinated with the world and humans and all of gods creation#but he started Caring about the world and everyone BECAUSE OF DEAN#dont u love it when two people only fall in love with each other in One universe they get no other chances#these r the only version of themselves that said No im gonna do my own thing and they didnt play by the rules they Rebelled#THEY REBELLED FOR EACH OTHERRRRRR ONLY ONCE JUST ONCE#cas literally put everything hed ever believed in on the line for dean#he questioned everything for the first time. he began to doubt#a warrior angel and a son raised as a weapon going against everything theyve ever known for each other#they r so similar theyre both weapons for the man in charge theyve always only followed orders until they mer each other#im aware all of this has been said a billion times by literally everyone i just love them and cant stop thinking or talking about them ever#ok bye <3#supernatural#dean winchester#destiel#spn#castiel#deancas
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I feel like sibling and platonic relationships donāt get talked enough, especially in relation to romantic relationships in fandoms.
Like cool, I love these ship, but can we PLEASE discuss the fact that Dean is the only person who has never lied to Lia? How he is the only person she will listen to, because heās the only person she trusts? How Dean was the one person who prevented her from feeling trapped all the time? How Dean was the only person Lia ever let know and get close to the real her? How they were the only constants (besides Judd love him too) in each otherās lives for years in their childhood? The way he knows her and she knows him? She knows how to comfort him and distract him and get him to feel things and tried to help him with his father by looking through his father's file, ignoring her own feelings about it because she just wanted to help him only to find out that she canāt help. (Just think for a moment how she must have felt when she realized that. Because this genuinely breaks my heart.) The fact that they are intensely protective of each other, the way they have conversations without talking just by looking at each other, the way Dean trusts her and Lia trusts him, how they are literally siblings.
And this is going into kind of headcanon-y territory, but I like to believe that Dean didnāt ask Lia any questions about her past and waited for her to tell him herself, and refrained from profiling her (too much at least), and truly didnāt/doesnāt know anything about her past that she didnāt/doesnāt tell him. And how Dean told him things about his past he hadnāt told anyone before, not just to get her to trust him, but also because he trusted her. Just think for a moment please, how Lia, a girl who has been lied to and hurt and threatened and abused by every single person in her life, would feel about meeting someone who didnāt do any of that. Who never even lied to her, not once. For every lie she told him, Dean only ever told her the truth. Dean didnāt blame her for anything, for any part of what she went through. How confused she must have been, finding out that not everyone was like that. How hurt she must have been when she realized that what happened in her past, her childhood, was so much worse than she thought. Because before she thought that everyone was like that and it was normal, but meeting Dean who was entirely fundamentally different in every single way, showed her that it wasnāt. Think about how Dean must have felt, meeting a girl so defensive and closed off. How meeting her awakened a side of him he didnāt think he had, the side that felt and loved and trusted and the side that felt the inexplicable need to protect that girl.
And the fact that to protect her, Dean turns the attention on himself and his past, which he hates, just so Lia doesnāt have to face questions about her own past. Lia would go through hell for him, and he would do the same for her.
Think about how before, all of Liaās love had essentially been very idk submissive almost, like how she followed her mother and what her mother told her. I think she truly believed at some point that her mother was safe to trust. And then, well, we all know what happened and how her mother is actually evil andā Anyway, after her mother, the only person she trusted in her childhood before, completely shattered and destroyed all senses of trust in others, she lets herself trust and love this boy who trusts and loves her. And this love is fierce and protective, infinitely intense and powerful. The kind of love that can destroy worlds and build new ones, defying all logic and all boundaries. The opposite of what her love had been previously. And think about how much she had to have trusted him to let herself love like that.
Also think about how hurt Lia must have been when Dean shut her out. She trusted him with her whole being, she loved him and she saw them as a unit regardless of what happened and what other people entered and left their lives. They would always be with each other. Dean had never shut her out before, and Dean shut her out too. That hurts my soul way too much for it to be healthy. (I am choosing to believe that they had a conversation afterwards and then they both proceeded to cry and it never happened again yay happy ending tbh considering writing that bc I don't think I will survive if it doesn't end happily like that)
And Dean!! Heās lived his entire life terrified of feeling, terrified of becoming his father. He was living in a house alone with Judd and profiling killers which definitely perpetuated his fear, and then here came this girl whom he could protect. A girl he wouldnāt let himself hurt, a girl he could help for once and not mess it all up. And he didnāt mess it up. He saw how hurt she was, and how little she was willing to admit the truth to. And in that, he saw someone he could understand. He saw someone who he could profile for a good reason, but only profile enough to be able to get her to trust him and not enough to violate her privacy and that trust. He let himself get close to someone for the first time in his life. And for the first time in his life, he wasnāt a monster. Lia didnāt see him as a monster.
Because of their past and childhood, Dean didnāt trust himself and Lia only trusted herself and no one else. But meeting and loving each other? It taught Dean he can trust himself not to hurt someone. And it taught Lia that she can trust someone who wonāt hurt her.
Maybe itās because of the amatocentric world being way too focused on romantic relationships, but why arenāt we talking about this more??
#lia zhang#dean redding#sloane tavish#michael townsend#cassie hobbes#celine delacroix#judd hawkins#tanner briggs#veronica sterling#the naturals#killer instinct#all in#bad blood#jennifer lynn barnes#i am not ok about this#actually losing my mind over them#and there is literally no one else talking about it so there's no one for me to rant about this to#they are the best relationship in the entire series without a doubt#this was supposed to be way shorter and something else entirely but it somehow turned into this.... uhh#sorry if there are spelling/grammar mistakes in this; i didn't edit it lol
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iāve never been as angry on behalf of a character as i am for sam winchester
#currently thinking about season four and five. absolutely fuckibg mental#the world literally reshapes itself around him to prove him wrong#its all framed as God. Sam was so stupid and selfish and reckless for drinking demon blood. He just liked the power of it and he chose a#DEMON over DEAN.#but. thatās not the story they tell in s4.#like even aside from every single other complexity. Sam is literally right. he has ZERO WAY of knowing that killing lilith is the final seal#AND DEAN DOESNT KNOW TJAT EITHER. like sam is literally right he can kill lilith and he does kill lilith. dean wants lilith dead just as#much. samās cardinal sin is disobeying dean and then the world flips around on him and plot twist sam and dean were both wrong all along and#killing lilith is what will bring back lucifer :)#but. itās not framed like that either. itās framed like SAM BROUGHT BACK LUCIFER BY KILLING LILITH WHILE HIGH ON DEMON BLOOD#dean you wanted to kill lilith too?????????#but. doesnāt matter dean despite being mostly motivated by jealous anger is retroactively proven to be Right#and sam is retroactively proven to be Wrong. he is bad#i just. jesus. samās not evil ever. heās hardly even that fucking morally grey#and he still thinks thereās something wrong with him that heās a freak that heās inherently evil and needs to be purified#why?? cause of something fucked up that happened to him when he was a baby#and because heās disobeyed his father and his brother and been angry at awful things that have happened to him#makes me feel fucking insane actually#no wonder narrative frames sam as evil no wonder heās inherently marked as Bad by the forces in supernatural like even on a meta level#in supernatural gods just another shitty father. embodiment of the familial patriarch. and from samās very first moment on the show heās in#opposition to that heās ran away from john and he argues with dean. therefore he is evil#i donāt think my words r really making sense right now but. fucking hell#and sam is so swamped in guilt all of season five and he just fucking accepts that everything bad is his fault#and he gets tortured in the cage to save the fucking world and itās STILL not enough. not to appease his own guilt and not to appease deans#anger at him. dean is still throwing his perceived violations back at him in like season nine!!#and whenever he tries to get out itās treated as yet another Sin. narrative acts like sam thinking dean was dead and having a life outside#of hunting is The Worst Thing He Ever Did#worst sin sam ever commits in the eyes of the show is disobedience. Absolutely awful actually#spn#sam winchester
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