#it's like- so ugly compared to what you made me but i'll get better.

[hybbart]

Hey guys, I would really appreciate it if you stopped sending me messages about Lizzie's appearance. I get that most of you are just happy and/or think it's a compliment, but I've literally never had so many weird comments on a woman's body before, and it's getting really uncomfortable.

While I know I'm not always as good about it for men, as a character artist and as I hope is made clear in the design sheet I did for all the hermit and empire girls, I have always and will always draw all sorts of body types. That includes not just fat people, but fat people with different distributions and shape language- different everything. Lizzie and Cleo and Stress may all be fat and round but I like to think I did a very good job of making them all distinct in shape from each other in a way that converys their character.

I redesigned my Lizzie recently because I was wanting to draw her more, and I wanted her to allign better with my mental idea of her. She hadn't before because 1) I started off drawing her as the ocean queen and mayor who are very unlike her base self and monstrous, because she's cool like that. And 2) I never sat down and made a design sheet for her, so I constantly drew her differently and mixed her up with my Gem design. (which, go firgure, as a fan of sister characters, when I finally worked it out that mental idea ended up having a body type similar to my own little sister. Which makes it extra uncomfortable on a personal level.)

The fact is, when I draw women people casually comment on their body a LOT more, which is already a bit uncomfortable- and baffling, given that most of my sexualized pictures are of men. I get similar comments about how tall Pearl is, I've probably gotten more comments about how tall Pearl is than I have about how tall Jimmy is, and I draw him multiple times a week. But those comments are often at least done with a bit of amusement and not just straight up ogling her.

Every single time I've drawn Lizzie recently, though, I got an absolute flood of comments specifically talking about her body and nothing else. How fat she is, how attractive she is because she's fat, cat calls, and other more unsavoury language. Even backhanded compliments. I certainly didn't try to make her ugly, but I've not drawn her in pinups. She's doing the exact same things as every other character I draw, including herself before my redesign. And given that timing and VERY pointed nature of the comments, it's not exact rocket science.

Most of the comments haven't been too gross, thankfully. I'll chalk that up to a lot of the messages being people projecting onto her, which- that's a whole different can of discomfort worms. But it is constant and it is in place of literally anything else. I draw a whole comic about a funny moment with multiple people, and art I'm pretty happy with, and the only thing a dozen asks have to say is "Lizzie's fat!!🤤" which stands in quite the contrast to all the comparatively few comments about Jimmy being about how I drew his banana costume.

Anyways, what I'm asking is to please just be a bit more normal about women's bodies. I get that it's rarer, and it makes some people happy when they see characters like them, but focusing on how beautiful an unconventional woman is is still objectifying and making that woman's beauty her worth.

[hellsite-proteins]

Article Review

Okay, I know this isn't what I usually do on here, but I found this amazing article that fits with the theme of this blog so well, and I just had to share and talk about it! it's free to read here:

if you don't want to read the whole thing, i did my best to summarize it here. if you notice any mistakes, please let me know and i'll fix them!

researchers created random protein sequences to study. these were 100 residues long (or 109 with the inclusion of an N-terminal Met and a C-terminal 6His tag) and were made by either sampling different fragments of natural proteins from databases or by combining letters at random. this is not the same as using words, since in this study each letter was chosen independently, and the likelihood of choosing a letter matched the amino acid's relative frequency, but its still a neat comparison to this blog. they elaborate on this more in the methods section for anyone interested!

proteins in their generated library were analyzed using various algorithms to predict the occurrence of alpha helices and beta sheets. they were then sorted by relative disorder and secondary structure content. interestingly, the amount of secondary structure formation was not much lower for random proteins compared to those taken from pieces of databases. the three groups going forward were ordered, disordered, and a random sample.

next, they recombinantly expressed the selected proteins in E. coli and purified them for further analysis. I won't get into the specific assays, but overall they found that the more ordered proteins were more prone to aggregation and oligomerization, while the disordered protein were more likely to be expressed and soluble! following sequence analysis, they also determined that the disordered proteins did tend to deviate from the expected amino acid frequencies, which likely explains their increased level of disorder. because of all this, the less ordered random proteins are likely better suited for future evolution towards some function.

tldr: random proteins can form secondary structures and be expressed in vivo. interestingly, while the more structured newly created proteins were shown to clump together (which is Not Good!) in cells, disordered proteins did not and were actually well tolerated.

given all of that, i think i may have been a bit harsh towards some of the uglier looking structures on here. apparently, we can either have things that look like proteins but cause problems, or we can have ugly messes that are pretty chill for the most part. it still feels incredibly unintuitive to have more trust in the low confidence unstructured sequences, but this new information is still good and interesting to have!

[giamee]

ᯓ ᡣ𐭩 prev. OG 5 GIRLS INTRO!

masterlist. next. ᯓ ᡣ𐭩

INTRODUCING THE ISLANDERS ...

"HI i'm y/n, i'm 21 and from teyvat. i'm a student, so yay summer break!"

"i'm here for what i hope is a good time. i've had a couple boyfriends before, in fact i broke up with my last one just a few months ago, so i'm really just looking to get out there again and what's a better way than to be here with all the hottest guys in teyvat?"

"hey, i'm ganyu!! i work as a secretary and i'm 21, i live in liyue!!"

"i've never really had a boyfriend before haha, but maybe i'll find one here! my friends say that i'm a workaholic, and i feel like if i were to have a boyfriend he'll have to be able to handle the fact that i have a busy work life, or maybe just have one of his own."

"i'm not really the type to go out much, i definitely prefer a night in haha."

"my type? i like sweet guys, sort of a classic romantic type of guy who will make me feel special and understands my needs. that's all."

"yo, i'm hu tao, my friends call me tao! i'm from liyue, i'm 19, and i'm a funeral director. didn't expect that one did you? you ever had someone on the show with that job before? yeaahhhh, thought not."

"one thing about me is i love a good prank. i've always kind of been a trouble child, ever since primary school. nothing too crazy, just enough to keep people on their toes."

"i like people that are funny, can match my vibe. i don't like boring people. we're here to have fun, aren't we!?"

"one ick i have? to begin with, people who call them icks. and uhh... i also hate when guys make it a point to say how strong they are by comparing my own strength?? like yes, you can curl my bench, i'd hope so or otherwise we'd both be weak as shit."

"hey, i'm rosaria, i'm from mondstadt. i'm 26, and... well i've had a lot of jobs over the years. it's a bit of a funny story, actually, i used to be a nun. clearly that was meant to last 'cos i'm on this show now. right now, i work as a bartender. it's quite fun, getting to know the regulars. i can do most of their orders off the top of my head now."

"one of my icks in a guy? i don't think this really counts, but you won't believe the amount of guys i've met who are just... can't get over the fact that i used to be a nun. it's not that serious, like? i get it, but this isn't a porno."

"my type? good question. i don't know. but the last guy i was talking to had a bunch of tattoos and this really hot beard so, maybe that."

"so... i just talk into this mic? okay."

"hello.. everyone! i'm jean, i'm 26, and i'm an office worker. nothing too glamorous, haha. oh yeah, and i'm from mondstadt"

"my type in a guy is someone who's a bit more mature, you know? i'm not a teenager any more, i don't have the patience to date around with idiots anymore!" (chuckles)

"growing up, my dad and my brothers always made sure to treat me really well so that when i'm older i'll know how a guy should treat me. i guess you could say that my standards are pretty high, yeah"

"ooh, an ick? if a guy wants to go 50/50 with me. if you're broke, just say that"

𝜗𝜚 gia's notes :: the banners r kinda ugly o well. graphic design is my passion 🤓 also i left the y/n bio kinda blank so it's not too specific :)

[hotxcheeto]

Hello!

Can you write something with Vi x Fem!reader, where Vi gets sick and the reader takes care of her?

I just want some fluff, I'm a bit off rn :/

━ 𝐏𝐑𝐄𝐓𝐓𝐘 𝐍𝐔𝐑𝐒𝐄

𝙥𝙖𝙞𝙧𝙞𝙣𝙜(𝙨) - Vi x Fem!Reader 

𝙬𝙖𝙧𝙣𝙞𝙣𝙜𝙨 - Cursing, sickness, idk what else

𝙥𝙧𝙤𝙤𝙛𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙙 ? - Yeah/Nope

𝙖𝙪𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙧'𝙨 𝙣𝙤𝙩𝙚 - I hope you feel better darling <3 here it is, a bit short, but it's late and I thought this was cute

Vi was like a big baby, your baby, but still a baby.

She'd whine to you, cling to you, complain to you. Everything she'd never think about doing in front of anyone else. And it was even worse when she was sick.

Not that you minded.

If anything it was adorable, but Vi hated it. She hated how vulnerable she could be, or worry she was bothering you.

But it never did, and you didn't mind.

"Y/n?" You were lying quietly beside her, running your fingers through hair, not caring about the slight sweat from her fever. Half awake and eyes fluttering open and shut as you fought off sleep incase she needed something.

Worried even in exhaustion.

"Hm?" You then responded. She was quiet for a moment, staring up at you through the dimly lit room, rain quietly pattering against the windows.

It would've sent you back to sleep just by the sounds of the weather and the calming sounds of her breathing. You nearly did fall back into your light slumber when her voice stirred again,

"Do we have more of that medicine?" She croaked out in her sickly, groggy, deepened voice.

She knew you did, but she also knew that it was across the apartment and you'd barely slept while taking care of her already.

But her head hurt so fucking back, and she couldn't help it anymore.

You opened your eyes, taking in a breath while sitting up.

"Yeah, I'll go get it, okay? And some water."

She felt terrible as soon as you began sliding off the bed, but you didn't give her a moment to second guess her ask. Taking off to get the stuff to make her feel better, not a another thought in mind despite there being many in hers.

It wasn't long until you returned with a glass of water and the medication paired with a spoon you nearly fought somebody over to get.

Hell and back just to get the small bottle, and you didn't regret a thing.

You sat beside her, giving her the water before pouring the ugly colored liquid into the spoon while Vi sat up. Each muscle aching and in pain, praying for her to rest.

"I'm sorry." "Don't be.." You kissed her warmed cheek, getting a little smile out of her while you held up the silverware. "Open wide." "Fuck me, I forgot about this part." You laughed quietly, shoving the spoon in her mouth when she talked catching her off guard.

"There you go." She made a face as you pulled back, coughing while practically guzzling the water after you set the spoon and medicine beside the bed.

"Shit.." She choked, looking at you with an expression that made you laugh out loud by accident.

"Let me feel you.." "If you ask nicely, Cupcake.." You snorted, reaching out to feel her face once more, her skin riding the line of being hot.

"You're burning up again." "I'm fine."

Your face went slack, glaring down in a playful yet scolding manner.

"Violet, you need to get some sleep." "But I don't want to."

"Lay back down." She huffed, falling down onto her pillow while you covered her up with the blanket that she couldn't pull up herself. "You comfortable?"

Vi then shook her head, staring at you with her head just barely peeking out from top of the covers.

"What else would you like, my big baby?" You leaned down, kissing her forehead a few times. "Well sunshine, I'd like the hot nurse to lay with me too." "Oh is that so?"

She nodded, smirking up at you when you began to lay beside her.

"You know I'm probably gonna get sick after this, right?" "I'll take care of you." You giggled, snuggling underneath the blanket with her, feeling her warm hand against your bare waist.

"Will you be my hot nurse?" "I don't know if I could ever compare to you." Vi then muttered as she felt your finger move up to her cheek, running along her skin, distracting her from her aching limbs.

"I disagree." Vi blinked, once then twice, looking over each little mark and feature on your face. "I dunno Sunshine, have you seen yourself? I couldn't compare." "I think you're very pretty, actually, you compare almost a bit too perfectly."

You swore her face turned a deeper shade of crimson then it already was from her temperature. Bashfully glancing away while cuddling into the pillow.

"How much sleep did you get today?" She then shrugged, humming when you ran your fingers through her hair, giving her sweat forehead a break when it stayed back. "I haven't been able to." "You feeling any better?" She shrugged once more, smirking when you scoffed.

"Maybe I should give you more medicine, so you'll really sleep through it–" "No, I'll take a nap." She nodded, assuring you as she began to change her position.

"Oh alright, just relax though, I'll set your pillows up so–" Vi wrapped her arms tightly around you, falling face first onto your chest, your body much colder than hers that ran hotter than ever now.

"That works too. You need anything else before–"

"I'm all good doc, but I'm gonna need you to stay, make sure I sleep good."

You smiled, adjusting the covers on her shivering body, looking at the rainy window.

"Could've asked. Terrible communication as a patient. But the cutest, I'll give you that." You again began running your nails through her hair and down her neck. Going over her shoulders before repeating it.

For a moment everything muffled, and it was only you and her.

"Don't stop.." She muttered, drooling against your shoulder. "That feels good." "I won't, promise. I love you."

But all there was left in the room was her quiet breathing and the sound of pitter patter against the glass.

[p1nkm1lkslug]

More of my head canons for my OC (Samara) :3

(They r in formal attire)

Takes care of hair,since becoming a proxy her self expression is limited so she does take control where they can (wears different clothes, changes her hairstyle)

Big on self expression,has had a fuck ton of piercings

At some point she will end up shaving her head (not exactly sure when I'll end up making this comic legit since it's hard with school and what not but hopefully I can begin planning in winter)

has a tiny toothgap, and use to have a smiley piercing but it kept falling out and was overall fucking up his mouth so they stopped

Gets overwhelmed in loud places and overall avoids people in general, she has a few she likes but still prefers solitude

She can't handle kids, but that doesn't mean she hates them, specifically Sally, I head canon that Sally overall avoids as many adult in the mansion as possible, she can tolerate SOME of the women but absolutely non of the men, Sam just kinda broke down in her room knowing a kid was stuck in this hellish home

Not really close with many in the mansion but her relationship with the creeps is more:

Jane/clockwork: civil, might go for a drink or two and exchange childhood memories drunk in the bathroom but that's it, they kinda have a very "we're in a home full of gross men, we gotta stick together" Relationship so they all just make peace

Dina/Nina: nice, she finds them sweet and overall kind compared to others, they aren't close either but Sam has no issue chatting with them, it's not everyday you get a normal conversation

Jill: estranged and one sided besties situation, Sam doesn't hate her but Jill can't read the room and girlypop can only take so much of her personal space being intruded before she gets angry (y'all are not genderbent will and jack 🗣️🙏)

Zero: "I can't tell if I wanna fuck you or rip your head off" "Both, both is good"

Anne: awkward, it's literally just "scary intj who hates men and is very violent" X "infp who is also violent and is so fucking done"

Masky: ugly hoe stfu kys 😍

Hoodie: alright relationship, bro is tryna get down and dirty and bbg just wants to be held for once 😭

Toby: do you love me because of the way I am or because you need a rebound since your ex girlfriend cheated on you with another killer ( Jane x Natalie 🔛🔝)

Jeff: your are such a sick scummy asshole, I need to know what happened to you. She feels for Jeff in the way you feel for a stray cat that is scared like "what happened that made you, you"

Ben/other gamer pastas: funny, now pass the blunt

Will: bitch I get you wanna be edgy and that you didn't have many friends but THAT IS NOT A REASON TO GO TO THE UNDERWORLD AND BECOME A KILLER (also you deserve better friends then a manipulative clown)

Ej/Dr smiley: casual conversation over doing a victims autopsy

Issac: no I'm not gonna help you track down your ex bff just cus your dead tf? (She in fact spent the next month helping Issac find jack and only at the last minute did the dumb fuck realize that she could have introduced them when her and Issac first met)

Frankie: hi, I'm Saul Goodman, did you know your have rights?, well nowhere does it say that you need to bottle up your feelings (she has heard him sobbing about amy)

LJ: I can't wait till your bitch ass looses those fuck ass acrylic nails, I'm gonna be swinging left and right mf

im so tired now-

[tg-pilled]

Tokyo Ghoul Characters as MCR songs

This is for shits and giggles, please don't take this too serious. I originally wanted to cover Every album and compare Every song to a character from each album and then realized nobody cares that deeply so here is a brief version!

Kaneki - Famous Last Words - "Can you see my eyes are shining bright? 'Cause I'm out here on the other side of a jet black hotel mirror and I'm so weak. Is it hard understanding, I'm incomplete?"

Haise - AMBULANCE - "And we will wear our masks again, out after dark, 'cause we are up for everything it takes, and we are not the same."

Ginshi - Cancer - "But counting down the days to go, it just ain't living, and I just hope you know that if you say goodbye today, I'd ask you to be true because the hardest part of this is leaving you."

Urie - Sleep - "Don't you breathe for me, undeserving of your sympathy, 'cause there ain't no way I'm sorry for what I did."

Mutsuki - DESTROYA - "With duct-tape scars on my honey, they don't like who you are. You won't like where we'll go, brother, protect me now."

Saiko - The Kids from Yesterday - "All the cameras watch the accidents and stars you hate. They only care if you can bleed. Does the television make you feel the pills you ate or every person that you need to be?"

Arima - The Foundations of Decay - "Let the flesh submit itself to gravity. Let our bodies lay, mark our hearts with shame. Let our blood in vain, you find God in pain. Now if your convictions were a passing phase, may your ashes feed the river in the morning rays. And as the vermin crawls we lay in the foundations of decay."

Hide - The World is Ugly - "These are their hearts, but their hearts don't beat like ours. They burn 'cause they are all afraid. But mine beats twice as hard, 'cause the world is ugly, but you're beautiful to me."

Touka - The Ghost of You - "At the top of my lungs in my arms she dies, she dies. At the end of the world, or the last thing I see, you are never coming home."

Hinami - Cemetary Drive - "If you want, I'll keep on crying. Did you get what you deserve? Is this what you always want me for? I miss you."

Ayato - Thank You for the Venom - "I keep a gun in the book you gave me. Hallelujah, lock and load. Black is the kiss, the touch of the serpent son."

Nishiki - The Jetset Life Is Gonna Kill You - "Gaze into her killing jar, I'd sometimes stare for hours. She even poked the holes so I can breathe."

Eto - Give 'Em Hell Kid - "Some might say we are made from the sharpest things you say. We are young and we don't care. Your dreams and your hopeless hair. We never wanted it to be this way for all our lives."

Naki - The Only Hope for Me is You - "Because you're the only hope for me. And if we can't find where we belong, we'll have to make it on our own."

Takizawa - House of Wolves - "Tell me I'm an angel, take this to my grave. Tell me I'm a bad man, kick me like a stray."

Tsukiyama - Romance - There's no lyrics but the vibe is *chefs kiss*

Uta - I Never Told You What I Do for a Living - "It ain't the money and it sure as hell ain't just for the fame, it's for the bodies I claim and lose. Only go so far 'til you bury them so deep and down we go, down."

Renji - Headfirst for Halos - "And as the fragments of my skull begin to fall, fall on your tongue like pixie dust, just think happy thoughts, and we'll fly home."

Juuzou - Mama - "Well, mother, what the war did to my legs and to my tongue. You should've raised a baby girl, I should've been a better son."

Rize - Our Lady of Sorrows - "We could be perfect lovers one last night, and die like star-crossed lovers when we fight."

Akira - Skylines and Turnstiles - "We walk in single file. We light our rails and punch our time. Ride escalators colder than a cell. The broken city-sky, like butane on my skin, stolen from my eyes."

Amon - Save Yourself, I'll Hold Them Back - "For all of us who've seen the light, salute the dead and lead the fight. Who gives a damn if we lose the war? Let the walls come down, let the engines roar."

Feel free to add your own interpretations but these are songs that I think relate to the characters! :)

[windchimesgames]

End of Year Recap + Plans for 2024

Hey everyone!

Belated Happy New Year to everyone! I know this is a very late end of year recap 😂Unfortunately, the past week ended up much busier for me than expected, so I could only get around to doing this now that things have calmed down a little.

This is a crosspost of a public post I made on Patreon a few days ago, so if you prefer the formatting there, you can read the post at this link:

PS: I do free monthly devlogs / posts there on Patreon, so consider joining the free tier of the Patreon even if you aren't interested in the paid tiers!

For those who'd rather read the post here, I'll leave the extraordinarily long ramble in a Read More cut below!

Let's start with a quick recap of the highlights / achievements accomplished in 2023!

Okay, this one may be slightly cheating. While Emberfate only launched on Steam in Jan 2023 so the 92 positive reviews came in in the year of 2023, it was up on Itch.io since mid 2022, so not all 383 Itch.io ratings came in in 2023.

Still, I'm pretty proud of these stats! Perhaps the numbers are nothing compared to some other amazing games' out there, but it's still something I'm proud of. It makes me happy that my silly experimental nostalgic little game struck a chord in so many players — much more than I expected given how niche the topic was!

Now, unfortunately, I could not get Emberfate's DLC for Potato's route out by end of 2023 like I had hoped. Porting the game to mobile also ended up much more difficult than I expected because of just how much of the UI I'm going to have to redesign — and hence, programming to be redone — if I wanted to make the game fit a small mobile screen. So both plans are going to have to be postponed to 2024.

The other notable highlight of 2023 is that both Lyrissa's and Kierdan's routes for Reanimation Scheme were released for beta access! That put the game at 3/5 routes complete, with a total of 431,786 words for the script.

I recruited a handful of beta testers to test the three completed routes a few months ago, and so far, the feedback has been positive overall. That's been a huge relief and lifted a massive weight off my chest — due to the controversial reception of the demo, I've been extremely anxious that the game would be hated by the players, and I've done so many rounds of editing and honestly perhaps somewhat unnecessary and obsessive rewriting of the script, but none of it felt good enough 😂 So hearing the positive comments has been a huge motivation / morale booster. Perhaps I should have done beta testing sooner… LOL

There are two more achievements unrelated to a specific game project that I'd like to mention:

2023 is the year that I became more interested in and better at Ren'Py programming! Most of it is thanks to my amazing programmer friend and Ren'Py wizard, Feniks (whom you may know as the programmer for Our Life series), who sparked my interest in programming and helped teach me a LOT. While I'm by no means a professional now at coding, I feel much more comfortable navigating around Ren'Py code and setting up what I need to in the backend of the games I'm developing, which opens up new doors for me for future projects in terms of what kind of features (big or small) that I may be able to include! Though the side effect of that is I looked back at the code I did for Reanimation Scheme from previous years and was immediately horrified by how ugly and inefficient it was. 😂I did redo the backend code of the Gallery and Achievements system a bit, but the rest will just have to stay for now.

I made quite a few new connections within the indie VN dev sphere in 2023! I made a shocking discovery that there's enough number of indie VN developers from Hong Kong to fill half a minibus, and I was lucky enough to connect with them and share our experiences and learn from each other! Due to new project commissions I took on for $$$ (real life financial needs suck), as well as a couple of small game jam projects I joined as programmer to buff up my programming portfolio, I also made some new VN dev friends unexpectedly. It's been really nice, because honestly, solo dev can be a really lonely and isolating endeavor sometimes. I'm super grateful for the new connections I found myself making in 2023!

Looking Ahead: 2024

Okay, that was a lot of rambling for the recap. More than I thought I would write. Now let's move forward to what the future will look like for this studio in 2024 and what goals I'm setting for myself this year!

Priority #1: Finishing Reanimation Scheme

Of course it's Reanimation Scheme. As mentioned above, we're currently at 3 out of 5 routes completed (sans partial voice acting). So the biggest goal for 2024 will be to get the game done. and out. Finally.

I won't be giving a concrete release date until we're like, literally in beta phase for all 5 routes, just so I won't have to announce a delay and let people down. But given the current progress and pace of work, I'd say probably around mid-year — maybe Q3 latest.

I'll be keeping up with the episodic updates of Reanimation Scheme's beta build on Patreon (and Kickstarter) from this month onwards, beginning with Jori's route and then followed by Sebastien's.

The remaining Kickstarter rewards may take a little longer — but ideally, all of them (artbook / lorebook / short stories collections, etc.) will be done by end of the year as well.

Priority #2: Potato's Route DLC for Emberfate

Potato, poor Potato. His DLC had to be put on the sidelines until Reanimation Scheme is done.

Half of the art has already been commissioned and completed by the amazing Remnantation — we're just missing his selfie CG & his MMO character sprite! So the next step would be the script and then the voice acting for the calls part. I won't be able to start on the script until mid-2024 earliest, but given the fact that his route won't be that long if it's parallel in length compared to the existing three routes, it probably won't take too long to do. Perhaps 2-3 months for the development process of the DLC?

I'll likely be releasing his DLC early on Patreon, potentially also episodically as it's completed, like I did with Emberfate. So if you're interested, keep an eye out for it when the time comes!

Something Secretly Brewing in the Shadows?

If you're pledged to this Patreon on $10 tier or above, you'll probably already know what I'm alluding to.

I won't be announcing or talking much about this for now, since I don't know when I'll be able to start working on this project properly (i.e. I need to meet my above two goals first). For all I know, it might end up being not a 2024 thing but a 2025 thing. So I'll only tease it slightly for now here.

Bonus Goal: Market, for the Love of God

If you follow Wind Chimes Games on either Twitter or Tumblr, you'll probably have noticed the sorry state of my social media. I… really do not like marketing or posting on social media. I never know what to post or say. I'm too unfunny and uncreative to meme or write humorous captions that get engagement. 😂It kind of feels like I'm shouting into the void, and nobody really cares about what I have to say on my projects when there's so many cooler and more interesting things out there. So I always try for a brief period of time, and then I give up 😭

This year though, I really really need to take marketing more seriously. With two releases planned for 2024, marketing is going to be important if I want the games to sell more than like 20 copies LOL

So I guess, uh, hold me to it and call me out if I don't start posting regularly after all 🥹

Conclusion

If you've made it this far on this post, thank you so much for listening to me ramble. 🥹 2024 is going to be a very busy year, but hopefully, a productive one that will end with me meeting all of the above listed goals.

Thank you so much for joining me on the wild and bumpy journey that was 2023, and I hope you'll stick around for the exciting things to come this year too! Here's to a great year ahead of all of us!

[canirove]

The Princess & the Football Player | Chapter 23

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"Happy Valentine's Day, Declan Rice."

"Happy Valentine's Day, your Royal Highness. I'm sorry for calling you this late, today has been hectic."

"It's ok, don't worry. I've also had a busy day getting everything ready for my trip to South Africa."

"I'm gonna miss you so much when you leave..."

"You'll be fine, Declan. With all the games you are playing while I'm gone, you won't have time to miss me. And we'll be in the same time zone, we can keep calling each other."

"Yeah... But if I'm really needy, I'll have you kilometers away, not as close as I have you now."

"If you are needy, you have some of the photos from our Christmas dinner. Use them" I smirk.

"It isn't the same and you know it."

"Do you have early training tomorrow?"

"I sadly do, yes. Were you planning on paying me a visit?" he asks with a mischievous smile.

"Since you seem to be so needy..."

"Urgh, it sucks that we can't see each other on Valentines Day."

"It is like any other day, Declan."

"Yeah, but it is our first Valentine's Day together. I wanted to have a lovely dinner together, maybe watch a movie, then make love until the sun comes out... Those things."

"Those things" I laugh. "But are we back to making love?"

"It's Valentine's Day. You must be romantic."

"And on your birthday we fucked..."

"Because we had to celebrate that I was alive for another year."

"Ok" I laugh again. "So should I expect the same for my birthday in a couple of months?"

"You should. You definitely should" he says, giving me that look that makes my body burn.

"Eleanor!"

"Holy shit, mum!" I say, my phone slipping from my hands and hitting the floor as I get up from the sofa. "Have you never heard of these things called knocking or ringing the bell?"

"I'm your mother, I don't need to do that."

"Yes, you do need to do that. This is my house."

"Whatever. Have you seen this?" she says, showing me her phone.

"Oh, that. They made it official" I reply, looking at a photo of Roberta and Mason.

"You knew about this?"

"Of course I did, mum. She is my best friend."

"So you've been hanging out with him? With a football player?"

"Jesus, mum. Why do you always talk about them as if they were something disgusting? Did one of them break your heart as a teen or something?" I laugh.

"Don't be silly" she scoffs. "Have you been hanging out with him, yes or no?"

"I have, mum" I say, rolling my eyes. "Mason is a really nice guy, and he makes Roberta very happy."

"Mason. What type of name is that?" she chuckles.

"Oh my God, mum. Who cares?"

"I do. And I don't like you mingling with football players."

"What?"

"They are just a bunch of spoiled kids with too much money who spend it on ugly cars, uglier clothes and cheating on their wives."

"Oh wow" I laugh. "You just described half the boys I grew up with."

"Don't compare them, Eleanor. They aren't the same."

"Yeah, that's true. Football players earn their own money with their talent and have an actual job. These kids are just wasting their parents money and doing nothing. If they want a job, they don't have to worry, daddy will give them one."

"You are so... Urgh!" my mum says. "I truly hope the boy you are seeing isn't one of them."

"A spoiled rich kid? Nope, he isn't. And how do you know I am seeing someone?"

"Your grandmother told me when we had a chat on Christmas. But I was talking about a football player, not a decent boy from a good family."

"Decent. You love that word, don't you?" I laugh chuckle. "And you wouldn't say the same if you had been at the parties I've been to."

"Whatever. I just hope you have good taste."

"I have very good taste, mum. Don't worry" I smile.

"Good. And I better go, your dad is probably wondering where I am."

"I doubt it" I say to myself.

"What?"

"Nothing, nothing. Good night, mum."

"Goodnight, Eleanor" she says before leaving.

"Dec? Are you still there?" I say, picking my phone from the floor.

"Yeah..."

"I'm sorry you had to hear all that."

"Nah, it's ok. But the day I meet your mum... I fear for my life" he laughs. "Though I think you may be into something when you asked her if a football player dumped her, you know?"

"You think?"

"Yeah... Maybe, I don't know" he shrugs. "But she seems so bitter."

"She is bitter. I'll have to ask around, see if anyone knows something. And again, I'm sorry about everything she said."

"It's fine, don't worry. She may not like me, but I know you grandmother does and she is way scarier. It's good to know I have her on my side."

"It is, yes."

"Eleanor..."

"Uh?"

"We are gonna be fine, ok?"

"Yeah" I sigh.

"God, I wish I could be there to hug you."

"So do I."

"Ok, that's it. We are meeting tomorrow after training, clear your schedule."

"What?" I laugh.

"Tell them you don't feel ok or whatever. I know you are very clever when it comes to excuses to sneak around" Declan smirks. 

"Mr. Rice, what are you implying?" I smile.

"Let's meet tomorrow, Eleanor. Here, at my place. We can have lunch together and then just lay on the sofa cuddling for the rest of the day. We'll even turn off our phones so one bothers us."

"That sounds perfect."

"Do we have a date, then?"

"We do, yes."

"Perfect. See you tomorrow, Eleanor. I love you."

"I love you too, Declan."

[wanderers-archive]

@thelost-in-time orders: Can I get a fluffy Xiao with a s/o reader who gets anxious easily and talks super quickly when they're nervous?

And they're only more comfortable around him compared to strangers?

summary of the order: Donut(fluff) water(gn reader) honey(oneshot)

[note]: none

3rd person POV

as you were walking up the stairs towards katheryn to accept more commissions ''Ad Astra Abyssosque, welcome to the adventurers guild [name], here to accept more commission i assume?'' katheryn asked. you nodded quite excitedly, before katheryn turned around to get the list of commission you asked a question ''h-hey katheryn w-would you m-mind giving m-me more co-commission with int-interacting with more pe-people?'' you stuttered out, katheryn nodded and handed you your commission for the day ''well, here they are [name] goodluck and Ad Astra  Abyssosque'' she said before waving goodbye

[name] POV

as i looked at the first commissions in the list, it said 'help organize the wine at dawn winery' i suddenly regretted what i said to katheryn, master diluc was scary, everytime you helped employee's organize the barrel's he looked at you with a face that looked like he hated your whole existence so it's always scary when i go to dawn winery unless i go with someone im comfortable with like xiao and the traveller but since xiao was busy killing demons and lumine(imma make the traveller lumine cause #girlboss) being in inazuma i had to go to the winery alone...what am i going to do, i guess i can do it alone

~when you arrive at dawn winery~

3rd POV

welp here you are standing in front of the mansion, as you were walking to the front door,when suddenly someone touched my shoulder so you quickly turned around and you felt your soul leave your body, it was master diluc looking at you like a parasite ''well what are you doing here?'' diluc asked you while you were having a small panic attack on what to do when you suddenly blurted out

''i-im h-here to help y-you organize t-the wine''

diluc POV

hmm these grapes aren't ripe enough yet to be made into juice , why are these taking more longer then the other ones, huh it's that girl from liyue again what's she doing here again? ''well what are you doing here?" as they panicked to say an answer, ''i-im h-here to help y-you organize t-the wine''they stuttered out an answer ''oh well i'll lead you to the wine cellar'' i said beckoning for them to follow.

~after you finish organizing the wine cellar~

no ones pov

as you walked back to wangshu inn you looked back on what the commissions were today, first was *help organize the wine cellar at dawn winery* which wasn't all that bad as you soon realized that diluc did not hate your existence but juet looked at you with curiosity since you were always trembling . The second commission was * help flora gather flowers* not to hard as you interact quite better with children, the third commission was easy as well you just had to cook mondstat food-.

Before you could finish your inner monologue someone bumped into you, you looked up and saw 3 guys looking at you "oh? And whats a cutie like you doing walking around by yourself?" The first guy said but loud enough so you could hear it "i-im g-going to wangshu inn" you responded with a whisper " well why don't we come with you" the 3 men look at each other with mischievous smirks and roughly grabbed your wrist" um n-no need my b-boyfriend will be w-with me" you whimpered as the first men held your wrist roughly, you suddenly remember what xiao said 'if death comes knocking at your door, call my name, adeptus xiao' you needed help "x-xiao" you whimpered as the men who grabbed your hand suddenly tightened it when he heard his name "huh? What did y-"

"Let go of them"

The man was frightened when he felt something sharp on his neck, you slightly opened your eyes as ypu no longer felt a grip on your wrist. "Go. Unless you want things to get ugly." Xiao ordered, The other two men ran away.

"...are you alright?" Xiao questioned as he was you lightly rubbing your wrist "i'm okay, the only grabbed my wrist, other then that i'm okay'' you answered "let's go back, it's dangerous out here at night" he proposed "but.. my commis-" you were cut off when you both teleported back to your room at wangshu inn "just finish your commission tomorrow....I'll help you with it" xiao insisted, he had his back turned to you but you could slightly see a faint hue of red on his cheeks "really? I'm glad your coming with me xiao" you agreed on his idea "...you should rest now, it's almost midnight, mortals should sleep by now" xiao turned to you but had his head slightly turned

You slowly laid down on your mattress. You feel as your as getting more and more heavy. "Xiao, will you stay here for a beit longer?" You whispered, you didn't hear his response as you fell asleep.

"You don't have to ask me to stay with you, ill stay and protect you as long as you live." He held your hand to his cheek as he stays with you until you wake up.

°•End•°

Thank you note: I FINALLY FINISHED THIS AFTER A YEAR IN MY DRAFTS😭😭 THANK THE ARCHONS I HAD THE MOTIVATION TO FINISH THIS. Anyways ill probably be doing my other drafts, also this took to long because i lost my note book with the whole story written out (my skz photo cards😭😭😭) hope you enjoyed stay tuned for more updates😘

[kestrel-wish]

Wish the Lego plushies weren't made of the worst material known to mankind. I have two of them ( A blue classic spaceman guy that i modified just a little bit and Cole from Ninjago I am a woefully predictable guy. Want to get the Emmet one too, the one that was made for the second lego movie(?) eventually. he looks so ugly. 💔 ) and they're so silly they look great, if a bit pleasantly misshapen, as all good plushies are, of course. The embroidered details look absolutely fantastic and bold and well done and they're great plushies overall but holding them is absolute agony why must they be so crunchy. Once again I am plagued by the curse of sensory issues. Why must something look silly and friend shaped but touching it being like rubbing paper towels on the nerves of my teeth. I desire to hold a little fella and yet I cannot, must be content with merely looking. 😔 Very uncool. Also for some reason there's no Zane one from my knowledge? If there was I would definitely have one but there isn't. Hence me having the Cole one he's my second favorite he's also Awesome. I don't know why, though? Looked a few times i can't find records of an official Zane one anywhere. Cowabummer. If anyone knows why there isn't one I would to know. It just seems like a strange absence, but that might just be a 'me being not normal about him again' thing than anything. Like, why, though? They have at least one of a good chunk of characters, even if they may be on the older side. So sad, no love for my favorite nindroid guy that's also very uncool. At first i assumed it might have be like a details thing where it'd be too hard embroidery wise to justify making; especially if they went for one of his more robotic designs and not a more 'human' cloaked one. Since the lines on his face might complicate things but Sora's is incredibly detailed design wise even for her face markings , and she has a plush. So , not really not sure what that's all about. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ Maybe it's more of a demand thing, which would be fair. Like, ofc there'd be less demand for him compared to like, Lloyd or Kai they're quite marketable, or for the newer main characters like Sora and Arin, in that case that makes sense to me. That's the most likely reason i'm assuming. Anyways C'mon Who do i have to bribe at Lego to make them consider making an official one for him. pspsps i'll offer up my soul. One wonderful vaguely human soul up for grabs pspsps c'mon. Not like I use it much anyways. I Yap about this often on other things i get stuck back on this like a broken record , if you can't tell already. Very normal about plushies. Totally don't think they're cool or anything. Sorry for the long yap session yes this is what I will post instead of spending time doing productive things, like making art or at least typing out a funny thought i am so sorry. Need to spend time better.

[remedyxtragedy]

Hello!!! Pleasure to meet ya!!

I only really wanna go by RemedyxTragedy but you can also just call me Rem or Remedy, whichever you prefer. I've been posting on tumblr for a good few months now on my other two accounts, however I've yet to emulate the online identity I've always wanted on platforms like this and so I decided, why not start anew and see where I get?

What I really strive to accomplish here is sharing my work with the masses, in a way that's 100% better and more organized than my previous attempts. Before I continue on about my stories, however, some basic and completely relevant facts about me are--

I prefer a much darker and grim style of writing so fluff, heartbalm, and mushy light-hearted stuff isn't really my cup of tea, although I do like wholesome from time to time just as a refresher from the more serious themes and subjects I often entrench myself in, to an unhealthy extent, so if I'm in the mood for it I might post such a story or two

I'm still very much in high school, but writing has been my passion for many years now. I enjoy playwriting and the regular creative style of writing, but as I've stated before my work will most likely only ever consist of Horror, mystery, or Thriller--it's what I'm best at.

Yes, I make art. I'm a rookie, by all means, but it's a very precious hobby of mine and so I make the most of it. My main blog is where I post art showcasing my main art style which is pretty vibrant and colorful so if you're interested you can check that out, but on this blog I'll only be posting art using the particular art style I adopted for Idiosyncratic, my other big story (name to be decided), and any other story I come up with along the journey. You'll see what I mean

I have a kitty cat, Tsukiko, and she's my pride and joy. Probably the most unnecessary detail I've shared about myself but in my eyes this is absolutely vital information the world should know about

I'm a Christian through and through, though I'm quite interested in a variety of religious and philosophical concepts which I incorporate in my writing, including of course heaven and hell, morality based on what is religiously acceptable compared to moral relativism, solipsism, theodicy, eternal recurrence, and many, many more.

I've been working on Idiosyncratic since seventh grade, technically six, so what I have now is the result of more than three years worth of heavy revision, redrafting, and complete reworking of my original idea. And let me tell you, what I had before is like the ugly grandfather of my current version of Idiosyncratic and if you were to place the two together side by side, you'd have no idea that they're related. The juxtaposition would be jaw-dropping, but ultimately all of this is to say that Idiosyncratic is very important to me and I pray that the final product, whatever it becomes, gets me somewhere in this world

Now, derailing from the mini tangent and while we're on the topic of Idiosyncratic, I'll give you all a pretty detailed summary of my idea and I'll make another separate post about my other big story that I recently started working on since this introduction post is already long enough. So, without further ado--

Idiosyncratic follows the twisted tragedy of Calixte Stanhope, a rather callous and apathetic but…ordinary enough young man who awoke in a truly bizarre dystopian world after being pushed in front of an ongoing train while escorting his significant other home, a faceless and nameless woman he remembers only by her mere existence in this vivid memory. Throughout his journey he's haunted and tormented by an ever-worsening deep longing for her that seems to spur his unnatural incentive to do whatever he must to survive.

Rather than being welcomed by the pearly gates of heaven or the fiery pits of hell, Calixte found himself standing in the midst of the deceptively benevolent town of Baltimore, where everything from the largest bank to the tiniest coin is made entirely of cardboard and plastic, like the set for a play—mimicking the real thing while not actually being it. One can say, a rip off of everything in our world, and yet it functions all the same, strangely enough.

The citizens of the town too; although they're quick to greet you with a warm smile and talk with such an enticing charm that is sure to ensnare anybody desperate for answers to their odd predicament, they are not even close to being as ordinary as first impressions suggest--first impressions of which Calixte, for whatever reason, could see straight through. And soon enough, those illusions of a Utopian society vanish into cinder as the true reality of the young man's situation is unveiled to be more abstract and dreadful than he even considered feasible. A reality that threatens to permanently twist and pervert the very perceptions of right and wrong our civilizations were forged upon.

What'll ultimately become abundantly clear to Calixte is that this world to glorifies the degeneracy we spurn, endorses the activity we condemn, and corrupts the principles we have used to scaffold our lands from the ground up--essentially, a complete burlesque or anti-thesis of what we stand for that is fueled by entropy. Violence and madness is praised and empowered, old concepts of morality are muddled and deemed obsolete, and humanity's animalistic drive to persevere at all costs is just a catalyst for a higher man's twisted wonderland. The citizens of this delightful world are diehard fanatics for this way of living, lusting for violence so much to the point where its broadcasted on television, discussed fanatically in literature, and displayed publicly as theatrical performances. The more irredeemable and atrocious something is, the more the residents of Baltimore revere it like sacred scripture, and the man who proudly encourages and orchestrates this madness, the aforementioned 'higher man', is none other than the eccentric mayor, “Whitman Sedgwick"--which is his pen name, as he usually regulates his hegemony and maintains a formidable presence through various propaganda, manifestos, and biographies that can be found all around town--the most famous of which being his disturbing pro-anarchy book, 'All Good Things'.

The very unlucky menagerie of people who wound up in Baltimore under bizarre circumstances similar to Calixte’s, properly labeled as “actors”, have to routinely partake in abhorrent acts for the public’s entertainment otherwise more than just their dignity, humanity, and pride will be torn from them. And eventually, once you're fully proven yourself to be of no use to Whitman's design, you are properly "dealt with"...

It’s a horrifying ordeal to most, but a paradise to some of humanity’s greatest degenerates, and that minority is powerful, hungry, and determined to survive by any means necessary--no matter how low they must stoop, or how much of their pith they must forsake in order to prevail. Thus leading Calixte, a not-so-righteous man with an ambition, to meet some other morally questionable people he never would’ve otherwise, creating a fragile alliance that will either make or break this band of reprehensible lowlives, all depraved in their own ways but alike in their desire for freedom and above all, answers.

As he begrudgingly adjusts his mind to this new world, he quickly realizes his dangerous willingness to do anything and everything he must in order to discover and accomplish his true purpose, and of course, to reunite with the one woman so dear to him. As his journey of metaphorical self destruction embarks, Calixte molds himself a vessel most apt to not only survive in Baltimore but to succeed beyond expectations, seemingly becoming a version of himself that'll soon be unrecognizable from its original form. In spite of his sturdy mind, as he comes to realize, there was absolutely nothing he could've done to brace himself for the scary revelation that the utter absurdity of this world may extend far, far beyond just the glamorization and capitalization of moral debasement. It seems, there's a larger horror waiting to be unearthed just beyond what his lenses can capture. It seems, there's more than one person pulling at the strings--its just a question of, who exactly is at the end of the cross brace?

OOOOoooh so ominous

Also, PLEASE, give me feedback.

[dream-meister-translations]

TIO - VOICE COLLECTION

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"Muscle never betrays! No matter what the predicament, muscle solves it all!"

"When are you training today? Are you training biceps or pectorals? You could also train your back or quadriceps!?"

"Humans!? Hahaha, I hate them! But I love muscles! Because unlike humans, they are beautiful and pure!"

"My pectoral muscles are growing! Make sure your muscles are working hard too!"

"This is so easy! It's not even a warm-up exercise!"

"Proving how strong I am, is the best reward!"

"Triceps, gluteus maximus, trapezius…Fly, bounce, lift…"

"If there is treasure, my muscles will find it!"

"Ah! My right pectoral muscle just reacted! Treasure must be near!"

"Will this help you? I'm not sure, but I hope it's useful!"

"Hmm, looks like a big catch! Let's make use of what we found and try a new form of training!"

"I aim for invincible muscles!"

"Muscles are the accumulation of all our daily efforts! Master, don't forget to train your muscles every day!"

"Compare to when I first met you, you've come a long way!"

"Humans are ugly, but muscles are beautiful…"

"Muscle is the world and the world is muscle! You and I are just a single muscle fiber in the muscle of the world!"

"What is this warm feeling that I get from you…? It's like being wrapped in strong, protective muscles."

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TIO : Asahi, you better prepare for tougher training! The possibilities of the muscle are endless! ASAHI : Yes! Let's work together and aim for muscle supremacy!

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TIO : Rindou! You are very thin! Come train with me! RINDOU : ….I'll think about it. If I were to tone my muscles, I'm sure my master would be surprised.

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TIO : Fromm! You are so weak! It's pathetic! You need to work on your muscles right now! FROMM : I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry! There is just no way someone like me can produce good results! No matter how hard I train!

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TIO : Evan, today is the day you finally work out with me! If you polish your body, it will shine like black iron! EVAN : Don't come any closer!! There's no way I'm training with you!!

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TIO : Let's go Rindou! It's time to show them what we're made of! RINDOU : I don't have half the muscles you have, Tio. I'm sorry if I'm dragging you down.

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TIO : Fromm, when things get tough, just keep going! The pain will make your muscles grow! FROMM : I don't know if my muscles will ever grow…But I'll do my best!

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TIO : Wait! Evan! First things first! Let's warm up! Before we go exploring, let's do three-hundred sit ups! EVAN : I'm not going exploring with you and I'm not going to train with you! Hey, what's with those puppy-dog eyes? It's not happening!

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TIO : Haha! We're covered in so much mud! ….Hmm? Rindou, what's wrong? RINDOU : You're such a brute. There is nothing fun about being covered in mud.

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TIO : Fromm, are you okay? If you need me to, I can clear the way with my massive forearms! FROMM : Thank you, Tio. You're always so reliable…So different from me…

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TIO : Explore with awareness of your every move! Even casual movements are all part of building a beautiful body! EVAN : Don't drag me into this! You're on your own!

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TIO : Hey Evan, how's it going? Are you having fun training? EVAN : We're not training! We're exploring for treasure. Are you all muscle no brains?

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TIO : A very good workout! Let's keep going until we run out of energy! BANGGAN : Gahahaha! Yeah, I'll take you up on that! Next time I'm gonna push you til you're real tired!!

[cyclist-of-guilt]

I'm going to say something that will sound insane to you probably at first but stick with me here okay? ring: the legend of the Nibelungen actually IMPROVED some parts of the original opera mkay? it did some things BETTER (...at least the first game I think the second is just trash and honestly Siegfried deserved better even though in the opera he's an insufferable brat).

the best example for the improvements for me is honestly alberich, which yes what an original take but hear me out: in the opera, alberich only ends up stealing the rhinegold because he can't get that rhinemaiden pusspuss so he's like "whatever I'll just steal the gold then I can BUY bitches >:(" and you know the whole time the rhinemaidens insult him and tell him how ugly he is...and well...wagner was an antisemite so a lot of it boils down to "OH MY GOD HE HAS DARK CURLY HAIR??? DISGUSTING!" which yeah- uncomfortable. and you know I feel like despite the silly moments cryo made alberich more threatening and way less of an anti-semitic caricature. in the game the RHINEMAIDENS approach him, offering him...their time and he rejects them because from the first moment on his goal is power and control (...marina and the diamonds moment). he's actually a way more timeless villain that way and comparable to evil people in our own world- like seriously the mines in Nibelheim and an amazon warehouse are basically the same thing right? it also captures the initial message of ring better that capitalism and authority are bad, as much as wagnerians try to deny that.

it's honestly a shame that ring 2 was such a fuckup because believe it or not the original game had potential and worth and I would've loved to see how the story ACTUALLY continues. in general Arxel tribe's thing of taking these old stories that everyone has grown tired of and giving them a new, fresh approach is just so neat and it's a shame that...they stopped being good at it HIHGSGSUI

anyway sorry for the long ask I have a ringworm in my brain

Nah anon I was thinking the same. Removing antisemitic context (I mean there are some hints of it but I guess he kinda looks like the austrian painter too) of Alberich was great move on their part. Hope Wagner in hell is seething that bunch of ppl are now thinking character based on his racial caricature is the coolest villain.

Tho I'm still not getting Alberich the proletariat take.

I wish there was any info about how they were planning the sequel to be. What's up with Isha, the galactic war, entire twilight of the gods etc? I would give as much for that info as for design documents of faust Also designs in 2 are such a downgrade Wotan probably got it worst.

[bbgatile]

I'm ot sure if your TF blog is the best place to ask this, but. Why the hell does everyone act like Omniverse is the worst Ben 10 cartoon? Don't get me wrong, it's had some awful episodes, but everyone insists it's trash and unforgivable compared to UAF or the original. Why is that?

oh boy

well, for people who saw it happen in real time, the change between uaf and omniverse was a drastic one- the cartoony art and the more comedic tone was a huge change from the dark/gritty tone uaf set, and its more realistic/stiff style. i remember when ov first started airing, i wasnt even keeping up with the show then but i remember people being so OUTRAGED by the style. ppl tend to not like change.

now that that continuity's over, people just have their preferences. they either prefer the dark tone of uaf, or they prefer the lighter comedic tone of ov

me personally, i think ov wrote ben (usually) a LOT better than they (usually) wrote him in uaf. and i think uaf's dark tone often just made it...cringey (looking at the dagon arc)

ov's biggest weakness is the amount of horrid misogyny, but its not like uaf was devoid of that either. both series treated the girls awfully, or just made them accessories to the guys. look at poor eunice and elena (ov does admittedly go harder on the misogyny tho. i mean just look at how djw drew women. and all the weird plots of women fighting over ben, eugh)

and yet at the end of the day i still prefer ov bc the styles fun to look at, its bright and colorful, the comedy usually works great, the dynamic btwn rook and ben is so much fun, and a lot of the plots are rly refreshing to the series' status quo (or sometimes they ruin it. like the rooters arc. i'll never forgive what they did to kevins story.) but if you hate ov for the way it treats women like. yeah. i wouldnt blame you at all. at least thats an actually valid reason unlike 'its ugly'

but to be honest misogyny is so rampant through the entire original continuity, idk how you could pick one cartoon over the over in that aspect, theyre all bad to women (except for maaaybe os? i havent watched os in a minute)

[jodilin65]

I was reading about how easy it is to meet people online these days compared to when I was young. I've often wished it had been this easy to meet other women back then, but at the same time, I'm glad it wasn't. Otherwise, I might never have met Tom. I know some people believe you're either gay or straight, but I don't think it's that black and white. Many have questioned how I could like a guy when I've been attracted to many women in my life. It's kind of like this: say your favorite color is red, and you're looking for a red dress. You find five that are appealing, but then you see a couple of green dresses, and one of those has everything you want, from style to price to comfort. Tom was that unique green dress. That's the best way I can explain it to anyone who doesn't have common sense. ;) I’ve been attracted to dozens of women in my life, but none of them have compared to Tom, especially in personality.

Speaking of hubs, I was a little annoyed last night because I lost a few hours of alone time when I had plans to do certain things I do better by myself. One of us with a wacky schedule is bad enough. However, the day he gives plasma tends to drain him, and he fell asleep early and woke up early. It turned out okay, though, because we had fun golfing, and then he went down for a nap for a few hours.

Some of the tiny houses I've seen pictures of that are right on the ocean are so cute. I joined a tiny house group on Facebook and even made a Pinterest board for them. I would never want to live in one unless I was single and didn't have much stuff, but they are adorable. The view is to die for no matter what you're living in. Anyway, maybe I will use Pinterest a little more often than I have been. I have nearly 23K pins!

I woke up super tired today because I woke up a few hours after crashing, needing to use the bathroom, and I couldn't get back to sleep for two hours. When I finally fell back asleep, I kept waking up. Then, I stupidly napped for a couple more hours. While this helped give me a little more energy, I've got to really try not to let my schedule jump ahead too much because I still have five days before my appointment, which is early in the morning.

For some reason, I thought I was having about 1600 calories a day. But for the last several days, I actually started counting them without limiting or changing how I eat, and I'm actually closer to 1100 to 1300. As a postmenopausal woman who no longer has the hunger of PMS or perimenopause, if I ate like this back when I had a normal thyroid/metabolism, I would definitely be skinny. In my 20s, I used to swear that all fat people stuffed themselves and anyone could lose weight. How I've learned my lesson!

I've been having tummy issues the last few days, and I'm wondering if I'm sensitive to Ezekiel bread. The research I just did suggests it certainly could be the cause.

At least I can still eat Chinese! I don't think I'll pick it up today, but I'm going to try a restaurant I picked out soon. I'm gonna start with their house platter and some beef fried rice.

I got my patchouli incense yesterday, along with the incense matches and my VR lenses. Not sure things are much clearer, though, because I swear the last eye doctor we saw gave me a bad prescription. I haven't used them enough yet to really make a judgment.

Leave it to Facebook to remove a post of mine from 2010. Really, guys, why now??? This was on my main account of course.

Finally, I came up with a good idea for the bedroom windows. They have these sticky foam tiles used for sound dampening. It's black foam and not a decorative textured vinyl tile with foam inside like what we're going to get for the walls. They're ugly, but the curtains would cover them. I decided we should put them on both the upper and lower panes of the back window and then stick them on the bottom pane of the front window. Then we'll take something with a little bit of flexibility so we can fit it in snugly yet remove it to open that window when we air the place out after bombing, and stick the tiles to that. Maybe a piece of cardboard just a little bigger than the pane or something like that.

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I really want to get better at art so I could actually draw my OC with a Canon Characters from different fandoms I’m in. But I actually hate my artwork for a long time now. . .  (*ಠ_ಠ)つ I mean, it's okay but I just hate that I can't draw anatomy for the life of me. DX So yeah, I hate it. I've been drawing since I was 5-6, I'm 25 now, so that's almost 20 years. I had moments where I liked my drawings as a kid and teenager (14-15) but now, I just full out hate it. I always compare myself to other artist and other drawings. I try to change my Art Style over and over again but I still hated my art. I'm too much of a damned perfectionist and I honestly hate it . . . If I could change one thing about myself, it'll definitely be the perfectionism. I have a few artworks that I'll show and critique. Just for me to remember and to show how much I hate my artwork . . .

This is one of my oldest artworks that I've done on my old iPad Pro (now broken) and I just . . . It's okay but I could do better . . . I hate the hands and mouth. The rest is fine but like I said . . , I could do better. Maybe work on the anatomy, hands, lower body, head, hair and the wolf ears. I was going through an wolf phase . . . I still like wolves but not drawing myself as one. XD But if I work on it again and redo the things I've done wrong. Maybe. Just Maybe. It would look a lot better.

6/10

This is another old drawing I've don't on my iPad Pro. I had made a 3D Model pose in the Magic Poser app and tries to draw over it. It's okay but I don't like the hair of Helen (the left) and the breast on me (middle). The hair, I could had done better and I could work on the faces of Jax (the right). But it's okay . . . ? I guess. I need to work on drawing breast, hair and faces. The face on me is fine but the face Jax, I could work on. 

3/10

Everything I wrong with the drawing . . . The hair, the face and the hand. The face is unproportioned, the hand is not anatomically correct and the hair is sooo ugly. >n< I wish I could of done better with this artwork. Maybe I'll redo it. But for now, this is one the ugliest drawings I've done.

0/10

Now I just hate, I mean, haaaaate this face. It's unproportioned and just ugly. The outfit is ugly. The body is ugly. Ugly. Ugly. Ugly. I just. UGH. I wish I just was a better artist . . . I feel like, even though I draw everyday at the time, I was still stagnant. I, then, grew out of love of drawing for while, even when my iPad broke. I just . . . I don't know. I disliked my drawing and felt like no matter what I do, I wasn't getting better.

2/10

EW. Just. EW. The eyes. The hair. The face. The Anatomy. EW!

Must I say more?

-100/10

Now you see why, I can't draw characters or anything in general without a fucking 3D model . . . And I really want to draw my Original Characters with Canon Characters, aka My Ships. But I just suck at drawing, in my past artwork and my newest artwork. I'll keep drawing but I don't think I'll get better anytime. Maybe a long time. I'll practice the best I can. I recently bought a