#it's just the dysphoria thanks

[fidgetspringer]

It's done 🏳️‍⚧️

[crimsonservbot]

gonna be honest, its incredibly demoralizing for going through transitioning if you can't even be Transgender on the Transgender Website

[samuelroukin]

different anon but wdym it's not your thing? aren't you trans yourself?

this may surprise you but not all trans people like the same stuff 💀

[mushtoons]

I'm sending you mental hugs rn.

and im sending some right fucking back man, ur going through it and i hope u feel better soon dysphoria is no joke 🫂

[hot-crossedbuns]

being trans is so weird.

I'm trans masc. in transitioning towards presenting more masculine. if I could I would have a hysterectomy and top surgeryl right now.

but I just saw a Reddit thread about "girl secrets" and I found myself in the comments of hundreds of people describing the mundane aspects of their womanhood, like making sure you get the leftovers out when you shower at the of of you period or the weird adjustment thing you have to do with your boobs sometimes when trying to sleep.

My hair has always been a source of dysphoria for me, always being complimented on my hair, long and thick, natural highlights and gentle curls. all I ever wanted until I finally gave in at 17 was to chop it all off. I'd get a buzz cut if it meant people stopped seeing me from behind and immediately clocking me as a girl because it went right down my back even in my ratty ponytail.

but I saw this tiktok on how women often swoosh their pony tails behind them when they walk, because it's fun. and it is! I always found some joy in that before I finally cut it off and felt pride in my hair for the first time ever.

my co-workers are all women, cisgender women who don't know that I'm not one of them. to them I'm just the short haired lesbian that works shifts with them. but this means they include me in their monthy girls nights and I get to feel the joy of being the inside of some secret club I never really felt a part of as a kid. it's fun hearing them chat shit about their exes, talk about those weird things that only happen to women because of our anatomy.

and yet, I'm taking steps to turn away from that, because while these spaces are safe and familiar to me, they what's felt unnatural and like I was intruding on something not meant for me.

I'm taking these steps to look and be seen the way that makes me confident and empowered, and yet I'm time I'll lose the experience of talking to random women fixing their make up in the at the mirrors in public toilets, or seeing 5 drunk women tell a random stranger she's beautiful when they find her ex left her for someone prettier.

Men don't have that support. and I'll lose that forever when I transition.

and yeah, once I visibly transition I don't have to be as afraid of walking home at night, and yeah i won't have to hear drunk old men hit on me after telling me I look like their grandaughters, and yeah I won't have to deal with sexist jokes made at my expense by my guy friends.

but once women stop seeing me as a woman and start seeing me for me, suddenly my past, my whole childhood, where i believed I would be a woman the rest of my life, suddenly changes meaning.

if I were to talk about those weirdly sexual and creepy comments my best friends boyfriend made for months, it's just guys being dudes. if I mention the time my boss's boyfriend smacked my ass during a busy shift, it's just a bro tap. if I mention how random guys at work often try to hug me or hold my hands or call me pet names, it stops being harassment and just starts being guys messing about.

if I mention how my cramps can immobilise me, or how much I hate wearing tampons or how dogs do that weird thing where they just keep sniffing your crotch or how sometimes my ovary cramps and it's rock hard beneath the skin, or how frustrating it is when your period comes 2 days early and ruins the underwear you liked or it's a week late for absolutely no god forsaken reason and your hormones are all over the place, and you're moody, tired, angry, sad, hungry bloated and nauseous all at once, they're just look at me all funny because his could I, someone who looks and presents as a guy, possibly know what it's like to be a woman.

as if I didn't live as one for 20 years.

as if I didn't plan to live my life as a woman.

as if I didn't grow up being someone's daughter, sister or niece.

as if I didn't expect to be someone's mother, wife or aunt.

being trans is weird, because once you realise it, all of your life experience slowly stops mattering.

it's weird because yes I want the world to separate me from who they always assumed I would be, yes I want them to stop seeing me as that little girl who didn't quite know how to be a girl. yes I want them to see me the way I've always felt I was supposed to be... but I don't want them to only see the masc side of me.

my girlhood, my femininity, my lived experience as a female in the 21st century all helped shape who I am now, and just because I'm trans doesn't mean that goes away.

but no one really sees that.

and yeah, it's a good thing, it means the world is finally starting to see me for who I've always known myself to be.

but knowing that part of me is slowly fading is weird.

being trans is so weird.

and so frustrating.

all at once.

[fantastic-mr-corvid]

anyway. the uk sucks ass and living here sucks ass too! NHS is sooo amazing until its soooo not!

[subsequentibis]

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[rippedwings07]

Hey everyone. I laid down cuz i was feeling a little sick.

I'm struggling with ///chest dysphoria/// but I'm trying to get used to my girls cuz I'm nervous about surgery(biggest problem is i can't afford it). I'd like to have a guy chest but the risk of poor results and losing sensation and other issues get in the way. I'm trying to chill out but it's hard often. It's also kinda a love hate thing cuz they are such good baz0ngàs but I want to be masc dàmm!†! Idk how I'm going to survive. Life is pain lmao

[brothersonahotelbed]

nico you're the best boy ever and don't you forget it <3 you're handsome and you are so fucking good at playing guitar and your voice is angelic (like i'm being so serious i could fall asleep to it every day it's so beautiful/handsome). you're so funny and kind and you deserve everything good! ily mwah mwah never forget what you're capable of because you are so strong and so brave about everything <333

SNIFFLES. OKAY. I LOVE YOU.

[whalefill]

Your art is soo amazing and idk i like the look of it

Thank you for making it

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so niceys to me. i appreciate it <3 thank you

[non-un-topo]

Every time I spend too many days in a row at home, I get it into my head that I don't actually want to transition, and then I go back into the world and go Oh. I remember what it's like to have a body and a mind.

[meanderfall]

shout out to me realizing that gender is something that people really care about and identify when i was in college.

we did an exercise where our teacher listed a bunch of different stuff (gender, culture, religion, etc etc) and we were supposed to order them by how important they were to their identity

and literally everyone in the class had gender in their top 3. and it was near the bottom on mine. it's been years and im still genuinely baffled over this

[tr1ppykay]

My bottom growth took a full year to start then went wild for about 2 months and stopped again! Idk if that’s helpful but I was actually kinda uninformed about the process and was pretty excited/surprised when it happened especially after so long lol

its helpful for sure! i hear people say that transitions that don't follow the "typical" timeline aren't talked about so nobody knows about how normal it is to like. not get those "early" changes in the first year, so hearing these anecdotes is so so reassuring

i DID get bottom growth but like. a very small amount during the first month and then it stopped, kinda the same with my voice where i got the SLIGHTEST change in my lower range at the 2 month mark but absolutely no other vocal changes since then. there's also the other "early" changes people talk about that i never got.... increased hunger/strength, higher libido, etc... meanwhile im 1 year on T in about 2 weeks

but im trying to focus on the good things instead. my period stopped within a month! i got a mustache and sideburns pretty quickly and people have noticed it! my armenian/german genetics are going wild with body hair! and my chest has gotten just the smallest bit broader :)

[youredreamingofroo]

5 and 11 for roo 🫵

Hallo Anon, thank you for this ask!! :))

Questions from : Pride Ask Game

5, How did you figure out your oc's identity?

I still haven't figured it out completely myself, but I see Roo being about as confused as I am, however! I have been settling on having him identify as Genderfluid as of late! I don't think Roo would want to be a woman, but he definitely enjoys being feminine, and enjoys being able to slip in and out of that femininity and in and out of his masculinity. I don't think Roo ever feels like a man, being called a "man" feels too... heavy for him? And for him to be called a woman, it feels too far on the gender spectrum for him. He sees being called a "guy" as perfectly gender neutral for him, and no matter how masculine or feminine he feels, he does not like being called a man/woman for aforementioned reasons. Also, non-binary IS an identity he has pondered, but ultimately, he ruled it out, simply because he's always gonna feel either masc or fem or some combo of the two, being referred to and using non binary as a label felt wrong to him and just was too much.. of a grey area? I guess? It didn't fit the last puzzle piece spot like Genderfluid does. I hope that answers the question shgbajn 😭😭 I moreso ended up answering how HE figured out his identity, but I feel like a lot of my own reasoning is applicable/adjacent to his reasoning.

11, Is your oc open about their identity? Are they more lowkey or more blunt about it? Why or why not?

Roo is not open about his identity. Roo has always felt shame towards his sexuality and identity, He's felt shame about who he is since he was ~16-17, and as comfortable as he may be in his identity, he has come to view identity as... almost a vulnerability- there's a looming feeling of dread at the idea of being vulnerable and "intimate" with people he doesn't know or people he isn't super acquainted with. When laying it on people that he's not cis, he often approaches the conversation in a veryyy slow and lowkey way ("hypothetically speaking,,, how would you feel if someone you know/knew wasn't,,, uhm,,, cis,,,?" for a brief example), trying to make himself not obvious at all, but unfortunately for Roo- he's stupid and pretty oblivious, plus his method of coming out is just.. well. very obvious. So people will often figure it out before he can even properly come out 😭

[amber-lucca44]

The Age Of Pleasure (Vonnie's review 💕)

My rating: 7.5/10 ���️

What I loved:

The different music styles and genres, never sticking to a single style and, in Janelle's unique way, making it all a cohesive and enjoyable experience regardless

Janelle's versatility as a vocalist, adapting her style to many different genres and sounds

What I didn't love:

Way too sexy for my comfort at times. 😅😭

Favorite song:

[giantkillerjack]

Dear horror youtubers who write video essays explaining and examining extraordinary works of horror that I deeply want to see and understand but will literally never be able to safely watch due to my own trauma - thus providing me with a way to learn from and connect to works of art that would be otherwise forever inaccessible to me,

I love you.