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killcodesashes · 5 months ago

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[QUICK RANT ABOUT QUEER REPRESENTATION IN TSAMS/TSBS SHOWS]

[As a genderfluid aroace person myself.]

TSAMS

Uh. I don't like it. Aroace Moon? Cool. Absolutely valid, we love him for that. Wasn't adressed much except in a few episodes which are pretty good, I liked the one where he rejects Foxy a lot!

But recently- g e e z. I understand wanting to bait people in with ships people want! Specifically KidsCove. Same in tmgafs! But the problem is that they do it not just to tease/mess around with the viewers in good fun, they genuinely seem to hate the shippers and actually want to make fun of them? Not just with kidscove but with any other ship that isn't canon. They don't even want to confirm Sun's sexuality, just constantly making it a gag that he has a bisexual flag in his room. Which as a queer person? It's just annoying. Just really annoying ? Please all we want is a confirmation or something? We want queer characters we can actually relate to. And we don't really get that :( Then New Moon came along and said it was possible he wasn't aroace. . . And then they never mentioned it again. So why mention it in the first place ? I don't think I would've minded it if he had just changed how much attraction he felt but was STILL aroace/on the aroace spectrum. As long as it was actually clarified. But they seemed eager to rush to his evil era so they didn't bother to close to any lose ends before hand, though I guess being aroace might've just not been as relevant.

On a bit of a side note- Ruin feels very gay coded. Very gay. There is no way he's straight T.T he's a villain but he's a zesty man and we absolutely adore him for that!!

That was probably an accident, though. Every theatre kid seems gay! /lhj

Just overall upsets me that the VAs seem to act offended by the mere idea of shipping characters? As if that's not a common/vital part of every fandom.

[OTHER SHOWS UNDER THE CUT]

TMGAFS

Upsets me that they can't clarify Puppets identity or pronouns? [Or maybe they have recently but I genuinely doubt it]

Because who are they meant to actually represent ?? It's probably just me but I wish it was more clear or something. I appreciate the VA for trying I do though, absolutely love that guy[Foxy’s VA, genuinely seems to just be a chill guy. And I think it's really cool that he actually does roles that could come off very cringe, voicing most of the cringe dimension characters +struggling with Puppets voice for the longest time.] I just wanna know if Puppet is a trans fem queen or trans masc slay or just trans ? But nothing seems to be clarified.

Again with KidsCove? Genuinely just annoying how they blatantly just do it to make fun of the people who ship them and get views from them.

Foxy seemed to have been gay before his memory loss. Or was at the very least interested in men to an extent. But since he began to be the main character of a show he suddenly only likes women?? S u s. They really keep insisting he's extremely straight and genuinely just annoys me that they erased him being interested in men [Proved he liked men in the episode he asked Moon out.]

. . .now. . . M o n t y. As a genderfluid person? I hate them and literally feel more represented and seen by cis characters from other shows. For the longest time Monty being genderfluid wasn't even adressed and was usually just brought up for plot reasons or something? And it pissed me of that every time they correct a character on Monty's pronouns.. they immediately go back to using he/him pronouns. I think the new fem body is pretty neat! Though I think it would've been more interesting for Monty to stay masc but ACTUALLY get their right pronouns used and their identity getting genuinely respected DESPITE of their appearance. But the body? It's genuinely completely fine! /gen I used to hate my body too and understand that the writers might've thought it might be easier for people if they just used a different body completely! But it annoys me that my gender representation comes in the form of M o n t y. The annoying character known for constantly hating on others and partially destroying their lives. Anyone can be genderfluid, yes. But when the representation is so little? I just wish it was at least a bit better or with a less hateable character.

TLAES

Lunar! Uh. Again can we just get clarification on his sexuality? Is he polyamorous? Bisexual? Omnisexual? Just any clarification please?

Gemini! I wish they were canon nonbinary. They're literally stars. Why did they have to be gendereddd. Also curious about their 'sexuality'? Will also likely never get clarification on it :/

OTHER SHOWS/SIDE NOTES

Roxanne is canon lesbian and so is Glamrock Chica! I'm so sorry but I forgot his name T~T I think it was Tiger Rock[??] Is also canonically gay! Glam Chica has a girlfriend! And I do think their relationship is pretty cute [from what I've seen] and overall wish I would finally get to watching the show a bit more! Funtime Foxy feels very queer to me? Not just because his design is pink but his overall characterization! He does have a girlfriend! But he seems to be comfortable in his own identity and presentation from what I've seen? At least, it seems to be more comfortable than some o t h e r characters. I feel more represented by Funtime Foxy and Lolbit than I ever felt represented by Monty. But that is a personal opinion!

I overall have just lost interest in all of the shows. I'm tired of being constantly disappointed and lead on. But I do wish I could watch more of the other shows since they seem to show more love and care towards their characters :)

CLOSING THOUGHTS!

It's just shows. Does any of this really matter? I think it matters when the shows are claiming to have good representation when they really don't. And they're allowing people who aren't queer/a part of the LGBTQIA+ community to feel like they have the right to shut real queer people down. I've seen so much acephobia and overall homophobia even in this community. A l o t in this community. I wish the writers would listen to ACTUAL QUEER PEOPLE!! I wish the VIEWERS listened to ACTUAL QUEER PEOPLE.

That's what I really want. I just want to be heard and represented.

I don't claim this community. I CAN'T claim a community who is constantly against us.

LISTEN TO QUEER VOICES.

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alice-after-dark · 6 months ago

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One Day I'll Do a Proper Ship Meme But for Now Here Have My Vox Agenda

Thoughts/headcanons/rambles under cut

TW for abusive StaticMoth and Vox having been a bitch to Sir Pentious.

Alastor/Vox - Do I really need to explain this one? Are you new here? I'll just direct you to search "radiostatic" on my blog. I̸͎̝͛́ ̷͙̲̊̄͐l̴̮̲̭̍͌͆ȏ̶̜v̵̞́̑͒̆e̷̡̡͉̰̍̽́ ̷̇͝ͅt̶̡̛̬̖͓̆h̴̠͎̞͕̑e̵͕̼̜̘͆̈́̃̔m̷̤̜̒

Valentino/Vox - Again, unless you're new here, you'll pretty much know my thoughts on them. Check out my "staticmoth" tag and you'll understand.

Charlie - I see so many parallels between these two and I desperately want them to officially interact in season 2. They're on completely opposite ends of the spectrum and aaaahhhhh I just want to see Vox's cynicism clashing with Charlie's idealism and it could be so good you guys. So good. I do also really like the idea of Charlie being the catalyst to Vox realizing just how much he's changed since arriving in Hell (like he used to enjoy the TV scene for the pure creativity of it and now that's all been replaced by the cold corporate greed).

Vaggie - Honestly, I just think it would be interesting. Also I really hope Vaggie doesn't have a carbon-copy reaction to him like she did Alastor. As I mentioned in a previous post, while yes, she might be cautious, she has less of a reason to be so hostile towards him. Plus their mutual dislike of Alastor would be a bonding moment, but also presents an opportunity for Vaggie to find out more about Alastor (albeit from a biased party).

Angel - I've brought up inklings of these two before, but I think them having a very complicated relationship due to their mutual connection and experiences with Valentino would be interesting, especially in regards to how they both handle it in similar yet different ways. They both bury their pain, Angel by leaning into the sexuality, drugs, and alcohol to forget how much he hates it and Vox by refusing to even acknowledge that he's in pain at all. And Vox's refusal to acknowledge it also makes him complicit in Angel's pain as well. He could do something, could try to stop it, but he doesn't to protect himself. I think seeing the two of them try to heal side by side, both from their issues with Valentino and the issues between each other, would be fascinating.

Husk - Knew each other from back when Vox and Alastor were still friends. Husk calls him "kid" (Vox was in his 30s when he died in the 1950s while Husk was in his 60s when he died in the 1970s) which annoys Vox as he doesn't think he's that much younger than Husk to warrant being called a kid. Vox knew him as an Overlord and was very shocked and kind of sad when he found out about Husk losing his soul to Alastor some time after their falling out (just one more thing to embitter him towards the Radio Demon).

Niffty - Anyone who has been on my blog when I started posting about Hazbin Hotel knows it started with these two. I think a dynamic between them would be fun and interesting to explore. Like Husk, she knew him from back when he was friends with Alastor. I like to think that Vox was literally there when Alastor brought her home with him ("What is that?" / "I'm calling her Niffty! Isn't she precious?" / "She is actively biting your arm." / "What a darling little thing!"). He was a little weirded out by her at first, but has since grown to care for her as much as Alastor does. Despite her size and lack of power, Vox fully trusts in her ability to take care of herself...he's seen things that can't be unseen.

Rosie - Vox definitely respects her for her ability to keep such tight control of a horde of bloodthirsty cannibals and actually turn them into a polite society. Despite not being very physically strong, her charisma and drive keep her on top and well respected. I like the idea that he met her through Alastor when they were still friends and though he hasn't really engaged with her too much since the fallout, he does still hold respect for her and frankly won't tolerate anyone disrespecting her. She is the only one outside of the Vees who knows about Vox practicing using his electrokinesis to heal.

Mimzy - They're not exactly friends, but she will not hesitate to approach him if she sees him. It's Mimzy so she absolutely expects special treatment. She's way more up front with him about wanting something than she is with Alastor simply because she knows Vox operates differently than the deer demon. If she wants something, she's gotta be prepared to pay up in some capacity, but Vox is usually willing to be flexible in terms of payment because she has her uses.

Sir Pentious - Okay, so I know this one is a bit awkward cause it would involve Vox actually apologizing to Sir Pentious for the cruel things he said and telling him to unalive himself, but I really think they'd be interesting. They're both innovators and creators and the two of them combining their skills would be both awesome and terrifying. I do think that Sir Pentious, while he does think all the Vees are incredible, idolizes Vox specifically for these exact reasons.

Velvette - They're both bitches, but they love the other for it. Can snark at each other for hours. They're the two who get shit done, even if Velvette can sometimes take her bitchsona a bit too far and Vox has to reign her in. Politics aren't her strong suit, but he can always count on her to take care of the business side of things.

Zestial - Based on my recent post about them, I like the idea that Vox has a respect for Zestial that he doesn't give to most other Overlords (Rosie being the other exception). Sure, he'll play nice and professional with them, but he doesn't truly respect them like he does Zestial and Rosie. I honestly see them having a mutual respect for each other (though Zestial wouldn't say he approves of Vox's choice in colleagues) and we do see in that Zestial can be a little sassy so I 100% believe if Vox had been present during the Overlord meeting in episode 3, Zestial literally would have ignored Velvette entirely to speak to Vox about the angel's death instead (and we all know how much Velvette would have just loved that).

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itsdeniini · 5 months ago

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Could you do a reading for katseye group dynamic? thank youu

PART II ABOUT HYBE'S NEW GLOBAL GG KATSEYE: GROUP MEMBERS DYNAMIC + their personalities

a tarot reading જ⁀➴

PART I : About their concept and success in the US

First of all, all the members are so cool! 😭 The energy those girls are exuding is just so bright, and all around the place, they are the definition of spreading positivity to the masses. They know how to have a bit of fun and connect not only with the public but also between each other, as the debut lineup found a common spell instantly, as if they were meant to be in one group. Now we'll talk more about the members personalities, and later I'll say a bit about their in-group dynamics.

MANON

The Queen of Cups, The Strength, The Star 𖹭

Manon is such a sincere person with a beautiful soul. Her heart is genuinely very good, and she's getting unappreciated for that. At the end of the day, there aren't a lot of people quite like her. I feel like she's also struggling with her own emotions, but she's keeping this ocean of emotions to herself because she thinks that nobody would appreciate her vulnerability. She's so strong for fighting through the difficulties and the circumstances she was put in, as this was something completely new for her, and she wasn't 100% sure she made the right decision to even join the group after being announced. But I think she made the right decision and remained. She has strong star potential, and with more improvement, she'll be able to reach high peaks. She was also the final piece of the puzzle that the group needed—the connection point. Although she has a fragile heart and can get overwhelmed by her own emotions, she knows how to keep her own image and continue to fulfill her obligations.

SOPHIA

The Empress, The High Priestess, 2 of Pentacles 𖹭

Oh, that's queenie! 👸 She has a personality with leaderlike qualities and a lot of compassion for what other people have been through in their lives. Her energy is giving "girl power," like she'll gladly carry after her the people who may struggle. Sometimes she may appear unrealistically gentle and soft to the public that is not that familiar with her, to the point where everybody appears oblivious to her strong spirit and rich inner world. She's also holding herself to a high standard in everything, not wanting to appear lesser than anybody else. She can stand by her idea in order to protect her heart from being damaged. Also, her emotional palette is very diverse; she can experience a full spectrum of them, and that's cool, she has duality, something that will most probably help her in her artistic career.

DANIELA

The Fool, The Page of Cups, 7 of Cups 𖹭

She's a bit crazy in a good sense! Her energy is very different from that of the other members. While the other girls are advocating for team building and are good team players, she's more of an independent type. She would make a good solo artist, but starting a group is not a bad decision for her either; she'll gather a lot of experience. The same as Sophia, she has a vast and cosmic inner world. She's so imaginative, sometimes floating in her own fantasies. She most probably had people in her life that told her that she's hard to figure out or that she has a lot of everchanging interests and hobbies, and words like, "Girl, stick to something! You change your attitude/personality/vibe way too much every time." They are just not grasping that she's naturally a chaotic person, and that's not a bad thing. The other way around, that shows she can and will be embodying anything that she will consider her aesthetic, like a chameleon, and thanks to that, she will stand out a lot as time passes.

LARA

The Tower, The Queen of Wands, The Sun 𖹭

The universe has blessed this girl with so much originality! To the point where all that originality can be compared to a bomb that is tick-tack... about to EXPLODE 💥 In a nutshell, Lara is so cool! She likes to keep things real with everybody, and her personality can serve as a blueprint for many other people because she has those special qualities that make her unique. She has a strong backbone to herself, and at first you might think she's so serious, but nah! Lara is sparkly and so funny! She will truly shine as a performer, and with the constant development of her own skills, she will thrive! Everybody should keep an eye on her; she's full of surprises.

MEGAN

The Page of Swords, The Moon, 8 of Pentacles 𖹭

She's on her own wavelength! It's looking like she's in the chapter of her life where she's discovering her own personality, and that's okay; she's the second youngest member after all. I feel like, thanks to this experience, she will discover a lot of new things about herself and will show impressive improvement. Until that time, her light will start to shine brightly to the point where it's dazzling, she will be somewhere in the second roles, as if she will be underappreciated and underrated! People will be sleeping on her for some time, and VERY BAD for them! If there's a member whose potential is still leashed, then that's Megan. In the future, she'll show more versatility and all the other sides of her that she's still oblivious to, discovering everything step by step. She has a great future ahead of her; she should keep it up, and the stars will align for her.

YOONCHAE

The Chariot, The Magician, The World 𖹭

I know a Sagittarius in 5th House girly when I see one! Her personality is so fascinating~ I can compare it to a magnetic field, you know? You can get so easily drawn to her natural charm, and that's the right reason. She's so young but has a clear vision about what she's meant to do in this lifetime, and that's all thanks to her determination and confidence. It's like she found a key to a door in the world of loving yourself to the fullest so early in her life; isn't that fate that she achieved what she was dreaming about for a long time, hm? That's what we mean when we talk about empowerment, and she will display it more and more in the future! If she plays her cards right, then she'll achieve massive success in a short period of time. All she has to do is be 💃smarta🕺baby💃smarta🕺.. c:

☆Their compatibility/ group dynamic☆ ˆ𐃷ˆ

Katseye's members vibe is on point; they're totally in sync ahead of their debut! Each girl brings something exclusive, and together, they're so good. Their energy is infectious, and they know how to hype each other up. They're not afraid to keep it real between themselves, which makes their bond even stronger. They are just at the start of their path and yet to discover more about each other, but if they continue to share a genuine friendship, then they'll get even closer to their common goal of achieving success not only in US but also globally! <(˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶)>

Their current synergy: 3 of Cups, The Sun, The Empress, The World, The Fool

That was it, hehe! I wish Katseye a successful debut (𖹭)

#𖹭densunie-readings #kpop #kpop tarot #kpop reading #katseye #katseye tarot #katseye reading #kpop gg #kpop aesthetic

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abyssal-author-and-artist · 3 months ago

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Pacifica Northwest is transmasc and you can't change my mind

Okay. That sounds insane. I am aware. It sounds insane to me. But fuck it - I already did the trans Dipper rant essay and so I'll do the same with trans Pacifica.

So Pacifica grows up rich with very oppressive parents. She's clearly a child of abuse who likely has no sense of identity. She's forced to fit a strict mold of The Perfect Daughter. Someone who is perfect and demure and pristine and womanly and who has to wear the right color dress and can't just wear something close enough because otherwise she gets something implied to be very bad.

Put another way: A kid is forced to be exactly perfect and the definition of whatever their gender is. They are not allowed to deviate from that definition in the least otherwise Bad Things happen. They're scared to even be slightly different.

Sound familiar? Because a lot of trans kids go through the same thing. A lot of trans femme people have to play with the Boy Toys because otherwise they're a flower boy and that's bad (which in itself is bad because flower boy is old slang for gay/derogatory as well as gender expression and identity being different but it also hurts trans people). A lot of transmasc people have to play dress up because if they don't there's Something Wrong with them.

I am more than 90% certain that it wasn't intentional, but looking at Pacifica through the lens of someone who tried to do a Boy Thing once and was forced to be hyperfemme for the rest of their life is just so good to me.

Pacifica embodies a lot of toxic girl tropes. You've heard of toxic masculinity, now get ready for toxic femininity - she's petty and superficial and puts too much stock in appearances. Which, granted, is a thing that happens in girl friend groups - I've seen it happen many times - but it reads as different to me. This isn't malice, Pacifica has been shown to be a good person (The Golf War, Northwest Mansion Mystery). She cares for those around her and often only acts the way she does because she has to. Any time she tries to speak up, she gets ruthlessly shut down. She has to be what her parents want, when they want, how they want. If she doesn't, she gets punished.

Yes, Pacifica shows up to every event dressed femme. But who drove her to those events? Who has their claws in every aspect of the town? Who would hear about anything that happens in Gravity Falls? Who buys her clothes? Her parents. And if her parents - who, again, are likely abusive - want her to be and dress like their perfect little girl, their hyperfemme daughter, then she will. She has to be.

From a writing perspective, Pacifica is made to be the opposite of Mabel. One loves fun and color and chaos, is nice no matter what. The other is sitting outside this room and named Pacifica Northwest. But looking at it like that, why wouldn't Pacifica be trans? Especially if Mabel is transfemme - which is a fun reading of her and one that I love to see. It's not canon but think about it. If Mabel is transfemme then Pacifica - her inverse - would be transmasc. The other end of the spectrum.

But now I need real evidence, right? My transmasc Dipper essay was built on much more than "this is behavior seen in a lot of trans people just generally". I pointed out specific scenes in specific episodes - though I forgot Carpet Diem, which is fascinating and which I could so make an essay on by itself. Can I do that for Pacifica?

Well, the short answer is no. The best evidence I have is a general hand-wave at her behavior and environment and "this just reads as transmasc to me". Which, to be completely fair, is how headcanons work. They don't necessarily need any degree of proof. It's nice and it can help people to agree with you, but in the end, it doesn't matter. I can say I headcanon anything, and because it's a headcanon, you can't do shit about it. If I say Pacifica is transmasc beyond a shadow of a doubt, then you can challenge me.

To be fair, I did say that. The title of this is literally "Pacifica is transmasc and you can't change my mind", I will take that I was making claims. But also I immediately followed that up with "it sounds insane to me" so I should hope we all know that I'm going into headcanons-based-on-the-text territory.

And I'm never going to attack someone over a headcanon that makes someone feel seen, and I'd hope that holds true for everyone. I like Pacifica as transmasc and forcing herself into the box of cis female when it's wrong because I did the same. I love transmasc Pacifica. I love the idea of Pacifica and Dipper hanging out and him telling her that he's trans and Pacifica just kinda goes "you can do that? But then why doesn't everyone? Being a girl kinda sucks - there's girl drama and dresses and girl puberty and all that stuff. Everyone would be a guy if they could" and Dipper gives her The Look and says "Pacifica Northwest, that is the most trans thing I have ever heard".

In conclusion, I headcanon trans masculine Pacifica Northwest. Still workshopping a chosen name for him but I do, and I love him. It's all silly fun headcanoning a children's cartoon character as trans and it hurts no one. And it doesn't even affect a lot of the things I'll do. I have one fic that will hint at it and one that will treat it as the main center of the story planned. (It will be a part of my AU but not a major part and I'm also playing with the thought of gender-fluid Pacifica for Divine Falls. It's entirely ignorable and will not affect anything related to the main AU's plot.)

Yes I referred to Pacifica as she/her for most of this essay but it was referring to a pre-realization Pacifica who isn't out yet and thus would convince herself that she was uncomfortable with he/him pronouns and therefore calling them he/him would be wrong until he came out.

#wow this was long #for something kinda stupid #screaming out of the abyss #gravity falls #transmasc #transgender #trans boy #headcanon #essay #no one was expecting this #least of all me #trans pacifica northwest

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demxters · 2 years ago

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—LOVING YOU IS EASY

frat!jake seresin x f!reader

dagger squad college!au

summary: it's delta chi casino night and your doubts and insecurities find a way to ruin your perfect mood. good thing jake seresin is there to pull you from the depths of your mind.

wc: 2.9k

warning(s): 18+, fem!reader, no y/n (reader goes by nickname ace), descriptions of anxiety and a panic attack, self deprecating thoughts, a lil angsty but mostly fluff and feelings!!

part of the loving you universe || also find it on ao3 here

𝐅𝐄𝐄𝐃𝐁𝐀𝐂𝐊, 𝐂𝐎𝐌𝐌𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐒, 𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐑𝐄𝐁𝐋𝐎𝐆𝐒 𝐀𝐑𝐄 𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐎𝐔𝐑𝐀𝐆𝐄𝐃 𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐀𝐏𝐏𝐑𝐄𝐂𝐈𝐀𝐓𝐄𝐃!

You can’t pinpoint the exact moment you fell in love with him. It could’ve been that day when he chased after you in the pouring rain to give you a piece of his heart. It could’ve been when he stole the last bottle of Mountain Dew from Bradley because he knew how much you liked them. You can’t pinpoint the exact moment you fell in love with him, but you knew that the ever growing feeling you had for the man was love.

When he broke through the walls you built around your heart, it didn’t take much for you to fall utterly and completely in love with him. Any defenses against him were useless because he somehow managed to wiggle his way through the barbed wire anyway.

No matter how much you tried to deny it, you were weak for Jake Seresin.

Your eyes flit around the room, taking in the slightly tipsy college students that sat around makeshift poker tables. It was Casino Night and Delta Chi was hosting the event. Everyone in attendance was dressed to the nines. Boys in their nicest button ups and slacks, girls in their best evening dresses, and the rest in the most dapper outfits they had. Most of the people in the room were from other fraternities and sororities making the only people you really knew to be your boyfriend, his friends, and yours.

God, you got butterflies just from thinking of the word. Boyfriend. Jake Seresin was your boyfriend. You weren’t getting used to that any time soon.

You hung off to the side, opting to be just a spectator for the night. Your friends clamored and booed just to poke fun, but they knew these things weren’t really your scene. You catch Jake’s eye from the other side of the room. The way his gaze softens when it meets yours sends a rush of overwhelming emotion through you. Your stomach erupts in a flurry of butterflies and your heart beat picks up its pace in your ribcage. Every time he looked at you felt like the first time he said I love you.

He gives you a lopsided smile that accentuates the dimple on his left cheek. You wiggle your fingers at him in a small wave to which he cockily winks back in response. You playfully roll your eyes before his attention is stolen from you by one of his fraternity brothers.

Leaning against the wall, you sigh, once again admiring your boyfriend from afar.

“He’s so hot.”

The sudden company of a girl you recognized from Sigma Nu startles you. You turn to see who she’s looking at and of course, she’s eyeing none other than Jake Seresin.

You hum in response, taking another sip from your cup.

“I mean, seriously. A guy like that… I’m surprised no one’s staked their claim on him yet. Then again, Jake Seresin could have anyone he wants.” She pauses then looks at you with eager eyes. “Do you think I should go talk to him?”

The elated state you found yourself in a moment earlier came crashing down, bringing you back to reality. She was right, Jake Seresin could have anyone he wants.

How you were able to catch the attention of a guy like him was beyond you. The two of you came from two different ends of the spectrum. You were a bookish, studious, chronically sarcastic know it all while he was fun, charismatic, and quite literally the life of every party.

This girl who was absolutely stunning and looked like a supermodel was asking you if she should talk to your boyfriend. You should’ve said no. You should’ve stood your ground, “staked your claim” as she had said and told her that Jake was taken. That he was yours. Instead a weak, “I don’t know,” tumbled from your lips and so did your resolve.

The Sigma Nu girl fluffed up her hair and pulled up her top to accentuate her breasts before standing taller and giving you a sultry grin. “Wish me luck.”

Your blood turns to ice, leaving your feet frozen to the floor. There’s a small voice in the back of your mind screaming at you to follow after her. To pull her back by her perfect hair and tell her to back off. Maybe that was a bit extreme, but you couldn’t help the unfamiliar feeling of jealousy that rushed over you. You and Jake have only been officially together for a few months, but hasn’t she seen the glances the two of you exchanged all night? Hasn’t she seen Jake lovingly wrapped around you at Delta Chi’s parties? Couldn’t she tell that Jake only had eyes for you?

You trusted him. You trusted him with all your heart. You knew Jake would never entertain the thought of another girl and yet watching the Sigma Nu saunter up to your boyfriend with a lustful gleam in her eye and ill intentions, you were struck with the thought that even if he did entertain the idea of being with other girls you wouldn’t blame him.

Seeing how easily she wormed her way perfectly between Jake and Javy and the rest of the group as she ever so charmingly striked up a conversation between their fraternity brothers made your stomach feel queasy. Jake didn’t spare her a second glance, even as she reached out to caress his arm. He moved away from her grasp and stepped to the side to create some space between them. The action should have filled you with relief. Instead, you felt like you were going to be sick.

She looked so perfect interacting with everyone. Not a single thing about her was awkward or out of place. She fit right in with the group and looked so right next to Jake. She was the type of person you’d imagine Jake dating. Someone who could keep up with his charm and wit. Someone who was just as social and outgoing as he is. Someone who was everything you weren’t. So no, you wouldn’t blame Jake for ever entertaining the idea of being with someone else. Had you been in his shoes, you’d probably want someone else too.

Someone who wasn’t so bland. Someone who didn’t get overwhelmed by crowds and easily sick from the taste of alcohol. Someone who could stay up and party all night. Someone who wouldn’t hold them back.

It was foolish of you to think you could make Jake happy. Sooner or later he was going to wake up and realize he could find someone good, someone better.

The room suddenly felt like a sauna, the air hot and heavy making it hard to breathe. Your vision blurred with tears that threatened to spill from your eyes. Everything around you sounded like it was underwater. It felt like you were too. Your limbs were too heavy to move. You felt like your lungs were going to burst from not inhaling any air. You hadn’t even noticed that Natasha and Bob were standing in front of you and leading you towards the double doors until the chill of the night air put out the fire on your cheeks.

You gasp the moment you step foot outside, breaching the surface feeling like you could breathe again.

“Breathe Ace.”

You follow the voice like a siren call. Tapping your fingers against your thigh, you count every breath, remembering to take note of your surroundings and bring yourself back to the present.

A moment passes before your breath goes back to normal and your vision is no longer clouded. You can see Nat in front of you with her hands on your shoulders and her forehead is crinkled in that way it gets when she’s worried.

You wrap your arms around yourself as if finally realizing you were standing outside in the middle of the night without your jacket.

Natasha gives you a second to recollect yourself and your thoughts, leading you by the hand to sit on the concrete steps of the meeting hall. The concrete feels like ice against your skin, sending another jolt of chills through your body.

You begin counting again when you feel yourself drifting off. You get to forty five before Nat breaks the silence.

“It’s been awhile since your last one of those, huh?”

You swallow harshly.

Bob comes back out with a bottle of water in his hand that he gently offers to you. You give him a weak smile and take it from him, haphazardly unscrewing the cap. It falls to the ground but you don’t have it in you to care as you take a large gulp of water. Bob takes a seat beside you with Nat on your other side.

Even after drinking three fourths of the bottle, somehow your throat still feels dry. Your mind goes back to the reason why you were out here in the first place and you almost hurl onto the sidewalk. Images of Jake and that chick from Sigma Nu fill your brain and you can’t help but feel sick all over again.

Bob gets up at the sight of your flushed skin. “I should go get Jake,” he stutters.

“No!” You shoot up to your feet immediately, startling Nat and Bob. Clearing your throat, you state again,“No, don’t get Jake. Please.”

Natasha and Bob eye each other warily before ultimately deciding to respect your wish.

Nat nods, rubbing soothing circles onto the skin of your arm. “Okay, we won’t get him.”

A loud thud from behind makes your heart jump.

You turn to see Jake clamoring through the doors in a state of dishevelment. When his eyes land on your form, he lets out a sigh of relief. His shoulders fall and he hurries down the steps to get to you.

You know what he’s gonna ask before the words even leave his lips. Facing your back to him, you wrap your arms around yourself and say, “I’m fine, Jake. You don’t have to worry.”

“I’m always worrying about you, sweetheart,” he admits, settling on the steps beside you where Bob had once been.

Natasha nods her head towards the double doors, beckoning Bob to follow and give you two a moment of privacy. She knew from the moment she saw you clam up in the meeting hall that it had to do with Jake and Miss Sigma Nu. The way your stare locked onto the two and didn’t break until her and Bob practically dragged you away was enough of a clue. She just hoped Jake hadn’t done anything stupid, otherwise he’d have to deal with her.

Silence between you and Jake was never uncommon, however it was also never this unsettling. Jake knew the second you disappeared from his view that something was wrong. You never left without telling Jake or anyone else first. After asking everyone if they’d seen where you went, he was thankful that Reuben caught Bob and Natasha ushering you outside.

Without a second thought, Jake was on autopilot, dropping everything to get to you. Not even the Sigma Nu who whined about where he was going mattered to him. All he could think about is you.

Jake was wracking his brain for any reason for you to rush out like that. Has he indirectly done something to upset you? Did he forget something important? Were you sick and needed to go home?

You sniffle and wipe at your nose with the back of your hand before facing your back towards him once more. He knew it was something much worse. He hated seeing you cry. After making you cry as many times as he did before you got together, he swore to always be there to wipe them away and kiss you better. But he couldn’t even do that now as you purposely hide yourself away from him.

“That’s the thing. You shouldn’t have to worry about me all the time. You shouldn’t have to constantly keep an eye on me or be conscious of the time because I hate staying up late. You shouldn’t have to sacrifice your time out because I get too anxious in crowded rooms. You shouldn’t have…” Another sob climbs its way up your throat. “You shouldn’t have to deal with me.”

Jake’s heart breaks at your confession and he’s desperate to understand where these thoughts are coming from. Just a moment earlier, you were smiling and laughing at his antics which is why your change in demeanor took him off guard. Despite wanting to beg you to tell him what was going on in that head of yours, he knew that you needed some time. He took your trembling hand in his, intertwining your fingers and softly stroking the skin of the back of your hand in the way he knew you loved.

He bites his tongue and patiently waits for you to open back up to him. Tremors from the soft breeze continue to make your body shake so he pulls off his suit jacket and drapes it around your shoulders.

You unconsciously snuggle into its warmth, breathing in the familiarity of Jake’s cologne before falling onto his shoulder and burying yourself into the crook of his neck.

“You deserve to be with someone who isn’t dragging you down all the time,” you voice into the skin of his neck.

Your words are muffled but he hears you all the same. “What? What’re you talking about?”

You shake your head, sniffing once more. “It’s just… that Sigma Nu girl that approached you earlier? She was talking to me before that. Saying something about how you could have anyone you want and all that stuff. Then she went up to talk to you–”

“And you didn’t stop her?” Jake asks with amusement and curiosity.

“No, well, I tried but I couldn’t get the words out. You know?”

Jake nods in agreement knowing exactly what you meant. “Then what happened?” He coaxes gently.

“Then I saw her with you and Javy and everyone else. I think I understood what she meant then about you having anyone you want. She just looked so perfect with you all, like she belonged there and you looked so good together that I couldn’t help but think that maybe you deserved someone like that. Someone who isn’t a burden. Someone who fits into your world better.”

He frowns, and holds you closer with his free arm. “You know I love you more than anything, right?” You remain silent so he repeats himself again. “Right?”

You hum.

“Then you should also know that you’re my world. You.” He pulls away for a moment to get a good look at your tear stained cheeks and wide eyes staring up at him. “I don’t care if she looked perfect or if she fit right in. I don’t care about any of that stuff. As for having anyone I want, I’ve already got the one I want right here. It’s you Ace. From the moment we met, it's always been you.”

“But–”

“You’re not dragging me down. Don’t you ever think that because you’re the one who’s keeping me afloat. I mean, seriously, I probably would’ve flunked out by now.” A dry laugh escapes him.

You nudge him in the ribs. “Hey, what did we say about self talk?”

He smiles down at you. “You see what I mean? You won’t even let me talk bad about myself so what makes you think I’ll let you get away with it?”

“I’m sorry,” you squeak. You’re feeling better already, but you still aren’t completely convinced.

“Don’t be sorry, just believe me will you?” Releasing his hold on your hand he tilts your chin upward so he can get a better look at you. “Loving you is not a burden. Loving you is…” He pauses for a moment, trying to find the perfect words to articulate how he feels about you. “Loving you is easy. I never thought I’d be one to fall in love but you made it so easy that I didn’t even realize I did until I almost ruined any chance I had with you.”

“Jake…” Your eyes are welling with tears again. Not from sadness, but rather from the overwhelming feeling of gratefulness and love for the man in front of you.

“Oh, sweetheart,” he gingerly cups your face in his hands, wiping at the tears on the apples of your cheeks. “Loving you is the easiest thing I’ve ever had to do. I love you, Ace.”

Pressing forward, your lips land on his and he could taste the salt from your tears as they continue to fall but he doesn’t care. You try to pull away, but he chases your lips and brings you back to him.

You giggle at his eagerness but push him back softly by the chest. You had to say what you’ve been dying to say all night. You were afraid you were going to burst any second now if you didn’t. “Loving you is the easiest thing I’ve ever had to do too, Jake. I love you.”

The smile that graces his features is brighter than all the stars in the night sky as he rests his forehead against yours.

“Easier than your statistics class?” He jokes.

You press another kiss to his lips with a smile. “Even easier than that.”

Learning to accept that you alone were enough and worthy of Jake’s love would take some time, but you knew with Jake by your side, he would make it all a little easier.

a/n: a special ty to @natrace beta reading <3 ty for ur love and support

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amidnightqueery · 1 month ago

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Ace Week is finishing up. I've been so busy that I've barely been able to recognise it. However, now that it's the weekend, I want to make a post on my relationship to asexuality.

Let's be clear: I love being on the asexual spectrum. I think it's a beautiful and wholly complete way of experiencing the world and all the joy it has to offer. I've never felt broken because of my demisexuality.

But I'd be lying if I said I never wished I could view people and relationships through a different lens, just to say I know what it feels like.

I think it'd be interesting to be more casual with my approach to sex and attraction, have sex with friends or acquaintances for pleasure, have intense (and usually fleeting) attractions to complete strangers. All of the things sex therapists and polyamorous educators talk about and try to demystify. It sounds like a lot of fun!

However, even if I were not aspec, I know it'd only be a short lived thing. I know trying these things would not satisfy me. Sex is not something I seek out when I'm single, and is only a priority of mine within romantic relationship(s) for deeper intimacy – which is ok for anyone, of any orientation. Being demisexual only simplifies it further, because the prospect of having it with someone I've just met or am still getting to know is probably not even going to cross my mind. It's certainly not something I am hoping for as a result, because any attraction that does occur is weak and easy to ignore.

Being aspec makes life comparatively simpler, I think. I like making friends with people, playing board games with them, laughing hard with them, holding their hands or hugging or having deep conversations for intimacy. I like that my flirtatiousness is both playful and a genuine attempt to gas them up, not a means to an end. I like that I don't have to worry about sexual attraction ever complicating things, because I can't feel sexual attraction until a deep bond is formed, and that requires a lot of conversation and commitment, as well as a tilt into some kind of romantic area; it's not something that just pops up suddenly, to confuse things.

So, while I do have some desire to know what the other side is like, I know I'll always want to come home to my demisexuality. I might wonder what I'm missing out on at times, but I don't feel like I'm missing anything inside of *me*. I have so much love to give (and receive) without sex or attraction ever being on the table; how can anyone who says that be cast aside or dismissed as "broken"?

The experiences we have and the bonds we make may or may not have a sexual undertone, but it definitely doesn't need to be there for those experiences and bonds to be satisfying, real, and true.

#mine

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stuckinapril · 11 months ago

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Hi!! You mentioned in a post with a summary of what you’ve achieved in 2023 that you expanded your friend circle by making more friends. How did you do that? 🥲 I’m working and although my colleagues are nice, I keep them at arm’s length and most of my friends from school and college are in different parts of the country. I’ve always been introverted with a small circle of friends so loneliness hits me hard sometimes

thank you!!

Speaking as someone who was on both extremes of the spectrum (having no friends and lots of friends)—it’s genuinely about putting yourself out there. The moment I stopped thinking it was hard to make friends, making friends became so much easier to do. Aside from my uni friends, I’ve made friends in so many other places. Once I was studying at the library and a girl approached me. We exchanged numbers and are getting coffee soon. Made friends w the barista at my favorite boba place. Made friends w the girl who does my eyebrows (she’s my age and is also a stem major). I’ve made friends through other friends. It really is that easy if you’re okay w the possibility of rejection, and don’t allow your ego to stop you from approaching people in the appropriate context.

There will be bad eggs. That is completely natural. We move on. There is an infinite number of opportunities to make other friends. Internalizing this has saved me so much unnecessary stress.

Join a book club. Volunteer for a cause you’re passionate about. Join a class at your gym. These are all such easy ways to make friends, bc you already know you have at least one interest in common w the people present. Better yet!! You also get something from it, bc even if you don’t socialize that well, at least you’re working out or volunteering or engaging in an activity you’re passionate about. It’s a win-win. Just don’t operate from a place of “I NEED to make friends here or else it’s a failure,” bc you’ll end up taking things too seriously and not enjoying yourself. Enjoying yourself is the whole point. There are 8 billion people on this planet. Rest easy knowing friends are guaranteed if you’re willing to look for them, however long it may take.

Also!! An important thing I learned is it’s okay to compartmentalize friends. I have friends I pretty much exclusively party w, friends I only work out w, friends I only go on study dates w… and then I also have a core unit of close friends who go beyond just being friends for enjoyment. It’s fine if you don’t immediately make friends who are essentially your friends for life. That’s extremely rare, so just be patient. Don’t write off people you don’t have this cerebral connection with. Maybe I’m going against the grain here, but I think casual friendships serve a purpose in our lives too. Don’t force connection trying to break past the superficial stages of a friendship—deep bonds like this only form organically. Just relax, put yourself out there, and have fun doing it <3

#i used to be anxious about this too #but I genuinely think anyone who doesn’t have many friends simply does not look for them hard enough #making friends can happen ANYWHERE j be open to it and smile at ppl :)#good luck friend #ask

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notnights · 6 months ago

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I want to share this Jax idea I got after ep 2.

I think Jax is the most aware of the dangers of emotional attachment. Now, time for me to explain. I thought it was really curious how he didn't laugh at Pomni for her loss and he is the mean one. On my part, my instant reaction to the Gummigoo death was of laughter for two things: Pomni's expression and the fact that the world created for the adventure and all of the NPC it contains are erased once the adventure is over. Basically, no matter what adventure happens, what changes you did to improve the lives of NPCs or if you were the MVP. Everything is meaningless in the end, in that case the only thing that matters in the long run are the other players, but they can abstract and will be sent to the basement to never come back again.

Jax is the one that accepted the way of the circus, a game to have fun, and what is more fun and thrilling than unnecessary violence pumping adrenaline through the veins? After all, once the adventure is over everything will be gone. He will never meet the NPC he harmed again, perhaps the same model, but I bet they won't keep their memories, in such case will it be the same NPC? Even if they keep their memories, the adventure is over and they will be gone (Could also be why he is focused and active to complete the adventure instead of just doing nothing or doing something else entirely).

Going back to “aware of the dangers of emotional attachment”, I will bring, and pray it wasn't Goose and the VAs fooling us, how each time a fan asks about Jax's reaction to being given affection the answer is that he is repulsed by it. As stated before, the only things that stay are the other members, but in this stressful situation where they have been stripped from their names, freedom, logic and some basic human things; feelings of closeness can appear, that's when he applies the logic “nothing matters” as a way to keep them at distance, being also mean with them in a “you don't matter” attempt. That way, he earns their hate and feels more justified in his behavior. He does this without a fear of being truly left alone as the fact that all of them are stranded on the same game means they will inevitably meet again, everyday. So, the others have to be forgiving of his actions and he can just get away with whatever he does.

In conclusion, explaining my headcanon was the perfect way to practice my essay writing skills, and that Jax is maybe the most sensible of the cast so he takes seriously his job to protect his feelings through a barrier of violence and rudeness. I am open to explain more if asked, thanks for taking a moment to read this, have a nice day.

— Anon E(ssay)

Yeah it’s possible Jax is very much on the spectrum of “is awful as both a means of entertainment and to push any potential attachments away.”

He’s awful because it’s fun for him and if nobody likes him because of it well less pain for him in the long run. Everyone’s just a fun little toy for him that he can easily toss around and throw away.

In theory anyway because sometimes people still get attached to their toys. Example if Gangle is Jax’s favorite punching bag, it’s terrible but she’s still his favorite punching bag. Even if he did nothing but torment Kaufmo the entire time and Kaufmo hated him, Jax still felt Kaufmo’s loss one way or another. Sad little Jax trying his best not to get attached when in reality he’s just getting attached in a different kind of way. A way that ultimately still leaves him lonely.

Right now it’s hard to say what exactly motivates Jax’s behavior. Maybe he secretly cares, maybe he pushes others away like this to avoid attachment, maybe he’s just an asshole. Maybe we’ll find out one day, but it’s fun to think about in the meantime.

#long post #ask

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tubborucho · 6 months ago

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So you may have seen I asked people to do sort of a challenge:

The situation goes like that: Team Soulfire as a Cursed team was left on the Island because of their loss along with all the Eggs plus 3 other ones that they found. The Watcher keeps playing games with them and at some point splits the team for 10 small groups (1 Egg in each) to survive on their own and try to find each other.

Divide all 10 Eggs (excluding Chunsik) between 16 Soulgayfire members (excluding ElQ and that guy) that way that each Egg has not more than 2 Adults and each Adult can only have 1 Egg. BUT none of the Adults with the Egg can be their parent (including married into it – like Mariana for Sunny and, for the sake of a challenge, Pac and Fit count as married).

Hint: There will be 4 teams with an Egg and an Adult and 6 with an Egg and 2 Adults

I would love to see what everyone thinks would be good duos/trios and why! Feel free to reblog with your ideas or make a separate post (pls tag me).

My own thoughts under the cut! Preferably do not read them before you make your own

So in the duos I chose I put a lot of thoughts into trying to make each duo/trio strong enough to survive this (because though each person and egg are strong, not all of them strong in a ‘i can survive’ and ‘i can fight’ ways).

Those are my picks:

Chayanne – Lenay

First of all, I think they would bond over potatoes. But also I think they are quite similar in being resourceful while at the same time Chayanne can give Lenay PVP protection where Lenay, I think, would be able to be somewhat of an emotional comfort to him.

Tallulah – Arin&Fit

Arin/Luzu and Tallulah have a special bond that I really like, even if it’s not canonically there at this point. And I kind of miss Fit and Tallulah from the first weeks of the Eggs. After all, he was the first person to find her :) And each team with Fit has an advantage.

Ramon – Pierre

Honestly, they would be a fire duo. Both very smart, very strong, very creative (unfortunately Create is not an option). And both are survivalists. Out of all the duos/trios, I think they are the one that will go through that the easiest.

Dapper – Missa&Kameto

Now, it’s a bit of a ‘that would be fun’ when it comes to Dapper and Missa being paired, considering that Missa is kind of Bad’s colleague, but just on a completely different end of the spectrum. Nonetheless, I think him and Dapper would get along swimmingly. And Kameto is a great addition, because he is canonically a very very good spy and a ninja, so definitely has some useful skills to help them survive.

Leo – Mariana&Pol

I admit, this one is probably the weakest, but my only other option was to switch Pac and Pol, which I decided not to do, because I think Leo and Mariana combo needs someone more grounding with them, and it’s not Pac’s strength lol. Overall, I think they are still skilled enough to survive as a trio, and also the communication will be much easier, because all 3 speak spanish.

Richas – Rivers&Niki

Rivers and Niki together is a bit of a guilty pleasure because I wish…. I wish, man. And I decided to give Richas to them, because god knows the kid needs someone who would not play into his suicidal tendencies (as I believe those two wouldn’t). Also I just think they would have a very nice dynamic and also have their grounds covered with Rivers and Richas being able to fight and Niki being good at gathering and farming.

Pomme – Tina&Bagi

Another one that was a vision. Just three lesbians chilling together. Out of all the Eggs Pomme is one of the best pvpers and protectors, where Tina and Bagi may lack (well, not lack, they can hold their own when needed, it’s just not their strongest suit), but Tina and Bagi are very strategic and resourceful, once again, covering all grounds. Plus Bagi (and Tubbo, but separately) would probably be the first one to actually come up with a plan for finding everyone.

Sunny – Badboyhalo

Sunny needs to stay the undowned queen, and who is the best to do it, if not Bad? Both are actually very good at survival, can fight and can farm quick. Bad would also be able to play along with Sunny and her pretend games along the way, which are a big self-defense mechanism for her (mermaid Lenay as one of the examples).

Empanada – Tubbo

Though a lot of the Eggs are very smart, I think Em is one of the few that can not only keep up with Tubbo (considering that there’s no Create), but also keep him in check and smack some sense into him when he is getting carried away. And Tubbo really needs people like that around him to use his skills on maximum. After all, he is arguably the strongest person on the Soulfire, particularly because he is incredibly smart. Both of them also have all the grounds covered and would be very efficient.

Pepito – Pac&Mike

I feel like Pac and Mike would do a great job being protectors of the babiest Egg out of them. And I think Pepito would enjoy their company a lot. Ngl out of all the ‘teams’ I think those 3 will have the most shenanigans, and I no doubt can see them getting jailed and escape somehow like Looney Toons characters lol. Once again, as a team they can fight and they can gather, so would be able to keep themselves alive.

#liss writes posts #qsmp #team soulfire

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eryiss · 3 months ago

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Fraxus Week 2024 - Day 5: Solace

Description: Taking over the guild was always going to be a struggle. But maybe he had underestimated just how tough it would be. But having a husband who could bend the rules of time helped. Quite a lot, actually.

Notes: Day five, still hosted by @fuckyeahfraxus. Overpowered Freed and overworked Laxus. Fluff and comfort abound.

Link: Ao3

To Live In The Moment

Laxus was not a man to back down from a challenge. He wasn't the type to take on something he had no hope of completing. He wasn't the type to let things get on top of him and to crumble under the stress. But being the guild master of Fairy Tail was proving to be a much greater test than he had thought it would, and he was starting to crack.

He expected a lot of crap. He wasn't stupid.

Natsu and his team of idiots were inevitably going to destroy a well-loved building, and Laxus was going to have to sort it out. The pandemonium around Loke changing his hair and wearing a suit with a different cut was going to bring crowds to the guildhall, and Laxus would end up having to apologise to the local council for the mess that was made. Someone with a vendetta against the guild would rear their head and attack the city with frankly preposterous levels of power to assuage their vendetta, and it would be up to Laxus to rally the town and the guild to rebuild it all.

He was fine with that. Hell, with the last one, he probably owed the city. Him, his husband, and his husband's team had held the entire city hostage with frankly preposterous levels of power in an attempt to assuage a vendetta, after all.

But he hadn't realised it would be so much so regularly.

And there were so many meetings. Why hadn't the old man told him how many meetings there would be before running off to retirement?

Case in point, the Grand Magic Games were happening again, and the core Guilds of the country had all been called to meet. Given that the games were a hotbed of corruption in the past and had been used by dark guilds to legitimise themselves in the public eye only to reveal their true hands when they'd gathered enough members, masters and representatives had been called. They needed to figure out a way to make the games safe, and fun. A task which, at the five-hour mark, seemed unattainable.

Ideas were thrown out from everyone, but there was always a complaint ready. One idea was too restrictive and spat in the face of the Games core values. Another was too unsafe and left people open to attack. Every idea had a criticism aimed at it, and it had taken Laxus around thirty minutes to conclude that they wouldn't come up with anything workable.

Five hours in, he had yet to be disavowed of the notion.

Also, Freed, who Laxus had brought with him as both moral support and as a smart guy who had good ideas, had left about half an hour ago and had yet to return. So, Laxus was left with nobody in his corner, watching as the two spectrums of guild master fought one another, with no idea how to stop them.

That was until they all just stopped.

Not stopped in that they calmed down and stopped talking. Stopped as in they froze. As in no movement whatsoever, sudden total silence that made Laxus very aware of his heartbeat. A blob of spittle was even suspended in the middle of the air. Laxus lurched up, which was made difficult as his chair was unmoving as if bolted to the ground, and allowed lightning to crackle around him, ready to attack whoever had caused this.

A figure slid through the partially opened door, and Laxus turned to face them, only to see Freed walking in with a hand raised placatingly. "It's me. It's fine. I'm doing this."

Laxus let his posture slip, but he was still on edge. "Why?"

"Because frankly, this meeting is the most longwinded, irritating onslaught of nonsense that I've ever had to endure, and if I had to stick in there for another moment, I would shove my sword into my neck," Freed shrugged. It was definitely him them. "I thought you might be feeling the same way and wanted to give you a break."

"Oh," Laxus looked over the table of arguing idiots. "Thanks. Little question, not important, but when the hell did you become able to stop time?"

"I've been able to do it for a few weeks, though it's a work in progress," he turned to the door and kicked it as if to prove his point. The door didn't move an inch. "I can make it so time stops, and I stop it affecting certain people, but I can't move structures that I don't have direct contact with. I can make small areas of exception, but nothing big enough for practicality yet."

"Still impressive."

"I suppose. I just have a few kinks to iron out. But that'll come in time."

Laxus wrapped an arm around Freed's shoulders. "Keep a couple of your kinks. I like 'em."

"As has been made abundantly clear," Freed grinned. "Come on. I've got you some food."

Freed slid through the half open door again, and Laxus did the same with a bit of difficulty. They walked down a spiral staircase, having to avoid a couple of frozen people as they did so. It was weird, seeing people frozen in time. Their expressions were so unguarded, so unprepared. It was surreal, but the quiet and the stillness was serene.

Following Freed, Laxus managed to leave the council building through a series of corridors, passages and the occasional open window. He didn't know how Freed had mapped out such a route, and didn't care to ask. He rolled out his shoulders; glad to be out of the stuffy, angry room.

Once they were out on the street, Freed guided him to a small bench. Fast food from one of Laxus' favourite places was there, and Freed picked them up easily. He handed Laxus a small tub containing a burger, some chicken wings and a pile of fries. There was also a milkshake waiting on the bench. Apparently, they were sharing, because Freed took to holding the milkshake and reached into the tub to get some fries for himself.

"Exclusion zone, right?" Laxus asked as he hefted the food. It was mainly an invitation for Freed to talk about his magic. Laxus loved listening to Freed when he did that. He cared so much; it was obvious.

"Yes. It was either that or strip naked and cover myself in meat and salt."

Laxus also liked hearing Freed talk about himself naked. "That'd be hot as fuck."

"Depending on how quickly I did it after cooking, it might be scalding."

"Nah, you'd have the milkshake all over ya to help," Laxus grinned. "You'd look good covered in a milkshake."

Freed gave him a look. "I'm very glad you're comfortable speaking your mind with me Laxus, but I do sometimes wonder what goes on in there."

"Last year, you told me all you wanted for your birthday was for me to dress up in a wrestling singlet, work out intense like for two hours, then screw you before I could have a shower," Laxus grinned a little at the memory. It felt like a gift for him as well as for Freed. "If you're allowed to like me all sweaty, then I'm allowed to like you covered in milkshake."

"Bit of a false equivalency, I think, but I'll let it slide," Freed laughed. "I don't suppose you managed to reach an agreement after I left the meeting."

"Not even close," Laxus groaned. "I swear they're just arguing because they enjoy it."

"I wouldn't be surprised."

They chatted idly as they walked down the frozen streets of the capital, Laxus very quickly becoming accustomed to the near silence of a bustling city, and the frozen statues that were going about their days. The food was good, and Laxus would take a walk with his husband over being in the middle of a crowded town any day. They didn't focus on the meeting for too long, and Laxus happily sat back and listened as his husband talked him through the intricacies of his time stopping spell.

As Freed was explaining how it's not as difficult as it might seen, and any rune mage with a high level of proficiency could cast it, they came across a small decorative lake. Laxus halted, looking at the lake. Freed noticed a moment later and stopped.

"How does it work with water?" Laxus asked. "Is that solid too, or would we still get wet."

"Entirely solid," Freed said as he walked towards it. Laxus trailed after him. "It's a little disconcerting to see moving water so still, and it took me a few tests to work up the gumption to actually walk on a body of water, but it's as solid as the ground. Just takes a little time to get used to it."

Laxus looked down at the unmoving water, then nudged a raised ripple with the toe of his boot. It was like nudging stone. He slowly placed a foot onto it, then another, testing the weight for a moment as if expecting the spell to break. Freed had no such reservation and started to walk across the water's surface with ease. Laxus copied him, though his hesitance remained.

"And I still can't convince you to join the GMG team this year," Laxus as they walked across the water. "I think the guy powerful enough to stop time might be a pretty good asset."

"As I said, I'm not a show pony to be trotted out," Freed laughed, turning to face Laxus and grinning at him. "We're not all you, dear."

Freed leant in to peck a kiss on Laxus' lips. Laxus bit Freed's bottom lip as a little revenge for the jibe. He stayed there, his hands on Freed's waist in the middle of a lake frozen by time, surrounded by a city, or perhaps a world, that stopped moving. All because his husband knew he was getting stressed in a meeting, and a little walk and something to eat would sort his mind out.

"You're amazing, you know that?"

"Oh don't," Freed chastised. He was never one for taking genuine praise well.

"I mean it."

"Hush."

"Fine," Laxus conceded. "Seriously, though, you got any idea how good this spell is gonna be the next time we have to fight someone trying to kill everyone. Takes away pretty much any ticking clock we have to deal with, gives us the chance to regroup and strategies in the middle of a fight, and basically lets anyone you like teleport. It's amazing. How many people can you give exceptions to, d'you know?"

"Well, you're the first person I've actually done it with. My working theory is around twenty. I think any more, the magical drain would be too great, and the spell would crash without my say so," Freed looked considering. "Although, having one person as an exception isn't as draining as I thought, so perhaps I might sustain more."

"Or maybe you just like my company so much you don't notice?" Laxus suggested with a smirk.

"You know all it would take would be the click of my fingers and I'll start time up again and dunk you completely in this very cold water."

"You'd dunk yourself too," Laxus cooed. "And what's so wrong with you admitting you like talking to me? You married me."

"Nothing at all. I just like seeing you wet." Freed leant in a little closer.

"And I like seeing you covered in milkshake." Laxus leant in closer too.

"You've never seen that." Closer.

"My birthday's coming up." Closer.

"Maybe if you're good." Closer.

"And if I'm bad." Closer.

"Oh, I think we've well established how I punish you, Laxus." Closer.

"If it happens so often, maybe it's not working." Closer.

Freed just laughed, then pulled his husband into a slow, languishing, luxurious kiss. Laxus tangled his hand up in Freed's soft hair and pushed his body against Freed's just enough to feel tingles running down him.

Damn he'd needed this. Needed the break form the work and the time to indulge with the man he loved more than anyone else. He loved his guild, but he loved his husband more. Sometimes he thought that the world stopped when it was just him and Freed together – that nothing else was important when he had his husband in his mind – but to have that come to reality was a magic unlike anything Laxus had ever known.

Maybe that's why Freed had done it. Laxus had confessed those feelings once, and now Freed had a spell to make it happen. He could ask but knew Freed would deny it. He was a proud man, and if he didn't offer you his feelings, then it was best not to pry and try to get them out of him.

"We should probably get back," Laxus said regrettably as he pulled away. "If we stay out any longer, I'll end up asking you to take us both home. Probably wouldn't be good for inter-guild unity if we did that."

"Probably not," Freed said, taking Laxus' hand absently as they walked to the shore of the lake. "We can take the scenic route, though."

"Obviously."

The walk back was a slow and indulgent thing, even if the ending was marred by the peculiar route back into the meeting room. Laxus struggled to make his way through the half open door, and took his seat again, raising an eyebrow at Freed, who didn't move. "Aren't they gonna be weirded out that you're just suddenly in the room?"

"They look occupied," Freed shrugged. "It's possible that they might not notice."

Laxus looked at the frozen argument that was taking place before him and sighed. He leant back and ran a hand over his face in tired exasperation. He needed to remember that the guild needed a leader, and that he was the best person for it. The days like this would come and go, but the good would outweigh the bad. Even if the bad was so very very annoying.

"Thanks for doing this for me," he said as he sat up straight again. "I do appreciate it."

"Anytime," Freed waved off the thanks. "You ready?"

"As I'll ever be."

Freed clicked his finger, time fell back into place, and the moment was over.

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friendsyoyo · 10 months ago

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gettin intuitive

psychic headcanon babble for the mother 1 crew (aka just ninten and ana) because i figure someone out there is interested

i preface this with the knowledge that MOTHER 1 has the most mentions of PSI in the narrative out of the three games (mother 3 can be semi-debated). that ALSO BEING SAID, these are children and i don’t think they have god tier abilities. this ain’t the x-men—in fact the closest kid you got to Jean Grey is 11 years old. so this is just for fun

ninten

moves-wise: i love you ninten but you suck compared to everyone else. in fact, he doesn’t like that people are much better at PSI than him (especially not some girl he just met!). maybe he goes through a phase where he tries to improve, but it’s just not in his nature (or attention span) to do so. that being said, everyone’s cooked without him thanks to his prowess in assist PSI. sure, he can’t light people on fire, but he can make sure your next frying pan swing hurts bad. the added benefit of escaping into the fourth dimension is something that makes him very unique (or in teddy's words, "a one-trick pony") and makes him brag a bit, because what is ninten if not prideful? it’s not too bad though, because it’s dorky! there’s a childish glee to it, like a kid doing a cartwheel in front of his parents. even lloyd admits it makes ninten look lame, but “he’s not one to talk” either. like ana, he does possess telepathy, but this is the one ability i hc him to surpass her in. i really do think that with given time, he could be a very strong telepath! i think of telepathy as a spectrum rather than “transmitter and receiver” because the characters do portray differing levels of what they can do; basic communication with animals being on the lower end to near omnipotence on the highest extreme. ninten is no god for sure, but based on what we see in the game and novels, he “receives” more than he “transmits,” which can lead to very disorienting conversations. it’s an added level of hyper-vigilance he must deal with, but at least it's helpful in combat and against police officers. i wouldn’t say it’s textbook telepathy angst, but more like “can you shut the fuck up right now im trying to think” when no one has uttered a word in the past 2 minutes. too much at once leads to snappy responses, unintentionally looking daggers at someone, and unbridled rage when fighting lamps. he's best left alone in times like this. he gets tuckered out easily, bc thinkin's a lot of work. world's eepiest boy after massive boss fights

ana

like i said, she ain’t jean grey. buuuut, if i had to rank the most powerful psychics in the mother series, she’d be third to kumatora + her family and giegue. she is very disciplined in everything she does, only using it in dire or noble situations like her parents taught her to. in the game, she has a very good relationship with both her parents and religion, which is unlike many headcanons i tend to see.

they were both very involved, which led to her having near perfect control at such a young age. her father would preach about the responsibility she carries (because, yknow, great power) while her mother would find the best way to not let her skills go unmanaged. she starts off with precise telekinesis, fast healing LifeUp β, and manageable telepathy, but when she’s away from home and begins to learn more intense and formidable abilities, ana feels completely lost and shocked to her core. she hates violence, especially when she must enact it herself. with each new power she awakens, she feels a sense of betrayal towards her parents, wondering if she is straying from their teachings. worst of all, she fears over reliance on them the way ninten is (teleporting like it's no ones business). therefore, ana is very psychically repressed and mentally limits herself from the use of offensive PSI outside of battle.

she eventually realizes that although she didn't choose to be born with these abilities, they are a part of her and "God's plan." as long as there is someone to protect, she finds solace in being able to use them for the greater good.

i have so much more to say but it's 2:51 am and i feel like this post is a bit too long now. remember to hit that like button and subscribe

#feel free to reply i love talking about these two #headcanons #hcs #mother 1 #earthbound beginnings #ninten #ana #nintendo

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bogkeep · 4 days ago

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scattered thoughts on the saint of steel series + swordheart by t. kingfisher just so they're not sprinkled throughout the tags of other posts

- i love zale so much. reading swordheart was worth it for more zale (and also for bishop beartongue. i love her so much also. the entire order of the white rat is So Good)

- all of these books have the same romance arc structure. i think it's like, a good structure, but it gets so samey when you read it five times in a row. especially when they're all deeply allosexual and very founded in Instant Mutual Attraction. i don't think that's a bad thing in and of itself, i can enjoy a story where the characters are just really super horny for one another, ESPECIALLY when the characters are between ages 35-40 and not skinny hollywood models, but i feel like there HAS to be more than one way of writing that. i can at least appreciate that paladin book #4 had a slight spin on the dynamic. (paladin book #3 had a m/m romance and still followed the exact same pattern as the previous ones hahahhaa)

- i think paladin book #2 reads as the weakest one in the series, because book #1 is like hohoho this is so fun and enjoyable!! and then #2 is like, oho, new characters? wait is this just doing the same thing as the previous book. like, the story plot is completely different, but the Romance Arc is beat for beat the same, except in this case the paladin character seems to have NO reason to NOT get together with the love interest other than uhh. self-inflicted paladinly suffering? the paladins aren't even celibate!! all the other paladins so far have Understandable Personal Issues but this guy has some kind of unexplained hangup. this book also felt the least edited bc there were several phrases that repeated multiple times and ALSO...... the love interest lady was tall and muscular, but all the awooga'ing was focused on the more conventional areas, which felt like a truly missed opportunity. i still enjoyed this book!!! but Comparatively.

- all the story plots were really engaging though!!!!! paladin book #1 really had hooked from the get go, and book #4 had me excitedly waiting for a chekhov's gun to go off the entire time, and when it finally did it was so much more interesting than i anticipated hohohoho

- the worldbuilding is so good,, the setting feels real and lived in, very classic feeling fantasy without being derivative or cliché. there's some creatures and concepts that are delightfully creative or straight up eerie. i want to learn more about gnole culture and pronouns please

- i love how kingfisher writes paladins. she really Gets It. the paladin pie chart consists entirely of Guilt and Nobility. i also love that there's different paladin orders that have different Vibes like. the dreaming god needs only the prettiest, sluttiest of himbos to slay demons. it's so fun and i love that for them

- you can also tell that kingfisher has like. respect for people. when i read the stupid robot book, the feeling i kept getting from it was that humans are just soooo stupid and unevolved and it really rubbed me the wrong way. feels good to read something that is much more on the terry pratchett end of the spectrum. does this make sense??? like you read these books and the narrative doesn't hate women or poor people or fat people or any group of people. except maybe cops. there is definitely a disdain for cops which i very much appreciate

- the audiobook narrator for swordheart was different than the one for the saint of steel series, and it was genuinely fascinating to hear how they interpreted the characters that appear in both... and also that they pronounced the name jorge differently. both very talented narrators though, wow

anyway i guess i shall read more t. kingfisher!! maybe not right away but i am vibing with her style

#haiz reads things #these books have been good listenin during these weeks of school #engaging and fun but not needing too much concentration to follow

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syndrossi · 4 months ago

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Ahhh, it's been a while since the last comment complaining about the story pacing; maybe I should add a "molasses-paced character study" tag to the story to better set expectations.

Am I just weird? I feel like it makes perfect sense for the first few days at King's Landing to be quite dense. You're dealing with:

The first week of Daemon and the twins figuring out their relationship

And then subsequently having a ton of variables thrown in once they arrive in King's Landing to shake up the relationship

The political aftermath of a nation attempting to steal children and dragons from House Targaryen / the Iron Throne

Having to introduce the twins to SO MUCH family and set up the dynamics there

Having to progress the politics of their presence

Candle shenanigans

The disaster that is Daemon and Viserys's relationship

Hatchlings

I like to liken pacing to a camera's lens, and how tightly focused/zoomed it is. Take the first playdate with the Green kids in chapter 20. There are four main "zooms" you can use.

A single throwaway sentence. "Aegon led them to the gardens, where Rhaegar spent the next two hours turning the story of Aemon the Dragonknight from the previous night into a game of pretend that both cousins delighted in playing, to the point of bitter complaint when it came time for their arms training."

A paragraph. A bit like the above, but with a few extra details. You can capture a little more of the dynamic, like mentioning Rhaegar reluctantly accepting the role of Naerys and the suggestion of Jon being an evil Dornish assassin.

A subsection of a scene. Basically what ended up in chapter 20. There's some dialogue, but the play session is mostly summarized, with the highlights being recapped, and the boys get to break down what they noticed during their play.

A complete representation of the game of pretend, complete with dialogue and play-by-play.

I may be a madwoman, but even I usually don't go as far as #4. On the opposite side of the spectrum, #1 gives almost nothing, characterization-wise. It tells us nothing about Aegon or Aemond's personalities, or how they feel about / relate to Jon and Rhaegar. It's mostly flavor text to indicate time passing between lessons.

#2 gives us a bit more. We can see that the way they've been taught to feel about the Velaryon boys bleeds into their subconscious feelings about Jon. It's a bit more "tell don't show," which (contrary to the stereotypical writing guidance) is fine in many cases; by which I mean, since there are fewer words, the things that the writer chooses to focus on tell you what they think is important, vs a tighter zoom where there are more opportunities to read between the lines or have a different interpretation.

#3 lens gives us the "you're prettier than Helaena" line and the boys fighting over who gets true love's kiss, and you can read those both so many ways! Maybe someone has a tiny crush on Rhaegar. Or maybe Aegon hates the reminder that he'll likely have to marry Helaena someday and wants to escape it by having someone else in the role of Naerys. Maybe it's a power thing--they live in a very patriarchal society, and so they put themselves in the positions of highest power and relegate their lower-ranking cousins to the roles of women/enemies. Maybe the true love's kiss argument is about the power struggle/sibling discord between Aegon and Aemond. That's sort of what I mean about room for interpretation, which I personally (as a reader) find more fun. It's how headcanons are born! And then there's the debriefing at the end with Jon and Rhaegar, where they get to reflect on their own impressions after the playdate, which is something you wouldn't get with #1 or #2. And we get a glimpse at the personality of their Kingsguard for the day, Ser Erryk, who plays a recurring role in their lives now.

I like to use #2 lens for things that aren't as "new" (or interesting, or that don't have important new information to convey). For example, #3 lens is appropriate for their first playdate together. Their second playdate, we might not need that level of zoom; #2 might suffice to show what's changed since last time. Are they more open to Jon being a hero/family? Does Helaena finally get to join? Etc. Basically, #3 is about establishing a baseline, and #2 lets you tell the reader what has changed/progressed after that. And then as pacing increases (several days pass at a time), you can reach for the occasional #1 lens just to add that flavor when indicating the passage of time. Or maybe a dynamic gets shaken up and you can reach for a #3 later on to show how.

It comes down to the intention of the scene/chapter. What is chapter 20 trying to do? It's checking in on the current level of trauma in the wake of the kidnapping (Jon's difficulty sleeping) and level of trust with Daemon (Daemon stopping by to help), it's establishing the new routine for Jon and Rhaegar by showing what a typical day looks like (and where their hatchlings will live), it's setting up the initial dynamic between them and the Green kids, it's demonstrating the boys' skills to the people at court, and it's setting up eventual conflict between Daemon and Jon. Those are all great candidates for a #3 lens!

It just makes for what some people might perceive as a "slow" pacing if what interests them isn't the relationship dynamics but rather whatever they perceive the larger plot to be. (For those for whom that's "getting to the Dance," this story will always be a struggle.) I also probably have a very different perspective because I "know" that ultimately it's 1Mil+ word story if I tell the kind of story I want to. For people used to stories ending around 200-300K, they're perhaps wondering when this will "get to the point."

#resonant musings on writing #look i'm just proud when i remember that i'm allowed to use no2 lens at times #me in my natural habitat is no3 lens for days #for all of you who are here for the molasses know that i love and appreciate you

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mundanemoongirl · 4 months ago

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Maya

I never really post about Maya, despite her being one of my most important characters and unique creations. I have so much to say about her.

Maya is doomed.

I created Maya with two things in mind: she is Daron's attendant and she is doomed. It’s impossible to talk about Maya without her relationship to Daron because even after she’s no longer a part of the story, these two characters are intertwined.

Maya’s backstory is that she trained her whole life to be nothing more than a servant. She excels in her duties, which is why she was sent to attend to Daron. This training resulted in Maya being completely unhinged. She goes as far as to ask Daron to break her arm once because she grabbed onto her when she thought she was in danger. Maya is not Daron’s friend; she’s more like a worshipper.

Other than Daron, Maya is the hardest character for me to write. At first, I made her aggressive to everyone but Daron, but during my second draft I thought that didn’t allign with Spiritwalker values, so I made her more emotionless. She’s often described as having eyes like coal and more often than not only speaks when Daron speaks to her first. This makes it hard to keep Maya from falling into the background, especially as I slowly add in my four other main characters. I fixed this by acknowledging Maya’s fall from being a main character. She questions if she’s good enough and desperately needs to know why Daron would want anyone else around.

As a member of the Spiritwalker Clan, Maya is very similar to Daron, but horrifically intensified. Daron changes throughout the novel and represents the future of the clan. However, Maya represents the clan's imperfect past and is therefore unable to change. This is why she is doomed.

I made an analogy around the middle of the novel where Daron thinks of herself and Maya as opposite ends of a spectrum. They grew up with very different expectations and circumstances, but ended up so similar that those opposite ends almost touch. As Daron changes, she sees Maya as less like herself and questions if she ever was at all.

Maya only cares about Daron and doesn't interact with other characters much, but she does have some banter with Aria, as she is the only character to call Daron out. Aria refers to Maya as "little sheep" because of the way she always follows Daron around. I didn't intend for this, but love the accidental connotation of Aria, a character associated with wolves, referring to Maya as a sheep because Maya ends up being a wolf in sheep's clothing. Aria is also the only character to see that Maya is doomed. Not even Daron sees it until it is too late. Or maybe she doesn't want to see it.

In the end, Maya is her own demise, but the old Spiritwalker ways needed to die. Her death is Daron's push to change the whole clan and not just herself. That's why she is more important than any other character.

Because Maya's character is intertwined with Daron, here is a conversation with both of them that encapsulates her character:

“Do not hold yourself back, Maya. I want you to have fun.” “I will do whatever you ask of me, Lady Daron.” I shook my head. “I do not want you to have fun because I said so. I want you to do it for yourself.” “Myself? I am nothing on my own.”

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