#it's fine if you like it (/gen) but it's just. genuinely a bad game

[mugzymiik]

LAST UPDATED: May 5 2025 - LATEST UPDATE: added to fandoms list + added to the misc facts thing

important

HI HELLO!!! call me Gold. or October or Bug. those r my names but idgaf what im called as long as i can recognize it as me :D (pls don't call me Mugzy though)

i am bigender (transmasc + demigirl)!! probably!! gender has been hard lately!!!!!

he/they + any neopronouns

est timezone

DNI:

homophobics, transphobics, misogynists, racists, sexists, pretty much anyone whos bigoted and/or just an asshole

people who are under 13 (im an older teenager and i dont feel comfortable interacting online with people who arent even SUPPOSED to be online yet)

people who are or support transrace/transabled/transage/transx/transid/whatever the fuck

proshippers

pedophiles

users or supporters of ai """"art""""

supporters of cryptocurrency/nfts of any kind

drama stirrers

supporters/friends of cintagonisupet

supporters/friends of hxngr/constant_hungr/hungry_starving/whatever the fuck he goes by now.

supporters of mirei touyama animations/brebear jones

people named Ry*n or Q**nn. sorry hhh

people who obsess over Dead by Daylight. i have real bad experiences with a person who really likes that game- i wont say full-on dni if you like it because thatd be pretty damn stupid, but if you constantly post about it please dont interact. please also tag it, its a trigger

^same as above, but with Forsaken from Roblox. it's too similar to DBD, also a trigger

trump supporters.

18+ only blogs (im a minor)

byi/remember:

im a minor !!

i have autism, adhd and anxiety, among other things. im heavily disabled in general and i also joke about that a lot- if you dont like it lol sucks to suck , its my experiences to cope with not yours

‼️‼️‼️PLEASE!!! PLEASE!!! DO NOT USE BUG IN ANY SORT OF AUS/STORIES WITHOUT PERMISSION!!!‼️‼️‼️ DRAWING HER IS ABSOLUTELY FINE OF COURSE AND I'LL EVEN LET YOU COME UP WITH HEADCANONS/DECIDE TO GIVE YOUR OC SOME (NON-CANON) RELATIONS TO AER- BUT DO. NOT. USE. HER. FOR. ANYTHING. PERSONAL. WITHOUT. ASKING. I BEG. i do NOT trust very many people to portray her correctly, so if we're not close/i dont know you very well its likely going to be a no to if you can use her or not (there are some special cases however /gen-); im really sorry if this seems rude but she is genuinely a HUGE comfort to me and i feel REALLY uncomfortable when people decide to do their own thing with them without permission and/or keeping me updated

i have a hard time reading situations so if i say anything bad/unneeded/confusing PLEASE let me know i /srs do NOT mean any harm to anyone 😭-

tone tags r needed aaa

NO WARPED FACIAL BODY HORROR AROUND ME PLEASE

i am a childish freak <3

i embrace my cringe (even if i get embarrassed about it sometimes /silly). if i find you going out of your way to harass me or anyone i know for being """cringe""" I'll spam your askbox with OwOs and UwUs i am being completely fucking /srs.

i ignore unsolicited dms from people i dont know too well unless it's important

sometimes i delete asks if i dont know how to respond to them ;; i apologize

i block people who make me uncomfortable

i have a slight tendency to be super dramatic when im upset/distressed- please ignore me whenever i do this, theres an 80% chance I don't actually believe the things i say at those times

i don't really get genuinely aggressive unless someone gets aggressive first- however this has led to a few situations because I Can Not Read Tone Well. please clarify if you mean things in a joking way-

^^^one exception to this is when someone is doing something that's like. wrong. (eg bullying/harassing or being a dick in general or something else Bad) even then i try to stay civil, but still aggressive to the point where i can get my point across. if that makes sense. i can control myself i prommie /sillygen

i have really bad memory issues so if you've been wanting something from me (AND you've already make it clear that you want it; i cannot read your mind y'know /lh) and i haven't gotten to it yet in a bit please gently remind me about it and i will get to it when i can

if i forget to cw tag anything & its absolutely needed please let me know- as said above, i am Very Forgetful

my fandoms:

the pink corruption/tpc

just shapes and beats/jsab

warriors

stray

dandy's world

other smaller hyperfixations, some of which come and go

my tags:

#mmmramblez (rambles)

#art + #animation/#writing/#shitpost

#ask

#drawing ideas + #for later

#kinposting

my fandom tags:

#tpc shorts but also not [tpc]

#golds tpc designs [tpc] (posts with the original tag will be edited with this one soon)

#tpc episode [tpc] (i download tpc eps and put em in a google drive bc i REFUSE to give brebitch more views.)

#trongle stash [tpc + jsab] (if you dont want your posts/art in this tag please let me know & ill remove it/try to remember to not put your stuff in it)

#tpc cats end [tpc]

my au tags:

#bugverse (my main au; basically a tpc rewrite, in a way)

#shattered body but not spirit au (ghost Tsavorite)

#the snake hero au (spy Gold)

#fracture au (corrupted Gold, and the aftermath)

#tpc forest fire au (Bug snaps.) ‼️HEAVY TW. FF IS NOT A FEEL GOOD AU.‼️

#bug-gold swap au

#shapes but the wrong kind au (Gold and Bug except i throw them into Minecraft: Story Mode 👍)

#dubby's world au (BugVerse x Dandy's World)

my blogs:

@mugzymiik-infodump

@pinkcorruption-verysillyedition (tpc incorrect quotes; submissions are always open, probably looking for mods too if it gets active again 😭)

@lemonboynotcavetown (Gold rp blog, very headcanon-heavy)

@8sided-insect (BUG RP BLOG!!!)

@pinkcorruptionconfessions (tpc confessions :D)

@tpc-bugverse

(there r other ones but uhh im not listing em theyre REALLY inactive </3

FRIENDS & MOOTS!!!!! <333:

The Goobers <3

@darkhatkid - the square to our triangle, pentagon and circle 🩵

@many-faced - the pentagon to our square, triangle and circle 💚

@/m00nlit_sage - the circle to our square, triangle and pentagon 🧡

other friemds that are Just As Cool!!! :D

@trash-jsab

@paw-ureyesout

@kitcatttt

@comet--storm

@anonymously-night

@cielos-pasteles

@astronic-fr

@lavthequad

@orchuris

@1nto-the-zone

@cyberrcyanide

@greenpentagon

@taxi-dummy

@cowboytorrenter

@tasty-eggs

@streetmurder

@thesealantern

@frozen-treachery

@octahedral-chaos

@makothedorito

@coresystem

@lesboyajaceare

@snakeualzayden

@fandomt4keover

@something-named-vexxie

@packitupkittycat

me other socials:

discord: @/mugzymiik

youtube: @/mugzymiik

bluesky: @/mugzymiik.bsky.social

instagram: @/mugzymiik

deviantart: @/MugzyMiik

toyhouse: @/MugzyMiik

toyhouse (au edition): @/goldenuniverses

art fight: @/MugzyMiik

sheezy.art: @/MugzyMiik

strawpage: @/mugzymiik

linktr.ee: @/MugzyMiik

roblox: @/MugzyMiik (*i do not have any active alts, and i have no alts with usernames similar to my own. ive had a problem with impersonation before so please tell me if you see someone else claiming to be me and their username is NOT "MugzyMiik")

pixel cats end: @/MugzyMiik

pokefarm: @/MugzyMiik

my discord server!!! (*if youre coming from any of my dandy's world posts, PLEASE ask to join beforehand. i have nothing against any of you /gen, i am just Very Scared Of The Fandom)

tpcblr discord server! (not mine)

miscellaneous stuff i also wanna say cus why not:

i am a Very Heavy Kinnie of Gold from TPC and the triangle player from JSaB :D and also Bug (tpc oc) too

^my headcanons go for Gold Kin™ too :help: i feel.....snak.

^i am perfectly fine with doubles ofc!! in fact I really like interacting with other kins of the same character its Very Inch Restin'™, its like looking in a mirror! /vsilly

i fucking love cheese and ranch

#1 Mother Mother fan

believe it or not my favorite animal is cats not snakes

im so normal about triangles trust

i own Bug hi /silly

i love everything you hate and/or cringe at :)

I AM A SELFSHIPPER WITH GLISTEN FROM DANDY'S WORLD i love him so much i NEED to kiss him

other stuff:

art Status

commissions: closed with exceptions (cashapp is currently fucking me over the head with receiving money)

art trades: open

requests: closed, only open at times when i say theyre open

art info

commission information (DM ME)

other post shit i made

my tpc headcanons

tpc google drive

squeemsh

TPC SHOWDOWN

divider credits

[oblivionbladetd]

The Fatal Flaw of Lily Orchards Entire Body of Work: Immersed like Wearin' Combat Boots on a Floor that has been Mopped at Some Point in the last 24 Hours.

I was saving this, but Lorch showed her whole ass again, so I moved it up.

Now, just the other day, I was playing Cyberpunk 2077. Despite being two dashes from the nearest fast travel station, I summoned up my personal favorite car and proceeded to cover 2/3rds of the map to my next job I felt like doing. Nothing really happened on the way there either. I was not bored, though. I was still having fun. I loved the subtle shifts in the environment, the sound design of the world, just existing in the wonderful world CDPR had made. I was immersed in the experience.

I bring that up because I am getting the feeling that Lily... Kinda just can't. Or, at the very least, doesn't 90% of the time. For even when she likes something, she doesn't seem to look very deep in it.

It goes all the way back to that Steven Universe video. A lot of stuff that is not directly plagiarized is her own very surface level takes. Like the Diamonds as Nazis comparison only works if you don't open your mind to the fact that they are inhuman beings that do actually need to be taught humanity, they don't have being reasonable people.exe on board, for gems are a made to purpose race. The show does even spell it out for you in a song, specifically What's the Use of Feeling Blue?, Yellow doesn't ever try and wave away depression, she's literally asking her "sister" what the point of emotions are as they were never made to ponder them until very recently. Because even they are purpose made Gems.

It becomes quite obvious in her fanfics. Niva gets to be measured in giga-Kyoshis because?... she actively despises the cultures that she'd need to fully internalize to use the bending styles with any level of efficiency? Sure fuck it, who cares about living breathing worlds when FACTS AND LOGIC say it's possible therefore she can! Losing childhoods to bloodbend without a full moon? Sounds like a skill issue, Fucko! There's no reverence, no respect, not even a token gesture of balance. It is possible so she can just do it despite it being straight up improbable.

Her streams and retrospective on pokemon even paint it as somebody that can’t be assed to just let themselves IN! Dragon Age is a very high fantasy game. The game wants you to be part of its world! Meanwhile, we have Lily charging an unwavering, perfectly straight line to the next set of end credits in each game, and from what I can tell of her pokemon retrospective does so with most rpgs. She made it sound like Gen 2 ends at the elite 4, and the other half of the game is a waste.

Now, despite these humongous paragraphs... in a vacuum, all this is fine. Like fuck it play how you want, watch how you feel is right, write what fucking ever. I can't be assed to stand watch as a holy arbiter of how to enjoy things. Though in a vacuum, this is just your everyman just chilling and doing their own thing...

Lily is, in her own words, a career critic. There are expectations I am not wrong for having. I do not expect the world from Lily, but it has to be asked what Lily actually adds to the conversation of Critique! She refuses to experience stories as a fantasy to get lost in. It's swimming advice from somebody who has never been in a body of water. Asking a social recluse how to best socialize. Asking the illiterate to write an award winning novel. Taking culinary tips from someone who would happily fucking starve if not for the chicken nugget and French fry combo. She likes to attack fandom all the time but probably couldn't comprehend being that genuinely invested in fucking anything.

I'd probably even feel bad for her if she wasn't such a vile human.

[fight-nights-at-freddys]

hey there! Feel free to block me if you want, especially if you find this rude or anything. This is actually genuine, i’m NOT being sarcastic or anti.

i’m on the fence about proshipping. On the one hand, don’t like it? Don’t read it. I’ve read some crazy fanfiction that teeters on the line, but that’s not the point. On the other hand, it gets to a point where…you’re just normalizing r@pe or inc3st in fiction. And people say it’s just fiction, but fiction can definitely influence reality! But writing shouldn’t be censored. People should be free to write what they want, however they want. It’s art and should be treated with the same diligence. However, the when, where and how proshipping fanfics are presented SHOULD MATTER. It’s not censorship to require warning tags, or restrict it from young readers more severely.

okay, that’s my little rant lol. Again, i’m not gonna think you hate me if you block me and never answer this ask. Just wanted to get some other points of view and share my own.

dwdw. and thank you for being so respectful and nice abt it <3 anti or not, its always appreciated/gen

and i (personally) have some views that are probably pretty controversial LMAO. Which is pretty much, if something is normalized in fiction and it doesn’t breach over into real life, we’re okay.

say for instance, murder is common in fiction, it has been justified, shown as good, etc etc. practically doesn’t get portrayed or seen as bad. yet irl if someone goes out there and kills a random family, ppl aren’t going to go “oh yeah, thats normal” they’re going to be upset and appalled for what that persons done.

same thing with incest and rape, theres been a lot of fanfics over the years that have those two things, yet both are absolutely abhorrent in real life bc they hurt people, and no amount of normalizing it in fiction will normalize it irl.

And we can even get into old examples like with Greek Mythology where rape and the incest were seen as normal(-ish) in the stories, and still, people think that those things are horrible in real life, so fiction didn’t affect reality there. So, why would it change with like, idk, a wincest or willmike fics.

yes writing can influence reality, but only if you let it. Do research, look at studies, don’t rely on words that a random person made up to tell a story, because then, you are at fault, not the creator or the work. (You spoken generally here, not at you anon)

If you live your life and base your knowledge only on fiction and nothing more, then yeah, your reality is going to be skewed, but again, thats not the fictions fault. - 🧁🍕

ofcofc! so, just to clear up any confusion, being proship JUST means being anti-harassment, and pro-ship and let ship. you don't gotta like what other people ship, you just gotta respect them enough to be able to block and move on.

i def agree, tags should be applied correctly, and mature content should be age restricted, but there's a limit to that imo. like, i wouldn't agree with sites making you show your ID or anything, due to the invasion of privacy, when a lot of the issue of kids being in spaces they shouldn't be could be solved by better parenting.

i also don't agree that certain kinds of fiction "normalize" rape or incest. fiction CAN influence reality, sure, but it's never gonna make you go from "incest bad" to "incest good" just from watching, like. game of thrones, ya know? there would 100% have to be a problem with the individual to begin with to even reach those kinda conclusions (and that's largely a problem with lack of parenting, education, or mental health resources)

my point is, if someone reads a yucky darkfic, and rape/murder/incest/whatever is depicted as good, it is still on you as the viewer as to how you react to it.

again, it's totally fine to think those kinds of fics/ships are disgusting! you're allowed to feel your feelings! but to assume that everyone who reads those fics has even the potential to be bad people just because they read those things is, like. objectively the wrong way to go about things

#/nm ofc - 🏁🎸

[nightcolorz]

For the ask game: ❤️💚💙

YAYY thank u sm for the ask! these questions r so fun. I’m going off of the book fandom btw

❤: Which character do you think is the most egregiously mischaracterized by the fandom?

Louis <3 I think this is an affect of how likable and overtly sympathetic he is in the amc show but I've seen people getting genuinely offended over Louis being described in fandom (and by Anne rice herself) as a manipulative cold hearted ass who uses his perceived vulnerability and gentleness to distract from the fact that he is just as cruel if not crueler then the other vampires. Like Louis does nottt have strong morals or high empathy lmao. Book Louis weaponizes his privilege like a white woman crying to self victimize into making the other vampires look worse them him 😭 . He refuses to kill humans for a while not bcus it hurts him to take life (he actually takes more pleasure in it then most), he refuses bcus he has catholic brain the way a christians who say "how do atheists have morals without god?" do, misunderstanding that most people actually care about other people and dont need an existential threat to encourage them not to hurt others.

His moral compass is self centered and based in up keeping the appearance of self restraint and monk style lack of enjoying himself, not empathy. If a vampire killed u would u feel better if u knew he cried over how much he got off on it then flaunted his suffering over how little he indulged so that everyone knew how piosis he was 😭.

He is way worse when it comes to how he treats his victims then Armand who intentionally seeks out victims who r asking to die or Lestat who tries the vigilante approach. Louis kills innocents and he thinks it makes him better cuz he only does it sometimes and he feels really really bad about himself afterwards. As akasha said (paraphrased) he's the most predatory of them all.

To specify I love book Louis SOOOO much I love how shitty he is that's why it makes me sad when people mischaracterize him as sincere and get gen mad when ppl characterize him how he is in canon (a lying selfish bitch bless his heart). Like ik amc Louis at this point in canon is unambiguously in the right but he isn't like an accurate reflection of how he is in the books 😭 it's not like amc did what anne rice was trying to do more successfully, they just nulled what anne rice was doing in favor of a more likable protagonist. Which is fine, but like, there's no crime in preferring evil to the core horrible asshole Louis of the books.

💚: What does everyone else get wrong about your favorite character?

I think the common fandom perception of Armand as the crazy unhinged "omg I can't believe he actually did that in the books??" sadistic maniac villain guy is funny but not really accurate. Armand explicitly not only tries to avoid violence but dislikes it and finds it hard to comprehend why someone would seek out violence and conflict.

The reason he is always doing fucked up shit isn't out of a lestat-esc desire to cause chaos, it's bcus his highly strung ptsd brain has him convinced that the world is a battle ground and he must always be defending himself and acting out in violence.

Since acting out in violence is a reaction hes been taught throughout his life to be standard and necessary, as violence is something so normalized to him he considers it more of a tedious chore then a last resort measure, he usually reacts to conflict in ways that are objectively extreme to anyone who isn't thinking from his perspective. In qotd he even asks Daniel why men choose to fight in wars, explaining that he doesn't understand the draw of violence (bcus he's not a man) and he can't comprehend the supposed thrill of it.

Then he says this in pl to Gregory

💙: Which character is not as hot as everyone else seems to think they are?

i was going to say Marius but I figure that's too obvious since everyone at this point knows I don't like Marius 😭 so here's an even hotter take,,,,, Lestat ‼️

Only to a degree, I think Lestat is hot and deserves the hype, but i also think he's hot in a different way then a chunk of the fandom does. Based on his book description he's kind of wonky looking, mouth too big for his face, vaguely unnerving shallow pale skin, starved 1700s peasant build but also kind of buff in the unhealthy "i dont eat regularly but I'm strong enough to carry a wolf for miles on my back" sense, weirdly small fucking feet. He def has creepy ass florescent blue doll eyes too. my point is I think when drooling over Lestat the fandom tends to forget this wonkiness in favor of blonde bombshell, Sam Reid chizzled jawline and abs, or conventionally beautiful anime twink, when they should be appreciating lestat in all his weird as shit glory.

[spinnysocks]

blog information & boundaries!

blog information ;

i am an adult but my blog is sfw with strictly no nsfw.

my blog is intended to be for 13+ to 16+ audiences as i repost gorey art and such sometimes; my filter tags for these are #tw blood, #tw gore, #tw death, #tw cat death & #tw animal death. if these tags are filtered, then my blog is safe for under 13s, agere/petre, or anyone sensitive to those topics.

i tag anything and everything that could be triggering / sensitive topic / etc. if i ever miss a tag, please let me know!

my bio contains a ‘I Block’ list which acts as a DNI; it's what it says on the tin, i block those who come under or support that criteria.

asks ; almost always open and i love getting them! it may take me a while to respond but i will in my own time ^^

the character opinion bingo, ship bingo and character ask game are always open too! each have tags for navigation

i feel it is important to add that i am not answering asks about donations at the moment, because of my disabilities and the fact that i can't verify them.

tag games ; i'm almost always happy to participate! if i don't respond it's because i forgot or i didn't want to participate, for example if the game could ask about personal information that i'm uncomfortable with sharing

mentions ; feel free to tag me in anything! just like asks, i'll get to them in my own time, but i see them & appreciate them

boundaries ;

• please tag these :

[ any sui / sh mentions or jokes including off mentions of hurting oneself on purpose. any mention of hurt or deceased small pets or animals (mourning a pet is obviously fine, but i am sensitive to small pet/wild animal abuse and death). pictures of anything deceased (excluding art). talk or mentions of vomit. reblog bait (causes me paranoia). ]

i'm generally forgiving but if these things turn up on my dash untagged frequently then i will have to unfollow you

• filter tags that i would appreciate :

[ insects. clowns. dolls. heavy blood or gore. horror art / photos in general. food stims / pictures of food in moodboards. ]

not as important as the first list, but very much appreciated as these can be uncomfortable for me. just tag as the words please, i have them filtered out ^^

• to note, i usually won't follow back those who post :

[ vivziepop media. mlp. heavy gore content. general unsafe for work content. heavy horror media. k!nk posting. omegaverse. yandere under any circumstances. any other fandoms or media i may not want to see (most are compiled in the blacklist of my moodboard blog). ]

there are exceptions, such as those who tag correctly. also, i don't usually follow empty blogs unless i know you

• regarding my dni, i do not want to be involved in discourse in any way. please do not start arguments with me about what i support because i am not interested.

• something i feel is important to disclose : because of my disabilities, i struggle to respond to interactions quickly or at all. this is just a disclaimer that i am not ignoring you, as my lack of response is a personal difficulty. please don't take it to heart as it is not because of you that i'm not responding, and please do not hold it against me because i cannot control it. i ask you politely not to pressure me into responding quicker, thank you. /explaining

i will say that it is fine to check whether i have seen an ask you sent/a comment you made/a post you tagged me in. just don't tag me multiple times in the same post please, it is paranoia-inducing for me.

also, DMs are perfectly fine, but i genuinely am really bad at keeping track of messages and responding frequently. sorry about that. /gen

• please use tone tags when talking to me! most of my mutuals use them so it's not usually an issue, but i can misunderstand things without them.

• please don't :

[ make “*bites you*” jokes even in a platonic or silly way. trick me, such as during april fools, or make fun of my naivety. ] will be updated as needed!

last updated this post on april 29th.

if any part of this post is hard to navigate, let me know and i will make adjustments. this layout is one that helps me, but if you need me to clarify something or make reasonable changes i gladly will /gen

[taursierbell]

vvvery well then ill come off anon, feel free to block me as you see fit

i said it because even if we dont interact anymore, i hate seeing people get kicked when theyre down. i cant stand bullying and i cant stand condescending bullshit directed at people who dont deserve it. it wasnt a waste of time because any time a person is getting hurt and they dont deserve it, i step in. i dont care if it was my business or not. it wasnt a waste of time because you still deserve to be treated with respect.

ill say it as many times as i have to but you really dont deserve the hatred you receive. everyone in that server kept telling you that we never hated you but you kept believing we did to the point where it felt like you were making us out to be the bad guys. it was incredibly unhealthy on both sides. we hoped that if we just stayed moots with you on tumblr that itd be okay and that you could distance yourself as much as you needed to so that it wouldnt be so overwhelming.

i see that that probably wasnt really issue but possibly several other things. if you want to stop posting content related to alnst then so be it. thats your decision. we will dwell on you because youre an amazing person and there are many fond memories with you and your characters. if you dont want to participate in any of the fan seasons, including sona season, then we will make adjustments for you. whatever you want to do with your characters is completely up to you.

thank you for being a beautiful and wonderful being, and i hope that whatever you choose to do, you do it in good conscience. we dont want to push or annoy you any further than we might be doing (sorry, genuinely. i really do care about you tbf.) but we also just want you to be happy.

/gen, /lh, and /withlove.

- zen (papa, if youre still willing to call me that /nf)

It was you -!!! (Geno sans, CPAU comic dub voice) ((I knew itt.. you do stand up for others and are more vocal about being ..indunno but I guess yk inna way, just the way you typed it (sorry if that's ..weird/creepy), the way that you confront others and such .much braver ig, since you take action a lot))

Sorry for making it seem like I was making y'all the bad guys. Didn't mean to, and honestly shouldn't have done that- that was wrong of me from the start. Though, now I don't think I can remember- well. Given how it was like. Two months ago now? And I do forget a lot so- ...sorry for unfollowing as well (tho I know that no matter the amount of me saying sorry will ever fix things up since I avoid what happened/etc..)

I don't really think I can stop posting alnst/alnst oc content. I'm in too deep, in three gc (AREPH, Setup and Takedown, and then Toxic ysosu)— I have an Au (you probably know or maybe not; Sonic.exe like au, I'm mainly focusing on the hypothetical 3d game in the universe that happens in 2035, called Mor. I remember asking you for permission, but then again.. gah. Fucking sorry for putting onna invisible time limit to the question, as said- for almost everything I've done since I was in the series(what I call servers now) and out of it.... Though you did say we don't talk anymore, and so like. Yeah- haven't answered my question- tho ITS TOTALLY NORMAL! FINE! Just slightly weird?? That like. Just recently you came here to like. Ig cheer me up? When I was "kicked down even more". Tho it is .you. You did say that you can't stand what they have said to me and what/who they were referring to, which is interesting but I won't bother you with anything i have to say) — I still have a lot more to show (so many hidden characters and hidden lore) and post,, and I've been going back to writing like. Flor's lore, and getting some basic ideas down. Besides, I still can't stop thinking of the ocs and such.. as ..said..... I'm in too deep (was basically here from the start.. before s39 was even s39.....ah..kills the wall). And it's not leaving me anytime soon, since I always have thoughts- ideas and such. <- this is what 50+ OCS does to a person

I still have OCS, in the seasons. I still have OCS I want to work on and expand on.

Besides, Eddy and Sebastian have a very close bond. Flor, Oli, Dian, Faisal, and their other siblings are well. Siblings. Four of them don't belong to me. I have OCS in romantic relationships with others, and all of that. I can't just .. abandon it all honestly.

For the Sona Season, I think I'm like. Basically disqualified though? Before I did whatever I did, I kinda did ask to be in round1 so things can end faster for my sona. But then again. <- is a whiny person. <- impatience, which is wrong. <- generally a ""ugly"" one. So I just decided to do what I did in the server basically— and just leave the Garden & Stage thing. ..tbh I did do a song-comic, but I doubt you want to see anything I do now (NOT trying to make you see what I do. Waste of time. And again in the previous ask you sent you used past tance and so that practically means that we are thru, huh? Along with us not talking to each other besides those two asks you sent to this blog..along with the Seb song. But I don't think that you and the others don't want to touch anything made by me or are related to me! Which I totally get)

You all have NEVER annoyed me or pushed me, at all (only ever asked me for some small things, or actually nothing at all). IM the one who's annoyed and pushed you all (too many ideas, too many posts I've tagged as ocs- I've tagged y'all in, etc etc. basically at those times and still now, it's just me talking to a wall). It's.. stupid to apologize for what I've been doing the most.

Also don't .. apologize for caring actually. I don't know what to say, or have anything to say besides that.. still can't fucking believe that you are still. That you still allow me the chance to call you papa...stupid of me to have mentally clocked the community as a family(ish?only a few) to me. since it ended up with me being .not continuing that sentence. but yeah, really stupid of me to have you all as family when we ended up like this.which is unhealthy as you said! What type of friendship is like person A: your my friend! / Person B: (you are like a sibling to me. You are family.) ???? Certainly not a working healthy one. Because I became so very impulsive when .not finishing that either.

[jewishbarbies]

So I debated for a long time whether to send this or not bc I explicitly do not want to equate what's happening in I/P to fiction or in any way trivialize the very real people who have died

But I find it incredibly ironic (in a bad way) how the leftist circles screaming about Zionism are the same circles that are STILL openly proudly fans of tv shows/books/movies that depict war in genuinely nuanced ways. Ways that EXPLICITLY contradict the black and white narratives exploding in leftist spaces.

So like. Did y'all miss the point or do you think nuance is for fiction only? There are innocent civilians on every side in war and civilians shouldn't be blamed for the actions of their governments --but only in fiction? In the real world it's fine to celebrate civilian casualties as long as they're Israeli? Guilt by association in fiction is bad but every Jewish person should be held accountable for the Israeli military???

Like I'm intentionally not naming any fandoms bc this SHOULDN'T be about fandoms, but the hypocrisy is killing me. They claim to be fans of the "killing civilians is bad even when they're from the Bad Culture™" shows but they're out in the real world denying (or worse celebrating) Oct 7th? They love the fictional characters who say "killing civilians is bad" but can't stand Jewish people mourning the civilians in israel? What???

(again, I'm really not trying to make this extremely real problem about fiction. I just mean the complete lack of self awareness I see every day has me ready to explode. )

no, i get what you mean. i definitely think there's a link between the massive drop in critical thinking and media literacy and the fandomization of real world issues. there's some statistic that gen z is the most politically active of most previous generations and while that's inherently a good thing, they're not engaging with politics and conflicts in responsible ways. they'll do a lot of organizing for a cause here in america and get something done, and then think they can do the same thing for international plights and just end up stepping on everyone's toes, inadvertently perpetuating that america-centric attitude they claim to be against, bc they don't listen.

a lot of people these days refuse to engage with media in the way it's intended and therefore ignore or flat out miss its entire message. you'll have a movie/show/book/whatever about the nuances of war, like the hunger games (which gen z is so completely misinterpreting), and how easy it is to become the person you're fighting against if you let yourself do the things they do eye for an eye style, and they'll come away from that comparing hamas to katniss. it makes no sense within the context of the book's narrative, yet that's the conclusion they draw because they refuse to properly engage. it contradicts their second-hand anger. they're mad about their own shitty life in the states and the powerlessness we all feel here as our rights are being threatened every single day, and they'll look for somewhere else to put it all. so they butt in to situations they don't belong in and make it worse like bulls in a china closet.

bottom line is that they see what they want to see because of their lack of self reflection and self awareness, thus allowing their lack of media literacy, critical thinking, and confirmation bias run the way they think and believe. they've taken "it's fiction" to the point where none of them would pass a basic english class and now palestinians and hamas are all blorbos in The Real World Show.

[stellareveriey]

My Positive Rambly Thoughts About The Our Wonderland Arc 5 Finale

(Spoilers for OW Arc 5,bad grammar,self-indulgent/personal thoughts -nothing crazy though!-)

Here are my thoughts on the Arc 5 Finale of Our Wonderland and the game as a whole! (This is long and very rambly as I was still processing everything that happened!)

the beginning of the end. I like the group of four’s interaction in the cabin. it was nice. poor iggy though,remembering what happened. gidget too (even though they caused it). gen and orlam remembered things too but were too caught up in arguing with each other lmao. good on gidget for breaking that up.

“don’t I…deserve to be warm?” yes! you absolutely do iggy! unfortunately I had to choose the neutral option since I think my game glitched out my progress and my affection was too low for everyone..(it’s fine I’ll make up for it later!) at least iggy realizes that he needs to focus on himself for once! good!

I can’t lie when the screen went dark and Iggy mentioned being wrapped in something hard,I thought it was because Bucks got him (I was wrong of course).

“good morning starshine! the earth says hello!” lmao I love genzou (/platonic).

I liked the shot of the door opening and everyone’s reaction to it. when I saw the monster I had no clue what it even was at first and denied the idea that it could be bucks out of bewilderment (oh how wrong I was…). “we don’t stay long after that.” yeah I wouldn’t either! genzou leaving his beanie as good luck was cute and bittersweet. not going to lie I was kinda frustrated when Iggy’s friends acted reluctant about Iggy having a weapon (he can’t have self defense?? and then he ended up saving them w/ a necklace anyway!).

the “defeat it” part caught me off guard (like a lot of things in this arc would/pos). the game is very good at creating a sense of dread! and then..there was that monster that I thought was crazy even for wonderland standards. the last way I thought arc 5 bucks would look,the monster design is incredible though and that roar is terrifying! the fight scene was very impressive! it’s cool how it’s so dynamic even just using sprites and effects! also THE OFW REFERENCE?! that’s awesome to see tied in the main game again!

Iggy’s hand being cut off while using the doll to reach bucks genuinely made me gasp (the sketchy artstyle of that scene looks nice though!). the screen going red after that is really effective for conveying pain and terror. the sight of his injured hand is brutal. seeing the flashback of the group as kids and bucks and Hunar being cute gave me the strongest emotional whiplash ever. i felt bad for Bucks getting called a monster by her friends,brothers,and even her husband later down the line. Her going from happy to miserable. Her saying she hates her life and breaking down.

“You’re not a monster,Bucks…So please just come home…” Her seeing Hunar in Iggy and hugging him was beautiful. And then…finding the tree. God. Saydie never deserved any of this. She was a baby. I can’t imagine how Carrot felt while drawing that,seeing it uncensored. That tree is the absolute worst. Iggy being seen as a vessel is so sad. Him getting his soul separated from his body was not something I expected at all.

The “Child Of Nihility” stage is my absolute favorite part of this arc and probably the entire game overall. It’s so bright and peaceful. Child Saydie is adorable. Seeing her reunite Iggy with his (younger) friends and himself was really heartwarming. I adore when a story has the main character talk with the younger version of themself in person. Side note: Child Genzou wishing he could see Iggy again was so sweet. The music starting up already made me emotional since I already recognized the song but the visuals and Saydie’s dialogue made even more so. Iggy breaking the 4th wall and making his own choice was remarkable!

Him cutting down the tree was both tragic and incredible. Seeing the creatures of Wonderland fade away too. Young Iggy’s wish of wanting his friends to be happy forever. Best animatic / cutscene in the whole game!

A younger Iggy seeing his childhood friends again in the forest felt like a fitting way for them to leave Wonderland behind. The Saydie doll speaking back and being kept makes me like she’s not fully gone which is bittersweet to me. This scene and the epilogue makes me think their lives got reset but I could be wrong.

The neutral end epilogue. Bucks and Hunar leaving their own wedding was funny and sweet. Good for them! Also Hunar is pretty in his dress! And the better reactions to things in childhood! Past Iggy apologizing for what he did! Letting Orlam sit with him! Being with Genzou in the hospital! It’s all so great! Everyone’s new futures too! Iggy even having a better connection with his friends and discovering himself! The epilogue even ends with a Our Cinderella tie in! I love it all! Beautiful!

Final thoughts. This arc and game was a emotional rollercoaster in the best way possible! Making me feel sadness,anger,joy,sympathy,and more! Everything is so well executed! Art,music,dialogue,story,all of it! I especially loved the animatic / cutscenes parts! Overall,this was an amazing way to end an amazing game. I’ve loved it since starting it in February 2023 to now :)! Through playing OW,I’ve even gotten my artistic motivation back and have been inspired to get back into storytelling/series making! For that,I thank you,Carrot! I hope to experience more of your work in the future (no pressure! you definitely deserve the break)! Have a great day and year! ❤️ @just-a-carrot

[lastoneout]

hi idk if you're a huge kalos fan but how are you feeling about the direct

I haven't watched it yet, but ngl Kalos wasn't my favorite OR my least favorite pokemon game, I was pretty neutral on it overall. My main complaint was how annoying the map was to traverse before you got fly, but aside from that it was fine, introduced some cool pokemon and had a decent plot. Tbh for the next Legends game I would have preferred Jhoto, but eh. It's not a huge deal to me.

My real issue is that it's a little hard to get excited about it when I know how bad crunch is at Game Freak and that despite saying they were reevaluating their tight release cycle bcs like, ScarVi was borderline unplayable at launch and Arceus got abandoned the second they were done with it despite being the most popular game in years....I just have no faith that this game will be good, or at least it won't be anywhere near as good as it has the potential to be :/

I hope I'm proven wrong tho, and I don't think it's wrong to be excited about the game, something something no ethical consumption and I'd be a major hypocrite if I told people to drop any game company that has bad practices bcs almost all of them do, I just can't get hype. I was really, really hoping Game Freak would slow the hell down and stop making new games for a couple of years, put all of their focus on gen 10 and release that maybe in 2026 or 2027, but nope gotta make that money even if the games we release are falling apart at the seams and our devs are working on two or three projects at once.

And like, given the current trend in decreasing quality I'm genuinely unsure if the game is even going to be functional enough to be worth playing, especially since I figure to hit a 2025 release they probably started working on this right after Arceus came out, and there has simply not been enough time to make this game good. Plus there were a lot of points in ScarVi where I legit just wanted to put the game down and stop playing entirely bcs the graphics and glitches and framerate drops started to make me annoyed and dizzy, and once I was done with the main story I lost like all motivation to keep playing(I like finishing my dex, I did it in Sw/Sh and Let's Go and have almost done it in BDSP and Arceus, but I don't care about ScarVi's dex at all), and I haven't even bought the DLC yet. Tbh I'm probably not even gonna pre-order this, I'm waiting till it's out to decide if I want to buy it or not.

Anyway sorry to be a buzzkill, I don't fault anyone for being excited, I've loved Pokemon for more than half my life, it helped me meet my fiancé, it really means so SO much to me, so I get it, but like....I think I love the series too much to get excited for this. Seeing what Pokemon is turning into is just...painful and sad. I hope y'all enjoy it tho, and who knows, I could be wrong, maybe it will be fantastic and super polished and we can all breathe a sigh of relief bcs they got their shit together! That would be nice.

Edit: I do want to say I'm glad it has been 3 years instead of the usual 2, and I'm VERY glad they didn't announce gen 10, but unless the scope of this game is narrow as fuck and they also don't release until like November-December 2025 AND this team was NOT the same team who worked on ScarVi's DLC that is still not enough time to make a game with the scope they've been establishing as their new baseline. TOTK took SIX years to finish. Elden Ring's DLC was built on top of an existing game and it still took TWO whole years just to make it. Most open-world games take a really, really long time. Adding an extra year is great, but they need to be taking a lot longer than that between games. This is a step in the right direction, but it's not enough to inspire confidence.

[embellishedbookworm]

so, about alpha sapphire.

it's short. like, i beat the main game in 23 hours. like, sure, there's a 3rd of the map i haven't been to, but i was over leveled for so much of the game that i was right on target for the league. i've been through the hoenn league plenty of times now, but not this version. and i've never taken on its post game form, because emerald doesn't have one of those.

but genuinely, despite how short it is, it has a ton of heart. a lot of that comes from it being a gen 3 remake, but they enhanced it plenty, and i'd say it's probably the more fun way to visit hoenn if you want to play them all.

it never takes itself too seriously, the bad guys aren't even actually bad, and it even looks nice. omega ruby and alpha sapphire are just the better of the gen 6 games.

which, is sad.

you basically get 2 rivals in oras, the boy/girl you didn't pick, and wally, and you know what? they actually managed to improve them a lot from their gen 3 original versions. the kalos rivals are. fine, i guess? i don't know, they're not great. i don't even remember what their names are.

at this rate i'll be all caught up on pokemon in no time. well, compared to the 50+ hours i put into gen 4 and gen 5 games, anyway.

[systemofcryptids]

can we not make fun of other systems? please?

please.

got called delusional for an opinion I don't have. for trauma I *do* have. screenshotted something I had said on reddit without censoring the username or anything and used the opportunity to bash on reddit in general. implied every single person who uses reddit thinks they're better than everyone else. then blocked me when I replied with their post to clarify and apologize.

i was already overwhelmed by just... existing, earlier. now it's worse.

for the record:

- i do not think systems with insys dating are doing anything wrong, nor is it incestuous. I'm happy for y'all, I genuinely think that's wonderful and I'm glad you're happy /gen

- i personally do not have any in my system, and have trauma responses to the idea of that happening *in our system*. not in other systems.

- selfcest trauma is real, even if selfcest isn't. being shown explicit selfcest material as a child when two of you are fictives of the same character *that that material is of* fucks you up.

- you can use reddit and be normal. I use it every once in a while to see different experiences people have with DID, or to vent. or to post about games i like. I do think most of reddit is pretty bad, I agree with the gist of that sentiment. but not every single person who uses reddit or goes on r/DID thinks they're superior and better than everyone else. somebody had asked a question about little to none insys dating, I answered with my unique experience, read through other answers i thought were interesting. normal stuff.

i am a pretty abnormal system myself. part of the charm is seeing how varied we all are as a community.

can we not like... do. this. please. thanks. I know (again) that the person this post is about won't see it since they blocked me and that's fine. but it's nice to have a reminder that life is weird and systems are weird and not everyone conforms to what you think is normal or a normal trauma response, and sometimes you only think someone has an opinion because........ you assume they have that opinion. even if they don't.

I ended up deleting my original comment on reddit because the reply saying they were ethically against insys dating "as well" rubbed me the wrong way and made me feel gross. so thanks for letting me see that comment I guess. not so much thanks for assuming I agreed with them.

I feel gross.

[winxngasks]

And finally for the redesigned/reworked Winx Club next-gen kiddos, we have Tecna and Timmy's kids! I am so happy to finally have finished all of these guys and gotten the chance to work with them again, as like stated on some of the other posts it has been entirely too long and I feel bad for neglecting them for such a long time. The focus for this project was mainly on the children of the main Winx fairies, however I do want to eventually do these for the rest of my Main Universe kiddos, especially because there are some newer character concepts I never got around to introducing before. But, I hope you guys have enjoyed what I have worked on so far!

Here is some more info and notes for these three kiddos!

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- Eleanor "Ellie": 16 years old, daughter and oldest child of Tecna and Timmy, older fraternal twin to Theo. Citizen of Zenith, and Fairy of Electricity. Tallish height, slim and petite build, chin-length and straight light brown hair with bangs, teal eyes, pale skin, freckles across her fair, cat-eye shaped glasses, prosthetic left forearm. Life at the beginning was hard for Ellie and her brother, as they were born missing part of one of their limbs; part of her arm for Ellie and part of his leg for Theo. It was a little easier in the sense that they were born that way instead of having to adjust to it, but that does not mean that it was not still difficult for them, especially as some of the other kids their age did not know how to act appropriately around them. Eventually they were made custom upgraded prosthetics by their parents, and have adjusted to them just fine with all their fancy functions. Inspired from her parents Ellie is a young genius in her own right too, having a knack for building and fixing machinery like them and always has all her electronics completely customized by her. She is more of a meek and shy kind of person, having some troubles talking in front of others so she usually saves that job for her teammates to save herself the awkwardness. One of the only people who can bring out more of her relaxed playful side is Theo, as they have been through a lot together and are naturally very close, with them sometimes putting their nubs in each other's face to playfully annoy the other.

- Theodore "Theo": 16 years old, son and middle child of Tecna and Timmy, younger fraternal twin to Ellie. Citizen of Zenith, and a specialist at Red Fountain. Tall height, toned build, chin-length magenta hair that is pushed to the side with an undercut, yellowish green eyes, pale skin, left ear pierced, rectangular-shaped glasses, prosthetic right lower-leg. As he was born without part of his right leg, he had more of a difficult time than Ellie at the beginning as it was hard for him to walk. He had to use mobility aids for a while before he got his prosthetic, and though he rarely has complications nowadays as he is able to train and perform Specialist duties with ease, there are still somedays where it is hard for him. In contrast to his parents and twin, Theo is a very expressive and sociable person, who loves to try and connect with any potential new friend. Though he puts on a cheerful act, he still has a lot of insecurities deep down that tend to make him more of a people-pleaser as he desperately craves other people's genuine respect and approval. Though not quite to the inventive side, he is just as much of a big nerd as the rest of his family, mainly for video game competitions as he is very competitive at those. A little naive when it comes to figuring out if people are messing with him or not, though he is usually quick to figure it out before anything gets too far.

- Lara: 14 years old, daughter and youngest child of Tecna and Timmy. Citizen of Zenith, and future Witch of Chemicals. Short height, slim build, slightly past chin-length salmony-orange hair, hazel eyes, fair skin. Born very sickly and premature, she has always been one of the shortest girls of her peers despite coming from such a tall family. This used to cause a lot of insecurity for her, but overtime she has learned not to focus on it too much, instead focusing on other things that set her apart in a positive manner. Resourceful and a quick-thinker, thus she tends to be the calmest in stressful situations than either of her older siblings. Like the rest of her family she is naturally very smart and a bit of a nerd, but in her case it is more for science subjects, especially for chemistry as it is her favorite to study. A bit of a late bloomer when it comes to magic, she only just discovered her magic core and is the last of her friends to do so. Though she still has a lot to study and learn before she can attend Cloud Tower in the next couple of years, together with her best friends Gaia and Cassie she is excited for the day they all gain their transformations and get to attend school in Magix together.

[crystalelemental]

"megazardx2: I’m so glad you enjoyed it, especially since you didn’t like the Gen 7 games much at all. Can’t wait to hear your thoughts!"

Then this is as good a time as any! Pokemon Sun and Moon anime thoughts, as much as I can stuff in there.

As mentioned in my last recap, the only history I have with the anime is vague recollections from the original seasons, and XY which we watched just before this. And of them, Sun and Moon pretty quickly got itself into top spot. I really like the friend group, and I think Ash works best as just some kid with the others. It feels much more natural to him than the big hero thing of XY, which was overplayed and frankly silly.

This hasn't really gone anywhere. The friend group remains the strongest aspect, I love them. Mallow's probably the favorite of the bunch, but there's not a single one I disliked. Lillie and Sophocles precious, Kiawe and Lana are hilarious, Mallow just vibes the hardest with how I am as a person so like...I get it girl. Even Team Rocket was far more tolerable this season, back to being mostly ineffectual villains with more mild goals and significantly fewer war crimes committed. Bewear helps a lot. I think the decision to swap out their old blasting off routine to Bewear's myriad entries was divine.

Nanu and Acerola had a great little arc. They were a ton of fun while present. I didn't really click with Olivia but she's fine. Same with Hala, who felt like he could've done more. I did wind up liking Hapu, which is very unexpected. Faba's alright, Wicke doesn't really do much, and I have many thoughts, none of them particularly nice, about Lusamine. That leaves the last two clusters.

Kukui and Burnet are a delight. They're adorable, they're hilarious, big fan all around. I am very glad they ditched Kukui's secret just before the final match, I don't know if I would've been able to stomach it through that. The Masked Royal thing was always a bit goofy, and this is naturally no exception. But their whole dynamic is cute.

Guzma. Ooooh Guzma. You got hit with the same bat as Lusamine. From a character in the main games with a lot of going on that you could infer, to...literally just some pissbaby loser who's mad he can't win. Dude, this is like the least compelling villain story. I do like the attempt to use Golisopod as a sort of showcasing of that same mentality, but it's a nice artistic touch on a generally bad approach. I do not like Team Skull at all in this. Or, for that matter, Ilima. Who I legitimately forgot about until this moment. Ilima just doesn't do much of anything. Oh, he's just soft-spoken and nice and talented and all the ladies love him. Sure. But he's no Ryuki. Who wins the award for funniest one-shot character in the series.

The Ultra Beast episodes were solid. I generally like the idea behind it. It's goofy, but it fits functionally. I don't strictly mind why they function in the way they do, but I'd be lying if I said the explanation being "It's the kid in Lusamine coming out" didn't rub me the wrong way given everything else about her character. Mostly I think what the anime nails are character moments. Sophocles getting over his fears and starting to appreciate battles, Mallow getting established as a talented chef in her own right with a strength in reading people's wants, Lana being...genuinely just talented at everything? Like, girl doesn't get enough time to shine because they often pass it off to Kiawe or Ash, but she's legitimately good at like everything they wind up doing.

The tournament was...interesting. I wasn't sure how much I'd like it, given how quickly they belted through top 16 and top 8. But admittedly? It works. It truncates a lot into the critical moments. Watching XY, the battles could be interesting, but often it's sort of a...going through the motions? Like okay, yes, Ash vs Sawyer was generally a good time, but there were plenty of matchups that amount to very little in the grand scheme. Ash vs. Alain, I would be willing to argue, is largely forgettable. Nothing all that interesting happens until the final Greninja vs. Charizard matchup, but I don't really respect Charizard, and I hate Ash Greninja, so it's not like I cared. But it's telling that the entire match and all the episodes in it could've been boiled down to about those 5 minutes with little lost in terms of impact or importance.

I think that's what Sun and Moon nailed best in this arc. The battles are just the parts that matter. Ash's Rowlet has one real rival, and that's Hau's Decidueye. Just do those two, and it's a nice, condensed fight. That ends kinda lame because man it really kinda feels like Hau should've won that, or they should've waited to call it a while so it didn't feel like taking something from him. Mallow has low confidence in her battling and tries to shy away from a battle she expects to lose, and Lana calls on her to make an effort. We only need the one Pokemon for that. Sophocles is learning to put his all into battles and wants to stand his ground against Kiawe, and again, we can do that in one. We need a showing of Guzma being a vicious trainer in how he battles, and boy do you get the point in the 1v1 with Lana. They do really well at linking up just the emotional connection part of the battle. Even in 2v2 matches this holds, as they quickly get to Kiawe's ace in Turtonator, and eliminate Scizor in two seconds for a story beat. It's well done! Even Kukui and Ash, which is a much longer fight, leads off the the big emotional showdown of Torracat vs. Incineroar, but both are recalled before a victor is decided leaving you waiting for the return and how that'll play out. Even after that, they manage to pivot into Tapu Koko vs. Pikachu, which was another battle that needed to finish (though I am slightly sad we don't know Kukui's actual sixth Pokemon).

The Pokemon just feel like they have real connections, not just within their team but with their rivalries. Which is...more than I can say for XY. Every major rivalry in Pokemon was Greninja vs. someone else's ace. None of that team mattered otherwise. They had cute dynamics, I really liked Hawlucha and Noivern. But what role did Talonflame play once it evolved? It ceased to matter. Why bring Goodra back? Ash just needed a sixth Pokemon, no other reason. Comparatively, when Naganadel comes back, it doesn't have a strict rival, but it's the first time it's battling and it came back through dimensions to see them again, and you get how much that means. This season did really well with connection and emotional impact for pretty much everyone involved, and it did it in a cute slice of life-y way rather than trying to big up drama to make someone matter. Which I generally vibe with a lot more.

I'm trying to think of other things to talk about but am kinda running dry. I'm sleepy, we did a lot of chores. The point is, Sun and Moon was really good. Big fan. Unfortunately, my wife and I discussed where to go next. And we have reached consensus. My wife never watched anything before this. And Journeys is more of a recap thing from all accounts, visiting characters and places from everywhere. So we will, unfortunately, be going all the way back to the beginning. I have acquired veto power over episodes if I remember them sucking shit. The original Kanto stuff is only two seasons, so hopefully this will go quickly, but from here it's sequential. I think the intent is to actually go through everything. Brace for impact. And salt. Because save for exactly five episodes I look back upon fondly, I don't know how I'm going to tolerate original Ash, or Brock and Misty.

[toonilumi]

gen 5 is so good i'm so glad it's getting the love it deserves in current day. bc holy shit being a unova fan like. 5-6 years ago sucked ass bc ppl would always talk about how trash it was and like. was it rlly?? they keep mention the pokedex but it's fine?? gen 2's pokedex is so *so* much worse. it feels like gen 5 was way ahead it's time bc you can rlly tell pokemon fans were *not* ready for something new and gen 5 was something new. this is why i also defend gen 7 w/ my life bc it was also something new (lack of gyms and the first one to handle evil teams differently) and why i'm worried for gen 9 bc it also does a lot of new things. also i don't think the anime helped gen 5's case much. however i can't hate it bc the gen 5 anime is what introduced me to pokemon (another reason why gen 5 is my beloved)

i know the war between regions is kind of old news at this point but it hasnt left, just changed. remember when everyone hated kalos when it came out only to be begging for it to come back a few years later? its already happening with galar.

there are valid reasons to hate gen 9 so far (let it be known the game was very much unfinished + we've had to wait MONTHS for home compatibility when it really should've been there in the first place) but i think sometimes the fandom needs to take a step back and go "is my hatred of this region because of a genuine flaw of the region, a personal opinion, or because its not something im used to" because different doesnt mean bad. legarc is a pretty large departure from pokemon games as we know it and everyone loves that.

[asteroid-fruitcup]

me dropping some more lore about me myself ehehe

random fact about me - i’m like REALLY sensitive to tone for some reason ;-;

sometimes this is good! for example this makes me an EXPERT at finding word connotations! random ass words like idk… crackle. it’s a very crunchy word and like i feel the word in the front of my face almost and it’s very sharp and bright, do you hear me

sometimes this is bad! like one of my besties will message me with like one less emoticon and I’ll have a nervous breakdown thinking they’re angry at me or something!

because of this i also need like constant clarification on things ;-; sometimes someone will tell me to do something in a slightly too empty tone and that might cause me to ask a LOT more about what they asked me to do because i get really scared they’ll be angry if i mess up

(the post after this is just me ranting about various different experiences so um yeah feel free to skip that)

it’s annoying like my mom was really tired once and she asked me to go grab her a glass of water or something and i genuinely thought i was in trouble and then she just. took the water and said thanks.

it’s also annoying because since I can tell when other people are annoyed I can see VERY clearly through their whole “nah it’s alr i’m good” type wall they built BUT i also know that most of the stuff I would do to help them would make them feel worse so i have to walk away and feel infinitely bitter about myself

there was this one time in sixth grade (bOOOOO) where i signed up for this after school art thing! that was cool in theory but then i had to miss the first two meetings because i was sick :/

so i come in with newly acquaintanced Lemon (if you remember who they are yes. them) and we’re sitting at our table together. I still had my backpack on because i don’t know ig I forgot to take it off or something

this nice kind lady comes up to me and she’s like “hey put your backpack under the table! we’ll be here for a while!” and i mean she said it in a sweet voice and stuff and i had a perfectly good day so idk what it was that caused this but I just. broke down crying.

and istg i didn’t even know WHY i was crying she was all “omg are you okay!” and i was reassuring her “yeah yeah i’m fine sometimes i cry randomly like this but seriously i had an amazing day this just happens sometimes for no reason”

luckily they understood and lemon (suprisingly) calmed me down a little bit so uh yeah dw guys I was fine

another moment i remember! i usually stay after school for a while and the rules on how long I was allowed to stay were always changing and it was annoying asf

so anyways around the beginning of the year ‘ chilling at some random lunch table playing one of those shitty bubble shooter games on my phone when one of the supervisors comes up to me (context all the supervisors at my school except like this one cool guy with dyed hair and shit are assholes like half the time and kind of naturally sound annoyed yk what i mean) and says “hey you need to get off campus its something o clock”

attempting to justify my position, i respond with “yeah but i thought i was allowed to stay until the library closes” and idk what happened but i decided to go to the main office to just. ask.

so i head to the office and i’m all confident mildly annoyed because i just got kicked off campus again

i have a polite conversation with the person at the desk and they’re just like “sorry it’s whatever the supervisors say” and my ass STARTED TEARING UP and the whole omg are you okay yeah im fine that just happens sometimes thing happened and I was fine but then I broke down again when i got picked up and then cried more in my room at home so um

i’m fine now trust 0v0

apologies for the rant but yeah question if you stayed with me the whole post but does this have any connection with like. neurodivergence? because i remember hearing about like adhd and rejection sensitive dysphoria so does this have anything to do with that? /gen

*spontaneously combusts* weee

[jdscanvas]

CYBERPUNK 2077 FIRST IMPRESSIONS---WHY DID I NOT PLAY THIS SOONER?!? Almost one year after I purchased the PS5 Ultimate Edition of Cyberpunk 2077, I have finally decided to dive in. And honest to god I am quickly falling in love with the game.

First of all, yes it's unfortunate that the previous-gen console ports were so disastrous, but that wasn't the developers' faults. That sort of thing never is. Secondly, I imagine a lot of this bad rep has slowly but surely waned away not only with the superior console ports, but also the release of Edgerunners and the Phantom Liberty DLC. I don't necessarily believe this game will end up with a Fallout New Vegas level of retrospective acclaim, seeing as how the PC version on launch was already well regarded, but this is most certainly a well crafted intricate game. I hope CD Projekt Red's staff feel the 8+ years this project took (Witcher 3 and its DLCs released in that time) were worth it.

So at the moment, here are some of my thoughts on the game so far. Night City is gorgeous, as is this entire art style. It's definitely cyberpunk, but it's far from generic. They really lean into the street life/night life aesthetic while also injecting a bit of 1980s retrofuturism and some genuine Asian elements that go beyond generic vaporwave backdrops of sakura trees. Lots of personality, in both characters, environments, and weapons. Soundtrack has a lot of techno bangers too, a lot of glitch effects.

Superior gun selection, and I've only scratched the surface. Plenty of different ones to pick from, and not only are there a series of interchangeable mods, there are also one of a kind variants. In this game they're called "Iconic" weapons. It would seem the weapon mechanics found in games like Outer Worlds and Far Cry 6 are becoming standard in these types of open world games, and I am all for it. Plenty of options, customization, and the joy of the hunt that is one-of-a-kind variants. Even in a game like New Vegas that only had set mods for most of the guns that weren't interchangeable, this was something I really appreciated in that game especially compared to Fallout 3. Happy to see this is commonplace in these sorts of games.

I have similar thoughts on the clothing options. Lots to pick from. Some have their own stats, and some are one of a kind. Again pretty much what should be the standard for apparel in these games even if the player never gets to create their own custom outfits. Healthy mix of goofy and high end fashion.

Typical perk tree, most of the ones I've acquired are stat based but they try. They have conditional temp stat increases and I know there are abilities that can be acquired later in the perk trees. There are Five attributes that control character skills. (I think there's a hidden Sixth attribute but i'm not terribly far in yet). Cool is one of the more intriguing ones, controls perks related to finesse and charisma (imagine Speech in Fallout) some maneuverability perks are here, others are in the Reflexes skill tree. I recognized some of the perk images as references to other sci-fi fiction. I haven't gotten any of the super cool perks yet, but that's to be expected seeing as how I'm only maybe 10-15 hours in.

This is a pretty good story so far for what it is. I'm honest to god already resonating with the story's themes of legacy, corporate oppression, (maybe a bit of trans-humanism), and "Make it Big" dreams being challenged by harsh reality. V is much like Commander Shepherd; the happy medium between a player avatar who you shape and a character with their own history and personality. And it even pulled the "first few hours are a prologue" card. And I was fine with it. I know when most people think of a prologue in an RPG, they think of Kingdom Hearts 2 (the Final Mix being my #1 favorite video game). But here it's better paced. Introduces you to V (and the backstory you chose for him/her) and lets you get to know some characters just enough that you feel bad when things go wrong. And in that entire time, you're enjoying some high octane action as early as the first hour. Crazy stuff happens as you learn more about Night City and its place in this world. Plus you still have the option to do some side missions if you feel like it. In other words, Keneau Johnny Silverhand doesn't show up until after these first few hours. Basically by this point, you've been introduced to every major mechanic as well as the world. You know the stakes, you know where you are, you know how to get from Point A to Point B. It does what any well designed and well paced game should.

Hacking is intuitive, quick, and of course upgradable. Distract enemies, hack computers, hack ENEMIES, etc. You have a set number of points that you spend to perform these actions, which recharge over time. Not a bad way to balance the mechanic. And you can upgrade how many max charges you have.

Naturally, with this being cyberpunk, you can unlock cybernetic upgrades. Some are stat buffs, and some are even weapons that come out of your body. I appreciate that extra mile the devs went. It is awesome in these kinds of games to get cybernetic implants, but it's interesting when they aren't relegated to just being another flavor of upgrade/perk.

You can go through video files and scan them for clues. Rewind them, pause them, etc. Very nice mechanic, it's always fun to play detective. Arkham City definitely faired well with sequences that were similar to this (even Arkham Knight, underwhelming by comparison, had some great detective sequences).

Like most Western RPGs, V has access to unique dialogue choices. They go the extra mile by having unique dialogue depending on both your attributes AND your character background. And sometimes you can just buy off certain folks. That's always nice. One time to progress a quest I even killed a Braindance dealer. Glad to have options.

User Interface has a clean aesthetic, clean enough to be readable but injected with some personality too. I love the blue and red and the font choices. They remind me of earlier cyberpunk games like System Shock 1 (which i wouldn't recommend, 2 is awesome though). It does feel like the interface is what V "sees". Somewhat diegetic, but not exactly the Dead Space UI. The menus are fine, but the inventory does this sub-menu thing that some earlier CRPGs did in the 90s and late 2000s (and hell even Outer Worlds and No Man's Sky today do this, technically) where you have a series of pictures that you "mouse over" and then you get a list of the details of each item. On one hand i appreciate how compact this is, on the other i prefer having these things set off to the side in a dedicated part of the menu. You have the standard compare and contrast feature where you compare what you have equipped to what is moused over. That's cool, but again I feel having these parameters in a dedicated area of the screen that changes values depending upon what you have selected works better personally. It works fine, I can adapt but it is not my preference. With this approach, I feel I have to commit more to active memory when scrolling and it's too busy to keep track of in the heat of the moment.

Honestly will all these intricate mechanics and how dense Night City is, it's no wonder this game went through development hell and cost so much to make. I will never condone holding every game or even most games to this ludicrous standard of 50 hour brew ha-has with a billion mechanics and super complex VFX/simulations that cost as much as a hollywood film, HOWEVER if a development studio can make it work? Can create a stunning product? I'll have nothing but respect for the folks that poured dozens of hours of their lives into it. Regardless of whether it was "worth it" for individuals involved, in regards to whatever they needed to sacrifice, I will ALWAYS treat their work with the utmost respect. I feel that way about the intriguing world of Anthem despite agreeing it was a failure of a video game. I tear up inside when I remember reading about how the developers of Cyberpunk where so happy that Edgerunners succeeded and got more people into the game that poured so much into. At the end of the day, if a team big or small comes together and creates a fantastic product, I'll either love it or respect it. I will never say they shouldn't have bothered. Luckily in this case I am absolutely loving what I am playing.

Can't wait to continue this game. In the next few months I have my eyes set on Avowed and Judas. I pray those are both great. I wish for 2025 to be a more productive/well rounded year than 2024 was for me.