#it's a path to something all right
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
Tumblr sure gives you a specific set of reactions to things. I saw this off-center ad:
...and my first thought wasn't "success."
My thought was "Oh hey, somebody's werewolf boyfriend lives down there."
#it's a path to something all right#ohhh myyy#life on Tumblr#werewolves#I blame wereralph#as is only fitting
35 notes
·
View notes
Text
i'm not late for royai day if every day is royai day to me 🔥🪶 also for royai week day 1 - raison d'être
#riza hawkeye#roy mustang#royai#fma#royaiweek23#posting in the fuckhours of the night bc i spent so long on this#ive been wanting to draw something with this idea for sooo long it was rotting my brain#something something about how riza is supposed to keep roy on the right path but the moment she says shes glad she decided to trust him#its when he will know he truly is on the right path it all comes back to riza#shes his right path
5K notes
·
View notes
Text
you ever just have a lot, a LOT of feelings all at once about a character and not even remotely enough words or brainpower to FORM the words to describe everything you're feeling. so it feels like you may explode. yeah
#sorry i got really into my feelings about mark hoffman again#the very specific version of him in my brain that i really really wish i had the time and energy to properly share with you guys#saw#well until i muster the energy to explode all of my feelings out into a fic. if you want to TRY and understand#know that my three biggest hoffman fic insps right now are as follows#your best kept secret hoffman. a series of mistakes hoffman. and rushed like a dreadful wind hoffman.#there is a very clear throughline just know i am extremely emotionally compromised rn#thinking about theee fics vs the canon path hoffman spirals down#something something the absolute tragedy of watching a man's descent into madness#the transformation of a man into a monster#and what could have saved him from himself and kramer's corruption#sorry i'm rambling so much oh my god i was just having such a crying fit out of nowhere about this#do you think he could feel it happening. do you think he was aware he was losing his mind.#the script version of him fucks with me so bad. the crazed rankings and the longer hair and him not being well kept anymore#it's impossible to think he didn't know he was deteriorating#fuuuck okay i need to either chill or write a whole longfic rn#i project on that guy so much i truly don't know if i could properly write my vision of him#until i do something more substantial the full extent of my hoffman exists for me and my boyfriend only. they get me like no one else#well ginny and jenna also get me. please read best kept secret and a series of mistakes Oh My God#where am i going with this. i like tag rambling actually this is a nice way to do it without forcing EVERYONE to read my delirium#anyways if you've read all of this i think i love you? feel free to dm me about hoffman and my very specific headcanons and aus#maybe soon i'll try and start writing my fics about this tragic man#i could never say any of this on twitter btw they'd string me up for my opinions on him as a sad wet beast who could have been fixed#if only he hadn't been weaponized first#god i'm too tired to even be as embarrassed about this as i should be. thought i unlearned cringe already#but i've been spending way too much time on twitter and they HAAATE hoffman there#rip. i know it's not that serious but i'm sensitive rn and hate feeling lonely in my thoughts#ok bye for real otherwise i'll never shut up. i might tag ramble more often bc this was therapeutic in a way i needed badly#cat chat
804 notes
·
View notes
Text
When your love for each other is so great and it becomes something bigger than either of you, oh that's family baby!
#you guys would not believe the trenchs i was fighting in to finish this me and my tablet fist fighting all day i have a meme planned now#Bee is showing Piston Cybertron :)#tfe bumblebee#tfe breakdown#breakbee#earthspark bumblebee#transformers bumblebee#tf earthspark#breakbee fanchild#transformers breakdown#transformers oc#tf piston#sparkling#transformers#tf fanart#maccadams#maccadam#transformers fanart#this is a canon event in The Last Mile Marker#what Bee doesnt realize just yet is this moment is what caused Piston to go down a path that cultimates in them#pulling a [REDACTED] on Optimus and Megatron demanding they go home NOW. TODAY. we dont belong here i want to go HOME!!!!!!#Piston is not an autobot or a decepticon but they have Breakdowns personality and theyre very young and strong willed and stupid#they march in there ANGRY tears in their eyes hands shaking voice cracking pretending to want to talk to both in private#once the doors shut its [REDACTED] out Optimus is terrified bc Piston is so so SO young and to be like that already? heartbreaking wow yike#Megatron is lowkey impressed but equally concerned like little sparkling what have you been listening to to get this upset#and the answer is they saw how listless Bee was about staying on earth but unwilling to say something and how determined Breakdown was#it doesnt happen right away Piston gets frustrated over the course of a couple of months and feels a need to Do. Something.#also please PLEASE somebody tells me Piston looks like their Creators i was filled with doubt this entire TIME!!!!#they have a lot of Breakdown but subtle Bee details and also Cyberverse Bee#they are green because yellow + blue = green :3
108 notes
·
View notes
Text
so if solas sees himself in the inquisitor because of how they were made a leader, a prophet and a symbol by people who followed them, just as fen'harel had been made a leader and a saviour for by the freed elven slaves, will he see himself in rook because they're left alone against the threat they can't possibly defeat without singlehandedly making decisions that will impact the world in unknown ways, just as fen'harel had been left alone against evanuris with no other option but to create the veil
#just a thought. because 'what will they call you when this is over' haunts me to this day#anyway i genuinely wonder which way they'll take the solas-protagonist parallel this time#because it sure did happen before! but if they do that again there must be something they can offer#for now i see this like the inquisitor reflects that part of fen'harel story where he became a hero to his people#and then. the history got it all wrong.#but rook i think. their story might reflect the later and uglier parts of fen'harel's path. the ones that made their way into these legends#and then got spiced up with evil laughter. the hard decisions solas once had to make#it's not like inky's story didn't have that kind of decisions. but i think dai didn't focused on that kind of impact that much#also the inquisitor was backed up by their inquisition; as was fen'harel by his followers once#but at the end fen'harel is also known as who he hunts alone. you get the idea#I'm just speculating here but it seems our only kind of organisation is rook's companions. and whoever agrees to help them#without directly joining them. they have a lot less power than the inquisition did#which is interesting on it's own i think#but i think it would be interesting to see solas guide someone knowing full well they won't be able to make the right decision#because there's none#dragon age#dragon age the veilguard#solas#the inquisitor#rook
109 notes
·
View notes
Text
![Tumblr media](https://64.media.tumblr.com/7b634e3a837f4e52e93a7871df9281e7/c8e6d5a402225562-8c/s640x960/bddf3132af05fc53eea765e968ea80dde14db1b4.jpg)
![Tumblr media](https://64.media.tumblr.com/3ebc87586fdc3ec996db3b50fbbfbc16/c8e6d5a402225562-f3/s640x960/81563a479a1e98f8d2c29f6c2589c01d772e9de7.jpg)
![Tumblr media](https://64.media.tumblr.com/1e3fbb2fbce3ef676c12a331063bf8ed/c8e6d5a402225562-7d/s640x960/92d599dd507d67e4951a00a0e6150de6310a110d.jpg)
sooo normal about this (lying)
#idw is constantly Kiling It with the turtle characterizations but man what they are doing with raph is so special#he was alone for a Year at the very start and then finally found his family#he’s familiar with how to survive but now he has a support system! a family!#and then bit by bit everything gets more dangerous#casey gets hurt Badly. leo is kidnapped and brainwashed. donnie almost dies. splinter’s desperate to kill shredder and succeeds#and then mikey leaves bc he sees the path splinter is on and he can’t be a part of that#raph’s family keeps getting hurt or they leave and he’s trying so hard to protect and keep them together#god the talk raph has with mikey absolutely rips me apart bc it’s literally right before splinter sets up harold as bait#we all know raph is the fighter and the protector but i really like how idw showcases it#he’s terrified but he can’t stop fighting or else something else will happen to his family and they will possibly get killed#sorry i’m insane about him#tmnt idw#tmnt#idw#idw raph#idw leo#idw donnie#idw mikey#teenage mutant ninja turtles#turtle talks
1K notes
·
View notes
Text
I'm not ready to shut up about Aveline and Carver--so, when you go see Aveline in Act 1, you can catch up with her a little bit and that's where this conversation can happen:
Aveline: "It's just one more change, though. The real end for me was Ostagar. What about you, Carver? You were there. Do you feel something similar?" Carver: No. Aveline: All right, then. Bit of a tit, your brother.
I wanted to see what she would say if Carver isn't in the party. Instead, she says this:
Aveline: Carver was there. I imagine he feels something similar. If he allows it.
......well, at least she didn't call him a tit?
#dragon age 2#da2#carver hawke#aveline vallen#she's slightly nicer to him when he's not there but she's still like 'maybe he feels something similar but probably pretends not to'#like i'm not gonna pretend that carver doesn't bottle any feelings--he doesn't openly talk about bethany a lot for a reason#but to suggest he pretends to be unfeeling about things like ostagar is incorrect like he CLEARLY feels a lot about it#because he associates the battle at ostagar with losing his home and sister to the darkspawn#after playing as a warrior hawke who is best friends with aveline i do have a little more insight into why she might think this about carve#when hawke is a warrior they were at ostagar. they share that traumatic experience with aveline and if they're friends#they discuss it in a way that i think aveline *wants* y'know? but with carver he doesn't respond the way she wants him to#so she gets frustrated since even if she tried to talk to hawke about it... hawke wasn't there. hawke doesnt KNOW what ostagar#was like but carver does... but it's like aveline is ready to assume the worst of carver a lot of the time?#like 'carver doesn't talk about it because he's a tit who pretends not to feel' is the vibe i get from this but aveline...#that's like calling you a tit because you don't want to openly discuss all your feelings about your dead husband#listen aveline and carver are so similar but they have such key differences like they both survived the horror of ostagar#and lost a loved one to darkspawn while fleeing lothering AND they both blame hawke for it to a degree#even though they both know that's not right and that it wasn't really hawke's fault#they're both stubborn warriors with daddy issues looking to find their place#and when it comes to flirting? well i don't think carver's as bad as aveline#but i played MotA i know all about 'you could tame its wild heart'#but the key differences come in how they the end the game y'know? especially if carver's on the friendship path as a warden#i still haven't made him a templar but something tells me he ends up more on the same road as aveline#vs when he's a grey warden and able to be away from kirkwall and find a place on his own#y'all i could write a whole essay on aveline and carver but i paused my game to write this so i should go back to that sksksk
46 notes
·
View notes
Text
Reading loz/lu fics and it's just so interesting how wide the spectrum is of their personalities.
Sometimes it's got an in universe reason (different past (usually gender or species change), recent or ongoing traumatic events, a spectacularly bad first meeting), but sometimes (often) the characters are just... Weirdly angsty or peppy, there's no in between!
And I'm beginning to think less people have played more than one game than I thought XD.
Not that it's anyone's fault! One game is more than enough to be part of it all, and loz is exclusive to Nintendo consoles - and all the older stuff is frustratingly hard to get hold of. Heck, I'm still looking for wind waker, and that was really popular! And then you have to play it! They're not small games!!
But could people writing wild please ease off just a tiiiiiny bit so he can be a semi functional member of society pretty please XD? He's just as much a polite boy as any other member of the chain! He won't even run in shops! He can't attack npcs! He talks to every single person he's ever seen and remembers every single name. Yes, he's three quarters woodland creature with a hefty amount of trauma but he's also a fashionista who managed to avoid accidentally taking sides in a mayoral election and that's not easy!
#I have some actual gripes but that's just me being pedantic about something I know a lot about#loz#legend of zelda#tears of the kingdom#loz link#loz botw#loz totk#the legend of zelda#totk link#lu wild#Okay but please stop making his teleportation a point of interest to the chain they ALL can warp it's not even slightly special#And the slate/pad doesn't hold any items I'm begging you that's just fanon it's never been canon or been implied to be#Travelling across hyrule (on horseback) is about a week and a half following the paths at a walk. Rito to lurelin. It's not weeks on foot t#Hyrule Castle!!#This isn't a problem but like. Let link be petty brats to civilians occasionally. It's enrichment. They all have beef with some rando.#They're all extremely polite and let people get away with more than they maybe should but like. Adults starting smth with a 16yo.#Also wild has serious beef with ganon why does everyone write him so chill. Like botw sure but totk?? Absolutely not.#'wah my home is in ruins it's all my fault' it's been like that for yonks no one's even mad and hello?? Miles on miles on untouched#Landscapes?? Millenia of ruins indistinguishable from the recent stuff?? Link literally died he could not have done any more#How anyone can play botw/totk and not be BLISTERINGLY proud of hyrule I don't know#Okay but why does everyone (particularly legend omg) always bitterly blame hylia like loz has a dozen odd deities and hylia is the ONE who#Got cursed right alongside link. It's just... Idk but it seems like such a culturally Christian thing. All the focus on one who then gets#Blamed for everything in life going wrong. Not even Christian but specifically American Catholic. I don't know.#Hylia is the one deity we can pretty safely assume is neither omnipotent or omniscient lmao#In every time she has a voice (botk/ss) she pretty clearly mucks up or gets tricked and has regrets#In ss when she was zelda she hated every second of leading link around and even then it all hinged on link being completely willing!!#And then she got kidnapped anyway!#In totk (spoilers) she loses contact with one of her statues and asks link to check it out. Another statue gets POSESSED by ol triangle hea#And again link has to figure out the problem. Like even in her divine form she is so far from all knowing and all doing.#It's a lot of conflating with the concept of fate maybe?
50 notes
·
View notes
Text
i dont think I’ve seen anyone talk about the fact that vivi isn’t just half-fae—she’s half-redcap
#I don’t have very developed thoughts here#and honestly I’m not convinced Holly was really trying to do anything with this#but something something about vivi always being the least interested/the least invested of her sisters in learning to fight#something about her integrating into the social scene of the folk#gossiping and hunting with rhyia but staunchly refusing to take part in elfhames bloodshed#and madoc watches his blood daughter follow the same path of the wife he killed#falling in love with a human. forsaking faerie to live in the mortal lands#but it’s gotta be worse this time - right?#bc this time it’s not his lover. it’s his blood. part of him - forsaking him#maybe eva never fully understood his nature - his bloodthirst - his need for war#but maybe he believed that one day - after all the teen drama and rebellion - his own daughter would understand him#tfota#the folk of the air#tcp#vivienne#the cruel prince#vivi
79 notes
·
View notes
Text
Lady Bone Demon: "Do not lament your fate child, you can rest knowing you served your purpose—destiny has found you."
(2x10 This is the End!)
-
Lady Bone Demon: "A reminder: it seems you can not be trusted to willingly follow the path of destiny. But know this: If you betray me again—one misstep, one failure in any way—I will erase the very memory of you."
(3x04 The Winning Side)
-
Tang: "You're wrong. I know I'm not a strong as they are. I may still be searching for my purpose—but what I do know, is that doing it alone is not the path I'm destined to take. Deep in my heart, I know my place is alongside my friends."
(3x08 Benched)
-
![Tumblr media](https://64.media.tumblr.com/33632b5d5413bcb2c30114fe302cd881/ba8c2402d7e8a5d5-a7/s540x810/dfbc513e35bd8160023397ded23293a5fe140cf0.jpg)
Lady Bone Demon: "I sent you a task—you were to retrieve the Monkie King and his protégé, yet you refused the path of destiny and so there will be pain."
(3x08 Benched)
-
Tang: "STOP! It was me! I mean, yeah, Macaque forced me to do it and I am definitely starting to have second thoughts on the whole thing now but- I don't know how and I don't know why, I just felt like I had to. Like it was...destiny!" Lady Bone Demon Voice Over: "Destiny can not be undone Sun Wukong."
(3x10 The Samadhi Fire)
-
Lady Bone Demon: "No matter what you do, you cannot change the path of destiny." MK: "I don't know if this all happened because it was destined to, but I have to believe that I found the staff so I could use it for good." [...] "If you really believed that destiny can't be changed, you wouldn't be using every ounce of power you have to keep him contained!"
(3x14 Destiny Fulfilled)
-
![Tumblr media](https://64.media.tumblr.com/861035e0d30ec5825ff8737a4fe2b370/ba8c2402d7e8a5d5-84/s540x810/505d89444b367951059797e1c543484e334ef4be.jpg)
Lady Bone Demon: “Know this, monkey, you and I are not so different. We both fight for what we think is right—that pursuit only leads to one thing." MK: "Hmmhm. To destiny, right?" Lady Bone Demon: "No. To pain."
(3x14 Destiny Fulfilled)
-
MK: "I can't believe that worked!" Tang: "Eh, if that was destined to go wrong, then it would have!"
(4x03 The Great Tang Man)
-
Tang: "If your bonds of friendships our strong, then you will always find your way back to one another!"
(4x04 Pig Napped!)
-
Macaque: "Wukong was on a path of self-destruction, we all were. But when he met the monk, it set him on a different path." MK: "Ah! The path of the good guy! Making those good life choices?"
(4x11 A Lifetime of Mistakes)
-
Purpose, Pain, and the Path of Destiny
#originally this started as like ''huh Tang said the thing LBD said'' and then it turned into a 3 way thing between Tang LBD and MK#Like 2 sides of the destiny coin and the guy who undoes/changes destiny#''Destiny has found you'' ''You will always find your way back to one another!''#I FEEL FUCKING CRAZY#THE JOURNEY. THE PATH THERE. FINDING THE SCRIPTURES. YOUR FRIENDS. YOUR PURPOSE. DESTINY. IDK#lmk really was like ''Everyone's destiny is pain. Cope with that fact'' and I've been losing my mind for a year#Like whatever#''No matter what I do it's going to lead to pain''#LIKE THAT'S. THE PATH OF DESTINY (''path of self-destruction''). Okay. Okay#Not even that relevant to the post I'm just in so deep rn#''All doomed to play a role in tearing this world apart'' and then s5 being the world literally tearing itself apart. Like jesus#They really just wanted to completely decimate MK's little positive growth from the special like. Immediately.#''At least we fixed something for a change- instead of destroying it'' AND THEN THEY DIDN'T FIX ANYTHING#WHICH I'VE BEEN SAYING WAS HOW IT WOULD GO FOR A WHILE. BUT ON GOD TO BE PROVEN SO RIGHT#You know I hope Mei also has a terrible time next season I really feel like she was going through it in s4. But like subtly#Not MK's monkie mental breakdown way#*cough* tag rant over#lmk#lego monkie kid#lmk parallels#lmk Tang#lmk LBD#lmk MK#lmk theme: destiny#to pain
65 notes
·
View notes
Text
carlo's inherent tragedy as a character means that if he hadn't died young he would've gone through something worse. the horrifying realization that he inherited his father's personality <3
#lies of p#geppetto is over and over mentioned and shown to be a very stubborn man.#and the little we see of carlo.... it works.... he was in fact kind of a bull-headed little brat.#and everyone knows how much parents with strong personalities ~loooooooove~ when their kids. get it from them.#i'm not ragging on carlo. the basis of personality that is inherited is not the sole defining factor in what a person is like--#--and what is developed & changed by one's experiences would make them very different people still.#THAT SAID: i do think carlo achieving his little dream of being The Best Stalker In The World WOULD put him at risk of.#going down the same path his dear old man did :^)#there's something about being at the top of your field and what being the unquestioned authority in all that pertains to it can--#--very easily make one close-minded and set in their ways. it's probably what happened with geppetto.#i mean if my timeline is right he fucked with venigni's grand covenant long before he needed to enact mass murder to resurrect his son.#which to me speaks of him considering only himself as a trustworthy authority for a long time.#the tags in these posts really are the main feature now huh. sorry about that i just like talking here better.👍its like a secret post.#anyway. LOVE YOU DEAD BOY
91 notes
·
View notes
Text
![Tumblr media](https://64.media.tumblr.com/5bcb02230b40e2b441aed291c4e8a5c6/2929b5eba74fc6dc-b8/s540x810/46d821ba4a6a10ff58a041a6b16e858480632afc.jpg)
Ramble in the tags that really should have been a separate post LOL do you agree though…
#Steven Taylor#okay. so. we all agree that like#he didn’t not want to leave but he felt more needed there on the tardis & to some extent he enjoyed the adventures#but also enjoyed taking care of Vicki#and after daleks’ master plan & Katarina & sara & Oliver & Anne#he was like …. it’s not worth it — there is no one for me to protect & No reason for me to be here. until he changes his mind at the end of#the massacre & realizes the doctor needs him.#because Steven /did/ go back#and then he has the task of protecting dodo#but then he finds a place That needs him so much more#so he chooses to stay#HE HAS ALWAYS BEEN SELFLESS!!! AND HUMAN AND SELFISH!!!!!#he goes where he is taken & stays where he must#thinking about helmstone……..like. Steven will never ever ever forget Sara#but he turns it into something less…..destructive??? or hateful??? or just haunted??? in that example#maybe wrongly so#but he begins to choose this sort of. Better Path. instead of running from it like he tries to after Oliver#hshsjdksl#you could read it as he’s miserable all the time - he is traumatized on the tardis#but no he could never leave the doctor because the doctor needs Steven so so much especially in that dark dark streak of hartnell-era#& you could see it as he’s in control as much as he can be??? he chooses to stay when he thinks he should. he doesn’t want to settle just#anywhere — he wants to find the right place. & it takes a kind of control to choose that#and When he DOES find a place that needs him—#maybe after helping them he doesn’t feel like it’s the right place#like his audio trilogy with dodo Taylor discusses#because he was needed - and to him that WAS the right place. but the moment he feels he isn’t needed he has to keep moving#a piece of the doctor’s anxiety and fear and adventure and constant running will never ever leave Steven Taylor#so#there he is#i yap a lot…..
16 notes
·
View notes
Text
Me, watching Helga hold Kida captive: "Haha, Toxic Yuri."
Me, seeing Helga slowly relinquish her grip on Kida throughout the scene as Things Get Worse, until she's looking almost worriedly at Crystal Kida: "Oh no."
#atlantis: the lost empire#look just saying helga was raised a protestant with german roots until she lost her faith around the early parts of the century#turned to mercenary work#it got more and more unpleasant but she figured ''hey this is one last job''#and then she's less and less comfortable holding kida hostage and watching her father get tortured#and then she sees kida bowing and praying and it's calling back to her praying days#and she's mystified and in awe#and you can do something with that#helga sinclair#princess kida#atlantis the lost empire#I don't think there's anything that you can really do with it though#their characters don't really mesh#and helga blows up#and there's no ''Oh Kida can bring her back with Atlantean magic" path either#she fell and died#then a balloon fell on her and she died#then a volcano erupted on her and she died#and then an ocean crashed on her and she died#helga is like...everywhere right now#she's in the stones she's in the currents she's ending up on coastlines all around the world that is a dead woman
22 notes
·
View notes
Text
Thinking about Orchid and her connection to my take on Gender (because this was meant to be about her and the Crew but it just devolved into a character analysis kinda??? More trauma-dumping maybe???) This is very much an oc/personal rant so feel free to ignore it 🫡
So, Orchid started off as a character I didn't really think much of (hear me out this is going to be relevant) because I wanted to add a 'girl' character but didn't know what to *do* with her, y'know? She was always going to be the strongest one there, she had the odds stacked in her favor with her parents. She was always going to be the gloomy side-character to match Reset's energy. But I think she's gone through every stage of Generic Woman I could possibly find.
At first she was angry and abrasive (think Fell!Sans) where every other word was a curse and she was likely to throw the first punch then laugh as she kicks her enemy while they're down. This was when Reset was a cartoonishly self-centered villain whose goal was simply to prove others wrong. Then Orchid became a sort of sisterly figure. This was short-lived, but she was the one comforting people who Reset would torment, but would ultimately follow his orders, because at this point he was actually a danger and sadistic. And then there was the phase where the story mellowed out and she became the token Goth Girl who, yes she was strong, but was heavy on the 'whatever' energy. Then there was her Era of deep self-loathing and anxiety about her worth that held her back and made her a much more timid and meek character who would only lash out on occasion.
Now, Orchid is the best of those iterations I've written yet. She's calm, level-headed, and a natural leader. Her father raised those traits into her. But she's very reactive, and can be silly, and when she's comfortable it's likely that air of importance transforms into something more comfortable and familiar. She laughs loudly and grins wide, she likes loud video-games but loves to read in the quiet. She's extremely disciplined, and normally no one can get through her tough exterior besides her best friend, Reset. She does what she does for her own enjoyment, sure, but she's thought of every angle and makes her choice to help Reset and control the others with her whole chest. She still worries she won't live up to her invisible expectations, and that and her loyalty are her two driving forces.
I know that Orchid is important to me because she's the longest-running female oc I've had. I have a rough relationship with womanhood/girlhood and I know looking back that Orchid recieved every ounce of my distaste for being a woman that I could shovel into her. That never made her less of a character, she was actually always one of my favorites, and rarely was she a 'punching bag oc'. I just... projected onto her a lot. And she's a good sign of how I've learned who I am. I've decided that my own femininity is something I could live without. I'd rather not associate myself with it, and I'd like to leave it in my past, focusing on a future where I'm not tied down with any gender roles or expectations. That won't happen, but I've come to terms with it myself. Orchid though? I figured out through her that I don't have to hate women characters. My own distaste for my circumstances doesn't mean I have to push it onto my characters (on God I've never expressed anything rude to actual people, that'd be rude as hell and uncalled for, but I have a bad habit of disliking fictional women in media). So, Orchid is a well-roubded character finally. She has motivations abd goals and a *lot* more depth than I ever expected her to. She's happy with being a woman, she's content. She's not treated differently for it in unfair ways by those she cares about, so she doesn't mind it. She likes to wear pretty outfits and lets Reset add bows to her ribbons. She doesn't let being a woman hold her back in the slightest.
So, yeah. Orchid is one of my babies. If I ever leave this Fandom behind for good, she's one that's coming with (Ichor, Orchid, and Pretender all have human designs I can use elsewhere lol-) but in the meantime I'll just rotate her around in my brain for a while longer.
If I'm right, she's been with me for nearly 5-6 years and I went through a *lot* with her as an outlet. So, she's kinda just like an old stuffed animal. A lil ripped, matted fur, maybe a stain or two, but there's a story there and that makes it important beyond belief.
#spotatalk#i'm just gonna drop this in the queue I guess?#but I'm writing this on the last day of june so....#whenever this rolls around will be a jumpscare abd a half I guess?#I think honestly I coukd do a full breakdown of the Crew and why they're all expressions of me but like#quick summary is#Reset: Wants approval from people but mostly clings to the past. is afraid of losing his brother and acts on it to bring him back. i#<- I lack that conviction to do whatever you have to to get your way. i worry my brother and I have a weird gap between us we wont repair#Orchid: Uhhh woman. lots of pressure that she had at one time that's now no being pressed but she still tries to live up to it also.#<- I don't like the pressure of being a woman. also gifted-kid who cannot move past the pressures imposed to be 'perfect' and it's screwed#Stereo: Pulled into a situation he doesn't want to be in initially. it's bad for him but he likes the people so he decides to stay#<- I see the good in people. even when they hurt others around me. I was a bystander often and should've left the situations. paralelling.#Monochrome: Afraid. No purpose or preperation in life. soneone offers to guide him and he takes that offer because it's better than home.#<- Kinda self-explanitory but I've got little direction and feel lost a lot of the time. If I'm given a path I usually walk it no hesitation#and... for fun let's do some others!#Haphazard: Cleaning up after others since childhood. he's never really gotten a break and sees any sort of mess as an enemy#-> He's fixing rifts in universes I gotta patch relationships. there's so much conflict and I'm always so overwhelmed by it#Lost: He's got amnesia. no clue where he is. where he's from. who you are. who he is. he'll know when he gets there. he's sure.#-> I've been hsving minor issues with my memory for years. i coukd be forgetful but sometimes it just escapes me and that's spooky#Teddy: Isolated in her universe for years. she self-mutilated until she liked herself. when she finally met people she compulsively lied#-> Much more extreme version of how isolated I sonetines feel. hobbies can't replace human interaction but it's hard#oh and Ichor: God who loves mortals but cannot seem to find ones who will prove hin right for his trust and care#<- I've got a big heart. i express it often but the sentinent is scoffed off a lot. I get beat down about it and just keep moving forward#Pretender: Knows who he is. however the world doesn't like it much so he acts how they expect him to or isolates away#<- I still present femme when I'm nb/agender. i bend and break to people's perception of me. if I can't solve something I run.#okay I feel more insane than when ai started but these stupid skeletons have helped me through so many mental health problems it's only a#little bit funny 🙏
16 notes
·
View notes
Note
Moze was known for being sneaky and basically invisible, since barely anyone sees him while he sees everyone and everything. It might be creepy to think about, but this didn't intimidate you at all. Rather the opposite - this was one of the reasons why you became interested in him.
But your beloved would've never guessed that you can be the sneaky type too. At first, you sneaked into his heart slowly and carefully - and now you are sneaking sweet little messages on sticky notes everywhere he could see them.
Be it in his lunchbox, in his trouser pockets, on his daggers,.. everywhere he would find a sweet message like “Remember that you are so, so loved by me, Moze! ❤️” which he certainly wasn't used to seeing, but he didn't mind it in one bit.
He actually adores it and they became one of his favorite parts of the day - besides the part where he would see you.
So don't be surprised when you find a sticky note with the message “I love you, Evie.” one day too, and of course - he would've sneaked it into your lunchbox, too while watching your reaction in the shadows, slightly smiling to himself.
~ 💐 (18th door of the advent calendar)
#彡 inbox.#彡 cherishing.#🐦⬛🐕 .#彡 💐!#dresvi !!!!!!!!! ]: where would i even start?! the entire thing you’re doing - dropping by everyone’s inboxes is so sweet itself!! T T you#are full of so much kindness and everything you post gives me so much warmth n happiness waaa — which im sure is the case for everyone else#who has crossed paths with you!! thank you for doing such a sweet thing ): i appreciate this more than i could ever put into words!! but i#do have a thing for word dumping anyways — so i will do my best to convey my gratitude of course!! 🥹 holding this so dearly to my heart as#i type out this mass of text bahahhaa aaaaaa T T im in such disbelief HANSJD YOURE SO SWEET HELLO???????? DRESVI!!! T T !!!!!!#HIS STEALTH COMING OFF AS COOL IS SO VALID !!!!! i think it is very fun rather than scary …. the things you could do!! T T you could call#out to the void & say something concerning — watch as he emerges from the shadow to double check if what he heard was right bahhaha there is#much to experiment with !!!! what draws mr moze out of hiding 🎤 where does shadow moze like to go 🎤 much to learn!!! HEY!!! THE SNEAKING#INTO HIS HEART??? 🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹 WAAA SJSNMSKKD AAAAAAA TO BE PERCEIVED BY HIM 🥹🥹🥹🥹 IM BEYOND SPOILED WITH THIS SENTENCE DRES!!! T T !!! I LOVE U!!!#the notes becoming one of his favorite parts of the day ))))): i will start sobbing into my hands )))))): TO DO ANYTHING FOR HIM IS SUCH A#TREAT AJANSNSMX )))): I WILL BE SURE TO DECORATE THEM NICELY!!! WITH LOTS OF HEARTS AND SPARKLES AND DOODLED CROWS — CROWS WITH THE RED#RIBBON HE HAS ON HIS OUTFIT !!! CROZE (MOZE CROW) IF YOU WILL ….. DRESVI YOU WRITE HIM SO CUTELY IM SO ??????? FAVORITE PART ??? )))):#HE GAVE ME A NOTE BBBBAAAAAAAACKKKKKKKKKK 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 SOBBING INTO MY HANNNNDNSNSSSS HES SO PRECIOUS 😭😭😭#WATCHING FEOM THE SHADOWS )): HE SEES ME SQUEALING ONE SECOND AND HICCUPING AND SNIFFLING THE NEXT???#WOULD HE SEE ME TUCK HIS NOTE INSIDE MY PHONE CASE ): SNIFFLE ????? OMG T T DRESVI#lightly smiling to himself (*꒦ິ꒳꒦ີ)♡ please dresvi (*꒦ິ꒳꒦ີ)♡ im not strong enough to imagine (*꒦ິ꒳꒦ີ)♡ such a sweet image in my head (*꒦ິ꒳꒦ີ#him smiling (ㅠ‸ㅠ) at my embarrassing reaction (ㅠ‸ㅠ) UUUUHRHEHEHHDH )))))): ))): !!!!!!!!! T T !!!!!!!!#IF SUCH A THING EVER HAPPENED I WOULD FORGET THE NOTES THE NEXT DAY !!!! ITS REAL TALKING TIME — SPRINTING AND HUGGING AND SOBBING INTO HIS#CHEST ASKING WHY HES SO PRECIOUS TIME — BUT ALAS I WOILD BE TOO EMBARRASSED SO PERHAPS I COULD JUST SIT NEAR HIM AND CRY INTO MY KNEES ALL#DAY 😭😭😭😭 THANK YOU AGAIN OH MY GOD im sorry i have typed out so much!!!! it is just too cute T T !!! YOURE SO SWEET UHEJJJJN IM LATCHING#ONTO UR LEG THANKING YOU A MILLION TIMES OVER ))): SNIFFLE
12 notes
·
View notes
Text
Modern au
Manon’s grandmother doesn’t see Manon’s daughter much, if at all. It was a decision both Manon and Dorian have agreed on; Dorian knows how vile the woman is, and while Manon is not cutting the woman off completely, she won’t let her daughter be subjected to that woman.
The Blackbeak matron doesn’t care either way. She knows of the child’s existence, and she already knows that she’s a lost cause, not worthy of her time and energy.
But you know which (great) grandmother gets unlimited time with the child? Glennis.
The woman is so kind and motherly and so very caring. She wants to spend time with the child, and despite the hiccups with Manon (she’s trying okay, but she can’t magically unlearn everything and be normal. But Manon knows that Glennis is a safe person which is why she has no issues dropping off her child at her great grandmother’s house)
Glennis loves it. She knows that while Manon struggles a lot with her feelings, the fact that she’s trusting her with her child for hours is telling the old woman all she needs to know. Manon just can’t express herself properly and that fine, her actions are enough.
So really, whenever Dorian and Manon plan something just for the two of them, baby is dropped off at Glennis’ house to spend a whole day bonding with her grandmother. Also, whenever Bronwen knows the baby is there, she visits Glennis and spend time with the baby.
So really, it’s just baby bonding with the Crochan side of the family with no issues because they’re safe and Manon actually trust them. As for the Blackbeak side, she only trusts her Thirteen and that’s about it.
#booklr#books and reading#throne of glass#manon blackbeak#tog#dorian havilliard#manon x dorian#manorian#asterin blackbeak#glennis crochan#bronwen crochan#idk just imagine Glennis arguing with a one year old who insists on having an opinion even when she can’t speak#she loves the child she has a whole nursery set up in her home and as the child grew she still had her own room with everything she needs#so much bonding between them because Glennis want to make up for not being there for Manon for most of her life#she doesn’t want to have regrets and just want to be close with Tristan’s offspring#those are her blood relatives and doesn’t want to let them go#she has her doubts with Manon at first because she’s just so closed off#but she learned that Manon is not the type to speak about anything#and to watch for other cues#which she did#and she understood her much better but also felt bad for her#because what kind of life did you have to make you this way#Manon def was on the wrong path for a long long while#but luckily at that stage in her life Asterin (and her mother) were there to kind of interfere when things got out of hand#something like Asterin’s mother flying to Switzerland when she learned that Manon spends almost every Christmas alone there#’you know the school is closed right?’ she told the matron while wondering what is a 14 year old doing all by herself#she was so angry at her mother but also needed to travel to find out what’s going on#yes Manon was traveling on her own but ALSO at one point she was noticed by the wrong people#honestly she was so starved for attention all it takes is a little bit and she’s completely won over#anyway that’s a whole other post lmao back to the main point
13 notes
·
View notes