#it’s not really about the gifts it just always makes me feel very misunderstood and unimportant
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christmas gifts are both my favorite holiday tradition and my least favorite, bc i always have sooo much fun picking out exciting things or making pretty handmade items for my family and friends..but i also know that i most likely will not be receiving any gifts back that i actually like or that seem heartfelt
#at least not from my family :/#it’s not really about the gifts it just always makes me feel very misunderstood and unimportant#i am trying to keep my hopes up! but last year my brother got me a snack i’m allergic to. so like. the bar is pretty low#this is why i always end up getting myself a belated christmas gift around new years skdhjs#will.txt
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Echo (Sylus x F!Reader)
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Synopsis: Sylus would do just about anything to make you happy- even going as far as trying his hand at arts and crafts. Thankfully, the Tour has the perfect gift for him to make and he takes a moment to reflect on all he has shared with you- both in this life and the last.
“He loves me, he loves me not…”
CW: Mentions of Sylus’ lore (mentions of violence, grief), uhhh shouldn’t be anything else, FLUFF
Author Note: I really loved the last card and wanted to write a little blurb from Sylus’ perspective of making the Echo Bottle 🐦⬛❤️💋 all comments, likes, and reblogs are greatly appreciated :) pic above belongs to me.
Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters from LADS or anything mentioned from that game. I do not give permission for AI to use my content and I do not use AI- uhhh I think that’s all?
*I’m a goofy person so my characters are a bit eccentric
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Sylus is a man of good taste, but he wouldn’t consider himself an arts and crafts master. He wouldn’t consider himself gentle enough to even be able to create something as simple as an Echo Bottle. However, when it comes to you, it seems to come to him naturally.
He isn’t entirely sure how he is going to hide the fact that he made the damn thing- shimmering red sparkles are coating his hair like snowflakes and he still can’t get this stupid craft feather off of him. It’s clinging tighter to him than you do when you’re cold at night.
It will be worth it to see you so happy though.
With a sigh of relief, he finally rolls up the tiny piece of paper and puts it into the bottle. The paper feels as delicate as the words written on it.
Sylus has so many moments- from when you named him, those imaginary moments in the black church, and the pretend final kiss in the field of Datura flowers. Every single place you conquered together and all the acts of terror you would probably be horrified to know you committed.
And now? Well now, you have somehow fallen in love with him, ‘monster’ and all, again. He could never begin to describe to you how every second of domestic bliss and love from you makes up for all those centuries of feeling lonely, misunderstood, and incapable of experiencing love, both given and returned.
Every Plushie that lays haphazardly around his base(s) is just another memory and moment of gratefulness. Silly games and your ridiculous cartoon drawings of Mephisto litter his home so carelessly and openly- it’s so nice to have you home again.
However- while there are many similar memories- the memories in the black Church are littered with grief and horror. It wasn’t real- it was merely an illusion whereas tidying up with you, picking out decorations with you, and slowly building a home together is very real and a very happy memory.
So instead he settled on a memory in both lifetimes that brings him nothing but peace now- memories that don’t wake him up in a panic and call you just to make sure you’re alive, still here, and he is still truly yours again.
Some things never change. Much like you have always been his treasure, your singing voice is his favorite too. It was naturally the best option to pick- nothing tainted or upsetting about either.
The first time I heard you sing.
You were the first voice to sing in his presence. It soothed his entire soul and then when he was able to sing Karaoke with you? Sylus is aware he isn’t very good, but he was way more focused on listening to you anyway and you have been on many fun little karaoke dates since. Your hair has changed, your eyes have changed, but your voice remains the same in that it is a balm for his soul.
The benefit of this sentence is that it’s broad enough that only he really knows the hidden memory behind it. There’s no grief or heartbreak for you to experience- just a fun memory and another moment he was thankful to steal of your time. It was one of the first real chances you ever gave him (twice really, if he thinks about it) and he will cherish those two moments for as long as you shall allow him to live.
Sylus’ thoughts are broken by two pink gloved hands covering his eyes- he briefly used his Evol to hide the Echo Bottle in his coat pocket.
“Guess who!”
“Guess who?”
“Yes! Guess who!”
“Why?”
“I-“ you pause, “I’m not sure, but I’m committed to the bit now and I never intended for you to begin asking too many questions!
“Now, then,” you clear your throat dramatically, “guess who!”
He chuckles- your silliness and games are a major improvement to being poked in the side. He should probably reward this good behavior to avoid that.
“Is it my favorite sleepy kitten?”
“Sleepy and grumpy!” You correct as you hop over and sit on the left of the bench, “I woke up and was dreadfully cold without my personal space heater beside me.”
He takes your chin between his thumb and index finger before he leaves a deep, chaste kiss on your lips, “I’m so sorry, kitten. How can I atone for my crimes?”
You tap your chin while reaching for something in your pocket.
“Well- I could use your help answering a question for me,” you pull out a flower with a single petal on it, “I’ve been seeing this guy lately and I think I want to-“ you look around as if it’s top secret, “drop the ‘L’ word- if you know what I mean.”
Sylus has to hold back the stupid grin that threatens to split his face open. He’s going to let you do your thing because he’s quite interested now, he’s been wanting to say it for a long time now (arguably way too long).
“I see,” he muses, “and what is it that you need me to do?”
You are slowly turning more and more flushed by the second and he is swept up in how wonderfully adorable you are. Sylus really really hopes you like your gift from him- you are everything to him and he loves to see you happy.
“I need you to pull off the last petal,” you say slowly, “but I want to know- does Sylus love me or does he love me not?”
Whether you realize it or not- he can feel your heartbeat thundering in your chest as if it was his own. All the blood rushing in your ears- you just told him you love him and yet he’s still nervous you may reject him and it’s all been some massive dream.
Sylus gently plucks the petal and looks at you- his eyes staring into yours in hopes that you will see how much he truly means his next sentence.
“I love you. kitten.”
There’s that wonderful smile again and his most favorite gift from you- a kiss on both sides of his face, one on the tip of his nose, and the last on his lips before you rest your forehead against his.
“I love you too, Sylus.”
And he couldn’t be more grateful that he has more time to make first time memories with you than he did before.
#sylus l&ds#sylus lnd#sylus qin#sylus x mc#l&ds sylus#lnds sylus#sylus love and deepspace#love and deepspace sylus#sylus lads#sylus x reader#sylus#lads sylus#sylus x you#sylus qin che#lads x mc#lads mc#lads x reader#l#dragon! Sylus#dragon!sylus#dragon! Sylus x reader#lnds#lnds x reader#lnds mc#la#lads caleb#lads#lads zayne#love and deep space#love and deepspace x reader
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In my opinion <- strongly for ME
When it comes to Agatha All Along seems like people lose the plot & content about it as it goes, idk why but
1) Agatha is a Villain- she doesn't need redemption she's aware of herself & acknowledges her doings ( like wanda says " you do it you become the hero , I do it I become the enemy)
Agatha doesn't have to atone to what she's done or will continue to do ,does she feel bad hmm 🤪
So she's a serial killer - most those witches deserved it if you ask me, her salem coven completely did for wanting to put a child on trial because they were scared of her powers
"You don't see it holding me back " & it shouldn't hold her back she's a cunty witch no one forced anyone to follow her in her scheme she's a great con artist 🥵 I'd willing volunteer for you AGATHA HARKNESS 😏
Now I'm not saying her grief is an excuse, & that it's ohkay what she's done with her & Nicky's song but isn't a lil evil enjoyable😈 don't always have to be good doesn't mean you're always right
Like the ballad where all that's wrong is right & all that's bad is good!
² ) Agatha & Rio's love IS NOT toxic. What makes it toxic that rio gives & Agatha takes? If you think in depth their love is dynamic! Agatha is a person who time & time again is wronged by close & acquainted people of course she'd close herself from hurt when that's everyone's intentions without giving her a chance it's not her fault that people misunderstands & here comes Rio our amazing entity who knows how to show compassion because no ever will this is something Agatha deserves & Rio is literally the best example being that homo sapien feel the same way about death so who's best to understand Agatha than Rio herself & show & give Agatha what no one has? Their love makes sense & is precious because death can be seen to never be loved & here comes Agatha someone that's put off by people whom in their eyes seem like she's not capable of ever loving, yearns to want & give it & is giving it to death the best way she possibly knows how to, so who's to say their love is toxic?
3)Agatha is a Villain! That's what's perfect about her it's what makes her likeable
She is not evil( yes she is 😏🤭) , just misunderstood, not given a chance . She can still do & is doing the things even if she was good
] a daughter, a mother, a mentor ! Being a Villain doesn't stop her for being the things she was gifted with as Rio sees her for what she masks with - you just have to look through the disguise as well cause in time you'll see notice & you see if you pay close attention she isn't hiding as one would say you just aren't taking the time to notice because she's good at what she does best DECEPTION!
1 and 3) Yes, I agree! Agatha is a villain and she shouldn’t have a redemption arc! She doesn’t want to change and she won’t (tbh I prefer her as immoral lmao)
I think redemption arcs are usually very forced, just bc someone regrets their doing it doesn’t change what they did. She can have better actions, but being a villain isn’t really about what you do in the present, is about the way people view you and she’ll always be a villain in someone’s perspective, there’s no way for her to run from that title anymore.
People have the need for their favorite characters to be liked by everyone, have a moral high ground or something like that, but making her greedy and egoistic (in my opinion) gives her a bigger depth than “oh she always does what’s right”. Who the fucks only do what’s right?
I don’t agree that all of the witches she killed deserved, the only ones I know that deserved were her previous coven!
2) Agatha and Rio have a VERY complicated relationship.
Would I say it’s toxic? No, I wouldn’t!
Are they toxic people? Yes, they are!
I think they basically match each others freak to the point their toxicity doesn’t become toxic lol
And I also think that they have true feelings for each other, they can fight, they can argue, they can hurt, but when it comes to the important stuff they will take things seriously! Just like Rio did when she defended Agatha from her mother.
#apparently im in the mood to give long ass response today#I hope you don’t mind#agatha all along#agatha harkness#rio vidal#vidarkness#jubs’ inbox ☁︎
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Why do you ship Sans x Frisk? As a person who ships them myself, what do you see in them, like about them? Personality traits, situations, tropes etc, anything that comes to mind, what makes you enjoy them and continue to breathe life to them?
Oh geez I did not expect this deep question. But good question! I guess I just feel like they are fit together, their personalities, situations and brings them to met and the way they treat eachother. But well in Undertale canon, I would prefer Sans and Frisk as besties! The age are not confirmed and I would not try to risk anything. I really like Sans and Frisk as duo when I was younger, very young I dunno why but I feel like I love them when I first saw them both on internet, I remember that it was Secret Garden animation. It sparked something in me as a kid but I was young and don't know things much. Years later I learned more about Undertale because of one guy that I love. I learn about all characters, their lore and everything I was obsessed with Undertale so much I have never thought about ships or anything until I remember about flowerfell again. And I really like Sans and Frisk as duo so... yeah that's why I really love them being together. I find comfort and relatable with them. But seeing people are being so hateful and misunderstood about these, I decided to keep it as secret that I ship Frans and draw it in private for long time. But something changed when I listened to Overgrowth find every fanfics about it as much as I could and my love for Flowerfell grew more and more then I found the truth about dramas, I read about what happened. And I think, this is not fair for all those people who are hiding from society just cause society misunderstood about them and never try to understand. I stand up again and don't really care who'll report or hate me. Cause I did not do anything illegal and I'm sure about that. If they will be disrespectful then so be it. How I feel for Sans n Frisk? It just that I feel like they're soulmates(?) In my opinion. They are uhh meant for eachother. No matter what universe, time, place I just feel like there would be something that'll bring this two together again as friends, lovers or anything. It made me felt brighter, have hope for things I cannot explain. It feels like I'm not alone. I like everything about them, everything. I see hope, heart warming, understanding, determination, caring, honesty, acception, and love in them. I just find comfort in them both- I relate to them both somehow, somehow. And I think they are fit with each other, despite how difficult it would be. Almost every fanfictions of them, It all just, perfect. And I can't help but love it and being obsessed with it. I uh remember that one time when I found out that there are good stuff about Frans out there, it makes my heart overwhelmed and shaking in excited. Even all words that I've said, still cannot explain how much I love it. Seeing them just, somehow always made me happier when I had bad days. (And deep inside of my heart, wishing that maybe someday somewhere somehow I'll find another half of me like they did too.) That's all! Also here's little gift for you, from me :]
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Hey!!! I’ve gone through your entire list of posts and loved it. There’s a lot of psychoanalysis which makes the work a fun read.
Though I’m curious, what is your biggest inspiration or take-a-way from Hiccup? Do you have any other HTTYD character that equally inspires you. What about the franchise that speaks to you the most?
Sorry if the questions are loaded, but I’m curious, you dissect and approach the franchise in a detailed, humanistic way, I wonder if that’s kind of how you also view the universe.
HELLO DEAR!!! Sometimes I wish you guys weren’t anonymous so that I can find you and thank you for filling up my Inbox with such amazing words of encouragement.
To hear that anyone has just read this blog and enjoyed it really makes my day. I pour my heart into my writing and I just want to say I love answering these questions and I am sorry I took over a year to reply. Before I get to why lemme answer you first.
My biggest inspiration and take-away from Hiccup is:-
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He is different
I grew up with Hiccup. When the first movie was released I was the same age he was and going through my own season of not fitting in and awkwardness. I wanted so much to be noticed and recognised. Physically I was also very different. I didn’t fit in anyone’s mould.
Peers are precious about certain things and kids with many friends usually meet their criteria - but I couldn’t. Not even close.
I know how it feels like to be alone and misunderstood, even by my own parents.
but he is always kind…
Hiccup doesn’t subscribe to revenge, at least not around his immediate peers like Snotlout who sometimes, I really do feel he deserves it. He believes that there’s always something, to understand, to fix or to improve. That industriousness actually makes him the perfect leader to propel his people forward into the future. In a world where everyone focuses on what’s on the outside, he hyper fixates on what’s on the inside and if we really start listening to why people say what they said instead of just taking their words literally you hear so much more.
he stewards his gifts well.
He can invent. He’s been inventing before meeting Toothless. He’s good at it. And he meets every physical challenge he has with an invention.
He is also a natural born leader - though he never fit the mould of what a Viking should look like, he fits the mould of what a leader should be. A leader needs to earn his respect, and though still the smaller male Viking, he is very well respected.
He is fearless.
Push comes to shove, Hiccup is reliable, courageous and quick thinking. He does not back down from a challenge. Yet, he isn’t intimidated by others strength - he allows everyone else to hone their skills and be their best selves as he has allowed himself to be.
HICCUP inspires me because his growth and leadership and story comes from him first accepting himself and in time, he becomes everything he was suppose to be. My biggest take-away from him is, you will never lose if you give yourself time to see the bigger picture of why things are the way they are.
Of course I love Hiccup for so much more, but I don’t know how much you’d wanna read 🤣 Nonetheless, on the top of my head, that’s what I think he means to me.
The other HTTYD Character that Equally Inspires me is, of course, ASTRID
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To be fair, we know her significantly more than the other characters so it’s natural to fall in love with her.
But they have created a very beautiful character to love.
Astrid is strong and independent, but nothing about that takes away from her femininity. Sometimes I feel like movies/shows about strong independent women make those women so unfeeling and hard.
Astrid feels real to me. She’s driven, self-disciplined and honourable, but she can also be condescending and harsh - and instead of getting defensive about it, she actually listens to that constructive criticism when it comes and changes.
She knows she is born to lead (though not in the same way Hiccup is - which is also admirable because she humbly gives way to him to do his thing) so she needs to learn how to inspire her soldiers, help them improve and make them better. She can’t do that if she always thinks she’s right. That’s what brings about toxic leadership. And she is not toxic.
I admire her dedication to improve. It’s something I love in Hiccup as well, but Astrid just works on herself and her performance. It’s inspiring.
While there’s more, I’ll keep it to these two things for now.
What about the Franchise that Speaks to me Most
Friendship. Trust. Becoming. Young Adulthood. Reality Check. Being lost. Finding Yourself.
So much really. So much.
When I first started writing this blog, I actually lost my grandmother. I loved my grandmother so much. She was warmth, love and life personified.
After she left, I was lost for a very long time, failing exams and switching careers. I couldn’t focus.
This show helped me piece together a lot of my own personal feelings. It helped me think through certain problems. When I synthesised those thoughts into this blog space, I felt like I was dealing with them.
And when I watch Hiccup and Toothless glide in the sky, it made me feel like I am there with them. The soundtrack itself is also very transportive.
I think my favourite thing about the franchise was/is that it made me feel again. At least on the rewatch leading to the creation of this channel.
The franchise when I first watch those movies, when I was really young made me feel “found”, if that makes any sense to you. Because, it talks about not being alone - like how the loneliest dragon could find the loneliest boy Viking. And that these two in turn, found a lonely girl looking for something to see herself in.
Each step of Hiccup’s life was mine. Even when he didn’t want to “take on the family business” and desired to be more than he and the world he’s in is built - that was me, still is me.
This franchise has something for almost everyone. And every which way you turn Hiccup, you will see a small glimpse of yourself in him.
In essence, I think the franchise just speaks and that’s what makes it so damn good.
#hiccup httyd#how to train your dragon#httyd#hhtyd astrid#astrid hofferson#hiccup haddock#httyd review#ask me anything#toothless#Vikings#hello tumblr again
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Would you mind doing Zooble x Gangle alphabet bs? Just trying to see more of the ship on my fy yk? (Also just to clarify, bc I feel the need to say this and bc it’s commonly misunderstood, Zooble and Gangle are both ADULTS Zooble is 22 and Gangle is about 24 or so)
# ZOOBLE x GANGLE ☆
Yes ofc. I love these 2 luvlies they own everyone
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♡ FLUFF ALPHABET !!
warnings :: None except the fact that once again I didn't proofread. Also this has the old alphabet format I used
Activities - Their favourite things to do with one another is drawing, crafting, talking, literally just doing anything together or being near one another is their favourite thing to do with eachother
Boo! - Neither of them are too fond of suprises. Gangle finds them abit off putting, and Zooble finds them lowkey corny and annoying
Comfort - Gangle definitely makes it obvious that she's upset, it's definitely unintentional though, therefore Zooble knows whenever to comfort her. Though if we're speaking the other way around, Zooble dosen't like to talk about what upsets them too much, but if Gangle realizes, they'll definitely try cheering them up to the best of her abilities
Dance - I dont think neither of them are good dancers, nor like dancing that much, but Gangle definitely likes to dance secretely ..
Emotions - Gangle is more open than Zooble, but Zooble makes sure to also share their emotions with Gangle once in awhile, as to not make her worry about them
Future - Both of them are unsure, but they definitely want to keep being together after they get out one day
Gifts - Gangle definitely is the main gift giver. She loves giving Zooble things she crafted or drew, and I imagine Zoobles room also being lots of abstract things so they fit in perfectly
Hold - GODDD THEY CAN HOLD EACHOTHER SO WELL since Zoobles body is kinda a mish mash and Gangles body is very flexible thanks to the ribbons she can just wrap them around their body. It's perfect.
Ideal - Their ideal date is definitely a quiet place. I feel like both of them don't like people that much, so I think dates behind closed doors is where they're most comfortable
Jealousy - I think neither of them would get jealous that much, Gangle definitely more than Zooble, but again it's unlikely because they trust eachother alot
Kisses - Kissing is a . hard situation for both of them. While Gangle kind of has a mouth, Zooble dosen't really, so Gangle usually kisses Zooble anywhere on their head
Love - Again, mostly its gift giving for Gangle, and words of affirmation/quality time for Zooble
Melt - I think it's just when. Like whenever Zooble compliments Gangle she dies abit inside /pos
Nicknames - Gangle sometimes calls Zooble a corny nickname, and even if Zooble gets inner shivers from it, they can't help but get flustered abit everytime. Zooble also likes to call Gangle a petname only when it's them two hoheha
Obvious - The crush they have on eachother you can DEFINITELY see more clearly on Gangle than on Zooble. But you can see how Zooble gets abit more nervous when near Gangle
Pets - ... I don't really know how u could have pets in this place . But they'd definitely have a cat together
Quiet - They LOVE being in comfortable silence with eachother
Romance - Gangle is a sucker for romantic stuff in secret I feel like, though Zooble not really. But I think that both of them aren't "romantic" all that much, you get me ?? 😭
Safe - I think the fact that Zooble always stands up for themself is what makes Gangle feel so safe around them !!
Tend - While Zooble only gets slightly worried, while Gangle gets over the MOON worried whenever Zooble even gets a scratch ...
Unique - I think. Their "contradicting" personalities is what attracts them both to eachother most 💁♀️
Variety - I feel like Gangle would like the same old things, while Zooble is a bigger fan of trying out different stuff. So I like to think that for example, whenever they try a new thing out (like a new activity to perform), they do the same old things in eachothers room after they're done with it
Wash - Does the concept of stinking even exist in this place . Either way, both of them would be clean people, but Zooble definitely has a stricter routine than Gangle. If it were the real world, they'd so do eachothers nails
XO - Both arent a big fan of PDA. Zooble dosen't want to deal with teasing or looks, and Gangle would get too flustered, they'd rather have eachother for themselves privately
Yearn - I think when they miss eachother, they don't show it that much, as much as they want to feel eachothers presence
Zzz - Like I said back in the cuddling point, they definitely sleep like that whenever they sleep together. They're adorbs
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ׂૢ་༘࿐ Thank you for reading! ♡
I tried my best wit this. hope u likesy luv 🌚
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Your highness,
You made me think about Risotto Nero and I've went and re read what you had already written about him (which was really fun and lovely, as always) but I've noticed we never really got a proper analysis of him.
As I've said before, I am a sucker for random details and I was wondering if you would kindly share with us some of your headcannons on him, maybe less popular ideas or underrated aspects of him.
Just like with Leone, I feel like he's a very misunderstood, mistreated character and I'm dying to read more about *your* vision of him.
I will humbly take whatever you wish to share with us (me <3)
Heart <3
I’ll be writing for him when I add to my body interpretations, as la squadra esecuzioni is up next, but Risotto needs some more attention, specifically. I agree that he’s incredibly mistreated- that’s the price you pay when you’re that handsome.
Risotto is quite the stalker. I think of him as the knight in shining armor type, your very own white knight obsessed with protecting you, but being with him directly means involving you in his work, so… from the shadows is fine.
Risotto knows how to pay attention to the details, he’s a romantic in that sense. He’s very careful not to leave any trace- of course, besides from his ‘gifts.’ It’s nothing flashy, in fact, if you aren’t very perceptive, you won’t notice them at all. The dishes are done. There isn’t any dust. The contents of the refrigerator are all safe, and aren’t expired. Things to that effect.
After Sorbet & Gelato died, he asked his unit to all move in together, but he isn’t very social, so… he just kind of locks himself in his office all day. They’re safe, and fed, and not miserable (hopefully), so it’s all fine. There’s no need for him to intervene. Prosciutto came a little late, but all’s well. (I should go into the group dynamic more.)
He talks very slowly, and has a habit of mumbling. His voice is fairly deep, deeper than Leone’s, but it isn’t raspy. While the vowels themselves are clear, he makes his voice as ‘small’ as he can. Risotto doesn’t want to frighten off small, timid creatures. Nevermind the fact that there isn’t a timid soul in that apartment. The most mouselike individual is Pesci, or technically Illuso since he hides in his own world all day, and there’s no reason to speak like that to either of them.
Risotto doesn’t really talk that much, he prefers to sit back (not really, he’s always tense) and listen carefully. He nitpicks his words, although most of it is improv. His quick thinking has kept him his position as capo, and although he heavily dislikes his job, it comes easily to him.
Metallica isn’t sentient, but he pretends it is, for amusement. He gets lonely easily, his ‘little friends’ keep him sane when the boss sends him on seven hits back to back.
Risotto strikes me as the type of man to have a lot of patience, but eventually, he'll snap. He's the protective type, plagued by 'what-if's and genuine threats to your safety. You can be mad at him, or have whatever feelings you need to have, just know that he won't let you go.
Whatever behavior you exhibit after he kidnaps you is fine. He'll suck it up and bear it until your shoulders stop tensing at his footsteps. Heavy, clear footsteps that don't drag or approach too quickly. He considered using his stand to take care of your needs, you cannot be frightened if you don't know he's there, but it's better if you associate him with safety. It's better if you have a familiar face, too.
You stay in his office, but you're free to wander all around his apartment. A large room that has his bed on one side, and his desk on the other. The bed does not fit him. It's yours until you'll allow him to share it with you.
Once you've adjusted to him... he'll shove his face into you and just breathe in as much of you as he can, before he has to go.
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Beloved Grapes 🍇some questions from the fanfic hype ask!
(Also also before the questions: I adore your writing very much!! Even in your tags. There was a recent set of tags where you also wrote something like "I don't know how to word it/I'm not making sense because I'm tired" or something but you had worded it so perfectly beautifully. Anyway. I feel like you also use these really fun turns of phrase which are both unique and always perfectly suited. I still think about the "eye crinkle to eye twinkle ratio" which you wrote in a post about Nat and Kai! Anyway mwah I am eating your writing and your thoughts.)
Terrible OC (In terms of, like, villains. We're being positive today!)
Fic(s) you would/have forced someone else to read
A fun writer quirk you've noticed (Specific word(s) they repeat, detailed setting description, a lot of adjectives, trope they write really well, etc.)
hello pumpkin!
(haha i actually forgot what i wrote that so i am so flattered that you did! like that is really ... i guess touching? i mean i've made no bones that my memory is shit, so i forget even my own stuff. BUT THAT SOMEONE ELSE HOLDS LINES I'VE WRITTEN IN THEIR MINDS. i might tear up?? anyway ima stop before i embarrass myself. but ty <3 :-D)
1] Terrible OC (In terms of, like, villains. We're being positive today!)
okay, so i'm really shit about remembering to read shit on tumblr and i havent read ao3 fanfic in some time. so my answer here might not be satisfactory.
most of my time the past couple have been on rp, you know? but yall dont know my rp buds. [BUT I ENCOURAGE YALL TO GET INTO RP. IT IS SO FUN WHEN YOU'RE PLAYING AGAINST SOMEONE ELSE!!! I feel it challenges your view of your character - an your own writing - in a way writing fic/an original story solo or playing IF doesn't. the collaborative aspect is fun and i love the planning, but there is so much you cannot plan. you will surprise yourself with what you write and what your characters will do. but that's another post]
BUT! i will say for fanfic oc, @ava-du-mortain Cecilia du Mortain. it's been a while since I've read Ceci so my memory is fuzzy -- or LIA, rather. And I wouldn't call her a villain ... but I wouldn't say she's just ~misunderstood~. There is a darkness to her I find intriguing that I feel echoes her sibling's, and Pap has linger without making her cartoonish but intense instead ... coming to my mind was a snippet she showed me between Nairuz and Lia.
2] Fic(s) you would/have forced someone else to read
again, i am so bad with this fandom! and i havent been on ao3 a minute my brain is tired.
but, off the top of my mind, not to be egotistical but @lalizah's gift to me for the .... i forgot what it's called. but yall can read it HERE!!
And here is my ao3 bookmarks. Don't at me. I know. What is it I know? I just. Know. lol.
3] A fun writer quirk you've noticed (Specific word(s) they repeat, detailed setting description, a lot of adjectives, trope they write really well, etc.)
I really wanna add rp peeps! But hrm. My first thought was @evilbunnyking So, I'll go with that! Love the way with words, the way characters and characters actions are stated/described. I'm such a sucker for that when it isn't just adjectives but essence? does that make sense? no.
i'm tired. lmao
#is that a fun writer's quirk? or just an interesting one? both?#im so sleepy i may nap#but i promise - once again - to do better about reading fic#i think it'd be easier for me if it was all in an anthology ewrteww lmao#alas#grapecase answers#plasticdodecagon#pls dont take my unethused responses as a lack of interest or appreciation!!#long post#i also love the fics that dakota and pap wrote for me but ugh val and adam game to mine first and is probs one of the first if not the firs#fics ever given me so i had to pimp it out again lmao#promote it?#thats the betteer word im sure rofl
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This may be overstepping my bounds or you may not want to talk about this on this blog and if so please feel free to just delete this ask but on the chance this is alright here I have a question or two.
In the recent posts about Colin Ross and other professionals you've mentioned your 'professional circle' or your colleagues being therapists and it sounds like you work in the mental health field? If you do I'm just curious if you'd be willing to talk about that at all?
That's rather vague but I've been thinking about going into the mental health field and I'm curious what that might actually look like especially as someone with trauma.
This must be really odd if I've misunderstood what you've said, or uncomfortable if this just isn't something you want to talk about, and either way I know it's not really similar to what you normally post here so I'm sorry. Whether or not you respond though thank you for reading through this. I hope you have a good day.
I don't mind talking about it! I don't particularly enjoy talking about myself, but I have no issue sharing most information like this.
I do not currently work in the mental health field and I have never been licensed.
Like most of us, I'm sure, I was one of those "gifted" kids. I finished high school early with a several year scholarship, and fast tracked through 4 degrees.
My first degree was in social services and counselling. I worked in the field for about a year as a requirement for my education. In Canada, we have satellite schools for "troubled youth", and one was run out of a high school near me, so I counselled and provided support for about 30 students.
However, I was only 18/19 myself, and I was VERY OBVIOUSLY too traumatized to be working in the field. Some of the students were older than I was, and the things I heard and saw, the students that acted out violently that were twice my size...
I wasn't ready. My supervisor at the time, a woman in her 50s, told me, "In a field like this... you can't help others until you've helped yourself."
So I graduated, but switched into law. I wanted to work with those same youth, but maybe from a legal perspective (there were always police and lawyers involved). I finished my legal degree, took two more legal/business management and administration courses, became licensed, and worked for a few years in that field.
I really wasn't happy, though, as a woman and being so young, unless I wanted to start my own business, I was going to continue to face a bunch of condescending, old white men calling me, "high-school," because I don't drive and carry a backpack to and from work.
I work in sales now, making more money than I had ever hoped for, and for a company that is really, really good to its employees. I'm really happy where I ended up, though it was kind of a fluke. I voluntarily relinquished my legal license a couple of years ago because there's zero point in paying $2k a year in upkeep when I'm not going to use it.
Point is, though, I've kept in contact with a number of people in both the legal and sw field. My first therapist and I developed a bit of a weird relationship (not bad) but I was able to go to her on several occasions to talk as colleagues, not just client/therapist. I'm still in touch with her and occasionally reach out for questions. She gave me the info of a couple other specialists, of which I spoke to two of them.
I don't drop these names because it would really narrow down where I am, but on top of Colin Ross and Kymbra Clayton, I've also spoken with Marich, Loewenstein, I've tried to talk to the CTAD clinic, uhhh... Sunshaw is pretty open about her opinions. I'm trying to think of some other big names.
On the second part of this question...
Once you have a handle on your own trauma, you can be very, very successful in the mental health field. You have a unique perspective that can really help others.
It was an amazing experience, and I wish I had been older. I wish I had been through multiple therapists at that point, to see how others behaved. Being in therapy yourself is such an important step that no one talks about.
Trauma fatigue is a real thing that beats people in the field down into nothing. You'll hear every therapist say, "make sure you have your own therapist," and everyone nods their head but never actually goes to therapy. It's not just good for your own mental health, sitting on the other side of that chair can be terrifying and it's important for therapists to remember what that feeling is like, and to see how other clinicians handle clients. What do you like that they do? What do you hate? What are you not going to do with your next client?
You would be shocked to learn how many clinicians out there actually have DID! It's possible and highly rewarding. Just take your time and make sure you're actually ready for it.
There's no age limit on changing careers or going into a new field. Go slow, and take care of yourself first. Then you can be the best resource for others.
I hope that answers both questions <3
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Who Is Who Within The Mystery Gang and Bad Kids Mash Up?
Disclaimer: none of these mash ups are identical. These are just the closer comparisons that I believe to be correct. And yes, for an even number I had to include Scrappy. I love the person that I paired with Scrappy so there’s no hate to that character. Also, I realize that the intrepid hero’s have many characters. I chose the bad kids because they are the most like the mystery gang, not because I don’t like other seasons. I love other seasons. Now hear me out, gang.
Fred is Riz. This probably has to do with the autistic boy swag I get from both of them. They both are so passionate about mystery solving and charismatic, although not always great with people. Though neither of them are natural born leaders they manage to keep the group with a focus on mystery because these dudes really truly love mystery. They’re passionate and cute and terrible at reading social cues. While neither of them are necessarily prone to romance, they are filled with love. Their friends are one of the most important things in their life and they have a complete dedication to them.
Daphne is Fabian. Both of these two come from a rich and privileged life style. They’re not super accustomed to norms and can sometimes struggle with understanding their privilege. That being said, they are protective, caring, and willing to learn. Both of their love languages is gift giving which is great coming from someone with such amazing fashion sense. They can be easy to over look, but in reality they are so kick ass. Either of them could easily kill a man and look hot while doing it. They are more than just looks and money, they are fiercely loyal and insanely active!
Velma is Adaine. This is something we can all agree on. They’re the smarts, yes, but they’re also soft and nervous. Each have a need to be perfect, to strive for the best. And as nice as they are, you do not want to get on their bad side. There is a deep buried rage in there. They both love their friends, but also enjoy time to be alone and recuperate. With all the chaos of a big group it’s okay to need moments to calm yourself. This is very different from loneliness which (I think) both have a deep fear of. Without these group members, the rest of the group would fall way off track. Sometimes taking your time and slowly solving the puzzle is the best move. Velma and Adaine already know that.
Shaggy is Gorgug. This lanky loser can fit so much love inside of them. They are both very low key and chill on the outside. Neither of them are great at expressing their feelings (albeit in different ways) but they know just how to comfort someone when they are down. Maybe neither of them are the brightest in the bunch, probably because all that metal music they listen to at full volume blew out some brain cells. Also, each of these dudes are so awkward when it comes to romance, but that never stops them from trying. These dudes are a glue in the friendship. You just can’t find anyone who dislikes them.
Scooby is Kristen. I know this one is weird, but hear me out. This clumsy idiot would die (and in both cases (if you know where to look) has died) for their friends. Each one is always down for a joke and uses humor to cope with bad situation. And, out of the group, talks the most about food. Even though both of these characters don’t come from great situations (in the majority of Scooby media, Scooby was a misunderstood stray before the gang) they go through life happily and with love. They choose worship as a form of love (food vs a deity) and are both attracted to dogs. THE lovable goofball.
Scrappy is Fig. I know this is going to be controversial, especially since I hate Scrappy and love Fig, but when I’m right I’m right. The sheer amount of confidence and chaos displayed within these characters make no sense, but you love to see it. They get the rest of the gang in so much trouble. As naïveté as both of these guys are they do it to protect their friends (and show off a little bit). Although there has been a change of writing for the mystery gang, the original group loved and was dedicated to scrappy no matter what. Yes, they make mistakes but both of them look up too and honor their friends so much. They love a good joke and to encourage others to put themselves out there. Maybe they aren’t everyone’s cup of tea, but fuck everyone else. Those who like you are the only people you should care about. Also they both love the word fuck.
#dimension 20#dimension20#d20#fantasy high#scooby doo#daphne blake#fred jones#scrappy doo#shaggy rogers#velma dinkley#riz gukgak#fabian seacaster#adaine abernant#gorgug thistlespring#kristen applebees#fig faeth#my special interest#my headcanons
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a byakuya/renji ficlet because i've lost control of my life and they're driving me wild 😭
this is omegaverse (alpha!byakuya/omega!renji) and implied mpreg. established relationship and extremely requited love 🥹
no smut, just emotions 🥲
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A few months into his pregnancy, Renji started to wear his hair loose, flowing down to his shoulders.
Byakuya thought it made him softer, made him look more like the pliant, submissive, mated omega that most people expected him to be.
Byakuya did not say that he hated it. He said nothing at all of his opinion, only helped Renji to wash and brush his hair, and to braid it when requested. He took comfort in his spouse's beauty, his loyalty, his devotion.
He did not speak of what Renji had given up, to give him this—until it occurred to him, one day, that though Renji was neither ill nor dying nor in grave mortal danger, this would kill him all the same.
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Byakuya waited patiently while his steward read his letter, blinked, turned it over to check if there was more written on the back (there was not), and finally set the paper down.
"A year, Byakuya-sama?"
"Indeed," Byakuya said.
Katsura Gentaro had served his father and his grandfather, just as he served Byakuya now. He had seen the family through its worst moments, had weathered its storms, watched its seeds take root and flourish—or fall to rot and ruin.
"This is unprecedented," he said, finally, after a long moment.
"Yes," Byakuya said.
Another long, pondering silence.
"Rukia-sama will have to preside over the Council meetings," Gentaro said. "And your other responsibilities will need to be delegated—and what of the Sixth, my Lord?"
The Sixth, Byakuya knew, would run itself. He tried to reassure Gentaro of this, and of the rest of the plans he had put in place to ensure that things would be taken care of in his absence. But emotion swelled in his chest, sudden as a flash flood, drowning out everything but the feeling of relief. He thought of Renji, and wanted nothing more than to go to him.
"He is very fortunate to have you," Gentaro said gently.
"I am fortunate to have him," Byakuya said.
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Renji did not relax until they were well outside of Sereitei, his reiatsu held tight around himself, his body stiff with apprehension as the carriage took them away.
It was only when roads and buildings gave way to trees and birdsong that he turned towards Byakuya and nosed at his cheek.
His scent rose into the air as his reiatsu did, calm, pleased. Renji always smelled sharp, like pine needles. It never failed to make Byakuya's mouth water.
"A year, huh?"
"Perhaps longer," Byakuya said. He tore his gaze away from the forest and turned to Renji, who was looking at him with his brows furrowed.
"Who are you and what have you done with my husband?"
Though his words were teasing, Byakuya could sense the lingering concern behind them. His heart faltered.
"I've neglected you," he said, desperate to be as honest and plain as possible. He could not bear to be misunderstood, not about this.
Renji made a pained noise. "You haven't. Why would you think that? You've taken care of me—of me and our child—as best as you can. You're busy. I know you are. I knew it when I let you claim me, that I wouldn't be marrying just you, but everything else. I'm not—you haven't—"
"I've let healers care for you, servants. I send gifts when I have been away for too long. I beg Rukia to spend time with you when I cannot."
"There's nothing wrong with that," Renji said stubbornly. "I don't expect—"
"For your husband to be present? For your alpha to be by your side?"
Renji shrugged. "I don't expect you to give up your life for me. Really, you know me. I don't need much.
Bile rose in Byakya's throat. It was the resignation in Renji's voice that threatened to undo him entirely.
How did Renji not know? How had Byakuya failed to make it clear? Byakuya would give him anything he asked. Only, Renji never asked. Byakuya was beginning to realize that he never would. Not because of pride, but something worse—some belief that, somehow, despite everything, he was not worthy.
This could not continue.
Byakuya put his hand on top of Renji's and laced their fingers together. The frazzled signature of Renji's reiatsu evened out, and he let himself sag against Byakuya.
"A whole year," he murmured, almost to himself, with a disconcerting amount of wonder.
Byakuya would write to Gentaro tomorrow. A year would not be enough.
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The Life of a Cannon Fodder Mother-in-Law - 36
Chapter 36: The Step-Mother-in-Law 3
Yan Songyu looked embarrassed, but soon recovered her usual gentleness: "You have misunderstood me too deeply, I really didn't think that much." She bowed gracefully: "You helped me raise Guangping, and I am very grateful. No matter how rude you are, I won't get upset, I owe you after all."
Yan Songyu looked embarrassed, but soon recovered her usual gentleness: "You have misunderstood me too deeply, I really didn't think that much." She bowed gracefully: "You helped me raise Guangping, and I am very grateful. No matter how rude you are, I won't get upset, I owe you after all." She looked like she was ready to be beaten and scolded, which made Liu Yuniang look like a stubborn shrew. Liu Yuniang crossed her arms and looked at her: "I have always been a stingy person. What I care about most is money. Since you are grateful, don't just say it, but bring some real gifts of thanks. I can't feel your sincerity with such a pretentious bow." Yan Songyu choked and said, "Ge Gen doesn't like people who are too snobby. You..." Liu Yuniang interrupted her without any courtesy: "Speaking of snobbery, who can compare to you? Abandoning your husband and marrying a rich man... It seems that you still don't know him well enough. He cares about you so much that he is afraid that you will lose face and be wronged. Aren't these deep feelings."
"Don't talk nonsense!" Yan Songyu was a little annoyed by her repeated provocations: "I am already the wife of the Li family. There is nothing improper between me and him. If we didn't have a child, we would have broken off contact long ago. I came here today not because I feel guilty, but because I don't want you husband and wife to quarrel over me! I have a gentle and kind personality, so I came to try to make peace, but that's not the reason for you to bully me!"
"No one asked you to come," Liu Yuniang sneered, "I don't know what's good and what's wrong, so I can't feel your kindness, okay?" She stretched out her hand and said, "Get out of here!" From the day Zhang Manyue got married, Yan Songyu was a relative in her family. Ordinary people are always polite to their relatives. Even if they are dissatisfied in their hearts, they are kind on the surface. In fact, this is the first time that Yan Songyu had felt unwelcome by Ge Gen's wife. She had a look of disbelief on her face. She had been the wife of a wealthy family for many years, she couldn't say anything unpleasant and her face turned red with anger: "You... are too much." After saying this, she walked away with a fling of her sleeves. Liu Yuniang shouted behind her: "If you really want to match us up, don't go to Ge Gen to complain, otherwise, we will quarrel because of you again." Yan Songyu almost fell over when she heard this and glared back fiercely. Liu Yuniang also stared: "How big are your eyes?" Yan Songyu: "..." The two of them had a quarrel, and all the neighbors saw it. An aunt asked curiously: "Manyue, is that Guangping's mother?" Everyone on the street knew that Zhang Manyue married a divorced man, but they had never seen Yan Songyu. They only knew that the Ge family did not turn against that woman and still treated her as a relative. "Yes." Liu Yuniang's face was full of ridicule: "We were quarreling as husband and wife, and she was kindly trying to reconcile it, but it's a pity that I don't appreciate it." The aunt's expression was hard to describe. Liu Yuniang was not idle. In just half a day, she found a job for Ge Guangyu learning how to make snacks. She also sent Ge Guangxing to the medical clinic. She didn't care about the salary, as long as he could learn the craft. Ge Gen didn't come to the house again, but in the evening, Yan Niang came.
Liu Yuniang didn't give this cheap daughter-in-law any face at all, and said: "If you're here to invite me back, there is no need to ask." Yan Niang sighed: "Mom, this money must be spent wisely, and it is only right to send return gifts. You being so angry about is really..." "My parents don't care about this matter, it's not your turn to lecture me." Liu Yuniang said indifferently: "I know why you came. There is no one to cook at home, and you just spent a lot of money. You probably don't want to spend money to buy food, so you specially came to convince me to return and serve your family?"
She guessed it right. Yan Niang came here to really persuade her to come home. She really wanted to save some money by cooking at home. She was pregnant, so it was okay to help, but it was difficult for her to cook alone.
She didn't think there was anything wrong with persuading her mother-in-law. The Ge family was not a wealthy family. People have to do something with their lives, and it's only right to help the family save money. "Mom, we are all family, it's too harsh to say you need to serve us." Yan Niang said disapprovingly, "You can't live in grandparents' house all year round, can you? Guangyu and Guangxing are not children, it's ok for them to come back and play for half a day, but if they stay all the time, wouldn't that be troublesome?"
"Okay." Liu Yuniang called out to the two siblings and said, "Let's go home and wait for the food to be ready." Yan Niang: "..." This must be a joke. During the day, everyone in the Zhang family was doing their own things, and only Madam Chen was home. Seeing the mother and two children going out, she felt uneasy and lowered her voice to say: "If they bully you, ask Guangxing to come back and tell us." After two days, the Ge family home was no different from before, except for a little chaos. If Zhang Manyue were there, she would definitely start cleaning up as soon as she entered. Liu Yuniang, on the other hand, glanced around and said: "My head hurts. I'm going to rest for a while." When she entered, she also said: "Guangyu, Guangxing, you two should boil some water to wash and change your clothes. Remember to go find the master tomorrow morning."
Yan Niang was dumbfounded and took a few steps forward: "Mom, what master?" "People have to do something with their lives. What's the point of sitting idle at home every day?" Liu Yuniang said, "The Ge family has only one shop. Judging from the current situation, there is definitely no place for them. They are still young. If they don't learn a craft, won't they have to work as laborers in the future?"
These words made Yanniang not know how to respond. While she was standing stunned, the door closed: "I have a headache and need to take a rest. Call me for dinner. Yan Niang, when you are cleaning the yard please be quiet. Don't disturb me." Yan Niang: "..." This was not as she expected. How did she end up as the one cleaning the yard? She obviously didn't want to work, so she asked the mother and children to come back to help. When she turned around, she found that the sister and brother were already boiling water and were very busy. She became pregnant not long after she entered the house. She had always done whatever she wanted at home, and no one had ever forced her to do anything. Yan Niang originally thought that if Liu Yuniang and her children were invited back, the yard would become clean... Now they are back, but it's still the same. However, there were other people at home, so it wasn't her turn to do these things, so she went back to her room immediately.
In the evening, Old Madam Ge and the Ge father and son came back from the shop. When they entered and saw the mess, they were not in a good mood. Ge Gen couldn't scold his pregnant daughter-in-law, but the old lady felt embarrassed and said immediately: "Yan Niang, you should move a little bit when you are pregnant, so that you can give birth easily in the future." Yan Niang appeared at the door with an apologetic look on her face: "Grandma, I fell asleep. I was thinking that since Guangyu was back... Didn't she take care of her?" Ge Gen was startled and asked, "Where's your mother?" "She came back." Yan Niang hurriedly took credit: "I went to coax her. But mother said she had a headache and went to lay down after she returned. By the way father, mother also found a teacher for Guangyu and Guangxing, and asked them to go to work tomorrow."
Ge Gen didn't pay much attention to what she said and pushed open the main room door and asked: "Is your headache better? Do you want to call a doctor?" Liu Yuniang leaned on the pillow and said: "I won't die for the time being, I just want to lie down." It was very obvious that she was suffering from laziness. Ge Gen was silent for a moment, then: "I used the silver to buy birthday gifts. It is a normal gift exchange between relatives. This silver cannot be saved. Why are you still angry?"
"I'm not angry." Liu Yuniang put her hair in a bun and prepared to go out for dinner: "Although I'm back, what I said before still counts. If you insist on giving us this generous gift, we won't be able to live like this."
Ge Gen's heart skipped a beat.
He thought that since she came back, she had accepted the gift situation. But she didn't? "Just now Yan Niang said that we are a family, and there is no such thing as who serves whom. I have been married to you for so many years, and except for my confinement period, I have never eaten meals cooked by others. I wanted to come back and try it." Liu Yuniang finished tying her hair up: "Is the meal ready?"
To be honest, Ge Gen didn't know. However, he recalled the situation when he entered the house just now. The kitchen was dark and there was no fire in the stove. It seemed that no one was cooking. "I'll have someone send it over." Ge Gen felt that he couldn't press her too hard. Zhang Manyue was obviously resentful and needed to be coaxed. Furthermore, he thought that delivering food was also a test. Zhang Manyue knew how to be frugal and was never willing to spend money to buy food. In the past, she would have immediately gone to the kitchen to cook. If there is a first time for something, there will definitely be a next time. As long as she was willing to go to the kitchen, life would be the same as before. Unfortunately, he was disappointed. After hearing this, the wife in front of him not only did not reprimand him for his extravagant spending and announce she was going to the kitchen to cook, but she actually sat back on the bed and said, "Call me when the food has arrived." Ge Gen: "..."
The woman who had always been reluctant to spend money suddenly changed her temper. It seemed that she was not forcing herself to endure it, but was really waiting for the meal with peace of mind. He finally realized that this time he seemed to have really offended her.
"Manyue, why can't you be reasonable? This is a normal courtesy gift..." Liu Yuniang raised her hand to stop him: "Are you saying that I am unreasonable?" She asked in a deep voice: "I have been married to you for so many years and I haven't ever had a comfortable rest. Can't I eat the food cooked by my daughter-in-law? Or can't I eat the food you buy?"
Ge Gen choked: "That's not what I meant." Liu Yuniang instructed: "I feel uncomfortable and don't want to see you again. After you wash up, find a place to sleep by yourself. Before the birthday banquet, I don't want to stay in the same room with you."
As for after the birthday party, she won't live with him anymore. Ge Gen's face was ashen: "Where do you want me to go?" The room where Ge Guangxing lived was very small. When two grown men entered, there was no place to turn around. It was newly built when Ge Guangping got married, and the bed was also very small. Liu Yuniang suggested: "Then after I finish my meal, should I go back to my parents' house to stay?" Ge Gen: "..." Quarrels between husband and wife will naturally cause people to talk. If after finally coming back, she ran away again, those gossipers on the street would start to speculate in private. The key point is that the two of them quarreled over giving birthday gifts to the Li family. If this matter spread to the ears of the Li family, wouldn't it be a joke? It wasn't good for Yan Songyu either. "Stay!" Ge Gen said angrily, "I can't offend you." He turned around and left. The dinner was delivered by a restaurant on the street, but the old madam felt very distressed. While eating, she muttered: "We can't eat like this tomorrow. With this money, can't we buy more meat? Do it yourself, it's just a matter of a little fire and a little salt, don't be lazy!" Liu Yuniang agreed: "Mother is right. Yan Niang, did you hear it?" Yan Niang: "..." Before she opened her mouth, Ge Guangping had already said, "She is pregnant, and the floor in the kitchen is full of water. It would be terrible if she fell." Liu Yuniang thought deeply: "I have a headache and can't do anything. Guangyu and Guangxing have to work and won't come back all day. You are busy too... Then don't do it, just buy some food." Ge Gen: "..." Is she crazy?
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hellsing pokemon au !!
as promised, im going back to my usual hellsing shenanigans with some pokemon stuff. ive had this in my brain for months but have never gotten around to doing anything with it! my autistic ass has absorbed information about pokemon before i could have normal thought patterns, so hopefully my takes are at least a little satisfying. feel free to interact with ur own thoughts and suggestions!
i provided long explanations of each, but if you dont want to read all that just look at the pictures :P
long post ahead!
note: these aren't definitive teams, just me throwing around ideas. don't take this as the holy grail of headcanons or anything.
seras victoria
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boltund would be her first pokemon i think, her main partner from before her work with the organization. togetic is here because idk im a togetic 4lifer and im a kinnie ? it just really made sense to me, just vibes, plus i think she really needed a flying type. may become a togekiss later, that would be cute. umbreon is pip's eevee that she evolved, and blastoise is a gift from walter. i think she needs more red pokemon to match her color palette and vampire vibes so ill probably add to this!
alucard
alucard needs a legendary of course, so darkrai. i think they would be good friends, they give the same "misunderstood tortured soul" vibes. houndoom to represent baskerville, noivern to fit the vampire/bat aesthetic.
and an important distinction:
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i think girlycard should have a hisuian sneasel. they're the same critter. two ancient beings.
sir integra
im surprised with how much i struggled with this one. i feel like a fake fan. smh, anyways. sirfetch'd is perfect to me-even the unevolved farfetch'd is super fitting too-but i included the final form for this post. i wanted to stick with galar pokemon, but aegislash is literally a sword. cmon. stoutland is a recommendation from a friend that i 100% agree with. ive always associated her with the serperior line, so snivy was probably her starter. i think that'd be cute. im really open to suggestions on this one because i think she deserves more steel or normal types.
pip bernadotte
this is a big one! there were so many good options with pip... and i didnt even mean to color code it 😅 i wanted him to have an electric type to match seras (to add to the whole rivals-to-lovers aesthetic), so his main partner is raichu! it was between that or mudsdale, who i also really like (and is the only one on this team who cant be found in kalos, haha). i wanted him to have a bird (for the geese) so there's dodrio. scrafty and tauros just fit the vibe perfectly to me-they're sorta like honorable mentions. eevee is originally his but he eventually gives it to seras, who evolves it into umbreon. if pip would have kept it, i think it would have evolved into sylveon (the whole kalos thing).
walter c dornez
some interesting picks for walter. corvisquire is his main guy, his "angel of death", he's raised it from a rookidee since he was a kid. maybe it would evolve into corviknight when he becomes Dark Walter. not sure how that would work. i choose not to think about dark walter. bisharp is there for the steel typing vibes as well as the chess symbolism: it really hits right for me, with walter's arc being about how he's played as a "pawn", in a sort of way. also a nod to a very dear friend of mine who loves walter and the pawniard line respectively. :) now, why leavanny, you ask? it learns string shot, of course! also because id like to think he would raise a sewaddle in his old age to help him with things around the estate.
..aaand im out of room for images in the post! i'll make a part 2 with some bonus thoughts + the iscariot organization if i feel like it. bye for now!
#thank u to @pebblezone for inspiring me to actually post this#anyways i#can u guys tell that i like pip#shakes violently#tried to include some unconventional picks but...#this shows incredible bias to pokemon that i really really like#*looking at tauros and togetic* you wouldnt be here if it weren't for me#hellsing#hellsing ultimate#pokemon au#seras victoria#alucard hellsing#integra hellsing#pip bernadotte#walter c dornez
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Thank you for the time and care you put into your politics and history posts! They're a big part of what I love about Tumblr: it's a place that can introduce me to new ideas and perspectives, and give me enough of a roadmap to them that I feel equipped to go learn more on my own when the subject really grabs me. It's a fantastic thing that you're doing for the world, genuinely a service for the rest of us!
That said, I do have a small request, that you're of course welcome to choose to ignore if you'd rather; your posts are a gift freely given and I'm not here to make demands as if you owe us more. But, I'd like to ask you to reconsider using the term sociopath to describe public figures. It's a contemporary diagnosis applied to a hugely stigmatized misunderstood mental illness, and the people living with it and trying to recover/improve themselves face enormous stigma and personal struggle. To apply it casually to Trump as a way to easily encapsulate his uniquely horrible behavior contributed to that stigma in a direct way. Please consider learning a bit more about what someone diagnosed with APD today goes through, what the internal experience of that struggle is like, or at the very least just choosing a descriptor that isn't medicalized to talk about public figures whose evils go way beyond the scope of a personality disorder.
Again, thank you for what you give us all, it really is so valuable!
Thanks for your kind words, and for your request. I do always try to honestly consider these things when they are brought up to me, as I do understand (obviously) that something I casually dash off can have an unintended effect to the people who read it later or are unfamiliar with what I mean. And, of course, as someone with mental illnesses of different sorts, I am aware of all that stigma and don't intend to casually contribute to it.
That said, I do think Trump obviously, clinically exhibits traits of both psycho/sociopathy and narcissistic personality disorder (just reading the introductions to both those Wiki articles will make you go "yeah, uh, sounds like Trump.") So while I'm willing to use a different word than sociopath if it would help get my point across, it's not the case that I'm just arbitrarily picking a serious mental illness to use in a derogatory way; I'm commenting on something that I think actually reflects and indeed, contextualizes his behavior in an important way. There are certainly people who struggle with these disorders and make good-faith efforts to fix them. Trump is not one of those people. And while yes, he has many, many issues that go way beyond the scope of a personality disorder, they certainly contribute to his pattern of behavior, and I don't think it's wrong or incorrect to point that out. However, I will attempt to make the distinction clear if it should later arise.
Thanks! I hope this makes sense to you.
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There were a few parasocial relationship discussions in the past week on reddit and someone brought up Jungkook almost every time as someone who leans more into the parasocial relationship with his fans - or enables it, I'm not sure how to word it properly. And it made me a little confused because to me, it doesn't seem like he does it? Or maybe I'm not that delulu to think that what he's doing Is indeed parasocial sometimes, or I don't fully understand what counts as parasocial with an idol. So I wanted to ask: do you think that he's leaning a bit into it?
If I remember correctly they brought up him calling the fans as his girlfriend(s) - I honestly just took that as a joke but Idk? - and him folding his underwear on camera - again very confusing to me because why is that parasocial? - and him sleeping on camera - well okay I can see why This counts as parasocial, but the others?
Sure, compared to idols who only do the necessary fanservice and rarely interact with fans he really does a lot more, like he had a million lives this year alone and he shared his recipes with us and gifted songs and etc. but I still don't know. Is it really more parasocial than it should be and I'm just simply not noticing it? 😅
i think his dynamic with the fandom is appropriately parasocial enough without it becoming overly codependent even though some would probably argue that it might feel that way from time to time. he's expressed that the fandom can't be excluded from his life and i believe he really feels that way since ARMY have been a constant in his life for a decade from such a young age and that's a big factor into why it's so strongly important to him.
i think he leaned into it way more than ever this year on purpose because he knew there'd be a temporary pause eventually and he wanted to make the most of his spare time with us in a less stress-inducing way while being in full control of it. consider how rare that's been in his long career, everything from your fanmeets/concerts to your scheduled livestreams at the company building being orchestrated and planned out for you. him deciding to say "fuck it i wanna chat with fans whenever i feel like it" and kickstarting the habit of going live from home without telling anyone at work first and letting it become a regular thing was a conscious decision he likely put thought into after he got away with it the first couple times. i'm not implying he didn't have control of that before, but there was always an obvious protocol to follow for safety reasons, which is understandable, but he wanted to take the risk and so he did. other members would later follow that example too.
i think sometimes people misunderstood him or purposely misconstrued his words on those lives, especially his jokes or his way of expressing his thoughts/feelings to fit their own narrative or image of him. people want him to fit the mold they've created in their heads of him, so no matter how often he came live and was vulnerable and honest with us, people still looked for ways and reasons to dictate what he did, how he felt, how he meant something differently from what he said when he couldn't have been more clear, etc.
i can't make you see something differently from how you already do. i don't love the term "delulu" in this sort of context because like you said, a lot of the normal things he let us see on his lives were normal every-day chores and not everyone is going to consider it very parasocial to have seen it, but how often do you hear of idols letting their fans in that much? hardly ever. it was fun for both parties because it was unexpected and sometimes spontaneous (like sleeping/cooking/exercising) and he felt comfortable enough to do certain things with an audience. we're talking about someone who'd been mostly ghost online for like two years. someone who has a history of being very shy. it meant a lot to fans to see him come out of his shell and grow even more comfortable with us, even if it sometimes put him in some unsafe situations because unfortunately, there are some really scary people out there. idk where the parasocial quota is, so i can't say what it "should be" but i can tell you i've never seen any famous person engage with their fans in as pure of a way as he did this year.
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Do you have any more Eddie dear headcanons you wanna share?
Im sorry for being annoying about him, I don’t get to talk about welcome home a lot so when I do I get really excited :>
No you're so good! I will always take the opportunity to talk about my favorite goober :D
First, Eddie sews! Can't remember how canon this is, I could be tricking myself haha. But I think Eddie has so many little hobbies and sewing is one of them!
He makes all sorts of things: New ties, shirts, dresses, etc! For himself and for his friends!
He and Poppy make sweaters and scarves for everyone together during winter :)
I also like to think he's made Frank a bowtie and/or vest as a gift,, sigh what a loving husband
Speaking of Frank, Eddie uses so many pet names for his husband. Darling, love, sweetie/sweetheart, sugar, puddin', bug, honey/hun, pumpkin. just so many southern petnames
Another hobby of his is obviously crafts, but he really likes origami! It's fun/relaxing and keeps his hands busy when things are slow. Also he can make gifts! A win win!
cough is also helps with his fine motor skills, hand eye coordination struggle is real cough
This man is so autistic adhd to me. His forgetfulness and clumsiness is all part of it. As someone with audhd I can't walk anywhere without getting a bruise from running into things lol. So I'm projecting a bit haha
Mail is his hyperfixation. Eddie can tell you everything and anything about mail/postal history, including stamps. Point to a stamp in his collection he can tell you the year it was made, where, and who. Plus anything else he may know about it.
He loves thriller novels and dramas. And sappy romance novels. He's probably read Frankenstein and Dracula a bunch of times. And he would absolutely read Twilight. Dunno if he'd like it, but he would read it lol
my gen z youth is showing,, idk when vhs was the most common/around but Eddie would have a vhs collection. He'd have the og Frankenstein on vhs and would treasure it. Again, my time is off so just pretend
Also if it's not obvious, Frankenstein is his favorite classic monster story. He feels for the Monster bc Eddie thinks he's so misunderstood. Honestly he probably relates a bit. Also makes a banger costume lol
Eddie would do drag more if he had the time, I think. (Also if the times were more accepting cough-) He likes to feel pretty!
cough I have so many he/she Eddie thoughts but that's another post for another day
Very uncomfortable around bugs/insects but has come to terms with butterflies after spending so much time with Frank.
Similar note, Eddie would never hurt a bug (on purpose) he just calls Frank to safely relocate it. He may not like them, but he meant it when he said he'd never hurt a fly!
Oh I could keep going but I fear I'll dive into au territory lol. I have a habit of updating technology/times/etc with fandoms that take place before the 2000s yikes
#Thx for the ask!!#neon child#You are not a bother I love talking about eddie#I hyperfixate on characters more than anything so Eddie brain rot is real and won't leave me alone#i have more thoughts but these are what I got for now haha!#i also have family headcanons but again another post another day sigh#spolier alert! he the youngest of three!#cough Anyway im in the car so sorry this took a bit to get to!#im going to look at sheds hehe#or as i like to call them: cheap tiny homes ✨#oh i realized i don't have an ask tag#uuuhh#dizztalkstoomuch#yeah i like that we'll do that#welcome home#eddie dear#headcanon#headcanon asks#welcome home puppet show#ive tried to proof read this like 5 times#so if there's any typos just#ignore them lol srry
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