#it’s just ugh sending asks and social anxiety……

[sableeira]

why is sending asks so anxiety inducing. this is the socially awkward cringefail website.

[darkficsyouneveraskedfor]

Rush Hour

Hey hey! This weekend (Jan 25-26) I’m going to be playing drabble roulette! I’ve curated a list of characters and prompts and I’m spinning the wheel!

Character: Bucky Barnes

Prompt: a shopping mall, crowded and loud . 

Warnings: this drabble includes deceit and dark elements, along with social anxiety. Please mind these warnings and take care.

Explicit, 18+. Please reblog and leave some feedback.

You’re lost. You didn’t even want to come in the first place. The mall is a circus of lights and noise and strangers. 

You spin in the sea of shoppers that fill the food court. The smell of food competes in your nose; the strong undercurrent of cinnamon at war with the soy sauce radiating from the noodle kiosk. You clasp onto the sides of your cable knit sweater and stumble as you’re nearly run over by a mother and her stroller. 

You excuse yourself as you step out of her way and receive only a sneer in return. You’re trying to stay out of the way but everywhere you turn, there’s a person or a table or a garbage can overflowing with wrappers. 

You back yourself against one of the tall chair along the curved table across from the popular chain coffee booth. You flick your thumb against the loop on your dyed jeans and try to catch your breath. There’s a map just on the other side of the dining area. 

You peer around as you try to plot a path through. Just do it. You set your arms straight and march forward between the tables. You sweep around as a man with a tray steps ahead of you and continue down the other side. You make a stunted zigzag across the food court toward the beacon of the touch screen map. 

You stop short as a group of middle-aged women butt in and tap it first. The squabble over where to go first as the search bar waits for input. You bounce on your feet impatiently. You take out your phone to text Melody. She’s likely at Sephora, you just need to figure out where that is. 

You key in your message, ‘where are you?’ 

You just asked her to wait while you used the bathroom. That’s it. She couldn’t even do that. She’s too obsessed with taking pictures in all the wall mirrors and trying on everything, even things you can’t afford. 

You wouldn’t be there if your cousin wasn’t getting married. If she didn’t insist on a colour-code. It’s too much. Too fussy. Why can’t you just wear the same old blue dress you always do. It’s not ugly. Simple. Does the trick. 

She doesn’t answer. Not right away. You lower your phone and look up. The women continue to titter before the screen, zooming out on the mask and gasping as they try to figure out where to go. Another argument ensues. 

You’re once more nudged by a passing a shopper. They snarl at you to watch out and you shrink down as you look at your phone again. You can look up the map on the mall website. You’re not very good with maps. The touchscreen will at least tell you where you are. Can they just go find the department store and move? 

You finally find a PDF of the map and spread your fingers to expand. You don’t know where any of these stores are. You check the date in the corner. This is from before the renovations. Ugh. 

You flip back to the conversation with your sister and send a single question mark. Get off your damn Snap and answer. Please. Your nose tingles as your panic swells. You just want to get out of here. You’re going to cry if people don’t stop! 

“Excuse me,” the low timbre makes you flinch and you back away from the man who stands next to you.  

You make yourself as small as you can. “I’m in your way, I’m sorry.” 

“Hm? No, I... I was passing by and you... you look lost. Not to be nosy.” You make yourself look at him, not wanting to be rude. He’s a stranger but he seems helpful. And his eyes are so blue. 

You frown. Is it that obvious that you’re entirely clueless. You shrug, then nod, the drop your chin in defeat. “A little,” you confess. 

“It’s a zoo in here,” he says. “What’re you looking for?” 

“Um,” you hesitate and wet your lips. You peer around. “I don’t know. My sister... hasn’t answered.” 

“Ah, you know, the lump I walked in with went and disappeared too. Said he was grabbing a pretzel but I can’t find him either,” he sniffs and grips his hips in displeasure. “Hate these places.” 

“Me too,” you murmur as you glance down at his leather gloves. It’s not that cold out but you don’t mention it. 

“Marnie, no. Not that way,” one of the older women squalls and taps the screen furiously. 

“Ahem,” the man beside you clears his throat, “she’s waiting for her turn. She’s been waiting.” 

“Excuse you. We have every right to use this map,” a woman faces him with bluster. “So wait your turn.” 

“It’s up that corridor and to the left,” he points. 

“Aren’t you rude?” Another squawks. 

“I’m helping,” he utters dully. “Hey, uh,” he turns to you, “how about we go find another map? Think they might’ve broke this one anyway.” 

“We did not--” 

“Have a good day, ladies,” he gestures you away. You eagerly accept the escape. You don’t like confrontation. 

“There’s one down at the popcorn place,” he says. “I just passed it before Sam ran off.” 

“Sam? It that... a friend?” You wonder. 

“Sure, you can call him that. You said you’re here with your sister?” He guides you away from the lunchtime rush. 

“Yeah. I gotta... get a dress for a wedding. Something pink.” 

“Pink, ah. You’re favourite colour?” 

“Not really.” 

“Ah, right. Big wedding? Doesn’t sound like it’s yours.” 

“No, my cousin,” you explain. 

“Right,” he nods. 

“You probably don’t care.” 

“What makes you think I don’t?” He asks. 

“Well... you don’t know me.” 

“I guess not,” he stops at the map and faces you, “I’m Bucky.” 

“Oh, uh...” you introduce yourself. 

You look at him dumbly, unsure how to proceed. He coughs behind his gloved fist and his brows flick. “So, did your sister answer yet?” 

“Oh, yeah, well...” you check your phone. “I don’t wanna waste any more of your time so I’ll just use this map and figure it out.” 

“Not wasting my time,” he assures. “But if you’re trying to get me to go away, noted.” 

“No, I... no, I’m not. I just...” your phone vibrates and you cringe. You check the screen. “She’s at Therese’s?” 

You turn and tap the screen, typing on the large keyboard. You tap the magnifying glass and the map generates. You hover your finger over the marker that shows where you are then along the highlighted route. 

“That’s all the way on the other side,” he says. 

“Yeah...” you drone. 

“I don’t mind showing you. I came from that way.” 

“No, oh, no. I can’t.” 

“I might run into my buddy,” he shrugs. “You know, lotta people stare when I’m wandering on my own... so you’d be doing me a favour.” 

“I guess... I owe you.” 

His lips curve, just a little, and his cheeks dimple under his dark beard. “Down here then loop around. Won’t have to go back through the food court.” 

You follow him. Your own sense of direction would have you circling for hours. He takes you past the game shop and the organic food place you’ve never been too. You turn down the next corridor, it’s mostly empty. 

“So,” he begins, “you get a plus one to the wedding?” 

“Um, no, I don’t think--” 

As you pass by one of the hallways marked for employees only, he elbows you and you stagger sideways. You’re thrown off balance and hit the wall. He’s so fast you have no time to react. He grips the back of your neck and covers your mouth as he drags you down the hall. 

Your soles bounce off the floor as you flail your arms helplessly. What is he doing? He pinches your nape until your eyes water. 

He shoves you against a door and twists the handle. The metal cracks in his grip and the lock gives to his brute force. He hauls you inside and flips you around against the inside of the door. 

“Doll,” he growls through the dark. “You’re gonna wanna be real quiet for me.” 

He keeps his hand on your mouth, the leather sticking to your lips, and he shifts around. You can’t see much in the tight closet. He closes something around your wrist and you squeak. He hushes you and presses his palm flush to your nose. 

“Hands behind your back for me,” he growls. 

You wriggle and he pushes your head into the door until it throbs. 

“Now.” 

You obey. He reaches behind you and another loop closes around your other wrist. Like a magnet, your hands are wrenched together and lock into place. How did he do that? 

He’s silent as he peels his hand back only to quickly smother you with the other. You feel something cool spread over your lips and insert between your teeth, locking your jaw in place. You quake and kick out. 

He grabs your shoulders and puts them straight. He hisses, “one more time and that’s it.” 

You snivel and stop. He bends and another weight secures your ankles. Ensnared, he leaves you against the wall and backs away. Your tears overflow as you blink into the dim. 

The rustle of fabric and the scuff of his boots undercut the tension. He comes back to you and moves you. He angles you around blindly and lifts you. He forces you into something. You don’t know what it is, only that you’re stuffed down into it, bent up into the confined. Something falls over you, light but enough to bury you further in darkness. 

He wheels you around and the motion makes you dizzy. He opens the door and pushes you out into the light. You peer up at him between the crumpled paper and cans, frightened and restrained, from within the rolling garbage bin.  

His hair is pulled back into a low pony beneath a grey ballcap that matches his janitor’s shirt. He keeps his eyes ahead of him as he pushes you, casually turning out into the mall corridor. He doesn’t flinch as other shoppers pass by, unable to see you beneath the rubbish. 

“Now, doll, don’t you be thinking of trying anything...” he mutters as he keeps his eyes ahead of him. “Those cuffs can only get tighter.” 

[miragemurder]

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Secret

Part 2 of Spotlight

Pairing: Veneer x GN Reader

Genre: Fluff, Make out

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A continuation of the oneshot, Spotlight.

For the people who asked. <3 ★ ★ ★

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A few weeks had passed since you last been at the club with your friend. So much had happened in that one day, it felt like you just rode the craziest roller coaster in the world. After the party, you and your friend spent the rest of the night giggling and fawning over the guy you just met. He wasn’t just some guy though, he was the Veneer.

You laid back in your bed, head softly hitting the pillow behind you as you pick up your phone from the side table. Today was a relaxing day as you didn’t have anything planned for today, so why not just lay back and go on your favorite social media. You clicked on an app and doom scrolled for a little bit. Most of the posts you saw were just of people going crazy about the latest stars and their new albums. You sighed and kept scrolling, not really interested in other people’s “fangirling.”

You stopped on a post that really struck your interest. It was a post of Velvet and Veneer. You didn’t even know they had social media let alone allowed to because of their agencies. You continued watching the video as they were announcing their touring schedule and meet ups. That’s when your brain clicked. You had Veneer’s number.

You got up from bed and scurried to your dresser, opening up a drawer and picking up the crumbled piece of paper that had his contact information. You took in a deep breath as you opened up the message app on your phone and dialed in his number. You decided to keep it simple and type in a little “Hey, its [_____]”

You dropped your phone on top of your dresser and paced around your room, anxiety getting the best of you. You didn’t know why you were so nervous, it was one simple text. You felt like you were about to pass out until you heard a buzz. You ran over to your phone and read the message.

“Oh hey! I didn’t think you were actually gonna send a text. Had me worried lol.” He sent a little laugh emoji next to his message.

You sighed deeply, all the worry draining from your body as you sent him a reply.

“Heh yeah, I eventually gained the courage lol”

You slightly cringed at the text as you sent it. You waited a couple of minutes for a response until you heard the vibration coming from your phone. He was trying to call you. You panicked and quickly picked up the phone.

“Hey sorry for the incoming call. It’s so much easier just to talk than having to type out everything. How were you lately?” He asked.

“Oh I’ve been good, just relaxing at home and sometimes going out everyone once in a while.” You sighed and smiled. You were nervous and excited all at once, you just hoped he couldn’t hear any of it.

“I wanted to invite you over to one of our meet and greets at the Rage Dome tomorrow, do you think you’ll be able to make it?” He questioned.

You quickly looked at the calendar you had hanging up on your wall. It’s not like you had anything planned but you liked to check.

“Nope! I should be free tomorrow.” You said, a little bit of your excitement coming out.

“Great, can’t wait to see you there.” He softly laughed at your excitement, making you fluster.

“Ugh, crimp is pestering at the moment. I’ll call you back when I can, bye.” He dragged out the bye and hung up. You sighed and laid back on top of your bed. You really were down bad for this guy.

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The next day rolls around and you slowly get up and stretch. You smiled to yourself, remembering that you get to see him today. You get up to go take a shower and fix your hair. You set the shower to be a nice warm temp and started stripping. You hopped in and quickly cleaned yourself, not wanting to spend forever in the shower. You quickly got out and got dressed, picking out your best formal outfit you can find. Yes, it is a meet and greet but you still wanted to look good for him.

You finished up your final touches when your phone started vibrating again. You picked up your phone and answered the call.

“How is my number one fan doing this fine morning?” He laughed. You laughed with him.

“I’m doing good, just finished getting ready for the day. How about you?” You asked, leaving the bathroom and sitting down on your bed.

“I’m doing alright. Honestly, I am way too tired to be getting ready right now but what can I say. Crimps already all up in my hair about the meet and greet. I don’t know why she’s so worried, the meet and greet doesn’t start until six.” He groaned. You can practically hear him roll his eyes at the end of his sentence.

“Well, I wish you luck.” You said softly.

“Thank you.” He paused for a moment until he continued. “What if you come an hour earlier so we can meet up beforehand? In private.”

You flustered a dark red. There was no way he just asked you to meet up IN PRIVATE.

“Uh yeah that would be great!” Your voice almost trembled because of your nerves. There is no way that this was actually happening.

“Great, I’ll see you at five.” He hung up. You sat at your bed, shocked. You slowly went downstairs and went into your living room, filling in time until it was ready to go.

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You stepped inside the Rage Dome and were almost blinded by all the lights they had going on. You were about to pull out your phone until you saw someone approaching you.

“Hey you made it!” Veneer cheered, spreading out his arms to wrap you into a hug.

“Yeah, I was just about to ask you where to go.” You chuckled and so did he.

“Let’s go on back to my break room. I don’t want anyone seeing us out here. I’m not ready for all the paparazzi.” He shuttered sarcastically.

He walked you back to where all the breakrooms were. The rooms were for the celebrities to take breaks in, just in case they needed to fix their appearance or if the crowd was being too much. Once you walked in you noticed that Velvet wasn’t there.

“Where’s Velvet?” You asked, scanning the room.

“Oh she’s getting ready in another room. They gave us separate rooms which I kind of enjoy.” He smiled and looked at you.

“Can I just say something real quick? Your outfit is gorgeous.” He complimented. You smiled, blushing a little.

“Thank you, I didn’t think you would care that much.” You said with an awkward smile.

“It looks really good on you.” He stared into your eyes. You felt like you were about to explode with how close you too were. He slightly pulled you over to the couch and sat you down, him sitting right next to you.

He gently touched the side of your face with his hand, still staring longingly into your eyes. He slightly looked down at your lips and back up again before asking something.

“Can I..” He spoke hesitantly, leaning closer. You followed his actions and leaned in. He brushed a piece of hair back behind your ear and quickly closed the gap between you two. Your eyes fluttered closed as you two both enjoyed each other’s presence.

You wrapped your arms around him, your hand slowly moving through his hair. He deepened the kiss, his other hand grabbing your hips and moving you closer. He pulled back for a quick second to give you guys some time to breathe. His hair was a mess and his eyes were half-lidded. He was breathing heavily. You took in the sight, making sure to keep it ingrained in your memory.

“That was…” He looked down into your gaze. You smiled slightly and pulled him back in for another kiss. You laid down on the couch, wrapping your arms around his neck and pulling him on top. You continued making out for what felt like forever until you heard some foot steps from down the hall. You guys hurriedly got up and brushed yourself off, making sure it looked like nothing happened.

You were just about to walk out the door before Veneer put his hand on your shoulder.

“We can…keep this….as our little secret.”

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Aye! I made a part two! I hope you guys enjoyed this. I tried to keep it as Pg-13 as possible since he is a teenager. He’s still a little out of character but eh, what are you gonna do. Anyways, leave requests down in the comments!

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[multim00n]

Hunter/the Golden Guard dating headcannons

Warnings: none, just fluff, maybe some spelling errors

Ps: I’m taking requests, but only for headcannons, PLEASE send in some requests I’m begging you

As the Golden Guard:

First of all, can we take a moment to appreciate how good this guy looks in dark colors? Like dang girrrl

Anyways

Okok so bro is very clingy but like, distant at the same time? Idk how to explain it

He covers up his true personality due to the military mindset he has, and it’ll take a long time to warm up to you and break out of that mindset while he’s with you

You’ll probably have to be the one to initiate physical affection like cuddles, hugs, and kisses since Hunter is terrified of making you uncomfortable, he just doesn’t want you to leave him :(

As distant as he may seem, he’s def super romantic

Like

Hunter would be the type of guy to leave you’re favorite candy or smth laying around, and when you ask about it he’ll be like ‘idk what your talking about’

His hands are SO SWEATY but he’s also like…Not warm? It’s cause of his grimwalker thing, he’s ALWAYS room temperature and NEVER gets cold

You’ll literally have to stop holding his hand JUST to wipe off the sweat, and he’s super insecure about his sweaty hands so he has to wear gloves so you won’t let go of him 😭

He also likes leaving little cringy poems on sticky notes and will leave them in ur room (if ur in the emperors coven) or in ur house

Please cuddle this stupid blond /pos

This guy is literally so touch starved, he NEEDS cuddles

He feels so guilty when he asks for things because he doesn’t wanna be a burden :’(

He LOVES LOVES LOVES when you get flustered because of him and he will literally do it as much as he can until you get used to it

When u two cuddle he is literally as stiff as a log at first but slowly relaxes and melts into your touch

Cries if you caress his scar

Also cries if you’re super gentle with him

As Hunter Deamonne-Noceda-Blight

Ugh

This boy is so whipped for you

Poor guy has BAD separation anxiety from u and hates being alone :(

Such a gentleman

He WILL open doors for you

He also buys you flowers 😭

Still romantic but it’s 10x more cheesy

He will stand outside if your house with a boombox while blasting music/hj

Still loves cuddles

Darius helped him learn how to ask for things so he’s more bold and shows u more affection

He’s SO insecure about his scars man 😭

He will cry if you tell him he’s beautiful :’(

He’ll also cry if you stroke his scars or kiss them

He blushes so easily and it’s not difficult at all to make him flustered

Just kiss his cheek or nose and this boy will turn BRIGHT RED

He will listen to you ramble about your intrests

You two hold pinkies out in public because he’s too socially anxious to show PDA

I feel like you two would watch Amphibia and Gravity Falls together

He will blush SO HARD if you wear his clothes

He will literally get so offended if someone insults you?? Like: tf did u say to my partner? Or will just immediately shut the person who insulted you down

Still leaves love notes for you

[blueberry-sodatab]

about me (a random tumblr user that’s happened to pop up on your feed)

hi, i am soda!

💜im genderfluid and use they/she/he pronouns (they change but because none of you know me just pick one and go with that)

💜i’m abro/lesbian and open to relationships, mostly qpr’s of some kind

💜i’m 19 and have dyslexia, audhd, and social anxiety

💜i do art, which is very obvious… i’m also working on a few fics which might not see the light of day until i get adhd meds, but hopefully i can share them with you soon.

💜and obviously this is a safe space for the whole lgbtqia+ and the disabled community. i do not judge and all of you are welcome, and i do mean all. straights are welcome to i guess… ugh /hj (just don’t be mean and we are fine)

my current hyperfixationss are:

-murder drones

-oxenfree

-my oc’s

-rc9gn

-ZenlessZoneZero

~other info!~

💜feel free to request little doodles or ideas. or questions, or whatever :/ i’d love to talk about md or my oc’s (who wouldn’t?) or others oc’s, i don’t do full on art commissions but if it’s a good drawing idea i might not have to pass up on it-

💜i’m open to friends/mutuals and my dm’s are open just don’t be a creep..

💜if you use my art in anyway shape or form please credit me properly, especially on pinterest omg- (i see you). you don’t need my permission just credit me. this includes art style studies (if you find part of my works pleasing and want to incorporate it to your art works that’s totally fine- no credit needed there. i’m not fussy if people take inspiration from me or heavily reference my art style. i’m more flattered you like it)

i don’t have a lot of other socials but have a link tree (discord is- soda._.tab)

🇵🇸 ALSO!!! 🇵🇸

i have been getting a lots of dms and askes/questions from people in Gaza and what’s been going on.

to thoes people sending them:

i do not have money to donate at the moment but please by all means i will happily share your information so others can and to get the word out. i may not fully respond to a dm but you are not being ignored. send a dm or question and i will immediately get to your page with all your links and story (or as soon as i see it) and share and repost it. you have my support ❤️ and i wish you and your family nothing but the best, when i can i will donate.

ليس لدي أموال للتبرع بها في الوقت الحالي ولكن من فضلك، بكل الوسائل، سأشارك معلوماتك بكل سرور حتى يتمكن الآخرون من نشر الخبر. قد لا أرد بشكل كامل على رسالة مباشرة ولكن لا يتم تجاهلك. أرسل رسالة مباشرة أو سؤالًا وسأصل فورًا إلى صفحتك بكل روابطك وقصتك (أو بمجرد رؤيتها) ومشاركتها وإعادة نشرها. لديك دعمي ❤️ ولا أتمنى لك ولعائلتك سوى الأفضل، عندما أستطيع التبرع.

ترجمة جوجل، آسف إذا لم تكن مثالية للقراءة

[my-castles-crumbling]

Hi cas! This is probably gonna be a long one so I apologise in advance.

I have so many issues and need all the advice I can get at this point.

1: I have a really bad lack of confidence when it comes to my body. I’m very short for my age. Like, 4 inches shorter than I should be, short. I have a belly that goes kind of like

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There’s my chest area then going down I have a belly. And it makes finding clothes that fit difficult because I’m small but have a belly. I’m still only just a teenager and probably will grow at least ( hoping with all my might) to 4 foot 11. But as well as the short + belly equation, I have really frizzy hair that makes me feel even worse.

I want to wear crop tops and normal leggings but my belly shows. I want to wear my hair down, but my mum tells me to brush my hair when it’s dry before school ( I have wavy hair, you shouldn’t brush it dry, it makes it frizzy).

2: I have horrific social anxiety. From January-July I have answered approximately 5 questions in my new maths and English classes.

I have 3 friends, one doesn’t got to my school. Another goes to the school library every break and lunch to use the laptops and so I only really have a single school friend. I want to make friends but physically cannot. It makes me feel sick.

I was on a week long cruise with my best friend, her mum and my mum. They had this kids club (13-17) and we had plans to go multiple times but couldn’t because we were way too scared of all the people that would be there.

3: is it too early for me to be questioning if I’m aromantic? Everyone my age (early teens 13/14) is dating or have crushes, but I just don’t. I’ve seen people ogling each other and thought that it was weird I didn’t have a crush and ended up convincing myself a had a crush on a boy I knew. I didn’t.

Hope I haven’t been too much of a burden.

Hi hon!

You are most definitely NOT a burden.

Okay, let's talk about these things one at a time.

I have a belly and I wear crop tops! You're definitely allowed to if that's what you want. But I totally understand being self-conscious, and unfortunately, I think that's so common, especially at your age. I know it's so hard, but try to look at your body as just that- a body. It does a job, it keeps you alive, and it's pretty cool for doing that! But it takes a lot of practice to unlearn all the stupid shit people tell us about needing to be perfectly tiny, so I get that it's difficult. As far as your hair, does your mom have wavy hair? It sounds like maybe not...could you maybe ask her to look up some wavy hair care products and routines? Because yeah, brushing it dry is a no.

Ugh social anxiety is a bitch. Do you have anyone you're comfortable talking about it with? I struggle with that a lot, too, and having a support system is helpful.

It's totally possible! If you feel like you're aromantic, then you're allowed to feel that way. Some people know from a very young age. It could also be that you change your mind later. Both are equally valid!

Sending love! Naming you laptop anon!

[standfucker]

Hihi

OKAY SO like I personally just really really don’t wanna be a bother to peeps. I’ve been in fandoms in the past where people don’t appreciate random messages and like, I can overcome shyness, but it’s hard to overcome feeling like a bother.

But like, now that I knowwww… >>

I’m very caffeinated right now so my thoughts are not thinking but I can send a better message in the future <333

Ps I love your header ugh Marco is just so perfect I’ve been thinking of those stupid talons off and on ALL DAY

Pps can I ask what your main is I see this is a side blog but I couldn’t figure it out T_T I’m curious what other stuffs you like!!

YOU ARE NEVER EVER EVER BOTHERING ME!!! KAZ!!! I love seeing you in my notifs and would love to talk to you more!

But I totally get it! I have such social anxiety sometimes, I'm like, surely the people around me aren't interested in hearing from me Dx But I want to talk to people! I want to hear from people who like the same things I do!

DUDE I swear Marineford was a life-changing arc for me, when Marco's feet transformed into talons I became a different person, Im pretty sure I still have those panels screencapped somewhere on my computer.

My main blog is @tenzeniths! I mostly reblog OP and Digimon fanart, with some other silliness, and occasionally serious stuff. I try to avoid most current events for my own mental health though.

You can send me as many asks as you'd like!

[mcytblr-archive]

Early MCYTblr Interviews: fagbearentertainment

our interviewee is @fagbearentertainment (formerly @/ugh-schaloob), who ran a philza minecraft imposter blog! below is a transcript of their account of early mcytblr and being an imposter blog.

The philza blog was a pretty fun experience. I would schedule my posts to UK timezones (im from the US) and answer asks during school to be more convincing. I also had a lil feud thing with a wilbur soot kinnie blog called therealwilbursoot or wilbursootofficial or something like that, they deactivated a while ago tho. We basically just told our followers to send really cursed asks to each other, I sent my followers with anteater images and they sent their followers with minion memes. It was a good time. We both admitted to being kinnie blogs pretty fast tho, after ~a month or two we both quit posting for the most part. Rip Philpire o7

I also remember something about the Wilbur blog (or maybe it was a different wilbur blog? Can’t remember now) marrying Nick Wild from Zootopia, they invited me to the wedding via ask lol

For the he/they tubbo discourse I really only saw people on my dash saying it was stupid bc I didn’t use Twitter at the time. I do remember lots of instances of people being excited when a cc used they/them for tubbo and reposting the clips constantly. All the support for cis people using multiple pronouns led to me experimenting with neos and questioning my gender which is pretty cool thanks he/they tubbo discourse

I was also fairly active in the mcytblr high school au stuff, didn’t use the discord much bc of social anxiety but I do have a few posts of my mcytblr high school sonas on my main blog if you wanna see those. I was called the schools local Quackity kinnie bc of a quiz we all did and it became my mcytblr sonas whole personality for a while XD

Also here’s art I made if what I was doing on the discord server and mcytblr high school blog. Don’t have access to either of those anymore so this is probs the next best thing for archiving if you want to archive it

[officialtayley]

I’ve been a tumblr user for many years but that “Either let this be the OFFICIALTAYLEY blog where we can enjoy and discuss our band we love, or rename it the Israel/Palestine Blog and rip off the bandaid” anon ask might be one of the most insensitive things I’ve ever read

Ash, please don’t believe that person’s words cause you answered every Israeli propaganda ask with so much more patience than I could have done. Also, why are people acting like this blog stopped talking about tayley?? Ash still answers questions about h + t and other things about the band. Activism is a big part of paramore’s image so it’s not that surprising that our discussions lead to the topic of the genocide that’s happening right now

I’m grateful for the option of getting to ask questions with the anon feature because I have social anxiety online and it’s really disheartening that a lot of y'all are using this feature to send very rude messages about how people should run their blog

Calling someone “incredibly nasty, ignorant, stubborn, and obtuse” is so hypocritical of that person. If you don’t want to be on this blog then just unfollow or block, why are you calling someone derogatory remarks? like people said that they're unfollowing because the person running this blog is "rude" when the truth is, you lot are cyberbullying the person running it

❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

(also ppl can still send asks about the band and tayley, i just probably won't answer them until i feel less ugh with them, so if ppl are fine with waiting then ppl are welcome to send them)

[deathlygristly]

I am having a problem.

One of the hosts of one of my favorite kdrama podcasts is currently on a trip to South Korea. So I got all excited and I started doing research and I texted the spousal person and I told him that I wanted to go to another country at least once before I die. And it probably would be just once - TSA, man.

Speaking of TSA, neither of us have been on a plane since before 9/11, so the whole thing will be a very new experience.

I looked up prices and it's not as expensive as I thought. I mean, it's still expensive, but I was imagining more thousands than just a few.

I didn't think the spousal person would actually be into it, because his social anxiety is even worse than mine and it would be a lot of paperwork and talking to strangers, but when he got home from work yesterday he was like "So yeah, I guess the first step would be getting passports."

Which he has his birth certificate but we don't have mine, so I ordered mine earlier today. Expected delivery date is in April, lol. And then getting the passports will take forever too, but that's more time to save money. He said he didn't think we'd be ready by Anniversary Week next year, so I guess probably no overnight trip next year to help save for an eventual overseas trip.

I'd like to do it while my mother is still alive though, so I can share it with her and send her pics and tell her about it. So hopefully she makes it a few more years. She's in good health mostly except for her foot pain and some short term memory loss, so we'll see.

Anyway I'm all excited and that's a problem because we're talking waiting literal years, ugh.

I am proud of myself though! The form for requesting my birth certificate asked for the middle names of my parents. I know my father's because it's on his gravestone, but I just had a vague memory of hearing my mother's occasionally. I put in what I remembered and then I asked her and I was right! :)

[wanderinglotus7]

POET IN PROGRESS

November and December brought me the peace I needed to wrap up 2023 on a high note and walk into 2024 with a new mindset. God gave me a taste of what the "slow life" really entails. I appreciate all the small moments I can get just to enjoy the simple pleasures life has to offer. That saying, I've been thinking a lot about my life. Yet, this isn't new to me. With my vision board in sight, I began asking myself some questions...WHAT AM I DOING WITH MY LIFE?

Loaded question. Really, what am I doing with my life. It could be the change of the seasons or God gracing me a break from work, but I began asking myself where is life directing me. I'm 27 now, and opening a new chapter in my life. I'm leaving the grief & anxiety behind me (hopefully they wont become a major distraction in my life again). Singlehood has taught me to place myself first. To love myself again! I'm not in a rush to level-up in my career. I still have another year and a couple more clinical hours to rack-up before i can sit down for the LICSW exam (ugh). (I'm still 50/50 on this decision). I'm blessed to be with Adelante for almost 2 years come June. Call me a career woman LOL!

My health & mental health are pretty stable. I've reconnected with some old friends as well as reconnected with some new ones. I'm still capable of providing for myself. Therapy helped with asserting my boundaries. I'm able to focus on my hobbies. So, what's missing...?

I guess I'm still adjusting to my new life. Finding that perfect work/life balance will be a constant theme in my life. As long as I can address my needs early before compassion fatigue & burn-out take over, I should be fine. Then the aspect of school popped into my head. Not too long ago, I just completed 6 years worth of college, and I have the student loans to prove it. Why am I thinking about returning to school. In reality, I don't have the time to enroll in college again. Not even for a part-time program. Anyway, what would I study. I don't need to take any classes related to social work or psychology. My current work experiences is giving me all the lessons I need to better understand the world better. Then there's my vision board.

God was sending me a message via my vision board. God is telling me that this season is my time to invest in my passion. That passion is writing. If money wasn't an issue, your girl would be spending her time travelling and reading good books. If money wasn't an issue, I would be working in a bookstore. As an alternative, I can visualize myself as a travel blogger. I don't technically want to become a professional author/writer full time because my intentions behind writing isn't motivated by money. Plus, my inspiration doesn't work like that. It comes and goes like the ocean waves. I WRITE BECAUSE I HAVE SO MANY STORIES TO SHARE.

GOD BLESSED ME WITH A POWER FOR WORDS. My pencil is my sword. My words give me voice.

"Your life is already artful-waiting, just waiting to make it art."- Toni Morrison

Thank you liberal art colleges for pushing your students out of their comfort zones. I'm glad I took a few English courses at Bridgewater College before I graduated. The English department was my gateway into the world of poetry. Ever since then, its been one notebook after another. Ding! Why not go back to school for creative writing. PROBLEM: Time & Money. God always makes a way out of no way. Starting in June, I'm going back to school. I'm taking 3 six week online workshop classes to improve my skills & knowledge around poetry. And I entered my first chapbook, Mariposa, into a recent poetry chapbook contest. Fingers-crossed.

[midi4ri0love]

Day 1

I texted him about Spanish class today. I wasn’t there. He hasn’t responded yet (I know he’s on his iPad/iPhone 24/7).

But I felt SO COMFORTABLE sending that text OMG!

I also had way less social anxiety today and a lot of positive interactions with classmates of mine.

In PE we do couple dances rn, and Em offered to dance with me, but none of us knew the new DiscoFox steps, so I danced with Di and taught her the few moves I knew, it was so fun and even tho we talk like once a month I always feel like not a minute passed.

Then I danced with Ev and taught her the DiscoFox, her hands were hot and sweaty, and I was a little concerned, but then I asked her, and apparently that’s a chronic illness, and then the conversation started to roll. She is a sweet person, really, and I’m so glad I invited her to my bday, in spite of her being good friends with the-Karen-no-not-the-actual-Karen-but-acts-like-a-Karen-girl from our class.

Then I danced with Em and J, and J taught us the Waltz. It was fun.

Then I noticed Ya standing alone, and I thought like NO YA CANT BE ALONE SHES SO COOL WHY IS SHE ALONE??

And then I taught her the Waltz - the one I had just learned HAHAHA - and it was so fun. The talking and the dancing.

Then then the teacher Mr. Me danced with the other teacher to show the Waltz Ya was like “Mr. Me is so hot.” And I was like “Real”. I hope he didn’t hear us, but he acted normal, so I don’t think he did.

Then 2 other girls showed Em, J, and me the ChaChaCha and I understood it really quickly so I showed Em and J, who still were a little confused. The other teacher told us that we shouldn’t jump but instead make steps and move our hips, since this is a Latin dance and stuff, she couldn’t really show the hip movement, since she couldn’t do it (she told us).

Since I’m a proud Latina and regularly go to Zumba, it was pretty easy for me. The others kept jumping tho…ugh. I didn’t say anything tho, I’m don’t seek unnecessary conflict. The I paired up with Di, she was jumping too, she didn’t like the ChaChaCha. She liked DiscoFox way better.

Even Lu talked kindly to me. I think she likes me, but she is rude to everyone. I told her I loved all the new dances - she didn’t of course. But then I didn’t say anything anymore bc I thought she didn’t rlly wanna talk. She said “But good thing that you like the dances” and went a away. (BUT LIKE AFTER A MINUTE OF SILENCE). This is very kind, if you consider her usual personality.

Before geography I talked to Ma, Lu, Es, Ju, La and while in class I talked to all of them too, but I also exchanged a few sentences with Moto, Ni, and Ca. Even Mr. Oz seemed less bored by the things I said in class.

Then I talked to Li, Em and Es in Math class. That wasn’t such a high anymore, but it was totally acceptable, especially my convo with Li.

Now I’m tired, ma is back home, I was looking forward to have the living room and kitchen to myself but now she is working there and I still have to find a dress for my Marie Antoinette Costume, make a blood choker, bake a cake and decorate it pretty with “let them eat cake”, dance in the living room to loud music, play DTI, go to the gym maybe.

Now I have to do all this in my room, silently in the kitchen, and when I go to the gym she always wants to come too… but classmate go to the same gym and nobody goes with their mom so I’ll prolly just go to Zumba with her. That is socially acceptable.

Experiment

Act as if you were a time traveler.

Now you are young again.

You had a loving husband/wife before.

That husband/wife is your “crush”.

Even though you don’t talk or date yet,

you know the loving husband/wife that they are.

You feel more comfortable talking to them.

You are a lovely person around them.

Try to impress them a little.

Smiling, holding eye contact, or talking to them isn’t hard.

It is only natural.

Their presence calms you.

After all you know they love you.

You aren’t afraid to show affection.

Not too much, because you are only their *classmate* yet,

and you would never want to make your sweet husband/wife uncomfortable.

After all, they don’t know, that you are their wife/husband yet.

Only what feels natural.

You start acting calmer and authentically.

You’re confident.

You know they will always have your back.

After all, they are your husband/wife.

You take more care of yourself.

You want them to perceive you like their spouse,

even if they don’t know it yet, after all.

You are a calmer, kinder, more polished, glowing, confident, authentic, happier version of yourself.

You are the best version of yourself now.

They (your husband/wife) bring out the best in you.

You are thriving.

Other people feel the shift in energy too.

You naturally attract more people and their kindness.

You make friends, you thrive, and when the time has come…

You husband/wife will know that it’s you.

Who makes the first move?

We don’t know.

All we know is that:

A) You’re thriving.

B) Everything will be all right, you’re married, after all.

C) They love you, after all.

(And making the first move won’t be that hard anymore since their presence calms you instead of giving you nervous butterflies.)

(If someone made you a really romantic love confession/ asked you out like in a novel - with flowers, diy and cake - you probably wouldn’t reject them, even if you haven’t caught feelings for that person until now… you’re catching them now, for sure.)

(Write a love letter from their perspective to you, and put it under your pillow. Repeat, with a new letter every day. It is a manifestation technique.)

[kittyprincessofcats]

A question for people in Germany or similarly pro-Israel countries:

How do you like... try to educate people/talk to people irl about Palestine without coming across as obnoxious/crazy/like you're overstepping?

To be clear: I absolutely think "there's a genocide going on that our country is actively supporting" is the moment to be as obnoxious as possible, I'm just worried people will get defensive if I get too "aggressive" or if I cross too many social norms, and that they then won't actually listen or take anything I say seriously - that I'll come across like one of those activists who's way too militant about their cause and instead of explaining and educating just shames people for not instantly agreeing - which will then make them defensive and less inclined to agree.

What I currently do is that I just infodump on people and try to list everything our news and media left out, and I try to do so wherever I go - but oh boy is bringing up a "taboo-topic" first thing not good for my social anxiety (and not good for my IBS which gives me horrible stomach cramps and diarrhea whenever I'm nervous either.)

And yeah - mixed results so far.

There have been people who already knew a lot about the conflict and agreed with me (on the important stuff, at least - that Israel is commiting genocide and needs to be stopped).

There have been people who didn't know much yet, but patiently listened to me ramble and agreed that what I'm saying makes sense.

There have been people who didn't know much and seemed unsure what to believe (which I understand, if I didn't have English-speaking social media I wouldn't know what to believe either).

There were some people who said generic things like "You should have compassion for victims on both sides" or "You can condemn both Hamas and the Israeli government" - which are in and of itself statements I agree with, but they're missing the crucial factors that only one side is currently dying in the thousands and only one side is currently commiting genocide and only one side has been violently oppressing the other for 75 years and so on and so forth.

And then there have been the people who I really don't know how to handle: the ones who straight-up refuse to listen or say anything. For instance, there was one time I met up with 3 friends in a park and every time I started rambling about Palestine, 2 of them would conveniently leave and go elsewhere. This could have been a coincidence once or twice, but they did it multiple times, again and again, and only when I brought up Palestine. And if they happened to be there and hear me say something that critisizes Israel (like, even just "Israel has a right-wing government" which is just a fact!), they would awkwardly look away and stay silent.

Have any of you figured out what to do about that last group of people? Or how to do this whole "talking to people" thing in general? I think maybe if instead of infodumping I sent people resources on where to inform themselves and also how to actually help that would be more useful and save me the long talks (?) - I'll also definitely be sending people Kaya Yanar's video, saves me the trouble of summing Israel's lies up myself.

Also, is it inappropriate to bring political flyers to someone's birthday party? A friend invited me to his birthday tomorrow and since I don't want to distract from / ruin his birthday with politics, I asked if it would be okay if instead of talking about it I brought some self-made flyers on how to help Palestine and gave them to the other guests. I know that's still kinda uncool at someone's birthday party, but like... people are dying.

(I still haven't actually made the flyers (what do I put on them? will people not read them if I don't use a pretty font and don't put any decorations? I'm not a graphic designer or anything, I just wanna sum up what's going on and how to help without having to have that conversation out loud and UGH, what if people still feel like I'm disrupting the birthday and will then ignore me... the mere thought of tomorrow just gave me the worst stomach ache as I wrote this post - seriously, Social Anxiety + IBS is the worst combo for doing this.))

[burntblueberrywaffles]

my bf: leaves me on read when I send him memes

me:

[thatonesquintern13]

episode two - the way we were:

• wow so much has happened since i last watched

• we’ve entered a fascist presidency, beyoncé has an album of the year, drake got called a pedophile on multiple national broadcasts, tiktok died and came back to life, i became entirely obsessed with a british soap opera. really been a minute (send help)

• anyways did a skim of my notes from the last episode so let’s get into it

• of COURSE colton is responsible for the secret message knowledge

• alexa, play mastermind by taylor swift

• “believe in signs” couldn’t be more cryptic

• oh yeah and the book message says “believe in magic” that’s colton for sure

• i do like that we’ve picked up where the last episode left off

• “you didn’t hear my phone ring? where were you?” girl, dancing with you 😭

• how did that voicemail get sent if alice was pushed into the pond…

• alice in the pond!

• oh i’d recognize that laugh anywhere…. baby dell and colton at the pond coming 🔜

• what is there to talk about elliot alice was ATTACKED

• “i don’t wanna have to take care of you on top of everything else” THAT WAS SO MEAN WHY

• writers forgot they were in good terms rn

• the sweater 👀

• lowkey it’s giving elliot leaving clothes for alice/suzanna leaving clothes for kat. who is leaving clothes for who 👀

• phone call from VIC!? okay u should’ve known from the previously on that we’d be seeing him again but still

• also did they get a cellphone budget this season or what bc there is a lot of phone work so far

• - the past -

• tiny vic augustine!?

• i told you that guitar’s for colton” TINY COLTON INCOMING?!??

• who is this older guy then???

• WAIT THATS THE GUITAR

• AH sam jumpscare ( - present day -)

• ugh i hate that they’re so cute 😠

• sam is kat’s lawyer lolll

• sam dell hard launch at kat’s book release just feels like a recipe for disaster idk why

• LOVE!?

• she ain’t saying that shit back lmao

• kissing?? in bed???? 😟 they really said how far can we push hallmark

• - the past -

• RICK AUGUSTINE!? “older and friendlier brother 😏”

• landrys and augustines just can’t stay away from each other 🙂‍↔️

• oh vic is younger than colton and rick (who are best buds)

• “summer of ‘74 baby, yeah, it’s gonna be slammin’” WOULD WORK ON ME I FEAR

• social anxiety fears alice

• “i know that guitar type” hehe

• “groovy” oh yeah this season is gonna be fun

• this guy’s GOT a canadian accent wow

• - the past, but it’s kat this time -

• could be cool if she was also sent to 1974 but. we all know she wasn’t

• oh she was!

• literally the same time yay!!

• “did you say brother? are you victor augustine?” “why’s everyone asking me that today?” poor kid no wonder he hates landrys

• not kat beefing with a child rn lmaooo

• - present day -

• aw dell’s first time knowing where kat and alice are

• another call from vic

• also, elliot’s phone background is fireworks do we think that’s a nod to the last bon fire with colton 🥺

• ah! victor is here

• - 1974 -

• COYLE’S BEATS AND EATS

• he would hate that and that brings me joy

• good thing fashion is cyclical and alice’s outfit just fits in with what everyone else is wearing

• evie!

• oooh rick and evie 🤨

• “did she come with the guitar?” “no, i found her in a field actually”

• evie is evelyn goodwin 🫵🏽 (pretending i didn’t know this already)

• queen of cups mention pt 2

• oh evie knows her tarot. scarily so 😳

• “she carries her emotions in a glass and her heart on her sleeve. but when that queen is upside down, her cup will spill. drowning you with her thirst for love and attention” just like me fr

• “i know things. i can see the signs, alice” oh? like the signs colton told us to believe maybe?

• alice evie friendship has commenced

• hey our first hippie!

• why were the 70s obsessed with hitchhiking

• our hippie (jasper) owns coyle’s! who is he <_<

• wait kat and alice getting to be mother and daughter in the past is making me a little emotional

• AND THEY’LL GET TO SEE COLTON AND DELL FALL IN LOVE WOWOWOWOW

• not patty hearst

• baby colton!!!!

• “but its still you.” it’s gonna be alice and colton in every timeline 🥺

• - present day -

• of course victor is here for the book release. and who told him about that i just wanna talk.

• - 1974 -

• colton and his guitar 🥺

• alice and kat literally witnessing family history here. they are PART of family history!!!

• omg the coyle’s sticker going on *leo pointing.gif*

• “you got skills, alice” 😭

• big summer kickoff at the cove likely place for alice to be

• “you do that too? parties, i mean.” okay never mind she’s just as awkward as me

• “which one do you have your eyes on?” evie GET UP

• “definitely not colton” don’t make it weird alice.

• “so rick then?” “isn’t he yours?” i knew i picked up on something there

• “grody. no, he’s like a brother to me.” lol sure, jan

• rick is going to play hockey, evie is going to morocco.

• “[lingermore]’s my house. more like jail.” okay foreshadowing

• is it still foreshadowing if this is technically after the outcome

• “because summer is for freedom, and magic, and fairytales.” “yeah, i guess it should be.” “no, it must be, alice! don’t give up on magic” kinda like believe in magic??? 🤨

• oop kat has been spotted

• “this chick, stevie knicks” hehehe 🤭

• “you’re just hanging out while the rest of us are losing our minds back home?” okay kat, you know she was pushed how could this be her fault.

• alice did kind of forget about the getting attacked at the pond thing pretty quickly

• “there’s a party…. 😁” she’s so unserious

• “did you see colton?” “yes. and he’s perfect” 😭

• “before its september and school and i turn into this serious pumpkin” literally you don’t have to though. in fact, many people are asking you not to do that.

• - present day -

• jacob visiting elijah’s grave 😭😭😭

• “how do i find my footing when you were my foundation” WAIT 🥺

• suzanna’s stone is all covered up again??? can she catch a break

• colton flashback ):

• now we’re visiting colton’s grave 😭

• “jacob landry. dead in both eras.” OOF

• - 1974 -

• colton lost his dad and his older brother ):

• kat is so bad at remembering what she is and isn’t supposed to know in the past

• so hippie jasper is a coyle!?

• and american!??

• “well, that and draft dodging the never-ending vietnam war.” “wow that’s very open of you to say.” what a bold stance for hallmark to take

• thomas had a nice, big happy family in the states. okay yay

• he would also hate that his greatwhatever is a draft dodger lmao

• - present day -

• dell and jacob at the pond

• “you’re not the only family member i’m feeling protective of” she means alice. (jk, dell i know you like kat now)

• “the solution isn’t more landrys in the pond.” that’s it, that’s the thesis of the entire series

• “i’d prefer far less, if it were up to me.” exactly dell

• “not that father, my father. elijah.” ouch

• “the pond took your childhood from me and gave it to someone else!” OUCH

• oh jacob is feeling guiltyyyy about leavinggg

• “i didn’t chose to come home to you.” why are her kids like this 😫

• “but now i’m trying to protect someone that i don’t know.” poor delly she just wanted her sweet boy back 😭

• nothing more devastating than realizing your baby boy is just a man.

• - 1974 -

• summer kickoff babyyy

• oh! col and evie???? heck no

• “why does everyone keep thinking that?” “i’ll happily stop thinking it” ookayyyyy. alice is doomed to love boys not from her era 😪

• kat i don’t think you wanna be the adult lurking in the bushes at a teenage party….

• her face at evie and col… real.

• we’re ready for baby del to get hereeee

• summer breeze!? what the song budget for this show

• if you’re singing, alice is GONSTA jump in.

• kat getting to see alice and colton singing together hold on i need a minute 😭

• - present day -

• healthy breakfast???? victor please

• one singular framed picture of katelliot in the kitchen sure

• victor’s getting married!?

• hey yeah what’s the story of elliot’s mom

• do we get to meet her or learn about her

• BEST MAN!?

• after all you’ve done to him????

• elliot you can not be his best man be so fr

• - 1974 -

• COLTON IS GIVING EVIE ALICE IN WONDERLAND STOP THAT RIGHT NOW

• “like best friend bracelets” SURE JAN

• i can see why she hated dell so much now

• evie he can not go to morocco he has to meet the love of his life

• “dream bigger than port haven” historically and futuristically can not

• BABY DELL

• LITERALLY STOPPED HIM IN HIS TRACKS I-

• sorry evie it’s joever for you

• SUMMER HOUSE GUEST

• yeah i can really see why she hates her now

• colton is done for 🙂‍↔️

• - present day -

• oh the book release!

• without kat lmaooo

• victor literally no one wants you to speak goodbye

• hey kat’s here!

• - 1974 -

• there’s so much back and forth this ep

• dell’s not an “ice-cold fun killer” she’s just baptist, probably 😪

• should 1974 dell be ‘baby dell’ or ‘delilah’…. i’m thinking delilah

• rick augustine, wingman of the century

• ITS HAPPENING EVERYONE REMAIN CALM

• “don’t say i never offered you anything” nathan scott you will always be famous

• (BUT ACTUALLY WHEN WE UNPACK THAT COLTON LITERALLY SPENDS HIS LIFE OFFERING DELL THE WORLD OKAY ITS FINE IM OKAY)

• delilah watson you playa

• delilah sass on point!! i love her

• she’s just deflecting colton don’t worry

• but also who doesn’t like disco come on man

• - present day -

• “publishing under suzanna’s name was a labor of love” 😭

• who is this man 🤨

• gotta be a goodwin

• “i’m just trying to make sure that suzanna’s voice is heard” “no, you’re more than just a mouthpiece” BITCH???

• OHP JACOB THE MAN STEPPING UP

• he said “🤨🤨🤨 so anyways, kat.”

• lewis goodwin i knew it!

• wasn’t raised there but port haven is “close to his heart” sure that’s why no one knew who you were

• “it sounds like you have something against my family, miss landry” well they tried to hang jacob but other than that yeah i don’t know

• okay so when he’s yelling at kat in front of the whole restaurant it’s fine, but when jacob jumps in suddenly it’s a private matter???

• “what makes you such an expert?” “because i lived it!” 🫣

• jacob: in the sense that-

• “i find i learn when listening, not talking.” ugh fine! im on sam’s side now!

• but also new guy whatshisface would have LOVED this. where is he

• - 1974 -

• “i had this feeling when i saw [delilah]. like i’m gonna grow old with her of something” AND YOU SHOULD HAVE 😫

• “it’s gonna be nothing but horseshoes” never heard that before but i like it. it’s also, kinda accurate

• rick doesn’t want alice to go 😗

• “you two can’t walk home alone!” as so many famously did in 1974

• colton landry such a gentleman

• tiny vic is everywhere dawg

• but sure some brotherly bonding. that i’m sure won’t be important later

• - present day -

• dell said okay fine! i’ll be seen with you in public!

• sam i’m finally on your side what do you mean you’re leaving town?

• is this like how new guy left town bc i’m still suspicious of that! are they working together somehow

• “it’s because i didn’t say i love you, isn’t it?” no dell, that was the right move hold strong.

• what do you mean you do 🤨

• kissing in the park yeah everyone’s gonna know now

• - 1974 -

• “full of freedom and love!” “and fairytale endings, right?” “yeah. for the lucky few” evie’s accepted defeat already didn’t even try to fight for her mans

• alice saying ‘goodbye’ to col instead of ‘good night’ bc she didn’t get to say goodbye in the future 😫

• “maybe we can sing together sometime” “yeah, i bet we will. sometime.” 🥺🥺

• - present day -

• sorry this is the same outfit dell was wearing at the pond which in the show is the day before

• doesn’t matter we’re having a heart to heart

• “we may have lost time, but we didn’t lose you.” landrys are good people!

• dell will also be calling jacob ‘jacob the man’ from now on 👍🏽

• ofc jacob’s not gonna care about sam! he’s got fathers for days!

• also we both know alice is gonna be the difficult one to break it to.

• lol she said ‘and make your own lunch 🤨’

• katelliot couch timeeee

• just remembered vic is still here…..

• “you do [have another adventure]. or, you could. with me, here.” very smooth elliot

• apologizing for the pond thing! growth!

• “all i want is for you and i to take care of each other” 😭😭😭

• kat’s moving in!!!

• it’s kinda silly that alice would stay at dell’s but sure okay

• “you know it’s okay for you to still be a kid, ali” yes, we’ve been trying to tell her!

• “i don’t know who pushed me, but i should thank them” well let’s hold off on that until we figure out more shall we

• the pond guilt is strong this episode

• “seeing colton so hopeful for his future when i know how his future ends?” baby elliot is twitching his eye rn

• (but also, colton is definitely jumping and therefor his future has not ended it’s just in the past. and maybe??? the future???)

• “1974 is one and done” well it’s episode 2 so i doubt that

• oh yeah forgot about the record!

• season 1 kat would’ve kept this under wraps until alice was literally at the mic with col. growth!

• and dell is there!

• “it’s my love story too” yeah 🥹

• the magic message is on the copy of alice in wonderland that evie told col to keep. which i don’t love

• “well you’re both crazy. it’s not possible. alice wasn’t there, i would remember.” “you didn’t remember alice in 1999.” LOL yeah that’s always gonna come back to getchya!

• RICK!?

• WHY DOES EVERYONE IN THIS SHOW DIE

• wAIT

• AFTER SUMMER KICKOFF

• alice saved colton’s life just to end colton’s life crazy stuff man

• “why would the pond let me save him when…” hey i just said that

• anyways vic survived that crash and i DO NOT trust that he wasn’t responsible

• “since when do you care about seatbelts” is about to make a big comeback i fear

• and present day vic continues to be a menace. what are you doing????

• “dad. are you? robbing me?” he’s a teacher he’s POOR

• no but for real what is vic looking for

• “your mother’s ring” UM ???

• - 1974 -

• WAIT SOMEONE ELSE JUMPED IN THE POND

• and its unsuccessful ???

• COL!?

• he probably wants to go back to save rick but the pond won’t let him 😭😭😭

• fin.

📺| the way home - season 3

season 1: 🩵, season 2: 🩶

episode one - you ain’t seen nothing yet:

• HIIIIIII

• okay i did watch the first like minute on air day but i couldn’t watch the whole ep so here we go

• a baby!?

• is this bella swan

• bella swan is writing the baby a note

• i paused it and all i’m seeing is “i love you” and “i’m sorry” and “remember me.” 🥺

• bella swan looks like alice but idk

• they’re just leaving that baby ALONE!? (i thought they were putting the baby in the pond so i guess this is better)

• okay byeee

• (like that’s definitely alice and the cool guy right???)

• JACOB

• i can’t believe they’re doing this

• like where does the show go from here

• DELL

• THE FLASHBACKKSSS

• “mom?” 😭😭😭😭

• and how do we explain this to dell !

• i was SOBBING when i watched this the other day

• it’s crazy that alice has the most recent memories of baby jacob

• oh we just hopping right in to the time travel of it all

• “you remembered your chair?” 😭😭

• JACOB RECOGNIZES ALICE

• that’s actually so funny that he’s the only one who recognized her

• “how do you know alice?” oh dell honey it’s about to rock your world

• “the pond isn’t just a pond” AND SHE HAS A LOOK!!! what do you know delly!!

• the real and true story of jacob landry was actually a GREAT detail to add to this storyline bc it takes the brunt of the suspended disbelief

• elliot is that a load bearing wall

• oh! wall traysure!

• a small clock i’m sure that won’t be relevant later

• very emotional about kat getting to tell elliot that jacob is home

• sorry the hole in the wall is not the pressing matter here kat

• “thomas..? i thought he was…” “he’s alive, faked his death” LMAO

• yeah yeah the time knife we’ve all seen it

• also i was right lmao

• I CHOOSE YOU AND I CHOOSE HERE AND NOW

• KATELLIOT KISS LETS GOOOOO

• a kat and dell front porch sit and talk 🥹

• dell: that’s a lot of information to get in 30 seconds

• “but it must be true, right? because my son is home.” yeah 🥺 he is 🥺

• dell and kat are in the era of healing and communication 🫶🏽

• “he fits colton’s clothes, katherine” SOBBING 😭😭😭😭

• now why is he shaving…..

• jacob and colton flashback 🥺

• (okay wait baby jacob looks kinda exactly like the baby colton from last season’s cliffhanger…)

• jacob the man looks so young now???

• his old room doesn’t looks anything like he remembers )):

• (he could stand a haircut if i’m being honest.)

• KAT AND JACOB BACK ON THE BED JUST LIKE OLD TIMESSSS 😭😭😭😭

• THE STARS!!

• DELL

• THE LANDRYS ARE REUNITED

• THE TEDDY BEAR 😭😭😭😭😭😭

• this feels too good to be true. what’s gonna happen to them….

• alice your mother just woke up from the weirdest night of her life you can’t spring time jumping theories on her right now like at least let her have a coffee first

• “are you implying kacey is from the future?” oh like that’s so strange

• “they were not even remotely damp” oh yeah i forgot about that detail LOL

• OKAY BUT WHY DO THEY HAVE THE RING

• oops dell doesn’t know kat was technically the one who caused colton’s accident 😭

• at this point, i’m not convinced colton is dead. don’t know how he’d pull that off but

• (bc the window for him to jump back to the bonfire night is so slim. like a couple of months?)

• AH! SAM. go away dude we have other things going on here

• was hoping they’d new guy him and we wouldn’t ever mention him again 😪

• (where is new guy…)

• get a job! stay away from her!

• elliot getting the family pass but not sam feels good feels organic 🙂‍↕️

• JACOB AND ELLIOT 😭😭😭

• that’s his little brother fr 🥺

• casual katelliot i love winning

• “oh, i see. took you long enough.” jacob CLOCKED them

• “okay kids we need to talk” she hasn’t had a house full of her kids in 25 years 🥺😭

• “just so i’m clear, everyone at this table knows about the pond?” elliot: 😁😁

• let dell jump in the pond

• oh yeah jacob cover up time

• the landrys are famously bad at keeping the time traveling thing a secret so idk how well that’s gonna work delly

• it’s giving coven i like it

• oh! on the news and everything!!!!

• this is going to backfire i can feel it

• okay but this story is technically true

• “he found his way home” *leo pointing.gif* roll the credits!!!

• NINE MONTHS LATER!?

• thinking about that baby from the beginning for no reason

• dell on her horse nature is healing 🙏🏽

• yesss a jacob the man haircut!! he looks so much better now

• “i’m so late for work” girl you were in 1814 like every day last year i don’t think it makes a difference what time you get there 😭

• oh! good morning elliot 😏

• “since you’re the boss and only employee, i don’t think it’s a problem”

• DOMESTIC KATELLIOT 🔥🔥

• happy kat landry wow didn’t know she existed

• hand placementttttt 👀 + “i can’t wait until we can have breakfast at my house 😏” elliot augustine i was not familiar with your game 🥵

• ohp. dell’s here let’s talk renovations 😁

• “it’s going to be hard not having you at our kitchen table morning, noon, and night. hard, but not impossible” this is a woman who lived alone for 16 years there are tew many people in her house right now

• I LOVE YOU !? wowowowow

• a letter???? to delilah,,, okayyyyy

• oh! we recognize it, do we?

• the herald!

• oh yeah forgot about alice lol

• suzanna’s book 🥺🥺🥺

• “your name in print, finally.” 🫶🏽

• the point! and former nemesis monica!

• sam’s here.

• oh it’s tense okay

• you can take the boy who used to be a man out of the 1814 fields but you can’t take the man out of the 1814 fields. or something like that jacob is farming okay

• i wonder if we’re gonna get a jacob and his friend (i wanna say? danny?) reunion !

• okay back at the house and dell is reading her suspicious letter

• “your lie is known. time will tell.” 😟

• taking the time to hand stamp this is crazy

• bet it was new guy

• (actual prediction: kacey. they’re back to being suspicious)

• GHOST COLTON!?

• colton please the port haven police could not even BEGIN to understand what’s happening here

• “there are holes. and someone’s poking at them.” after i spent last season saying there are no plot holes in this show lolllll okay writers i see you

• oh! it’s not the first letter!! okay!!!

• elliot’s kitchen is done slay

• just hit me that there are three (3) bedrooms in this house meaning elliot is for sure staying with kat in her old bedroom the layers here

• and we’re throwing alice a welcome home party! fun!

• love the commitment to the term “renos”

• “speaking of alice we need to talk about sleeping arrangements” hey i literally just was!

• evan williams is kinda like a canadian johnny bailey i won’t be expanding on that

• anyways

• oh okay so elliot isn’t staying at the landry house but alice will need a bedroom when she gets here! kat. down to the basement 🤧

• though dell did tell jacob he shouldn’t have to do that “again” sooooo when was the first time? did they put a child in the basement???

• also. kat does not want the basement

• “you know… kat could always-” “i think we should just put a pin in it.” oop! a lovers quarrel

• PHOTOGRAPHER JACOB JOURNALIST KAT 😭

• dell will not be letting that boy out of her sight again

• “i’ll say goodnight as well!” king of tension breaks

• a concerned, eyes wide open kiss yeah katherine you goofed. elliot wants you to move in and you put a pin in it 😭

• oops! we (dell) have accidentally had to come to terms with the idea of your children leaving and now we’re angry!

• “jacob can make his own bed, mom. don’t coddle him” his big sister for real

• “he’s just a boy.” he’s jacob the man now dell ):

• the alice in wonderland books!

• do we get to know what dell meant by “you found your sequel” last season 👀

• ohp there’s wine on the book. tbh, would be my last straw.

• i’m sure this won’t lead to anything 😀

• A SECRET MESSAGE

• “No curse is on The water believe in magic Come to the pond.”

• kinda silly that the wine fell exactly where the message was 🤭

• IT WAS COLTONS BOOK

• wait why am i gasping i know colton knew about the pond already

• okay love that we went straight to elliot with this

• kat just saying everything i wrote about in these live blogs VINDICATIOOOONNN

• narrator voice: colton would not have said something if he knew about the pond

• it could be a message to him. from…. also him? 👀 no. unless!

• “i hate that disclaimer” “it’s a good way to keep you from getting sued, kat.” yeah victor augustine would have his lawyer at your door in a HEARTBEAT kat

• oh right the goodwins too

• sore-ry 🫵🏽

• “i miss her” oh i’m sure

• “you know, you could try to go back” he jumps one time suddenly he’s mr lets jump all the time

• “i wouldn’t hold you back” “which is why all i want is to stay right here. with you.”

• COUCH CUDDLES IVE NEVER BEEN MORE BACK

• oh, colton flashback!

• “remember, our future is stronger than our past. it’s our legacy.” okayyyyy

• oh is this a dream, not a flashback?

• kinda both

• “mom! why’d you let me sleep in?” “i didn’t want to coddle you.” DELILAH the southern sass lives

• alice? took a cab??? to port haven???

• didn’t know they had those there

• alice dhawan, business bitch.

• “it’s not so easy watching them grow up, is it?” we love complex generational relationships 🥹

• colton’s guitar! i wonder if we’ll discuss the “coyle’s” sticker on it this season

• okay when is the contractually obligated chyler and sadie song im ready

• aw she didn’t get to play it

• “i was busy with other things. important things.” “like boys? 😏” “i said, important things, mom.” IKTR

• oh! we’re talking about the sticker now! wow i’m tuned IN to this episode

• “that’s thomas’ last name.” “you mean the guy that shot you?” finally a voice of reason

• THE POINT WAS COYLES!?

• SUZANNA’S POINT WAS COYLE’S

• *pepe silvia board* so something that was suzanna’s was taken by thomas but eventually was given back to her kinda like how katherine was in lo-

• there are layers is all i’m saying

• “i spent a lot of time there my first summer in port haven” ooooooh okay i see the promos are making sense now

• kat, teenage dell was not asking around about the history of the name of a burger joint in the 70s

• “i just met somebody with that name a long time ago” heh

• colton used to sing at coyle’s bc ofc he did

• “just like you do at the point” 🥹🙂‍↕️

• “gotta take jacob his lunch” boy moms, man. something else

• the real reason dell hasn’t let jacob acclimate with society is bc she’s hoping he’ll stop talking Like That*

•*like he’s from 1814

• it WAS his dream to be a farmer 😭

• i really have no gut feeling about what jacob is going to pick. i can see it going either way, or him finding a way to be both at the herald and on the farm

• aw mother daughter pond time

• pond bonding. ponding.

• “whenever i would miss 1999, i would come down here and talk to the pond. it felt like my friends back then could hear me.” and they were literally at her present day house so silly

• KATS TALKING TO SUZANNA 😭

• she’s telling her she’s published 🥺 like jane austen 🥺

• “i miss you. i miss everyone. sometimes so much that it actually hurts.” girl….

• okay kat everyone is telling you to go, i fear you have to go.

• but i also fear you will not land back in 1814.

• there she goes.

• elliot alice bestie time!!

• alice also using “renos” is this like. a new word in canada why are they using it so much is this chip and joanna gains’ fault?

• he’s asking alice if he should ask kat to move in with himmmmm 😭

• “you want my mom to move in with you 🤨” (with the intent of torturing your bestie)

• “you really are alice 2.0” “who called me that? 🤨” who do you think girl

• - 1814 - (or around there)

• ELIJAH

• i’m a little scared tbh i don’t know why

• woooah did she jump back too far 😟

• this is about to get confusing

• wait so ALL of that jacob stuff last season took place in like one week??? that’s crazy.

• and it’s only been one 1814 day! but nine 2024 months since jacob jumped!

• whaaaat you mean we couldn’t trust cyrus goodwin this whole time???

• (he was still going after jacob despite thinking he had already killed thomas as per their agreement)

• jacob jumped back to avoid being HUNG

• just casually forgot to mention that

• “in your world, where he belongs” “jacob belonged here too, elijah” 🥺

• now why we asking about thomas you know who you’re here for

• aw thomas is gone boo. oh well anyways

• riiight right the white witch.

• “there’s one more person that i need to see” 🥹

• SUZANNA!!!!

• also, technically, the point!

• “do you have an idea how many times i’ve pictured you just like this” OH IM SURE 🤨📸

• they’re going to burn you at the stake katherine!!!!

• suzanna is not happy to see us….. ):

• we need to get her out of there 😭

• “please, heed what i say. you need to go. now.” “is that what you really want?” “it is what is necessary.” 😭😭

• i can’t believe they’re breaking up right now. i-

• “okay i’ll go. if only to keep you safe”

• like if they didn’t want katzanna shippers, they shouldn’t have made them so forbidden love coded and then written them the most romantic lines

• katherine’s telling her to write 😭 she’s giving her the way out!!! 😭

• “you can do anything.” cut the cameras ✋🏽😞

• “goodbye, katherine” ouch ):

• i was gonna say something but the season is still young and i don’t wanna jinx it (hello it’s me from the future hehe i have no clue what i was gonna say, so! i guess i really won’t be jinxing it)

• THE PAINTING OH MY GOD

• 🤨📸

• this is truly the gayest thing hallmark has ever produced and they’ve had gay couples kissing on their network

• - present day -

• dell has a vinyl of colton playing at coyle’s 🥺

• omg young colton and del 😭😭😭😭

• i can’t believe we get to see their love story i’m so excited

• - 1814 -

• THOMAS!? i thought you were gone ✋🏽

• “you faked your own death!? are you serious!” lmaooo

• “i, for one, would rather be a liar and alive than an honest dead man.” hmmmm i feel like. that’s not the flex you think it is…..

• STOP KISSING HER

• that’s right it’s over 😤

• “there is somebody else” yEAH

• “i really hope that he’s good to you. good enough for you.” don’t ✋🏽 talk about elliot like that he’s the best

• “be free of this” she won’t be /: but that was a nice sentiment

• NOOOOO IS HE GONNA JUMP!?

• if the finn factor is correct it won’t work but i have a feeling the finn factor is NOT correct

• - present day -

• jacob with a camera likely place for him to be

• oh! polaroid flashbacks!

• colton YELLING?,??, to stay away from the pond????

• oh. that’s post-halloween festival colton coming back to warn him isn’t it )): what happened will always happen, col ):

• ohp mama mad.

• mama being kat

• someone get jacob the man a twenty-first century dictionary please

• actually i bet people would believe he grew up amish (or the canadian equivalent if there is one)

• anyways

• “i’m a coward here” 😭

• no it’s really not that hard to be a white man in 2024 you can do whatever you want jacob!

• “this is so much different than the life i lived” i TRIED to tell y’all last season

• yeah i don’t know how they thought dell wouldn’t hear them with all this yelling

• but still ): she shouldn’t have had to hear that

• played her like a fiddle 🙂‍↔️

• elliot’s reno’d house!

• i’ll be honest don’t remember what it looked like before

• but the kitchen is nice!

• “plus, now i have a five year plan!” business bitch 😌

• wow not one mention of brat summer it’s like she didn’t even experience the states properly

• r*chel got her an internship! the nepo treatment is international!

• hmmm suspicious of this internship.

• “organic concoctions” “tarot” “organic beauty” likely story

• queen of cups i’m sure if i knew anything about tarot that would mean something to me

• okay searched it. “queen of cups shows up to affirm your intuitive gifts” so they’re telling me i’m right to be suspicious got it

• “and she’s wearing the merch” same kat

• a career!? you’re 16*???

• but also she can move to london and work for kbpr 😌

• yeah what about music and singing!

• oh i forgot she went to a performing arts school. i don’t think they really explained that

• “music as a career? what does that even look like?” girl, taylor swift!?

• where is r*chel i just wanna talk

• “focused on the future. not the past.” okay so we’re getting a little bit of a call back….

• “oh, alice. you’re only 17!*” exactly dell!!

• “dad and r*chel agree with me.” “of course they do. remind me to call brady.”

• “something from when i was 17, and fancy-free i might add. no five year plan in sight” and then she met the love of her life wow 🥹

• i love that alice was 15 when she met 15yo kat and 17 when she’ll meet 17yo dell. complex generational relationships!!

• we’re gonna hear baby colton singing? 🥺

• “did he ever make a real record?” “no, he didn’t. it’s a long story.” okay s3 here we go!!!!

• southern dell cleaning up even though she’s the guest checks out

• OH! someone running! hated that! that was scary!

• i-uh. what was that? james?

• not dell mothering elliot in his own house 😭

• idk alice maybe you shouldn’t be running after mysterious figures in the woods by yourself!

• it lowkey looked like kat tho. or maybe they just had short hair

• and it’s a full moon!? oh heck no

• this is literally so much personal growth from dell i’m so proud of her 🥹

• jacob gets to exist outside of the farm now yay!

• andie macdowell is so pretty

• is ghost colton gonna show up

• is REAL col- SAM!? NO

• jumpscare for real

• not secret dating in the barn 😭

• nooooo this is right up my allyyyyy how dare theyyyy

• phew okay some katelliot time

• doing the dishes talking about time travel 🥹

• “it helped me close the door on it all” hate to say it but this is one of those swinging saloon doors kat, i don’t think its closed for long

• oooh colton vinyl b-side

• WAIT

• “i know a path to the past is it a secret worth knowing” ??????? HELLO!?

• me and kat made the same face lmaooo

• oh she did not catch the lyrics

• DANCING!!! IN THE LIVING ROOM!!!! 🥹

• oh she heard em

• “come on, you don’t think that he knew?” exactlyyyy

• the song is literally laying out step by step jumping into the pond and she thinks it’s a STRETCH!?

• “i was brought down below sunken and cold” !!!!!

• “there’s a lesson to learn from yesterday and the future could be our way out” there’s that f word again! and the finn factor theory!

• okay elliot shoot your cohabitation shot

• hello who is THAT

• a GORL

• is it alice 😧

• elliot’s never gonna get to ask her now

• IT IS ALICE OH MY GOD

• THEY RECORDED A SONG TOGETHER 😭😭😭

• alice and colton are soulmates in the sense that they might BE the same soul

• “okay uh i’ve gotta go find her.” girl she chased a dark figure she is GONE

• yep the figure lead her to the pond

• a SWEATER !?

• WHO IS WATCHING HER

• is this the first time we’ve been concerned about a cell phone when jumping into the pond?

• that was the one plot hole in this show

• oh no she’s calling kat but kat’s phone is at elliot’s!

• wait jacob flashback.

• colton is telling him he loves him. it’s gotta be future colton 😭😭

• “no matter what happens. no matter what… will happen”

• WHAT HAPPENED WILL ALWAYS HAPPEN *leo pointing.gif*

• there’s so much happening oh my god

• is alice going to jump or is someone going to push her 🫣

• “someone else is time traveling” !!!!

• PUSHED 😨😨😨😨

• IS IT COLTON?!

• AHHHHH

• fin.

[chemicaljacketslut]

without school (+ after i stayed up watching st4 and ruined my sleep schedule) my internal clock has been absolutely decimated. i don’t check a calendar anymore bc i don’t have to! i don’t need to keep up with homework or school events or deadlines! unfortunately this means i have forgotten a couple of summer events already. just remembered i’m supposed to be hanging out with my friends this evening. it’s 3am. there’s a repairman coming over who needs to get into my room so i also have to be up before 8am. i was planning on going to bed early this evening and/or using today to fix my sleep schedule. oops.