#it’s borderline embarrassing
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i think in the future i need to limit when i read ml fanfics to just the weekends bc the that chance that i Will Not Be Normal for what i read is too high and i cannot be this distracted while trying to work
#YES THIS IS SPECIFICALLY DIRECTED TOWARDS DROWING IN PLAIN SIGHT#i cannot be normal about ANYTHING related to extreme ml angst#it’s borderline embarrassing#i’ve been trying to do a lit review ALL DAY and all i can think about is how much i want to draw chat losing his mind#I HAVE A JOB TO DO !!!! LITERALLY!!!!#will i keep reading drowning in plain sight as soon as i can? yes obviously#but moving forward#i need to make sure i have time set aside to lose my mind and then also gather it back up so i can be normal for 8 hours 💀
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Getting older is realizing bill cipher was sexier as a triangle anyway.
#i just think its really fun that with the surge of popularity i have not seen a singl circa 2014 sexy bill cipher#i think its a sign of this websites age#and that we learn from our mistakes#personally i think politicians should take a lesson from this#gravity falls#the book of bill#bill cipher#ford pines#id like to buy the book but my activity in the fandom in 2015 was questionable at best#no one else is embarrassed for me cause i do it enough for myself#ford wouldnt like a sexy young thing anyway the mans borderline a monster fucker#billford#my posts#text post
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i’ve talked about this before but a bpd symptom i absolutely HATE is the lack of emotional permanence.
no matter how many loving people i have in my life, the second they are gone it's like i was never loved and that it's all in my imagination but as soon as they come back, it's like i've never been sad
#actually bpd#actually mentally ill#bpd#bpd fp#actually borderline#bpd vent#bpd favorite person#bpd shitposting#bpd problems#bpd mood#i HATE this so much#lacking emotional permanence is one of the worst things for me because i look crazy to outsiders#haven’t seen my fp in 4 hours? i am literally sobbing on the floor believing that i’ve never felt this kind of debilitating pain in my life#but as soon as he comes back it’s like i’ve never been upset before..#so so so embarrassing and infuriating
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focusing got soo much harder since I'm on T, i just can't stay focused on anything for too long before i just get painfully horny and needy out of nowhere (>\\\<)
never needed a nice dog with a hot tongue to just sit between my legs for hours and eat me out, keeping my needy hole and tdick occupied so i can focus on my studies ପ(๑>﹏<)ଓ
what i would do for a nice dog to cockwarm as i try to get thru my notes,,,,, maybe that would fix me
#the desk puppy u guys talked about???#i get it now#i get it so much its borderline embarrassing#lap kitty to owner of a desk assist dog pipeline so real#gay nsft#ftm nsft#ftm pet#ftm ns/fw#trans sub#petpl@y
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can you believe my impulsive spending has consequences and money doesn't just magically appear in my bank account? (I'm broke and I'm not sure there's any getting out of this one)
#shopping got declined im so embarrassed and i dont want to have to tell my flatmate#she owes me money tho and im hoping i can make it through until student finance#im not hopeful tho#bpd#bpd blog#bpd splitting#bpd diary#bpd thoughts#bpd vent#bpd safe#actually bpd#actually borderline#actually eupd#borderline thoughts#borderline blog#borderline vent#borderline personality disorder#eupd#emotionally unstable personality disorder#cluster b#actually cluster b
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me vs oversharing
#it’s so embarrassing#bpd#actually bpd#borderline personality disorder#bpd problems#actually borderline#bpd feels#bpd meme#bpd memes#paranoia#bpd rage#autism#actually autistic
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feeling normal about big chunky square computers :-)
#im full of unbearable longing#my beeping#i dont even know if i can SAY how im feeling rn its borderline embarrassing. LMAOAOAOA#uh. lmao anyway. hi objectums how are we#computer objectum#objectophilia#objectum#its IS hal's fault btw. xd
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'My child is doing okay' ma'am your child is watching Raine Whispers using their magic video compilations and drooling all over the screen.
#i'm down so bad y'all don't understand this is borderline embarrassing#they and their silly little violin got me like asfhkahsd#raine whispers your hand in marriage this is not a request#the owl house#raine whispers#bitch speaks
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I’ve been working on this extremely self-indulgent zine lately, and it’ll be out tomorrow! ✨
#when I say indulgent I mean borderline embarrassing haha#but that’s the kind of stuff I love I’ll be honest if I’m not a little bit embarrassed by it where’s the fun in that#got a new job so this has been a nice little destresser#had a pretty nasty 8 hour shift yesterday and this was just a nice little mood boost after it so I hope y’all will like it too!#if it’s your sort of thing like I said pretty niche and specific#(and a little shippy ;) kind of only a little)#zine#preview#ko-fi shop
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Is there a point where you're TOO self indulgent when writing fanfiction....?
#i ask this because im making a borderline PORNO rn#except everyone has their clothes on... for the most part#sw the bad batch#tbb tech#tbb crosshair#tbb wrecker#tbb hunter#tbb echo#echo is the only man with a damn braincell#crosshair has a half one as a treat#and theres a WHOLE LOTTA PRAISE KINK#ive never written anything so SCANDALOUS#so very SMUTTY in my life#and i must repeat: THEYRE NOT NAKED#im just embarrassed about it 😭
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Wow!!! I feel regular again!!! The fp has given me their time and attention so that I may be functioning!!! The tank is FULL!!!
Oh no… Now I’m embarrassed about how I just fell off the edge of the earth with my other friend. Eek. Can’t start a conversation and just explain how I felt so low and now I’m ok again cause I got attention… how pathetic… guess we can’t be friends anymore…
#check in with your friends who have bpd#we are too embarrassed and guilty to say hi first#but I will immediately apologize for bailing for a day#actually bpd#bpd fp#bpd problems#bpd splitting#quiet borderline#bpd#bpd thoughts
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bpd is so fucking stupid like why does my brain wanna throw a tantrum bc someone in my house drank all my coke without asking
#ik who it is too but i have no proof#hating a literal child is embarrassing but he makes it so easy#bpd#actually bpd#bpd rage#borderline personality disorder#bpd problems
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I love posts that are like “imagine your f/o picking you up” because they’re meant to be so sweet and gentle but every time I get picked up by a friend my brain just… shuts down. Like for whatever reason my brain physically fails to compute the situation. I cannot imagine what it would be like with Ajax
#For context I’m the shortest at my law school. Not by exaggeration; I mean ‘we have like a dozen class photos to highlight this fact’.#<- 5’0’’.#So everyone in my friend group has picked me up at least once.#Well. Almost.#The first time it happened this girl literally had a sprained arm but she kept me in the air for a good few seconds and my brain just. shut#Because it was my first time like how the fuck do you respond to that.#I just stood in place and stared at the ground for like 2 minutes after.#The most NOTABLE one was the second one because she was like. Can I pick you up. Let me pick you up.#and I was Iike have you seen yourself? no you’re going to get hurt.#she’s maybe 5’2’’? 5’3’’ only slightly taller by an inch or two.#and she’s like No I hit the gym can I pick You up. Yes or no. so I said fine but I was fully expecting failure.#and then I’m suddenly in the air.#and I was almost so borderline embarrassed after that that I stumbled and fell moments after being put down.#so like. if I have been so absolutely mind-scrambled by that I? don’t think I’ll survive.#Not even in a romantic way I think my brain would just liquify if Ajax picked me up.#Don’t ask me a single thing; don’t tell me a single thing; I’m literally useless for the entire duration of that experience.#✧.*🌹
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i was looking thru my art and man. i have. a lot of drawings of duck and red either kissing or ALMOST kissing that im just way too embarrassed to post
#like i make them too close or i get too sentimental drawing them and im like i can NEVER show this#like. the ones im the most embarrassed about are not even anything its just them almost kissing#but im like THIS IS TOO MUCH THIS IS TOO EMBARRASSING ITS BORDERLINE NOT SAFE FOR WORK#DGSJGSJSGSKS IM JUST NOT GOOD AT POSTING STUFF LIKE THAT#here take my cartoony funnytime doodles for the 30th time!! [throws them]#my postings
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I've had this thing stuck in my head for a while
In my own personal world/AU, Monspeet & Derieri are really popular. And it's not because they're my favorite characters, but because of a spin off
A magical girl spin off of nnt, where Elizabeth, Diane, & Elaine are the main trio and Gelda, Derieri, & Melascula are the main villainess trio and so on and they kinda do classic magical girl things although it's pretty clear that's there's some very big lore underneath. Epic fights and more focus on the characterization of the girls while sticking to a thin line between canon & fanon.
Out of everyone in the show, Derieri (along with Monspeet) makes the most impactful introductions. Derieri bringing a brutal reality check to the main trio by defeating them with ease.
And when they do defeat Derieri and Elizabeth goes for the final blow, Monspeet just- stops it. Countering Elizabeth's attack and going to Derieri's aid. He's scolded by her, of course- but she surrenders. Making it their win. Their canon dynamic being there in the spin off made it so much interesting
#i'm borderline embarrassed about sharing this because it's from my own personal AU/world that i've never posted about#my writers block has gotten so bad i don't even wanna look at my own writing so i can't remember what i have/haven't posted about
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Oh my lord..
I was insane earlier and for what 🙃
The BPD, Be PDing alright
Lmaoooo Jeez Louise, Moth! Chill.
#bpd#actually bpd#borderline personality problems#borderline pd#bpd fp#man i cant believe i said some of that#cluster b#that was embarrassing
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