#it’s actually SICKENING to think about
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it makes me literally sick to think about alicent's relationship to her children. like. they are all she has. she loves them more than anything and hates them just as much. each of them is a shackle around her neck. they are her babies even though she was a baby herself, forced to be their mother. she'll pick up a knife for them. they are her living prison. everything she ever does is for them. their very existence makes her sick. she understands them and yet doesn't know them at all. they are her future. they stole her past.
she was 15 years old tethered to a rotting body of a man entirely against her will, watching each of her children invade her body as a result of martial rape. how were they ever supposed to have a normal relationship!!!!!!!
#people being like alicent is a bad mom. like YEAH???? OBVIOUSLY??? TBH THINK SHES DONE DECENT UNDER CIRCUMSTANCES ???? HELLO???#alicent hightower#house of the dragon#helaena targaryen#aemond targaryen#aegon ii targaryen#hotd#the greens make me so insane. oh my god.#tbh i'll cry if i think about baby alicent with that huge pregnant belly too long it's actually sickening like it is so sick
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rewatched madoka magica again today bc i fucking hate myself and to absolutely no one’s surprise i went through all five stages of grief in a single evening
#let’s talk about sayaka miki for a second#genuinely the fact that her whole character is centered around tragedy almost to a shakespearean extent#she’s selfless and brave and values her justice and righteousness above all. calls herself an ally of justice#in fact i think it’s rather intriguing how her whole character is centered around “justice”#her story being a more twisted retelling of the original little mermaid#how she is initially portrayed as a very heroic and confident character even before becoming a magical girl. always shielding madoka#selling her soul to heal the boy she loved out of a selfless desire to see him well again#her being absolutely distraught abt being robbed of her humanity and betrayed by kyubey#she combats this harrowing realization by immersing herself in her duties not caring that she is slowly deteriorating in the process#becoming numb with pain and fighting recklessly and psychotically trying to drown out the pain#finally coming to the sickening conclusion that humanity doesn’t deserve her saving and she succumbs to a fate of her making#last words being “i was so stupid” which trumps her previous statement of “there’s no way i’d regret this”#ALSO? the fact that her costume and weapon are symbolic of a knight. she rly portrays this hero of justice who will protect and defend ☹️#i think abt the fact that homura said that sayaka’s wish was so selfless it was only a matter of time before she died#sayaka being the example of what happens to magical girls who go through the entire cycle and eventually become witches is so sad to me#genuinely just like. sick and twisted#very very fucked up.#characters who have their own misconstrued interpretation of “justice” or who are centered around justice in general.#you will always be dear to me.#sayaka reminds me a lot of akechi in some ways ngl#harboring an almost idealized vision of justice but it slowly rots and festers and corrupts their hearts the more immersed w it they become#actually losing their sanity when they fight bc of how much pain they’re in but refuse to acknowledge it until they break#refusing any help and wallowing in misery despite having ppl who love them and want to save them#last words are those expressing regret for being such a fool. for being ignoring#being used by yhe main villain as a stepping stone towards their true goal. they were merely a pawn#also doomed in every version of their reality. always doomed by the narrative no matter what choices they make#i have a type i fear#HAHAHAH ALSO the fact that they’re both dressed so regally compared to everyone else in their respective series#meant to portray them in a virtuous and princely light. only made more apparent by the sword being their weapon of choice#i’m gonna shut up now but they’re soo eerily similar its unnerving tbh 💀
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☀️ IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!! 🌙
This is my gift to myself :) I drew my favorite guys ever.
For a while I've been itching to draw the wedding outfits from this post again. I made them up on the fly as I was drawing, but I actually really like how they ended up turning out. They're super cute!! (though, yet again, you can't see almost any part of Dedede's outfit... 💔)
But then I couldn't get it out of my head to make a companion piece for it, with their mirror versions. And so. I did. What they have going on is a little bit messy, though...
Marriage or divorce!! Take your pick.
#kirby#kirby series#meta knight#king dedede#metadede#dark meta knight#shadow dedede#mirror metadede#i do like mirror mtdd. like a lot. but poor planning ahead with hcs and ocs caused them to end up. kind of doomed in my thing lol#maybe i'll go in depth about it one day. as much as i can anyway. i haven't fully figured it out myself#my art#couple details:#mk's tooth gaps are probably one of my favorite parts of his drawing. they're just so cute i'm so glad i knocked his teeth out#while mtdd is on Non Descript Happy Place mirror mtdd is specifically in the dimension mirror level from katam and ktd#just slightly. sparklier and shinier. because that's just how i do things. and without the buildings#i did try to add them but it made everything busier than it already was#mirror mtdd's faces are obscured on purpose but if you look closely you can catch a peek of dmk's expression through his veil#which! it's meant to be kind of like a widow's veil.. symbolism and what not#i couldn't think of what the opposite of a star was so i did hearts (for the plating. cheeks. and pauldrons)#i fucked up the rings.. because i got my lefts and rights confused..#but i kept it Anyway because it looked cool. i'm sorry though it's so annoying once you notice#i still have the flats and a better look at ddd's outfit (and a Little of sddd's face)#so maybe i'll post that later#i think that's about it#i'm 20 today :) sigh. the passage of time#god the way this has been crunched sickens me. don't look closer actually
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Request idea if u wanted! Thinking about an Eri n Toga interaction and it's just them dancing with Eri stood on Toga's feet cause she's still a child....

the sisters......
#this is sooo up my alley tysm for the request 🫶🏻#literally thinking about them and how they were both made to feel like monsters until somebody finally told them otherwise. sickening.#they're actually so cute i wanna put them in the oven#bnha#mha#bnha fanart#toga#eri#toga himiko#eri aizawa#to ME#eri bnha#my artwork
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Late seasons Sam hate is like a special kind of bad to me… Like literally there’s nothing to complain about him, so people will grasp the thinnest of straws…
#i actually do think late seasons sam is like. he’s so resigned in a way that is detrimental to himself and others (see: no longer is#sympathising with monsters like he used to)#he’s so complacent. no doubt i will see more of that when jack is introduced#but like. it’s just kinda sad and sickening. he’s not doing anything that should make anyone mad at him#yet when i made the mistake to go into main tag many instances of ‘sam dismissing other’s (mainly dean) feelings’#or ‘sam making assumptions about how others feel and being wrong and self-centred’#or ‘sam doesn’t care about jack outside of projecting onto him. he doesn’t see him as a person’#or ‘sam forcing dean to look after jack’#girl what the fuck do you want him to do?#spn#sam winchester#supernatural
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Sam 'Sorry I don't want your touch, it's not that I don't want you. Sorry I can't take your touch. It's just that i fell in love with a war,' Collins
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Darlin' 'you're growing tired of me, you love me so hard, and i still can't sleep. You're growing tired of me and all the things i dont talk about.' Shaw
(Both Sam and Darlin' think that the other has a problem with their personal boundaries due to past experiences with Alexis and Quinn, respectively. But in reality, both are completely fine with it and go out of their way to respect each other. And they both feel terrible if they accidentally cross one, unknown or not, because it reminds them of their exes. In this essay, I will-)
#listen listen#hear me out pls-#i think about them with mitski all the time#it literally plagues me (it actually might be a problem help please)#they take over my thoughts to a sickening amount#i listen to 'A pearl' by mitski like 7 times for this post#redacted verse#redacted asmr#redacted audio#redactedverse#redacted sam#redacted darlin#redacted tank#redacted quinn#redacted alexis
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i'm gonna sound insane just hear me out okay
when he sees me from waitress but it's hilson and the choruses are from different POVs from either side from the not-actually-unrequited love.
like. wilson, too nervous to even let himself imagine a relationship with house going well, only imagining terrible outcomes because they're both so awful to each other AS FRIENDS yet they've been friends for 20 years anyway, and really, what does that say about them?
but then there's house, who rarely ever lets people in one way or another, finding them boring at best and imbecilic at worst, yet is so soft hearted that despite his cynical and misanthropic nature, he falls so incredibly hard, so fast, he never stood a chance when it came to loving wilson. it's a rush, it's a terror, he's hooked on him forever, it's pitiful and he knows it but god even just feeling hopeful for a chance is almost enough for him
#house md#hilson#gregory house#james wilson#i'm actually sickened that my brain spit this at me#i just wanted to listen to MUSICALS. UNRELATED TO THEM#but no. the rot spreads forever#HONESTLY? either one could be their pov. isn't that fucked up#look call me cringe i dont care. but i'm correct#house making tentative peace with not having wilson the way he wants bc it's better than nothing#vs wilson's internal peril about his character bc wanting to pursue house MEANS something and he can't think of one thing good#bc they're the worst/best thing the other has in their lives and they both know it. wilson's the only 1 to get a crisis abt it#like besties that's kind of canon is it not........ there are connections being made
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You know what, if no one else will say it I will. Enough! Stop with the fucking moons, Saturn, we get it you are the crown jewel of the solar system, our most beautiful planet, you don't need to rub it in with all the moons.
#Sickening levels of vanity really#tbqh I'm not sure I'd put it ahead of earth but equivocating on that would ruin the joke#Just like down here in the tags between you and me#I actually think earth is the most gorgeous and amazing planet we know about#For all that Saturn can compete with us at orbital distances in terms of beauty (even then I still rank earth)#It's a dogshit planet when you get in close and you cannot say the same about earth even if you can say so of some of its inhabitants
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I mostly try and keep my work away from tumblr because this is my fun place but oh my jeebus you guys if my day has to be ruined by this I'm gonna share it around. I'm writing up some of my doctoral research, critiquing the ongoing (and absolutely bullshit) assumption that autism = masculine, and as part of my lit review I found this gem of an article title:
"An investigation of a novel broad autism phenotype: increased facial masculinity among parents of children on the autism spectrum"
This paper is from 2022. Autistics have been fighting for fucking decades to improve the research (with a little bit of success), and "academics" are still out here just writing this kind of bullshit!!!! I just have to know who thought of this and what is wrong with them???? I mean, I know who thought of it, the authors' names are right on there but holy shit most of autism research is a dumpster fire. In a sewer. In a swamp. In the middle of summer. Especially the part of it that thinks it knows about gender (except for about 4 researchers).
#would anyone be interested in a separate blog where i rant about academia and autism and gender research tho?#things i can't say under my actual name cos it'll ruin my career#this shit literally makes me nauseous#being autistic and reading what these researchers think of autistics is sickening#it is straight up hell over here#maybe there are worse things than ruining my career...#autism#autistic#autistic adult#actually autistic#ableism#neurodivergence#autistic research#autistic researcher#autistic academic#academic#not heartstopper
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Lmao remember when I actually tried to go to sleep?? Haha that ain’t happening for at least another two hours, BITCH
I say to myself.
#losing it#losing my mind#but in a poetic way#so that I still look hot while doing it#i’m just a girl#I HAVE CRAMPS#TF#I hate life#I hate the uterus#I’m a lesbian anyway#I’m not about to go housing babies in there#delete it#please#I’m begging you#like the Måneskin song#yes#would I be considered a music nerd?#I feel like I make way more song references than the average human#is that a good thing#frankly mr shankly im a sickening wreck#yeah I am!!#I actually love the smiths#how do I always get so off track when I’m doing tags#it feels like a curse#but like a good one#r these entertaining??#I’m literally js typing everything I think#I guess that means I don’t think that fast or that much#not a very flattering look on me#huh
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i hate how its becoming normalised to make rap3, SA, p3d0philia/child predat0r and abuse jokes, its one of the most unfunny category of jokes, and imo its not even a joke, cause why are you trying to make joke of something so serious ?
#i know what a dark joke is#but i hate how people say like#'ill touch you'#like.....ok..haha....so funny#i now feeel unsafe around you !!!!!#Cause the last person that said that to me smacked and gropped my ass :P#so.....yaey#and i dont think p3dophilia should be joked about at all tbh#no dark jokes about it because its js immediatly unfunny#like how can you actually joke about that ??? its so unfunny and sickening#anyway i just heard some dudes at my school making jokes about child predat0rs and it made me so uncomfortable#so ifff you make jokes like that maybe stop !!!! cause its slightly undermining people who have acctually suffered that :(#this is just my opinion though#i mean go ahead and do whatever you want#M's yapping n ranting
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twitter sucks balls who wanna talk about crash with me
#half joking idk what to talk about but if you got cute headcanon/ship I'm hearing tf out#ocs included I wanna see them actually#Im this close to get a break from this hellhole again#no genuinely it's so negative all the fucking time and everyone gets harassed for nothing#typical twitter moment to a reg tumblr user but it's just more pronounced than usual#what happened to having fun and talk about cool characters endlessly#I have an alt to talk about biribiri there but im just so afraid#it's sickening to think kids are growing in such a toxic and braindead space
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just thinking
#bnha#shigaraki tomura#tenko shimura#bnha manga spoilers#bnha 419#bnha 236#bnha 222#thought a little bit about how after those flashbacks we never really saw Tomura break down like that#even in Re-Destro fight - he never was this helpless and overwhelmed#it's the same thing with crying - so maybe we'll see him actually cry#not as Tenko since that happened last couple of chapters#it also has the same effect as ch 222#and the same wobbling frames...#it's actually sickening if you think about it too much
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She's six years old. She's going to go to a new school next year. She hugs her friends goodbye. They tell her they're going to keep in touch. They'll still be friends. They'll tell her everything that happens.
She's fourteen now. She sits at the table across from her friends. They talk about people she doesn't know. She asks who they are, and her friends begrudgingly explain, but suddenly they're talking about some new person. She doesn't want to ask again.
They're sixteen. They invite their old friends to their birthday party because there's never been a year without them. They haven't spoken in six months due to the lockdown. I didn't know you changed your name. Oh, yeah, sorry. I didn't tell you. The distance between them is growing.
He's approaching twenty. He's back home for the summer. He sends a happy birthday text to a friend he hasn't had a serious conversation with in ages. He finds out she's eighteen now via her instagram story. He checks his other friends' stories and sees pictures of people he hasn't spoken to since he was six.
He wonders to himself, when did he burn all these bridges she promised she'd maintain?
#its so weird to watch them grow up without me#they all have boyfriends now#or have travelled the world#and i know i grew up too#but we just grew up so differently#i think back to my last day at that school#when we all promised we'd keep in touch#i can count on one hand i bet how many people I still talk to from that school#and the amout that i actually have serious conversations with on a regular basis is 1#funnily enough theres only one friend I had who turned out sort of like me#and shes my oldest friend#but the person this post is mourning was one of my closest friends for ages#i have a feeling she got sick of me#i could write for aged about mourning the friends i grew apart from#its sickening to realize but at the same time freeing because now you get to move on#ss writes#mine#writing
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Throws him across the room/pos

#branch#branch trolls#dreamworks trolls#gy arts#I’m sorry everyone I am coming out as a trolls fan#I’m not sorry actually#I actually love branch#he kind of makes me ill when I think about him#especially he and Poppy#like wtf#he loaf her sm it’s sickening
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