#it’s 4:30 am

[catwouthats]

I feel insane.

Probably because I’m off my meds but

Realizing how close the relationship of Éowyn and Faramir is to Frodo and Sam’s… I’m losing it, they’re re basically having the same conversations at the same time (ish) but in different places.

[pjshermann]

Jude, after sickness

[gladiatorcunt]

what ovulation feels like

[angesaurus]

But it is all yellow now? Your Tumblr.

I had updated the colors made it super pretty and then tumblr changed it to dark mode without my permission………… why do you care? Don’t look at it then if you don’t like it lol

[cowboy-noises]

Hello friends- I just saw an ad for Sirius XM where the first second was pretty fast strobing lights. There is a brief pause of teal before the flashing begins, but it’s probably less than half a second- i attached the first few frames of the ad, but they go by extremely quick. I reported the ad because it could be harmful to photosensitive people. Hopefully it gets taken down soon but careful scrolling yall 💖💖

[hitting-the-apex]

Not me forgetting that I have photophobia and then just triggering the worst migraine ever all by myself because I am and idiot

[inkskinned]

the problem is that being single is seen as the consolidation prize, and not the natural neutral state of being-a-person. at the end of the movie or the book or the poetry, there is a person waiting for you at the altar, and they love you. if the play is a comedy, everyone gets married. the metaphor is about how you are not-whole. the metaphor is about how everyone is going to be happily-ever-after. the metaphor is that romantic love is the most important resource on the planet, not just all-love. all-love is not a thing, that is a disappointment. the treasure is not the friends we made along the way. the treasure is the girl you landed.

the metaphor is that you cannot be alone, that means you are broken. are you getting over someone? that is acceptable, you can be getting over someone, but not for long. you must be single because you would rather not be single. you must be single and looking to not-be-single. you must want to date, eventually.

friendship and community are never seen as being equal-to or even-better than romantic connection. that person is your one! you need to find them. you need to hunt through the sand particles until you can shift out some kind of gem. this is regardless to your own experience of the beach and the sun. you need to be somewhere with someone.

if you are taking this time alone to heal, that is so sad. everyone gives you this little pitying look. the understanding is that you are not actually happier than you were before you were single. it is seen as a sort of pity - oh, you are choosing yourself, making yourself the priority? - that isn't quite right. you must mean that you are making yourself ready for the right person. you are just laying the bed better this time. open up your heart. you'll find them, we promise!

what do you mean you're really-truly genuinely-very happy? you are probably misremembering what it was like to be in a relationship. and besides, once you meet your person, that time will look grey and bland and wasted. your person is the only way for you to see in color. so what if you have taken this time - for the first time in your entire life - to actually-for-real do the fucking work. you can be proud of yourself, sure. but the way we need to know that you got better is that you get a partner. you're healed enough for the next bad part!

people don't choose to be single, they just say they're choosing to be single - they actually mean "nobody wants to date me." it doesn't matter how many people you have gently rejected or how many times you've talked it over carefully in therapy. what matters is that you are single, and by all accounts - that means you are something worth our pity. your successes and life all seem pale in the sunlight. sure, you have done amazing things and finally found your way in life. what matters is that there wasn't a person in the room with you while you did it.

you want to tell them - that's the whole thing. i didn't know how to be alone in the room. i didn't know how to handle the silence. every moment was so sharp, and i kept choosing the wrong way to close the door. i have spent my entire life in the empty well, living in the ricochet of someone else's cruelty. for once i have built myself a ladder. for once everything i taste is all mine, every bite of sunshine and laughter. i have learned how to sleep out in the open with my memories. recently, they have started to purr.

your father rolls his eyes. listen. this isn't about you. i just want a grandchild in my future.

[merlin-wolfgang-trades-hale]

I can’t sleep but I feel insane but in trickster kind of madness(affectionate), and also feeling better and comforted in the knowledge that Spencer is gay

[obsob]

oooooooooough i love you i love you i love you!!!! hand in loving hand !!!!!!

[rube-too-many-fandoms]

too gay, sorry. can’t catch a break

happy new year???

[ovegakart]

I have a hard time waking up in the morning because eternally sleepy so i had set the guardian theme as my alarm, and for a while that worked great. And now it doesnt, my brain has learned how to tune it out and snooze my alarm without even WAKING UP. i feel NOTHING when i hear the guardian theme, i overexposed myself to it.

[blitzbuckzowild]

Good Morning Blitzø

[emkini]

I think about Zuko and Ursa a normal amount

[clinicallyinsanedumpsterrabbit]

So I may have got The Book of Bill and it has me in a slight tiny itty bit of a death grip hyperfixation where all I've been able to imagine is his pathetic toxic ex ass

This pathetic triangle has once again parasitically wormed his way into my brain after years of absence

Also he totally would try and gaslight Ford and say he probably just lost the shirt when he stole it if ever asked where the shirt went

Ok so I could've put a ton of things in that last, panel, so I did, with some joke suggestive ones as the last two below the cut

I'm going to explode him with stock video explosions a bajillion times over

[ricky-mortis]

Hatchetfield @femslashfortnight Day 1: Make It Sapphic AU

[taylachan]

This will be all I will say about The Unwanted Guest: Slutty French Maid Ianthe.