#it wasnt supposed to be dazai

[nyazai-osameow]

Dazai is simply the type of person to taunt and goad his captor.

“you call that a punch? lame.” “i’ve had a 12 year old injure me worse than this.” “if these are your interrogation techniques, no wonder you’re so stupid!”

[hanashiz]

Helianthus Child

Rest, my sweet boy, Under the hot glaze of the sunlight, Sway along on the waves insight, Being the delicate sun in delight, You stayed strong on your upright. My beautiful sunflower the hot summer, Kunikida Doppo

[evermorethecrow]

are any of your chuuyas trans? (sorry if this is a weird question, i saw you were asking for some au asks)

FUCK YEAH!

This guy here

this guy

he

gorbo over here

and this guy

I also have a fuck ton of guys with various trans allegorys

Vampire chuuya (^ this guy) being the biggest one, was born into a family with super female features (all the women in his family have red hair) and was raised pretty much as a girl (then he gets married and now his life goal is to kill his whole bloodline but thats not important)

others would be these two (cryptid au chuuya and highschool au)

I wont say much on it as to not spoil their backstories but its a big thing with 'Looking like a girl again'

as someone who falls under the trans umbrella myself its very important to me to (push all my issues onto chuuya so he deals with them) make my silly guy be just like me frfr so i do stuff whenever possible

Thanks anon!!

[the-demon-prodigy]

this is random but ive seen some ppl say that in this recent chap and the previous one, dazai was not worried abt sigma and was just stressed abt fyodor and in need of sigma's information.

i wanted to debunk that. in my opinion, dazai is worried about sigma. because he's trying to be a good person and doesn't want people to get hurt. it wouldn't even have to be sigma; since joining the ada (and even before then maybe), dazai seems to have an at least slight aversion to letting innocent people or people that he has interacted with and deems to be good get hurt in any way.

yes, dazai is stressed abt the fact that fyodor is alive and on the loose, but hes also worried abt the fact that sigma got pulled into it so much more than he was supposed to.

[asteria1652]

*Chp 109 Spoilers*

I don't care what y'all say Dazai is not dead and no I am not considering the fact that denial is the first in the five stages of greif

[fanon-canon-idfk]

your BEAST Daza fanfic was truly amazing will there be a part 2 cuz like if there's a part 2 I kinda wanna see like the reader dating chuuya and beast dazai reaction to this

OMG I LOVE YOU

THERE WASNT GONNA BE A PART 2 BUT NOW THERE IS BC THIS IS TOO GOOD

BEAST Dazai Osamu x Male Reader x Nakahara Chuuya pt 2

You had just got off your late Night Shift, leaving home the same time as everyone else. That’s when Nakahara came up to you as you walked out of the building.

You assumed Dazai was asking for your presence again, “Isn’t it a bit late for him to want me right now?” You complained, yet still began turning around to walk back to the building.

But then, Nakahara grabbed your arm and held you back “He’s not askin’ for you. I just want to talk.” He mumbled the last bit.

“Oh um.. what is it?” You turn towards him fully.

He looks around for a bit then asks “You wanna grab a bite to eat? I know a good place.” You could’ve sworn you saw a slight tint of red on his face as he spoke.

You thought for a moment. While Dazai kept you out of his personal life, he was sure well versed in your own.

But it was just grabbing a bite right? You supposed the boss wouldn’t really mind you just having a friendly interaction.

Nakahara waited anxiously for your response, about to just say never mind and walk away until you finally answered.

“Yeah. Yeah, I’d like that” you smiled, Nakahara smiled back in relief.

And that’s how the two of you began seeing each other.

He’d find you after work and take you out. Then you finally asked for his number so you could talk outside of work as well.

All the while, you were still having your “meetings” with Dazai.

And he could tell your mind was somewhere else, always drifting at some point, and this was getting annoying.

So he began having a few lackeys follow you around and see what was going on in your life.

At first what they reported to him was harmless, he really didn’t care that you were hanging out with Chuuya, to him it was just one more eye to keep on you.

However, he didn’t tell Chuuya he had been watching the both of you. Y’know, just in case.

He had no reason to worry.

Chuuya was nothing to worry about.

Until he was.

Dazai had called you up for yet another “meeting”, these days they had been getting more and more frequent.

As Chuuya left the room, he gave you a smile in passing.

Things went as usual, small talk not lasting too long before his hands were on you.

He held your face so tenderly, kissed you gently, comfortably laid himself in your arms, all like a real lover.

And you kissed him back so carefully, softly traced circles in his back as you held his waist, and looked into his dark eyes, all like your heart belonged to him alone.

And then again, it was over, and he was your boss and you, his subordinate who had given up on anything real with him.

You walk out of his office and just as you walk out the door and begin to turn to the corridor, Chuuya is there leaning against the wall.

“Oh Chuuya, you can go ahead back in now. We’re.. done.” You feel your face heat up slightly at the mention of what just happened.

“I’ll go.. in a sec.” He replies blankly, not looking at you once.

“Is something the matter?” You place a hand on his shoulder, only for him to grab your wrist tightly.

“I can’t take it anymore..” he seethed, you thought he could’ve broke your wrist if he gripped any tighter.

Before anything like that could happen, he just released your wrist completely before letting himself fall into your chest.

“Chuuya..?” You looked down at him worriedly.

“I hate him.. why does he get to kiss you..? To love you..?” His fists clenched and shook as he spoke.

“What are you saying..?” You asked worriedly.

He lifted his head slightly and looked up at you, opening his mouth to speak.

But then he caught a glimpse of Dazai’s lackey’s walking toward the both of you.

He pushed away from you and walked right back to Dazai’s office without a word.

You stood in shock, what the hell just happened? What is Chuuya saying? He hates the boss for kissing you..?

Then your phone buzzes in your pocket, a message from Chuuya.

It’s an address, a bar out of town?

“We’ll talk later.”

After work you drove straight to the location Chuuya sent you, pulling up to a small bar in between two larger buildings.

You walked in and scanned the area until you saw your coworker sitting hunched over the bar, hat removed and placed on a seat by his side.

Chuuya was a bit tipsy by now, not drunk though, he was well aware of your hesitant frame and worried eyes approaching him.

He looks over and nods at you, removing his hate from the seat so you could sit.

You sat down quietly, then you spoke.

“What’s going on Chuuya?” You questioned, turning to face him.

“I.. I like you, a lot. I might as well be fucking in love with you.” He groaned, dropping his face between his hands.

You watched as his ears turn red, even his gloves weren’t hiding the trembling of his hands.

“Chuuya?” You called for his attention but he just grumbled.

“Chuuya, look at me. Please..?” Your tone was soft.

He slowly turned his head to you, only one eye look toward you.

You scooted in closer, tilting your head to get a better view of his eye.

“I love you too.” You smiled, his eye widened and Chuuya jolted up completely and looked you in the eyes to be sure you were genuine.

He exhaled shakily, moving toward you quickly and wrapping his arms around your neck tightly.

You returned the hug just as tight, smiling widely.

After a long while, you both laughed lightly as you separated.

And that’s how you became the loving boyfriend of Nakahara Chuuya.

And that’s also how Chuuya put a large target on his own back.

[yoursminehourss]

thinking real hard about how dazais heartbeat ABSOLUTELY skyrocketed when chuuya shot him in the shoulder (because that wasnt supposed to happen). like do you think ango saw that and felt terror. just saying btw

[wtowingedtragicobsidian]

ADA Character Dynamics

Sigma<->Ranpo: friends, research cases together

Sigma->Ranpo: admires but that awe is often trumped by the mild annoyance at being dragged into cases, he forces them to hold their ground in difficult cases

Ranpo->Sigma: one of the first to support them joining the agency because he saw them as a valuable asset, also ended up valuing them as a friend, teases them and drags them into cases but will occasionally share his sweets with them

Sigma->Fukazawa: deeply respects but doesn’t know how to interact with him yet (the awkward middle child who is quite but eager to live up to his expectations)

Fukazawa->Sigma: quite pleased to have adopted another child, knows they can get a bit overwhelmed but trusts they will do well (Asks Kunikida to keep his eye on them for that reason), grants them access to his personal library because he knows they love to learn

Sigma->Yosano: healthy respect(fear),(at time of joining does not know Yosano’s ability saved their life, once they find this out they become extremely grateful and soften towards her a bit)

Yosano->Sigma: thinks they would make an excellent drinking buddy, trying to figure out how to make that happen without intimidating them more, (eventually finds out they view her ability in a non-gruesome light and feels extremely touched/flattered)

Sigma->Kunikida: appreciates the structure he provides to the agency (and sympathizes with his valiant attempts to wrangle Dazai) but finds him a bit overwhelming

Kunikida->Sigma: annoyed that Fukazawa picked up yet another stray but genuinely wants them to do well so looks out for them in his own high stung way, works with them on their firearm proficiency

Sigma->Tanizaki siblings: finds them nice, if a bit strange

Tanizaki->Sigma: treats them nicely because he knows the ADA is a weird bunch and it can be overwhelming to be the new guy, acts a as a bit of an anchor in that way

Naomi->Sigma: interestingly does not bristle around them, finds them charming and wants to be their friend, does their nails

Sigma->Kenji: wonders what they did to be in the presence of someone so warm and wholesome(has yet to realize that are terrifying, when they do they are surprisingly unfrazzled and just take them to get some food)

Kenji->Sigma: is just his usual kind self to them (completely oblivious of his sunshine effect absolutely baffling them nearly to tears every time meet)

Sigma->Kyouka: sees her like a little kitten with sharp claws, finds her cute/sweet but can be caught a little off-guard by her at times causing them to worry for either themselves of her, empathizes with her past and because of that wants her to experience joy so subtly watches of for her, they go and get crepes together

Kyouka->Sigma: not super close but knows they care about her, doesn’t think they need to (does not verbalize this, lest the crepe outings cease), thinks they are kind of naive and finds that amusing

Sigma<->Atsushi: friends, bond over a shared sense of protectiveness for Kyouka and annoyance at Dazai, like to confide (complain) to each other

Sigma->Atsushi: admires his tenacity, empathizes with his backstory, fascinated by the resilience of the goodness in his heart, grateful that he was one of the first to validate them joining the agency

Atsushi->Sigma: teaches them how to sass Dazai, first to pipe up and defend them when necessary, complains about Akutagawa to them

Sigma->Dazai: complex feelings, grateful for recommending them to the agency (and in doing so giving them a new purpose) but he still makes them a little uncomfortable, when they eventually realize Dazai’s thank you is genuine they do not know what to think (but it does ease at least some of the tension they feel around him), goes and complains to Atsushi about it to help process(Atsushi in his infinite wisdom (ability to see though some Dazai’s bullshit and meet it with disarming earnestness) of course is the one to suggest he might have been honest to begin with)

Dazai->Sigma: the other most common culprit for dragging them into cases, teases the shit outa them (does not know how to say sorry for what he played a part in putting them through, does not even  realize that he probably should, some of the teasing is defiantly a manifestation from this subconscious dissonance), does however say thank you to them for what they did in Meursault, sees a little of himself in them in their search for something to care for/purpose to exist(does feel some sort of responsibility(maybe even care) towards them, but that’s a little too soft and genuine of an emotion for him  to process so he just doesn’t)

ADA Sigma reference sheet

some reference if anyone wants to draw them.

[nyxi-pixie]

me when im supposed to be studying but instead im thinking abt mori and dazai again

let me go absolutely insane for a second (not a second. this is so long. i just checked mfer its over 2000 words. i need to be sedated. imprisoned. restrained. examined. smthn)

'a young man with a death wish once came to me and i wanted to rescue him but i couldnt' and like yeah. beast mori couldnt rescue him. but to a certain extent, canon mori sort of has (touch wood for long term but as it is, dazai is so much less intent on dying than he was in dark era).

and it just. i always wonder about the actual intentions of the mimic situation. because on the surface, it looks like what dazai calls it, then deeper than that, it looks like a very calculated long term strategy, and deeper than that, its just. kinda sad.

i just think its interesting that he plans the mimic thing the way he does knowing dazai will leave despite the fact that he doesnt want him to. and dazai himself reasons this as mori being afraid of him, that mori doesnt want dazai to kill him the way mori killed the old boss. but thats? not true? mori seems unbothered at worst and downright proud at best when he tells oda that dazai will probably kill him one day.

so. Why. did he do it knowing dazai would leave? it wasnt his only option; he could have set skk on mimic. like 5 second future vision isnt gonna do much when the danger is alr there (as oda says). and in the face of a massive black hole coming right at u or a building being dropped on you, five seconds really isnt gonna do much. so mimic cld have been removed without a casualty and the mafia could still have got the permit, and not lost dazai. (who is Objectively an asset to the organisation.) But thats not how it happens. Mori plans it exactly as he does knowing oda will die and dazai will leave. he also then makes it continually obvious that dazai would be welcomed back.

and ive been trying to think of other reasons for it, but across canon and insight from beast mori the only thing i can think of comes back to the fact that mori wants dazai alive. alive and aware that the pm is the best place for him, but alive more than anything else.

i think he wants dazai as his heir bc he knows dazai is enough like him to manage it, but i wonder if it also comes back to the fact that mori is trying to rescue him, and i imagine his own reason to live (and lord knows he suggests he needs a strong one in fifteen) is probably tied down to legacy and responsibility for the city. mori devotes his life to the mafia because he wants peace and appreciates that control (rather than eradication) of the worst of yokohama is the way to keep that peace. and thats enough of a reason to live for him. but it isnt for dazai.

dazai doesnt give a fuck about the mafia as a concept bc his motivations dont rest on ideals the way moris do. dazai only ever does anything because of the people he cares about. everything we see him do, EVEN in pm era where people claim he was some emotionless rockman, come back to his friends.

its why hes never at the centre of the plot. he cant be, because he never does anything for himself. fifteen, in which he is a titular character, is a plot that rests vastly on chuuyas back story. dazais original motivation prior to meeting him is just to khs, and only upon meeting chuuya and them having their whole weird Thing and dazai deciding to be an obsessive freak, does he actually have personal stakes in the job. then in stormbringer, its all abt chuuya again, and dazai is only involved bc he cares about him (whatever he actually says aside). tdipud is driven by odas storyline, and so is dark era. dazai is only active in them bc he cares abt oda.

even when he has more idealistic motivations come canon era, they come back to the fact that hes doing it for oda. anything Above And Beyond that promise is bc hes acting to save the agency, who are his Friends. his motivations are deeply personal in complete contrast to moris, and it is perhaps the only place they really differ.

now ironically, it seems to be that the only decisions mori makes influenced by personal feelings are because of dazai. which takes me to the fact that i think he let dazai leave because he recognises thats whats best for him (at least in the short term - and we'll get to That in a second). and its not really a loss for the organisation because dazais too practical to ever dismiss the mafia, and he still gut responds with their methods. so its an easy sacrifice, a justifiable one.

then theres the contrast with the kouyou&kyouka thing. kouyou doesnt want kyouka to taste the light only to have it sour on her tongue when she realises she cant actually have it because of what she is. because kouyou believes anyone tainted by darkness the way they are can never be free of it. (because she couldnt get out herself).

i wouldnt be surprised if mori thinks the same way, certainly in regards to someone like dazai who Is naturally built for the mafia in a way kyouka really isnt. mori at least believes dazais blood is mafia black and whether or not this is true is irrelevant. he Does have to actively fight his impulses in order to do the Right Thing even now. And even doing that, he still falls into their methods when its practical, or when he's paranoid or unsettled enough to need the comfort of habit, hence the way he treats aku even four years removed from the mafia. hence the way he treats atsushi immediately after Q appears (the way he so instantly latches onto his older self literally slapping the self pity he detests in himself and in his former kouhai out of his current one). hence the way the parallels to mori spring up most when dazai has just been shaken by something.

so i wonder if mori let dazai walk into the light knowing (or believing) he wouldnt fit there, and would come back with a stronger commitment to the mafia as a whole because it may be a concept of sorts, but its one that embraces him in a way the light doesnt, and while dazai does things for the people He cares about, its a mutual thing - he feels responsibility for the people that care about Him too (which probably ties in to the desire for a quiet suicide without bothering anyone, and also to the disgust he has w the sheep - because it Isnt a mutual exchange there).

i think it was always intended as a temporary thing (five years away from the mafia maybe. the 'five years' right before dazai comes to take moris place). give him a taste of the light and let him come to his own conclusion that he doesnt belong there, and eventually turn back to the mafia where he does belong.

(despite suggestions that dazai Doesnt really belong there - smthn smthn cat/dog symbolism - though people suggest this implies he belongs w the ada and i dont think thats true either esp given the way hes omitted from the group so often. i think the cat symbolism w dazai likens him more to natsume than atsushi&fukuzawa esp given the way theyre shown tgthr so often. dazai doesnt belong to any organisation or rigid group, he just fits in line w whoever he cares abt and wherever he decides hes content to stay. v much like a cat actually.).

anyway, moris idea seems to be that dazai wld realise the mafia is somewhere he is cared for, and he cares for the people within it in return. though it doesnt seem to have really turned out that way (maybe mori j underestimated the power of the ada's one specialty: forced integration into its found family. lmao)

so you could see it from a practical perspective: mori sending dazai out to show him he really belongs w the mafia and shld come back to them when the time is right, thus mori secures his legacy by leaving the pm to dazai and the mafia is led forward by someone who could handle it the way mori has.

but. hes never pushy abt dazai coming back. hes downright polite abt it (contrasting to the way he treats yosano), and he puts an awful lot of effort into saving dazais life. (kinda funny that he sends chuuya to pick dazais ass up every five seconds with no reward for either of them - chuuya post dead apple literally asks and moris just like ? uh the safety of the city?? bragging rights😁👍? - but when he sends chuuya to save the agency as a whole the price is Heavy like. exchange of a member is crazyyy.)

dazai is always very much considered One Of Their Own. his seat is still empty waiting for him to come back, he and mori post guild are Always cooperating (despite the kinda petty way dazai talks to him during the reunion - the whole 'i burnt the coat' thing - its almost childish, spiteful in a way that speaks to personal hurt that undermines any control he might have had of their kind of distant passive aggressive exchange. but. im too insane abt that interaction that my interpretation cld be entirely bs.)

they communicate through this ridiculous game of chess, and rely on each other to keep both their organisations afloat. when anyone else from the ada tries to pull the same thing, mori pulls out contracts for their damn souls but when its dazai hes just like ? oh ur bf needs to save you again? of course i can spare him to go pick you up from european prison yeah not a problem! ill even glue his vampire cosplay teeth in!!

in connection with that, even with dazais commitment to Doing The Right Thing, he does not do it in the right way. hes perfectly content to use mori-typical underhanded methods to get the ada to the right place. he sends aku To His Death Knowingly for the sake of saving atsushi and by extension the rest of the agency (and he may have known that the vampirism wld sorta bring him back?? but he still sends him to die), and its sorta similar to mori sending aku out to deal with hawthorne and mitchell while hes in rlly bad shape.

anyway dazais methods always make me think of that cunty exchange sskk have in dead apple 'thats not the way we do things in the detective agency' 'was that a bad joke😘 ur too much weretiger🌈✨💖'. but like. dazai Doesnt work the way the ada does. at least not when things get tense enough to drive him back to habit.

i think people like to interpret dazai as being a better person now, and i think in some ways he is. because hes always influenced by the people hes around most. but also, his motivations havent really changed from pm era. he still does what he does for his friends, they just happen to be on the right side now.

anyway. mori puts more work into keeping dazai alive than any other character (bar perhaps chuuya - but thats because mori saving dazai runs hand in hand with chuuya doing it given hes the one sending him) which is. aurgh.

mori and the wish to save people is just interesting in general. the fact that he became a doctor in the first place is telling on its own plus the unhinged way he deals with yosano - of course someone obsessed with saving people would want a cheat card for sending Death packing - but maybe i could believe it was just a power thing, more to his sense of control. playing with life and death so that he can play god. and i think that probably is just a little bit part of it, esp during the war.

but theres also the way he treats doctors within the pm (sb calls it respect for his former position but it may also be knowledge that the better treated they are the more people they will save). And the only reason he works w the tripartite agreement is bc he loves yokohama, wants its people, including its underground, alive and all that (honestly it probably links back to war stuff - hes really intent on peace).

so hes already someone that is intent on saving people (and beast mori makes this obvious w the way he treats atsushi) but theres a personal edge to it w dazai, possibly bc dazai is so much like him, and asgr is kind of obsessed w the saving your mirrors bc you cldnt save yourself thing (sskk. atsushi&lucy. chuuya with his clone. beast akutagawa siblings. beast atsushi&kyouka. i could continue).

im frothing at the mouth but basically, mori does everything for practical reasons in line with his ideals, his grand vision for the PM, but that doesnt mean he isnt making any emotionally charged decisions. its just that theyre always justified by their practical outcomes. (Especially where dazai is concerned). so he can pretend that theyre not driven by personal feelings but IM WATCHING U MORI U CANT HIDE FROM ME.

yk i sometimes wonder if i see him too sympathetically for a guy thats as so sucks as he is but someone has to counterbalance the 75% of the fandom that thinks hes pure evil for no reason and has no thoughts outside of Being Terrible so. here you go have this from the depths of my brain.

[angelicutz]

Explaining the Pretty Privalige in the Bungou Stray Dogs fandom because not many people seem to realize it

(Not defending any of these characters by the way just something i wanted to point out!!)

Lets take Dazai for an example

Dazai, a very much loved character among the community, while his looks overlook the fact that he's an abuser, a criminal, ect.

I suppose he's a well written character but just for the refrence

I'll put a list of stuff Dazai did for you people understand

You didnt see many people talk about those things did you? Is it maybe because they're blinded by his stereotypical suicidal maniac twink of a personality? Well you would be right!!

Or Fyodor or Nikolai for example

Fyodor and Nikolai are both questionable characters aswell, they've killed many: men, women, children even without an ounce of remorse or guilt

But people still love them

And why's that? Its because of their looks, they're nice anime twink looks that get the community simping

Alright now we're gonna switch up a little

Most people in the Bungou Stray Dogs fandom arent too fond of Fukuchi

Despite the fact that the people i listed before might potentially be worse than him (high emphasis on might and potentially)

Fukuchi is a well written character you have to admit, but lets get to the root of his slander

People often slander him for being a dickhead, an old man, being ugly, ect

Now lets look at the other characters his age aswell

Fukuzawa, he's adored by the community and i can see why. But do you think he'd get all this validation if he wasnt an attractive twilf (Twink + Dilf)? Yea think about it

So in conclusion: The things you do/done arent a problem no matter how bad they are as long as you're attractive

[thepartyishere]

dazai gets sent to the mafia but hes spent four years becoming a professional menace:

(I'm not saying this is how I think he would actually behave if he was transferred the idea is just funny)

-he would listen to the most vulgar music in his headphones in hopes someone would overhear (like wap or cpr or smthing) at the agency

he uses this traumatizing playlist to "accidentally" connect to Mori's bluetooth during meetings or smthing

-he practiced spreading misinformation to kunikida a lot now hes inspired to start as many ridiculous rumors as possible

he convinces almost everyone that mori wears a toupee or pees the bed or something stupid. years from now there will be gossip still going around that he started

chuuya will never fall for these, despite dazais best efforts

-introducing a lot of creative new torture methods, like in 55 minutes where he tortures someone via pudding. he just has more fun with unique torture methods even if he doesnt have to be mosty ethical anymore.

-ramps up the "suicide attempts" a whole bunch, especially when hes supposed to be doing something important. anything to cause a disturbance

-bringing up embarrassing old stories about people in front of members who don't know. chuuya would get a good portion of this treatment, but others too

-straight up refusing to do things he doesnt want to. he has a ton more power over mori now, and this could be inspired by ranpo's behavior and role in the agency

-poorly hiding meet ups with the agency to hang out. mori absolutely knows they happen and dazais practically daring him to bring it up

-terrorizing new or low ranking members who arent familiar with him

-either ignoring soukoku or with chuuyas permission, he would parade around various boyfriends and girlfriends and be gross about pda. like bringing them into restricted areas and stuff

-dazai would be flippant about work but also secretly digging his fingers as deep as he can into as many different facets of the mafia as possible. like it's all lowkey in his palm and no one knows how it happened

-i can imagine him creating a memorial for oda and the kids right in front of moris face. or out of moris money somehow. something to forever remind mori of that event

-like above, stealing moris money or the mafias budget and donating it to homeless people or an orphanage lmao. hiding his footprints tho, it wasnt him (mori knows but cant prove it)

-mori knows but cant prove it seems like it would be a common theme. idk how dazai did this but it was def him

-anything to ruin the mafias reputation. being silly and stupid in front of important people, disregarding the power hierarchy in both directions, etc. just absolutley disrupting the cultural environment. redecorating to ruin the dark and mysterious vibe

[alixstardust]

OKAY LETS FUCKING GO I LOVE BSD

LETS TALK ABOUT SIGMA!!!!

Imagine waking up, alone, you dont remember anything about your life and you are completely lost.

You just want something to make your life something worth it, dont you?

But the point is, he didnt even "woke up". He just spawned(?), he didnt live at all. Because of his innocence, he was used by literally everyone he thought would love him by who he was.

But who he actually was?

He's three years old (kind of), but with a mind of an adult. And i think thats something really relatable if you think about that as a metaphor. Desperately wanting something to call yours, something that makes live worth living.

You found it. Congratulations. But now, protect it with your life! And suddenly you have a reason to live.

Sometimes i think every bsd character is like a really deep part of me, so i can really easily associate them. For exemple, Sigma tries to protect his only important thing (the cassino) with his life, just like Kunikida's life doenst make sense without his ideals and he got a hard time trying to accept that his ideals can be impossible and "wrong". Every bsd character have a really clear reason to keep living and doing what they are supposed to, and i think thats a really human thing about them.

Everytime we try to found something to live for, "life goals". Its a really dangerous thing 'cause life literally doesn't have any sense or a right goal we should achieve. Its frustating when we cant achieve our dreams or when our goal doesnt make sense at all, and thats what happened to our dear Sigma.

When we loose our most important thing (being a person, an animal, a personality trait or any other thing), its like we are loosing ourselves.

We can see in some chapters Sigma's indifference about death. Its really worth it when we dont have anyone? When we dont have a reason? When everytime we try to be happy or live a memorable life, we end up being used and betrayed?

You can say, in fact, that its worth it but its something really hard to belive.

Its depressing when, the reason why you were created its based in some guy's plan to rule the world or something crazy (like, asagiri please drop the bsd lore??). He shouldn't exist, and he probably wouldnt. He didn't even existed for a long time, until he had to exist to perform his mission, his role in the plan.

He doesnt lived at all? Or he doesnt remember his life? Does it really matter?

If nobody remembers you, are you even living?

And if you wasnt living, what makes you human?

thats not all that i have to say but!!!! my english is really bad and i dont have enough vocabulary for what i want to say!!! so maybe later

thank you for reading and please someone to share the love that i have for this anime I CANT

maybe when i finish stormbringer and beast i will do one of these to chuuya or dazai !!

he's so me fr fr

[seasnek]

so before the new chapter comes out and proves me right/wrong, im like 60/40 on if dazai is really dead or not but im leaning towards that he is.

why? because dazai doesnt need himself to live in order for his plan to work; he just needs sigma.

throughout the mersault arc theres been foreshadowing towards this right? like dazai and fyodor said one of them wasnt leaving the prison alive and fyodors been talking about how dangerous a desperate mediocre man like sigma is. dazai knows that if he can keep fyodors attention on him, sigma can probably make it out. if he gets sigma out, sigma will be dedicated to the ada, he knows fyodors ability now, etc etc. i dont know if dazai was ever planning on making it out alive, but i think he took his own death into account when making his plans. he needs a way to win even if hes not in the picture anymore and i think dazai believes sigma can do that. if sigma can make it to the ada and help thwart fyodor, dazai will have done his job

but fyodor doesnt truly believe sigma could ever beat HIM. dazai does tho. he saw the potential in atsushi and he sees it in sigma. fyodors counting on sigma being under his thumb bc he only exists thanks to their page of the book. sigma wants to survive. but now that nikolai has kept sigma alive when he was supposed to be dead (according to fyodors plan) sigmas a lot less likely to follow orders if he thinks itll just get him killed anyway. dazai and atsushi have been hyping the ada up and thats why sigmas allegiances have changed lmao

i also think dazai is dead bc its INTERESTING. we've consistently seen that asagiri doesnt take the boring way out of things. what could be more interesting than having one of your most important characters die? it leaves all of us wondering what could possibly happen next and thats the point!!! thats what makes it fun to read!!!!

now obvi theres still a decent chance he lives. we didn't see that third bullet make it into the wall after all. if thats the case tho, i think theres another twist behind it. id guess its that the cat lady is still alive. it seems strange to introduce a character with that powerful of an ability only to kill her off shortly after. what if she stopped the bullet in fyodors gun and played dead? she could stop time again so the bullet only grazed dazai

throughout this whole story im trying to keep in mind that the second half of that book page hasnt been written on yet. thats a pretty big deus ex machina. if dazai is dead now but the ada manages to get their hands on the page later they could literally write him back to life AND keep sigma alive

[the-gayest-sky-kid]

people keep reblogging my dazai gaypost that WASNT supposed to exit my circle of mutuals

[fyodior]

happy new year! period came late and the horny hours are starting up so heres a little rant

(tw// unwanted pregnancy, yandere characteristics, im sure there is more i just cant wrap my head around it rn)

imagining breeding with someone as cold and calculating as fyodor or dazai. everything they do is planned, it has a purpose. youve had conversations about having kids that basically come down to "if i was pregnant i would keep the baby but i dont want to actively try for one."

so naturally, when having sex, he gets you all dumb and pliable, and cums inside you. he wasnt supposed to, it wasnt in *your* plans to get pregnant. it was in his plans though, (that bastard) as you are now going to become the stay-at-home mom for your husband. and being at home means being away from the conflict and being stuck with him.

idk i think i just want to be manipulated by a fictional man, makes me feel wanted or smth

☕️

YAAASSSS ive recently really gotten into the concept of baby trapping i love this so much

ur kind of eh about kids rn but he’s like. i need to get you pregnant right now fbdjdhdj

[nacaharachuya]

Okay so i realised im a fucking idiot and that i’ve been sending you shit through “?” And i have no idea where those messages go through so whoopdy doo ig but in my defence i wasnt able to send anything any other way bc.. uhh.. yeah my email wasn’t confirmed n all that. Im telling u man i’m a whole ass boomer rn🤦‍♀️ can’t even remember how to send an ask smh.

Anyways i only now finished reading svs because i’ve been putting it off in favour of reading different fics (works from other fandoms and… ooc soukoku fics. Listen i hate mischaracterisation as much as the next guy but i find them very entertaining okay) and AAAUURGGHH WHAT A BANGER. The way you write is immaculate if svs was a food it’d have a savoury taste like i’d be liking my fingers n shit. I found out about it when you posted on twitter you updated it (it was the smut chapter, by the way) and i was like “huh” and decided to read it and my god am i glad I didn’t skip over that tweet.

Idk if this was on purpose or not but verlaine is kinda cringefail in your fic and i love it. I am a firm believer that as badass as verlaine is he is undeniably embarrassing and i need MORE of that.

My one criticism for svs is that we needed more adam scenes. He should have been added like really, unnecessarily early on in the fic and act as a third wheel in the fic. But like a third wheel soukoku did not want or ask for but he’s just kinda there they can’t really get rid of him. Chuuya and dazai in their divorce arc arguing and adam is in the background thinking “i could crack a really funny joke from this” (on that note i added the lines “Adam’s blabbering makes more sense now, so they act as if nothing has happened. “When I lift this veil, you will seal the deal with a kiss.” He can’t stop himself from laughing, “I hope you enjoyed that joke too.” “We didn’t,” Verlaine says from across the shrine. “Paul be quiet.”” In my “collection of fanfic lines I chuckled at” in my notes. He’s so silly i love him. I love how he laughs at his own jokes he just like me fr.)

Anyways here are like two extra svs doodles. I keep thinking about how you said that chuu can fluctuate between genders (literally) and its so… zamn.

And reading the scene where verlaine is brushing chuuya’s hair inspired me to draw this

I have no idea how long chuuya’s hair is supposed to be like idk if it’s “yeah his hair is a little longer than it is in canon haha” or “yeah mf got some LONG ass hair looking like rapunzel”. Also I don’t remember if his lil ribbon was red or blue but.. i jus went with blue and i didn’t know if the pearls were supposed to be like on his head or woven into his braid so i just went with the latter. And again ALSO i know he was barefoot but i’m not drawing his fucking dogs okay.

This ask is long as hell never let me talk again LMAO

Currently looking at a detail i forgot in the drawing… not pointing it out in hopes you don’t notice it either smh but GOD DAMMIT 🤬🤬🤬

DAWG I OPENED THIS YESTERDAY IN SHOCK IA M ALWAYS BLOWN AWAY BY YOUR ASKS AND ART IT MAKES ME FEEL SO LOVED AND SO CRAZY LIKE!?!?! I'M SO GLAD YOU LOVED IT ENOUGH TO MAKE ART I SAVE IT AND LOOK AT IT CONSTANTLY ;_; IM LIKE.....

AND ALSO THANK YOU. I need svs criticism and ur right I should have introduced more characters earlier I just got carried away with skk because...IDK BUT ADAM WAS MY SAVING GRACEE. He was so silly I wanted to add him sooner but I was like wait....no... BUT HE IS IN THE SEQUEL!!! DW!!! His silly ass is there and he's cracking them jokes and Verlaine is like o_o. THE ADAM LINES WERE SO FUN TOO CAUSE HE'S NOT CRINGE HE'S JUST....HIM.

Verlaine is cringe-fail on purpose tho and I'm glad you saw that because I see him as an incredibly pathetic person who can't do normal human things. He would like bite open a metal can or rip it open with his hands because he doesn't know what a can opener is. He is that type of guy.

The art is just immaculate bro like straight-up BEAUTIFUL. Chuuya's literal genderfluidity is something I'm glad people like cause when I imagine divinity I think of someone not bound by sex or gender and whatnot plus I just don't think he'd give a fart. so like....world's most wonderful tits...but he's shorter.

THE WEDDING OUTFIT IS SENDING ME TO THE GRAVE THO LIKE. IT"S PERFECT AND IDK WHAT DETAIL YOU MISSED CAUSE I FORGET EVERYTHING BUT BUT BUT BUT BUT I"M. THE HAIR LENGTH I DIDN"T SPECIFIY !!! He looks so *crying emoji cause I don't have my phone* you don't have to draw his toes I just think barefoot chuu running up the stairs to meet dazai is very him. perseverance.

BOYCACA WHAT IS YOUR TWT LET ME FOLLOW YOU AND BOTHER YOU THERE AND SPREAD THE BOYCACA AGENDA