#it was the toxic codependent homoerotic friendship

[c0mmunicationbreakdown]

so i watched fight club

[super-nova5045]

i think one of the best subtleties of challengers is we all think art has matured because he got what he wanted - tashi and fame - and tashi and patrick are still immature teens but art hasn’t! he’s still a stunted adult, a literal teenager in the body of an adult who puts on this facade of maturity and wisdom to hide the fact that he’s deeply hurting inside because he does not want to be perceived as childish or immature, he does not want people to know he still ruminates over being the second choice lurking in the shadows of patrick and tashi - because even as an adult he still is. he can’t exist with tashi and he can’t exist without and so he becomes this blank nothingness and does what she says to feel something - approved, desired - so he does not become the bitter and jealous child that broke up tashi and patrick and ultimately led to tashi injuring herself. he is literally nothing more than tashi’s partner (as she is to him too) and has to pretend he’s okay with that so he doesn’t lose everything he’s built like he did when he was 18 and in love with his best friend and his best friend’s girlfriend.

[mintedmouse]

Can't believe for the Cat Loving MV they specifically went out of their way to give them their alt palettes and do filters over it so their little face paints are their other members colors like

Clearly Kanande, Mafuyu, and her own colors. Also Meta about how Mizuki's color isnt there and their absence right now? Also Ena getting the "I'm the only one who knows" line...they really planned this out huh

Kanade and Mafuyu's colors <3

They really went No you need to know this song about obsession is about Mizuena and Kanamafu here!!!

[moonagedaydreamsofrhiannon]

*muttering incoherently while rocking back and forth on the floor of my padded cell, ripping out chunks of my own hair*

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[inkedbydave]

people who managed to forget or move on from your codependent homoerotic friendships formed at a diabolically young age... tips and tricks please? drop the tutorial babes?

[stainapologists]

Kowalsmith fucking SUCKS and that's half the appeal. I do not understand the urge to redeem Gary that a lot of people seem to have. He's an asshole and I need Pete to dump his ass.

[mountain-dew-tickledpink]

Reflection

hesitant to call this boyfs but it kind of his but also isn’t lol

It’s not like Michael ever truly hated Jeremy for the incident junior year with the play and the stupid computer pill. He couldn’t do that, but that didn’t meant that he didn’t need space from Jeremy for a while.

The space ended up being more than he expected. A week grew into a two weeks and then a month and then six months and now he and Jeremy barely talked. It made Michael feel kind of bitter at first, why wasn’t Jeremy doing more to reach out?

But he hadn’t been doing a lot either, and eventually the six months turned into a few years. College happened, new friends happened. But Michael couldn’t help but still think about Jeremy sometimes.

Whatever brought up the conversation he didn’t remember, but Michael was in one of these new friend’s living room on the couch and talking about Jeremy.

“We were best friends for twelve years,” he laughed a little, not focusing on the TV anymore as Eleanor, the friend, listened. “I actually can’t remember a time when I was younger that he wasn’t there.”

There was a pause. The curly brown haired girl squinted her eyes slightly. “Go on…?”

Michael just looked up at the ceiling and shrugged. “And it’s weird because he was kind of my whole life? But I didn’t really listen to him that well.” He took a breath. “I just always assumed we would be on the same page about everything, and we were at some points, but I guess I didn’t realize how he wanted to do things outside of me?”

“That’s what she said.” Eleanor’s eyes opened wide right after she said that. Maybe she realized that wasn’t the most appropriate time to make a ‘that’s what she said’ joke, but she stuffed some more popcorn in her mouth.

“Anyways, he eventually got a girlfriend and we had both needed some space. And then the spacing just kept… space-ing?”

Michael took off his glasses and started to clean them on his shirt as he continued. “Things were just complicated, but you know what’s funny? I think he was in some ways my first heartbreak.”

“So you liked him?” Eleanor asked, handing the popcorn bowl back to Michael once he had his glasses back on.

“I mean, yes and no.” He tried to explain. “Like, I would’ve done anything for him. We did kiss a few times in middle school out of curiosity, but I already knew I liked boys before him. We would hold hands, and he was honestly cute, yeah..”

“It kind of sounds like you’re still in love with him…?” Eleanor raised an eyebrow. Michael shook his head.

“No, we haven’t talked in maybe six years.” Technically, they had talked. They still wished each other well on holidays and texted each other for birthdays, but nothing beyond that. “But it still really hurt when we stopped talking.”

“I can imagine.” The girl nodded and then grabbed some more popcorn from the bowl. Michael did too.

It was all complicated. Michael hadn’t even been mad about the squip anymore, or for being left behind. If anything, for a while he had been more upset with the confused feelings he felt like he had been left alone to deal with.

Did he leave Jeremy alone with these feelings too, Michael would often wonder. It’s not like he meant to, he would never hurt Jeremy so badly on purpose.

“After we stopped talking, it felt like losing a limb at first. He had been pretty much everything to me and then was gone?”

Had he been in love with Jeremy or had he just been scared of the change that would’ve happened if Jeremy left?

Was it really a crush or did he just so happen to like holding and giving Jeremy kisses on the cheek and letting him rest his head on his lap?

Why was he thinking so hard about the codependent relationship he used to have? Okay, that wasn’t fair, that relationship had been one of his most important ones for most of his life.

Eventually Michael had been quiet long enough that Eleanor just focused on the movie again, and he pulled out his phone and went through his messages.

He clicked on Jeremy’s name after some scrolling and just stared at the last message. It had been one from himself, just a “you too” after Jeremy said for him to have a good birthday.

Hello

Michael typed out before pressing the backspace button and just putting his phone away.

[whump-card]

You were supposed to fall in love with him, not me

and

You were supposed to fall in love with him, not me

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[greenglowinspooks]

Honestly Tim was so misunderstood because if I had a hot best friend who I was a little gay with sometimes and they died and I also conveniently had access to cloning technology I woulda done the exact same shit as him. Like bro there is no such thing as ethics in the face of the unstoppable force known as deeply codependent homoerotic friendships during highschool

[kevyeen]

I wish being weird and batshit insane was socially acceptable, conforming to societal norms is killing me.

[thestamp3d3]

i cant get over how absolutely insane satosugu is...gege was born to write yaoi forced to write shounen

[youandthemountains]

in the way that Persian lovers making rugs would encipher messages to each other..................

[crocwork-clockodile]

The one good thing about the-artist-formerly-known-as-twitter is that it wouldn't let me look at the profile of my old highschool toxic ex-best friend to be a snoopy, hateful bitch without signing in first. And God knows I am not signing into Muskrat's social media ever again.

[burningchandelier]

Prev your comments were too good to leave in the tags #sorry I know this is a yellowjackets post but the fact that it's Melanie Lynskey is soooo funny#like yeah babe if only you and Juliet Hulme hadn't beaten your mom to death with a brick and then been sentenced to separate women's prisons#and were released ​on the condition that you change your names and never speak to each other again

literally all of her problems