#it was a lot and it couldve been so fucking bad

[digital-mine]

im sick of this and im sick of being helpless all my life so at the very least i want to tell this to anyone it could reach. if you see this please read, i dont care if you hate politics or war related stuff, at the very least you could listen.

if you have been following me then you probably have seen me talking about leaving my country due to war, i never did nor even planned to mention the name of where i came from though. partly because of privacy, but also partly because of shame. because so many people fucking hate my country, and hate people from it. but i dont give a shit anymore because im the LEAST person to feel ashamed.

i come from Syria. a country where "civil" war has been ongoing for over a decade. well they say its a civil war but its objectively a lot bigger than that because of the amount of other goverments who took every chance to exploit the conflict and destroy my country as much it could benefit them. america, saudi arabia, israel, russia, turkey, theres a whole lot of them. and while the main conflict is revolved around the syrian goverment and the rebels against it, it goes a lot bigger than that as i mentioned. my problem is that nobody sees that?? the only thing that is ever cared about is the fight against the goverment. but what is the price of that?

right now people in Aleppo are being killed. people who never asked for it, completely normal people just trying to survive. and im saying survive even before this new conflict happened because things in Syria are already still bad enough, why does it need to get worse for them? why do they need to die? forget the people willingly fighting, they can fight eachother as much as they want but why do normal people and kids need to be involved? and it disgusts me when i see people happy about it. i dont think a single one of them cheering for this actually live in Aleppo. i dont understand this, its like people's lives do not matter anymore when they live in a different place? are they worthless to you? it doesnt matter if even ONE innocent person died, it should never have happened.

this pisses me off because im just sick of this whole world. im tired of seeing people constantly being killed in my country. i was there too. it couldve been me. and it still hurts even when i dont live there because i just want it to get even a bit better for them. just let them live. the curse of being Syrian never leaves you even when you escape that place. because as i said before, people hate us. and yes i get it you dont want immigrants in your country but maybe ask WHY these people had to come to you in the first place? what made them leave? nobody wants to leave everything behind and go to a country they know nothing of. just how do all these countries get to destroy mine then im the one painted as a shitty and worthless human? i know there are Syrians who did horrible things, but should that be a punishment for everyone born in the same place?

i know you cant do much. i cant either. but i just want you to know this. Syria is a wasteland right now, but i still love it. i love my country, i miss it and i wish i never had to leave it. i wish they never destroyed it. so just remember what happened to it, never forget what has been done to it and remember that Syrians are people too and they didnt deserve this. it could have turned out differently. normal people did not want this.

[paranoidgemsbok]

lads wear your seatbelts btw. do it for me 

[constantvariations]

I don't think anything will ever be funnier than Banesaw's first of his only two sentences being, "Finally, I get to kill a Schnee," knocking Weiss unconscious in a single hit, then just chucking her into the next room so Blake can save her

[nomairuins]

i like overthink everything now it makes me feel so dumb. i used 2 be able to just talk 2 ppl but nowadays every single thing im like Is that actually going to make them hate me. Yes probably. and then i just dont respond which makes ppl hate me. this is how it is

[tiredguyswag]

i think instead of putting the blame on the writers of the series we as a fandom should shift it to the corporate office like im 101% sure that's where it went wrong. also netflix has a bad habit of cancelling great shows with latine leads like that may not be what happened here but it DOES happen

[quasieli]

I'm on day 5 of migraine hell and I've just been in bed all day while it's been storming outside, and just when I start to feel (physically) okay, I get hit by Big Sad.

[welcometoteyvat]

tbh i know ppl have said cn players are speaking up but i don't actually know how true that is lmao. if hoyo took the initiative to make brown people actually real in game maybe they'd learn that pretty characters =/= pale skin but 🧍‍♀️

why i say this is like: (last time i checked) on twitter the english drip marketing has gotten vastly fewer likes/rt's than clorinde, emilie, or sigewinne's etc, while the jp twitter drip and bilibili posts have gotten basically the same amount of likes/shares as 4.7's. also maybe my search keywords are wrong but if you search natlan dark skin/纳塔黑皮 (on bilibili: video sharing site): there are some videos posting edits from twitter, and a fair amt of people comment 'oh this actually looks good' or 'oh not bad' etc, but there are also people just. being straight up racist, a good amount of people just writing this off as global fans organizing drama, and the usual retorts of 'just go play/make another game, genshin's supposed to cater to chinese aesthetics/beauty standards anyways' and im like. 🧍‍♀️

[astranauticus]

a handful of chinese songs that give me big robit energy

translating cpop songs is like my second favourite hobby so it's frankly surprising I haven't made this post sooner

Him - Floruitshow (马 - 福禄寿)

I've talked about this song on here before but this is the 3.7 song for me

the second chorus is definitely MR-SN but i like to think of the first chorus (Let me take a good look at your visage as we count down the time till the curtains’ close. Forgive me for holding back my voice so soon, do you know, in your graceful escape, all I see around me is disaster?) as VR-LA during the flashback sequence

specifically 'all I see around me is disaster' because yeah not wrong

'This time I’m not here to bring you home' just kills me like the please please take care of yourself because I can't be there with you anymore of it all

'Oh spring, oh warm sun, please come sooner, grant him a smooth and safe journey' same point, just the desperate plea for the universe to protect VR-LA because he can't do it himself anymore

How can I make you stay - Floruitshow (我用什么把你留住 - 福禄寿)

(conveniently I have actually done a full translation of this song!)

definitely one of the Maxim songs of all time

"You’ve believed that you can let your life pass in numbness, but [...] why do your tears fall in the moment of letting go?' YEAH because we've seen so many times how Maxim keeps trying to convince himself that he can stop just caring but it never works

'You say don’t fall in love, yet you’re unwilling to let go' same point, this man is in such denial about how he just can't stop caring

specifically the second verse feels a lot like Maxim waiting for VR-LA to return from Tu'narath

'You stay silent, holding onto starlight as you wait through your darkest hour. Your mind is struck, when familiar murmurs pierce your ears once more' aaaAAAAHH

the bridge (?) as a conversation between VR-LA and Maxim, VR-LA inviting Maxim to see the beauty and wonders of the world ('Do you want to see the sea of flowers blooming?', very 4.5 wedding invite honestly) but Maxim's trauma just would not allow him to take that risk ('If none of them come back, then who should I live for?')

fun fact the second version of the bridge in my translation ('You must stay to see the flowers bloom' onwards) is exclusive to that live performance of the song so it's not in the spotify version i linked here. as for which version you think fits Maxim more.. well.

Borrow - Mao Buyi (借 - 毛不易)

finally banging out a translation for this song was kinda the inspiration for me to make this post actually

the tldr of this song is that it's an unnamed/unidentified speaker asking to borrow various small things for the sake of somebody else (like 'an inch of frozen sunlight' to provide warmth in a cold world) so you can probably see where i'm going with this

'A simple ‘we have plenty of time’ etched into the soul to prepare for the chance of forced separation' ouch ow okay

'Those blown apart by these winds will say that they never loved deeply' / 'There is a sincerity that cannot be blown apart by this wind' DX-TR betraying the old crew vs VR-LA fighting through so much just to get them back

'There are tears that cannot be washed away by this rain' this line just haunts me. like in general

'An acre of land for him to call home, an ordinary life for him to live' as MR-SN watching over the old crew like I can't be there for you but I hope you will find peace and a home...

[tunapesto]

Hi your Blobs art is BEAUTIFUL from one Bloberta fan/artist to another (she's also my pfp)

AYAAA THANK YOU ^.^ I Love bloberta and I'm happy she has a fanbase hehe... always love women in fiction that are divisive . also ur art is gorg

[floralovebot]

i think a lot about helia being saladin's grandson and how it's heavily implied that he's close with codatorta too and him being codatorta's best student at some point. and how most of the characters either immediately assumed nepotism or weren't exactly disagreeing with it. and how saladin and codatorta go out of their way to Not treat helia better and how all of that combined can really fuck with a young teen's mind and perception of themselves.

he never thinks he's good enough or the right person for the job. he always wants to prove himself. he's really sensitive to making mistakes and immediately assumes everyone hates him when he makes one. always tries to prove his worth in physical and mission related ways. feels responsible for red fountain and guilty for having other interests. manages a stable art career but ultimately goes back because he's too emotionally attached to everyone and especially rf. it's just... dude...

[hella1975]

hella I keep getting edits with some sort of original version of waiting room?? on my fyp and I'm gonna be honest waiting room wasn't a song that did me in quite as badly as the rest of you but this version I keep hearing literally rips my heart straight open😭😭 like I've been planning on fixing the no waiting room on spotify issue by taking it into my own hands🏴‍☠️ but now I know it's gonna have to be this version I'm not even bothering with lost ark waiting room. it's just gonna be waiting room og bc what the fuck?? "I never grew up with you, and you're not my waiting room" what the fuck??? with the haunting background noises literally WHAT THE FUCK????????

OMG IVE SEEN THAT ONE everyone keeps going on about the vocals of 'and you're not my waiting room' but i really cant get over 'i never grew up with you' like what??? WHAT??????

[firebuug]

Pokemon julian pokemon julian

[rememberthelaughtermp3]

oh shit he wrote me a fucking apology.....

[orcelito]

currently wondering whether collecting my blades for a group pic would be bad for my tenuous mental health atm

[kermitheefrog]

the supermacs in heuston station even has the same gaa sports crowd mural we have in ours??? like what does it have to do with tasty and tempting food at.superMACS

[chisungie]

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