#it really does start at 30
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So, I started university right before the pandemic hit, and demolished all my (barely existent) plans. I'm already almost 23 and more than halfway through a major I picked kind of on a whim based on what I thought I was good at, and tbh I still hate it. And I have no idea what career it would even lead to. I want to get more into music production or maybe even being an artist or something like that, but it's overwhelming and difficult at the same time... I think I love music, I love listening to it, and growing up I loved the energy of performing in bands and choirs and stuff more than anything, but that doesn't necessarily mean I'm good at it, and I'm not a computer or instrument expert either... I feel so lacking in pretty much all of the various talents/skills... I know practice makes better, but it's so hard to persist when you feel so far behind, and it's hard not to feel discouraged completely when there's always someone newer, younger, and already so much better...
Babe, you are 22. You have.. SO much life ahead of you.
I know that doesn’t seem like anything to go off of right now, but I cannot express enough how excited I am for you because 22 is a wonderful age to start things. You have time to mess up, time to figure things out, time to really try a bunch of shit and get a grasp on what direction you wanna go for.
Don’t let society or other people tell you you’re too old to start something or too late to try something else. Who cares if there are people younger and better than you at something? Who cares if you don’t have a skill set right now? That’s gonna happen. As soon as you recognize that as a fact instead of a barrier for you to overcome, your mindset is gonna shift to “okay, what can i personally do to improve and get better? what do i myself need to do to get where i wanna be?”
Honestly.. this ask feels like something younger me is writing. Because I compared myself to countless people when I was in my early twenties and lmfaoooooo you know what? That dark place of “thinking I wasn’t gonna do great so why try” has only left me with regrets. You have a choice to make and if you really want what you want, go for it and don’t stop.
If I had actually took music production seriously and kept making shitty beats on FL Studio in my dorm room and didn’t give a shit about people telling me it’s not worth it to pursue? Who knows, I could’ve had a studio by now. I could’ve been on the Big Hit production team. I could’ve been working with Metro Boomin or any world-class producers.
Do those goals seem hilarious? Yes. But they also probably could’ve come true if I worked hard enough. But I’ll never know. Because I didn’t keep going when I did. Because I hit that wall of seeing how much I didn’t know about music and production and everything that goes into it, and I got discouraged and dropped it to focus on other things that were safer, more likely to keep me afloat. Don’t be like me if this is something you really do want.
We can do this together, really. Because I’m going for shit now too because that passion itself hasn’t gone away. I am asking people for advice when I need it. I’m networking with musicians and producers and mixing engineers and managers. I’m figuring out what I need to do and where I need to look for educational pieces and putting in the work that I was too discouraged to put in before. All while trying to tell myself it’s okay that I’m where I am at 30. Do this with me. It’s only gonna help you.
Bottom line: if you wanna do something, do it. So what if people are better than you? So what if you don’t have the skills or knowledge right now? Stay disciplined and do the work. Don’t half ass it and don’t think it’s gonna be something you do on the side. Treat it like it’s your life, and practice the hell out of whatever it is. If you end up thinking “this isn’t what I want,” then at least you know for sure and you can pick something else up. But if you keep that passion, hard work and effort will bring you great things.
And you’re gonna look back at this ten years from now and laugh because you’ll realize 22 isn’t far into life at all.
#anon#*advice#apologies if this was so long#i just have a lot to say about this stuff#life doesn’t end at 25#it really does start at 30#and this is coming from someone#that was sure they weren’t gonna amount to anything at all#mailbox💌
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you see, if I didn't see this image right, this fucking image right here when I was like 11 or 12,, my life would have been normal and not have had any demons
#noco family au#total drama#yknow when you really start thinking about it this doesn't really make much sense looking into it#like yea I can see the similarities between Mike and Cody that checks out but#outside of being skinny. and hair/skin/eye colour what the hell does Mike have in common with Noah?#tell me one thing those two have in common without doing any mental gymnastics#and yet somehow a lot of people just thought: 'yeah'#'I can see that'#the fu[very nice person] who made this image must be in their 30s now#or at least approaching so#I wonder if they remember any of this#I mean they still have their da account up from what I remember but that may be cuz they forgot about it after a while#little did they know someone would remember it later down the line#and use it to scorn a nation#damn.
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OC I MADE IN 0.5 SECONDS he's called Wildcard and he's a trivia bot who got a little bit conscious and "broken" technically and is sent by the watchers with the rest of the bots to quiz everyone. He's a bit mischievous and asks players really hard and impossible to answer questions on purpose, sometimes lying to them if they do get the answer right somehow. The only way to avoid this guy screwing you over is if you provide actual evidence behind a your answer and then he accepts and floats away all sad. Ant with bindle style.
#literally went from “these guys are fun and cute” to “HERE'S MY OC WITH FULL BACKSTORY” in literally 15 minutes looking back at my rambles#he's like a son to me. in a way.#also really starting to question if I'm fixated on hermitcraft and the life series#i dont think normal people start to tear up seeing their favourite 30 year olds play minecraft and seeing a little robot say#“i love you !! yayyy !!” WHY DOES IT GET ME LIKE THIS#anyways have at you. this thing. might properly draw him later who knows !!#life series#wildlife smp#wild life smp#trivia bot#triviabot#trafficblr#traffic smp#traffic series#traffic life#mcyt#mcytblr#mcytumblr#mcyt fanart#trivia bot oc#wildcard the trivia bot#wild life spoilers#quiz master#quizmaster#quizmaster wild life#quiz master wild life
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♤ Egg Son Birthday ♤

My beloved son with at least one learning disability I love you and will force Crowley to improve the NRC accommodations
~Edit breakdown below the cut~






#can you believe this only took 30 minutes#I’m getting so fast at editing#twisted wonderland#twst#deuce twst#twst deuce#deuce spade#deuce spade card edit#deuce spade edit#this is a mix of his general appearance hcs#and how I think he starts dressing at NRC around Book 6 and 7#where he has made community and has club and is on the way to being the student he wishes to be#and doesn’t feel pressured to have the full perfect mask which he really struggled to keep up#so he relaxes and lets himself wear his piercings more and dyes his hair more like his mom#bc he does genuinely like that stuff :]
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Singing battle glmv core

Will the pearly gates open their arms to welcome me or will they basketball dunk me down to hell
#I don’t know how much crack cocaine I needed to do this#(I have never touched illicit drugs in my life)#((What does illicit mean))#Chat we need to start using the underrated eyes not the fuck boy eyes in gacha (you know the ones) fr#Mariquita vs fresita singing battle#(Mariquita como marica. No el insecto. Odio los insectos ghhhh.)#(Y fresita como fresa. Saben. Ehh los ricos y eso. Pero era término para mujer. Así que. (Nunca más me dejen explicar 😭))#Actually wait#Oh wait just checked this can be day 30 for fugonara month… I didn’t realize… *rubs hands evilly*#I mean… it’s not really ship-y but#Nah I’m not tagging it as that this isn’t rlly fugonara it’s just them being dumbasses#narancia ghirga#pannacotta fugo#guido mista#Jjba#jojos bizarre adventure#shitpost#Meme#< possibly idk#Btw mista s saying that bc there’s no revolver in gacha. Thresher out.#Gacha Life
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#OMG i kept forgetting to post this after i'd drawn it#no backgrounds we in the void#to h&m fans: i prommy im working on h&m ive just also been roped back into cof and im the planner for it#to cofheads: i prommy im working on cof ive just also got a full time job#'budget' is a metaphor for my time and energy ahaha#man it was really fun to draw askravenpaw and also miss maple after all this time#speaking of miss maple. to cofheads: me and my wife are not the same person. my wife does not run all of cof dhjdghkd (i do)#ppl keep saying any hiatuses must mean he's busy im right here#ANYWAYS. the character tags#sorry im super tired because i barely slept last night because its randomly started being 30 C in winter (85 F or smth idk google it)#hawkfrost#mudclaw#frederick di luna#mustard#intermission#warrior cats#ask blog#post#i only realised after posting this theres no filters as well as no background. i was procrastinating & wanted to make sure i got it out LMA#*lmao
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In my experience, a good 70% of fics tagged “Bella with a Backbone” end up writing Sookie Stackhouse in Bella Swan’s place, minus the southern belleness and telepathy. And that’s not inherently bad. I love Sookie dearly. But. Please. Please, if you’re going to approach Bella this way, remember Sookie exists in a universe in which vampires have actual exploitable weaknesses, and it’s possible for a human to injure, incapacitate, and even kill them. Bella exists in a universe in which vampires are all but indestructible, especially to humans. There’s only so much she can do. And there are far reaching consequences that shape her character and the narrative. Just. Please
#Bella is actually fucking tough as nails. that’s the post#for those who aren’t familiar with Sookie#and it’s crazy that SOOKIE also gets criticized for being weak#don’t get me STARTED#hoa5#this is gonna look sus after posting about By Starlight so let me clarify it’s in the 30% that slaps#she’s the same character but her potential is better realized#that’s what I hope for when I see that tag#anyway. back to the main point: ask yourself what would REALLY be different about Bella if a ~stronger~ person were in her shoes.#the point of fantasy is to put human-feeling characters in inhuman situations right? it should feel real on an emotional level#and real doesn’t mean ‘practical’ and ‘reasonable’ here it means ‘raw’ and ‘honest’ to a point of discomfort#under the most batshit extenuating circumstances in which nature is ruled by narrative instead of physics and plays by different rules:#what would happen? who would you be? are you okay with that? whatever the answer is; does is inspire you?
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...are they getting up for adventures at/before 6am every day?
like maybe the adventure for ep 4 is especially long, or maybe the work day was technically shorter and the clock was just going fast. but gangle says ragatha "gets off in an hour" and a full hour on the clock passes, and in previous scenes it really does seem to be going at a standard clock speed
even if this was a one time thing it still implies that adventures generally start at 6. and even thats not accounting for the fact that like... the show is operating on cartoon logic where the ~25 minutes we see isnt necessarily the exact same timespan that the characters are actually experiencing...
and honestly no matter what its implying that caine is completely willing to expect the circus members to be up at 6 in the morning for adventures
#tadc#i KNOW they dont have a standard day/night cycle#and that when their day starts is prob not in sync with real world day/time#(since the pilot started likely right before caines announcement-#i personally think that caine has them all participate in the theme song every day since its on the same stage/area he announces adventures#and the ep generally implies its a standard activity and itd make sense-#it would imply pomni put on the headset at like 6:30 in the morning which would be a little strange)#but just the concept of even in the digital world being forced to wake up at 6 is terrible#i mean caine doesnt seem to wake people up personally since he didnt know abt kaufmo#(unless he DID talk to kaufmo that morning. and he abstracted in the time between then and when ragatha jax and pomni find him)#(something abt that feels really sad...)#but just. idk man#this does imply jax ragatha and gangle were playing softball at like 5 in the morning. weird people#oh and between gangles screen and the shot w the clock (10 minutes on the clock)#theres like 25-30 seconds ish#marking cartoon time i suppose#whether it feels like cartoon time to the characters is up in the air but idk. i think caine would know how long a second is#if he knows what a clock is#god. 15 hour adventures#thats fucked...#like they dont need to sleep so i dont imagine they feel drowsiness in a typical way#(sleeping is also important psychologically even if not physically im p sure so i imagine its subtly important even if they dont realize)#theres 24 hrs in a day man . if they wanted to get sleep and for it to feel right they only get one hour to themself#i meaan maybe all adventures are diff lengths. but im just thinking about this#circus discussion
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It's one thing for something to be scheduled on shabbos when goyische people do it (and I wouldn't expect that unless it involves jews for whatever reason), but it's a different thing altogether when jews schedule something right on shabbos 😭😭
#jumblr#personal thoughts tag#to be clear: i am very bad about observing shabbos#this post is a vague about a jewish get-together movie that starts at 19:30 on a friday#i work an evening shift on that friday so to be clear i am NOT upset because i can't go to An Event for shabbos reasons#i just find it funny when this happens#unfortunately a friday is a pretty accessible day just because of the way that our society is structured#it's not in a jewish-friendly way. but i feel a saturday night would have been a perfect alternative#because sundays aren't inaccessible to jews. if anything it's MORE accessible to us because businesses are often closed on sundays#ESPECIALLY in my town where a good chunk are pretty protestant (and catholic). they want to REST on their sundays#the only places you can really go to as a jew on a sunday is like. an IHOP. maybe a denny's if your town isn't bougie about it (respect)#i'm just a little baffled about this choice (as a jew who does NOT currently observe shabbos)#man do i agonize over being a more rural jew. going to that movie would take two hours (2.5hours with bad traffic at least) just to drive to#i would have to leave SO early and i would get home at probably 03:00 or something stupid like that 😭#no WAY i would be able to attend shabbos services which i ALSO have to drive a while to attend
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I do believe I am fully fucked for the next like 4-6 years because even if someone does find me attractive in any way (which is, quite frankly, crazy enough already) there's a 99% chance it'd be under Girl Standards and just thinking about it makes me want to throw up I'm not even kidding it's disgusting
#diary#emeto#like I'll probably be a kissless virgin up til my 30s at LEAST#and by then my romantic experience will be so disparaged from everyone else I just don't think it'd be worth it for anyone#to defeat my 7000 evil complexes and get some lame guy that does fuckall in return#ykwim... so I really should start getting comfortable with the fact I'm gonna die alone but man is it hard to achieve
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I wonder at what point Iron Bull "retires" and stops actively leading the chargers.
Krem seems like he's a good bit younger so I always figured he'd be next in charge- but at what point would Bull be willing to admit maybe he should be in dangerous fights slightly less.
#dragon age#I guess it depends on your hc too#In my mind he's 40ish at the time of Inquisition#Though I think canonically he's early to mid 30s#At what point do you think his long term injuries start to really catch up with him#In my mind he'd already started putting krem in charge more often#But that has more to do with his relationship affecting his schedule essentially lol#Sorry chargers I need to spend time with my husband-#Im torn between thinking bull would be reluctant to do anything like retiring#And also thinking maybe his character growth and years lead to him being more amiable to it than he might have been before#Does any of that make sense
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Day 12-17
WIP Below:

#Still figuring out how to draw her in my style but feeling a bit better about this approach#Also yay I think I figured out how I might do her eyes#I rendered them to be more like glass as a test but it was over rendered for the cell shading jkenrjkrhn#And while that might be fun to do for a specific piece someday it will def not be her normal rendering#As is she does not work with my higher rendered style in general#Which is okay because I don't think I'm going that direction for Kingdoms#But it DOES really put a hard limit on me jkehnjkerhn#Which I probably need since if I zone out I just start rendering for 4 hours#Kingdoms#Day 12#46 Minutes#Day 13#40 Minutes#Day 14#38 Minutes#Day 15#48 Minutes#Day 16#30 Minutes#Day 17#2 Hours 38 Minutes#Total: 6 Hours
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Responding to your other post...I am so sorry, I did not know that you felt disrespected or insulted when people said those type of things. I mean, of course when people try and actually critize your WRITING ABILITIES, but even though I don't remember making my tone questioning or criticizing when I made that one ask talking about how it was hard to understand your symbolism, I may have also added negativity to the onslaught :(
I swear I never meant it in any way like that at all. When I was talking about my thing, I completely meant it as my own problem. I probably brought it up a few other times even in my ao3 comments, god.. You are an amazing writer, but I'm the one that's not good at picking up some things. I never meant to make it seem like it "was your fault" ever.
You probably don't even know which anon ask I'm talking about, but if I made you anxious in anyway about your writing abilities, please forgive me because I did not mean anything in any harmful way. Honestly I'm pretty sure I meant it in a "Your writing is too good" because I couldn't get some things. I'm also just a little slow so yeah, lol.
it's okay!!! i really didnt want to upset anyone or make them feel like they had to overthink :[ i mostly just wanted to set a line because it felt like people were getting too,,, idk how to describe it. reliant on my input? it felt like people would push me to explain things to them that i purposefully wanted to leave up to interpretation, and in doing so it would kind of destroy the fact that it was meant to have several interpretations + they would act like something not being spelled out was a fault of the way i framed it narratively, even if that was the point. i wasnt directing it at anyone in particular i promise!!
i've been worrying a lot that its my fault somehow for being so quick to engage and overexplain, so i might adjust the way i handle things later down the line. ive always wanted to have a certain degree of distance from my work, where everything is fluid and my word isnt gospel and they can engage with or build off what i put in the text in any way they'd like because art is a living, breathing thing separate from me and that's why i love it so much, and i think i've kind of failed in that regard. i'll probably go out of my way to be more vague about fire at will in particular once it starts getting into the juicy bits. i'll just have to curb my impulse to spell things out.
#ask#i really want to make a real story with my own characters some day because i would love people to go full detective and pick apart details#its what i yearned for in cc and i got it so scarcely .... which caused me to start shouting about things like parallels myself-#-because i was a little too proud. and now i feel like i killed that enthusiasm before it could even start#or maybe im overthinking it. i shouldnt have to think about Fostering A Community im an small fish in a big pond#i might just being entitled. regardless. ive been intensely self-critical for the past bit#im going to give 70 i just want to politely ask for 30#ive been really worried people are secretly judging me and its been getting intense lately#ive been more bold because i turned off the ability to see my follower count but GOD does it haunt me#repeatedly ive been noticing an absence of a lot of people who used to engage with me a lot too and its not making me feel better#i miss you :( did i do something wrong. im sorry
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is anyone still in the mood for a hypmic imagines blog these days lol
#mod rambles#giant ramble incoming ->#the tag seems so..#dead. which makes me sad :(#it’s looking pretty grim for us yumes out there ngl#do the people still yearn for self indulgent romance with their oshis. lol#i am still very much a yume freak. perhaps more so lately. but i never do talk about my own yume ships loll#plus the yume community does not seem.. very pleasant. to say the least#i do kinda want to come back and write here#but not on this account. i’d make a new one#i kinda want to start all over tbh. like a fresh slate#plus it'd kinda force me to try and get back into the groove of writing bc i feel like i've forgotten each and every rule lol#also it's important to have a creative outlet!! even if i most likely do not have the time for one lmao#i do want to provide for the h.ypmic yume community on here though. plus i love to write#even though i'm not caught up on the drama tracks..#idk if i'm emotionally ready for them#yes i did see this is the final drb. i got the news while studying for my final the very next day so suffice to say i was not doing well lo#idk if I’d share the new blog though. but i feel like it’d be p obvious if were me? lol#but i also wouldn’t have the time to write or post so idk.#i have time rn bc I’m on break but#when school starts back up again I’m gonna be packed. esp since I’ll be starting neuro so that’s gonna take all my brain activity (ha)#also will be starting research back up again so that’s a pain#plus. truth be told this year hasn’t been particularly kind to me#i haven’t really been in the mood to write or share it bc of what’s been going on back home#my people are always on my mind all the time#esp my village#🇱🇧❤️#been doing a lot of rambling lately but not a lot of writing. hm#all this to say: i might be coming back but prob with a new blog. lol#i write a lot just to get to the bare basic point (hence the 30 tags)
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There are 60 million people in Britain. There are 200 million in America. (Can that be right?) How many millions of English-speakers other nations might add to the total I cannot even guess. I would be willing to bet, though, that in all those hundreds of millions not more than 50, at the outside, have read A. Roemer, Aristarchs Athetesen in der Homerkritik (Leipzig, 1912), a work untranslated from its native German and destined to remain so till the end of time. I joined the tiny band in 1985. I was 23. The first sentence of this little-known work runs as follows: Es ist wirklich Brach- und Neufeld, welches der Verfasser mit der Bearbeitung dieses Themas betreten und durchpflügt hat, so sonderbar auch diese Behauptung im ersten Augenblick klingen mag. I had taught myself German out of Teach Yourself German, and I recognised several words in this sentence at once: It is truly something and something which the something with the something of this something has something and something, so something also this something might something at first something. I deciphered the rest of the sentence by looking up the words Brachfeld, Neufeld, Verfasser, Bearbeitung, Themas, betreten, durchpflügt, sonderbar, Behauptung, Augenblick, and klingen in Langenscheidt's German-English dictionary.
The Last Samurai by Helen DeWitt, i, 1, p 17
#this is the first page of the first chapter. so not counting the prologue or the epigraphs#the start of the 'action' if you will#she goes on to translate the first 30 pages in this painstaking fashion (not for us. she just summarizes it for us don't worry)#at which point she figures out what his argument is#but it's such a patently stupid argument she thinks that can't possibly be right and reads the next 50 pages#at a faster rate because she's getting better at it#and no. he really is saying that stupid thing. so she drops out of grad school lol#my posts#the last samurai#f#apologies if there are any typos in the german i do not speak german. or even read the small percentage that the narrator does#helen dewitt is so fucking funny but it's impossible to excerpt any of her humor because it's all so dependent on#things that came much earlier (or later)#so every page i'm going oh my god that's good but i know i can't show anybody because it would lose something out of context#but since this is the first page i felt i could quote it. because there isn't actually much context at all at this point in the book#not sure how many other people will go wow this is hilarious but if you do: this book may be for you
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you know im about ready to write an educational post for dragon age fans explaining the difference between keyword search and tagging and also how rude it is to get snotty with strangers who are just idly talking about their own personal opinions bc it is consistently This Fandom where total strangers see posts of mine that are clearly just me talking to myself and decide to get on my case
#i responded politely to the person im complaining about but then i was like yknow what that actually annoyed me.#i think if im liveblogging something and feel mildly irritated about information not getting addressed right then#then essentially telling me 'umm actually it's all RIGHT THERE REALLY EARLY ON youre just STUPID'#A. does not sufficiently make your case#B. is just kind of you being an asshole#the stuff they told me about is like over an hour and a half into this video and i was bitching about something that comes up like#less than an hour in iirc#bc i found the fact that the characters just kind of don't question it much really weird and jarring#at least it was just mild snittiness and not the insane harrassment i got as a teenager for saying i didnt like adoribull#right when they introduced keyword search#my god the hellfire from 30 year old women#anyway protip: if someone has not specifically used a fandom tag on their post and it seems like kind of a throwaway comment#they probably do not want to hear from you#i hate when people use keyword search and then start talking At me about shit like im stupid no matter the topic and it happens too often
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