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gonna be real. i don't think liking (fanfic-style) tropes and choosing your reading based on them is actually a bad thing at all. y'all are just pretentious about books
#this isn't about publishers just listing tropes instead of a summary. that shit deeply annoys me just tell me what the book is about#but i mean on the reader end of things#imo? nothing wrong with tiktok girlies reading 20 books solely because they're all enemies to lovers or whatever#they're having fun and they're reading like why do you care that they're reading 'wrong' ??#people having different taste in fiction is okay and valid#if ur in it for the symbolism and the complex characterization and the themes and motifs or whatever like i fucking love that for you#but if ur in it bc u wanna see the lil characters kiss and u don't care abt much else??? i literally also love that for you#it makes no goddamn difference to me#bri babbles
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Being a batfam fan is funny because people will make a post like “here’s my headcanon-“ and it’s just something that’s directly canon to the story then post about major canon events and get everything wrong.
#this post was inspired by me remembering the experience of reading death in the family#after only knowing the fanbase version and realizing oh none of that shit happened okay#like girl you don’t understand it’s so bad#Jason wasn’t even fired as Robin#He’s not accused of murdering anyone by Bruce#He’s not trying to prove himself at all he’s just looking for his mom#The reason Bruce didn’t go after him right away is because he was tracking down a goddamn nuke the Joker stole#Then after he finds it and handles the problem he helps Jason track down moms 2 and 3#Also Jason died in like 20 minutes?? even less??#He died in less time than it took his mother to smoke a cigarette#Bruce literally went ‘wait here I’ll be right back’ and was gone for less time than a trip to the grocery store#and then you go into the Jason Todd tag and they act like Bruce pulled the damn trigger on him#Like besties I don’t know how to tell you this he basically did everything right he possibly could have#Even him benching Jason from Robin temporarily happens so that he can get Jason into therapy about his trauma#Like the whole point is that neither of them did anything wrong bad shit just sometimes happens#That’s the tragedy. The drama.#Bruce couldn’t have made better choices in the position he was in and Jason was never going to make different ones#It was inevitable#Anyway rant over please read death in the family before I lose my mind#batfam#batman#jason todd#tim drake#dick grayson#damian wayne#bruce wayne
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Sect Leader Nie and his Deputy trauma-bonding over sect paperwork (i feel in my heart that the nie sect does NOT produce great administrators and everyone suffers for that)
#mdzs#nieyao#nie mingjue#jin guangyao#meng yao#nmj#jgy#my art#that last picture got me thinking about how much dealing with paperwork in the nie sect must suck#everyone in this sect wants to be outside swinging Giant Fucking Sabres and Fighting Things#nobody here wants to be doing the paperwork#the only one who DOESN'T want to be outside fighting things (nhs) ALSO doesn't want to be doing the paperwork#and will do everything in his power to avoid it#the reports that do get handed in are. less than ideal.#even years after leaving the nie clan jin guangyao still has nightmares about dealing with the paperwork#needing to deal with his father's six different secret and completely discrete household accounts are frankly a relief#because at least they are very very carefully managed and organized#and half of them no one is allowed to touch except him#in my happy imaginary au where jgy gets to stay with / return to the nie sect he makes it his goddamn life mission to revolutionize#the nie administration systems. he is an unstoppable force of nature. fear him. and stop touching his accounts.
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"I never knew you were a hugger..."
"No body protects nature better than you, sweet Amy."
Whoa, he's bisexual! I didn't know that!
#piko rambles#sonic the hedgehog#amy rose#shadow the hedgehog#sonamy#sonadow#sonamyshad#sonic prime#sonic prime spoilers#Look. I love sonadow so goddamn much. But ALSO.#sonamy was something I was OBSESSED with as a kid. I don't love it as much as I used to but I still find it adorable like sonadow.#We got good food from these hedgehogs.#This was in my drafts since when Season 3 came out and I was so nervous to post this because everyone has OPINIONS about sonamy.#<--- Which I don't blame them for. Some sonamy fans are not really... nice. Let's just put it at that.#Plus everyone has different opinions on sonamy and that's okay! I'm just happy that there are fans with opinions that differ from mine-#-but are also fantastic people I look up to! Makes me feel like I'm not alone 😊
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there's no way the bathroom at peppino's pizza is actually that big but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ . hey ummm anyway.... i care them...... anyway there's a lil ramble on my take on fake pep's like psyche or whatever in tags on the og post if ur into that kinda thing :y
hey! it's a series! fake peppino world tour: [noise] [noisette] [peppino]<- u are here [gustavo] [gerome] [noisette again]
#ramble after realtags yeag. shoutout to serrangelic btw suggesting the silhouettes thing bc i would have Died otherwise#pizza tower#peppino spaghetti#fake peppino#gustavo and brick#arting#pizzaposting#so anyway i think fake peppino has like. a general awareness that he is supposed to Be Peppino and that he was Made to do that#and likewise he does generally try to...do that. the thing he does NOT realize is hes like really goddamn bad at it#not to be mean but like...c'mon. they are pretty distinctly different kinds of guys even beyond the physiology yknow.#he's neither on-brand nor fooling anyone dsjdsjjkgfsd. BUT!#since the rest of the cast generally likes him [at least as I play it] he thinks hes doing just fine#he's like 'oh they r happy with me so i must be getting a good grade in being peppino :)'#so getting told that 'yeah you actually really suck at that but that was never the reason people liked you'#and told that by og model peppino no less--yknow THE guy he's supposed to be living up to#who's already a bit intimidating for that and who ALSO totally wrecked him TWICE in the tower#making him acutely familiar with just how formidable the guy is and how much there IS to live up to....#it's a Moment for sure. not really a sad or hurt one though. just... contemplative.#thinking abt people liking him for being the guy he's already naturally been being even though that guy is Not Peppino#i don't think he's gonna be super broken up about realizing he has a bad grade in peppino given everything else hes got now#nor do i really think he cares enough to go like reinvent himself or whatever after the fact#he seems to b pretty clearly having fun with it already so i think he just keeps doing that#and in some cases he still has the pre-installed peppino traits/instincts like to cooka da pizza. and that's fine#is this projection. yes. but if youve been following me awhile you know most of my character writing is ghdhfdgf#gonna kinda expand on all this in the gerome one which is...one after next. itll be a bit but man.#anyway peppino will never admit to anyone and especially not himself that he's gotten a little attached to the guy. hee hoo#pep tends to be kinda surly but he certainly has his ways of showing he cares. all of which are on display here#''that thing is not my son'' says man currently watching thing's antics with the 'bemused dad' arms crossed pose. yeah ok buddy.#gus is totally onto him already but hes not gonna say anything.#if u read all this ur prize is not having to go decode fp's rot13. his lines are ''meant to be you...?'' and ''wrong question.''
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did a redraw of an old piece from an au!
( below is the original. its in bad condition because its sorta been all over the place in the past few years )
but yeah ive been calling it Transcendental Anomalies in my notes so far.
The premise is that Dipper has been having strange dreams after his 19th birthday. Dreams where he finds himself exploring a weird world filled with bizarre rules and horrifying creatures. Oddly enough, he isn't all that scared by the world and takes to figuring out its secrets and enjoying the new experience.
It's constantly raining. Filled with dilapidated buildings. Stairways that crumble and shift under your feet. A 100 step pathway that leads to another dimension. Parts of the world that crumble into the void and are consumed by static. A ballroom dance with shadows.
An upside down clock tower above the void. Endless staircases into the sky and void alike.
Streets crawling with shadows. Black hair leaking out of crevices. Eyes that watch you from holes.
A bus that travels around, taking you god knows where. Tall buildings with elevators. A giant neon red cross always further in the distance. A heavy fog over collapsing buildings. Black torii gates leading to a dark forest. A woman carrying an umbrella whose gaze you must never meet. A parade of tall and lanky men and women twirling down the streets. Gigantic beasts that rise from the void. A library with no top or bottom extending endlessly where bodies fall from the top floors. Festivals of shadows where human flesh and other such things are sold. Red paper lanterns float down the festival lanes and hang from special buildings. A starless night sky that hangs over the world like a black void.
These are only a few of the sights Dipper sees there.
No humans are seen in the world because they are very quickly eaten by the creatures within or they're in hiding. Ghosts and spirits roam the streets. The smart people who visit make sure they dont stay long. The ones who survive dont stay long enough to get found.
At one point, Dipper tries dancing with the blind dancers. This is where we meet our second protagonist, Bill.
Bill decides to come visit the Middle Ground for a while for a vacation from being a menace. While there, he goes to the ballroom to have a hoot and starts talking with one of the blindfolded creatures (in human form since its not the easiest to work around his own triangular anatomy for square dancing).
They swap names and chat as they dance, Bill looking down on the dumb monster as a lower lifeform. Still, he gets curious about what the thing looks like under the blindfold and pulls it up. As one has already guessed, the dance partner was Dipper.
Bill is surprised to find his partner wasn't actually one of the creatures, but puts 2 and 2 together when he sees the birthmark. Unfortunately, he's not great at metaphorical math and just assumes its another demon on vacation. Thinks the guy is pretty dumb for following the rules of this world, but shrugs it off.
They meet several more times in the middle ground, exploring the more dangerous facets of it, until Dipper moves to gravity falls with his sister to take care of his great uncle, and finds he can no longer leave.
as you can probably tell, this au has a LOT and i mean a LOT of inspiration from internet urban legends. if you see something you think is a reference, it most definitely is. i have...... so many gravity falls aus. im still a bit stuck in 2014 gf fandom tumblr. if things dont hold up with the book of bill canon forgive me (I haven't read it yet sadly...) but yeah its a bit trope heavy but i love urban legends and horror stories so i wanted to make a world where all of them can fit together nicely. thats how this came about.
#billdip#bill cipher#dipper pines#gravity falls#gravity falls au#Transcendental Anomalies#aged up dipper#horror#urban legends#original art#might post more about this later since i still love this au even despite how old it is.#oh yeah and if you're not a fan of the ship feel free to either block the tag or block me? whichever#makes you most comfortable#though i post a lot of art of a lot of different fandoms not exclusively this ship#but please dont bring any discourse into any of my posts thank you in advance#i know the gravity falls ship war is still very much ongoing right now lolol#anyways gravity falls is dragging me back into the fandom again HELP!!!! HEEEELP!!!!!!!!!!!!#every springtime. man. every goddamned springtime. i cant escape it
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#neotag#neopets#jellyneo#Because what I needed was Brand Cohesion and another goddamn notification bell with a red dot#instead of a page with everything I needed laid right in front of me for easy access#literally activated my fight or flight when I opened my dailies today#“’you’re next battlepedia’ doesn’t sound like a promise of more hard work behind the scenes#it sounds like a threat#to make everything one homogenous blob#instead of actually leaning into what makes each SEPARATE sight useful and accessible for their DIFFERENT TASKS#babblestar
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I know everyone's talking about the silver and the rings and the Hermes having the rings but I wonder what is going on with him face?
It's very smooth. Mouth smaller with no visible teeth. Visage featureless. Where is my skull man's skull face?
Does being outside the Underworld affect him in some way? Did something happening as he was leaving the Underworld to escape Chronos? Is he wearing a mask? And other such queries.
#hades#hades 2#charon hades#thank you to clinic-crew for the mask suggestion cause thats making me crazy#yes it could just be a difference in artistic renditions but goddamn it im here to make conspiracy theories about my BOYS
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Something I’ve seen a lot recently, is people saying “why is that so popular, when this exists?”
And it makes me so annoyed.
The marauders fandom is like a mansion, it’s really fucking big, and that means you can go into whatever room you like. If you like jily, you can find a room where people are talking about jily!! I guarantee you that you’ll be much happier there, than if you were sitting outside the jegulus room and complaining about the amount of people in there.
There will also always be some people that sit outside the jily room and say that they think jegulus is better. You know what you can do? You can shut the door. You can block them.
(The metaphor means stay in the space where people enjoy what you want to hear about and block the people you don’t want to hear from, if you didn’t catch that.)
Fandom is a creative space, people are always going to be creating what they enjoy. Just because there aren’t that many people creating what you like, doesn’t mean you should diss what others are creating. Also no one’s going to want to create something about that if all you’re doing is complaining. Fandom is built off of ideas, people post headcanons or ideas they have and it inspires others to create something. If you want something, and it’s not there, then you’re going to have to give a little yourself. Stop posting about the fact that there isn’t that thing, and start posting about the thing!!!!
The addition or popularity of something, does not mean the subtraction of another thing. There’s no limit to fandom, there’s no limit to what you can create, so for the love of the marauders please stop acting like there is.
Feminine Sirius doesn’t mean all the content about masculine Sirius goes away, it still exists!!! You can still create about it, without mentioning the fact that you hate feminine Sirius, because all hating is doing, is making you look like you hate femininity. You don’t have to like something, you don’t even need a reason to dislike it, and you definitely don’t need to hate the opposite thing, to like something.
It’s fandom, it all comes down to what you enjoy interacting with. You don’t need a reason to find something fun, you don’t need a reason to ship anything, other than the fact you enjoy it. No one’s forcing you to interact with something or have an opinion on certain things. Just do what you enjoy. Please. Unless you enjoy hating, then make some hater friends and hate in private. Or get a diary.
Some people say “hitting post was unnecessary ☹️” in the comments of angsty tiktoks, but I fucking mean it. I mean it when I see a TikTok made literally just to hate. I mean it!!! Please think before you post. Please think about your tags. Please think about who might see it. Yes, fandom is freedom, yes, you can post what you want. But fandom is also a community, and being a community means being considerate to others feelings. You learn this in nursery!!! Come on guys!!! You don’t have to be friends with everyone, you don’t need to agree with everyone, there’s a block button for a reason, use it!!!
I don’t want to search up a fanfic, and see a video going “I didn’t finish this” because I did. That’s why I’m searching up content about it. Because I enjoyed it. And I don’t give a shit that you didn’t. I actually couldn’t care less that you thought it was boring, or you hated it. Because guess what?? I didn’t!! The algorithm can’t differentiate between hate and appreciation. You don’t need to post something publicly, and you definitely don’t need to name drop the fic. I don’t finish a bunch of fics and you don’t see me shouting from the rooftops about it. And the fucking audacity some people have using the fucking fics tag????
…uhhh anyway!! I got a little mad!! And off topic in that last paragraph and I should really be posting this on TikTok since that’s the actual problem. But no one on TikTok likes to read 😞 and I don’t like to talk. I also debated deleting my entire TikTok account like 3 minutes ago, but I would miss the edits. 😖😖
Okay it’s the next day and I’ve already opened 3 different comment sections to see fem sirius hate so im posting this
#this is so fucking long#goddamn#I yapped about shit that should be basic human decency for a hot minute#it’s fine#i fucking hate tiktok#marauders#marauders era#fanfic#fanfiction#fandom etiquette#fem sirius black#jegulus#jily#the original video that started this rant was actually not about any of the things I mentioned by name#it was about gilderat and pebill#saying that ‘why was everyone making gilderat popular when pebill exists’#like maybe because they enjoy it???#maybe because it’s a completely different ship??#maybe because people are making content about it rather then complaining???#i fw both#and I have a moot that makes pebill content#so you know what??#maybe you’re just not looking hard enough#or maybe you’re too busy complaining to interact with the content that’s already there#as robyn says#be the change you want to see!!!#excuse my grammar#can you tell im writing this instead of going on my lesson??#probably 😞#don’t even get me started except i very much do get started
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every time someone does “valyrian culture was more egalitarian than andal culture” discourse i point to the fact that jaehaerys invented the doctrine of exceptionalism and was an evil misogynistic menace to every woman he knew, how visenya was not the ruler of their house despite being older, and how the vale which is STEEPED in andal culture & chivalry & the seven regularly has their houses ruled by women in a way that almost no other region outside of dorne has ntm having the ONLY ruling lady of a paramount house INCLUDING VALYRIAN AND FIRST MEN HOUSES and also i start shrieking
#‘the incest isn’t inherently abusive’ i’m begging you to read a single goddamn thing about real life incest. just one.#like sorry u cannot make the argument that valyria was better than the andals when a valyrian house has never been ruled by a woman pre or#post dance and cregan’s sons clearly usurped their own nieces in a parallel to alys.#these people are all misogynistic evil freaks but just in slightly different ways.#the ONLY and i mean O N L Y and i say this as a first men apologist here culture that has even *marginal* respect for women is DORNISH#which is IN FACT a mix of both rhoynish and A N D A L culture. they LITERALLY worship the seven in most of dorne. be serious here.#this is not me discoursing i’m not actually angry the way i am about the butch femme nyra discourse aksjdjd#i find it hilarious avtually that people say the dance is about valyrian women losing power & assimilating into andal culture.#buddy they didn’t have power before the dance either! and the dance doesn’t just fuck over valyrian women it fucks over LITERALLY ALL WOMEN#EVERY SINGLE WOMAN SUFFERS MORE BECAUSE OF THE DANCE. THAT INCLUDES ANDAL AND FIRST MEN DESCENT.#getting on my soap box#gender politics in asoiaf
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something about mob and the motif of knives, something that can be a useful tool but could also be a weapon, blunted out of fear of misuse. something about ritsu and the motif of spoons, distorted reflections, twisting something otherwise harmless until it has sharp edges.
#mp100#sorry I saw art of ritsu and spoons again and the brainrot got me#I love the kageyamas and their goddamn kitchen utensil motifs#when I think of the difference between the brothers and their relationship to powers#the comparison in my mind is always blunted knives and sharpened spoons#and I don't know if it makes sense to anyone else#but it makes sense to ME
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You ever think about how in spite of knowing their exact locations, the game never gives any indication that templar Carver has reported his mage sibling, Merril (a blood mage) or Anders (an abomination) to his superiors?
I do think about that a lot, even though I tend to ignore the Templar Carver route because I know Warden Carver to be true in my heart and soul... but I totally get the appeal of Templar Carver within DA2's narrative, y'know?
It's so fascinating, really. I've never played a run with Templar Carver, I just can't bring myself to do it, so I know I'm missing out on smaller details of it. From what I do know, this drives me crazy in the best way possible.
Deciding whether to bring him or not to the Deep Roads is such an important choice, not only because it affects his fate, but how it affects his relationship to Hawke. He tells you that he wants to go, he makes it very clear that it's important to him that he goes, too... and Hawke can just leave him behind and it hurts him. I don't think that registers enough with some people just because of how Carver is, like it doesn't matter what Hawke's motivations are [staying behind for his safety, not wanting to bring him, thinking someone should stay with Leandra, etc] it still hurts him because it tells him that Hawke doesn't need him, and Carver wants to be needed.
And yes, there are other contributing factors to why he joins the templars, but it doesn't matter what your relationship is to him, it doesn't change the fact that he doesn't turn Hawke or his companions in.
Sure, the meta reason is it's a video game and you're playing the main character. You're never in any actual danger of being captured by templars, and you're not going to lose your companions to them that easy.
But if we look at it through the narrative and Carver's character, that's when it gets interesting. You can max out his rivalry and be an utter asshole to him [there's a point where you can call him a brat and mock him for being stuck in your shadow, like Hawke can be real cruel about it] but it doesn't matter, you're still his sibling. He even makes a remark about how you might not know what that means [referring to leaving him behind] but he does. He refuses to kill Hawke in the end when Meredith makes the order, too.
Which can I just point out that Hawke has the option to let Bethany die in the end if she's with the circle and they side with the templars? Just saying, Carver NEVER does that no matter what, but Hawke has the option to betray Bethany like that and it's fucked and interesting and it makes me want to eat my chair-
As for Merrill and Anders, I think he knows that if he turns either of them in, then the chances of Hawke being brought in as well skyrocket. They're all friends, they're in the same group... bring one in, and you'll probably get the other two.
I also think Carver just genuinely likes Merrill. Yes, I'm a Carver/Merrill shipper, so I have a bias, but even if you remove anything romantic from their dynamic I believe that's true. Of all the companions, Merrill is the only one who doesn't make fun of him, or find him annoying, in party banters. He never snaps back at her, like he's never defensive with her, he's just a little awkward and nice.
Like, HE'S SO NICE TO HER! He tries to find common ground with her! She asks him about "swording" and he's taken aback by her saying he's good at it, but you KNOW that if someone like Anders asked him the same question, he's be all, "shut up, you're stupid, stop talking to me >:["
Think back to that banter Carver can have with Aveline post-act 1 where they're talking about how the guard wasn't the right place for him [hard disagree with you there, Aveline] and Carver says he was a bit of a tit, wasn't he.... and every companion will agree except Merrill. She doesn't say anything, whereas other companions like Anders will be like "ugh maker YES" and if you have a purple Hawke, they'll go on to other ways Carver was a tit like?? I think Carver and Merrill got along and he doesn't want to turn her in because she was nice to him! And she's a blood mage! He knows what will happen to her if the templars get ahold of her! He doesn't want to see her made tranquil or killed!
At that point, he's witnessed what bad blood mages can do, assuming you've brought him along for those quests, but even so. He knows Merrill isn't like that and he likes her, so of course he's not going to turn her in despite that being his literal duty.
Then there's Anders who Carver doesn't like. If you're in a romance with him, Carver will tell him that's why he doesn't turn him in but c'mon Carver, you know that's not the only reason. My theory is Carver may not like Anders and he knows the man's got a spirit of justice inside of him... but Anders also runs a free clinic. If he's ever taken in by templars, then so many people [including a LOT of Fereldan refugees] will be without free health care and will suffer for it. I think in Carver's eyes, Anders might be irritating but he doesn't more good than harm. Carver knows first hand how shitty refugees and poorer people are treated in Kirkwall. Anders' clinic is the one place they can go for help and actually get it, and he's not going to be the one to take that away because the templars say "magic bad."
So yeah, I'm not as informed about the Templar Carver route, but I do think about how if I did do that route, he wouldn't betray Hawke or their companions no matter what and what that says about him.
#asks#dragon age 2#da2#carver hawke#da2 merrill#da2 anders#listen i love carver hawke okay he and bethany are my favorite companions in da2#i could talk endlessly about the twins and their roles in story and how unfair it is that only one of them can make it to kirkwall#meaning we hardly get to see them interact with each other before one dies and UGH#like i get it their stories rely heavily on them being the only mage or non-mage in the sibling trio so both of them living#would've meant writing two different origins stories for them with different attitudes affected by having another siblings that like them#but also i think if hawke's a rogue then leandra should've died and we could've worked it out okay#ANYWAY... templar carver amirite? i know i should go that route just to say i have and to see it for myself but hhhnnnggggg...#it physically pains me to think of not bringing him to the deep roads though it's so important to him and my hawke works so hard#to repair his relationship with his brother okay i max out carver's friendship every time and it's so worth it#you don't understand okay friendship carver is the best he's so goddamn sweet i can't handle it#it's actually so interesting how bethany and carver start out versus how they end because bethany starts out as the super sweet one#whereas carver's surly and bitter... but past act 1? it's like they flip?? at least on the warden paths like bethany is BRUTAL#she's so fucking bitter and rude and I love it?? like her relationship with hawke is in the trenches whereas carver's is vastly improved#again no matter your approval with him when you reunite in act 2 he will ALWAYS tell hawke that 'i'm sure you did your best'#referring to leandra's death but bethany's response will change depending on your approval with her#and if i remember right the rivalry response is OOF#carver and bethany turn me into a little giggling gremlin i love them so much
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I don't want to derail Sea's already long (and entirely correct) mod essay post but I think another aspect of "why is XIV feeling so fucking awful lately" is that everything is a fucking discord server now. Want to hang out with your friends? Well, better make sure you're in at least two of the same servers as them so you have a chance at catching their attention. Wanted to check out that event you saw promoted? Better join their discord so you don't miss out on anything. Want mods? Discord. Want RP? Discord.
I don't think i should have to split my attention between a dozen different servers just to get a modicum of social interaction. I don't think it's fair to ask me to lurk in spaces where I have objectively less control over who I interact with and absolutely zero content filtration tools. Discord's block feature is a fucking joke, all it is is a one-way mirror that the blockee can still see through, they just can't leave the server custom emotes on your posts anymore.
I can trace my dashboard becoming a ghost town to the creation of a few big hub servers that sucked up half my close friends. I don't even know if I can still call them friends at this point bc the most I see of them is a few reblogs from me once a week. That's not "friend", that's just "mutual". And I would be willing to bet money that all the gposes and lore posts I followed them for are now being siloed away in an ever-shifting discord channel never to see the light of day.
Idk. I'm fucking tired. I'm tired of feeling like there's a constant party going on around me but I'm on the other side of the door. I'm tired of fandom feeling like a popularity contest where you only matter if you're in the right servers and talk to the right people. I'm incredibly grateful that the Compendium exists to try and help people find the shit they're looking for but I still think that the root of the problem is everything being so dispersed and fractal in the first place.
#idk where this is going if anywhere i am just so goddamn tired#i haven't felt this lonely in the game since i started playing and left all my previous fandom circles#and ask game culture is an entirely different problem#but like. i've been feeling more and more like i'm just not worth paying attention to bc i'm not in any big hub server#so i guess it's back to trying to bury myself in my own stories and trying to carve out some joy for myself and make peace with solitude#i know it's past 9pm and that i shouldn't be listening to the voices but the voices have also been saying the same shit for over a year now#and they've been saying it in the daytime too so like. i don't think this is just me being cranky bc i need to sleep lmao
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Suletta saying love me. love me please. I’ll do anything. I’ll kill for you, I’ll listen to you, I love you. love me and let me stay. vs Miorine going hate me. hate me. I need you to hate me because I love you. I need you to run away, to stop loving me, to be safe. hate me and it will be worth it in the end. hate me and leave. (Suletta saying love me, please love me, please don’t leave me)
#sorry. the brainworms.#it's just abt the miscommunication yes but it's not really a misunderstanding.#they both want to protect each other So goddamn much BECAUSE of their past losses and/or fears and it's those fears that keep them from#meeting in the middle. prospera has raised suletta in such a way that she believes her only worth is what other people make of her. miorine#has grown up to believe that her worth is based on herself. so this disparity comes from suletta going Please see me like I see you and#miorine responding with Please believe in yourself like I believe in myself.#and therein lies the issue: neither of them are Correct but that's the difference in how they've navigated their lives. it's just. so#convoluted and fucked up and it's Interesting.......... anyway. I'm normal#mobile suit gundam the witch from mercury#g witch#miorine rembran#suletta mercury#sulemio#smokey speaks#500
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Here I am, sitting at my desk, daydreaming about the pic I took last night of Emmrich on one knee, admiring the flowers in the memorial gardens with my Rook standing next to him and even on his knees he’s almost as tall as her.
#the height difference makes me feral okay#like standing she’s just barely at his shoulder#Manfred is taller than her#therefore she CLIMBS her tall husband#scales him like a beautiful goddamn mountain#does it say something about me that my first boyfriend was 6’3#probably#emmrich volkarin#this is an emmrich thirst post#dragon age
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every day i wish that Rats SMP was a cartoon bc it would make the greatest show ever i think
#I've been watching Arietty and the Rescuers a lot lately;;;;;;;;;;;#i just think it would make the cutest fucking cartoon with the funniest plotlines#it would be so perfect#with the ensemble cast you can swap out characters as much as you need/want to#the different animals breaking into the house later in the series would make a fucking BANGER season 2#(like can you fucking imagine. season 2 pilot. theres a BADGER IN THE HOUSE NOW?)#they've even got a halloween special AND christmas special episode it's PERFECT#the whole first season could cover the rats getting used to the house and getting settled in#maybe the season 1 finale is the mum and others coming home#I would absolutely fucking want Owen to be played by David Tennant bc his tenth doctor voice gives me rat owen vibes#rats smp cartoon would be so so so good#cannot fucking WAIT for Rats In Paris#i have a whole scene in my head of like. that episode where Jimmy gets locked in a room all night and is miserable abt it ����#where he's trapped in the room with the son and the boy is just chasing him around the room for hours#set to the song A Haunted House! from the totoro soundtrack#trying to catch jimmy in a little bug net#there's also this whole wild chase scene in my head with one of the cats chasing Owen Martyn and Scott and the janitor gets involved as well#set to Cat Chase from the Suzume soundtrack#i actually have a whole spotify playlist titled Rats SMP But As A Wholesome Kids Cartoon it has so many ghibli movie songs#(willing to share if anyone is curious i love sharing playlists)#i fucking LOVE imagining Hey Let's Go from the totoro opening credits as a Mitchiri-Neko style marching rats credits sequence#with each verse more characters join the march until all the animal guests and humans are there too#Do the Impossible from Chicory would make such a fucking cute anime style opening showing little clips of all the chaos of the house#i love this idea so goddamn much i fucking wish i could animate ;-;#i would infodump about this idea for hours if i had infinite tag space but alas. maximum of 30
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