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THEY’RE MAKING ME CHOOSE BETWEEN MINRATHOUS AND TREVISO???
I’m choosing TREVISO bc I’m terrified of ruining Lucanis’s romance. Well, let me look it up to see if it ruins it…..
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Okay I looked it up and I’m getting mixed reactions. Apparently, not saving Minrathous might get us a bad ending, but not saving Treviso MIGHT lock us out of Lucanis’s romance. But we have no idea truly since the game literally JUST came out Thursday. BUT!!! Others said they could still kinda flirt with Lucanis a long while after if they didn’t choose Treviso.
I’m gonna choose Minrathous and if I can’t romance Lucanis after, I don’t care how much progress I make, I WILL go back and choose Treviso.
#dragon age#dragon age the veilguard#me playing dragon age the veilguard#IM SO TERRIFIED.#GOD WHY DO THEY HAVE TO PENALIZE ME????#it makes me a little pissed and upset.#so it’s either Neve or Lucanis. but I love Lucanis more but I don’t know if not choosing Minrathous can cause issues later#I can’t let the venatori get ANY hold so I have to choose Minrathous. Lucanis please forgive me……
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sorry this is the ONLY discourse ill allow myself to participate in post finale of agatha all along (or i fear i will lose my mind entirely), but DAMN some people out here rn after the finale being like “i’m sorry you didn’t get the agathario smut you wanted” BITCH!!!! I WASNT ASKING FOR THEM TO FUCK ON SCREEN!!!! i didn’t even need them to get together or even get any semblance of a happy ending!!! i didn’t expect a happy ending in the least tbh!!!!! but you know what i did expect? a final ending. a wrap up. a satisfying and complete finale. a conclusion that actually answers any one of my remaining questions or gave us more context for scenes that we’ve been missing context on the entire time. and i’m sorry but this finale didn’t do that at all. and it’s obviously not bury your gays but jesus christ it wasn’t a good conclusion either. at best it’s honestly a cheap set up for a season two or further content with billy that will prob include bits and pieces of agatha
#i am. beyond words#i was already feeling pretty ick about the ending for a few reasons#but scrolling on the aaa tag is making me so much grouchier#bc some of you bitches are acting like everyone else is dumb and ungrateful just because we’re not kissing the floors jac schaeffer walks o#like PLEASE i love jac i LOVE HER i had so much hope and faith in her and that’s why im upset!!#bc it feels like she didn’t wrap up HER OWN STORY properly#it’s not because she killed off agatha or didn’t get agathario together again#it’s fuckin because i watched the ending and felt just so empty bc of how … incomplete it was??#and then it’s like. well maybe it’s incomplete bc they’re gonna make a s2 or some kind of#elaboration#but that just pisses me off more bc that’s fucking CAPATALISM and CORPORATE GREED controlling it AGAIN#bc yknow what? ten years ago??? this finale would’ve been the half season finale#and we would’ve had twelve+ more episodes to wrap up this season#and to contextualize it#and to even give it filler!!#bring back filler episodes#i’m so sick of back to back action plot packed episodes bro……. what are we even doing#im a little drunk prob gonna delete later#is this unintentionally kind of a subtweet at another post i saw on here? yes? sorry bestie but i am nonconfrontational#and didn’t wanna comment on anybody’s post seeming like i’m trying to fight bc i don’t want to 😭 i just completely fucking disagree#with some of these takes#(ahem hope disney is paying some of you for all that bootlicking)#sorry i am not sober#silas speaks#agatha all along#agathario
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honestly so tired of people telling me "saiki doesnt need to be in a relationship" like ok??? he doesnt NEED any of the things people write in fanfiction but actually its fucking fun to think about ???? keep ur opinion to urself pls 😭
#the worst part is that usually prople who say this arent even the aroace saiki truthers#people*#its usually anime dudebros who think saiki is like a gigachad who doesnt need a woman or to be gay LMAO#pisses me off so bad#thats ur opinion little guy#saiki eventually reciprocating teruhashis feelings is also hinted at and fits with his development and the story btw#but they dont wanna hear that because rhey dont actually care about the manga 😭#anyway im gonna keep making every character queer and/or in love and if that makes u upset ur a loser#have u considered i just enjoy romance and im allowed to do so#actually guys saiki NEEDS to date kuboyasu he has to its written in the prophecy 🤷🏻♀️ i dont make the rules/sarc#meows post
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We need to start treating bad writing like bad art and im not kidding
#now theres a lot more nuance to this#because “bad writing” is SUPER general#so i have to add a disclaimer#i dont mean propoganda. i dont mean biased and biggoted#i mean writing decisions u dont like!#ppl are very quick to just sit there and shit on writers#its okay to not like an ending. its okay to not like how a character was treated#and its okay to be mad about it if u like them very dearly#but at the same time sometimes we're a little too mean.#and sometimes they deserve it#but sometimes it's a little mean#this is. in truth. because of the lumine ending#on webtoon#its pissing me off how ppl are getting super upset and being rude to kabu#even tho so many ppl are explaining its because she grew out of the story. she didnt have passion for it anymore#she gave us an ending! you dont have to like it but stop acting like just because she COULD write more that she HAS to write more#art is tiring. sometimes you lose passion for it. sometimes you dont do it perfectly#sometimes your idea of good isnt the same as someone else's#i dont like romance for example. several tropes will turn me off it#but some ppl do#sometimes you make a pretty shitty plot or make plot holes#and yeah those arent super great to read!!! but a story is an art. its all different#its not all good and its not all bad#its made from a persons head therefore it'll reflect a person in a way#i just think its important to remember that writers are not machines#artists and writers aren't actually as different as everyone treats them#we're all making art. we're all making mistakes. i just think we should be a little nicer about it#its okay to criticize. but can we be nice about it#also i dont like the “professional author” argument#picasso was a famous artist his paintings are in meuseums and there's still people who don't like his art. i dont think its fair to go
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um personally i think that if your girlfriend is insecure over you being friends with another girl you should run far away really fast. but i may be misreading the situation. i don't think i am though.
#i may be misreading. all i know is she got pissed at my friend while we were hanging out but friend has mentioned that she's 'got#trauma over being cheated on' which is understandable but we have been friends for a year and also i go out of my way to try and make this#girl understand i want to be her friend and i'm not trying for anything. i have a fucking bf. she has met my bf. she has seen how i am#around my bf vs around her gf. we r legit just friends. what the fuck man. please be normal and don't stress ur gf out like this. it's mean#:( idk all i know for sure is she said something that upset her while i was out of earshot but im using context clues and im not stupid.#genuinely i think she is misreading some stuff. yes me and her gf/my friend get along really really well but it's like.. two kids who met i#a playplace kind of way. we do shenanigans and talk about stuff. i do not want to fw her. i am not willing to fw such a heavy smoker.#i love her dearly but sometimes i think she is- love and light- incredibly pretentious in a way that irritates me a little. fine for a#friend. intolerable in a partner. many reasons why i would never. also I HAVE A BOYFRIEND. THAT I AM SO SERIOUS ABOUT.#insulting to me. honestly. but i could be misreading but i don't think i am.#and insulting as fuck to her gf who is head over heels possibly blindly in love with her my god.#idk i just don't trust that she isn't still insecure about me. and i don't like that she said something upsetting while we were having fun.#i don't like it.#girl i dont want your gf for so many reasons. also i am in a relationship what the fuck girl. what the fuck do you think of me. and also#have some fucking trust in your own gf. insane behavior. insane. she would never ever cheat on her she is possibly one of the most honest#and like. morally sound people i have ever met. she would never. it's so fucked up to think that of her.
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btw not to be a disabled poor piss baby but the way ppl (SPECIALLY americans) treat struggling to recall things deemed common sense that you learned in school/straight up not knowing them as some personal moral failure is fucking weird lmao.every education system has a problem w failing disabled kids that cant follow along typical learning by just letting them fall behind w zero ways to catch up n my country has an issue w teenagers dropping out to support their families so they dont starve to death so it just rlyyy doesnt sit right w me when ppl claim if you cant remember some random fuck middle school class fact youre an idiot that doesnt remember bc you dont want to.i dont know how to explain to you all if a CHILD is being failed by adults to be taught smth its literally not their fault specially when in nearly all cases its bc of outside factors (i mentioned disability n poverty here but lets not forget stuff like abused kids being unable to focus due to stress or bc they lack a safe environment to study at home, for example)
idk ig my point is not everyone had a great home life w a stable financial situation n zero genetic conditions that let them get head pats from adults for being good at memorizing books, n its weird af to want to be superior than ppl who didnt have those bc its literally not our fault that as CHILDREN we were failed by adults n nowadays only managed (at BEST scenario, remember lots of ppl nowadays still cant even read bc they didnt even get the chance to do elementary) to remember actual essential basics that let us get by n not high school physics trivia.also if all those things r suuuuch big common sense idk why yall want to feel better than us for knowing them, by your own reasoning theyre completely worthless knowledge everyone has, no point in showing off you know smth like that, but ig at the end of the day its all abt feeling special for having success handed to you in a silver plate compared to the losers not born as lucky
#analiceoriginal.txt#sorry this kind of attitude pisses me off so bad at such a deep level#not just bc i failed so much school stuff bc i was being neglected of having disabilities acknowledged#but bc ever since we were little we were always told abt the issue w kids not managing to finish school due to financial issues#i had friends whose parents had to teach themselves how to read to work.i had friends whose parents joined#a special adult class my elementary school hosted so they could at least graduate that#n to see ppl like them? like me? getting shamed bc we didnt get the opportunity to learn worthless fucking trivia?#its filth.i hate being open i genuinely am upset by smth but i have no respect whatsoever for the kind of ppl this post is abt.#n again abused kids!!! how the fuck is it their fault? the system ENABLES ABUSE to the point some kids die bc of it#kids who run away from home too! how the fuck is it their moral failure they cant remember a fucking high school class they might not even#have had?#n this applies to this godamn website bc you ppl shame others who struggle w your deemed intellectual subjects all the fucking time#its embarrassing jesus christ#sorry just.absolutely no fucking respect for ppl who struggled to even make it alive past 18.bc we cant remember your little facts.
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hey you just spent 60 to 70 hours getting to know these characters and possibly romancing them? well lets throw in a suicide mission for them where at LEAST one of them dies! teehee this is goooood gaming folks love a shock value death
#im so pissed... i think its just all the things i dont like about the game kinda piling on idk#im just. ive been waiting for 10 years. mass effect andromeda may have been a disaster but at least i loved it! at least it smashed my heart#into little bitty pieces and made me feel like id been wrung out like a fucking shamwow. love that team but this?#the characters are good and theyre funny and i love that there is an AMPUTEE! THAT IS SO COOL! and an nb character! and certain parts are#really good and make me tear up like all of davrins quests and the end of emmrichs and bellaras#and taash oh my GOD hearing them scream tama broke my heart a little#and assan and the other griffins!!! they make me so happy!!!#but idk there's just something missing this doesnt feel like a dragon age game to me#and by that i mean it doesnt make me feel like someone is inside my chest just kicking things#like. i dont love it. and i feel so guilty just saying that oh my god but. i really feel like crying right now#o think its the Autism. ukno when u get too excited or upset and u just have to cry#HMPH. im gonna eat cold fries and read wuthering heights. cant wait for da4 cause this one was a joke game right#wytxt#veilguard spoilers
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i feel like the makeup standards are not necessarily going to get Worse, just. stay the Same. "raised by sephora and ulta" christ alive yall act like this shit is new. as if this hasnt been the standard to blast young girls with makeup ads and shit via magazine and tv and imposed beauty standards anyway. the only real difference is like, idk, accessibility of tutorials for how to apply it well
#toy txt post#spoken as. a no makeup bitch#altho i have also been accused by a terf of wearing a pound if makeup for wearing. visible lipstick in a selfie. and that was It#the actual Beauty Standard has largely stayed the exact fucking same of like making your skin texture as fake as possible#that was the standard back then too but it was harder to achieve /know how to do it cos there werent tutorials the same way now#also yes sephora and ulta are evil and all that but like the same amount theyve always been.#yall really acting like these imposed beauty standards being exposed to children is like a new unique tiktom thing thats never happened#before. and yall blaming instagram are no fuckin better. this has been happening The Entire God Damn Time#also theres something rubbing me about the way this is getting talked about. 'she did all thos other arbitrary bullshit except this#One Thing! the discrimination against this one thing is awful!#and like. it is. but i feel like we could address that while also maybe stepping back a tiny bit further and questioning these arbitrary#standards of professionalism too while we're at it#why does she have to have a blazer either? why do the earrings have to be understated#why do the colors have ti be bland and boring? why does he hair have to be a natural color and gender conforming ?#etc etc etc#like if we're accepting all that other shit the ppl upset about this could acknowledge she might experience similar discrimination for say#very obvious goth or punk-y makeup or anything a little too far outside the bounds of the acceptable beauty standard#everyone is pissed about 'eyeliner sharp enough to kill a man' but theyd be saying nothing if she was discriminated for fuckin#big wings and black lipstick bc well thats Obviously not professional standard makeup. okay?#if we change how we look at professional standards of dress and makeup as a whole to include Fucking Freak Bitches#then it would be a lot easier to include No Makeup in there as welllllll#idk#im a no makeup bitch with blue hair whos only ever worked in warehouses so they didnt give too much of a shit about my lack of makeup#or blue hair as long as i didnt show up in like flip flops which is a Reasonable dress code bc its got an actual fucking reason#(safety so you dont lose your goddamn toes to a box or a grate or some shit) vs it makes the office corpo bros sad#anyway idk if you have the privilege to get away with it i think you should dress weirder in the office to get them used to weirder dress#maybe instead of Suddenly going No Makeup sort of slowly lessen the amount so its not a Sudden change or smth#again: if you have the privilege and job security to get away with it#also also also: easier to get away with if you were to say. mask. js. they cant get mad at schrodingers lack of lipstick
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tw j is suicidal and fucking voilent and also cant spell worthshit
i feel so fucking numb i just want to die
goddamn it why does she have to fuck up the one thing that inwas looking forward to
and i know ill just get fuckinf screamed at now because im ‘acting like a bitch’
i hate her i fucking hate her so
fucking much fuck god fucjing damn i fucjing hate everything i haye her i hate her i fucking hate her
i feel so fucjing voulent right now but i cant do fucking shit i cant even selfharm becaysw this bitcu us fucking watching me fuck i hate her i fucking hate her
#j’s a bloody mess#im actually so pissed off i could kill someone right now.#i dont wanntot be around him i hate these people so fuciing much i cqnt do this#this bitch really just looked at me and asked if i was upset#no bitch you just ruined what little bit of happiness i had for today thats all!#ive been so fucking voilently suicidal for the past 2 days and you decied to fucking make it worse#just because you feel like it#im tired of this#i know they said its wrong. but i dont fucjing care.#someone has to go.
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hell day today and i'm only two hours into my EIGHT HOUR SHIFT
#9 to 5 by dolly parton starts playing in the background..#literally had to open up shop alone 2day and also was entirely alone for the first 45 min. of my shift so that was already a negative start#to the day + i heard that i can't have my break later than two thirty which is very bad for me bc 1) there'll be a lot of ppl all around me#when i'm eating which i already dislike and 2) like 85% of ppl taking their break around that time are VERY noisy eaters so even worse and#then 3) it'll be really loud in the room as well bc everyone's talking loudly and eating and the cutlery's clanging against plates and such#and also some ppl have actual full-blown arguments with each other in the break room bc half the ppl here hate each other's guts so more#negatives to the day and then on top of that we've had sooooo many annoying customers already today who r just. intent on making u stressed#out and upset and literally will tell u to your face to 'do your job better' like bro...i can easily tell you haven't worked in retail....#also someone hung their clothes on the rack outside the fitting rooms which is where u hang ur clothes when you're DONE fitting them & don'#want them bc they don't fit or don't sit right or u just don't rlly like them after all so if clothes are hanging there we the ppl working#there WILL take them and hang them back in their original places what did u expect to happen?? anyway someone hung the clothes they had#tried on already and did want there and i reached out to take them bc like. that's what we do here..we hang the clothes on the 'discard#rack' back in the store bc else the rack gets stuffed and the woman literally grabbed my arm and said 'those are mine what do u think you'r#doing' LIKE?????? GIRL THE RACK'S THERE FOR A REASONNNN ofc i'm going to assume u don't want them anymore if they're hanging there that's#why it's called the DISCARD rack....also how am i to know those specific clothes are yours HONESTLYYYYYY STFU AND GET OFF ME#ALSO some dude was like (to his child but like. looking at me while he said it.) 'this guy needs a haircut doesn't he' bc my hair is kinda#long and apparently i passed today. LIKE 1st of all kind of a rude thing to say to a stranger innit 2nd of all setting a great example to#your child there just casually commenting on other ppl's looks like that👍 3rd of all jokes on you you wouldn't consider me a guy if#you Knew most likely. thanks for that little zing of glee much obliged <3 but also man just piss off will you. 4th of all my hair isn't eve#that long....like the ends of it are just shy of my shoulders wdym LONG if u knew the long-haired guys i know you'd faint.#anyway. great start of the day. i still have six more hours to go 🥴#ALSO no surprise this always happens but my legs already hurt SOOOOOOOO BADDDDDD :(((((((((((#r.txt
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Do I already have an au thats got its own folder in my google drive about Visually Impaired Bill? Yes. Do I want to talk about it because I broke my glasses and forgot how blind I am? Yes.
There’s just something about low visibility and how it’s such a concept to play with. My eyesight is Horrible and it’s almost impossible for me to get 20/20 vision, you could be standing a yard from me and I wouldn’t be able to see your face and my eye sight is just going to keep deteriorating with age. And for those curious, I do have contacts to wear, though like I mentioned, they do not give me 20/20 and also my jokes of being unable to cry or show emotions was taken too seriously by my eyes which decided they would also be unable to produce moisture properly, which makes contacts extremely irritating and hard to wear for long periods of time, even with the aid of special eyedrops.
But also, it’s been brought to my attention how like… genuinely fun and eerie you can make low visibility, and this isn’t me making light of being visually impaired or anything this is just genuine shit that’s been happening to me for the past week and I’d like you to imagine the following scenarios with Bill in mind:
Staring at people completely dead eyed, only to be told to stop staring at them cause it’s creepy. Apparently we’ve been having a staring contest but I was just trying to track movement of the faceless thing that walked in so I could stay aware of my surroundings.
Being told repeatedly to look at things that’s impossible for me to make out without any aid, fr sometimes I feel like Toph from avatar with the way my family tries to show me shit and has to be reminded I cannot, in fact, see them or what they’re trying to show me.
Having to keep a physical hand on the people I go out with in order to keep a physical marker on them. If I were to loose them in a crowd I would not be able to find them.
The people who choose to adapt to my extremely low visibility and those who choose to be irritated by it. The difference between those two.
With Bill having only One Eye, imagining that one eye having terrible and deteriorating vision is just a concept that I enthusiastically get my grubby little hands all over uk? Regardless of if it’s a human au, or if it’s an ‘axolotl sent me to earth in a human form as punishment’ au or however you want to spin it. An all seeing Eye and being of an alternate dimension warped with dreams and nightmares and unreality being unable to properly conceive the reality he’s been so desperate to find his way into is just a Good Prompt to me idk broski.
It is now time for some of the Bill headcanons I have in this department and in that previously mentioned AU folder.
Bill calls Dipper Pinetree after stealing his cap and discovering the embroidered pine tree on it. Dipper had refused to give his name hoping to be left alone but Bill simply found other solutions.
Bill keeping a constant hand or arm around Dipper while in public spaces.
Others initiating obvious and intentional contact with Bill when they start speaking to him, commonly but not limited to group conversations. It’s a more meaningful way to ‘maintain eye contact’ or allow them to give him their full attention.
Bill also has a contact he can wear when he needs to, but sometimes due to migraines or general discomfort he simply won’t wear it.
This post is already way too long but yeah ❤️ Wether it’s a human au or not just Bill having to deal with a human version of himself that’s extremely visually impaired as a juxtaposition to the All Seeing Eye of his true form. That’s all I’m pitching here. I have so many thoughts uk. So many au’s.
#god I want to see again#i ordered new glasses but alas#i can’t see what i draw or how it looks#playing video games is pointless i cant see shit#im fr just like sitting here#this is why my hair covers my eyes#like i can’t see shit anyway ?#it pisses people off so much u wouldn’t imagine#bitches get So Upset cause they can’t see my eyes#even tho i tell them i can’t see them regardless#it makes them so uncomfortable for my eyes to be covered in their disuse#i just think Bill would have fun with being ‘inconvenient’ and would love to put people on edge#ure telling me he wouldnt take advantage of his disability to be a weirdo and creep people out?#he so would#and dont get me started on the dark#or night time#what little visibility i did have vanishes#its crazy#either way i hope someone sees this and agrees#or at least enjoys themselves a little bit#bill cipher#gravity falls#human bill cipher#billdip#gravity falls au#bi.f.shit
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you watch idiot teens try and recreate kink dynamics in five or six different communities, fandoms, and/or subcultures before you reach some point in your twenties hopefully and are like
fuck it, im going to hang out with the other cool adults who aren't terrified of the words top, bottom, and/or dominant. rofl. lmao even. get over yourselves and stop pissing your pants over the thought that other people might fuck and get excited about it. im moving to fetlife
#can't catch me now suckers!#original post#i quit kinkstagram because there were so many annoying teenagers into 'age regression'#more in a minute but like#do not piss your diapers about the fact that#hashtag age regression means something different#to most other people on that site. who are adults.#i wasnt even on for cgl lmao it was just irritating to see these little jerks crying in the kink tags all the time#anyway#the point i want to make with this example is that they're clearly traumatized and find doing more kiddish stuff comforting#you know like the adults?#if you don't get that part you're getting distracted by the diapers too but it's so fucking funny#they seem to have like a whole parallel caregiver/little community with their own terms for the exact same stuff#but very studiously nonsexual#i don't seek this out because im not personally interested in their probably also-horny business (they are teens)#but again they are screaming at you for 'crosstagging' with anything remotely cutesy#i just left rather than trying to waste my time or seriously upset anyone
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i do love my friends okay don't get me wrong. but i really wish they were more supportive of my art and more enthusiastic about my art events :(
#i'm going to my magazine launch with this really important big article i wrote in it alone :/ i have told my friends multiple times that#they should go with me because it's really important to me and i've gotten a lot of dodging the issue and “maybe... but” and honestly i#think i have the right to be a little pissed off. they've stated they feel uncomfortable around people who they deem to be acting too cool#(aka my art coworkers) but i don't think they're really giving these people or the events a chance and that makes me a tad upset!#it's almost finals week and everyone's bitchy right now so i'm trying to keep my personal feelings in my head but idk. maybe i should say#something. i'm just tired of always having to say something
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After seeing the art that inspired you- why Hint Of Magic? how was that idea even formed, how did you come up with all the world-building and the smut? (I am always in awe)
I remember looking at the art and trying to make it make sense. And that made a story come of it. A fairy sitting on a knight's shoulder? How did that come to be? Especially with this pairing? Shouldn't they hate each other? Why don't they hate each other? No one is stopping them? Or maybe these meetings and "relationship" is a secret that they both want to keep. But why would Heimdall care about a random fairy? There has to be an incentive for him to keep seeing and meeting with this fairy until they're going to eventually get along. Alright. Give Heimdall a mission from Odin. Easy. Gather fairy dust. They fairies? They're like the Jotunar in GoW. Dangerous and mysterious. But Atreus cute and sweet so Heimdall would have to find it endearing eventually. Their relationship grows, oh no, but they are enemies and Heimdall knows it'll never work and Atreus is stuck in the forest never to leave it even if he wanted to. Boom plotline scraped from cute fanart and GoW.
Ploy's artwork for sure inspired me (and other artists too!) and I think I wanted more of it or stuff like it. And at the time, I needed some variety in what I was writing, I needed a little break from "Mischief and Foresight" so I devised a plan. If I made a fanfiction on the artwork and it was well-liked and well-received then that would mean that more fanart would be made of it, right? Wrong and egotistical. But it was super fun to write and then Lore accidentally kept coming up and it kept expanding??? Like, pretty sure it was going to only have like one or two chapters but it kept growing and I still hope people like it but I often leave it to the side since it's just a side AU
#A Hint of Magic fic#I like A Hint of Magic but I'm a little insecure about it because it doesn't follow the main plotline of GoW or a big AU people like#and at the time I think I was saddened that it wasn't liked like “Mischief and Foresight” was so it felt like a sign like I should stay#in my lane or just stick with what people like#I think I was comment-hungry and that's why#It's like I forgot why I started writing Heimtreus to begin with#because I loved the ship and loved Chaos in an Archer Suit and wanted to expand the story in a spinoff and show my love for it#So I might have poisoned it for myself by desperately trying to write in ways that I though would get people to like it when it#never got the reactions I wanted & it got me all upset so I might have been disillusioned & then dropped the fic for a while because of it#And that's on me and no one else because I did that to me#No one should be forced to like my work or feel guilt-tripped by this#it just shows me that I really have to learn to write for myself because I have to love what I do because unless I'm being paid#fuck everybody else#Sorry for the VENTING and throwing all my baggage at you! That was definitely NOT what you asked 😅🤣#The World-Building is because I like making things make sense and making a story from it and the smut is because I wanted people to like me#so that's pretty much the answer that you did sorta ask#begging people to ignore the fucking ESSAY in the tags! Like Please! I'm just Bitching! I'm just pissing & crying over here! LOOK AWAY#heimtreus#sunny's answers
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#im Sad i know im being a bit overly parasocial but im so gen upset abt this#like i KNEW his history but i thought he had changed + maybe that was overly optimistic but !!#im sad + upset + pissed off that ive been making shit that supports him#i just hate it !! it has upset me sm !! i do feel a little sick but thats just shock still!!#idk what this rant is for. im sad and upset i hope anyone he hurt is okay and i hope hes never on the channel again#rambles#i have no actually valuable words im just being upset im sorry
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I mean on one hand this is giving me proper material for how the PTs would feel about the whole Takuto-Kai situation (and the outlook isn't looking great lmfao, this is gonna create some relationship drama for sure) but on the other hand it's sort of bothering me how they started digging into Zenkichi's family situation uninvited (the death of his wife! give the man and his daughter some privacy omg) and then invited themselves into his house with his daughter who they literally just met two seconds ago and then started reprimanding her for her relationship with her father which they cannot possibly know anything about. I'm sure there's a cultural barrier I cannot breach (given the importance they're placing on respecting your elders and her trusting that her father still cares for her) but I still can't help but feel like they really jumped the gun considering they barely know these people at all? Is it not disrespectful to your elders to just intrude on their personal life like that? Back in P5 they even called Sojiro into question when the possibility that he might be hurting Futaba came up, so why are we giving Zenkichi the benefit of the doubt when he hasn't really done anything to earn it (yet, at least)? Is this all because they feel guilty for Zenkichi's delay? Come on now. It's not their fault that Zenkichi didn't warn her daughter that he might be late due to work like they don't have to make it their mission to fix her now lmao
#don't mind me. ignore the wall of text. i'm just upset by all of the copaganda. i'm so sorry. i'm going to okinawa immediately#i swear i can feel kai's spirit possessing my mortal body yet again please forgive me for the rant adfgfdf help#but like genuinely#i believe you're allowed to be pissed at someone for hurting you no matter how well-intentioned they are or how much they love you.#you are allowed.#and it pisses me off how much people are willing to overlook the harm of emotional neglect just because parents are ''trying their best.''#i really hope this gets better soon or just passes altogether because i'm feeling physically sick.#wish my little guy was here. he could not fix it but he could make it more bearable#ramble#vent#???#p5s spoilers
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