#it just so much energy

[softness-and-shattering]

When I was a kid, I really enjoyed making art, and I was mediocre-to-bad at it. I was showing talent in other areas and I jusf figured, I like it but I guess its not for me.

Sometime in high school I came across the idea of talent and skill being different things and it completely blew my mind.

Once I graduated and I had spare bandwith, I thought "eh why not" and started drawing. Have to start somewhere, right? And what I drew was not skilled at all. Like whatsoever. I remember struggling to just get face proportions to look as though deliberately exaggerated and not like I had no idea what I was doing because it wasnt going to resemble accurate at all because I DIDNT have any idea what I was doing.

Energy limitations aside, writing has always come easy to me, on the whole. I can study and learn and improve and try new techniques, and it isnt necessarily easy like no effort, and the words dont always just flow, by something in me just gets it, just has an ear for language rhythms and thinks of interesting metaphors; I have talent in writing.

In contrast, learning to draw is WORK. Its difficult. I struggle. The image in my mind is always way more complex than the version I can get onto paper. My taste is way beyond my skills, I dont begin to know how to pull off my art ambitions. Sometimes I dont even know the language for what Im trying to do.

However, its been years and years and years since I started being diligent with my art practise, and now I can create things that are pretty decently good most of the time. That at least resemble what I was going for, that show some amount of skill. But Im not much talented. Its slow going.

Its fun, and its worth it, and it makes me happy and fulfills me creatively.

I actually started trying out some clothing designs recently and that came surprisingly easily. When I started with art I was attempting modest superhero outfits and mashing characters together and it was fun, but frustrating that it never looked polished or like, good. But the practise paid off. The practise always pays off somehow. Every abandoned WIP, especially those abandoned bc my skills fell short, and there are MANY of those, its all XP and Im a few levels ahead now of where I was.

If Id been able to write prose this whole time, realistically, it would be excellent by now. Woe gd has nerfed me because writing is absolutely exhausting in ways that other art and craft are not.

(I say this so you know im not being super modest about the visual art. I know im a talented writer, albeit a very rusty one. Im not a particularly talented visual artist but Ive drilled some skills into my brain and muscle memory).

(And yes it absolutely pisses me off when people say "youre so talented at art I could never." Im not, and I couldnt either. To get to my mid skill level has been a fuckton of work, it didnt come from nowhere, I wasnt blessed with it. Writing skill I have definitely put in work, but Im on a motorboat and my visual art im paddling in a kayak. Progress, and effort, are measured very differently between them).

So earlier in art class today, someone drew a characters hands in their pockets and mentioned that hands are really like the ultimate end boss of art, and most of us wholeheartedly agreed. So then, our teacher went ahead and free handed like a handful of hands on the board, earning a woah from a couple of students. So the one from earlier mentioned how it barely took the teacher ten seconds to do what I can’t do in three hours. And you know what he responded?

“It didn’t take me ten seconds, it took me forty years.”

And you know, that stuck with me somehow. Because yeah. Drawing a hand didn’t take him fourth years. But learning and practicing to draw a hand in ten seconds did. And I think there’s something to learn there but it’s so warm and my brain is fried so I can’t formulate the actual morale of the lesson.

[reineydraws]

jason is a grandpa's boy and u cant take this away from me!!! they cook together, they discuss literature together, and when jay comes back, they clean their guns together haha. ofc they celebrate their birthday together too! 😌

✨️🎂 hbd jay & alfie 🎂✨️

[natp20]

i've missed this man most ardently

[cubbyhole-for-flea-bee]

(Not) an approved use of the Power Of Friendship

[zaahvi]

"I am Elgar'nan — First of the Firstborn, Last of the Evanuris."

[transthatfag]

should've hate fucked ngl.

[wineanddineloseyourmind]

the transgender urge to curl up like a small fluffy animal against someone you love’s warm body and make little mewling and sighing and whining sounds as they pet you and praise you for having tried so hard to be human until you fall asleep

[i-eat-bugs-and-dirt]

JONATHAN SIMS PRIEST AU! FORCED CONFESSIONS! PEOPLE BEING FORCED TO RELIVE THEIR CONFESSED SINS IN THEIR DREAMS OVER AND OVER AGAIN!!! RELIGIOUS GUILT MARTIN!! THE FEAR ENTITIES SOMEHOW LINKED TO THE SEVEN DEADLY SINS! IM GOING INSANE!

[keferon]

Did you think I was done? Ahahahaha no, I have more.

Because chapter 70 of MOMU gave me the very dynamic between them that I missed so much, I just blacked out and started drawing uncontrollably lmao

Also. ALSO. I noticed a while ago that Prowl has the habit of..like…constantly frowning. So. I did a bit of research and made this graph.

In 70 chapters, Prowl frowns rougly 104 times. And the intensity of this gesture is very clearly correlated with the development of his relationship with Jazz, as you can see ahahahahah It might be wrong tho don’t take me seriously I’m not good with graphs

[cryptidmickle]

hough save me gay yaoi

[delicourse]

i miss them a little if im gonna be honest

[sainz100]

2024 Brazilian GP | x

[arunneronthird]

actually i think they should do stupid things together sometimes, i also fully embraced the fact that none of them have any fashion sense

[regonold]

I kinda want danny who's been adopted by the wanyes to be schmoozing it up at a gala (because listen nothing is funnier than the image of Gotham elites being like oh whats this one's gimmick cus all the other's have something only for danny to just be a dude) only for like the giw to raid the place to get danny ( cus he's a ghost? Cus he's a Fenton? Who knows)

Only for danny to pick up a bottle chug it smash it and vault out a window shouting you'll never catch me alive

Now this increases his reputation with most Gothamites and rouges and absolutely worries the fuck out of the batfam why is the government chasing you danny and hiw are you so good at running

[anxiousapplepie]

And because it's New Years eve with only a few hours left of Australian 2024, might as well treat myself and upload some Researcher!Sif concept art too!

[ruushes]

throuple of all time to me