#anyways i shouldnt talk abt this in the tags lmao

[cryptidmickle]

hough save me gay yaoi

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thinkin about thinkin about things

[ourflagmeansgayrights]

went into my drafts and dug up the post i made where i was gonna outline a steddyhands fic where stede wasnt just nice to izzy out of nowhere and i finished it up but oh my GOD that shit was fucking hard. kept thinking about ed's face when izzy said "i should've let the english kill you" and becoming overcome with rage.

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[elvesofnoldor]

lmao ok its like almost 1am and i gotta sleep but um ok maybe i shouldnt say the bombings “isn’t entirely justified”, cause it isn’t justified. at all. have to say i didnt make that clear, my fault, but at the same time, lol it isnt the point of my posts. anyways, i dont know their trauma, and i make no attempts talking about their trauma. but ive seen documentaries. ghost of people casted on broken radiated stones cause they are pulverized at the centre of a nuclear explosion, horrific scars on survivors’ bodies, the trauma materializing in popular culture in the form of monster--trauma thats probably never gonna be healed. Japanese folks sure arent silent about their trauma and the horrific aftermath of the bombings, and the world listened. you all sure are passionated abt talking abt their trauma, for some reason. that post about gozilla got like 100k notes lmao. ive seen multiple posts about how unjustified the bombings are during my time here.  is it bc u all are into anime and watched grave of fireflies? lol? 

u know i know large size national traumas caused by war...are not comparable, i dont wanna talk abt what happened to nanking, or other places or regions during sino japanese war. its not comparable. but u all think i dont know and i dont care what happened to hiroshima and nagasaki? i know and i cared! for the longest time i didnt know how to feel abt it, any of it. but also im tired of seeing japanese folks using their own trauma to play the victim mentality, positioning themselves as victims of WWII when they 100% aren’t lol. I’m tired of nobody caring about that, since while they are playing victim mentality, Japanese war criminals are being honoured as heroes, the Japanese government still refuses to make a apology about the invasion they wouldn’t retract afterwards, and japanese imperalism is still alive in Japan! japanese history textbooks are imbedded with worrying messages, and dude! i didnt came up with these, people whos gone to Japan and studied Japanese history curriculum did! They are documentaries (in Chinese tho) about how Japanese history textbook refuses to call their invasion of China (and probably other asian countries like korea etc), an “invasion”. There are questions asking the kids if Japan would win against China when the country engage China in a 100 years from now. Not IF there would be an engagement. the premise of the question is that there will be another conflict! 

i said my great grandpa died in nanking massacre. he most likely did. (u know they spread news abt the massacre after it happened, in America. it probably just helped Americans to justify their ultimate engagement with imperial Japan’s military after pearl harbour happened) idk how long, probably two years ago, my mom told me about grandma. she told me that my great grandpa went to Nanking to run some errands, right after he went, grandma and her sisters lost contact with him and the city’s gate shuts down--the massacre begins. My grandpa was never heard of again. My mom said, “we couldn’t even find his body”. There are too many mass graves in nanking, no one could find anybody’s bodies, esp an insignificant person like my great grandpa who isnt a permanent residence of the city. i asked my mom, “so he got killed by the japanese?”. my mom said “well yeah, probably.” so no, im not sure abt it, but i dont have to have a great grandfather dying in the massacre to justify my anger abt the massacre and japan’s continuous denial of the massacre. It’s national pain, it’s national trauma too. However, for a while i actually like to think that he didnt died at the hands of japanese. I thought that, its entirely possible he just abandoned my grandma and his sisters and run away in the middle of chaos. even now, i thought that, maybe i misheard what my mom said. maybe my mom misheard from grandma. a while ago, folks in China were being foolish and boycotting Japanese products. Irrational and unproductive hate tbh, and boycotting Japanese brands only wreck Chinese economy cause none of these products being sold in China are produced in Japan lol. I didn’t wanna be one of these people giving to unproductive hate and irrational anger. but seems like, thats really above me. Anyways, theres a lot of speculations, but what i do know is that grandma had a hard life without the main financial support (my great grandpa) in her life. she lived in poverty all her life, travelled from shanghai all the way to beijing for work. never get the education she deserves, was a factory worker her whole life.  

i thought abt grandma a lot these days. my grandma died on 4th of july, 2006. its been 11 years today (or rather, yesterday, in my time zone). i realize i couldnt even remember much of her voice or face, and that makes me incredibly sad. i was gonna talk abt missing her and about the whole legacy of 2nd sino japanese war during WWII, at one point. But i guess its gonna be today at 1am lol--seems like an awkward time to do that since i just went the fuck off on tumblr dot com lmao. i wanted to go off abt this whole thing for at least a year now tho lmao. hope grandma wouldn’t mind i start thinking about all these after my mom revealed bits of info about her life. i miss her a lot and i wished i could have known her better, but there wasn’t enough time. 

this is a mass of disorganized rambling and i dont even know where to begin to tag triggers for this post.....idk maybe dont read idk 

[nacrepearl-archived]

fantasyjohncena-main replied to your post “WHY ARE THERE SO MANY SU CRITICAL BLOGS IN THIS TAG LMAO FUCK OFF AND...”

lmao how bout u stop trying to silence the poc, gay + trans ppl who are effected by problems in the show and are trying to talk abt them and spread awareness :^)))) ur enjoyment of fiction is not more important than minority safety

you say that as if im not trans and gay myself so please never assume that again “”:^))))“”

i am white so i cant speak over others in that area but karen im talking about people who dedicate all their time and make a whole blog just for unnecessary criticism on things like the animation and how “”””off model”””” it is, how the characters are behaving (surprise surprise, you as the audience dont have to agree with the characters!!!!), and how they nitpick the in between frames for “”proof”” that the show is bad. what if i told you (gasp) that every other show has the same “””””problems””””” that you deem for su, but because you dont like su so much, those other shows are fine. all this is doing is giving CN a reason to cancel a very progressive and good show. what happened to these criticisms back in seasons 1 and 2? there are plenty of the same “problems” back then too!!

yes i agree, things like bismuths treatment and how jasper is shown to be an “evil butch woman brute” (though i think thats the fandoms interpretation) should be addressed and i feel strongly about bringing bismuth back, and she will be. but theres no need to be shoving su down into the ground for things that you should be bringing up to the crew instead of people who are aware of problems and know theyre problems but enjoy the show anyway. anything you consume in media will have problematic elements. one argument that bugs me is the “why does su have servants??!! (the pearls) its problematic to include that!!” argument. i just. yes, debby, its supposed to be a problem.

another thing that bugs me is when people complain about “filler”. what filler is there exactly???? every episode has been either referenced, brought back, or just something from it proved to be important for the future. the only filler su has is say uncle. people couldnt even wait 6 episodes for it to “get back to its plot” between mindful education and steven’s dream. the characters can have lives outside of fighting the main villain, and the audience needs a break from it too every once in a while. 

anyways. i forgot some stuff but its not even 9 in the morning yet and im going to go hang out with friends soon. tldr; useless and unneccessary criticism blogs are sucking the joy out of su and real issues in the show shouldnt be ignored but they shouldnt be shoved down anyone’s throats about how evil su is either.

the show isnt done yet. chill out and relax.