#it honestly kinda upsets me.
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being plural/being a system is really nice, i love us
#hot take: anti-endo-ness is repurposed homo/transphobia#“being a system isnt an identity you can pick and choose with”#unlike being queer? you think queerness is a choice? because thats certainly what it sounds like you're implying.#people are picking the labels they think fit best describe their life and experiences.#sometimes its the standard ones (bisexual‚ he/him‚ trans ‚traumagenic‚ etc)#and sometimes its the more specific ones not everyone is all that familiar with (orchidsexual‚ fae/faer‚ catgender‚ catharigenic‚ etc)#and yeah. some people do make choices. and theres nothing wrong with them for doing so.#idk why im rambling like this people are just here for shitposts not to see me reading too much into things#but seeing “plurality is nothing like queerness” when the two are both such intrinsic and interwoven parts of my/our identity.#it honestly kinda upsets me.#lol.exe#blackout poetry#pro endo#endo safe#endo friendly#anti rq#radqueers fuck off
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“I can tell TV from real life, Jeff. TV has structure, logic, rules, and likeable leading men. In real life, we have this. We have you” is still one of the most METAL fucking lines in the entire series like??? abed just gagged him like that??? in front of EVERYONE??? insane. I’m still not over it. goddamn
#top 10 most savage anime moments#I honestly don’t watch this episode THAT much#just bc jeff and britta ‘pretending’ to be in love and annie getting jealous is physcially upsetting for me#but the whole wedding scene is peak cinema#britta’s marryin britta’s marryin jeffrey wingerrr has been on loop in my head for weeks#and betty white is there lmfao kinda funny#ANYWAY#he humbled jeff so fast like GET HIS ASS‼️#community#nbc community#community nbc#abed nadir#jeff winger#abed’s uncontrollable queue-mas
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I can't resist. holy shit. I was skimming the kab vod (so... what do I do now???***) because I missed context after my last post and all that and I stumbled on this: (lifesteal spoilers below)
23:00 “‘you betrayed princezam’ I didn't do shit I didn't do nothing. ‘Betrayed princezam’ I didn't do shit you want to see a fucking betrayal of princezam I can fucking betray princezam. If you think that, if you think me killing planet was a betrayal then you have clearly never watched any of my videos. My betrayals are always so much cooler than that. I would never let that be a fucking betrayal. Don't even. Don't even”
Like FUCK man. I'm dying crying laughing. like what do you even do with that. The disconnect. The threat. The thinking it was a chatter pov and not a stream snipe. She has no idea.
Like Zam is way too in his feels to have a confrontation with her about how it 100% was a betrayal in his eyes but I want that conversation SO BAD. Especially after such a direct quote like this.
also she does say in the next stream "hurting zam would be cruel" because he's never hurt her. So like, empty threat for sure. (Unless Zam does something first :eyes: he won't.) And she talks about how it's harder to be evil on lifesteal because she knows the people too well and she feels bad about it. Going back to that duality within her about caring too much about people but also doing evil shit.
also (omg here I go analyzing) the conceptual difference in the definition of "betrayal" between her and *lifesteal* is fascinating.
For Kab evidently a betrayal is only something that you plan and execute: it can never be something impulsive or accidental.
But last season we saw Mapicc (and Clown) say Zam giving Minute the blessing was a betrayal. Zam didn't intend to betray. He was doing it because it made sense for the joker to be so obsessed with Minute to the point of giving him a blessing, and a useless blessing at that.
And yet it was a betrayal. And Zam had to face that. And he accepted it immediately when Mapicc explained how if they are teammates he should have thought of the team first.
But he also didn't understand it at first. Just so interesting.
#lifesteal spoilers#lifesteal#it's like watching a trainwreck#i know i'll get upset watching kab lore but I can't resist#because she says shit like this so seriously and I'm like you're not in touch with reality i'm going to vomit#but then she comes back from the intensity in a later stream. but also speaks with such a serious tone. so which is true?#and it's usually triggered by some chatter#it's a huge push and pull#which honestly. kinda does remind me of zam#a more impulsive and non-linear zam#who also doesn't tie the threads of personality together with lore so she doesn't really remind me of zam#gnome rambles
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Man's really upset that he's not the one being babied anymore XD
[ Spoilers for Belphie's UR card: The Avatar of Sloth ]
#it's nice how everyone's trying their best with Satan#reminds me of S1 when the brothers explain that they all raised him together#honestly I'm still kinda upset that the devs didn't let Satan be a kid in nightbringer because it would've been so wholesome#omnb card: “the avatar of sloth” ( belphegor )#obey me#obey me nightbringer#omnb#obey me shall we date#omswd#obey me devilgram#obey me lucifer#obey me mammon#obey me leviathan#obey me satan#obey me asmodeus#obey me beelzebub#obey me belphegor#om belphie#om satan#om brothers#om levi#om mammon#om asmo#om beel#☙ no creativity for names ✾#100+
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i will cashapp $10 to the first person who can name 3 real life harmful things bob bryar did without accusing him of thought crime
#wordvomit#this isnt to say the things he said or thought are good or justifiable- just to point out that he never ACTED on them in any capacity#meanwhile he is being socially prosecuted to the extent as if he has. during such an awful time for his loved ones who are the only ones#who will be exposed to all this hate. possibly including the members of mcr#i understand thinking the things he said are sick and disliking him and being uncomfortable at the discussion but.#i dont understand how you can honestly morally justify half of the stuff people have been saying- like 'he deserved it' and whatnot#without contradicting the 'thoughtcrime isnt real' sentiment i see get thrown around so often ?#isnt the Overarching issue with conservatism as a whole not the idea of . moral purity and puritanism and#'everyone. everything and every idea ontologically different from mine and my communities-#they are objectively worse and i deserve power over them as retribution for what they've done'#ie colonialism. racism. yadda yadda#these are false comparatives bc discrimination based on unchangeable factors vs backlash to opinion is vry different but i still think#the core idea of 'no one who has not enacted harm deserves harm wished on them' kinda shines through it all#and there is a semantic debate to be had about the definition of harm but in this case i am using it to mean anything more Tangible#something that has a wider influence than 'the people who read/heard it were upset and uncomfortable' yea ?#im been waffling about this a lot and why it hasnt been sitting right with me as someone who is incredibly uncomfortable with a lot of his#final statements#it just reminds me so much of my dad and what ive watched him go through#as well as other people in my community during the pandemic#i cant disconnect myself from the humanity of that. especially while condemning him for lacking humanity
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New movie inspired me to put my two cents in on this trope.
#transformers#maccadam#maccadams#optimus prime#megatron#call me crazy but if a 'friend' turned out to be a genocidal arsehole i wouldn't still hold out hope of a friendship with them#i'd be upset i was ever friends with such an asshole#but no this kinda 'story' always seems to end up with some “oooh the drama they miss each other” type junk#but honestly I think it'd be FAR funnier and better if only Megatron pined for Optimus's friendship again#but OP was just “lol no you killed thousands of people for your own sick pleasure/gain I hate you”
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Having one of those days where I wanna delete everything I've ever written and crawl into a hole to hide for forever.
Don't worry, I'm not actually gonna. My brain is just being stupid.
#i don't know why i can't shake this feeling that everyone is gonna hate lucy and be hoping that she dies or ends up miserable#some of the responses i've gotten to these past two chapters have been...idk kinda hostile in a way that's got my defenses up#and i'm honestly kinda scared to post the rest of the series because i feel like the blowback i'm gonna get is gonna be really really bad#considering we're only just starting this arc and people already are upset with me over it#normally i'm fine with people not liking my fics or ocs but idk i've poured my whole heart and soul into lucy and this series#it makes me sad to know so many people are gonna hate her#bleghhhh sorry for being such a downer i'm just in a weird mood these past couple of days#lily babbles
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Hey quick question, why the fuck was everyone angry at sword and shield for being ugly, rushed pokemon games but was pretty much completely fine with Scarlett and Violet being worse?
#simon says#I'm absolutely ranting right now#I'm trying out pokemon violet (using a friend's copy) and I am still so iffy on it#because this game is... so fucking ugly and poorly optimized#and I still remember the backlack sword and shield got for the fucking trees#this game... is worse#it's worse!#and it didn't get nearly as much backlash#sword and shield still get shit to this day but scarlet and violet get to just... move on??#I'm honestly so upset#Galar looks so much better compared to sword and shield#people are saying the gameplay is what makes Scarlett and Violet worth it but I'm just... not seeing it so far???#just#OUGH#sword and shield I just sorta forget about#like they're not awful it's just easy to kinda forget about them and not play them#but Scarlet and Violet so far make me want to just turn off the game and play a 2D pokemon game instead#sword and shield's biggest crime is being forgettable#scarlet and violet are actively infuriating#they can't keep doing this
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so i finally got to sit down with my wife's rigid heddle loom, and...i don't like it? i'm producing fabric, but after 90 minutes of weaving (photo taken midway through for light reasons), i'm not loving it or honestly even liking it much.
this is the exact opposite of the thing i was expecting! i'll at least finish this towel--maybe i'm just cranky today?--but i sat down expecting to fall into this and wow, i very much did not.
on the bright side, at least my hemstitching looks nice?
#weaving#hand weaving#rigid heddle weaving#rigid heddle loom#i'm not the kind of person who names my tools#but i do occasionally wish i were#if only because it would be easier to tag things in a way that would be useful to future me#anyhow i'm honestly shocked and kinda upset about this lol#smartest raccoon i know
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He found out he’s not the highest rated anymore….isn’t taking it too well <<
#wallowing in that feeling of missing out or not being good enough for others standards (or even your own tbh) :))#no but actually I hope no one takes this post the wrong way#it was actually very therapeutic to draw this?#I know some people don’t like seeing their comfort character in distress but for me it’s almost reassuring#knowing that even this silly guy has hard days. Makes them feel human and sympathetic?#like they understand hardships and still persist despite it all#I hope no one takes offense :( don’t worry he’ll be feeling better about it soon enough 💜#but I also have no issues with this art being taken humorous#(because he do be ugly crying like a desperate teenager that got rejected)#reminds me of the ‘no your cringe’ meme someone else drew Mr. Puzzles too lol#so you can interpret this art as serious or silly I don’t care either way honestly#My inspiration here is that after he was defeated he kinda spent a couple days upset about it#started to cut apart star shaped fairy lights in frustration and cut out paper to resemble stars he wished he could have#just kinda going berserk in outrage obsessing over star shaped objects to fill that void#hence why it looks like there’s arts & crafts and Star glitter everywhere on the floor lol#but like I said you can make up your own story and narrative for it <3#hplonesome art#mr puzzles fanart#cw crying#tw crying#mr puzzles crying#crying mr puzzles#smg4 mr puzzles fanart
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I avoided spoilers for nearly a month
for this???
#the umbrella academy#tua#tua season 4#steve blackman you are at the top of my fucking shit list#i tell people CONSTANTLY that the first season of tua is my favorite show#s2 is good completely different vibe but i really did like it!#s3 was kinda weird it felt honestly kind off to me but hey look at that character development!#literally the only thing s4 has going for it was the way the sibling dynamics were written#im fucking upset yall dont look at me
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non mentally sick people won't understand why struggling people do the things that they do
I had a really distressing thought about my mom about something she did pretty recently and I don't think she'll ever have any real sympathy for me and my struggles
a couple of weeks ago she saw my scars and asked me what were they even though I already told her what they were, what my problem is, and that I wanted her help with my mental health earlier last year (2024, for those who still hasn't grasped that it's 2025. it's okay, neither have I) and yk what she told me? she told me it was stupid that I resorted to hurting myself instead of going to her. in fact, the day that she asked me again what the scars were, she yelled at me for not "communicating" with her. which is crazy, because she's proven to me my entire life that she'll never truly help me, or believe me, even if I did tell her what's wrong. she doesn't understand that I don't tell her stuff because I'm scared of her. she doesn't take criticism, and she doesn't think she's done anything bad to me in my life.
even if the issue is somewhat unrelated to her, she'd still make me feel stupid for having negative feelings about whatever it was.
she doesn't even understand why I want to go to therapy. she doesn't understand why I want to kill myself. she doesn't understand why I'm anxious, why I'm paranoid. she doesn't understand why I'm tired. she doesn't understand why I get moody. she doesn't understand shit
and she never wants to hear why I act the way that I do. so why does she think that I'll go to her for the problems that she's mainly caused?
so, anyway. tbh, even if I do go to therapy, she probably won't be happy that I'm trying to get help from somebody, because it's not her that I considered to go to first. she won't understand why I'm going, and she won't be happy that I'm going in the first place.
#I'm kinda upset tbh#I'm tired too#I'm scared that I'll never get to tell her how deeply she's affected me in a negative way#or if I do she won't believe me and she'll just be upset at me for the rest of her life#because honestly...I can't live with her in my life. not properly#I want to cut her off when I'm older and stable#as extreme as that sounds. and it feels weird to say that because my trauma feels nonexistent compared to what others have gone through#she doesn't “spank” me anymore because I'm almost 18. but the emotional and mental negligence is absolutely baffling#anyway I'm done. I'm tired#-jael#vent#self harm mention#suicide mention
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the last five chapters were extremely rushed and the ending feels generic and boring to me. like i literally joked about how there is going to be a timeskip, deku is gonna be a teacher and they’ll have a pull-out-your-ass solution about how deku can still be a hero. joked in a “this is too goofy” way just like ppl joked about “this is our hero academia”. this feels v?? goofy?? but in a not fun way for me
#yes i had high hopes for this chapter#but honestly? this is just not good writing for me#he could have done it in a different way that i might have still not been satisfied with but if it was not rushed#made sense narrative wise#didn’t kinda…abandon deku’s character development#i could have been okay with it#facts is deku returned to the quirkless kid he was who does not take initiative to follow his dream and who just lets stuff happen to him#like he is lonely and upset about not being a hero but he just sits down and let’s it happen because why would he take matter into his own#hands#just seems to me like maybe he didn’t care about being a hero that much#which would be fine!!! like maybe he changed his mind or the war changed him#(not that we saw any of that cuz there was a timeskip and we didnmt partake in deku’s thoughts for the last idk how many hundred chapters)#but then if that was the case why is he so happy about the support item#idk it’s v generic shonen#why did i even expect more#my fault honestly#bnha leaks#bnha spoilers#bnha 430
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Fuck it, Emilia Perez is going to win Best Comedy/Musical, isn't it? Jeeezzzz.
I think Conclave is going to win for Drama and while that wasn't my prediction I really enjoyed that movie so I'm not complaining on that front.
#I haven't even seen The Brutalist yet so I predicted it on buzz alone (I[m seeing it next week when it comes to my city) but I definitely#would not be upset about Conclave doing well#lior liveblogs awards season#Emilia Perez....ugh#I know why the Europeans like it but it definitely did not go over as well in the Americas#and I say Americas and not America/USA bc it is.....well...obviously a French person's weirdly romanticized yet also condescending view of#Mexico. I'm not Mexican or of Mexican descent so I'm not going to speak for anyone from that backgroudn who may like that movie#but it is definitely the kind of thing that Europeans who assume they know more about this hemisphere than they do would like and also a lo#of weird fucking shit with the trans character#(I am not going to go SO far as to say actively transphobic but definitely fumbled) that gives me a headache#so hereeee we are#but honestly my main issue with the movie is the music sucked#and most of the voices were mid#Garcon and Saldana are such great actresses that they were engaging but I can't do with musicals with mid vocals#and especially mid songs#I can sit through mid musical plots if the songs are good and while the El Mal scene is great in that it is a really entertaining scene#bc of Zoe Saldana's dancing and performance in general I'm just not impressed with the movie's music#or what it thinks is its message#ugh all this wanting for the US awards circuit to get more international and actually the Europeans voting for this thing (which is who is#voting for it based on international critics circles) at the Globes are actually kinda annoying me for once
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lol i pregamed a tiny bit for agatha but now after finishing im just taking shots for coping reasons
#i am…… not all that pleased with the ending#/not trying to sound like a complainy bitch#SPOILER WARNING ->#i expected agatha to die tbh#but honestly what i Did not expect was for the ending to feel unfinished#and for me to come out of it feeling so deeply unsatisfied#and it’s not that any of the scenes were bad really!! i loved them#i just feel like a lot of them…. needed some further context or elaboration that we got absolutely none of#like i have So Many questions still that weren’t at all answered by the finale#and also questions that came up BECAUSE of the finale that didn’t get answered lol#idk i’m just.#i’m so proud of kathryn hahn and all of the cast and crew#and i don’t want to seem ungrateful bc i can FEEL that they put their heart and soul into this show#but the writing and contextualization just REALLY really fell flat for me in the last two episodes#also some decisions that felt…weird and last minute#like the reveal of agatha being the one to take jen’s powers?? still makes zero sense to me#idk i just wish we had more time with them i think#also i’m not upset that agatha died again i kinda expected it but the manner in which she died felt abrupt and inauethentic to. e#it just didn’t feel fleshed out at all idkkkkk#ugghhhhhgg#can’t believe i got fucking got by yet another sapphic show#i’m just asking for one good sapphic show with a satisfying ending PLEASE#(read: NOT necessarily a happy ending im not asking for all that i just need it to MAKE FUCKING SENSE!!!!)#anyway. i have more thoughts that ill get into soon im a bit tipsy and prob and not expressing myself right but TLDR love them all but…. 😬#agatha all along#agathario#agatha harkness#billy maximoff#kathryn hahn#joe locke
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#lol i love seeing just straight up bullying on tiktok(/s)#someone(im guessing) went into a discord server for proshipping#and then posted their face reveals on tiktok!?!??!?!#basically saying: look how ugly and weird they look#like what the fuck#just bcs you dont agree with someones opinion ON SHIPPING#doesnt mean you should blast them on socmed?#they posted those pics in a trusted space :(#why are people so cruel and vindictive nowadays#people who make it their whole personalities to shit on pros OR antis are so embarrassing#just keep to yourself and keep your personal moral highground you know?#like they go low we go higher etc#cause on tiktok people will post very bait proshipper tiktoks#to the point where i honestly think they're 100% antis who just wanna sow discourse and disgust#like when i see those people im like just ignore them???#just dont engage man. you end up encouraging people to do worse and worse just to cause drama#but yeah antis in return will make all their posts 'correcting' these obv bait posts#like both of you get a life and just do things that make you happy. not things that obv upset you#idk it kinda sickens me how much time people devote to activities that clearly doesn't make them happy#even if youre pleased about dunking on people you morally disagree w +#wouldnt you feel happier engaging with content that yknow. fills you with genuine enjoyment?#not enjoyment fueled by disgust or morally superiority#idk some people feel like children so i shouldnt care too deeply. but the amnt of toxic behavior is so disturbing to me#the posting of faces got on my nerves badly. no matter if you disagree with someone#you shouldnt just straight up expose their face on your big acct BECAUSE OF DIFFERENCES IN SHIPPING OPINION#and the fact that the point is to imply they're all ugly. so fucking childish and disgusting#i reported but idk if that'd do anything. i wish i could have an honest dialog w people like that tbh#catie.rambling.txt
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