#it felt like just a paycheck

[abirdie]

Gael García Bernal in Letters to Juliet (2010, dir. Gary Winick)

(these gifs also feature Amanda Seyfried)

Gifs are all 540px wide so you can click to see larger.

[other gael filmography gifsets]

[transgenderboobs]

i feel more tired after a full day on the line than i do after a full day of work but i feel INFINITELY more satisfied <3

[bunnihearted]

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[banghwa]

genuine question how do u get over ur fear of existing

[scattered-winter]

these fuckers need to EMAIL ME BACK before I END UP ON THE NEWS ‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️

[poptartmochi]

disillusionment w my job vs heavy fear that messing up my paycheck will blow the household financials up

[nomairuins]

anyways sry its not srs eventually ill get it together . and be a person again. one day

[glitterandmoondustofficial]

Oh I’m actually severely depressed oops.

[n7punk]

I absolutely love your writing and have found so much joy and happiness in what you’ve shared over the years.

I’m also a big proponent of the whole “pay artists” sentiment. Do you have a kofi or patreon (or something) through which you accept the cash money? If you’re not into that idea, do you have a charity or cause you think is worth supporting?

Thank you, I really appreciate this! I'm not personally comfortable (or, to be honest, able) to accept money for my writing, but as someone who has not had a spare cent to give towards the stuff that has been going on, I would love to direct people's attention towards anything that can help in Gaza right now. If you know of something reputable you want to support, go for that. I know there was a post about buying e-sims so people can contact the outside world and the Palestinian Brown University student who was shot has a gofundme that still needs help for his recovery (you can read his words that made me cry here).

[peaches-and-honey-and-the-moon]

Im working at an old food place I worked at three years ago, got let go from the stupid corporate job, and it feels like I can finally breath again. Like it feels like my coworkers actually respect me as a human being. And the venders I would see when I worked at the merch job have all told me they're glad I don't work at that company anymore when they see me at my food job lol. Our bread lady literally was like "thank fucking God you got out of there" which I found hilarious.

[theres-whump-in-that-nebula]

I typed in “highest protein foods ever” and — aside from whey protein and other things like fresh haddock and pollock which are extremely expensive — it turns out tuna has the highest protein content per calorie, followed somewhat closely by chicken breast. It looks like oats and brown rice have a decent amount of protein as well so I’ll have to get some in bulk.

So I went to Aldi (I’m from America and we have Aldi Sud, which is different than Aldi Nord; Aldi Nord is on the boycott list) and purchased six cans of albacore tuna, one can of chicken breast, two cans of French-style green beans, two cans of potatoes, and one can of carrots. I also purchased two dozen eggs (in cardboard; not styrofoam, of course) and a giant container of vinegar for use as a multipurpose cleaner and laundry detergent which will probably last me at least half a year.

$18.85 hell yeah AND I didn’t break the eggs on the way home despite getting irritated with the stupid “press to cross” button because it DOESN’T FUCKING WORK and basically rushing in front of a car because I wasn’t about to wait for it to turn when it didn’t turn last time after two full cycles. I knew I could make it if I swerved left a little and I did. I didn’t get hit. I’m not dead. This is not my ghost speaking. It didn’t faze me at all; I know the driver is probably shaken though. Sorry, man.

Once I get the brown rice I can make tuna and vegetable stir fry with an egg scrambled in. I’m sure my neighbors will appreciate the smell SJDBJDJDNDNDJDJNDNSNSN that’s what they get for making the heat vents smell like weed. Tuna attack. Suck it. I’ll need to ride my bike for 45 minutes straight over “gentle hills” (gentle my ASS) soon so I’ll cook that meal the night prior and have it for breakfast. I have a small can of orange soda I saved from the staff break room when we had treats, which I will take with me in case I need sugar on the road.

Other things I’m noticing from riding a bike around all the time:

The webbing between my thumbs and forefingers feels raw from rubbing on the handlebars all the time

Riding into a strong gust of wind IS THE LITERAL DEVIL

”Push to cross” buttons don’t work half the time. They do the BEEP beep but they don’t change the picture to the little white walking man. Yay for pedestrian safety! /s

I am not as in shape as I thought

Ride as hard as you can on dips then stop pedaling when going back up to conserve energy and not kill yourself

[fernspirals]

am I being delusional and over dramatic

[fitgothgirl]

Just applied to a burger place for a second job. 🙃 I just can't stay consistent with doordashing, and even when I do go out, the money I make is entirely dependent on how many orders I get. If I get an actual job, it's a much stronger commitment device and the pay is guaranteed by the hours I work. And at this particular place, the starting pay is awesome compared to other "similar" restaurants. I use quotes because it's fast food but it's actually good quality and beloved locally. Also this place is like 2 miles from my house; google says I could bike there in 11 minutes if I wanted... I found a few other places to apply to as well but I'll wait a bit to see if I hear back about this one first since the starting pay is so good.

Food service/retail can be taxing, especially the customer service part, but one thing I do oddly miss is how active it gets you. I think it would be good for me. And not just physically, but in a busy environment like that I can get into the flow state of mind, which is another thing I miss (especially when I was a barista). And this being a second job would reduce some of the pressure/stress that would normally be there too, knowing that it's only temporary until I get my debt taken care of, and knowing if I really don't like it I can quit any time and not even put it on my resume. Also I'm looking to be very part-time, like 15 hours a week or so.

I did this almost the same time last year though, when I applied to a pizza place I used to work at. I even got my food handler's card since I knew I would need that and wanted to be prepared/look like a good candidate. But I never heard back about that one and I didn't pursue it further or apply to any other jobs. Even though I need the money and there are a couple things I do miss about those kinds of jobs, there's still an aversion to getting a second job for obvious reasons lol. But I know I need to get a handle on my debt and I know I have the availability to do this, and it's not something I'm doing for fun. I'm trying to be responsible and disciplined and get my financial shit together, and that will undoubtedly require some sacrifice. But trying to stay focused on the drive to clear my debt, and those things I mentioned that I actually enjoy.

[solvicrafts]

BTW if you guys wanna see who the coffin actually belongs to...

I finally finished my remake plushie of one of my drow OCs, Kalanven!

He is a follower of Vhaeraun, Chaotic Neutral, and was likely going to be turned into a vampire in the last campaign I played with him. DM left it up to me whether or not to allow it (I technically have time to reverse it per a special item in our campaign, but it has to be used FAST and comes with some other conditions), and we haven't picked up the campaign since so I've been mulling it over. I think I'm gonna go for it, though, since IDK what Vhaeraun's stance on vampires is and I feel like it'd be a fun opportunity.

Also, I found one of my original Loki dolls and thought I'd put them side-by-side for a size comparison:

[mellowdarkness]

Ah man I feel like getting Pikmin on the Switch!

Oh! It's 50 euros

[spade-club]

Reminding myself that I did all of my goals I had for this year. Even if some of them turned out to be mistakes, I've come a long way in the past half a year especially, and even if I am currently struggling with the weight of it all right now, these achievements are nothing to ignore or take value away from.