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the worst kind of pitcher
#my art#oofuri#ookiku furikabutte#haruna motoki#tried to capture haruna as he appeared to abe on their old team#the coolest thing about their relationship is that theyre both right and both wrong imo#plus the fact that our initial perspective of haruna is coming from a pretty stubborn and biased source#i just think its neat#it feels v true to life
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tbh i do think the way you interact w fanbase can be and often is political. i do think you should unpack why you think certain things. i do think you should confront why you either ignore or objectify or treat poc like abusers. i do think you should look into why you can't bother to care about women characters. like i do think that matters lmao lol lmao. it's not raining on anyone's parade to rightfully point that out.
#idk mannnn it feels v shallow and disengaged to act like the opposite is true#like ofc fanbase isn't real there's a level of disconnect as there is w every fictional/fantasy based thing#but when it comes to Oppression that just like Does affect your daily life. societal norms and biases aren't some nebulous undefined concept#it's the reality that we are living in.#and again. i get that fanon helps ppl destress and unpack and i understand that is deeply important and even necessary. ppl deserve to rest.#ppl deserve to enjoy things.#but for the love of GOD can we not use bad faith arguments and deflections to try to justify not caring about minorities!!! 😭 get real!!!!!#huri.txt#discourse
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"As for the government of the kingdom, [Edward V] had complete confidence in the peers of realm and the queen."
"According to the Crowland continuator, [Elizabeth Woodville] seems to have taken the king's place in listening to his council immediately after Edward IV's death. It does appear that she expected to have some role in her son's kingship, and the Crowland continuator’s report of the letters sent to her by [Richard of Gloucester] indicates that she had good reason to expect to be able to work with him and the other councillors: 'the duke of Gloucester wrote the most pleasant letters to console the queen; he promised to come and offer submission, fealty and all that was due from him to his lord and king, Edward V, the first-born son of his brother the dead king and the queen'."
"[However], in what was Gloucester's first coup, Edward V was separated from his household and Woodville advisors. When the young king questioned the move, Buckingham was reported to have told the boy 'It is not in the business of women but men to govern kingdoms'. The blunt remark referred to the authority of Elizabeth Woodville as queen and the power she must have anticipated within the new political climate left by Edward IV's sudden death [...] While the veracity of this scene is questionable*, the words attributed to the duke no doubt seemed plausible to Dominic Mancini who believed they exemplified the popular sentiment held by men [...]."
-Dominic Mancini, The Usurpation of Richard the Third / J.L. Laynesmith, The Last Medieval Queens: English Queenship 1445-1503 / Alexander R. Brondarbit, Power Brokers and the Yorkist State, 1461-1485
*One of Mancini's key sources seems to have been Edward V's own doctor, John Argentine, who attended to him in the Tower. It's very likely that he was the one who recounted this scene to Mancini, which suggests that it should probably be considered more credible than not.
#historicwomendaily#elizabeth woodville#wars of the roses#15th century#english history#my post#Croyland wrote that 'The counsellors of the king - now deceased - were present with the queen' so yes#He clearly seemed to view Elizabeth as taking on Edward's role after his death#Which is striking since her son - the new King - hadn't even arrived in London yet let alone be crowned#It's also interesting that Richard wrote letters to *her* rather than the rest of the council and that she was the final deciding authority#when it came to her son (she was the one who wrote to him for his military escort) - it's a clear indication of who was seen as important#This is also reflected in 16th century chronicles like the claim that the Archbishop of York gave Elizabeth the Great Seal#We don't know if this is true - the Archbishop was definitely opposed to Richard but More may have embellished or invented the story#But either way it reflects the perception that Elizabeth would have a major role in the realm's governance during her son's minority#Which makes sense as Edward V would have been used to his mother governing for him as part of his council his whole life#It's also interesting to compare the impression we get of Elizabeth's role with that of former kings' mothers in late medieval England#Because that can help us understand her activities (and perception of them) within proper context rather than purely in isolation#From what I understand kings' mothers could be very influential (eg: Joan of Kent) but were almost never visibly/directly associated#with the governance of the realm. It's striking that the most extreme and arguably the only exception - Isabella of France - assumed#her unofficial regent-like role only after literally deposing the former King aka her husband in the most atypical situation imaginable#So it's striking that Elizabeth *was* visibly and directly associated with it despite her situation being entirely standard; despite the#lack of precedents; and despite the physical absence of her son. Especially since she was effectively the king's mother for only 20 days#I do think it's possible to argue that it says something about her power as queen#(Edward *did* give her unusual positions of authority either way) and may also suggest a more direct personality on her part#It may also explain why historians were/are so readily prepared to believe that she wanted to 'usurp the sovereignty' to quote George Buck#Ofc this is my interpretation based on my (limited) knowledge - feel free to correct me
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#i dont feel like i fully belong here anymore. not after what happened#and i wanna set things right but i cant talk to one and im too scared to talk to another#like i made and learned from my mistakes. i HAVE. and it might be v#and it might be because i lost a fear friend and that feels dumb and ingenuine but its true#im just. im sorry. im so sorry#even if we never talk again and i see you interacting with my other friends knowing that i cant. im glad you were in my life for that-#-short time#im so sorry
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i think growing up is just life repeatedly sucker punching you and saying bitch you thought things were gonna better lmao no you're so naive and stupid for having hope in 20 years the world will be flaming bag of garbage and no matter how hard you work you'll get eliminated at some point
#and then you just have to get up and keep living anyway because what else is there to do?#but man my heart keeps feeling heavier with every blow#2024 has literally been the worst year ever god personally too#like everytime i think it can't possibly get worse than this it does#i remember literally 9th jan i had such a horrible breakdown in an auto because the first friend i ever made#after school was leaving my work and therefore my life#9 days into the year. seriously. and i was so happy on 8th because it was my birthday#i don't know im trying hard to think okay this doesn't even affect me it's fine im privileged enough that even my own countrys politics#barely affects me#but just. india is already so behind in everything. if developed nations are doing shit like this then well#it will never get better right like who do we even strive to be#i want to get more into indian politics but my god. it's so horrifying and depressing all the time#like i remember resolving to follow politics closely few years ago and the first news#i read was about some minister talking about how girls skirts lengths IN SCHOOL is the reason boys do sa and boys will be boys etc etc#i know i could just follow business news stuff like that god knows it'll help in my field but it just. doesn't resonate with me doesn't#make me feel anything at all. like i so desperately want to care about ooh stock markets and how to grow your money etc etc#but when i think about being rich enough to invest idle money all i can think is sitting in my own home peacefully#drinking a glass of cold coffee and just being able to breathe freely because me and my sister used to joke in childhood#when dad went thru a coffee v bad for health phase and he wouldn't let us drink it so we would drink it very sneakily#at night when he was asleep or went out for an hour and make absolutely no noise while mixing the sugar. we said that we know#we'll* know we have achieved true freedom and happiness in life when we can peacefully drink cold coffee in the hall and not secretly#in the dead of night in our room#i don't even know what im talking about and my period is late again and nothing is working and my lazer focus#that i had built in the past few weeks is gone because suddenly im like what is the point????#i just don't understand how the fuck humans can fight over stupid fucking things like who is kissing who and who is doing what with their#body instead of focusing on collective issues like our planet is dying so fucking fast and every summer is getting impossibler to survive#i hate that the united states control the UN fuck this world fr man i hate being born in such horrible helpless times#like call me a kid or dumb or whatever but i cannot understand how MILLIONS of people do not#have sympathy for ppl around them and who don't care about the planet at all like how????? how did you grow up????#not trying to boast but this is so natural to me!!! didn't you make save water save earth posters in school!!! didn't anyone
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what is going on w my brain
#huge tag rant coming but dw about it#basically. if anyone here has known me on the internet for long enough yous will have gathered that i badly struggle w motivation and#fulfilling goals that i set for myself even if it's for smth i enjoy eg languages#it happens so often but especially over summer where my brain just goes Nope#“i have all this free time to do the thing I've been planning for weeks and i've been so excited about planning but now we have the time i#will be numb and sad and scroll“#i also have huge problems focusing unless every factor is perfectly balanced and even then it's still 50/50#i do have a bad attention span from being chronically online but even if you put me in a blank room w my task i'd be distracted by thoughts#external deadlines are some of the only things that can kick me into gear and i've been fine at uni so far#but i'm scared i'll have another a levels situation where my mental health was so awful i missed every essay deadline for french for 2 years#sometimes by up to a month#the only reason i got away w it is because i had a breakdown in front of my teacher and he was like “yeah take care of yourself the essays#are not that deep just get them in first thing after half term ig“#like that was v kind of him but if i ever have a situation that bad again i will genuinely fail uni cus you can't get away w that#where was i going w this (<- is aware of the irony)#right yeah this week i've experienced the epic highs and lows#highs of really enjoying my downtime and putting active effort into my hobbies instead of my downtime being “scrolling but i don't hate it”#but lows of realising how much time i 'wasted' in my teen years feeling sad and scrolling when i could have been developing skills and#having fun#and yeah i'm having a high rn and genuinely enjoying life but it's making me realise that my default state of being is just 😐#like even when i'm at uni where my mental health is so much better than at home when it's just me home alone or in my room i'm just 😐#not really having fun just existing v passively mindlessly scrolling waiting for the day to be over so i can see my friends in the morning#like not every day has to be amazing but surely there's more to life than just 😐 in 99% of your downtime#like i've struggled for years on how to answer “what do you do in your free time” cus i had to search for answers#i read and go on walks. which is true. but they were always things i did as phone breaks during weekends and not something i actively did#because i liked them#and because of past mental health issues reading and sports based hobbies have become tainted for me#i'm working on it but yeah#huge tldr. i'm finally starting to accept that i probably have a combo of undiagnosed mental illness and neurodivergence#because if it's taken me this long to realise how much it truly impacts my enjoyment of life then surely that's smth
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BEAST's time line not adding up is one of the major factors to why in my head currently beast sskk are in their twenties and adopted 5 cats in a quiet little cottage on the outskirts of Yokohama
Yeah this is the only valid take tbh
#Beast sskk mean so much to me. You don't get it guys. I'm literally always thinking about them and their happily married couple life#Beast sskk is like sugar in coffee. Also like the best thing ever#sskk#shin soukoku#bsd#bungou stray dogs#bsd beast#people asks me stuff#Beast sskk are married and living together!! No you don't get it I know them personally#Tbh. I should really post that one post on how post Beast canon sskk works out for me#The five cats thing is so cute tho#Nnnghhh please talk to me more about Beast sskk. Look to me I'm starving#Back to the matter at hand tho like... Beast Akutagawa is v v immature but so is canon Akutagawa.#That's why I can perfectly see Beast Akutagawa being as old or even older.#On the other hand Beast Atsushi feels so much more mature compared to canon Atsushi in a way I struggle to believe he's any younger than 20#I'd say the Beast dilemma keeps me awake at night but that's not true I sleep soundly at night and dream of Beast sskk kissing#Sending kisses to you Anon (ㅅ´ ˘ )♡
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another morning another free bus journey..
#feeling okay this morning.. im usually better in the mornings its just when the meds wear off that i start to lag a bit#and ruminate ahh. no point ruminating today tho cuz im not gonna be able to have the conversation i want until tmr at the earliest#was nice to call my friend yesterday tho i did complain a little but not abt anything that bad but they were still v sympathetic#which was rly nice of them 🥹#ive been having some difficult dreams these last couple days abt my mum for some reason. well i kind of know the reason why#like we're very similar ppl even if i cant talk to her abt everything in my life bc she would find it too upsetting#so i think my mind includes her in dreams bc shes like. the only person i feel true emotional solidarity with#like she experiences emotional dysregulation + rsd in the same way i do which has sucked for us both but just. we're not alone innit#anyway its ok just dreams its not real anyway#and climbing tonight YEAAAHHHH i just gotta make it thru today#itll all be okay one way or another. aight i need to clock in so i can use the work bathroom i gotta pee rl bad#.diaries#FUCKKKKK MY PERIOD JUST STARTED.....its late why does it have to come TODAY#please dont let the cramps be too bad so i can still climb later 😭😭😭😭😭🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏
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WikiHow: how to explode by wishing really really hard
#all I see is people talking about sex and sex positivity#but when *I* desire intimacy I’m a ‘freak’ who should be happy to die alone#amazing how it’s a metronome of ‘we all need sex’ to ‘erm actually you should be happy having no one before you’re worth being loved🤓’#everyone deserves love and sex unless you’re autistic and socially awkward af then you should just Perish like an Amoeba#I still haven’t had a first date#first kiss#first hand hold#and I’m 24 💀#i miss the apathy#which is ironic#but still true#I miss not caring about anything#even as I felt myself rot and crumble inside#now I feel it all and all I have is weed and games to distract me from myself#i want post nut cuddles in the dead of night#tight hugs and emotional reassurance and someone who will hold me and tell me what negatives I feel are bullshit#someone to show me that the reality in my head doesn’t align with every arduous second of my life#had my first dream in years on Wednesday#i got fired but didn’t care bc I got to fuck someone#my exceptionally rare dreams always involve me finally ridding myself of my v card#finally being able to separate myself from all the insults of Matt and Holly and summar and Jamie and annabel and kye and liz and libby and#and all the rest#i was finally someone different#no traits anchoring me in my past#pulling me under like the water tower to the Xenomorph Queen#i was Free from myself#but like all dreams it ended with me back where I was#i just want to die.#abandon hope all ye who enter#delete later
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It’s actually so fascinating to me how similar the play styles of jingliu and blade are
#AND THERES A LIL BIT OF YANQING IN THERE TOO W THE ICE TYPE AND TJE CRIT RATE INCREASE AS PART OF THE KIT#idk maybe this is true in genshin too but i v much expected playstyles and character lore to be��…#not as connected as they are?#like it is VERY clear that they’re drawing direct parallels between blade and jl bc of their history and marastruck states#the hp/life draining for more power thing is obvious#but there’s also that implication that she tortures/trains him for some time after his rebirth#and ofc they spent time together in the quintet#the synergy of her hp drain contributing to his counterattack stacks…….. like. whoa#idk. I feel like they’re the two most similar chars in the game rn and it’s obviously intentional and I didn’t expect for the gameplay#of individual chars to be so influenced by the lore I just figured it was a ‘oh we’ll grab these cool things and make smthn out of it’ thing#and maybe this is true in genshin too so I’m the only one who’s surprised but. yeah#pattering on the roof
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SWEARING LIKE A SAILOR. @dracharenae said: what the fuck happened?
IT WAS NOT HER HABIT to shirk such obligations, certainly not to arrive late to a meeting with such an INFLUENTIAL PATRON in search of the forces of her grandfather's fleet. in light of the circumstances, however, politesse was a necessary sacrifice. Esmeralda offered an APOLOGETIC SMILE to the Dornish envoy, frustrations clearly festered in the hours in Sevilla's absence, and wiped the drying BLOOD from her forehead. oh, how she was craving nothing more than a cool swim instead of this stilted diplomacy, a change of clothes, a comb in her hair ... ah, but the wills of the flesh fall second to those of the FATHER.
❛❛ my apologies, Miss Sand, for the delay. and for my unfortunate appearance. ❜❜
Esmeralda laid aside her sword and sheath –– THAT MUCH she had made sure to clean, far too precious and protective to risk. she would have preferred to look less the common sellsword and more the former lady, if she'd had the CHOICE in the matter. Thank the Lord of Light that you are alive at all to complain.
❛❛ some old friends honored me with an ... unexpected visit this afternoon. ❜❜
#dracharenae#hello !!! <333 i feel like we've been mutuals for ages im excited to write with u kdflgdg#lmk if this is all good :'')#i figure they'd keep her true identity a secret until esme Needs to know#meme response. ( ࿐ྂ ) loose,catch the wind.#v: asoiaf. ( ࿐ྂ ) life is warmth,and warmth is fire,and fire is god's and god's alone.
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yk i think like. im trying desperately not to depress people around me w how close to doomerism i can veer but like. at a certain point its like. the effort and exhaustion that goes into maintaining just being alive in this world is not worth what comes from being alive and like. girlies we may have reached it. el oh el.
#like obvs its different for everyone like. what i really mean is that i have reached it or like. tht was always inevitably the case#for my life. which ik feels really depressing to say nd im sorry tht it makes ppl sad but idk like. its just true at a certain point#absolutely not from a lack of trying from the good things within my life to be clear not at all like. ik have sm great parts to my life#tht like. just mean so so much to me and im so so lucky to have but as upsetting as it is to say and think abt#at a certain point having to choose between being trapped in a situation were you can never authentically exist or like#have any control over your life and exist on your own terms even in v small ways while having to constantly be around people whove#caused you so much pain and trauma and hurt and being is a situation were like. at best your constantly working to afford living and you#are constantly exhausted by this and have no time for being yourself anyway and at worst you just cant afford anything and you die#and that could happen to you at any point idk like. these are my two options and i cant change anything about that fact#no matter how much i want to and that feeling is just. so so crushing and inescapable and just idk i dont know how to deal with it#like. idk iv done everything to try to but its only ever a temporary distraction#bc the problem isnt fucking like. mental or emotional its the facts of my reality and that cant be changed#so ofc im going to be constantly fucking miserable things just. are misearble#and idk. im sorry tht thts something other ppl have to deal with when it comes to like. knowing me bc genuinly its like.#they dont deserve that its sm pain for somoene to deal with and if that someone isnt. somone whos come to term with what#my fate invetiably is like have ik its too much nd im sorry for like. putting that on ppl i just. idk im sorry#idk what up with me suddnely. i mean i do but like. idk why i cant just hold it together like. this has always been the case idk why#im letting it upset me sm suddenly . ig bc i let myself have hope at some point. like an idiot.#idk im sorry. and its nearly 1am so i think im just going to go to sleep.im so sorry for just. all of this.#lucy if your reading tihs im so sorry for not sending and answering asks but i want to say that i love you so so so much. and im sorry#flappy rambles#vent#ask to tag
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#shup ut nicki#this has nothing to do with anything anyone is talking about so feel v free to ignore me dkdkdksk#but i just saw the emma chamberlain podcast where she talks about people constantly filming at concerts#and how there's and obsession with posting your experiences online#which is true! the sanpchat/instastories/tiktokification of documenting experience is...yeah#but i think concerts are different because concerts for a lot of people are a once in a lifetime experience#very few people have the income to see multiple shows in a year - some people will only ever see one concert ever in their life#after intentionally saving up for it. esp for big artists#why shouldn't they be able to record their experience? bc i gotta tell you if i ever get to see beyonce in person#i would start taking pictures the week before of the empty venue lol#the idea that someone shouldn't get to go back and relive or share a very rare experience for them has just always rubbed me the wrong way#(maybe bc i'm poor and the most expensive concert I've ever been to was the cheetah girls sksksk)#and like obviously its different if you're going to 50 shows of the same artist and taking pictures to brag.#but i think its fair to say 90% of people aren't doing that. hell 90% can't do that.#also i literally live vicariously through other peoples footage of their concent experience#so yeah. off the soapbox now.
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anonymous : if you couldn’t be with mike, how hard do you think that would be to move past? do you, realistically, think that you’d be able to find someone else to be with? [ send my muse personal questions on anonymous! // accepting ! ]
the question cuts through him like a searing hot knife through butter, unyielding and merciless, slicing through the pieces of his heart that have long since cracked and lay broken in in jagged shards within his chest. loving mike is the easiest thing in the world, the most natural thing for will to do, and yet it’s also his downfall. the one thing will doesn’t think he’ll ever be able to completely recover from, and he’s already accepted through an abundance of aching heartbreak that such a love could never be reciprocated.
“i- i already don’t think i ever, um- stand a chance of actually being with him, but...” words to serve as a painful disclaimer of sorts, spoken to clear the air and set things straight. his voice is shaky and quiet, the urge to withdraw on himself as strong as ever. “i mean- i almost don’t even know what it’s like to... not be in love with him... how- how do you move on from that...? it just- ah... i dunno... it doesn’t seem- possible, i guess... he- it’s always been him. it’s hard to imagine it ever not being him. nobody gets me like he does, nobody- understands.”
he pauses to take in a deep breath, to gather the rest of his thoughts. a million different things bounce around inside his head, years worth of feelings and inner-conflict bubbling up to the forefront all at once. it’s dizzying, and always hard to make sense of. “people like me, we- we don’t... have a lot of options, y’know...? we can’t just be ourselves and easily find someone to be with. because- revealing that part of ourselves - to anyone - it- it always has risks. it can even be dangerous, and- trusting someone else that much, to tell them who you really are, a-and hope for the best in having a shot with them, i- i don’t know... i don’t know if i’ll ever find someone like that... who- who knows me inside and out, who i can feel comfortable with sharing everything that’s happened to me, and, like- bare my soul to and all that... i- i don’t think there’s ever gonna be anyone for me...”
#anonymous#⇨ 𝐖𝐈𝐋𝐋 𝐁𝐘𝐄𝐑𝐒 // answered !#[ boy is WHIPPED smh#no but fr- even with the upside down shit will can't imagine meeting someone and developing feelings for them bc 1.#he's madly in love with mike and that's not just smth he can turn off and 2.#how would he ever be able to explain all this shit to another person?? he has nightmares and bad days and all kinds of ptsd thath he'd never#be able to reveal the true cause of to a new person in his life even if he did have a real interest in them#it’s ✨complicated✨ and he feels v hopeless for a whole lotta reasons oof#he's also fifteen and dramatic but y'know- dude's been through some crazy shit and he's got a ton of issues#but anyways yeah now i'm hurting so kajfgadkg ]
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heartslabyul would be named my favorite dorm if i didn’t despise riddle.
#he’s just ......#if you don’t like him either you understand#( though i relate to riddle as a character i don’t like him for some reason )#he can be a lil’ bit silly a times ( and i mean LITTLE ) but most of the time he’s still just as unlikeable and an asshole as when we-#-first met him#i feel like a lot of the “development” is just at the end of their ob’s n’ never actually happens#idk .. the only dorm leaders i can confidently say i like as characters is leona vil n’ kalim#leona is like .. barely passing as one but i think that he’s shown to be v emotionally intelligent and i like that#vil is an absolutely wonderful character. he’s not my fav but i honestly think he’s the best character ( lilia being second )#and kalim is v v sweet ( though he’s portrayed as dense ). i think he has so much potential and it’d be wonderful if something ever happened#for the others-#idia i can relate to as a game lover n’ extreme introvert / people avoider. but he’s such a fucking dick n’ he’s got this giant superiority-#-complex but he also has an inferiority complex ??? idk when i finished watching through book 6 i didn’t really feel bad for him at all.#ortho i did but idia was still a mega bitch at the end.#azul is an absolute loser ( negative ) n’ i still think book 3 is ( n’ always will be ) the weakest#he gets the “handsome glasses” pass n’ also because i am an ursula lover#jamil ( since he ob ) is a character i LIKE but he is also just a bitch#his char development is near non-existent#kalim “set him free” or whatever the hell but it feels like his life is still centered around him? ik he’s still his servant but i wish-#-that jamil was shown as being his own person now.#and he literally thinks he’s better than everyone ... good lord.#book 6 was almost unbearable when watching him n’ leona’s part#malleus is soooooo fucking annoying atp. he’s not handsome sexy dragon he’s annoying ass crybaby. sorry but after his ob reason it’s just-#-more true.#DON’T GET ME WRONG#I LOVE ALL OF THE CHARACTERS AND WHAT THEY’RE MEANT TO DO THEY DO V WELL#BUT GOD DO THEY PISS ME OFF SOMETIMES#they all have their good moments and they have their bad.#anyway this was just a rant. don’t expect this to be read#half of these thoughts don’t really make sense since i’m shoving them into the tags
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What kind of catharsis do you need? Homecoming You've been away for quite a while -- maybe it's time to call it a day. You've had to keep up the façade for so long you're starting to forget who you really are. This calls for a nice cup of tea and an early evening in. Pack it up, settle down. Come home to yourself.
Tagged by: N/A, taken from @astarab1aze who likes to keep me out of the fun Tagging: N/A
#dash games#// I'M JOKING.#// This result is so-so. He's not pretending to be something he isn't.#// He /is/ avoiding the past though; running away I guess. That's why he's 'V'; because the boy his mom wanted him to be got lost somewhere#// Yes he's true to himself but it's a self that branched off of the person he would have otherwise become had his mother survived.#// He feels like he can't be that boy anymore; that he doesn't deserve it.#// But ''going home'' is a nice thought. He'd like to. He just doesn't know how he'll take to it.#// I guess ideally he wishes he could go back to the way things were before he fucked up. Not just himself but /everything/.#// But would he even like it? Has he changed too much to try that life again? Would a do-over really give him anything?#// Fill the holes in his life?#// For better or worse he's V now; he's moving forward; and he's tired of the past tying him down.#// He just...also believes he doesn't deserve to move on from his ultimate sin either kmejgfgh#// It's why he's stagnated for so long and he doesn't know what to do. IF he should even do anything.#// The poor thing can have his body worshipped once in a while at least. As a treat. unu
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