#people asks me stuff

[kyouka-supremacy]

how do you think 122's events will affect Atsuhi's relationship with Dazai ? I've seen a lot of takes saying this will not affect it whatsoever nor will it even strain the relationship but.. at this point we can safely say that Akutagawa is someone who matters to Atsushi and seeing Dazai enacting abuse on said someone who matters is something that would at the very least strain Atsushi's perception of Dazai, esp given the abuse Atsushi himself went through

I'll be honest: I don't think Atsushi's perception of Dazai is going to change that much. But please, it's not for lack of sympathy for Akutagawa; I think Atsushi's reaction in the last chapter was one of true compassion for Akutagawa, and that at this point in the story Atsushi has developed to finally see Akutagawa as human, understand why he acts the way he does, and sympathize for his suffering. It's more a combination of:

Atsushi's affection for Dazai is deeply rooted and solid. You know better than I do how much Atsushi is grateful to Dazai for having saved him, and to what extent he looks up to him. Atsushi and Dazai are very close, and even though what Atsushi witnessed was very serious, I don't think it's going to effect him to the extent of changing how he sees Dazai for the worse.

Dazai has chosen to leave his past in the Port Mafia behind and change for good, and Atsushi respects that. I don't think Atsushi would uphold Dazai for the crimes he committed in the past, but rather respect him for how he tries to be a better man today.

I think Atsushi already took a good guess at what happened between Dazai and Akutagawa. In chapter 51, he says that his abuse made him good at reading people, and it's likely to be twice as true if it's a matter of people having gone through a kind of abuse for various aspects very similar to what he himself experienced. But it's not only that; peoples, Atsushi knows Dazai used to work for the Port Mafia. He's known at least from chapter 30 (“Everyone except you knows, Kunikida-Kun”)– that's forever ago. Atsushi is aware of the kind of crimes Dazai is stained with, and always has been; again, he just decided to judge Dazai for who he is today.

(I'm a little less convinced about this point, but still bringing it up for you to think over if you'd like.) It may be that Atsushi has grown a dose of detachment to abuse; NOT in the way that he's indifferent to Akutagawa's misery (he's definitely not! It's evident he feels bad for Akutagawa); detached to abuse in the way that, having grown accustomed back at the orphanage to seeing it being inflicted on him and others, he struggles to see it as a specific someone's fault, but rather something that simply happens, and is just as inescapable as the weather is. If that's the case, it may be that Atsushi was much more focused on Akutagawa's pain and quite overlooking who was inflicting him that pain.

Partially related to the point above, Atsushi is witnessing the events from Akutagawa's pov, and Akutagawa never blamed Dazai for what he put him through (maybe?? Idk Akutagawa and Dazai's relationship is complicated.)

Of course there's nuance to it; it's definitely been a jarring and unpleasant experience for Atsushi, and something he'll be thinking about again (perhaps even make him see Dazai as more flawed and human than how he does now, which all accounted for wouldn't be a bad thing at all). But here, I don't think it will make Atsushi any less happy to see Dazai when they finally reunite, to say.

[sskk-manifesto]

I cant watch the ep but ur reactions are making me so nervous...

Great news Anon, you're still in time to not watch it! Akutagawa not smiling? What are you talking about? Take my hand, we're going reread chapter 88 together!

[aroaceleovaldez]

i had a thought of "do people not know what AUs are anymore?" and then i remembered nobody explains fandom stuff to new people anymore so it is entirely plausible people genuinely don't know what AUs are and nobody has explained it to them, so for today's lucky 10,000:

"AU" stands for "Alternate Universe" or "Alternative Universe" (same difference) and is basically any thought scenario for a fandom that isn't canon and can't fit within the canon universe. If it takes place in the canon universe but something is notably different, that is typically what's known as a "Canon divergent AU," because it diverges from canon.

an AU can be absolutely anything. There's a couple of widespread pan-fandom au scenarios that often get thrown around, like coffee shop aus, genderbend aus, hanahaki aus (hanahaki is a whole thing in itself i'd recommend researching on your own), etc. One you might hear sometimes is "crossover AU" which is when you have characters from one fandom interacting with characters from another.

You can have as many aus as you want. They can be whatever you want and you can do whatever you want in them. It's a sandbox for you to play around in and explore how things would be different or how the characters would act in those circumstances or environments. Maybe they have different relationships with each other. Maybe they behave slightly differently. Or you can just say "Okay, [x] is true. How did they get here? How would things have to be different for this to occur?" which can also be fun.

If you are ever confused about why people ship something that seems completely out of the blue or doesn't make sense to you in the canon setting, there's a good chance they like it in an AU setting! Not everything everybody is interacting with is necessarily the canon! Not everybody wants things to exist in canon and just want to explore playing dolls in a different sandbox and that's okay. And their sandbox might look a lot different than yours, and that's also okay. You have the freedom to make your sandbox whatever you please. Do whatever you want forever. Get funky with it. AUs are fun.

Okay that's my schpeal. everybody go have fun and play nice now.

[opens-up-4-nobody]

From this

[dreamyblanket]

Heya, saw your blog and thought it was pretty nice! You’re doing a grand service to the Carrow fans out there!

If it’s not too much of a hassle, I had thought of an idea of Mystic Flour wanting to be approachable to the Reader by smiling, but she ends up unnerving them when she instead gives that creepy smile she makes in one of her sprites.

You smile to show people you love them right ? //^^//

[forgettable-au]

FORGETTABLE-AU (page 82-85)

THAT LAZYBONES!!

[BEGINNING] [PREVIOUS] [CONTINUE]

[a-rabbit-obsessed-queer]

Aspec men deserve much more respect and recognition in the aspec community than they receive. They often face a different form of aphobia specific to them ("men are naturally sexual they can't be ace" "all men are unromantic that's not unique") this rhetoric is spouted by many, even members of our own community and I hope for a day where that is no longer the case. As an ace and demiro woman (demigirl but that's beside the point) I want to encourage folks to take the time to give the aspec men in their lives support and to the aspec men reading, you are who you say you are no matter what people say and you deserve the world. I'm sorry for the ways in which toxic masculinity has harmed you. You are a valued member of the aspec community and the queer community as a whole. No ace or aro person is broken and neither are you. I'm sorry if anyone has ever told you otherwise.

[somnimagus]

My page for @sheikahzine; about Impaz's duty to her village, empty of people and full of memories.

[id in alt text]

[kyouka-supremacy]

IF EVERYONE HOLDS MU HAND AND STARTS PRETENDING!!! 55 MINITES HAS BEEN ANNOUNCED!!!

(Forgive me for replying so late; in my humble defense, I received this when I was sleeping, and by the time I woke up the underwhelming news about the 10th anniversary had already been disclosed.)

I see why you'd say that. The thing is, I used to think the same a lot: “Man, the bsd author probably isn't very fond of Atsushi or Akutagawa, if the only time they write a novel on Atsushi they need to be specifically asked to do so by the editor. That's probably why 55 Minutes is so slept on and didn't get any other adaptation (like literally every other novel has, be it stage or anime or spinoff manga), because the author just doesn't care about them.” But then, in an interview the author said this:

And it was so groundbreaking, at least for me. And yeah, sometimes it sucks! When it means that sskk don't get much extra content for themselves. But it's also kinda dope, kinda exhilarating, to think: sskk is so important, their relationship is so important, no other subsidiary medium is worthy of telling their story other than the very original manga. And it's a little insane.

[sskk-manifesto]

did akutagawa manifest rashomon from his shirt in that wan clip ⁉️

It's fair to assume he did, isn't it? That's the most reasonable explanation. However, if that was the case, the tendrils should be white instead of black...

I doubt he evoked it from his pants though, that seems counterintuitive pfftt. I suspect the animators simply didn't put that much thought into it / went for the default Rashomon animation style ^^

[shepscapades]

Thanks to artfight, I’ve finally finished a detailed, official dbhc cub reference! :D

(I’ve put his Artifight description below the cut, which has a more detailed explanation of his timeline, lore, and aesthetics! >:3)

-ˋˏ ༻ ❁  OVERVIEW ❁ ༺ ˎˊ-

Name: C.B.F.N.4000 (Cub) Pronouns: He/Him Species: Android Height: 5’9’’ Associated Visual Themes: vex, ghosts, explosions, mischief, scientist aesthetic, potions, potionmaking, sleepy/tired aesthetic, conspiracies

-ˋˏ ༻ ❁  ABOUT ❁ ༺ ˎˊ-

CBFN4000 is an au version of MCYT Hermitcraft’s Cubfan, set in my DBHC (or Detroit Become Hermitcraft) AU! This au is inspired by the 2018 game Detroit Become Human, but not because it really has anything to do with DBH—I simply yoinked the android mechanics and incorporated them into the world of Hermitcraft. It began as a S8 au, and has roughly followed the hermitcraft timeline up to the present! 

Cub was the last android made during Season 8. While many of the hermit androids were made at the beginning of season 8 and a few were made for season 9, Cub was finished and activated mid-late Season 8, around the time when Hermits started noticing the Big Moon. Cub’s model ended up being a sloppy experiment in deviation, as Doc suggested they try to transfer deviancy to an android upon activation to try and avoid traumatic situations that might cause an android to deviate violently or upsettingly, such as Etho’s, Tango’s, or Mumbo’s experiences. While this went relatively well initially, it clearly wasn’t very thoroughly thought out, as Xisuma (who is normally so adamant and detail-oriented when it comes to assuring the androids’ safety with experiments like this) wasn’t truly himself due to external manipulation and mostly left a relatively young-deviant Doc to carry out the project himself. 

Cub, though adjusting to sentience rather well at first, very quickly became wrapped up in the Big Moon happenings on the server, new personality and inexperience to emotions like fear and ignorance completely overwhelming his young system. He became obsessive over the implications and consequences of the Season 8 Moon Apocalypse, joining the Mooners and spreading his conspiracy theories religiously throughout the server as he descended into madness. The insanity was like a virus to his programming, pervasive and all-engulfing, and Cub’s final attempt to free himself from the Moon’s impact with the Earth—to launch himself on a llama into space via potion-powered TNT(insane btw)— left his hands and feet singed and cracked to ruin.

The experiment, considered a horrific failure by a deeply shameful—and more awake—S9 Xisuma, left Doc and Xisuma with the decision to reset him for the new season, and they ended up pairing him with a hermit like they had done with the other androids, to give him a chance to find deviancy on his own terms. So, at the start of season 9 and fresh after a reset, Cub was paired with Scar. Naturally, because Scar is… Scar, Cub deviated almost instantly after being given to him, and very quickly adopted the iconic lazy, stoic, amused attributes normally associated with Cubfan. Scar’s tendency towards mischief and general shenanigans grew instantly on Cub, and the two were an immediate inseparable pair. So much so that when Scar began rambling one day about his Season 5 Hermitcraft Shenanigans (where deals with the Vex may or may not have been involved), Cub immediately stated he was interested in being in on it. Whatever “it” means. It’s unclear if Cub also made a deal with the vex or became connected to them in some other way, but… well, he got Doc’s help to trick out his eyes, hair, and back to best fit the part. Scar is very jealous that he can't magically make himself have the same features to match.

Cub is closest with Scar (there's something there, I think), but he gets along just as well with any of the other hermits! He’s close with Jevin and many of the other redstoners like Etho and Doc, who are the other two androids I’ve put on artfight!

-ˋˏ ༻ ❁  EXTRAS ❁ ༺ ˎˊ-

Cub's eyes can light up in the dark, and he’s the only android who has edited his programming so that the default state of his LED is white, not blue. It still will go yellow and red if his processors are working particularly hard, but he’s replaced the blue setting on his LED with white to better match the Vex vibe. Cub has all of the vibes of a fae. If that’s anything <3

[lazylittledragon]

so uhhhhhhhh. not to be cryptic and bitchy on main but congratulations to everyone in my messages for like 5 months on being right i guess

[vaguely-concerned]

thinking about not only the specific people lucanis pulls in to represent the 'locks' in his psyche, but the storytelling that happens in the structure/order of them. the underlying ideas are presented something like:

the lucanis who went into the ossuary never came back out again; he died down there (the boy caterina raised is gone forever) -> you're putting yourself in danger doing this (by being close to me), you should leave because I can't bear it if you get hurt because of me -> it doesn't matter even if we do try this, it won't work anyway (again because of me) ('you know what he's like, you can open the door but he won't walk through it' :'( oofie doofie) -> what if the real secret is that there was never anything but the monster in here from the beginning. you should leave, there was never anything here worth saving in the first place. (implicitly: what if I deserved what happened, all along.)

it runs pretty cleanly from outward-oriented attachment anxiety ('caterina won't even want me back like this, she won't recognize me (the same way I no longer recognize myself)) and gradually deeper inwards until we reach self-image and self worth. or you know, the harrowing basic lack of it lol.

"careful -- they'll know we're not right," spite says in one of their first scenes... but clearly, some very deep part of lucanis has feared or suspected for much longer than that that there's something inherently not right at the core of him, way before any demon entered the picture. and the voice he gives those lines to is the person who should know him better than anyone in the world, who he has loved more than anyone in the world -- and who deliberately chose to hurt him so horrifically anyway. 'It's better if I'm just a monster and deserved what happened than it is to allow for the idea that the brother I love doesn't really exist and maybe never did'. it's better if he's fundamentally flawed in some way that needed fixing to help him survive, and that's why caterina chose to hurt him again and again -- out of love. (this one I think he might have a very sad wakeup call on one day if he ever ends up with the responsibility and care of a child of his own in some way and realizes just how alien the idea of ever intentionally hurting them for any reason is to him. oh buddy. also interesting that he keeps caterina as the outermost lock -- there IS a distance he keeps there that he hasn't with illario. he doesn't resent her 'anymore' he says, but he also keeps her carefully further away from his deepest self.)

as far as I could tell the only note in the mind prison that's fully hidden and needs to be uncovered is the sad painful helpless stupid little truth that even after all this, even knowing what happened... he still loves his brother. is there anything illario could ever do that would make lucanis completely stop loving him, do you think? sometimes the trouble with unconditional love is that it is, well. unconditional, even when some terms and conditions probably would have been in order haha.

that's the pattern you see there again and again; he would rather destroy and abandon and imprison himself at every turn than let go of love, even when it's just scraps, even when there's only ever enough of it to hurt him. it's only when rook shows up and as it were takes his hand and walks along with him that he can entertain the idea of changing the story of what walking out the door might mean in the end.

[cozymochi]

Sir Nyoka can I mayhaps touch u your tail?

(meanwhile)

[imclou]

can't believe fnaf brought me out of art hibernation man what a turn of events

[trueloveistreacherous]

MARELLA'S 12TH TUMBLR ANNIVERSARY CELEBRATION @rhaenyratargaryns and @elssbethtascioni requested: Ted Lasso or Leverage

People like that, corporations like that, they have all the money, they have all the power, and they use it to make people like you go away. Right now, you're suffering under an enormous weight. We provide leverage.