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hello to both extra history nation & 17776 nation and to all the other media and tumblr nations out there if you run into this, i know that it's looking like tough times are ahead but i want you all to keep creating art and doing what you love, even if it's the least you can or are able to do i will always be proud of you for trying; life's a constant battle but that's why we come together in spaces like fandoms: for community and support. some of our kinships only go as far as being through a screen, but that doesn't mean that they matter any less. get out there and fight the good fight as hard as y'all can, we deserve to have something beautiful that, no matter how many times people try to ruin it, we can make a comeback from.
i leave you all with fancontent from my respective fandoms, i inquire anyone who runs into this, if they are inclined to do so, to also share some of their beautiful creations:
the rate at which i make stuff might slow down, might not, but i hope y'all can manage to find at least a morsel of solace in people's attempts to uplift eachother rn
#please give eachother support in these times#please have a good day tomorrow#i am proud of you#do not turn quiet#its okay to not be okay#i have faith in all of you#extrahistory#extra history#eh#extra credits#extracredits#ec#17776#17776 football#20020#20020 football#17776 fans 𝓱𝓲𝓽 𝓶𝓮 𝓾𝓹...#20020 fans 𝓱𝓲𝓽 𝓶𝓮 𝓾𝓹...#extra history fans 𝓱𝓲𝓽 𝓶𝓮 𝓾𝓹...#extra credits fans 𝓱𝓲𝓽 𝓶𝓮 𝓾𝓹...#what football will look like in the future#live laugh love extra history#art#digital art#fan writing#artists on tumblr#i don't usually talk like this#but with so much at risk#it feels extremely important#do not keep yourself trapped in fear
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i've seen several variations on this meme with legolas & gimli but no one but me gets which way around it should be it should be like this:
#POV you just woke them up#thoughts#tolkien#my art#lotr#gigolas#extremely quick doodle but v v important characterisation i feel#ie gimli is the one w the fancy robe legolas is the guy w the night shirt & silly hat But equally importantly legolas is the one to get up#in the night w the candle stick to see what that weird thump was you know? or to take out the spider on the ceiling (size dependent)#<- legolas looks so tired bc it's his first time sleeping properly in 3 months + probably first time seeing his husband in that time also.#and he just got woken up.
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Yuuji's ''I'm going to die with him'' from the start of the series to ''Sukuna, Come back and live with me '' at the end is, honestly, very beautiful.
"Let's try again one more time Sukuna, but this time, without cursing anyone. Even if no one else accepts you, I'll live with you" do you understand what's going on here? This is Yuuji attempting to connect with Sukuna, to show a certain compassion that is entirely alien to Sukuna. To the way he delicately lifts Sukuna's remains, with such carefulness, as if holding the remains of a precious loved one, Yuuji tries to show Sukuna "love". The same "love" that has been teased to us this entire series, that who is it that will show it to Sukuna, teach him of it.
This is the same Yuuji, who, at the beginning of the series held absolute disdain towards Sukuna, and always looked at him with much accusatory contempt and mistrust. At that point, He truly did think of Sukuna as nothing more than a "curse". The same "curse" Sukuna calls himself one last time as the last embers of his soul fade in Yuuji's hands.
But this time, Yuuji has a troubled look in his eyes.
As if he disagreed with him.
This is the look of someone, who is looking at the Humanity Sukuna does not believe exists within himself.
Humanity that Sukuna denies himself.
That Sukuna is not a curse, but a human that has been cursed.
#ooc#sukuna#ryomen sukuna#itadori#yuji#yuji itadori#jjk#jjk manga#character analysis#appreciation post#jujutsu kaisen#manga#king of curses#itadori yuji#sorry i did NOT mean to write another huge post i only meant to write the first initial paragraph but then yknow what happens..#the post writes itself#and i truly do not have any control over it#man i have some pent up feelings on this subject because i'm currently drawing something related to it and its hitting the feels lowkey#this is me trying to focus on the food gege DID give us the rest i will fill up with my hc#anywhos did you guys know Sukuna and Yuuji's dynamics are extremely important to me?
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Detectives at the Disco (Elysium)
#disco elysium#kim kitsuragi#harry du bois#“Hail holy queen of the sea -- You're whirling in rags -- You're vast and you're sad.”#I have been taken back by the disco fever and I wanted to draw these guys now that I can...y'know...draw.#I owe a lot to DE honestly.#If it were not for yagrandmapeach's daily disco elysium comics this blog would have never existed.#The idea that I could do lighthearted daily doodles made art feel possible and approachable. That fun was most important!#I was so inspired by their fun style and goofs! I loved the pen on paper look and their stylizations!#I'm still really inspired by them to this day! Peach if you're out there (unlikely)...Thank you for all the art you have shared.#To those who are considering giving DE a try: please be aware of it's many content warnings.#It is dark but also so extremely full of hope and love!!!#it's a murder mystery where you think you're supposed to be finding the culprit but you end up finding....yourself.#Also it has Kim Kitsuragi. The best companion you will ever have in a video game.#And it lets you dress up a stinky old man in whatever clothes he finds lying around. It's great.
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One of my biggest pet peeves is the assumption that something has to be sad for it to be tragic.
I've always been a big believer of the 'Apollo has an awful love life'/'Apollo is plain unlucky with love' line of thinking but it does bother me that the general reasoning for that statement is given to the concept of 'Apollo is somehow undesireable and thus rejected' (Cassandra/Daphne/Marpessa) or 'his lovers die young and thus their love is unfulfilled' (Cyparissus/Hyacinthus/Coronis). I personally think that's a very unfortunate way of looking at things - not only because it neglects the many perfectly cordial entanglements and affairs Apollo has had, both mortal and divine - but because it presents a very shallow interpretation of the concepts of love and loss and how loss affects people.
Apollo can still grieve lovers that have a long, healthy life. The inherent tragedy of an immortal who knows his lovers and children will die and cannot stop it does not stop being tragic simply because those lovers and children live long, fulfilled lives. The inherent tragedy of loss does not stop being tragic simply because someone knows better than to mourn something that was always going to end.
What is tragic is not that Apollo loves and loses but that loss itself follows him. Apollo does not love with the distance of an immortal, he does not have affairs and then leaves never to listen to their prayers again. He does not have offspring and then abandon them to their trials only to appear when it is time to lead them to their destinies. He raises his young, he protects the mothers of his children, he blesses the households that have his favour and multiplies their flocks that they may never go hungry. He educates his sons, he adorns his daughters and even in wrath he is quick to come to his senses and regret the punishments he doles out.
Apollo loves. And like mortals, there will always be some part of him that wishes to protect the objects of his affections. Apollo, however, is also an emissary of Fate. He knows that the fate of all mortal things is death. He knows that to love a mortal is to accept that eventually he will have to bury them. There is no illusion of forever, there is no fantasy where he fights against the nature of living things and shields his beloveds from death. Apollo loves and because of that love, he also accepts.
And that, while beautiful, is also tragic.
#ginger rambles#ginger chats about greek myths#greek mythology#apollo#Listen man#I think there's something extremely beautiful about Apollo's affairs#Yes I know that Ares also loves and cares for his daughters but this isn't about him#There's just something about the way that Apollo put his all into it every single time#To the point that even when he does know better he still fights because of the strength of his love#The Iliad to me will always be a love story#Yes Achilles' wrath is said to come from his overwhelming feelings towards Patroclus#but what Achilles does has nothing to do with grief or love#By the end of everything Achilles forsook that love which ought to have defined his actions based on what he was saying#and warped it into a weapon meant to satisfy the void left by his loss#Apollo though - I am always taken aback by the sheer weight of his love#towards not only Hektor but towards all of Troy in the Iliad#And how he is very careful to balance that love and all the ways he wishes he could fight against their inevitably end#with his duties as one who is both aware of the impending end and whose position in the war#has put him in opposition with his elders#That delicate balance between a love so powerful that he is willing to take on the full weight of Athena and Hera's wrath#and an understanding that the battle he fights is not for victory but simply because for love's sake#How could you not think of that as beautiful and awesome and so achingly tragic#I feel the same about both Asclepius' and Actaeon's deaths#Apollo loved BOTH of his sons - Asclepius and Aristaeus - so so SO much#He was so incredibly proud of them both and delighted immensely in the both of their victories and talents#And so when Asclepius dies and it is by his own father's hand - I have always found his act of wrath so fascinating#Honestly this could be its own separate post - but the fact that Apollo does not beg Zeus to reconsider or to bring Asclepius back#when Apollo has made cases for lenience on things like that before speaks of a level of understanding from Apollo that Asclepius was always#going to die because of his pushing of the boundary between life and death#so he doesn't bother trying to reason with Zeus or plea his grief - instead going directly to destroying something important to Zeus
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here are a bunch of doodles i did during the process of writing tptbu chapter 2 <|:)
#bfdi#battle for dream island#battle for bfdi#bfb#the power of two#tpot#potatart#bfdi high fantasy au#pie bfb#tree bfb#marker bfb#lightning bfb#black hole bfb#remote bfb#fanny bfb#rocky bfdi#dora bfb#i tend to make visuals alongside my writing bc it helps.me describe stuff. also i havent showm off the dora design uet and thats important#the first two doodles were done while i was writing. bc i get distracted easily#I LOVE THE SLEEP PILE IMAGE BUT I FEEL BAD ABOUT IT BECAUSE BLACK HOLE COULD.NOT BE INCLUDED#at some point i am going to draw death pact being really nice to bh#since ive shared a little bit of info about them already i will aslo share that black hole is very evan kelmp coded. <|:)#also i am determined to spread my he/it rocky agenda but i think itd be strange if pie started referring to this halfling boy#with it/its completely out of nowhere#also also I DONT THINK IVE SHARED THE FACT THAT MARKER HAS EXTREMELY LONG HAIR ADVENTURE TIME STYLE. HAVE I#im excited excited im so ooo excited for whats to come#tptbu
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Is that canon!?! Was Machete just really naive/didn't really understand the implications of his relationship to Vasco? Did his mentor ever find out about them or discuss such things with him? I assume bc he didn't have parents, he kinda didn't get educated on sex or anything. Was it a big shock to realize he was "sinning"?
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#eh I was just exaggerating it for comedy because the page was so unintentionally funny and fitting#he might've been a little bit naive but was painfully aware he was in a relationship with a man and that it was forbidden#his mentor was all about asceticism and mortification and extreme self-denial#and had drilled it into his head that practically all romantic feelings let alone sex were foolish and sinful and should be shunned#so his feelings about the whole thing were complicated but in the end Vasco was more important#not to sound corny#but there was a hole in his heart that he had desperately tried to fill with god that never seemed to care about him#and once he got some of that love he had been aching for#from another living person#he had to do what it takes to make room for that in his belief system#how could such a tender fulfilling and healing thing be wrong#answered#anonymous#his mentor did eventually find out about them and wasn't very happy about it#to put it mildly#but by that point Machete had managed to mostly inch his way out from under his heel#he was graduating and getting ordained and wouldn't be going back to Naples#if it were up to him he'd never want to see him again
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— THE ELECTRIC-FEVER REMEDY.
#my posts.#lackadaisy#my art.#thinking about … rocky ‘winning’#in the sense that mitzi ends up completely alone and can only rely on his help to keep lackadaisy afloat …#making him irreplaceable — finally! and wick is nowhere to be seen to save the day anymore … so it’s just him#and maybe mitzi’s miserable and he’s miserable but he doesn’t care about it really … he’s just happy to be important … essential … etc#mitzi has shrunk and she’s become blurry and faceless because rocky is indulging in his victory#is too busy internally celebrating to really. notice her. so she’s small and disproportionate … murky …#AHEM! since i can’t write about my mitzi/rocky feelings i’ll art about it ( very quickly lmfao )#i just think rocky’s obsession with mitzi and being the person she relies on most is something he takes to extremes#and will continue to do so the way his arc is going. there’s not much left for him outside of ‘this’ anyway … or so he believes#i also think they will continue to drag each other down …#rocky doomed by the narrative and mitzi IS that narrative. they’re fucked but at least they have each other i suppose!!!#i have so many more thoughts and ofc this is more metaphorical …#but i do think. about the darkness around the corner for the two of them … hm! anyway! yeah!#rocky rickaby#mitzi may#wrote up these tags and drew this at like 3am to 5am so thats why i sound crazy#OH and the lines are from the bunnybox page in the comic <3 where he compares her to drugs twice <3#totally NOT a really bad sign im sure!! that would be silly :3
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We never really got to see them hang out one on one during the events of Camp Cretaceous (except once, and they were competing to see who’s lack of a childhood gave them the better skill set so) Idk, we only get a snippet of their dynamic in Chaos Theory, I just think their friendship (especially as adults) would be pretty interesting :3
(Yes, some of these are headcanons ^^)
(Look, you don’t just sprain/break your ankle on concrete and not have lasting consequences without the proper treatment. Yaz was running on that foot on the daily !! And you can see it still affected her all the way through Season 3 !!! So, yeah, Hits her with the chronic pain beam)
( ‼️Also Major Chaos Theory Spoilers ‼️)
#jurassic world#jurassic world chaos theory#jurassic world camp cretaceous#jwcc#jwct#jwct spoilers#brooklyn jwcc#brooklyn jwct#yasmina fadoula#disability#They’re the type of people who you wouldn’t see becoming friends but their personalities actually mesh really well#They’re both haters /j#Yaz can walk and run just not for an extended period of time#which I feel like is another reason she quit track outside of her PTSD#trauma bonding question mark ?#Aromatic Brooklyn is canon fight me/JOKE#Bc I feel like her feelings for Kenji were more “I know you on a deeper more personal level and you’re extremely close to me”#rather than valuing dates or other romantic things of the sort#like I feel like she appreciates them but it’s not the most important thing about being with someone in her eyes#I feel like Baby Talk is just kinda her thing though#rant over lmao
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me telling my cat i got him food "ðɛəʔuɡoʊ" (approximation: "theuh'ugo" this is said faster than i would say the actual translation: "there you go!")
#i'm not sure how accurate my transcription is#i tried my best#when i say it i feel like all of these sounds are made but im not 100% sure#like the first vowel sounds like the bobby 'ɛə' of 'there'#and then it does feel like there is an Extremely Brief stop between it and the 'u'#and then the 'go' feels normal#i just cut out all of the sounds that don't contribute much to the meaning#the 'ðɛə' is the most important part of 'there.' the r doesn't need to be there to be understood. as evidenced in RP#and in the 'you.' i think 'u' following a stop is Close Enough but easier to do when speaking quickly#it's less movement in my mouth than a full 'j' sound
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something something about autism masking and how it relates to Mystreet Garroth’s character development. something about how Mystreet Aphmau “Has Never Masked Her Chaotic Audhd Once In Her Life” McGee influences Garroth to crawl out of his posh boy shell and goof off and run wild
#aphmau#Mystreet#garroth romeave#garroth ro'meave#aphmau garroth#i feel like Mystreet Garroth has two different personalities. there’s his first personality that he has in PDH that’s just MCD Garroth with#a little more awkward cute teenage boy and a little less deep seated anger#he’s emotionally mature. he’s gentle. he’s soft. he’s the voice of wisdom. he’s responsible and kind#and overall a very sophisticated lad#fit for a Prince#and then you have his second personality later on that’s the goofy 0 brain cells idiot that runs into walls#in my head I like to blend the two. Garroth as a character in all works is both and it depends on the circumstance which comes out#I don’t like Garroth being reduced to such toddler level stupid though. I feel like that’s something Zane specifically made up to bully him#and it’s not true#or shouldn’t be at least#he’s not! he’s extremely emotionally intelligent and emotionally mature#in my versions he’s not a childish person#he can be petty!! he can be deeply insecure and miss important truths because of that#but emotional intelligence is his strong suit#which contrasts his two clever and sharp-witted brothers#especially Zane who has net zero emotional intelligence#he can be really fucking serious and sophisticated and mature. but he can also be an autistic silly little guy who goes :3#that’s how you know he feels safe <3
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I reiterate that if you're going to ask people for donations, you will come across as extremely suspicious if you spam their inbox. People are likely to report and/or block you, thinking you're a bot. If you need donations, I do not recommend going about like this. I really, REALLY do not recommend it.
#blog post#not helpol#i am tired of the spam y'all#literally every single day since I've opened my ask box back up#i have gotten a SHIT TON of random people asking me for donations#which is somewhat silly considering i was literally just running my own donations#so no I'm sorry but i won't be answering asks about donations#i don't think it's ok to that personally; it feels really invasive and is extremely suspicious#because you know who else comes into your inbox asking you for money? bots. bots do that exact thing.#it's extremely difficult to know who to trust especially when gofundme isn't supported in gaza#nor is paypal actually#they ciuld just be using a VPN but i don't know enough about VPN to comment on that confidently#but i feel it's important that people are sceptical honestly#because there are assholes who will scam you and take advantage of your kindness for others#don't buy into a potential scam especially at a time where supporting oneself is often already a challenge
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What did they say about the thing when parents are awful, the children are very close and protective of one another?
*squints at Yunmeng Trio and Lan Brothers*
(and I feel like if Jin Zixuan gathered his brothers and Qin su, he would be an overprotective Da-ge, too)
#jiang fengmian made wwx feel like he must repay him with his life#which he did#all the while neglecting jiang cheng and making him insecure beyond his adulthood#don't get me started with madam yu#lan qiren is okay-cool cuz he's the uncle who stepped up#but sometimes his 3000+ rules could be more important#making xichen extremely worried for wangji#don't get me started with the self-secluded father#and the trauma that these boys might have for always seeing their mom in prison#wei wuxian#jiang yanli#jiang cheng#lan wangji#lan xichen#jin zixuan#jin guangyao#mo xuanyu#qin su#jiang fengmian#yu ziyuan#parenting#mdzs a+ parenting#mo dao zu shi
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Being an extreme radfem/terf blog sounds miserable
#I think there are a lot of issues that should be discussed and having a blog focusing on that is very valid and good#but to constantly talk about how horrible being a woman is 24/7#like huh maybe the reason some people don’t want to be women is because they are told how horrible of an experience it is#and that we are doomed to a painful existence and being socially tortured by men#which ok is not completely untrue there is a lot of women’s rights issues everywhere#but doesn’t it get too draining at some point?#the most miserable I’ve been about existing was taking in nothing but that#and don’t get me started on their weirdness about trans stuff#at least there’s like one or two occasional posts about something positive about women#like an important figure and such#but it’s really just a depression hole#or at least it feels like it#I note extreme since radical feminism could be more than just getting mad about trans people and kink#and also I don’t want to incur their wrath lol
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kia ora! i would like to suggest the coining of a term that would hopefully help a large demographic of mostly-forgotten-about māori to connect with each other and share our experiences to feel less alone, congregate around a concept regardless of country of origin and upbringing, and organise as activists.
i politely ask as many people to spread this as possible to help indigenous people organise with each other and to get the largest amount of interactions possible.
anyway, with all that being said,
i would like to coin the term "ngāti rangiātea" for māori who do not know their iwi to use.
this is based on the well known whakataukī/proverb, "i will never be lost, for i am a seed which was sown from rangiātea." i chose this whakataukī due to the spiritual significance of rangiātea as a place in māori culture, as well as to emphasise that no matter how it feels, we are not lost, we can find ourselves in each other, we can experience strength and self-realisation, and that we will exist with mana and without whakamā as rightful tangata whenua.
i've put my reasoning, personal experiences shaping my viewpoints on the matter, and various statistics under the cut to make this post reblog-friendly and i would suggest fellow māori read it regardless of whether or not they know their iwi. i also ask for the opinions of other māori, ESPECIALLY AND SPECIFICALLY other māori who do not know their iwi. in fact, i politely ask māori to share this with their whānau and people in general to share this with māori they know, especially any they know who do not know their iwi. a wide reach is what i am going for to get the largest amount of voices, critiques, and opinions on the topic and to avoid this from just becoming a very small thing that stays in an online echo-chamber.
to begin, the 2018 aotearoan census shows that, of the 775,836 people identifying as māori in aotearoa, roughly 17% are unable to identify their iwi in the census. this has gone up by 1% since 2006, showing that we are a considerably stable percentage of people. along with this, there are more than 170,000 māori living in australia and, while there are no solid statistics, there are an estimated 8,000 māori living in the UK, 3,500 in the US, 2,500 in canada, and 8,000 in other countries where there's no option for māori or any polynesians on the census.
this number adds up to 967,816 total māori and while there's no census in these countries asking for your iwi, i would go as far as to assume that there's a larger number of diaspora māori who are no longer able to identify their iwi than there are in aotearoa. of course, this is just speculation based on my lived experiences and conversations with other diaspora māori, however even assuming that it's the exact same amount globally, 17%, this is roughly 164,532 māori worldwide who do not know their iwi. nearly one in five māori do not know their iwi.
regardless of the specific statistics, the hard fact here is that there is a large percentage of māori who are unsure of their iwi for whatever reason. it's extremely easy to feel unsure of yourself, lost, disconnected, and uncomfortable speaking on issues regarding te ao māori when you're unsure of your iwi (or your hapū, whānau, waka, or anything else, but there is heavy emphasis on the iwi) and it's very easy for whakamā to take hold, especially when many māori who can recite their whakapapa aren't very polite or understanding about your situation to say the least.
and there are a lot of those people.
unfortunately, i've spoken to many māori who are of the opinion that not knowing your iwi due to colonialism, assimilation, forced disconnection, etc. means that you should not, cannot, call yourself māori. this is a disgusting viewpoint to have and in my opinion it spits on the fundamental concepts of māori culture and worldviews. thankfully this is a small yet vocal group of people, but even so, they add to the collective experience that makes it extremely difficult to navigate a world while full of whakamā and internalised racism. it can feel like there's no space for you, no term you can use, nobody you can relate to, no mana you can claim, nothing. when you cannot recite your whakapapa, it can feel like there's a part of you that's fundamentally missing.
as well as this, even when people mean well, when you are in this situation, you're usually told to just do some genealogy work, do some research, ask your family what they know. sometimes, these steps are simply not possible. other times, we've already done everything suggested over and over and over again. we're generally told "oh, that sucks, but one day you'll find out, keep looking!" in response to our lack of iwi. sure, they mean well, but i have never once been told anything along the lines of "that's okay, some things are lost to time through no fault of your own. don't beat yourself up over something your whānau had to hide to survive, what you do now to uphold your family's mana, what you do know about your whānau, and who you ultimately become is more important than what you no longer know."
and why? why is it seen as shameful to say matter-of-factly that i don't know my iwi? i'm not looking for comfort, i'm not looking to be told that, aww, there there, i'll find it eventually. i'm stating a fact. i do not need pity, i need my mana and voice to be respected.
this concept is what i want to emphasise by coining ngāti rangiātea. some things are lost to time, but we aren't. our loss of knowledge does not mean that we are unworthy of being māori, that we are unworthy of basic human respect. it does not mean that we have lost everything that our whānau knows. it is a scar, a reminder of what colonisation took from us, yes, but we cannot allow it to continue to be an open bleeding wound. we will not be lost to time and we should not bow our heads and act like we do not exist, that we're inconvenient, that we damage the "image" that māori have. in fact, we are an important aspect of māori culture and ignoring our existence does harm to everybody.
and of course we can't speak on some topics regarding te ao māori. this seems to be a topic that comes up frequently as a strawman. yes, there are some topics that would be irresponsible to speak on when we have no experience with them. this doesn't mean we can't speak on anything. having a collective identity, an "iwi" to congregate around even just politically, would help us speak on topics that we are more qualified to speak on than māori with knowledge of their iwi (yes, those topics exist, shockingly.)
we will never be lost, for we are a seed sown in rangiātea.
by identifying as ngāti rangiātea, i wish to emphasise that it's important to accept that sometimes, someone just won't be able to find every piece of information. loss of family knowledge is literally one of the primary goals of forced assimilation! we all went through it as colonised peoples, why must we continue to attach shame to those of us who were forced to obfuscate our history to keep our children alive? it's not a personal flaw, it's not a dirty secret, it's a fact of life that must not continue to be kept quiet out of shame, and the sooner we can focus on healing this subsection of our community, the stronger māori as a whole will become.
so, this is why i'd like to coin a term for māori who are unsure of their iwi. this is what i intend to achieve by giving us a name, our own "iwi" to congregate around, to identify ourselves as. instead of hanging my head and saying "i'm not sure what my iwi is, i'm sorry", instead of feeling inclined to beg like a dog to be treated with respect, i would like to look people in the eye and tell them that i am ngāti rangiātea. i would like this label to be synonymous with strength and not shame, that i refuse to let my whakamā swallow me, that i am just as worthy of calling myself māori as anyone else, that there are many others in my iwi (or lack thereof). i would like other people to have that as well and i would like those like me to feel less lost when all they've been told is "well, you'll learn your iwi eventually!" as if that's going to help someone feel better if they can't find their iwi.
and even if a person finds their iwi eventually, it's absolutely disgraceful that people are treated that they're not allowed to access many basic parts of te ao māori until they discover something they are not even 100% destined to find. i think that this view contributes to a lot of people who eventually find their iwi becoming unnecessarily arrogant towards those who truly cannot find this information, that they're just not putting enough effort in. if a person finds their iwi after identifying as ngāti rangiātea, they are fully welcome to continue to identify as this political label along with the iwi they now know they belong to as i wish for it to be a term that describes your experiences, your upbringing, and your community. you don't suddenly lose your whānau or your lived experience when you discover your whakapapa.
finally, this hopefully goes without saying, but ngāti rangiātea is not meant to function as a real existing iwi does. the term will hopefully be used as a way to identify yourself and other people and organise but i don't expect nor do i want this to be treated like a coordinated iwi. i expect and hope for this to be a decentralised way of identifying and experiencing community to make it easier to organise as a people. think of this the way the terms ngāti kangaru, ngāti rānara, ngāti tūmatauenga etc. are used.
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so, the tl;dr is that i feel like coining a name for a phenomenon that nearly one in five of all māori experience in quiet shame, to make it easier for us to congregate and find each other, speak on our experiences, organise as activists, feel less lost, and ultimately give us the ability to regain our mana as a community with shared goals and experiences. i have spoken to many māori who feel this way and my suggestion for this term is ngāti rangiātea, to show homage to the well known whakataukī, "i will never be lost, for i am a seed sown from rangiātea", to give us a community to work with, and to give us an "iwi" to list when asked instead of fumbling for words and feeling whakamā.
i would like to take the emphasis off of constantly looking to the future for what you may or may not even find with this identity. we are not broken, we are not lost, for we are seeds sown in ngāti rangiātea.
tēnā koutou, tēnā koutou, tēnā tatou katoa, and if you got this far, thank you for reading.
#maori#māori#pasifika#indigenous#indigenous issues#polynesia#aotearoa#aotearoa new zealand#new zealand#tangata whenua#new zealand politics#politics#i was considering calling it smth along the lines of ngāti whāngai to represent that we would be whānau from different paths and family#but ngāti rangiātea felt more succinct and meaningful. particularly with how it's very easy to feel lost when you're unsure of your iwi#please boost this even if you're not māori as i'd like as many people to see as possible <3#anyway i'm quite nervous and i hope this doesn't come across like i'm trying to be any kind of authority haha#i just feel like this is an extremely important topic that affects many people but is rarely spoken about for various reasons#ngāti rangiātea
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