#it doesnt make it easier
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telling myself to continue on like normal and write like normal but how am i supposed to do that when i know my world is ending in 24 hours?
tw for tags: i accidentally rambled on and aired out all my grief for my dog
#ive known since the moment we got the cancer diagnosis id be losing him#it doesnt make it easier#tw pet loss#ive experienced a dog dying unexpectedly and now a planned death#i have decided there is no death thats easy. you'll always wish it went the other way.#in 24 hours ill be loading him into my car one last time#ill be joking about how heavy he is as i lift my 'heavy baby' into the backseat#i'll be babytalking him the entire drive and nearly dislocating my arm just to pet him at the red lights for the last time#i bought him reese's peanut butter cups. because he loves peanut butter and deserves to taste chocolate before he goes#i got him all his favorite treats. been feeding him all the meals he'd beg for that id say 'dogs cant have'#i just. this is hard. im losing my baby. my best friend.#the 'aggressive' boy no one wanted for 2 years until i came upon him and said 'hes coming home with me'#people keep telling me i dont have to be in the room when it happens but how could i do that?#how could i leave him alone this last time (arguably the most important time) when the day i brought him home#i made the promise that he'd never be alone again?#how could i do that when every time hes sick he wants me near him? puts his head in my lap?#how could i when during my roughest times he protected me so fiercely?#the only time he's been anything but a gentle giant has always been when he protects me#how could i not protect HIM one last time?#im sorry. im in my feels. this fucking sucks.
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#hom3stuck#homestuck#john egbert#jade harley#dirk strider#dave strider#karkat vantas#davekat#lil hal#autoresponder#inspired sketches because i went thru a bunch of artblogs and wanted to be dynamic and artsy too#also love to listen to songs and then try my best to draw something for the duration of it. this isnt quite one of those times but#hey the names matched up nicely#idk man. tonight is a sad about dirk strider day turned into sad about dirk strider night. davekats to make it go down easier#anyways ever think about how a captcha of 13 year old dirk doesnt want to die but the 16 year old version does.#cause i do . plenty.#these seem like sketches ripe to do something with but i dont feel like touching them more so. black and white up they go
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i fucking hate trialing medications i hate it so bad. none of this shit works and all i get is severe side effects i fucking hate it here. its so difficult always
#the last time this happened i was almost genuinely fucking institutionalized#and im currently so close to that again#we're just stopping everything earlier cause im already there#like at least i can tell my parents now. but fuck it still sucks so much#it doesnt make it easier#its just. ive been here before and i know how this goes. i dont want to do it again but its already happening. we're in the middle of it#and i cant stop it#trying to stay and be alive for people is something i know i have to do because i know im loved but god its fucking exhausting#aiilov-personal
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NONE OF THESE MFS CAN DRIVE
#i lied about not making comics#i was possessed#im going to keep making comics about characters not a lot of my followers even know#i want a fic so bad#sephiroths life would be easier if he put his hair up#zack doesnt get car sick so he gets the map#angeal would roll the jeep going too fast and break everything#genesis's attitude is spicy enough to roast food over when they get more lost#ff7#ff7 crisis core#ff7 zack#ff7 angeal#ff7 genesis#ff7 sephiroth
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Steve Rogers & Natasha Romanoff The Avengers (2012)
matching each others freak
#marveledit#dailymarvelgifs#steverogersedit#blackwidowedit#steve rogers#natasha romanoff#black widow#captain america#the avengers#my gifs#another one baby#this came along a lot easier and faster#helps that it was all one scene so i could do basically the same coloring and stuff#anyways i love this scene it makes me fucking crazy#i love these two im so sad about what happened to them individually but also as a duo#they barely know each other at this point in the avengers but steve totally goes with her completely bonkers idea to hitch a ride on one#of the aliens?? like shes out of her mind#shes not enhanced or anything either the way steve is like yeah shes a badass and very capable but shes also very much human#but he doesnt argue with her at all he sees her throughline and is like well she wouldnt suggest it if she couldnt pull it off#and his like.... awestruck look as she zooms away...... i know he thinks shes so cool#i just love them i love nat and steve as friends i love their dynamic#i dont ship them romantically but like. i do get it
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i survived another week under capitalism's thumb. w me. anyway, here's some Tension >:)
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reblogs are appreciated!!! 🕺🕺🕺
#hazbin hotel#lucifer morningstar#hazbin hotel sara#hazbin hotel fanart#fanart#hazbin hotel comic#comic#rays art#i noticed that sera doesnt really call charlie by her name... shes 'lucifer's misguided daughter' or "daughter of the morningstar'#her identity only seems to tie back to lucifer in sera's eyes#its very demeaning and although i dont think sera even realizes she's coming across that way... i do find it very interesting#i like to think she does the same thing to lilith#lilith isnt 'the queen' or 'the first woman'... shes 'lucifer's wife'#and thus lucifer's importance is exaggerated and those related to him are underrepresented#especially since both charlie and lilith care about demonkind and have radical ideas#and while lucifer USED to be the same way... his sense of self has been crushed (at this point in time)#thus making him easier to manipulate#again i dont think sera even realizes this is something she's doing or taking advantage of as her intentions are not 'evil'#but its still happening#thats the consequence of a 'the end justifies the means' mindset
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peak friend activities is bleaching and dyeing the other’s hair at night
#trigun#trigun fanart#vash the stampede#meryl stryfe#trigun modern au#gonna start tagging these so theyre easier to find T_T#brainrot over my own au Oh we’re really in it now spongebob#vashmeryl#(platonically this time)#shes on a stool bc hes too tall btw. if u care. no it doesnt make sense but i thought it was funny so i kept it in#vash playing rythm games is straight up just me projecting . it was also Just Funny
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sunburn shane
#based on dat one art meme going around#shane sdv#stardew valley#sdv#shane#shane stardew#sdv shane#stardew shane#stardew valley shane#god why doesnt he have a last name and an uncommon first name it would make tagging easier#shane stardew valley
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A moment of vulnerability
#danganronpa#my art#art#avis's doodles#drv3#kokichi ouma#kaito momota#kokichi oma#oumota#danganronpa killing harmony#idk man they fuck me up#kaitos grieving for himself and kokichi and maki.#and kokichi doesn't want that. he doesnt want this moment of pain because it makes the whole thing so much more painful#it was easier when Kaito hated him#and kaito is so earnest and the poison is getting to him and-#so yeah im normal about chapter 5#I can't draw size differences
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soapghost circus au
ghost’s an extreme motorcycle stunt performer - globe of death, riding on his back wheel along tightropes, that sort of thing
soap’s a fire breather/dancer. he’s a roaming performer; he just finds empty spaces or bored people and starts twirling
he pretends not to notice the way he always wanders towards a certain tent every night to watch a certain masked daredevil defy gravity. he thinks he's slick and that ghost won't notice him in the crowd, completely forgetting that he's carrying something that happens to be on fire
ghost couldn't miss him if he tried
one day off, soap's trialing fire whips; he loves the loud crack and the way the flame licks through the air and maybe he's a little too impatient to practice with non flaming whips first, even though he's never used one before
he's covered in soot and fine welts where the tip of the whip keeps flicking back up at him, cutting through his shirt and stinging his skin but he doesn't let that stop him. it starts to stick to him, damp with sweat and blood and he's quick to strip it off; throwing it to the side to keep practicing
when soap finally gets a few good cracks in a row and breaks to celebrate, he almost jumps out of his skin when he sees the masked rider leaning against a trailer watching him
of all the times he's wanted ghost to talk to him, this is not one of them
he wanted to impress him, dance for him with his flaming batons and be mesmerised by his fluidity and skill
not catch him filthy and struggling with something as basic as a whip
he's ready for ghost to ream him out for not having control over the whip - he's known throughout the circuit for expecting utter perfection in his routines - but when ghost finally does speak, it's only to ask if he's done for the day
soap falters for a moment. he wanted to get some consistency with the whip before he stopped, but he's starting to feel the hours of practice; muscles aching and skin blistered with minor burns
he says he is and ghost pushes off the trailer, nodding his head to make soap follow. he brings him back to his trailer and tells him to clean up then takes out his personal med kit to treat the grazes on soap's skin
soap's shocked; for all that he loves to watch ghost perform, they've never really talked before
part of why he joined the circus was so he wouldn't be a burden on anyone, the oldest in a family with too many mouths to feed and not even time to nurture, and here he is taking up ghost's valuable practice time bc he wasn't good enough to handle his own discipline. he tries to brush him off, downplaying the burns and tries to leave before half them can be treated but ghost just glares and orders him to sit back down
ghost does expect perfection from himself but it isn’t out of any malice or ego; it's bc he knows if he isn't perfect, he could very easily die. he’s picked a dangerous profession and he gives it the respect it deserves. there isn't any shame in being a novice or failing at something; he thinks there's a lot of beauty in having the courage to get back up again and again
so every day he watches soap practice and bullies him into his trailer to put him back together bc he knows he won't do it by himself
and every night soap wanders over to ghost's section of the fair grounds, in awe of his skill and wishing he could be worthy of the care he gives him
#have i posted this before? yes but it has an actual idea behind it now#anyway back on my ‘soap pushes himself too hard to meet expectations only he is holding him to’ bullshit#price is obviously the ring master and id say gaz is probably trapeze#ghost used to work for robas circus who kept pushing him to do more and more dangerous stunts with less and less safety measures in place#and for a long time he thought thats how it was supposed to be#he was supposed to court death every night. supposed to limp back to his trailer and take care of his own injuries#and its only when price comes to one of his shows to scope out roba as competition and confronts him afterwards abt the conditions#that he realises something might be wrong#so seeing his past staring back at him in the form of soap hurts something deep within him and he has to make it right#he doesnt want soap to have to live with the same deep pains that he does#injuries that couldve been avoided if hed just gone easier on himself#coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt#we’re a team. ghost team#soapghost#ghostsoap#ghoap#john soap mactavish#soap cod#simon ghost riley#ghost cod#save post
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Do you see my vision
#my dc posting#my art#dc#jason todd#red hood#transfem jason todd#transwoman jason todd#trans fem jason todd#trans woman jason todd#its always so weird when uve made a character trans. and then u gotta use their canon name for tagging#i feel like im deadnaming her even tho i havent come up w a name yet#the lazarus pit gives spontaneous transition. even if u havent realized ur trans yet#i feel like itd be hard to become a respected n feared n succesful crime lord if she presented as female. because of the 'sogony.#so she can have a lil perry the platypus style shit goin on w a voice modifier in the helmet#also coming back as a woman would make batman less likely to connect her w his dead 'son'. so.#idk. i dont actually have a fully formed au or timeline in mind i just find it easier to draw women#its more of a psychological thing where if im in the headspace of 'this is a woman' it becomes just easier to draw the body#🤷 it is how it is ig#censored bc tumblr's a bitch n really it doesnt matter#i had a post w like 1 note that was literally just 'i dont think [insert name] is a good name for a transfem version of [insert character]'#and it got labelled Mature by tumblr so i figured might as well not even try n be Modest and shit w the way tumblr's fuckin it up rn#anyway shoutout to Daughter of Dragons by thispatternismine for the inspiration#...how does all that hair fit comfortably inside the helmet?#ah. hmm. well that is. it sure is a question! that i will not be answering.#jason todd fanart#dc fanart
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Lecture tips: Be naked and wet for the most convincing rhetoric.
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#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#season 1#wei wuxian#lan wangji#jiang cheng#lan xichen#look it never specified whether or not they kept their robes on in the cold springs#and visually its a lot easier to show welts when they are covered up#this is just the fantasy China equivalent of hanging out in the boys locker room together#A binding moment for some. A test of will (to not start fighting) and endurance (god do you remember locker rooms)#i have yet to encorperate audio into this series (YET) but#for the beat reaults; wwx is giving his speech in the ‘number 16: burger king foot lettuce’ intonation and tenor#for the most faithful to my vision results: wwx is giving his speech in the same intonation & tenor as ‘number 15: burgerking foot lettuce’#other note: JC carrying wwx after he gets beat makes me get a lil teary. I imagine he doesnt get the oppertunity at yunmeng very often#im really really soft for the yunmeng sibilings. Tragic as they are/become….#also ack….you *know* it hurts wwx sense of needing to be a protector and not a burden#He has yet to learn to be loved is to lean on each other!
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I'm sorry but ppl are so weird about nudity in all kinds it's not even a tired argument anymore it's straight up purity culture,, soon enough we wont be able to show a knee bc it's sooo inappropriate.. whether it's art or real human bodies the censorship is out of control and it's always being masked as something else, especially now with the internet I could literally count on one hand the places you're allowed to post even non sexual nudity, i have no patience for it
and btw even if all I created was sfw content i will always still talk about this bc censorship hurts and threatens everybody starting with minority groups, it goes beyond just personal comfort and autonomy
#whenever a new social media platform comes out (which seems like 2 a month lately) and i see that it doesnt allow any nudity I'm just like#i was already hesitant to join thanks for making my decision easier!
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Hello Aru, I have a non-WLB question Is Yoshi a Belgian Malinois? *You don't have to answer right away, I understand your inbox must be flooding rn
yeah he is! my little baby man
(him and our other dog koda, koda is a husky/shepherd mutt)
#answers#we got him for free cause they guy who was selling them couldnt find anyone to buy them#and he was sick of 10 giant puppies destroying his house#yoshi is so good though#he's so smart#his training is going so much easier than kodas#koda wont do shit#she's like 'fuck you' in dog form#she just doesnt care about people pleasing or treats#she knows everything but has no motivation#i understand you koda.#however.#you're a brat.#anyway yoshi cares what we think VERY much and it is making him so so easy to train and i love him
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potential builds to draw: maybe mumbo's vault from this season? or etho's s7 monstrosity?
i went with the monstrosity which ended up being a lot more difficult than i thought lol. i have a couple more screenshot i wanna draw too so i might add to these at some point
#the thing is like. usually with fanart of bases - the builds are always supposed to resemble /something/#wether thats an irl architecture style or a fantasy style or a real material and physics and whatever. which makes fanart easier#cause you can use that as reference#but with the monstrosity thats kinda impossible cause it doesnt really. resemble anything#its like if there was a style of architecture that was just 'minecraft' it would look like this i think#this doesnt make sense at all sorry ill stop talking now#anyway. i love this build very much but drawing it is a struggle lmao#my art#hermitcraft#ethoslab#etho
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Listen i fully get ppl who like g3 more for how it has more diverse bodies-i like it too but if your gonna come here n claim g1’s faces were the same im gonna assume you just owed fakes
“G3 has such diverse faces unlike nesty g1 which had all the characters w the same face :/“ SAME FACES??
HOW ARE YOU GONNA SAY THEIR THE SAME ?? HELLO??
#monster high#They just werent smiling or looking to the side like in g3 which tbh i personally far prefer#its SO damn diffcult to find a side view g3 doll that doesnt look slightly off cus of the fact their looking to the side#like its pretty yeah but it makes it easier for them to get wonky#n frankly i rlly dont like smiling dolls#i much prefer dolls w a netrual face since its easier to project your emotion into
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