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maxdibert · 5 months ago

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I know this might be more aggressive than I usually do, but I'm honestly tired. I can't help but believe that the marauders fandom lives in a completely different reality than mine.

They love to force how good James Potter was, but this same James exposed Severus' intimacy. “He had no intention”, if a person takes the life of another without intention, does that change that a person died? It doesn't change. But they love to say that because there is no intention, there is no guilt, when that's not how it works. Besides all the repetition of how Severus was an incel and James was the one who sincerely loved Lily. The epitome of agape, they say, when in reality, he was just a spoiled little rich boy who can't hear "no" from a girl and get on with his life and instead he... *checks notes* threatened and blackmailed their supposed “love” in addition to chasing his best friend with his gang of idiots and, at the same time, leading the other to hell, even though said boy heard the girl’s “no” and disappeared from her life as she asked.

They act as if Severus being a spy was no big deal and it was his obligation to do something to defeat Voldemort, when it wasn't, he had already done enough by going out of their way to give a warning about the Potters' safety. Aside from the stilted speech that "he did it for the girl", when, amazingly, said girl, at this point, is already dead, he would have gained nothing by doing what he did for the wizarding world. It seems like a competition about who objectifies Lily the most in Severus' life, when Severus: never said anything negative about her, never assumed anything about her sex life or even said that she deserved to die for not choosing him, on the contrary , he blamed himself and wished for his own death. "But, look, he bullied the son of the woman he said he loved, that's definitely obsession," his character flaws in relation to Harry were never about Lily but about old memories of his bully. His problem was always unique and exclusive to James Potter. Every time he insults Harry it's always "you're like your father", but never once did he say anything even remotely negative about Lily or blame her for cutting off her friendship with him. But still, the fandom loves to spew nonsense about how he "wanted to get into the girl's pants and got angry when he couldn't."

I vented, sorry.

That’s why I genuinely think most Snaters are just kids—they see everything in black and white and don’t understand that life doesn’t work that way. Severus didn’t owe anyone anything. The fact that he felt bad about Lily wasn’t an obligation; he could have not cared and it still would’ve been fine. Lily cut ties with him. Lily married his bully. It would’ve been completely justified for him to see her as a piece of trash after she ended up with James. Honestly, I would’ve seen her as trash. If a former friend of mine pulled something like that—ending up with someone who had physically and psychologically tormented me for years, knowing full well what I went through—they’d be lucky if I didn’t burn their house down for being such a piece of work.

But Severus's relationship with Lily carried an enormous emotional weight because she had been his attachment figure for many years. So it makes sense that he ended up feeling so guilty, especially since he was the one who told Voldemort the prophecy. But again, even the prophecy wasn’t something he shared with malicious intent. Severus was doing his job as an agent in a war (even if he was on the "wrong" side), and it just so happened that his work unintentionally affected someone he cared about. Of course, he felt guilty afterward—it’s completely understandable. Anyone in his position, with his life experiences, would.

If I were in his place, though? I would’ve ignored Lily completely. Let her and her bully of a husband die, honestly, LOL.

One thing I find fascinating about Severus is how much things actually matter to him. He cares about repaying his debt to society. He cares about redeeming himself for what happened to Lily. He cares about doing the right thing to atone for his mistakes. And he doesn’t have to care, because all the people he sacrifices himself for are people who treated him like garbage at some point.

He didn’t have to be loyal to Dumbledore, especially after Dumbledore forced him to stay silent when he was almost killed as a teenager, made him keep that secret, and left him out in the cold. He didn’t have to be loyal to Lily either. No matter how their friendship ended, I think it’s indefensible (and I’m sure others would agree) for her to get involved with a spoiled rich kid whose whole reputation was built on tormenting others. He didn’t have to risk his life for the Order when most of its members openly despised him his entire life.

He didn’t have to do any of it. And honestly? It would’ve been justifiable for him not to, given his context and his past. But he did. He did all of it because he wanted to be a better person.

Sure, his personality doesn’t always reflect that, but let’s be real—that’s the personality of someone who never stops suffering. His reactions aren’t strange—they’re the normal reactions of someone with unresolved trauma who’s reached adulthood without the chance to fully develop emotional or social maturity because of that same trauma.

And of course, he didn’t need to beg for James’s life. If I were Severus, I wouldn’t have asked Voldemort to spare James. I’d have asked him to inflict the worst possible torture on James before finishing him off. But then again, I’m Spanish, and we Mediterraneans have hot tempers and always choose violence, LOL.

But seriously, I’m so fed up with the endless whining about why Severus did this or that. It doesn’t matter why. The fact is, he did it. The important thing is that his actions contributed to a cause, and thanks to him, the world was saved. Everything else is irrelevant because, let’s be honest, many of us would’ve walked away from saving a society that judged, mistreated, and condemned us without a second thought.

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jianhue · 11 months ago

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Information about William !! (Moral Orel oc)

Stuff you should know !

1. My English is HORRIBLE. I don't have the greatest vocabulary so most of my sentences are repetitive

2. His information might change over time.

3. Uhh idk if this needs any warning but there is some topics about trauma and stuff so watch out for that

4. This is written informally lol

5. I made this around midnight, there's some mistakes

Text form:

Basic information:

Name: William Boltspin

Age: 36

Occupation: Psychologist

Height: 5’11

Habits: over analysing people’s small gestures, thinking out loud, tripping on nothing when nervous, fidgeting, freezing when in put into a tight spot

Hobbies: Reading, watching stuff go down

Introduction:

Will is introduced as a new person in town. He recently moved in, and since nobody was willing to show him around, Orel did. But in a typical Moral Orel episode, something happens. In the good will of Orel, he shared a little too much. This kind of scared Will out, but he still stayed in the town. Mostly because he was fascinated by how the town was old-school. At first, he got along with the townspeople, but they soon realised they had different principles and ideals.

Seeing how he wasn't really attending the daily sermons, Orel took it upon himself to invite him to church. Will isn't really the type to go to church daily, but seeing how everyone was going and how eager Orel was to get him to attend the sermons, he started attending daily too. After an episode focusing on his move, he became a typical side character, only showing up on screen for a few scenes or just in the background.

Show appearances:

During season 1, aside from his little worries and complaints about the children in town having too much freedom, Will is seen acting fairly normal. He's been seen in church, walking to the doctor’s office, etc. Most of his appearance is just him passing by; sometimes he gives out advice that is a bit too vague.

In season 2, his concerns grow, and he starts to disagree with some of the other characters. He doesn’t get along with Reverend Putty much, but he does tolerate him. Will offers to babysit some of the children, mostly doughy or shapey. It’s mostly because he sees signs of neglect. Unfortunately, he does have work of his own, so he isn’t always there for them.

Upon learning about his profession, some started to doubt his faith. He still attends church even with people talking about him, and his only reason is because of Orel. Will does try to correct the behaviour of some people, but when he gets a bad response (which happens every time), he takes it back. Sometimes, mostly by accident, he does the same thing he criticises people for. Telling people not to yell in front of children or to not show any bad behaviour they can pick up.

He still bonds and gives some proper advice to Orel, but makes sure to keep him at arm's length. He’s afraid of being dragged into the things Orel does. But in an episode, he finally had the courage to join Orel. He follows him around and secretly does things so they avoid trouble. But of course, trouble does happen. Before Orel was taken to Clay’s study room, they made eye contact. Will felt responsible since he was an adult and he was around Orel the whole time. Even though he felt immense guilt, he was still too afraid to intervene. He mouthed the words “I’m sorry, Orel.” In the end, he became a bystander. Something he wished he never would be.

Season 3 is where Will’s mental health starts to deteriorate. He feels guilty for being so hypocritical. Feeling responsible for kids he isn’t even related to has taken a toll on him. Other adults also started to vent out their problems to him at the bar, hoping for some advice from Will.

His last scene is Orel finding him sitting at an alley next to Forghetty’s Bar. Will was drunk and cried to Orel about everything he hated, even calling Clay a bastard right in front of him. After that furious rant he calmed down and started muttering about how he “didn’t want to be like this” and that he’s sorry for being such a horrible person, a bystander, a hypocrite, a coward, a person he can’t rely on. He picks up his glasses and apologises before realising who he was dumping all his problems to. It was Orel. A child. He remembers his promise to himself, never burden a child with your problems. Not even as an accident. Not knowing what to do, he just froze and cried.

After that scene, Will would be seen avoiding children. He’s seen more often in the bar, mostly in the background or puking at the corner.

Upbringing:

As a kid, Will would be told to turn a blind eye to things that were not his business. Around his teenage years, he would witness a violent crime, but instead of helping, he just pretended he didn’t see anything and walked away. The person would later be found dead. Will couldn’t take it; he felt extreme guilt, blaming himself for not saving them or even just calling the police.

His mother also had violent outbursts, venting her problems to her son. He felt responsible for her, so he just took everything. Beatings, berating, everything. Will basically took care of her. His mother was a very judgmental woman, whispering to him about people around his neighbourhood. Will gaslights himself to think that it’s just his mother’s way of showing concern and affection. When he finished college, his mother passed away. He never actually bothered to find his father because his mother told him, “It’s not worth finding that bastard of a man." Will just followed what his mother said. But in the end, his own mother’s last words were, “I fucking hate that face of yours. You’re a spitting image of that fucking bastard.”

He already knew his mother actually hated him. He just denied it. But hearing it straight from her just made him lose it. Will swore to never treat a child like his mother did to him.

#moral orel #moral orel oc #oc #oc art

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karmacharmeleon18 · 22 days ago

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different anon, but wow I also super agree with your kevin takes! i can’t believe you’re getting so much hate over it….i wanted to ask if you felt like there was any other path for kevin in the new trilogy, bc while what he did to jean pmo, i also can’t imagine him doing anything else. on one hand, he left jean to suffer kevin’s own consequences (in part) by leaving him, but also jean even admits he would never have let kevin leave, thus kevin wouldn’t have been able to get his revenge and freedom. it’s the same issue over and over again—why is kevin allowed such selfishness and isn’t as punished or criticized by the fandom (maybe even the narrative? i can only hope the final book actually does something with kevin, since unlike many i doubt we’re getting another book after tsc3)? do you think it’ll be addressed? Nora’s addressing of jean’s trauma seems well crafted enough to suggest that kevin and thea’s callousness would also be addressed. kevin still clearly cares about jean, but its not enough, i think, for not only the betrayal (which is nuanced and very sad) but the continued attitude he has towards him afterwards! kevin will do stuff that shows he cares for his “friends” or whatnot, but this stuff could also clearly be seen as self centered and watered down by his constant insults. he’s an interesting character for sure, but oh wow do i understand jean’s love-hatred of him from his POV. he’s an asshole who feels like he’ll never heal or grow emotionally from the ravens and riko, which is a very unsatisfying and upsetting thing to see from such a crucial character in the series. but i also don’t know how he would move one without losing his ego, which is probably the only thing really keeping him alive now that his revenge has been fulfilled?

sorry if this was repetitive to what you’ve said before or long! love your analysis/thoughts. :)

You know, anon, the og characters being different in this new trilogy was actually a fear of mine. It’s been 10 years since AFTG and I thought, Nora can’t be the same writer she was 10 years ago, and what if she’s changed her mind about this or that character? What if she uses the new books to retcon the old ones? What if I can’t recognize these characters???

But thankfully I could. Thankfully Nora is a very consistent writer and she has not changed her mind about anyone (save for Jean and Jeremy lol).

So taking all of this into account, no, I didn’t expect Kevin to act any differently. irl it’s been 10 years but in-universe it’s been no time at all from TKM. Kevin Day is Kevin Day and at this point it’s pointless to hope for change lmao

To be completely honest, I don’t think it’ll ever be properly addressed. Kevin is allowed to be selfish, and callous, and condescending because he’s Kevin, simple as that. The narrative, the characters have accepted that a long time ago. And most of the fandom has too. Those of us who have a problem with it are destined to suffer lol

Maybe Jean will confront him in the last book, but honestly? It will go in one ear and out the other.

Kevin might “care” for Jean in his own way, but he doesn’t care enough to change his behavior. And I think Jean knows that.

Jean also doesn’t care for apologies, an “I’m sorry” will not change the past. Maybe the Trojans have changed his mind about that, maybe not. Realistically it’s far too soon for such a change.

But what Kevin could do is apologize for his recent/current behavior. Maybe that would give Jean some satisfaction in the moment, it would make him feel vindicated to see and hear Kevin Day admit he is wrong. But after that initial reaction, nothing will have changed.

The best way to take accountability is to change your behavior. And Kevin never will. Because he’s Kevin Day.

Jean can’t hold Kevin accountable because Kevin doesn’t care about him enough.

So who could hold Kevin accountable? What would accountability look like?

Nora said Kevin doesn’t have friends, Thea is the closest thing to one he has. But even with her, he was willing to completely shut her out of his life when he left Evermore. Besides, him and Thea are far too similar for her to be the catalyst for a change of conscience. The only time Thea will ever call him out is when Kevin is thinking too much like a victim: Thea doesn’t tolerate that and pretty much tells him to get over his trauma. The same way Kevin expects everyone else to get over their trauma and just focus on the damn game.

Kevin and Thea will never hold each other accountable for their callousness, their selfishness, their disregard for the feelings of others.

At the end of the day, the only things Kevin truly cares about are Exy and… himself, which by extension means his public persona, the way people see him.

So, what would accountability look like for Kevin Day? Some sort of public reckoning? Ex Ravens coming out and telling the media what really went down in the Nest and the role Kevin played in the hierarchy? How he was the prince, the future legend, the little god of Castle Evermore, as Nora said in the EC. How he was above the general abuse, the suffering all around him, how he only had to answer to the Master and the King, and he had long learned how to keep them calm and himself safe. And how, when it all came to a head, he used the memory of his old, dead friendship with Jean against him, guiltripped him into distracting the monster so that he could escape. How he left Jean to be tortured to death.

But I don’t think it’ll happen, because the shockwaves of that would be monumental for the sport, the hero falling from grace again. And having that happen in the last book of the series simply can’t do it justice. If it did happen though, that would be the narrative holding Kevin accountable.

The alternative would be Kevin himself calling a press conference, of his own volition, and admitting to all of this. That would be a great way to take accountability: acknowledge what happened, what role you played in it, how fucked up it was. That would be Kevin holding himself accountable.

But that’s never going to happen either.

Because that would destroy his ego, and as you said, that might be the only thing he has left.

He is Kevin Day the Son of Exy, the future of the sport, a legend in the making, the hero that led the Foxes to win the Championship against the Ravens, the martyr that sacrificed his childhood for a chance to be Court one day… and he can’t be seen as anything else. It might kill him.

Waymack is possibly the only person with a concrete chance to get through to Kevin, to make him fully realize how much of an insensitive asshole he is to everyone around him and how that’s not fucking ok. But Waymack loves Kevin too much, like he loves all of his Foxes too much. He might give them advice, nudge them in the right direction, but I don’t think he’ll ever directly challenge them. Maybe some of the Foxes. But with someone like Kevin (or Andrew) it would go sideways really fast. Better to just let them do their thing and keep the peace. He lets the Foxes drink and fuck around with court-mandated meds, he provides Kevin with alcohol to use as an emotional crutch. It’s honestly a small miracle how none of the Foxes have died because of their own actions (Seth included since we all know he was murdered). David Waymack is a great character, but I’m not sure he’s a great coach lol until Neil showed up, the Foxes were an absolute dumpster fire. Neil had to meddle, get in everyone’s business to get them to cooperate. But we all know such behavior is “above pay grade” for Coach. So I don’t think that’s a possibility.

Besides, the Foxes’ story is over. This is Jean’s story. Any type of reckoning for Kevin must come from his side, Jeremy’s side, the Trojan’s side. And I don’t think it’ll happen.

It’d be nice to see Jeremy, Captain Sunshine of all people, call Kevin a bastard, because we know how much Kevin cares about his opinion. But idk that seems unrealistic. And it would sound too much like Jeremy fighting Jean’s battles for him, which I don’t like.

Kevin will never truly heal, he will always be a Raven. Like Thea will always be a Raven. They are the worst possible thing for each other. But at the same time, they can’t be with anyone else. Thea will never let Kevin heal and recover from being a Raven, but she is also the only person Kevin can be with.

From the EC we know that for Kevin the grueling practices, the 16h days, the abuse, the torture Jean suffered, were all part of the deal. He accepted those conditions because in return he would get the Perfect Court. And all the Ravens (Thea) believe the same.

But his hand was not part of the deal. That’s the one and only thing that made Kevin want to leave.

Had that not happened, he and Thea would almost be the exact same person, Raven apologists through and through, callous, condescending, solely focused on Exy to the point that if someone gets hurt, their first and only thought is “When can they play again?”

And if you don’t like it, that’s your problem.

So the best possible thing we can do going into the next book is to expect absolutely nothing lol

I hope this made sense, anon. To me it looks like a whole lot of rambling nothing, but maybe you can make some sense of it 🤦🏾‍♀️

#jean moreau #anti kevin day #jeremy knox #jerejean #aftg

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am-i-the-asshole-official · 1 year ago

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AITA for sending a vaguely passive aggressive card?

i (25M) bought a card that says "i will always value our friendship" and inside i handwrote "you dont get to take this decision back, it is unfair to me too. i wish you the best." and gave it to my ex (27F) the day after she cut me off.

we met 2 years ago when we started working at the same job. we instantly hit it off and became close friends, and pretty soon after mutually crushing on each other.

however i had JUST left a super toxic relationship literally the month before and was in no way ready for a new relationship, and i made this clear to her. despite this she still asked to start dating almost every month for the better half of a year. i finally gave in and said yes, but she has to be super ptient as i still dont really feel ready for a relationship and am not over my ex, and havent even gone back to therapy yet to process the trauma of said previous relationship. she said she doesnt mind and even wants to help me process it herself. (key note: she is in college to become a trauma-specialized therapist.) i initially refused but upon her repetitive insistance gave in and let her give me "therapy talks" and whatnot. i dont exactly think i needed traditional talk therapy bc it hasnt benefitted me in the past and instead mostly benefit from EMDR and hypnosis. thats neither here nor there i guess lol.

fast forward a couple months and her car breaks down. she doesnt have any local friends or family so i ended up being her main ride to and from our job even though it was super inconvenient for me. we live in opposite directions on our job, each of us ~30 min drive away from work. so i would have to drive 45 min to her apartment to pick her up, then drive 30 min to work. after work i drive the 30 min back to her apartment, then the 45 min home. for unrelated reasons i end up leaving our mutual job and get a different job, closer to her apartment. ...but i am still her only ride. so now i am driving 45 min to her place, 30 min to HER job, 30 min BACK to her town where i work. now i drive 30 min to pick her up from work, 30 min to drop her off, and 45 min home. (that over three and a half hours of driving a day. she does not contribute to gas money.)

i am admittedly probably the asshole for this but i grow a little resentful of her lack of contribution and her expectation of me to be her ride despite the fact that she does not save money to fix her car or get a new one (she has a shopping addiction and spends a lot of money on knick knacks at antique/thrift stores). so we hardly spend time as a couple since i am always exhausted from work and driving her around. i tell her i dont Want to driver her everywhere and its putting a lot of tension and strain on the relationship bc of it and she is kind of like "well what am i supposed to do, lose my job and get evicted?" and so out of guilt i continue to be her ride.

she decided that me not spending enough time with her outside of driving is unfair and she wants to end the relationship. i agree this is for the best but because we used to be such good friends before, i want to try to be friends still. she agrees. i lay down a hard boundary now though: i will no longer be her ride. she does in fact lose her job and gets evicted from her apartment. by this point she has become friends with one of our old coworkers and ends up moving in to their house with their family, i end up helping her move.

we try to be friends, but she never texts first or asks to hang out or invites me anywhere, and on the rare occassion she agrees to my hangouts, shes extremely snappy and passive aggressive with me and is quick to remind me of what an "absent" boyfriend i was. i get fed up with this after a couple months and tell her i cant be friends with her is shes going to be so mean to me all the time, even if i WAS a bad boyfriend the relationship is over now and it isnt fair to keep holding it over my head. she agrees to try and be nicer to me. we slowly start becoming really good friends again and eventually start regularly hanging out again for a couple months.

my dad fucking dies. i take a month off work and have weekly grief counselling appointments. i kind of ghost everybody i know, not just including my ex/friend, but also my best friend, my cousin, and even my step sister. after a couple months back to work (sleep, go to work, come home, sleep. i didnt do Anything. i barely ate.) i finally start to get out of my depressive funk. i start reaching out to people again. most are super understanding and some are kinda weird about it. when i reach out to my ex and say i finally am starting to feel like a person again and we should hang out, she tells me that i broke her heart again by ignoring her and that i dont get a third chance, and shes cutting me off. she requests i drop off anything i still have of hers (she had some clothes and other stuff at my house) and so i decide to, kind of half genuinely and kind of half sarcastically, buy a "friendship" card.

...so, am i the asshole for buying a card that says "i will always value our friendship" and writing "you dont get to take this decision back, it is unfair to me too. i wish you the best." on the inside, and giving it to my ex the day after she cut me off?

#aita #am i the asshole

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concerningwolves · 2 years ago

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Hey! Do you have any tips for breaking writers block when you're adhd and/or autistic? Be it your own tips or a link to another post? My friend and I need help haha

Ahh sorry you got buried under spam and old ask game asks. (I... really need to sort my ask box >.<' ). But here we go, a month late, and hopefully better late than never:

Quick ideas for beating writer's block when autistic and/or ADHD

I've got this old post I wrote on writer's block and focus troubles. Ironically, this was before my autism diagnosis but the tips still happen to be things I, an autistic person, did to manage writing when faced with executive dysfunction (except I didn't know what executive dysfunction was at that point lol). I'm linking this with one important caveat, though: if you have ADHD, "stepping away" might do more harm than good; struggling to start tasks is a Big Thing with ADHD, so not starting the task at all is entirely counterproductive. (Unless you're in burnout! Here's a post about the differences between block and burnout with some ideas on what to do for each, in case that's at all helpful to you).

And here's something yoinked from another old ask-answer:

sometimes a break from more “serious” writing is what you need. Maybe try and take the characters from your main project and drop them somewhere else for the hell of it. I like to throw my characters into the MCU without warning like “lmao have fun in a strange modern world where there are gods and a guy in an iron flying suit bye.” Or, if fandom cross-overs aren’t your thing, find a writing prompt or take an idea you like and use it to form a short story with your characters instead.

Some other ideas I've seen around for writer's block with ADHD/Autism are:

Try voice recording or text to speech (i.e., absolute stream-of-consciousness unfiltered brain-to-mouth, giving yourself permission to 100% bullshit if you like, and see what rattles loose in the brain box)

Stream of consciousness writing in general, not even necessarily about a particular prompt or particular project. This one can be done in combination with:

Writing sprints! One minute timers, two minute timers, five minutes – set it for as long as you want, but when you're fighting executive dysfunction and/or difficulty focusing, the burst of urgency that comes from a shorter timer is very helpful.

And speaking of the sense of urgency: gamify your writing! There are different ways to do this, with varying elements of risk. I'll link some ways to do this at the end under "resources".

Exercise. I don't necessarily mean hitting the gym, but a quick burst of exercise prior to writing to get the heart rate up can help wake your brain up a bit. (Or, if you find repetitive exercise mind-numbingly boring like I do, the writing sure does start to look appealing lol).

Meditation. Okay, this one is sort of 🤔 for me, because I do often hear from fellow autistics and our ADHD cousins that meditation is literally impossible for us. It is for me. But! Like with exercise above, if meditation bores you instead of helping relax and ""clear your mind"", you can probably use that boredom to your advantage. Or, it might work as intended.

Change your workspace/situation/routine. Sometimes the problem is that you need new sensory input, or that your brain has gotten thoroughly bored and decided not to tell you. Use a different chair. Move to the kitchen table. Write at a different time of day. Have a different snack (or try having a snack while writing...). Basically, look at what you're currently trying, and see how you can do it differently.

It's also really good practise to get comfortable with Being Bad At Writing. Perfectionism and Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria are the biggest, meanest brain weasels with the sharpest teeth. Don't let them bully you. It sucks. It takes a lot of time and effort and internal work, which is why I was loathe to include this on a post of quick solutions, but. It is important.

And getting comfortable with this doesn't necessarily mean learning how to accept critique, or accepting that sometimes you'll write things that suck. It means accepting that sometimes you won't handle critique or feedback well, and also accepting that you won't always manage to beat the writer's block or be productive. Sometimes you have to make peace with the fact that you're going to feel horrible, feel your feelings, and try to remind yourself on the other side that none of it means you're a talentless hack.

Resources

Anything with a 🪙 next to it is paid only (I've tried to limit these and find alternatives).

The resources are split into things that "gameify" writing (i.e., hack your dopamine/serotonin in ways that reaaaaallly help autistic and ADHD folks), writing programs that are designed to help you focus, writing programs that track your habits and appeal to the "ohhhh numbers going up" brain, focus-aiding apps, and some miscellaneous stuff. Under the cut to save your dashes.

"Gamifying" your writing:

The Most Dangerous Writing App – You can't stop typing before your set timer runs out, or you risk losing your work. Excellent for warming up, stream-of-consciousness, or if you're feeling reckless, working on your actual project. I did a lot of the second draft of When Dealing with Wolves on this thing (it was terrifying yet highly effective).

Written? Kitten! – Get rewarded for meeting your set writing wordcount with kitten pictures. Haven't used this one personally, but heard wonderful things about it.

4TheWords 🪙 – This one gamifies writing in the most literal sense. As in, it's an online game where you defeat monsters, explore and level up by writing words. I did the free trial a couple years back, and I've heard there are a lot of different ways you can lower the subscription cost. The only reason I haven't gone back to it is because I feel like I can't justify spending money on it when I'm doing fine with Scrivener and free resources, but maybe one day I will purely for the fun factor...

StimuWrite – similar idea to Written Kitten; the app provides visual/audio stimulation while you write, which is great for many ADHD-ers and autistics. There's a progress bar, soundscape options, typing effects and emoji reactions as rewards, among other features.

Write or Die – This is The Most Dangerous Writing App meets Written Kitten. As far as I can figure out, the basic web version is free to use; you can set the parameters like how how long you want to write for, how many words to reach, and whether you want rewards for meeting goals or punishments for failing to meet them. There's also a stimulus mode, where the nice auditory stimulus goes away if you stop writing.

Minimalist/Focus writing programs:

Focus Writer [Windows] – thoroughly stripped-down minimalist word processor. As far as I know, it has basic functions like find-replace, but mostly it's designed only for writing. Not for formatting, spellchecking or editing.

iA Writer 🪙 [iOS] – Similar to Focus Writer, it's designed to fill your screen with a simple workspace. Allows you to use markdown formatting, and has a feature called Focus Mode that blurs out everything except the sentence you're typing. (If I could find a Windows-friendly alternative to this with that same feature I would be so happy). A cheaper alternative is 1Writer, but that doesn't have the focus mode.

Typewrite Something – Absolutely bare minimum web-based typewriter simulator. Basically just a blank screen that you start typing on, and the words appear in a typewriter font. Great for stream-of-consciousness without the risk level of TMDWA because you can't backspace. If you don't like the clacky sound, turn off your volume.

Focus Apps

Cold Turkey – Block applications and websites on your laptop/computer for a specified period of time. You can even block the entire internet.

Forest – Similar to Cold Turkey in that it stops you from seeking distractions or getting distracted. Set a timer and the app starts growing a tree. If you leave the app, the tree dies. Once you have a tree, you add it to your forest.

Habit-building writing programs:

Novlr – Simple, minimal layout, and tracks your writing goals per month and day, and your daily streak. There are more features in the plus and pro versions, and you can only have five projects in the free version, but otherwise it looks like a good free alternative to the next two programs:

750 Words 🪙 – Made for free writing, but also very useful for drafting. I had it for a month or so a while back on the free trial. It tracks writing streaks and gives you fun graphs and statistics at the end of each session, including number of distractions, actual typing time vs total time and average words per minute. Also, it analyses the mood of what you wrote, which I always found delightful.

Writing Analytics 🪙 – If writing streaks, badges and analytical graphs get your dopamine going, then I really recommend this one. The writing screen itself is very minimalistic, but it still shows your writing speed (I loved watching that go up) and your goal progress. In terms of analytics, it tracks a LOT of different things, including time spent writing vs revising, average wordcounts per day/month/year, and words written vs words deleted. I used this for about a year before I switched to Scrivener, and the switch was purely because I needed something that wasn't subscription-based. (Apparently since I stopped using it there's also a new feature that lets you create private writing rooms and see other writer's progress).

Misc.

WriteTrack – Not a word processor, but it has very good tools for tracking and planning your writing. Again, if graphs going up helps your brain, this is excellent, but you can't see it in real time.

10 ADHD-friendly brain tricks for writers – what it says on the tin: ten tips for writers with ADHD; I'm particularly fond of "Put away one knife", which breaks the nebulous task of "start writing" into something really simple like just... pull out your desk chair.

#autism stuff #adhd #writer's block #writing advice #writing resources

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followfire · 2 months ago

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Jarch prompt: Coffee/Tea

So writing is not going so well anymore lol I actually wanted to post the first chapter of "Blood runs and so does water and wine" on AO3 today since the prompt of the moment is drink related, and the fic is drink related but... I still don't know which chapter is going to be chapter 1 so it's not happening XD

Instead, here is a random chapter:

Blood runs and so does water and wine

An anthology about drinks, Jean, Barbara, the two stages of jealousy and emptiness.

Chapter ? - Chocolate

This morning, Jean had woken up to a surprise: Mondstadt was covered in a beautiful layer of snow.

Light snowflakes were still falling and dancing all around, and the grey heavy clouds felt like a promise that the weather wasn’t about to get any warmer and that the blanket of white was here to stay for the day. The citizens were, for the most part, delighted and young and old alike quickly turned to all the traditional snow activities. It put a warm feeling in Jean’s stomach.

Soon after, another surprise arrived: Alice.

She came sweeping in, opening Jean’s office door and letting herself in like a draft, quickly swapping pleasantries and asking how things were going for her, before expressing how eager she was to spend this beautiful snowy day with Klee and asking where she could find her. And in an instant, she was gone, taking just a few more seconds to wave at Jean, exclaiming “we’ll talk later!”

Since then, Jean had been trying to concentrate and keep that nagging dread at the back of her mind quiet. She was expecting explosions or a panicked knight coming knocking at her door to inform her about some type of destruction or another at any moment. Every hour that passed without such notification felt like yet another surprise.

She resented herself a little, having those feelings about the witch’s return… Alice was always all smiles, warm words and kind intentions, never missing an occasion to share her happiness all around. She was a part of Mondstadt and enjoyed its idea of freedom to the fullest. Jean, as the Acting Grand Master and also as a friend and recipient of Alice’s diverse gifts, should be welcoming her visit.

Yet… Alice, with all her good intentions, was always synonym of stress in Jean��s day. That was one of the things she had learnt, little by little, during her days as Varka’s second-in-command. At first, Alice had seemed like a good-natured - although prone to mishaps - out-of-the-box type of mind. But she then came to understand that actually, every time Alice appeared, chaos followed, and Jean was the one who had to take the initiative of dealing with its consequences, so much that she had learned, in spite of herself and by dint of repetition, to anticipate trouble. She would try, as best as she could and without robbing Alice of the benefit of the doubt that she deserved, to foresee and prevent disasters before they could take shape. Varka had eventually noticed Jean’s tension building each time Alice approached them to expose another of her grand ideas and had tried to placate her by assuring her of the witch’s altruism, but it did nothing to alleviate Jean’s anxiety: she knew Alice meant well, as much as she knew Varka was almost as free-spirited as the red clad adventurer and less preoccupied by maintaining a certain measure of order as Jean herself was.

And then there were her feelings about Klee… But that was a box she wouldn’t allow herself to open lest its content be spilled all over the place.

It was already nearing the end of the afternoon, and Klee and her mother had been out together for the entire day. Jean was happy for Klee. She rarely got to spend time with Alice and must be enjoying herself tremendously right now.

Jean, on the other hand, had spent all that time wondering what Alice meant by “we’ll talk later”.

Was it just the average politeness needed to make up for how she had stormed in and out of Jean’s office, the sort that didn’t have a real talk behind it? Or did Alice really had something to tell her? If so, then what would it be about? A new extravagant idea? Changes already done to Mondstadt’s topography that she had decided to notify Jean about? Klee?

Jean was still debating in her head when Alice opened her door after a few quick knocks, Klee gleefully in tow, wearing big snow boots that were still leaving a wet trail behind her.

“How sad it is to see you still cooped inside!” Alice started. “Klee and I had a wonderful day!”

Klee didn’t waste a second more to chime in.

“Master Jean! We went all the way up the cliff, and made snow angels and snowmen and even had a snowball fight! It was so much fun! Mom is the best!”

Oh, so no destruction, then? That’s uncommon… That’s good news…

“I promised my dear little Klee we would get some hot chocolate together. How about you come and join us? You should enjoy some of the unique winter fun too!”

“It would have been with pleasure, Miss Alice, but I have some work that still needs to be done.”

“Nonsense, Jean! The work will still be here when you get back. It’s not often we can spend time together, the three of us, after all. We could have a chat! My Klee would be delighted too.”

“Yes!” Klee exclaimed, bouncing up and down. “Klee wants Master Jean to drink chocolate with Mom and her so she can tell her all about what we did today!”

A chat, uh? And so Jean agreed to leave her paperwork behind and come along, and the three of them went to the Ordo’s kitchen, where they could get everything they needed to prepare hot chocolate and drink it close to a warm stove while listening to Klee’s joyful recollection of the day’s events.

But Jean herself wasn’t in the mood to appreciate a hot chocolate. Being the most accustomed to the place, she volunteered to prepare the drinks while Alice and Klee could sit and appreciate each other’s company. Jean opened the cabinets one after the other, taking out everything she would need - milk, coca paste, sugar - and listened to them talk happily.

“Klee loves snow! It should snow everyday so Klee and Mom can make a lot of snowmen everywhere!”

“Mom’s travels recently took her in Snezhnaya, where there is snow as far as the eye can see and all year round. We could go there together next time. And build a snowman taller than the Knights of Favonius Headquarters! How wonderful would that be?”

Jean’s eyes quickly lifted up towards Alice and Klee before settling back on the counter where she was preparing the chocolate. Klee was excited by the prospect. Was that what this was all about? Had Alice returned to take Klee with her on her next journey? It was definitely a possibility.

Logically, Jean should feel relieved.

Klee was a very gentle kid and the Knights adored her. But it was also a lot of additional work to handle her… She was too young to be entrusted with the average knight duties and needed to be supervised, not to mention her tendency for damage, be it by inadvertance or not, that needed to be kept in check. All this could be considered as her training, and thus effectively fell into the Knights’ duties - and Jean had no doubt Klee would one day become an honorable knight - but with Varka’s expedition and the Knights down to one-fifth of their forces, they could hardly afford the time and energy it required.

When all the ingredients were mixed together and pleasantly warmed, Jean took the pot away from the fire, filled two mugs and handed one to Klee and one to Alice.

“Only two? You’re not making one for yourself?” Alice asked.

Jean answered, waving her hand while trying to mask her discomfort and the lump that was in her throat right now.

“No, it’s fine, I already had coffee barely an hour ago. I don’t need another drink right now.”

She settled on a chair with them anyway. Alice seemed to have something to tell her, after all, and she did want to hear it. It was highly likely that she was about to announce that Klee would be leaving with her soon and Jean wanted to hear it now and clearly.

It should come with a relief, she kept telling herself… And yet… In spite of all the times she had had to scold Klee, correct her behavior to stir her away from her desire to see things explode, and clean and repair after her…

Jean had to admit that she was very attached to Klee.

The idea of Klee being taken away left her with a terrible sense of dread and frustration. She loathed seeing people she loved becoming distant and out of reach… Deep down, it stayed one of the hardest things to go through for her. But Alice was about to make it happen and she had to accept it.

The witch took a long sip of her chocolate, followed by a long exaggerated sigh of contentment. “Nothing better than a good sugary warm drink to chase away all traces of fatigue left by travels and work, isn’t that right?” She then looked straight at Jean, tilting her head slightly. “I’m sure you can relate, but I’ve been so busy lately, I hardly have time for days like this one. It’s so good to spend time with my dear little Klee, and see how happy she is with all her friends around when I can’t be with her. I don’t expect any less from entrusting my daughter to you, but it is reassuring.”

Reassuring? Jean dreaded she was taking her desires for reality, but would Alice feel ‘reassured’ if her intention was to take Klee with her anyway? Was she leaving Klee in the Knights’ care once more? It would have been simpler if she could just ask, but she wouldn’t. It felt too much like impinging on something that wasn’t hers… Regardless of what she hoped and feared, the decision was Alice’s, so Jean simply let her continue in silence.

“She told me about all the things she gets to do and I can’t be happier that I left her here in Mondstadt! It’s a real joy to see her thriving and growing up doing what she likes! It’s the best place for a free spirit like her.”

This time, Jean kept silent because if she did not, she feared she might not be courteous enough. Alice was rarely in Mondstadt these days, and Klee was right beside them so she didn’t want to voice her grievances now and risk tainting what was supposed to be a special day for the young knight.

Alice’s words rubbed her the wrong way, though, and it was nothing new. She had no intention to interfere in her parenting as it was not her place, but… in a way, she very often ended up interfering anyway, whether she wanted it or not, because of Alice’s own choices and actions.

The adventurer had her very own idea of what was and wasn’t acceptable to do, and had definitely passed down what most would agree to call a penchant for chaos to her daughter. Alice would let Klee have all the fun she wanted without worrying and teaching her to worry about the consequences, and would even encourage her passion for explosions. But then she would vanish and leave the young girl in the Knights’ care, and someone - which would end up being Jean quite often - would have to step in and teach Klee what her mother hadn’t. Jean didn’t like scolding and punishing Klee, but someone had to… She resented that Klee thought she could be scary - she had to admit that she was even a bit hurt - but as the Acting Grand Master, she couldn’t just tolerate Klee’s endeavors and penchant for chaos. Klee was walking the fine line between freedom and disorder and had trouble discerning the difference because of her young age and her upbringing, and Alice just let it be someone else’s problem.

Jean stopped her train of thoughts. She had to admit that she was harsh on Alice… A big part of why the witch wasn’t dealing with this problem was because she didn’t see it as a problem herself, as her idea of chaos and order seemed to be quite different than most, probably due to her nature which gave her a perspective that was different from the one shared by most human beings.

But having to deal with the repercussions while being understaffed was taking a toll…

“Seeing her growing up to be so happy and getting to spend time with her, it lifts my spirit like nothing else can. Do you know what I mean?”

No, Jean didn’t know what Alice meant and she wished she could go straight to the point. Was she taking Klee with her, yes or no?

“Can Klee have marshmallows?” Klee interrupted, her voice innocent.

“Of course, my precious one!” Alice was up in an instant, opening a cabinet, rummaging through it, opening another cabinet until she found a box of marshmallows. “Here they are!”

Looking at her taking the box out, Jean got up too. “No, those are not the ones she likes best. She always asks for the sunsettia flavored ones.” Jean explained and took out the box that was right beside the one Alice had picked. “There you go.” she said, sprinkling a few marshmallows on Klee’s chocolate.

“Thank you, Master Jean!” Klee had already started playing with the floating sweets in her drink.

“Oh, sunsettia? They look delicious indeed!” Alice said, taking one herself as she sat back down.

Jean repressed an out of line sigh. She was getting impatient with Alice…

She knew how uncharitable and spiteful her thoughts were, but Alice didn’t even know about Klee’s favorite marshmallows, which, in the grand scheme of things, certainly was incidental, but… It reflected the fact that Alice wasn’t there to take care of Klee everyday.

And Jean was feeling the most unbecoming but inescapable pang of jealousy towards her. Because Klee adored her mother to bits anyway. She was her favorite person in the whole world, which made sense since she was, quite simply, her mother. Yet she wasn’t even present to take care of her everyday. She chose to be away. She would just drop in from time to time to give Klee the best of days, allow her anything she wanted and indulge her in her destructive activities, and disappear again. Meanwhile Jean herself had to be one of Klee’s custodians the rest of the time and partake in the unamusing events and actual struggles that came with caring for a child. And she resented how much Klee, still, adored her mother to bits. Alice was her favorite person, meanwhile Klee’s opinion of Jean was that she could be scary sometimes. And yes, she could. Jean was satisfied that Klee knew she could be scary, satisfied that Klee knew there could be consequences to her actions, be it at least Jean’s disapproval and punishments. But she wished Alice would play a part in this bad side of education too, and not leave this role entirely to her.

It hurt her to see how Alice remained Klee’s favorite person even through her absence, while Jean’s own efforts just made her less likable in the girl’s eyes.

“I have so much to do, all around Teyvat, and it keeps me away for so long. You know as much as I do how those things are: when the flowers are in bloom, you don’t find the bees quietly in the hive!” Alice picked up where she left off, chuckling at that last sentence and trying to share a moment of complicity over workload with Jean, who was still uncertain about where this tirade was going. “I don’t resent that I have to be away for so long. It is for affairs of the utmost importance, and matters that only I can deal with, so how could I?”

She proclaimed it with an enthusiasm that managed to say on its own that for Alice, this was not just about duty. It was about passion too. She never truly disclosed what it was that she was doing beyond Mondstadt’s borders, other than writing travel guides, but it was clear it was both important and dear to her.

“But when I come back, I leave all thoughts of work behind to focus fully on enjoying my time with Klee, and I don’t resent my time here any more than my time away.”

By the glances Alice kept addressing her, Jean could tell that she was trying to sympathize; that she expected her to understand. But she was missing how different her and Jean actually were. This was not a matter Jean could manage to relate to, not when it came to who she would keep close to her…

Alice got to choose herself whether she wanted to stay in Mondstadt or travel abroad, as much as she got to choose whether Klee was going to accompany her or not. She could reflect on it and decide if she was satisfied with what she settled on.

Resentment towards her own choices felt like a luxury that Jean never had the opportunity to have. Instead, she was used to being faced with powerlessness over seeing the ones she cared about moving away. Her parents’ divorce, Diluc and Kaeya’s fight, Alice and Klee… It was never about her, nor up to her, yet the separations that ensued always took a piece of her away. And she could not get this piece back by herself no matter how hard she tried, because it was simply not about her.

Once again, when Alice would decide to take Klee with her, it would be rightfully so. It would be beyond Jean’s reach.

“All that to say, taking care of a nation will always leave you beyond busy but you shouldn’t forget to allow yourself to take a good long break from time to time, just like I do when I come here to enjoy a day with Klee.”

…

Was…?

…Was that it?

Not that Jean didn’t value Alice’s words - she did, especially since she was far from being the first person to tell her exactly this - but she had expected the end of this conversation to be more… life altering?

So this was never about taking Klee away after all? Just about delivering a piece of advice?

Klee was still sipping and enjoying her chocolate right next to them, playing with the swimming marshmallows, oblivious to what was going on inside Jean’s head even more than her mother seemed to be, and Jean found herself thinking that maybe she wanted to make and drink her own chocolate after all… and enjoy it with Klee and Alice’s company before it was too late.

After a beat, she smiled at Alice and got up to start preparing her own drink. It would also give her a moment to collect her thoughts and find a way to properly answer to her without giving away the turmoil that was still gripping her.

Dread still wouldn’t let her go. So her fears were not becoming reality this time, but it didn’t change the heart of the problem: that Jean could do her best for Klee, be there and see her everyday, try her best to let her have as much fun as possible without giving way to her destructive tendencies… Yet it would never be enough for her to be assured that Klee would stay in her life. Alice could decide to take her daughter away from Mondstadt any time she wanted, and Jean would only watch her leave. She hated how Alice was holding this over her head and wasn’t even aware of it.

If… —When it came to happen, Jean would take it in stride, as was befitted of her. But she would hate it, as she always had.

#Genshin Impact #Fic #Jarch #Jarch2025 #Jean Gunnhildr #Klee #Alice #enim #enim Genshin #And I die and go to bed bye

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prettyoddfever · 6 months ago

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i was poking around on crystal city clothing's old site (johnny whitney from the blood brothers' clothing brand) and apparently he designed shirts for panic?? definitely these two but there's more and the images just weren't saved </3

I don't think I've ever see that yellow one before which is super cool. Anyway I was wondering if you knew how that happened? it doesn't really seem like they would run in the same scene lol but idk. Or anything abt the other unsaved shirts? And does the version of the speakers shirt with the pink (not yellow) text actually exist? Sorry for all the questions haha I just think this is really neat :p

random side tangent first: back then there were SO many graphic designers selling shirts on various sites and posting about their projects too... I guess I sort of took that whole art movement & culture for granted and thought it would always be around. But from the bits I saw, it seemed like people would share their designs on their blogs or in forums & places where you could have a portfolio and then they'd say like which designs were picked up by bands or companies and which ones got rejected. Sometimes they'd complain that a band's management said they wanted a certain concept at first, but then switched directions. Stuff like that. I know at one point in 2008 Panic's label asked that submissions have a hand-drawn look.

I don't personally know if Johnny Whitney had any connection with people at FBR beyond designing in a style that they ended up liking. His style looks like he might have been the artist behind some of the summer tour shirts as well but idk for certain who did each shirt.

I never saw the yellow shirt you shared get used, but the first shirt pictured above was an official piece! The design was shrunk in the end and the text color got changed. Many times FBR would accept a design and then change aspects. I remember seeing some designers surprised that their art showed up on an entirely different colored shirt. Some examples of changes that were made:

AJ Dimarucot

Chris Rushing

Brandon Herbel

Geoff May had some of my favorite designs! The two at the bottom of that post were rejected and never became actual merch, though.

Sometimes even the stuff that got picked up by the band didn’t end up getting used. And other times a design didn't become official merch sold on tours and/or in the FBR webstore, but instead got handed off to other sites & stores that sold the same repetitive band merch. Other times those retailers got a slightly modified version of official designs, like on a different color shirt (like how the speaker shirt you shared got switched to be on a red shirt).

But yeah often designers would have a whole page of designs they submitted to a certain band. Several might have been used while many others were left over. Even Eduardo Recife (who had a TON of accepted designs) still had a couple that weren't picked up.

#merch

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Big husbands have always been what the girlie wants, I'm pretty sure as much as WH40K does sound like where the edgelords hang out, something I heard before, doesn't mean women or anyone else can't hang out there and wouldn't fuck those edgelords lol, I mean WH40K does seem to be alpha male or masculine energy world for the guys but I digress, girlies love them too cuz they're cute even though they're warmongering megalomaniacs

It reminds me how Space King the show made based on WH40K, at the end of the pilot they said 'this is the indie animation for mentally ill teenage boys and 30 years old men" as a subtle jab at themselves and the indie animation world in general cuz before this, indie animation was made for mentally ill teenage girls, as a former teenage girl who may or may not be mentally ill, I say they're bloody correct cuz the fandom for the indie animation is very crazy and I'm not even all that engaged in the fandom but I can see why, indie animation being mature doesn't stop kids from going into them and I was one of them being hooked on this cool adult cartoon show that I definitely didn't understand all that much about the adult topics and now, well it kinda lose the magic of the first time but I didn't hate what I went through, it was a nice trip

But the joke here is probably because of the crazy fangirls, the fact one of the most famous indie animation which I got hooked on was made by a woman and well if there was this sort of belief that indie animation seem to target girls more than boys cuz they really appeal to the girls, I mean I'm a girl I can see why, I'm pretty sure that doesn't mean to be sexist at all since I'm a girl and I enjoy Space King, said to be for the boys and it really encourages me to check WH40K so yeah definitely not meant to be sexist, just a jab at an entire field of media, plus I think the 30 years old men part of the joke is probably because how the Fandom of WH40K is very much old and it's been about more than 3 decades since it started so that's very hilarious cuz they do have 30 years old fans in them, also it's possible the animators are the very same 30 years old men in the joke

I mean an indie animation bringing up lots of irony and fun in the forms of the varied media it features in itself is something that I never knew I needed before

Here's the pilot for Space King, a really good watch, I recommend it

It wouldn't be weird to even call Space King as WH40K for kids even cuz they definitely look like stuff kids and teenagers would watch and help you get used to WH40K writing and worldbuilding in a funny and mature way actually since despite the jokes, they take their inspiration very seriously

I’ve seen Space King around, and it look funny, honestly. I have just never gotten around to it. I also don’t think there is anything sexist? About it?

I like how inspiration just a repetitive cycle too.😭

#♞ichors' respire

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california-112 · 7 months ago

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Episode ask game!

-Beyond the Sea

-Irresistible

-Pusher

-Demons

(All my season favorites)

+ Excelsis Dei because I think you’ll be funny:)

Oh, multiple! This will be fun!

For reference and to avoid repetition, here is the scale:

S01E13 'Beyond The Sea' - This Is Fantastic

Sticks to the pattern of the Christmas ep going directly for the feels

Surprise Don Davis! But he dies basically immediately so :(

Scully's backstory gets quite a bit of a reveal though

Mulder whump! Complete with hospital scenes! The gods are kind to us today

I actually cheered when Scully went to Boggs after Mulder was shot and absolutely went off at him

And how Scully takes over on the case whilst Mulder is in the hospital and sees it through to the end...

The fake deal scene yesss

S02E13 'Irresistible' - This Is Great

I'm not gonna lie. First watch around I didn't find it too compelling

That said it was during the period when I was going through like seven episodes a day so...a lot of things flew right by me lol

Moe Bocks the UFO guy! Wish we'd seen more of him!

Mulder just took the case to go see the game and then all this happens. Bruuuh

Pfaster is creepy as f*ck just in general how did he ever get a job anywhere

Yet another Scully kidnapping :(

She does practically get away all by herself, though! You go girl!

Then when Mulder tilts her head after the rescue at the end...and the hug...your honour I have never felt more touch starved in my life who said that. Anyway

Great ep for Scully's character from an outsider perspective but sucked to be her :'(

S03E17 'Pusher' - One Of My Favourites

First of all the whole bit of Modell being able to just talk people into doing things is so interesting as a concept

This is the one with Dave Grohl in it for no reason so that's fun

The falling asleep in the car on the stakeout...

"Please explain to me the scientific nature of the whammy"

Modell looks like Sam Neill from The Dish or is it just me

The scene in the van where Mulder says 'smile, Scully' almost destroyed me

And then THE RUSSIAN ROULETTE. HOLY SH*T

Something something Mulder's mental state is secretly (!) really bad. Let's examine that in a fic (coming soon!) (hopefully!)

S04E23 'Demons' - One Of My Favourites

OH MY GOODNESS this ep.

First of all the scene in the motel where Scully takes care of Mulder I am DECEASED it lives in my head RENT FREE FOREVER

Particularly the line 'Did you take anything, Mulder?' as discussed in this ask

The rest of the ep though. Mulder's insistence to pursue the case despite his condition as he doesn't remember if he shot the Cassandras. The fact that he's actually literally having seizures and Scully is trying to get him to a hospital and he keeps refusing. And then the climax scene in the old house...waaa

And the fact that this is RIGHT BEFORE Gethsemane but we're not talking about that here

The amount of fics around this episode is obviously immense, but some of my favourites are Blood And Water by @agent-troi, Provisions by @freckleslikestars, and Dancing With Mephistopheles by Satchie, everyone go check them out!

S02E11 'Excelsis Dei' - Neutral

This is being kind. I might avoid it on a rewatch

It was boring even to skippy rewatch to write this but it would make good background whilst I'm working (recently I have been listening to episodes like audiobooks whilst doing particularly mindless tasks and it works surprisingly well)

I only really liked the climax scene in the bathroom and even that didnt climax enough imo

To quote the fic plan that I have for this episode:

The rest of the episode is meh due to the subject matter and portrayals etc.

The '''plumbing''' comment though 💀 Scully should have got to drop kick that guy

Also Teryl Rothery!!! Hello!!!

Thanks for this ask! It made my day a lot better to get to review these episodes! :)

#i did some skippy rewatches of these eps and it was great #youve got good taste in favourite episodes :)#if you liked pusher just wait till you get to kitsunegari #i wasnt expecting so many tho bestie or i would have sent you more :'(#right! tag time #x files #ask #s01e13 #beyond the sea #s02e13 #irresistible #s03e17 #pusher #s04e23 #demons #s02e11 #excelsis dei

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atwistinthetail · 2 years ago

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my s3 rewrite headcanons

like, obviously my perfect s3 includes emma and lewis for the entire season, but I’m going to engage with the season on its own terms here

here we go~

the comet/moon rock stuff is OUT sorry not sorry but that’s a no from me

I’m fine with Bella’s origin story but the moon pool that turned her should be its own separate thing with different rules and characteristics

maybe she has a different tail color, like different moon pools create different “subspecies” of mermaids

instead of the water trying to warn them about the end of the world, maybe Bella’s magic is conflicting with the Mako moon pool bc they are two different sources of magic, and that’s why the magic is going haywire

instead of Sophie and Ryan mining the moon pool, it could be self-destructing or warping in some way due to the competing magical forces

how do they fix it? I don’t know but I’m sure they could figure it out. Maybe they all hop in during a full moon and they all steep in the magic and it like combines all their auras or something and brings balance to the force. There can still be a cool showdown where they use all their power to do some big spectacle and fix everything, nothing would be as silly as a comet headed straight towards earth

it would also address that things only start going wrong when Bella shows up, and they never question that. It should be bc she shows up, but like it’s not her fault

this is an obvious one everyone says but just… make Will a merman. Maybe it felt like too many merpeople but honestly you can’t have too many merpeople and with a show like this you just have to lean into the camp as much as possible

a new person transforming into a mermaid is also the only repetitive plot that doesn’t get old imo. “My boyfriend can’t find out” is old news, bring me “My boyfriend has turned into a merman”

he could transform on his own without anybody finding out at first, since he has already discovered the moon pool independently. As he and Bella get close, they are both trying to hide the fact that they are merpeople, but they also both want to know what the other is hiding so they are in this constant tango of trying not to be suspicious

and it would eliminate Will being such a rude ass about forcing Bella to reveal her secret

what ramifications does mermania have on Will’s relationship with Sophie if he has to abandon his training?

y’all know this was coming bc it’s me, but we have to fix zikki, I mean this is truly dire. I’m not saying they shouldn’t have problems, but there were so many better problems they could have

first of all, we must get rid of the Rikki/Will ship tease, it has no place here

if Will is a merman, the Will/Rikki/Zane melodrama could be improved. There’s a new guy bonding with Rikki who shares a huge part of her life that Zane never can, and that’s a more interesting insecurity than just being jealous of this new hot guy who made her a friendship necklace

we can do the same thing with Sophie. Rikki seems to have some level of imposter syndrome about running the cafe, at least prior to opening, so it makes sense that Sophie, with more experience and confidence, would be a threat when she impresses Zane

goodbye to the it’s-not-what-it-looks-like Sophie/Zane kiss, it’s the worst reason zikki could have broken up, and we basically already did it with Miriam in s1

Zane didn’t have to revert to his start of s1 self to, like, be a problem. I can definitely see him inadvertently mansplaining business to Rikki, getting into financial trouble bc he’s overconfident, like the same kinds of things they tried in s3 but a lil more nuanced. I don’t see him outright trying to commit fraud lol more like he would make risky financial moves or find dangerous “opportunities” like the treasure hunt to make ends meet

all of that can still cause tension and arguments, but they would be the arguments a committed couple running a business would have, not just more tired teenage jealousy

and they should have ended the series still together lol like I think my stance is clear but I just needed to say it

once Lewis leaves, Zane should take his place as the human protector of the secret. His impulsive, reckless approach to problem-solving would create a new dynamic in the group. He and Rikki would butt heads on how to handle mermaid problems, but it would also let him bond more with the other girls

and eventually Will, bc everyone is friends at the end of my season. They don’t have to be besties but they would be gently competitive allies

Zane would also definitely call Lewis as a lifeline at least once. Their misadventures never miss

speaking of phone calls, they should have called Emma a few times. They wouldn’t have even needed to have a voice on the line, it could have been a one-sided conversation just to show they’re all keeping up

and to confirm she dumped Ash lol SORRY to any Ash girlies if you’re out there

another obvious one, but they should have kept wearing their lockets. Maybe they don’t wear them all the time, but to stop wearing them entirely? They could still also have their own new thing including Bella and Will. Friendship bracelets?

Miss Chatham should have made at least one appearance to meet Bella. Does she know there are other mermaids from other parts of the world?

a Halloween episode where all the mermaids go as mermaids and just have their tails out and everybody thinks they just have really great costumes (I feel like Halloween isn’t as much of a thing in Australia as it is in the US? but they should still do it for the hijinx)

Cleo tells Don and Kim the secret. If Emma told beige-ass Ash the secret there is no way that at least Cleo and Emma would not have told their parents as well, at least as a “finale” kind of move

every couple should have gotten an underwater kiss, I’m sorry but that should be a law in all human/sea creature romance

everyone is happy and friends at the end

Clewis are their perfect endgame selves of course

Zikki is intact, but probably realize that being business partners (or at least partners in this particular business) isn’t for them, but they have come out of their issues stronger as a couple and secure in pursuing their individual endeavors as well

the moon pool is still in shambles but it died of natural causes and it’s still suggested that they will be spending their summer putting it right

the last cafe scene and sing along can stay, but the actual last scene is everybody together at the moon pool 🩵

#h2o just add water #just add water #h2o jaw #long post

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s3cr3tjuic3 · 4 months ago

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Listen.

I’ve seen some of your older hunger games agere posts. I have a request for a severely underrated character (in my opinion-)

…..Thresh agere headcanons?? Little, Caregiver, Flip, I don’t know; ID LIKE HEADCANONS FOR HIM :(

i gotta admit, seeing the notif with just "Listen." made me nervous lol

BUT I AGREE!! Thresh is very underrated!

sooooo, ask and you shall receive!!

Flip!Thresh Headcanons!

R!Thresh

-Thresh regresses to middle years, usually 9-12. if he has a particularly bad day, he feels a little smaller but never smaller than 6.

-Thresh regressed frequently back in his district with his family. he's a pretty independent little so he normally keeps to himself. when he's feeling smaller than normal, he'll cling to his grandmother's side. their favorite activity together is baking pies if they have the resources :) he looooves peach cobbler

-when he's by himself likes to play with some of his old wooden dolls that he has hidden under his mattress. he has the same continuous storyline he's been adding to for a few years.

-he also keeps a small journal where he likes to write a shortened version of his storyline and what he thinks will happen next time he plays

-he has insomnia, and that only gets worse when he's small. he has a small music box that his mother gifted him on one of his birthdays. when he has bad nights or just cant fall asleep, he lays on the floor, winds up the music box, lays there with his eyes closed and hums along until it stops. then starts the process all over again until he falls asleep or the sun rises, whichever happens first.

-wheh he does fall asleep, especially after regressing, he sleeps like a rock. it takes his sister banging pots and pans together to wake him up. if he's particularly cranky during the day, and his grandmother convinces him to take a nap, he sleeps through everything around him.

CG!Thresh

-when being a caregiver, Thresh fits the gentle giant stereotype extremely closely. he's very soft-spoken towards his little and encourages them gently. he doesnt talk much, usually when his little talks to him or asks him a question. otherwise, he prefers a comfortable silence or the chatter and babbles from his little.

-he's rather awkward when playing with a little, or just in general, and usually chooses to watch over them while they play and explain what their doing. if his little somehow manages to drag him into playing pretend or something similar, he likes to play the villain/monster and make silly noises.

-since he's very tall and noticeably strong, he can easily pick up his little and carry them around if they want that. he really enjoys carrying around littles since he doesn't have to talk to them much and a lot of the time, they spend all their time in his arms giggling from bounces or falling asleep from repetitive swaying.

-he is also very strict with rules. he's not mean but he makes sure that routine is in order. bedtime is bedtime and (almost) no amount of puppy dog eyes can convince him to let his little stay up much later. now, if his grandmother is helping him look after a little, thats another story.

-he loves giving gifts to his little. a lot which are handmade from scratch and extra junk he can find lying around. since he's very strict, he uses the gifts as a reward system for his little. good behavior means a new gift. small things for small gifts, bigger things for bigger gifts. it works well for his love of gift giving and for encouraging his little to be on their best behavior

-he's not much for initiating physical touch/affection, but if his little asks or even just clings to him, he easily accepts it, but makes sure to ask them what they want specifically.

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i really hope this lived up to your expectations lol, i had lots of fun with this :]

ty for sending this in!

also i so did not spellcheck this

#age regression #sfw agere #agere #sfw age regression #fandom agere #hunger games #the hunger games #thg #hunger games agere #the hunger games agere #thg agere #✧s3cr3t scribbles #asks #asks open #anon ask #anonymous

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goongiveusnothing · 9 months ago

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I was sorta still a fan during the beginning of the last tour and so I was still watching some livestreams and looking at the hsdlot updates. Every day me and my mutuals would get excited to see what he would wear and what’d he’d say during his talking break lol. But as time went on he just kept wearing the same uggo outfits and saying the same shit about “edging” and the “choke her” line plus that ugly stomping dance etc etc the same repetitive things that he knew would get a rise out of the audience. Honestly I think every harrie felt how I felt at that point, nothing was new or exciting anymore and it started feeling pointless to keep watching clips from the shows. By the second year of the tour I honestly had no idea was going on at his concerts and didn’t even know he had new band members much less who they were. He always just finds something that gets the fans excited and does it over and over but what he doesn’t realize is the reason it gets them excited is because it’s a new crumb he feeds them after starving them for so long💀Once you do it too many times the novelty wears off. He’s not gonna be able to get by in this new era of fun and authenticity and he can’t backtrack either because he already made his bed. His peak is so over lol.

this is how i see his fans acting and talking.

notice that nobody even mentions pleasing anymore? i never even see normies on other sites reviewing the brand anymore, that's how far it's fallen. people still review kylie's brands and they're all flops. nobody even knows or cares harry's stuff exists, not even his own fans!

i think fans get caught into a hype cycle where they believe he's incredible, so funny, interesting, talented. they share all the same clips and stories hyping him up. so they want everything about him they can get. when the tour comes out they want all of it. they need all the updates, the livestreams, the stories, the outfits, the angles, the one liners. they want secret easter egg sentences they can decode. they want to see his girlfriends or not see them.

and that's why olivia also helped with his tour, because fans loved to hate watch her there. hating her there was part of their entertainment. reporting she wasn't there was part of the fun.

but when you actually pay attention to him... you realize he's fucking boring! he's not talented! the show does nothing! he's not creative! he gives zero energy! he repeats all the same old jokes! he's not really flirting with men! he's not secretly gay or trans! he does seem to really love israelis! he stays away from palestinians! he does the same old shit again and again! the outfits are all fucking boring! he wears one outfit per night. the same fucking songs over and over. his friend group are all the same scum of the earth people.

so fans start ignoring some livestreams or concerts or stories about him. then it's only a few times a week they check in. then casually. then they're making jokes about him too, pretending it's just fun. then he breaks up with a girl and they lose interest because the girlfriend was part of the interest and you can't even hate on her anymore. then he stops touring and does nothing. absolutely fucking nothing. and you just stop caring and move on entirely and look back at it and be honest with yourself that most of the time you were bored out of your mind, desperate for more, more real talent, presence, activism, engagement. and you don't even miss him anymore.

#harry styles

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chubfeather · 1 year ago

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Fireheart x Morningflower AU Drabble

The old "what if I ship THIS rarepair as a joke?" but as per usual I get attached to said rarepair. Anyways. Here's some very scrambled `1 am thoughts.

I'll do something more concrete after I reread tpb again cause since Morningflower isn't a major character, somethings are blurry!

This is also a "Fireheart goes to Windclan" AU but its AFTER he's become a warrior of Thunderclan. Mostly because I thought it would be fun and also because I think it would be the most likely scenario for a Fire/Morning ship to work.

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-In this AU, Fireheart fails to convince Bluestar that Tigerclaw is a threat. He's exiled, but finds refuge in Windclan [I think Jake tells Tallstar something about Fireheart at the end of Tallstar's revenge so that but its taken further]. Tallstar is more then happy to take in Fireheart when he both saved his clan and was talked about by his old mate [Tallstar/Jake is canon you can't tell me otherwise]. Tallstar almost sees Fireheart as a kit he never had.

-Kind of a take on what happens if one of starclan's prophecys fail cause they never do that and its lame [I'm only caught up to dawn of the clans so if they have done that afterwards my bad]. Since Bluestar doesn't end up trusting Fireheart's instincts "Fire alone can save our clan" doesn't pan out!!!

-Obviously this has a lot of implications when it comes to the main plot of tpb but I just like changing things to see where I would make them end up. Stuff like if Tigerclaw killed Bluestar, what happens to Yellowfang, what happens to Graystripe and Riverclan and Bloodclan, how Fireheart might be considered a traitor by other clans and how much Windclan would/wouldn't accept him. etc. lol. Big AU for tiny ship.

-Probably going to either fill in some windclan warriors or take a realllll close look at the allegiances between books because so few are actually listed in the first series.

-Not sure exactly when I want Fireheart's exile to take place- I think I would place it somewhere between Graystripe leaving for Riverclan and Tigerstar's murder attempt on Bluestar, but I'll think on that.

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-Anyways onto the actual Fire/morning stuff.

-Other then talking at gatherings about how Gorsepaw is doing, the two don't really get romantic until after Fireheart joins Windclan. Originally on my main art blog I thought it would be funny if Fireheart was sneaking out to see Morningflower in the same vein Graystripe does with Silverstream, but I think that's too repetitive and a bit out of character for Fireheart [he's seen sneaking out and breaking the warrior code plenty sure, but he's also seen to be a complete goofball when it comes to romance]

-Fireheart acts as a sort of surrogate father for Gorsepaw [who lives in this au]. More father figures in Warriors please. [Pretty sure Morningflower's canon mate is Cloudrunner which is WILD becuase Cloudrunner was a moorunner warrior when Tallstar was a kit and Tallstar was Morningflower's mentor?????? What I'm saying is he's old as hell. I don't thin he's in TPB so I'm just assuming he's dead or generally ignoring his existence for now] Gorsepaw would absolutely adore having Fireheart in windclan

-Onestar and Fireheart being brother in laws is cute and they won't have the same kind of falling out if Fireheart is in windclan [Idk if Fireheart would ever become leader of windclan but hey. Question for another day]. Don't ask me about Ashfoot. I forgor what she's like

-I mostly like this ship because I like the thought of Fireheart being the one who comforted Morningflower in what was probably one of the darkest moments of her life!!! and also that Morningflower is such an underutilized character, with her retiring [rather early, i think she's brother's with Onewhisker?] to the elder's den after she feels like she avenged her son, but the way she fought so fiercely to do so always makes her stand out in my mind : (

-With how protective Fireheart is over Sandstorm in the last few books of tpb I think he would absolutely do the same for Morningflower and his adopted son.

-I have many doodles planned and will expand on this as I think of stuff haha. Will have to make some stuff up for Morningflower seeing as she doesn't appear in the books often.

#hey how come so many cats in windclan have the name gorse. gorsestar. gorsefoot. gorsepaw. are there any other gorses i should know about #squirleflight and leafpool probably still exist At Some Point #I think this ship would make leafpool cousins with crowfeather[?] so thats a whole thing that would have to change but w/e #warriors #warrior cats #morningflower #fireheart #windclan fireheart #warriors au #fireheart x morningflower #rarepair #headcannons #alternate universe #I gotta draw gorsepaw soon dont let me forget

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