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Angel, on medication and can't have alcohol: Give me a martini, virgin.
Husk: Your pig ate all my olives, and don't call me virgin again.
#this is an old joke but it tracks lmao#no one in hell ever asks for non alcoholic so it caught husk off guard#it becomes an internal joke#hazbin hotel#hazbin hotel angel dust#hazbin hotel husk#huskerdust#angelhusk
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Thinking about Mass Effect, as you do, and how I'm kind of sad that the way it's been engraved in pop culture has more to do with the way internet reacted to it at the time than what the actual game is about. Yes sure, it's about romance (and not that much all things considered) and it's pulpy (but not solely because of hot lady aliens), but it's also intricate worldbuilding that touches on a lot of sharp ideas, and a complicated tug-of-war between a genuine and vulnerable belief in reconciliation and community VS post 9-11 US military propaganda and steadfast belief in heroic exceptionalism, and the melancholic yet energizing mood, and the daring narrative systems, and so so much more than the 'We'll Bang OKs" and the "There's No Shepard Without Vakarian" and the whole ME3 ending situation
It's all there, but I'm sad the impact of the series is often reduced to (what I think is) the least interesting parts of its sum
#mass effect#mass effect meta#and what I'm the MOST sad about#is how bioware internalized a lot of that I think#I think Mass Effect 3 and especially the Citadel DLC suffered from trying to pull itself in the shape of what the fandom expected#it's why I'm so ambivalent about Mordin's seashell bit --which I do find kinda cheap in its attempt at being an obvious crowdpleaser#and it's why a lot of the Citadel DLC jokes don't land as well as they could have for me#AND why I didn't react that well to Andromeda either#which to me forgot a lot of its strong worldbuilding foundations and sincerity#and ended up feeling so very... “liberal” to me --if you can forgive my semi-judgmental wording#as in: gestures at inclusion and would do pronoun rounds probably but will never lift a finger to criticize actual systems of power#it's “nicer” and people are more fun but the colonialist project is never sincerely questioned by the narrative#elon musk-like “genuises” are given a god-like aura#species become mostly tired and watered-down versions of their archetypes...#I don't know. I'm sure a lot of people will disagree but yeah I was thinking about this today
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it sucks that p4's final antagonist had to be a woman. it sucks that p4's final antagonist had to be trans. it sucks that p4's final antagonist had to have an ambiguous gender identity. it sucks that p4's final antagonist had to be inhuman. it sucks.
#kommento#ゲッー#// if they were more popular and not an antagonist and maybe a more significant character their discourse would rival yosuke's homophobia#// p4 has such beautiful concepts that didnt seem to really follow through as thoroughly as i wouldve liked#// wow heres how the part of you that you deny who who tries to get you to destroy yourself unless you accept it and instead become stronge#// heres a commentary on how you should enjoy things that are real and true to enjoy life instead of rotting away with lies and whats fake#// wow heres parallels to the creation myth which defines the story and shows the hero's path to defeat the villain to arrive at the same#// relatively peaceful conclusion the mythology it takes its motifs from#// well it was 2008 and social media is intrusive and people will take everything at face value and turn a character's meaningful#// internalized homophobia and emphasize it into a joke for the sake of laughs which further puts everything BACK into the fog#// i wouldnt have minded how everyone else depicts iznmi but im just so irked about the mass internalized misogyny no one seems to notice#// and how all this stereotyping is becoming normalized exactly like what happened to the IT discourse trio#// i know mamiya said iznmi is something that projects nothing but rather reflects ideas but i just wish that people were#// kinder and nicer and more considerate to something that isnt real#// i guess p5deities are more peaceful to me because they arent obligated to take a more human looking form than what#// iznmi's character design called for. i mean you've got a robot chicken. exposed organs and veins from machinery. a box. feathers. fnaf.#// sorry for making another post like this i dont mean to. but at least it's better than me posting in 2021 i suppose
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thinking of my blorbos but not in a "i love you you love me all is well" way but a "i love you hope you kill me" way lol
#cylas vents#negativity#negative#death wish#lmao#bitches be like '[potentially concerning thing]' and then add 'lol' as if it's funny or a joke lmao#like i mean technically it's not but then again it is bc it's me. like yeah don't worry don't take this seriously don't mind me ok#it doesn't really matter anyway kk. or maybe it's more like I'm the joke.#like idk the thought that like most of my f/os would probably kill me on sight should be less comforting than it is i guess#imagine casually making posts like this and still being like 'ok but maybe im not actually mentally ill maybe im faking maybe im lying to#myself maybe im making excuses maybe im imagining things maybe im just lazy' etc etc#none of the antidepressants since fluoxetine decided it's over have done shit and even my psychiatrist now is always like 'hm. so do you#want to keep trying other things' and like yeah what else can i do? therapy didnt do anything for this specific issue and the tagesklinik#lady didnt really seem to get my issue (well her suggestions for like therapy groups or whatever were more about socialising or whatever#like ??? girl that's really not the main problem here lmao but she also did have a point about how i would have to actually go there every#day etc but like#what else am i supposed to do#hi i am always tired and sometimes struggle to even get out of bed and thats why i worry about getting a job or something bc it could become#too much or whatever but like unfortunately thats kind of a requirement for everything lmao#when psychiatrist asks what i want/expect or whatever i am internally like 'a magic pill that just fixes everything and makes me a normal#functional human being' but like that's just not A Thing (tm)#so. like. what else am i supposed to do.#i don't want to be like this forever#idk how to tag lmai#using stuff like#tw suicidality#tw suicidal#tw suicidal ideation#just feels so over the top and like i dont have the right to use them lol
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Do you have any songs you associate with the group and or a particular DunMeshi character? I have a few I associate with Laios and Kabru (mostly Hozier tbh) but been having a harder time for Falin, Marcille, and even Thistle.
the way this launched me into a day long project of making playlists lmfao
This one I haven't curated super well, but I think i put it in a general progression that makes sense. Unfortunately I have a very small range of music that I listen to so Falin just turned into my millionth Sara Bareilles/Ingrid Michaelson themed girlie LMAO
Highlights on this playlist for me:
"Let the Rain" is just an entire mood for post-canon Falin I think. the line that hits the hardest about her for me is "and I always felt it before, that the world was filled with much more than the drowning soul I've learned to be."
"Twenty-three" i know i know i know it's kpop and no one's gonna get the lyrics but I couldn't not put it on the list. it's literally about being 23 and not knowing what kind of "woman" you want to become and still feeling like you want to be a kid a little bit and wanting to be understood but knowing that you don't even understand yourself and feeling like you're running out of time because you're firmly in your 20's now
"Secrets" i know is incredibly personal to Mary Lambert but most of the lyrics really fit and that like... intensely joyful self expression is just so delightful and lovely and what i want for Falin in the post-canon.
"I Am Here" to me, is just the ultimate celebration of being alive, of being joyful and grateful and happy that you're a messy animal that can laugh and hurt. I think Falin would cherish being half-monster, the fact that it gave her a second chance at choosing to be alive rather than sacrificing herself for others and letting that be her entire story, and the freedom it gives her to keep living.
you have to promise not to judge me on this one. you have to. yes i went ahead and curated an entire playlist that has okay-ish transitions/flow between songs and thematically follows Marcille's journey through the story. i also put a bit of kpop on it but it FITS okay she's a girly girl!!!!
It's rough. it's really really rough right now and i'll probably come back to it but the concrete songs i was trying to build around are like...
"What is Love?" it's literally just a girly girl song about wondering what love might feel like. complete with daydreaming about romantic stories and hoping all that wonderfulness will happen to you.
"Men of Snow" okay i know it's Ingrid Michaelson again but hear me out. this song is so fucking heartbreaking. it can be taken in different ways but if you put in Marcille's context it's gutting. it's a song about mortality and the impermanence of everything set to an almost cutesy waltz-beat piano accompaniment.
"Que Sera, Sera" self-explanatory, I think. im lucky this cover is on spotify because it's such a perfect song for encapsulating the entire sequence where Marcille decides to become the dungeon lord. (the second iteration at the end of the playlist is happier, taking the happy and calm interpretation of "what will be, will be", and also includes the second verse about a "sweetheart")
"What Sarah Said" it's a song about being in the ICU waiting for news about a loved one while suddenly realizing that there's nothing you can do. i think almost every line in this song guts me about Marcille, picturing her waiting for Falin to wake up the second time. (it's also my very pretentious attempt at tying the playlist together by answering the earlier question. What is love? "Love is watching someone die.")
"The Last Snowfall" is just. Vienna Teng has been my favourite artist since I was fifteen and part of it is that she has this incredibly beautiful way of leaving lyrics impactful but ambiguous. This song isn't about being afraid of losing someone but miraculously getting a happy ending, it's just an exploration of that fear with a "what if" built in, and I just think it's such a good way of capturing how Marcille was prepared to lose Falin and that was so important, almost even more important than the fact that it ended up being a happy ending anyway. also I wish i could have put in the live version because it's insane
For Thistle the only recommendation I have is Bird Song by Florence and the Machine it's wonderfully eerie, i literally think it's the best musical depiction of that specific kind of guilty murderer anxiety of "the telltale heart" from edgar allan poe
#asks#dungeon meshi#playlists#my taste in music is super limited i know i know#shush#and don't come after me for the kpop okay#it's really hard for me to keep korean songs out of my playlists bc they're just like. normal music to me#my one-sided falin pining playlist is just fucking loaded with the saddest korean songs you'll ever hear lmao#i always joke about how my internal emotional infrastructure is made out of vienna teng and crj songs#but surprisingly carly doesn't make many appearances in my dunmeshi playlists#ostensibly the vibe fits marcille but the inherent honest horniness kind of just bounces off her virgcel ridiculousness#also im not a Disney Adult i promise#that one song from tangled just has exactly what it takes to become 10x more eerie and tragic within the context of the resurrection#marcilleposting
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i've been a busy boy (spoken w the same vibe as that one garfield 9/11 comic)
#baldurs gate 3#baldur's gate iii#bg3#bgiii#bg3 astarion#bg3 abdirak#(oh god ive been misspelling that cunts name this whole time)#for anyone whos not familiar with this game you get the bloodless debuff if astarion drinks your blood#and you get loviatar's love by letting a sadomasochist beat the shit out of you ritualistically. no that's not a joke#but i went thru with it cause it gives you advantage on low health and my bard is the squishiest bitch on the team now#even GALE has more health than my character now bc i gave him the tough feat#i also coincidentally got astarion's first bite scene the first long rest after meeting abdirak#because ive been delaying my long rests as long as possible for fear of anything time-sensitive becoming unavailable to me#and so a bunch of other shit took priority over astarion trying to bite me#BUT. that has instead resulted in the extremely funny idea of my character volunteer to get beaten up#for NO in-universe discernable reason i might add#and astarion being like 'hm. okay he might be a big enough freak to let me feed off him without shoving a stake through my ribs'#and then trying his luck that very night ASJFKSA#anyway. i stopped playing this fuckin game like an hour ago bc i have to wake up early and yet im still awake and being a freak#internal monologue
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Omg boo- we have a boo as well. I mean that's just one of her three names but it's the most commonly used one.
I would say more about her but I'm afraid of snitchers who'd tattletale me to a gatekeeper.
Oh yeah the imaginary stories. I as a 4 year old heard a story about the lion who wanted strawberries, and then proceeded to apparently babble for 90 minutes about god know who because no one understood a word I said.
..guess who doesn't like strawberries anymore
- Digi
Oooooof
I usually don't like strawberries. Or most fruit, actually, until I tried organic and realized it's because most produce just tastes like chemicals to me. (Autism moment, L)
I don't remember much of anything from being a kid (but I have a handful of pinpoint memories), so I couldn't say whether those home teachers were getting a real story or not XD
I'm also pretty lucky that most of my headmates seem to have decided that what I share on this blog is okay. It's risky, and we acknowledge it, but we've debated making the blog for months, and doing so was a very distinct decision. Hopefully we get to do more with it!
-Lizzy
#osdd system#an ask!#Host Lizzy#I would also like to clarify for anyone else that might read this#that while I do joke about having autistic traits and autism moments that I'm not doing it just to be funny#we are diagnosed autistic fairly young and have had the diagnosis affirmed many times#It's actually pretty normal to have traits associated with autism#the difference between that and actually having it is when those traits become extreme or integral to internal regulation or problematic#Personally I don't mind the light joking about it but I know there are some people with autism who do#for me the dislike for the chemical-taste in produce is because being autistic has heightened my sense of taste to an extreme degree#(in some ways because I have been known to eat spoiled butter and not realize...)#you don't have to be autistic to notice that quality of taste and be bothered by it#the truth is just that I probably wouldn't be if I didn't have that particular mutation#and joking about that whole thing with the bad taste making it overwhelming to eat normal produce is just how I normalize it for myself#learning not to alienate myself as a person <3#anyway XD#forgot a tag too oops#system things#for my reference#Wonder!
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#top ten moments ever. when my friend who is a trans man but does not experience dysphoria and is feminine#was trying to get me out of my year long funk and push me to apply for jobs#and told me i was becoming unemployable by waiting so long#and that i had to start feminizing myself and get over my dysphoria to ever get a job#he then proceeded to joke that we should go back to the good ol days when trans egyptian men just lived as women and died miserable#smells a lot like internalized transphobia too sure but that's literally neither my fault nor my problem. peace and love#that conversation was in.....i wanna say march#haven't seen him since. don't plan on ever seeing him again#💿
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The fun thing about Whimsie and Mystique is that what you learn about them in Book Four really recontextualizes how they act in Book Three.
At a first read, it's easy to assume that they're just the standard Twins Who Are Basically One Person trope.
But with Book Four knowledge, it reads like the two of them are not actually on the same page about everything, but they're deep enough into the act that their reputation is entwined, and the result is that they're constantly course-correcting each other through banter when one of them fucks up.
#Heralds of Rhimn#one of them makes a phaux pas#the other internally goes “YOU FUCKER” and apologizes / makes a funnie joke out of it#on and on and on#and something that becomes even more clear w/ Moonteeth knowledge is that Whimsie is the one doing most of the steering#and Mystique is the one going “sure. i fucking guess we're doing this now.” and not contradicting her
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hi denise i love you
#pd spoilers#them joking about her becoming their intern basically guarantees that she wont via the rule of funny#but i love her regardless
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MOTHERFUCK i did not realize how much those antidepressants made me feel physically psychologically and dare i say spiritually like a peat mummy
literally 2 days off them and i've experienced more joy, lucidity, motivation and general good vibes than i did in the whole 2 months i was on them 😭😭
#now granted i did only sleep for 3 hours#but i felt more refreshed and energized today than i ever did when the pills forced me into 8 hours of pseudo-death a night#MY INTERNAL MONOLOGUE IS BACK TO NEVER SHUTTING TF UP#it was practically bones for so long oml#i'm usually annoyingly verbose but i was only able to say like 5 words at a time before i forgot how to end my sentence#yeah i'm prolly gonna lose the rose tinted glasses in a few days when the novelty wears off but for now#it's so nice to feel like myself and not like a lobotomized skinwalker trying to wear my own mannerisms convincingly#(obvsly they help some ppl or they wouldn't be an option to prescribe but GOD they fit my brain chemistry as well as a fork fits an outlet)#<<<<<<I CAN DO THAT AGAIN!!! I MISSED MY STUPID METAPHORS AND MY BAD PUNS AND MY SLIGHTLY OUT OF POCKET JOKES#i was fucking trying but it fundamentally doesn't work if u Try#yoda moment but whatever#yippeee#god did they fucking '''cure''' my ADHD instead of my depression#ok if this is what some ppl's experience of ADHD meds is like then the 'they made me feel like a robot' thing makes a LOT more sense#personally they just make me feel like. yk that one comic abt ADHD with the dog metaphor#yeah amphetamines my beloved let me hold the leash rather than becoming a human dogsled to the whims of my psyche#actually i think i was rather uncharitable to my current dream mask normal pills#i just happened to get mega bitch burnout for 3 months and then spend 2 in the aforementioned peat bog where souls go to die#when not impeded by outside circumstances i think they actually are completely fine#maybe not QUITE as agressively effective as my previous prescription but the ritalin was str8 up harsh#i tried it again for a week and it made my heart beat like it was being powered by a caffienated hamster#but when i used to take it i was already experiencing Real paranoid gerbil anxiety so it just kinda blended in#i only noticed the Severe Health Issue i got bundled as a side effect#and i keep having to remind myself not to go rose-tinted abt how bad it rlly was in retrospect#do i just need to leave a sticky note on my mirror like 'hey dumbass that was NOT a net positive period of ur life'#lexi stfu challenge
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Dear horror youtubers who write video essays explaining and examining extraordinary works of horror that I deeply want to see and understand but will literally never be able to safely watch due to my own trauma - thus providing me with a way to learn from and connect to works of art that would be otherwise forever inaccessible to me,
I love you.
youtube
#original#horror#final girl studios#if this youtuber is on tumblr someone should tag her#LOVE the idea of a girl coming of age and becoming monstrous but now obsessed with how they described this movie as#'a girl coming of age and finding that the people AROUND her have become monsters to her'#fucking. brilliant! thank you for giving me a way to learn from and enjoy this movie! i am more sure than ever that i should not watch it!#but i am so grateful to you for giving me such a gift! how wonderful!#that said - folks please be very cognizant of the warnings at the beginning of the video. there were still parts I had to look away from#also it was cathartic experiencing this movie from this POV bc 'the horror of girlhood being validated' is healing tbh#it was HORRIFYING being a little girl who became a teenage girl! and no one seemed to care what girl-children went through!#I mean folks were dismissive of kids in general but teen girls and little girls are like. a Joke to a lot of people.#everything we liked was ridiculed. and our fears held similarly little weight to adults. and yet. The Horror of Girlhood is so Real.#I Can Only Imagine how much more girls of color were dismissed and targeted and dehumanized.#and then you've got the little Trans girls and teens - who were playing The Horror of Girlhood on like. Nightmare Hard Mode.#the specific horror of girlhood for me as a transmasc AFAB person meant that the existential horror of being seen as a girl#meshed with my gender dysphoria in a way I did not have the language for and would not for many years to come#like the internalized misogyny and the gender dysphoria were literally impossible to parse apart. i couldn't tell which was which.#i just knew i HATED being a girl and i wanted it to STOP. and it was mostly because of how people treated girls.#like it probably took me longer to figure out my gender because of that.
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totally normal non-weird beat doodle that has no insane creepypasta joke au baggage (<- BLATANT LIE (WARNING FOR GORE/BODY HORROR IN LINK))
#jet set radio#pokepasta#creepypasta#beat jsr#explorers of death#crossover#blood#jsr eod#me making the eod jsr joke au like ''theres no way ill think too hard about the implications of this and get genuinely sad''#<- GUY WHO ALWAYS THINKS TOO HARD ABOUT THE IMPLICATIONS OF JOKES AND GETS GENUINELY SAD#for those who arent familiar with explorers of death (why would you even look at this post? go read it)#[SPOILERS] squirtle (who beat is in the role of in this au) Wins at the end by murdering vulpix and thus becoming the True Hero#but like. the myras are essentially meant to be the Same Person yknow. and just fucking hate each other#beat and corn are. yknow... presumably. friends. not to even fucking mention gum as shadow who is SUPER doomed#so. basically. me joking aroudn like ''lmao joke eod crossover au where the ggs murder each other''#''........OH GOD. I JUST MADE A FUCKING AU WHERE THE GGS MURDER EACH OTHER. WHY DID I DO THAT?''#EXPLORERS OF DEATH ALWAYS MAKES ME SAD WHY DID I THINK /THIS/ WOULDNT MAKE ME SAD#also the worst part is the reason i even started thinking about this too hard is becasue me and pseud put eod!beat in our joke crossover rp#WITH THE GODDAMN YOYO WAREHOUSE (LONG STORY)#SO IVE BEEN FORCED TO THINK ABOUT HIM LONG ENOUGH THAT ITS MAKING ME FEEL SHRIMP EMOTIONS#ABOUT THIS GODDAMN AU THAT INTENTIONALLY DOESNT ACTUALLY HAVE ANY INTERNAL CONSISTENCY#THEY STILL LIVE IN TREASURE TOWN LIKE ITS A PMD GAME FOR GODSSAKES#every day i spiral further into my ouroboros of madness and its my own fault
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OPEN STARTER | Doe
"No, I think cis-straight men should all die."
#;open starter#the anarchist;doe#the anarchist;open#FOR LEGAL PURPOSES THIS IS OBVIOUSLY A JOKE#that's the starter tho that's it thank you ♥#IT WORKS I SWEAR DFLKGNDLKFS FGNKGHMF#he's exaggeratedly complex okay which means he's a NIGHTMARE and most of his shit#is inside his internal monologue#so have one other side of Doe i don't often explore bc he's always way up in his head#and every time Amelia is involved he becomes an even greater mess but HE DOES#have a 'blunt deadpan humour shot into the convo out of left field' side as well#casting Wa.nj.a G.er.i.ck as his German va btw is one of the greatest things i've ever done#;queue
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guys i have bad news . i think that whatever happened between mogami keiji arc and world domination arc that made matsuo so terrified of mogami is way more interesting to explore than the matsuogami ship and . falling in love with matsuo is something that i feel takes away from mogami’s character 95% of the time
#im so sorry matsuogami enjoyers . absolutely zero hate towards people who enjoy it but it is simply not for me…#maybe i just havent seen it done well before enough to be convinced . but man.#something strikes me so… wrong about mogami suddenly becoming docile and fitting into a romantic relationship#it is funny to me thtoufh just a bit#also i may have internalized aroace mogami into my brain so . dont take this too seriously#really funny when in joke format though . they can be very very hilarious
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writing porn without a plot (but with a lead being hrvy dnt) challenge — difficulty level: impossible
#telling myself to get to the point (or barrel in this case) vs 500 words of bruce damning himself for having to call him two face instead#of harvey and how he almost blows his 'cover' as matches with it#'i'd be careful with what you say *matches*. havent you heard names hold power – especially in gotham city?'#bruce as he internally monologues how they hold an identity and can become a burden of a misplaced label if not wary: gotcha acidbreath#the acidbreath part is a joke this bruce is early days and first close contact with *two faces* since the incident#man is about to have a BREAKDOWN but yknow. pwp and all.#crypt callings
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