#isn’t there someone who’s entire blog is dedicated to things like this?

[livelaughliushen]

Real shit guys:

I understand the appeal of Shen Yuan having a shrine of Luo Binghe merch however it is cannon that he read PIDW in 20 days then died.

So I question the validity of him being able to accumulate large amounts of merch(and have time to set it up) in his already rigorous reading schedule (which was anywhere from 580wpm to 725wpm a for 23 hours every day factoring in ONE SINGLE HOUR A DAY for him to do anything other than read)

So idk guys, Binghe merch shrine just might it be feasible, unless Shen Yuan somehow has 48 hours in a day.

[lycandrophile]

next time someone tries to tell me people don’t demonize and act violently toward trans men and transmascs, i’m just going to make them read this reply i got to a positivity post that was specifically about trans manhood and transmasculinity. this is basically just every negative thing people say no one says about us rolled into one message that’s aimed directly at us.

and as if this isn’t enough on its own, their whole blog is full of this disgusting shit. it seems to be dedicated to it, actually. (fair warning, don’t look at the next two screenshots if you don’t want to see even more genuinely awful transphobia.)

you can say what you want about how they’re probably just a troll or baiting or doing this for attention but the fact remains that, regardless of their true intentions, these are real things that a real person is saying about trans men&mascs, publicly and proudly and to our faces because they want it to do damage.

i’ve dealt with people like this before, on a much closer level. when i was a teenager, i had a grown woman come into my dms just to send me very graphic and detailed instructions on how to kill myself. literally entire paragraphs with all of the steps she wanted me to take. before i blocked her, i told her she was lucky she sent it to me and not someone more vulnerable, because otherwise she might have real blood on her hands. she just sent the whole thing again.

we can argue all day about infantilization versus demonization, erasure versus hypervisibility, what counts as violence, what words we use to talk about our oppression, and so on. but the reality is, whether you believe people want us dead or not, they clearly do, and a lot of them really aren’t making any effort to hide it. at this point, if you can’t see it, it’s because you don’t care about our lives enough to look at the reality that’s right in front of your face.

before you do anything else, block this person. don’t engage with them directly, don’t give them the satisfaction of the attention they might be fishing for, just block them. but don’t forget that they exist either, especially if you’re not a trans man or transmasc yourself. don’t just block them and move on and forget that there are real people out there who will say these things about us, who genuinely enjoy the thought that their actions might have deadly consequences.

because these are the people you empower to come out of hiding and start being blatant about their hatred when you insist that no one wants us dead, when you openly mock us and demonize us and try to cast us out from the community that we were supposed to share. when even our own people decide we’re an acceptable target, these bigots throw a fucking party because you’ve just told them they can get away with murder as long as it’s our blood on their hands. this particular blog was started recently, and i guarantee it’s not a coincidence that they started it in the midst of a rise in online anti-transmasculinity.

it really is telling, how much hate a positivity post has incited. y’all can’t stand when we talk about the bad things that happen to us, but you hate our happiness even more.

[gracie-rosee]

Sometimes I feel like I’m part of the few people in this fandom who is obsessed with these books in a normal way.

I love Rhys and Nesta. I love Azriel and Lucien and Mor and Elain. I love Cassian and Amren and Varian. I love Gwyn. I love Emerie. I love Jurian. I love Vassa! I love everyone.

I ship Elain and Azriel, and I believe they’re going to get the next book. I love Elriel but I also really love what Elucien could be and I read Elucien fic and I make art for them!! I’ve read Gwynriel fics because my amazing writer friends wrote them, and they are incredible.

I love some characters a lot more than others for sure, but I’ve never dedicated my entire blog to being anti-anything.

I hope this reaches the right audience. I want to make more friends who like and ship different things than me because I love seeing why people enjoy them so much. If something makes you happy, hell yeah I wanna know why!

This isn’t a joke. I want to be friends with people who have different likes than me. But every time I go and follow someone who likes a different ship than me, their blog is full of negativity towards everything and everyone else. :(

I want to fill my feed with nothing but positivity. If this is calls to you, hi. Let’s be friends!

[maxdibert]

hii!! i love ur blog immensely, i literally spend so much time reading your analysis, and i agree with everything u say abt severus (my fav character), which is very rare for me

so, id like to know what do u think sev would be doing if he didnt have to go back to hogwarts at 21 and be forced to teach? like, if there was no voldemort (but everything else stayed the same like his childhood with lily, the marauders bullying him etc), what would he be doing nowadays? i always thought he would open his own potions store, maybe he'd try to heal from his past, find someone to love, idk, u probably have a more detailed answer lol

First of all, if Voldemort didn’t exist, I don’t think Severus would have ended up with the Death Eaters because, well, they wouldn’t exist, right? The story would be very different. I think his "break" with Lily might have taken longer, but eventually, they would have drifted apart quite a bit, and when she got together with James, it would likely have been Severus who distanced himself completely. Because, I mean, Severus isn’t exactly brimming with self-love, but I can’t imagine him handling his friend ending up with his bully very well, for obvious reasons. That said, I don’t think it would have been such a traumatic break but more like one of those friendships where, as you grow older, you just don’t have anything in common anymore and go in completely different directions. Then, one day, ten years later, you run into each other on the street and have no idea how to greet each other. You know what I mean?

That said, without him being part of the Death Eaters, without Voldemort in the picture, and without Lily dying and creating a lifelong guilt trauma that led him to sell his soul to Dumbledore—no, Severus wouldn’t have been a professor. At least not at Hogwarts, which is a pretty triggering place for his personal traumas. I see him dedicating himself to magical research and experimentation. I’m not sure if there’s an equivalent in the wizarding world, but like a typical Muggle university researcher working on specific scientific projects, only applied to magic. We’re talking about Severus Snape, the guy who rewrote his own Potions textbooks and invented complex spells as a teenager—the same Severus Snape who, despite everything, was a Slytherin, which means he has ambition. I think the perfect mix of those two things would have been dedicating himself to magical research, publishing his findings, and maybe—just maybe—teaching. But only teaching adult wizards who had already graduated from Hogwarts and wanted to further their skills by applying advanced knowledge. Like the equivalent of a university professor who only teaches because they’re required to in order to continue their doctorate.

I think with a life like that, with the peace to follow his own path and achieve his own successes, he could have healed from a lot of his issues. Probably not entirely, because the magical world sucks when it comes to managing mental health, but he could have moved on from Lily and built his own life.

[sepublic]

It may be just us being involved in different fandom circles but I feel like you run into the stuff you complain about way more than I do. It always makes me surprised to hear some of the things you hear about (sorry you get exposed to so much of it btw that sounds pretty frustrating)

It’s because I used to frequent the Belos circles and enjoyed some of the popular blogs, but when the finale came around soooo many people went mask off when they realized the finale wasn’t going to give them what they wanted. And so that part of fandom became unbearable overnight, as I realized that a lot of people I thought were chill or assumed had a basic understanding of the narrative or even storytelling… didn’t.

It’s really disappointing, as someone who was a fan of Belos well before anyone else, since the fifth episode (something others might’ve noticed); Is it too much to want fandom to discuss a character as he is onscreen, recognize his role in the larger story, and appreciate how he contributes to other characters’ meaningful arcs???? Most “fans” are fake, they don’t even like Belos and need to sanitize and mischaracterize him.

It’s disheartening realizing people don’t care for the main characters at all, and how this all ties into this fandom’s larger White Guy favoritism; Because even white women are being ignored in favor of this specific colonial family (which includes Hunter)!

I dunno how anyone can be so brainrotted by the Wittebane obsession that they can’t appreciate at all how S3 was a love letter to Luz and her relationship with her family, some can’t even find solace in it… I guess none of it counts if there isn’t a dedicated section to those white guys! People love to take their anger out on Luz’s character by disparaging her arc and making “Fix-it” stuff about her being there for Belos, because they hate the finale said she doesn’t owe him a damn thing and doesn’t want to.

Plus, I often look through #The Owl House tag a lot, especially the Recent section. So I’ll see a lot of stuff regardless of whether I’m looking for that specific character, because all of the characters fall under that umbrella tag, naturally. And I can’t just filter Belos because sometimes there’s actual good stuff using that tag.

Overall, there’s a reason why I now avoid Belos-centric blogs, because so often there’s a dedicated tag to complaining about how their white guy fave got done dirty and how the entire show is retroactively bad, often reblogging a lot of those aforementioned blogs’ bad takes… I was all for the “We can enjoy him critically!!!” crowd until I realized they don’t actually enjoy him critically, they just stop at the “He shouldn’t commit genocide” bit. Which is not even the bare minimum, it’s just part of it.

I see PoC be harassed by waves of anons for criticizing how people discuss Belos on their own blogs. Meanwhile the top Belos blogs are so openly, blindingly white, and infantilize themselves in a White Fragility way; Esp when it comes to acknowledging their fave is racist, or that their writing and fanart has issues. Belos fans love to prove everything we criticize about them, huh?

[terraliensvent]

Not a vent’ asking a question. Out of genuine curiosity do you actually like Terraliens as a species? A majority of CS vent blogs seemingly want the species to die or fail as an end result.

Isn’t the whole point of vent blogs to give people a space to actively point out problems to make the community better as a whole. Reblog to make it die faster or run out of the community feels conflicting to what the blog is actually supposed to achieve. Do you want it to get better? It seems like you do. Or are you actually hoping it gets worse to increase engagement.

So general question would be do you hate Terraliens? What’s the end goal for you? 🤔

this is a loaded question for me at the moment haha

personally, ive been in terras since april 2023, so basically since the start. ive seen every controversy pretty much first hand, was an avid reader of the terra blogs previous to mine, and terras was the first species i put my whole heart in and tried to interact with the community in. initially i really wanted the species to get better, when they had the suggestion threads i was an avid poster

then over and over again mods just kept failing in the simplest of ways. this blog was made february of 2024, a few months after the first psa and ownership change. i still thought terras could be good but there were just too many blockers, esp from coy and civ after learning some behind the scenes info from the psa

then the Reckoning came and i hoped it really would go down, if only that meant making the species totally open

when tycho became owner i really was hopeful considering the facts that previous mods completely disavowed vent blogs like mine, but shortly before he became owner tycho reached out to ask my thoughts on stuff around the species (you can see that in my post about The Reckoning), when the species fell in his lap i honestly thought there was going to be big change. for a while there was, like new assets in the item channels, feedback forms, etc. but then there were also the nagging issues that never went away from before, like hiring friends for staff, weird unspoken rules, and a horrible approval process

for the past few days ive been thinking, man this really doesnt seem like its worth it. the same issues are starting to pop up again, and the mods currently just twist and turn making up their justifications for moving the goalpost. i dont like a lot of the new designs, dont really have any myos i want to make, and im not pulled in by the new events.

my end goal initially when making this blog was that i wanted terras to get better and make the easy changes everyone wanted, but now i think the better course of action would be for it to die. make it an open species and just let people run with it, because over the 2 and a half years of this species there has never once been such an attitude of unity and happiness among terra community than on that one night in april where the species WAS open.

honestly? im days away from voiding all my terras and fucking all the way off (ill still stay in the server though, i couldnt imagine anyone else running this blog and i think its become a necessary place for everyone. i imagine there would be at least some outcry if i were to shut it down, lol). once i finish my current obligations, im trading all my shit. its exhausting to have been doing this back and forth for improvement for over 2 years now, and its just so much more effort than its worth when i could be putting my whole heart into other up-and-coming projects. it hurts when a thing you really loved and found happiness in just has too many glaring issues to ignore

i think its a bad look when most of your oldest members who have been there since near day 1 decide this shit isnt worth it anymore and want to be done with it. its a bad look when someone who cared so much to make full essays about this species on an entire blog dedicated to it decides that its just not worth trying to "fix" anymore.

and i kind of hope a lot of other members come to that same conclusion and cause it to die.

[dertaglichedan]

Nolte: Politico Stops Hiding Desire to See Donald Trump Assassinated

Far-left Politico, a blog dedicated to disinformation and lies, is no longer hiding its desire to see former President Donald Trump assassinated.

Over the weekend, Politico published a piece of assassination porn warning the public of a “very real scenario where Trump loses and takes power anyway.” I don’t link to anything meant to encourage violence, but that’s the headline and it includes a photo of a burnt-out map of red and blue America.

There is no reason to waste everyone’s time running down the scenario Politico’s assassination porn peddlers lay out. Suffice it to say, that Trump was already president, Trump has already lost an election he believes he won, and if he did none of this while he wielded the power of the presidency, why would and how could he do it as a private citizen?

But Politico and its confederates in the corporate media are not about logic or enlightenment. This five-thousand-word article (yes, five thousand) isn’t about reporting, explaining, or predicting a possible outcome to the 2024 election. It is only about one thing: justifying and encouraging the assassination of former President Trump.

Already this summer, Trump has been shot in the head and then came incomprehensibly close to being gunned down on a golf course.

And of course, this violence is the result of a decade-long left-wing hate campaign against this man, most of it backed by billions and billions of corporate dollars and produced by hate outlets like CNN, MSNBC, the Washington Post, New York Times, and Politico.

If Hitler’s Nazis taught us anything it’s that if you dehumanize someone (which is precisely what has happened to Trump), you authorize their death. When you relentlessly and over an extended period of time lie about someone being the next Hitler, a unique threat to democracy, a rapist, a Russian spy, and a racist, there is no question that you are deliberately desensitizing violence and murder against this person, be it one man or an entire race of people.

Politico fears it cannot beat Trump at the ballot box, so it publishes a 5,000-word article that falsely paints Trump as an anti-democratic tyrant who will somehow seize power even if he loses two weeks from now.

It is 5,000 words of pure bullshit, of total nonsense, and Politico knows this. But in Politico’s eyes, if all this effort and work can encourage one unstable person desperate for fame to take a shot at Trump, it’s worth it.

[zorilleerrant]

Evacuation Protocol

@flashfictionfridayofficial

Dierdre can see her entire career flashing before her eyes, and most of what she feels is anger. It’s a shock to her, in an abstract sort of way, as she stands there numb and frozen, trying to process her feelings. Not that she assumed she’d be calm, but she definitely thought she was more like to be frightened, or maybe just anxious, determined, even brave. She hoped she’d be brave. She hoped she’d be able to make one last something, one notable last stand before everything got wiped out.

She hasn’t even graduated yet. On the job catastrophes are one thing, but her career can’t be cut this short. She’s barely made it onto the TV show! She doesn’t have even one dedicated fan blog yet! People are supposed to know her name, and they don’t know her name, and if she dies in some tragic accident here, how will they?

She hates him. She hates him she hates him she hates him.

Hating people isn’t procedure, though, it’s just what fills her visions of the future with blinding rage. Think, Dierdre. She’s supposed to remember these things better than the average person, even in the face of pure unadulterated panic, and she’s read the whole manual front to back, over and over and over, before she even signed up. She read them again before they went out, like she was supposed to, like they were all supposed to, but everyone is standing there just as still as she is, even Caffeine. Even their teacher.

In the event of an incursion – no, everyone knows that.

In the event of a fire, in the event of a power outage, in the event of a lockdown, in the event of a declaration of war – who thinks they’d be on the front lines? Is this just the same handbook everyone uses, no matter what, or does someone really think JCity’s the most obvious place for war to break out? They don’t even have a code for zombies.

They’re just subheaded under ‘unlikely altercations’. And they won’t even call them zombies. Or aliens. Or sorcerers.

In the event of an unlikely altercation, retreat to base or the nearest safe haven, and wait for backup. Remember your buddy.

Did the handbook actually tell her to remember her buddy, or did their teacher say that? Or is it just because she needed a permission slip to be out here and she can’t tell the difference between this and the aquarium, except that this time she doesn’t need to write a report on the skates? She can’t remember who her buddy’s supposed to be.

Dierdre can, however, check her database against the classmate she’s flagged, the one with mememtic powers, the one who always makes her forget him. And everybody else, she figures, because she’s been nothing but nice to him, but some people are like that. She’s used to people taking it personally when she says hi. She wouldn’t hold it against him enough to leave him out here in a life or death situation anyway, not when he’s as frozen as everyone.

She doesn’t think he even processes when she scoops him up. He reacts enough to grip his arms against hers, keep himself as streamlined in the air as he can while he’s dangling, not struggle. But not enough to say anything out loud or into comms, and it’s a strain. Physically only, Dierdre hopes. There’s supposed to be buffer in the nanites.

There’s supposed to be a lot of buffer in the nanites.

But they’ve never carried this much weight before, and she’s never pushed them this fast, even in testing. She’s only just perfected flying at all. But there’s a supervillain, and there’s procedure, and the procedure is there to save her life, and this guy’s life, and everyone’s life if they’re all heading back the way they’re supposed to. Dierdre’s not going to let a supervillain end her career before it even starts, just because she was on the wrong roof at the wrong time. So the nanites better be able to handle it, is all.

Her arms burn so much they feel like they’re going to fall off, even after all the weightlifting, and that’s the point at which her classmate decides to have his panic attack. It’s more words than she’s ever heard him say before, but at least he’s just babbling, not flailing, not trying to get down. What he’s doing with his hands seems to be finding a rope to help secure him more safely and that, at least, makes her panic a little less.

What happened, he wants to know, and, yeah. Dierdre wants to know that, too. Because he’s never out. He’s never out in the middle of the day in the middle of nowhere like that, and, as far as she knows, none of them had any personal beef with him, either, unless there’s things their teacher’s file doesn’t admit to, even after she peeled off all the layers of security around it. Or unless he’s, whatever, her long lost brother or some kind of time travel clone or something to do with a prophecy. Hers, or someone’s. There were a lot of them on the roof just now.

Not a lot in medical, though, even though that’s where they’re supposed to report for their debrief. That much Dierdre can remember. They’re supposed to do that, anyway, after being let out in the field, even if nothing happened, so it’s not like anyone else should be able to forget, but it’s just the two of them. The two of them and too many concerned medical personnel crowding them, refusing to answer questions, as always. Exciting career.

[soobadnoonecanstopher]

I'm asking because I feel this is anonymous enough. How does one keep getting up in the morning? I can't figure it out, but I just don't want to do anything anymore. Your blog is a great diversion (thanks for finishing CIS), but it finishes and i feel the same blah. I don't want to get up anymore. I'm not going to do anything drastic (I have 3 kids who would resurrect me just to kill me all over again if I tried to off myself and I have worked through my own friend taking her life). I just want to know that there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I'm sorry to dump this on you, I just want to write things down. Thanks for reading.

I am not your doctor and I am not your therapist, but right now I can receive you as a friend, fellow human being, and fellow mom.

I am so glad that you have a place to write all of this down. I know you said this all to get it out and if I can be a trustworthy place for you get all of this out then I am fine with that. ❤️

You are battling something huge every day. Something that is outside of your control in your current state of being and I am so proud that you are aware enough to be looking for a way to fix something that you feel to be wrong.

There are steps of a process to make cognizant changes to your life. The first is always discovery.

How can you know what you want to change unless you know of the existence of the problem. You have discovered something you don’t like already. You are aware of it. This was the first step.

Your message asks a lot of questions. These are normal, human questions and everyone has faced these times during their lives when they are feeling down and in-between their distractions. This is the most human thing to battle.

Things don’t start to get better without some effort. This isn’t something someone else can do for you. Just as you have already made the discovery that something is wrong, you can also take the next step and practice mindfulness. This just means being present inside of and aware of your own mind. Being aware of when and where you are when these negative things happen inside of your mind. It sounds silly but it is immensely helpful to keep a log. Where was I when I felt this way? What events led up to me feeling this way? Were any outside forces at play when I began to feel this way? What inside thoughts preceded me feeling this way?

This has two benefits. Simply being aware with concrete data is, in itself, a very powerful motivator. The things that lead up to or contribute to the bad thing, these are called triggers. Triggers can be minimized and avoided to help you get on top of it.

What if your trigger isn’t one thing, but what if it’s just everything all over all the time?

Maybe you need a change in routine; a change in your day to day. You already know that the way you are existing right now might be unsustainable. How much longer can I do this? How much more can I take? These sorts of things.

It’s also so,so so hard being a mom too. I don’t think some men, or some non-parents get it (not to discount fathers or siblings that help raise their younger siblings. I don’t have experience to speak on their behalf, I mean moms specifically) How much of your entire existence is dedicated to other people.

But what about you?

Jesus, you create these people and suddenly it’s like you’re no longer you, you supposed to be content to exist for them only. It really messes with someone’s sense of identity. Like no, I am still me. I still have value on my own without my children to define me. I think that’s one of the hardest parts of being a mom. I’ve long since gotten over it. I have friends and hobbies and my own interests and my existence isn’t all about being someone’s mom or being someone’s wife. Just the other day my son looked at me as I was actively writing the final chapter of my story and he had a moment where he kind of realized that I have this entire intricate life, just as detailed and involved as his own. It was his own little sonder moment and he said “wow so you are an author then.” It was weirdly validating that the person who has always just seen me as mom also got it. I am not only mom. I am more than that.

I am me. This is me.

Anyway I don’t have a magic answer. Sometimes you need a small change. Start a new routine. Book something that you will look forward to. When that passes book something else. Sometimes you need a bigger change. Make an appointment with a doctor and get your physical body checked out. Make an appointment with your doctor and tell them what you are feeling.

I promise you are not the only one.

I’m sorry I don’t have answers. I hope nothing but the absolute best for you, always ❤️

[adrinoir]

Lesbian Headcanons pt.3: Alya

OKAY. So - to SOME of you - this might sound like a strange character to make a lesbian headcanon about. BUT I have to because I seriously thought she was before she got with Nino, plus this is my blog anyways 😂

So enjoy this one, fellow Alyanette shippers!

She's definitely had girl crushes

Alya fangirls hardcore over a few of the show's superheroes - Ladybug and Majestia (if I’m remembering her name correctly?) Like, c’mon. She created an entire blog dedicated to Ladybug! Sure, it focuses on Cat Noir too, but it’s the LADYblog and it’s obvious she’s always been more enthralled with Ladybug. Also recently, she straight up just went with Kitty Noire’s flirty behavior towards her?? Like ALYA.

Also, you can’t tell me she doesn’t have some hidden romantic feelings for Marinette (tbf most people in the show have crushes on Marinette). She likes Ladybug = she likes Marinette. She’s constantly there for her, even more than she is for Nino a good portion of the time - I’ll talk about that more in the next section. She knows Marinette like the back of her hand. For instance, in Gang of Secrets, she was the only one who was able to see through Marinette’s bullshit when she tried playing off her mistake of pushing her friends away as just her being heartbroken. Was she heartbroken? Yes, of course, BUT Alya knew there was more to it than just that. So with that being said….(look at the title of the next section)

She’s closer with Marinette than she is with Nino

So, I’m personally all about friendships and romantic relationships being just as important as one another - this is something important my partner taught me and something that’s easy for me to understand as someone on the aromantic spectrum. However, I’ve noticed it’s not commonly understood or taught to a lot of people. Often times the significant other is placed on a higher pedestal. I believe it’s a heteronormative stereotype that a lot of people follow.

(Also just as a disclaimer: it’s fine if you feel comfortable being closer with your SO than your friends. I’m not saying it isn’t! I’m just pointing out this is a common thing I’ve noticed about hetero relationships and that I personally value my friendships just as much as my SO’s.)

So, if Alya grew up being indirectly taught/shown “the significant other is higher and closer than your friends,” then she either 1) doesn’t follow this or 2) likes Marinette more than Nino but doesn’t realize (or doesn’t want to believe it).

Because hear me out. There’s no denying her and Marinette have this special bond that’s unlike any other in the show. It’s such a close one that - need I remind you - Marinette entrusted Alya first above everyone else to reveal her secret identity to. And Alya never once risked telling anyone this secret, not even to Nino who she says she could never lie to.

She didn’t even once consider dating Nino until talking with him one-on-one

Okay, so don’t get me wrong, I love good ol DJ-Wifi, and the way they ended up getting together was hilarious. But, also consider, Alya had no romantic interest in Nino prior to being thrown into a zoo cage with him. In fact, she put him in the “I see him as a brother” box.

When he had the failed attempt of confessing to Marinette and said “your best friend Alya” instead, Alya got annoyed, and that’s when she had said to Marinette that she sees him like a brother.

I also feel they got together really quickly. Like, there was no build up over time. They got put alone together once and then BOOM now they’re dating. Seems a bit strange, right?

I feel like her behavior mirrors Kagami’s in a way; there’s those bits of comphet behavior. Like I had mentioned in Kagami’s part of my lesbian headcanons, common comphet behavior can be mistaking a friendship with a kind guy as romantic connection. There’s that possibility that Alya made that same mistake.

Alya's outfit

Do I even need to say this? She not only has the butch lez stereotypical plaid flannel-type of shirt but it's also ALL of the colors of the lesbian pride flag.

It's reddish orange, orange, white, pinkish purple, and fuschia. It's like what I had mentioned in Chloe's part of the lesbian headcanons about Zoe having all the same colors as the pansexual pride flag.

Conclusion

There’s a lot of signs Alya is lesbian despite the fact that she’s dating Nino. Just because she’s dating Nino doesn’t necessarily even mean she’s straight or into guys. It certainly didn’t stop me from writing this headcanon. I also totally ship Alyanette and Kittybella/Scaranoire.

[atinyniki]

teaser 'good enough' : one.

background info: main character is maya. aalia is maya's little sister. maya and aalia sleep in the same bed. HUGE TW.

a/n: this is kind of very sad btw... its not a fanfic though ! its a story. i hope the finished product will be as good as my actual fics.

teaser wc: 890

TW: suicidal themes, mentions of abuse, trauma, neglect, mentions of a miscarriage, loss of a loved one

two decades later, yet everything has changed. maya’s grown a lot now, trying her best to use her trauma for good. 

she’s become mildly successful with her writing, but as time went on, she’s lost motivation. 

she’s lost the support of her family. she’s lost her friends. and now it feels like she’s lost the one thing that makes her happy.

so she thinks about it. for the first time since seventh grade, her sick mind puts those terrible thoughts into her head. no one wants her, so why is she here?

she walks into the bathroom, the one she’s used for the past four years, looking for something. just something that could help her do this.

until she’s called for bed.

aalia yells out for her, so she stops herself, stepping into the bedroom after getting ready. she wants to leave, but she can’t.

but it would be so much better without her, wouldn’t it?

they both lay down in the bed, but maya makes a mistake. a mistake that she has made one too many times, clearly. aalia slaps her in the face, unamused by mayas stupid attempt to ‘tickle’ her. 

but it was truly unintentional. she couldn’t say anything else, only shutting herself up and laying down.

and she thinks about it once more, ending it all. but this isn’t right. so she takes out her phone, typing out a number into her search engine.

988.

she clicks on the chat option, filling out the required information. and then she gets a response.

his name is asher, she finds out.

this is crazy, why had it even gotten up to this point? asher asks what’s wrong, as his job entails. and then it all pours out.

that’s okay though, right? isn’t that the point of this entire website?

minutes pass, and mayas already started crying. she tries her best to hide it for her sisters sake, but these messages aren’t helping at all.

and then she confesses. she confesses something she has never confessed before. something she had never even thought about until now.

maya: in 2007, my mother was due for a baby boy. he was stillborn. his name was manik. when she told me, i felt guilty. i felt guilty for giving my mother all these complications, so many that she couldn’t bear another child. she had always wanted a boy. maya: in fifth grade, i made a journal dedicated to him. i’d talk to him every single day through there, just to tell him how sorry i was that i couldn’t be enough. and how i know that he’d be so much better than who i am now. maya: i think it’s changed me a lot, even though i didn’t think about it until now. every time i don’t live up to my parents’ or sister’s standards, i just feel guilty. i don’t know how to deal with myself anymore.

yes, that was a lot to get out. but it’s something she has never gotten out before. of course there’s going to be a lot of hidden feelings about it. she didnt even know how much it was affecting her until she spoke about it.

asher: im sorry this is being placed on your shoulders. you don’t deserve that. it’s hard to walk in someone’s shadows all the time. 

and the words from fifth grade come back to maya. she thinks about what her mother said after she found the journal. no comforting, of course not.

‘you’re a good writer’

and she is, which is why she started her blog in the first place. but over the holidays, she’s lost motivation. that’s not okay. 

writing is the only think that makes maya feel like she’s worth it. so what will happen now that she’s lost the one thing that makes her happy?

maya: my mom read the journal one day, because i failed to hide it. instead of comforting me, she told me that i was a good writer. and i believed her. i started writing on a blog about things id like in life, something i hadn’t thought much about before. i love writing a lot. maya: but now it’s just so scary. i’ve lost all my motivation. i’ve lost my ability to do the one thing i love and now i feel worthless. i’m nothing without my writing, without my ideas.

then comes a sudden wave of sadness, something she’s never felt experienced before. not because of this.

asher only does his job, comforting her through this process. maya is grateful for him of course, he’s an amazing person. then, asher suggests something.

asher: maybe you could try writing as a way to get these feelings out? it helps to you to journal some things, in case you have no one else to tell.

and then it hits her. an idea. motivation.

asher gives her some resources, and she finally ends the chat about twenty minutes later. she opens her files, quickly checking the screenshots of her conversation with asher.

she thinks about what to write, what she should name it. and then she thinks about herself. who is she?

who is she to her family, her friends, the world? and then she figures it out. she’s the girl who will never be worth it.

she’s the girl that will never be good enough.

[twilightmalachite]

Hermitage - Monday 2

Author: Nishioka Maiko (with Akira)

Characters: Mika, Shu

Translator: Mika Enstars

"(Missing? —No, the problem is that it’s overflowing. I suppose I should be pleased with how human he is, but…)"

[Read on my blog for the best viewing experience with Oi~ssu ♪]

Season: Winter

Location: Dance Room

Shu: …… (lightly doing stretches)

Hm?

Mika: Yer early, Oshi-san. Sorry t’keep ya waitin’~

Shu: You’re on time so there’s no problem, but you’re later than usual. Don’t you typically arrive earlier than I do?

Mika: Nnah~, well I have a reason fer that. Hajime-kun made me breakfast, so I was eatin’ it.

Practice begins today, so I thought it’d be good to eat well in the mornin’.

Oh, and Hajime-kun makes the most delicious food, y’see~?

He made me hot miso soup with nice and warm rice. And hijiki salad and boiled egg too! Should I get some prepared for you too next time, Oshi-san?

Shu: Just listening is making me feel heavy… Eating too much in the morning will give me heartburn, you know… Besides, I’m much more comfortable eating Western food.

Mika: Ah~… Thats true, yer a small eater, Oshi-san.

I didn’t used to eat much before, either, and would only like what looked like failed dishes, but lately things have been delicious to me.

Maybe that’s why I’m eatin’ more?

‘Cuz y’see, I get some food whenever someone makes somethin’ in the dorms.

Shu: There’s nothing wrong with receiving meals, just be sure to not overeat.

If your figure changes and you can no longer wear my outfits, or if it gets in the way of practice, that’ll be the day I get angry.

Mika: Scary…! I know that, ‘course…!

Shu: Now then, shall we begin practice? For we who pursue excellence, there is never enough time.

Kagehira, come and corroborate this real quick.

Mika: Hmm? What’s this stack of papers for?

Shu: Must you ask… It’s the storyboard for our new song’s MV.

Mika: Eh!? We only made those decisions yesterday, and you’ve already come up with a storyboard!?

Shu: It shouldn’t be so surprising. It’s been an entire day.

Well, as far as quality goes, there is still room for improvement. But this is better than nothing.

Mika: Nahh, this is more than enough. Yer amazin’ as always, Oshi-san, you get work done so fast!

Shu: You just take things too leisurely, Kagehira.

Mika: Ahaha, you might be right there.

Alright, lemme take a look at the storyboard. Hmm…

Hmm, hmm—Hm? A doll…?

Hey, Oshi-san. The storyboard lines up exactly with my image, but how come the artist’s makin’ a doll? I was thinkin’ more of a painter or a sculptor for an artist.

The image here feels a bit more like last year’s Valkyrie.

Shu: Right. Because the concept is based on a fairytale—In other words, an old tale. That is why I dared utilize the image of the old Valkyrie.

As for paintings and sculptures… I had given great thought about what would be the symbol of something that can forever preserve beauty without decay.

In the end, I can’t help but think that’s best expressed with the motif of a doll.

Humans tend to dedicate themselves to things that resemble themselves, as opposed to inorganic things.

That, and there are many artists interested in humans. It is why so many extraordinary artists have a medical background.

That is why I chose what is closest to the human form, a doll, as a motif.

Mika: Nnah~, I see! Just lookin’ at the storyboards, I can tell the MV will be real beautiful.

But will we be able to have a large-scale set? Wouldn’t it be too costly? I wonder if those at the agency will get angry…

Shu: No need to worry. I’ve already talked to the agency about it.

So put that aside. What do you think? Is this what you had in mind?

Mika: Mhm! It’s perfect! Alrighty, Oshi-san, should we start practice?

Time passes…

Mika: ♪~ ♪~

Shu: (Hm…?)

Kagehira. Stop for a moment.

Mika: ? What is it, Oshi-san? Did I do somethin’ wrong?

Shu: I wouldn’t call it wrong… However. It is not quite the right image.

Mika: How so?

Shu: It isn’t doll-like. Try giving off the image of the old Valkyrie more.

Mika: O-Okay. I gotcha. I guess I’ll give it a second try.

Time passes…

Shu: Kagehira, do it again.

Time passes…

Shu: Kagehira, use more of your imagination.

Time passes…

Shu: Absolutely not. That is nowhere near the level of quality we are looking for!

Time passes…

Mika: Nnah~…

Shu: Non! Wrong, completely wrong. Not at all!

Mika: But, Oshi-saaan… I can’t figure out what I’m missin’…

Shu: (Missing? —No, the problem is that it’s overflowing. I suppose I should be pleased with how human he is, but…)

(While I recognize Kagehira as an artist of his own… It appears that it has become an obstacle for this particular concept.)

It isn’t enough just to get rid of your facial expressions. You are still full of vitality from the tips of your fingers to your toes.

Perhaps I should call it a state of “nothingness”—Either way, if you cannot make yourself into a vessel, you will remain far from the expression of eternity.

Mika: That bein’ said… Hmm, vitality… I’m tryn’a recall the old me, though…

Shu: I guess we’ve got no choice, then. That’ll be all for today. If you cannot yet grasp the image, you need more time to solidify it.

Polish it more by tomorrow, Kagehira.

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[littleapocalypsekitten]

Ugh, another morning on tumblr... Decided to unfollow someone because I don’t like being preached at.  Well, they weren’t preaching at me and it wasn’t even their post, they were just reblogging someone whom I thought was a little overblown.  It’s not that I didn’t think they had a good point, but the comments, man, the comments.... I don’t know, it’s just that sometimes when people really get into virtue signaling, it makes me want to “be evil.”  Like, you waggle your fingers and tell people not to do something and I’m like “Okay, dead baby jokes, comin’ up!”   So, the nag was about how horrible it was that people were drawing Barbenheimer art - pink mushroom clouds and stuff because of the horrors of the dropping of the atomic bombs.  Yeah, the point of that stuff IS actually minimizing the horror because sometimes you have to minimize the horrors of the world to get through it - it’s about the juxtaposition.  Is it tactless? Perhaps. Someone on the comments compared it to making Holocaust jokes.  Personally, I’m not so sure if it really is the same because I tend to think it makes fun of America’s war-machine as much as anything and the pervasive nuclear-fear we all have.  Once these things had been unleashed on the world and various nations built them up, we’ve all lived in fear of them so I tend to think that this pretending that Barbie has become death, destroyer of worlds isn’t punching down on the victims but a release valve for a universal fear.  That’s just my take on it.   And of course someone in the comments talked about how they’re on a campaign to stop people from having ANY mushroom cloud art at all.  Pheh.  Forgot to get their name and block them. They shouldn’t be coming around my profile - because... that’s kind of my profile-header?  I drew it in Illustrator to go with my Kitten.  It’s my entire handle here.   Is it because I “hate the Japanese” or “the minorities in proximity to the Trinity test site” or the Bikini atol?  Fuck no.  I chose my handle and theme long before Oppenheimer was ever announced (or being made?) and long before this Barbenhemier bullshit.  I chose it after an old blog I had that was dedicated to my writing and since I liked writing a lot of apocalyptic / post-apocalyptic stories I went with something in that family of imagery.  Specifically, the idea of “apocalypse kitten” comes from the trope of the “Post-Apocalyptic Dog” that follows a protagonist in these kinds of stories.  I thought “If I were living after everything went to shit, maybe I’d like a cat.”  I also have a short story that I wrote many years ago featuring a lone human in a deserted city (nukes had nothing to do with it, it was more of a supernatural situation) and her post-apocalypse companion was a kitten.   My imagery was inspired by the Neighborhood Nuclear Superiority bit in Mike Nesmith’s “Elephant Parts” (making fun of suburbia and American-anger) and probably a bit by the Fallout game series, which I am a fan of.   Yeah, person who wants to ban all art of mushroom clouds everywhere, good luck running up against he legions of fans of that video game series.  *Rolls eyes.*   I am not into the Barbenheimer thing, although I am hoping to see Barbie someday.  I’m not doing fanart for it or anything.... so don’t come after me on that account.   I’m just saying that sometimes something ISN’T meant to demean the victims and actually is more making fun of the aggressors or using dark humor to deal with a collective fear.   And sometimes nagging people about it will make them want to do it more.   There’s woke, and then there’s “lay off the cocaine and trucker’s pills.”  

[frenchy-and-the-sea]

thank you for the tag @merrigelblogs! 

1. Are you named after anyone? - I am not! At least not that I know of. Thankfully, while I don’t particularly love my full name, it can at least be shortened to a decidedly less feminine form, which is a massive blessing.

2. When was the last time you cried? - Legit this morning, I watched a proposal video that was v sweet and I got weepy about it. I’m a Pisces, it’s basically my day job 

3. Do you have kids? - No, I gotta be like WAY more on top of my own shit before I can think about being responsible for another human being like that!

4. Do you use sarcasm a lot? - Y...yes.... but I work hard to only use it to highlight the ridiculousness of a situation rather than to belittle what someone has said

5. What is the first thing you notice about a person? - Clothing, mostly! I am that person who is out in a crowded area and tries to read what everyone’s graphic tee says, in case it’s something I recognize. I like to know where I can connect with people!

6. What’s your eye color? - Green/grey-ish! 

7. Scary movie or happy ending? - Both?? Can I say both?? I like watching horror and I like watching comfort movies. It really just depends on the movie!

8. Any special talents? - I can quote the Sonic the Hedgehog OVA almost word for word because my sister and I watched it so often as kids. (So....no LMAO)

9. Where were you born? - Oklahoma! And then we immediately moved away and I never ever went back LMAO

10. What are your hobbies? - Recently? Reading (lots of SF/F), writing, playing FFXIV and d&d and a smattering of a few other video games, and generally being a menace to people online!

11. Do you have any pets? - I do! Two black cats named Gizmo and Kitkat, and a dog that some family friends found wandering around in the woods outside of their house! Her name is Beau. :> Here’s a picture of her begrudgingly sharing a bed with Gizmo. (Kitkat is not there because the only person in the whole wide world she likes enough to cuddle with is me.)

12. What sports do you/have you played? - Once upon a time, I played soccer, but that’s pretty much the only thing I ever did long term. Most of my free time in school was dedicated to marching band, which technically isn’t a sport, but demands your attention like one. (I played trombone!)

13. How tall are you? - 5′9″!

14. Favo(u)rite subject in school? - English was and will always be my favorite subject, but I DID rather enjoy my anthropology classes in college! Shoulda done more of those back then, they were delightful.

15. Dream Job? - I don’t think it’s really viable as an option for me, but I’d love to work for a literary agent. I just wanna hype people’s work up as a career, and help them navigate the process of getting it out in the world! I think it’d be neat. :>

Bonus: any significance to your blog's name - my nickname in college was Frenchy, and I have had a particular fascination with different kinds of sea-related things quite literally my entire life. also, nothing else I tried was available

Tagging @phoenix-failing, @blujayonthewing, @urdnotgrunt, @ghilegab​, @nuclearanomaly​ and anyone else who feels keen to waste some time! Only if you’re feeling up to it, naturally :3

[ilovebeingaturtle]

What are the turtles' personalities in your AU?

EE AHH OKAY THANK YOU FOR ASKING SHIT NOW I GOTTA WORDS GOOD AHSJSJ

Okay so-the complicated answer is my AU actually has two sets of turtles. And the short answer will just be me rambling about the main boys, so I’ll do that AHA

Mikey is the oldest! So he’s a very laidback party dude, his priorities are usually that everyone around him is having a good time. He’s not the type to try get his siblings to act responsibly, more so acting as strong background support while letting them be independent-he’s sort of? Developed into a people pleaser, but very much still a silly fun loving lil guy with a mischievous side. His charisma stat is basically maxed out, and he’s not above using that to his advantage

Raph is a mixture of wise guy and overconfident fighter AHA. He always just wants to do his own thing so it’s basically impossible to get him to listen to orders, he’s competitive and reckless, but while he has the usual Raphael anger it’s more of a slow burning holding a grudge type. He’s extremely passionate about fighting for those who can’t defend themselves so he’s super empathetic because of this, basically he’s very sensitive under the bravo, but also just. Yeah, he’s a comedy loving goofball, this is the 87!Raph blog okay we’re gonna get a boy very inspired by him

Leo is…one of the harder? Ones for me to describe? He’s very focused and practical, and he gets easily frustrated because in this version he isn’t regarded to have much authority at the start. He dedicated basically his entire life to training, so while he’s already a master at his craft he can be very awkward and lost in social situations or any situation beyond this. Eventually though he starts to loosen up and stop repressing the more adrenaline and fun loving side of him-it’s kind of? Like he has a reverse Rise!Leo arc LMAO, he goes from serious leader to total loser dork-I mean, cool guyyyy

Donnie’s the youngest! Without like, getting into the whole backstory, he basically starts out with zero fighting experience by the time the “ shows” plot starts, so he’s very guy in the chair at the start and needs to learn to trust his own abilities and step out of his comfort zone. Beyond that though, he’s a very snarky and deadpan Donnie, who’ll always do everything in his power to help someone once he sets himself to the task. He’s also kind of a dramatic little shIT

I don’t have proper reference art for my boys yet! But I have drawn them a ton, so have these for now AHA, I’ll try make better more recent art later

Oh! Also! Heights ❤️

[septembersghost]

I really felt sorry for OW throughout the press.It was the textbook definition of misogyny. I know you probably see it as a Getaway Car situation but I feel like she really loved him(I swear I am not a ow fan or shipper and I KNOW she have done/said questionable things in past.) But I don't think anyone would have stayed with someone who attracts so much hate towards you unless you have real feelings for them. Not to mention the way her exhusband weaponized that hate and used it out of pure spite. I can definitely see why she left that man. As a mom I can't imagine someone telling me that I don't love my kids because I moved on from an abusive a****** to someone who actually treats me like a human being(my ex wasn't exactly the nicest person). To think this drama became mainstream and her being a 'bad mom' was a normal opinion because she dated harry is so bad. The misogyny becomes evident once you realise that Olivia took so much shit when people like Chris brown is still thriving.

oh i completely agree with you, the way olivia was treated was despicable and uncalled for - back in september, i reblogged this and it holds true (it's worth reading the entire piece).

In my six years as Editor-in-Chief of EMPIRE Magazine, I saw hundreds, thousands, of films (and TV shows) launch. I saw the press conferences, the junkets, the premieres, read the headlines and columns and interviews; I went on set visits, did some of those interviews myself, walked the red carpet before the talent had even left their hotel and studied the reviews. And out of those hundreds, thousands, I struggle to recall one that has come close to the circus of toxicity and triviality that DWD has turned out to be. And more specifically, that of a director who was as rinsed and wrung out as OW. Most strikingly, this isn’t just the stuff of tabloids, it’s seeped through into film culture, with critics and journalists and readers swept up in speculation and giddy fascination at a woman having her work barely taken seriously while her character and privacy are cracked open.

it also doesn't matter, nor is it our business, if they did start out in the getaway scenario, it lasted much longer than that, and she was torn to shreds online through every step of it. it's not even about whether or not she made some missteps (and the article there mentions the awful way she and flo were discussed and how the media salivated over making that into a cat fight without any evidence), or past mistakes, there's no excuse for the sheer amount of vitriol she received from his supposed fans.

i have more to say about her ex and his behavior that i have been told but i can't address it publicly, so the short response is that i agree with you, and by many accounts, she had very real reasons for needing to get out of that relationship. the way she was discussed as a mother was horrific, the papers being served to her on stage was too. i'm so sorry you went through a situation where an ex treated you badly too. :( you deserve so much better than that. it's gross that h clearly cared for her and that was twisted into some salacious thing and splashed all over various media. and it's terrible that we do this, over and over again, to women simply for dating famous "desirable" men (i have stumbled accidentally on multiple hate blogs dedicated to attacking the girlfriends of famous men in the past week and it is very concerning to me).

the misogyny is ABSOLUTELY apparent - think of how many male directions get away with actual abusive behavior, and this woman was treated like a demon for...her dating life?...it's upsetting. we should have learned better so long ago.