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[atinyniki]

hey.................. been a while. a lot has been going on with my life unfortunately, but i think im finally back ! what would yall think about an angst fic for a comeback? :P

[atinyniki]

WE LOVE YOU MIU 💕🫶

Make Miu Smile Event

As some of you might have seen, our friend @miuracha is going through a rough time at the moment. So me and some friends teamed up to try and make her smile with a few small surprises. We hope you like it love💕💞

18.01. Stargazing Chanlix drabble by Nat

19.01. Rainy days Chanlix x femReader drabble by @j-oneproduces

20.01. Imperfections Chanlix x femReader mini-fic by @atinyniki

21.01. I need a hug - Chanlix edition Chanlix drabble by Nat

22.01. The Power Outage Chanlix x femReader drabble by Nat

23.01. Unspoken words Chanlix x femReader fic by @atinyniki

24.01. Sweet disaster Chanlix x femReader drabble by Nat

25.01. Make some room? Chanlix x femReader drabble by Nat

26.01. You guys are my world Chanlix x femReader drabble by Nat

27.01. Rule number four Mafia!Chan x femReader fic by @atinyniki

28.01. Lost Chanlix x femReader drabble by Nat

29.01. The One Felix x femReader fic by @atinyniki

30.01. Anti-Hero Hyunlix x femReader fic by @jinnie-ret

31.01. Pretty Boy

Bodyguard!Chan x Officer!Felix (mafia) fic by Nat

[nikiupdate]

Many many congratulations for the Lohri to you and your family. Wishing you a very Happy Lohri and lots of love from the NikiUpdate 🎉❤️💐💐💐💐💐🙏

[tinyhrry]

HSLOT INSTAGRAM BLURB <3

note: guys this is my first ig blurb so pls ignore if I make any mistakes or it it’s not really nice, I’m sorry 😭 and pls tell me if u think it’s too short/too long :) navigation

fc : niki zefanya

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yourinstagram hslot ready 🖤🐇

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harryfan1 MY SHOW IM SEEINGHARRRYSES 😭😭😭😭

harryfan2 bought tickets just to see u 🙏🏽

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annetwist so pretty darling! can’t wait to see you and H❤️

harryfan3 URE 😭 SO 😭 PRETTY 😭

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harryfan4 HARRY 😭😭😭❤️🍓🫶🌹

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harryfan1 post concert depression is real guys. what am i gonna do with my life now that i have nothing to look forward to. crying as we speak. yn spoke to me. she talked to me. she touched me.

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harryfan3 DCJDNCJDNCJSDN HOW WAS IT

harryfan1 it was the most amazing concert ever. i don’t think it’s real i feel like im dreaming and im gonna wake up soon. HARRY IS REAL I SAW HIM WE BREATHED THE SAME AIR.

harryfan5 im so glad u had fun babe 💗💗💗 u deserve it! what did you and yn talked about ??

harryfan1 she came up to me and complimented my outfit 😭😭😭😭 she was sooooooo nice and so pretty irl, her smile is so sweet 🫶😭

harryfan11 boas on tour

harryfan4 i feel bad for the people who have to clean the place out…

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harryupdates harry reading a fan’s sign that says “im here for yn” and replying with “me too”!

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harryfan2 THATS MY SIGNBVBHFBVJ

harryfan3 he is so whipped for her

harryfan4 i want a love like theirs

harryfan5 the fact that anne and yn’s mom liked this is so… 🥺 i love them

harryfan6 ANNE REPOSTED ON HER STORY TOO 😭😭🥺🥺

harryfan7 I JUST REALIZED. she adores their relationship just as much as we do and that’s so 🥹🥹

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harrydailynews harry and yn spotted leaving the venue together last night!

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harryfan8 the it couple

harryfan4 i don’t know if i wanna be yn or harry tbh

harryfan7 harry’s jawline 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫

harryfan9 yn is such a goddess

harryfan11 i understand harry… i would write a whole ass album about her too

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yourinstagram im so lucky to have u bub, so proud of my rockstar 🎸x

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mitchrowland alright lovebirds

jefezoff i love you guys.

annetwist what a cute picture! give me a ring, i miss my babies already❤️

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well here you go my darlings, tell me your thoughts alright? have a good day x

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[tiambengo]

#lunchboxdrawrings #365in2021hopefully #niki #nikieverysummertime #shangchiandthelegendofthetenrings #shangchiandthelegendofthetenrings soundtrack #amightyfinesong #amightyfinemovie A mighty fine song from a mighty fine movie. @nikiupdate. https://www.instagram.com/p/CTkQJsznQiD/?utm_medium=tumblr

[atinyniki]

be prepared for lots of angst from me guys 😭

[atinyniki]

this mafia minho fic is actually so yum. late night writing gives me the best ideas fr…

[atinyniki]

working on two minho wips but idk which one to prioritize bc im having great ideas for both omfg 😣

[atinyniki]

requests are open again !! i will not be the first one looking at them anymore though. my roommate has access to my account and will be monitoring asks and such, so if yall want to send hate it will be deleted almost instantly anyways ! anon asks will stay on for those of you who want to protect your identities <3

[atinyniki]

SCREAMINF ANd CRYING BC ALL 3 WIPS I HAVE RN ARE SO ANGSTY 🏃‍♀️

[atinyniki]

guys i’m rlly sorry abt the jeongin fic 😭 i literally have no motivation for it, but hopefully it’ll be up soon! i’ve been working on a minho fic (yes, again) 🫢

[atinyniki]

teaser 'good enough' : one.

background info: main character is maya. aalia is maya's little sister. maya and aalia sleep in the same bed. HUGE TW.

a/n: this is kind of very sad btw... its not a fanfic though ! its a story. i hope the finished product will be as good as my actual fics.

teaser wc: 890

TW: suicidal themes, mentions of abuse, trauma, neglect, mentions of a miscarriage, loss of a loved one

two decades later, yet everything has changed. maya’s grown a lot now, trying her best to use her trauma for good. 

she’s become mildly successful with her writing, but as time went on, she’s lost motivation. 

she’s lost the support of her family. she’s lost her friends. and now it feels like she’s lost the one thing that makes her happy.

so she thinks about it. for the first time since seventh grade, her sick mind puts those terrible thoughts into her head. no one wants her, so why is she here?

she walks into the bathroom, the one she’s used for the past four years, looking for something. just something that could help her do this.

until she’s called for bed.

aalia yells out for her, so she stops herself, stepping into the bedroom after getting ready. she wants to leave, but she can’t.

but it would be so much better without her, wouldn’t it?

they both lay down in the bed, but maya makes a mistake. a mistake that she has made one too many times, clearly. aalia slaps her in the face, unamused by mayas stupid attempt to ‘tickle’ her. 

but it was truly unintentional. she couldn’t say anything else, only shutting herself up and laying down.

and she thinks about it once more, ending it all. but this isn’t right. so she takes out her phone, typing out a number into her search engine.

988.

she clicks on the chat option, filling out the required information. and then she gets a response.

his name is asher, she finds out.

this is crazy, why had it even gotten up to this point? asher asks what’s wrong, as his job entails. and then it all pours out.

that’s okay though, right? isn’t that the point of this entire website?

minutes pass, and mayas already started crying. she tries her best to hide it for her sisters sake, but these messages aren’t helping at all.

and then she confesses. she confesses something she has never confessed before. something she had never even thought about until now.

maya: in 2007, my mother was due for a baby boy. he was stillborn. his name was manik. when she told me, i felt guilty. i felt guilty for giving my mother all these complications, so many that she couldn’t bear another child. she had always wanted a boy. maya: in fifth grade, i made a journal dedicated to him. i’d talk to him every single day through there, just to tell him how sorry i was that i couldn’t be enough. and how i know that he’d be so much better than who i am now. maya: i think it’s changed me a lot, even though i didn’t think about it until now. every time i don’t live up to my parents’ or sister’s standards, i just feel guilty. i don’t know how to deal with myself anymore.

yes, that was a lot to get out. but it’s something she has never gotten out before. of course there’s going to be a lot of hidden feelings about it. she didnt even know how much it was affecting her until she spoke about it.

asher: im sorry this is being placed on your shoulders. you don’t deserve that. it’s hard to walk in someone’s shadows all the time. 

and the words from fifth grade come back to maya. she thinks about what her mother said after she found the journal. no comforting, of course not.

‘you’re a good writer’

and she is, which is why she started her blog in the first place. but over the holidays, she’s lost motivation. that’s not okay. 

writing is the only think that makes maya feel like she’s worth it. so what will happen now that she’s lost the one thing that makes her happy?

maya: my mom read the journal one day, because i failed to hide it. instead of comforting me, she told me that i was a good writer. and i believed her. i started writing on a blog about things id like in life, something i hadn’t thought much about before. i love writing a lot. maya: but now it’s just so scary. i’ve lost all my motivation. i’ve lost my ability to do the one thing i love and now i feel worthless. i’m nothing without my writing, without my ideas.

then comes a sudden wave of sadness, something she’s never felt experienced before. not because of this.

asher only does his job, comforting her through this process. maya is grateful for him of course, he’s an amazing person. then, asher suggests something.

asher: maybe you could try writing as a way to get these feelings out? it helps to you to journal some things, in case you have no one else to tell.

and then it hits her. an idea. motivation.

asher gives her some resources, and she finally ends the chat about twenty minutes later. she opens her files, quickly checking the screenshots of her conversation with asher.

she thinks about what to write, what she should name it. and then she thinks about herself. who is she?

who is she to her family, her friends, the world? and then she figures it out. she’s the girl who will never be worth it.

she’s the girl that will never be good enough.

[atinyniki]

GUYS?! IM UNSHADOWBANNED NOW OMFG 😭 (abt to post the changbin fic too)

[atinyniki]

just wanted to thank you all for the recent support 😭 it’s been rlly difficult to write since i got shadowbanned, and i figured i shouldn’t write anymore since no one would see it, but im slowly getting my motivation back. thank you guys !!!

(working on a changbin fic rn btw 🤭)

[atinyniki]

finally done w the mangopop fic! kinda upset that i’m still shadowbanned but it’s been like 3 weeks since i got the req, i didn’t wanna wait any longer 😭 hope you all like it!

[atinyniki]

i have 7 wips... and im about to finish one... FINALLY !!!