#is it a problem with me? do i need to change something? am i at fault for failing to communicate what I want to others?

[batsandbirdbrains]

Imagine Dick going through adolescence and having some minor self confidence issues (bc all his peers at school are having them so he’s like… am I self conscious? What am I self conscious about?) and he goes to a rich kid school so he overhears people talking about plastic surgery and is just like…. DO I need a nose job? Is it too big? And he’s just staring at his face in the mirror for way too long trying to find faults or if something doesn’t look right and if needs to change something. (Possibly also bc growing up as a performer whose face was plastered on Haly’s circus ads he’s like I have to look PERFECT. Hair always coiffed to perfection in his Robin days)

Oh I think he’d have a TON of self confidence issues from both his time as a performer, then being in the spotlight because of being Bruce Wayne’s ward, then going to a snooty school with snooty classmates.

And I’m just imagining him in like a young justice season 1 scenario, where he’s sitting at Mount Justice one day after school waiting for training to start, and the others find him staring at himself in a mirror.

“What’s up, Rob?” Wally asks, inching closer.

“Do I need a nose job?” he mutters, fingers ghosting over the bridge of his nose.

“What? No way! Why would you even ask that?”

“Everyone at school was talking about it today,” he mumbles. “This girl a couple grades above me got one over the break. It’s all anyone is talking about. Then some kid in my biology class said-” he cuts himself off, because the kid had said hey Richie, when are you gonna make Brucie pay for yours? But he can’t tell the others that without giving up his and Bruce’s secret IDs. “It doesn’t matter what he said, but like…it’s not ugly, is it? You’d tell me?”

“Dude, your nose is fine,” Wally says gently. “Don’t be stupid.”

But that just sends another wave on insecurity through Dick, because he also was told several times in the last week alone that the only reason he was in the honors classes was because Bruce paid off the school.

“Maybe I need my ears pinned back,” he mumbles to himself, now looking at how his ears stick out a bit. Some other kid called him Dumbo in English class. He plays with his ears, pushing them back, frowning.

“You go to school with such snobs,” Wally sighs, then goes off to talk to Kaldur about something. “Rich people problems, I swear.”

Dick ignores him, continuing to examine every visible feature on his face.

[nfoxysun]

Pick a pile!!

pile one pile two

pile three

Who's your future spouse???

Hi!! Here i am after a long time bc a lot happened (again) but i returned with your pac!!🙂‍↕️💗

Pile one

my dear pile one, your future spouse is someone who's very vulnerable at the moment. they're always alert when something shifts in their gaze and have an extreme awareness of what's going on around them. they're really gracious and move with elegance, they might be really gracile in appearance (idk why i picked up this), so gracile to seem like they might break with a caress. they have a type of beauty that's sophisticated and really really elegant, I'm picking something high class actually, maybe in the way they dress, they have some sort of unique style. i see a lot of white, pearls, rose gold... very artist style and nature!!

btw, even if they seem to be really balanced on the outside, their mind is restless. they are often the one that's hyper aware of their surroundings, sometimes even borderline hyper vigilant too, and they might get anxious really easily, making for them hard to enjoy their life, especially when it comes to enjoy the life they cultivated and curated themselves!!! they constantly should be reminded to go back to the present moment, their mind races too fast and when out of balance their body might suffer too bc of their minds.

they change a lot of focus in their life, they constantly need new challenges and they might get bored really easily if they feel blocked. i think that's one of the other reasons why they feel always restless, it's not just a "omg what should i do with my life", to them it's actually a need to be always working on something different, they need a lot of emotional and mental stimulation to keep up with they're day, and when they have that, they're really overworking themselves. this lifestyle can be really interesting for a while in relationships, but still, since they're easily bored, they might not stay for so long in a relationship, but this just until they'll meet the one that can mentally stimulate them a lot.

also, if they don't have clear goals, they really might get lost in the current tho but i see them to be really such an achiever and hard worker, i think that they might change a lot after meeting you, working on their lifestyle more and to meet your personal needs. however, just know that they're very indecisive and easily distracted, something very adhd with a mix of anxiety coded.

they might travel a lot and have a very frenetic lifestyle, but still, they love art and yoga. they're a little bit of an all rounded🙂‍↕️

Archetypes: fish and gazelle with a little bit of bee🌟

Pile two

Pile two, your future spouse is such a rigid thinker, it gives me hierophant vibes. they might be really tied to rigid structures and tend to judge ppl a lot when out of balance, however, they're not the one giving orders but the one following them, and they're really good at it. i think it's more a moral thing to do for them, i see this person on top of something in their life, i think it's something religious, and they might be really strict with following the "right" rules. i don't think it's something typical tho, they might actually be pagan or hindu, maybe buddhist, I'm really sure it's not tied to abrahamic religions tho and, if they're not religious, they have an high moral compass that they follow very strictly.

they might be some hot head and tend to isolate themselves when angry, they really need some solo time to regenerate and to not stay angry all along, maybe to not to burst in anger on you. i think it's really a big problem but i see also that they know about it and that's why they might often be found in nature, trying to reconnect to themselves. they don't want to hurt anyone, they're really self conscious.

i think they might be a really old soul, that's why it's hard for them to find someone that could understand them. their love life hasn't been so good honestly, i see a lot of betrayal but they rose from it. their energy is really healing, they might come off as weird but it's really a pleasure to have them next to you.

they might be a poet or writer too and they really love to explore new things, but not in the pile one way tho, they need it for curiosity and from a place of knowledge, not for keeping their mind busy or to feel stimulated. they might also be really expressive and sensual in their ways, but never vulgar, they just incarnate a very sensual and expressive energy. i feel like they might be blocked into showing and accepting that kind of energy tho bc of their internal rules, i think you might help them s lot under this point of view.

Archetypes: fire ants, sea serpent and turtle 🐢

Pile three

this person is the real father archetype, I'm not saying it's a male, but it has really strong masculine and stable vibes within themselves, that's why I'm referring to them this way.

this person is a real provider and gives stability to their loved ones, both physically and in a materialistic way of thinking. they're also fully established in themselves and knows their core values, they have a strong moral and follows it a lot in every choice they make. they're well known and respected thanks to their way of acting in ways to uphold their values but sometimes their ego can become a little bit too much. however they're really good parents and i really think they might love to have a family.

their focus and determination are unmatched and they can achieve l, with charm and grace, everything they put their mind on but sometimes they have the problem that they often take their inner gifts for granted, that's why sometimes they can get really shy or doubtful, this might get them to withdrawing or hiding and protecting their deepest desires. they're really patient and private about what they love. they share their inner self only with who they trust the most.

they're really kind, supportive, generous and true to themselves in their core but still, sometimes, their shadow part wins and they might get really pretentious. they might struggle with some addictions, I'm getting alcohol especially, maybe to escape their control issues (yes, they have a lot of control issues). some other things about them, it's that they're very observant, stealth and precise in their words and actions and do not waste any energies or resources to who doesn't deserve that.

they're also very self transformative and very good at it, dedicating their whole life to both personal and spiritual growth. put these traits up with everything i already said about their traits, they both inspires and intimidates others, but still very respected.

i see them as a very peaceful kind of person and very strong both mentally and physically. sometimes they might be also way too serious or withdrawn, that's why they really need to be surrounded by other ppl.

Archetypes: Elk, oyster and lion 🦁

Heyyy, this is my first pac!!! i used a different deck for this so that i could catch the essence and not their backstory this time lolll, I'll do that for another pac if you liked it🙂‍↕️💗 also, sorry if it's just 3 piles but i still have to learn a lot!!! i hope you enjoyed this reading!!!

[actualhumancryptid]

I know I am about to write a damn essay, lol. Apologies. I can only speak to what's helped me, and what I've observed in other writers over the years, with blocks and burnout or extended breaks. (and boy, did I have the mother of all burnout for years). So this will be speaking broadly.

Two things come to mind here. I don't think you can get over a block this persistent without having to do some self-searching to figure out why you are, to discover what it is you are bringing to the table. This can be hang-ups about your skills, preconceived notions about what you should be doing (I should be writing x words. I should be finding this part easier. I should be producing what I produced x years ago). Even the fear that it's been too long since you last did this can create a self-fulfilling prophesy, where the belief that you can't write can stand in the way (fun ironies yay). I've found that when my confidence has taken a beating, it's so hard to get it back. Even if my skill-set remains the same. And then you can get stuck in a kind of feedback loop of 'failing'.

And in my experience, to come back from that, you have to change how you talk to yourself about your creativity. You have to be kind, and try and treat yourself the way you'd treat a friend coming to you with this problem.

The second thing is about ways to find it again. A useful question to ask yourself: why do you want to write? What is it specifically that excites you? What made you want to do it in the first place? Something that probes more deeply than just 'to have written', which can be paralysing.

You have to find that spark that made you want to do it in the first place. And often that comes from a place of joy or play. Truly, it will be helpful to try and remember what it was like being a kid, and finding that one cool thing you loved doing, just to do it, and practicing nonjudgement.

And I think sometimes, you need to do this work *before* you try and write. I think of it as pre-writing. Because the words won't be there right away with this kind of thing. And man can it hit your confidence if you jump in too quickly, and then bam — you're bone dry. They can definitely be something you can build up to.

If this is something you genuinely love, there are ways to come back to this, and to find the fun again. I promise.

Hi! Lately, I've been trying real hard to start writing again after a break of a couple of years, and it's simply not happening. I took the break to begin with because I figured that I could pick up writing fic again easily when I felt less burned out. But each time I've tried since 2025 started I can barely get the words out. I keep telling myself I need to go slow and build up to it, but my brain blanks after a sentence or two, with or without an outline. I can force myself into a drabble or two, or even a flashfic, but it feels like pulling teeth the entire time. I even tried going back to old drafts and adding to them (unsuccessfully). Nothing works! I'm getting more and more frustrated and angry with myself for taking this long of a break from being creative. Do you have any concrete recommendations for what to do when the ideas/words/characters/whatever just aren't coming? My brain is mush.

(I love this blog. So excited to see you back.)

I'll tell you what I do, but I also want to encourage folks to add their thoughts on the notes. This is very much a situation that can be worked on in a million different ways, so any one particular take might or might not work. Often, frankensteining a bunch together is the better route.

I've currently got two creative hobbies: writing fic and making site skins for AO3. When a site skin isn't working, I just have to drop it. I've been attempting to redo my glowy blue Tron skin from like 4 years ago and every time I go back to it, I just get frustrated and need to stop. I don't have a clear idea of where I want to take it, and so nothing looks "right" because everything feels wrong. For site skins, I need to have a solid idea to latch onto in order to get anywhere with them.

For writing, it's kind of similar. It's a LOT easier to write when I have an idea that really lights a fire under me. However, I've found that I can write even if I just know what the end goal of the story is. Even if my ending is just "and then they bone" at least I know where I need to get my characters in the end, and that guiding principle is really helpful because most of what my characters do in the fic is going to be aimed at that end point.

I don't know if it's just the way that you've phrased it in this ask, but it seems like you can't see the story for the words. If you're focused too much on the act of writing then you might need to back away from that for now and work on just imagining the story first. Spend more time daydreaming or lying in bed staring up at the ceiling and picturing your blorbo in situations. Get into the habit of thinking about the story before you start writing the story. Then the writing part is just transcribing the picture that's already clear in your head.

I well understand the frustration that comes when you've got something in you and no way to get it out. Whatever else is happening, the way you used to go about writing fic doesn't work for you anymore and now you need to discover a new method. Maybe it's handwriting in a notebook instead of typing on a screen. Maybe it's dictating into your notes app. Maybe it's chatting it out with a bestie over coffee or in a DM. Maybe it's something else.

Let's see what other people suggest for you, and then you can cobble together a method of your very own. Good luck, anon! I'm rooting for you ❤️

[fivewantscoffee]

Alright. So, to preface this, I'm aroace.

I'm a demi/aroace Five truther. I also love aus where Five becomes a husband and a dad somewhere down the line.

Here's why:

I think it's sweet.

Five loves his family dearly. He cares a lot, and he's much softer than he lets on. All those years away from home (spent surviving, then killing for the Commission) couldn't change that. The core of what makes Five Five never changed.

I'm sure he'd have a hard time adjusting to a quiet, peaceful life - would have no idea how to just exist at first - but once he's had the time to heal, I think he'd thrive in it.

And alright, in S3, when Five says, "You know, Lila, I shouldn't even be here. I was... I was out. I was done, and yet here I am again, swept back into the chaos. Why can't I just escape this hellhole?" Lila replies with, "Because you love it. Face it, Five, apocalypse problems are the only things that get your heart pumping."

Girl!! You're projecting!! You're the one who both wants and is also terrified of that life, because what if YOU don't like it? What if you get bored with it? What if it doesn't work out with Diego and the baby? What if, what if, what if.

Also, I disagree. That's not excitement, it's a trauma response! Five's been through two apocalypses in just over two weeks, and this is coming off the back of Five being forced to work for the commission, which came right after 45 years spent in an apocalyptic wasteland.

He doesn't know normal, or peace, or quiet. Of course it would feel wrong to him at first! It's the only thing he knows, sitting still and simply existing isn't something he's ever had the luxury of doing. It's going to take far longer than a day without an apocalypse to worry about to get over a lifetime of apocalypse trauma.

But he wants to.

Five says it himself:

To which Lila says:

And you're right, you're right, he doesn't dispute it! He simply says, "Yeah, well, you're not exactly cut out for domestic bliss either", which sounds like acquiescence, but... hear me out, couldn't that be because deep down Five believes something about himself that isn't true?

Regardless of whether it's the truth or not, people still believe things about themselves that aren't right. I can think everyone I know secretly hates me, but that doesn't mean it's true.

Five knows he wants retirement. He also thinks he isn't cut out for a normal life: groceries, taxes... no world-ending calamity hanging over his head, no need to go back, or save his family. He doesn't know how to live, but how could he? He's been surviving for 45 years straight.

Again, he was retired for ONE DAY. That's nothing! You can't draw any conclusions based on that.

You know what you can give us some hints, though? Five's forty-five years spent in the future.

Delores was all he had in the apocalypse, and while yes, there's a big difference between what Five had with Delores and being in a relationship with an actual person, I don't think it detracts from the point I'm trying to make.

If I remember correctly, and please correct me if I'm wrong, Five never refers to Delores as his wife. There's still a reason why we all call her that anyway: Five speaks to her (and of her) as you would to/of a spouse.

When Five says, "we were together for over thirty years", when he tells Delores, "I missed you... obviously" or "I want you to know that I cherish every single minute I ever shared with you. All twenty-three and a half billiin of them. A lifetime", when his voice cracks when he says "This isn't easy for me, Delores", those aren't the words and actions of someone who hates the thought of being married, or of being in some sort of lifelong companionship not otherwise specified.

That said, I don't think it's something he's ever thought about. Not seriously. Definitely not at length. All that is very far from his mind in the current timeline, so of course it doesn't come up. It probably won't come up for a very long time.

After the dust settles and he gets, let's say, a decade and a half minimum to work through some of his issues, though... I think it could happen.

Like I said, I think Five is ace, but you can be aroace and married. To me, it's about the companionship: being devoted to someone and wanting to spend your life with them, just without the sex or romance.

Now on to the second thing, children.

This one is easy: the Commission Handbook said Five would've been a stay at home dad had Reginald never adopted him.

Deciding he wants to be a dad one day doesn't have to clash with Five being aroace. You can be aroace and want to have children, I know I do.

So we know this: this other, hypothetical version of Five has children. We can assume he ended up with three of them (based on the picture in the Commission Handbook) because he wanted them. That Five is not our Five, though, so the question remains: would our Five want children?

As he is? Hell no. Absolutely not.

But like I said, this is a hypothetical taking place years and years in the future. Presumably, Five's done a lot of healing by then, he's had the time to figure out what he wants to do with his life, whether or not having kids factors into it.

I think in certain cases, if the circumstances are right, he might decide to go for it.

So yeah. Here it is. I'm a demi/aroace Five truther, but I also love aus where he is a husband and a dad. I think they're neat and can make sense for his character if approached from a certain angle. That's my controversial opinion for the day

[gammaraydeath]

i love criticism of how human-centric and ass fucking backwards mass effect's lore is. i need it to live. unfortunately i cannot will myself to actually implement any fixes in my own writing because i fear that if i stray from canon i will be killed with hammers and rocks

[noellevanious]

now that i'm awake and had times to compartmentalize i feel like i've figured it out - it's, presumably (and annoyingly, at least for me), probably just rooted back into being invested in the kind of discussions Twitter in particular encouraged.

WAY TOO LONG of a diatribe of messy thoughts below -

TL;DR: Pessimism and outrage culture cultivated by Twitter. Because of course it is. Not something you may even be conscious of - but it's better to try and shake it, so you can meaningfully communicate. Unless you, like, make your living off of it, I guess. That seems to be the play these days.

I notice this happen with a lot of friends that mainly also aggregate on twitter (they kinda treat it like i treat tumblr - a main hobby, as said as that sounds), and I'm sure if I wasn't dying from taking anti-anxiety meds that ruin my brain and make me feel like a zombie again (like an IDIOT why did i DO THAT), i could probably even make a sort of "parody" comic, but i'll condense what i'm thinking as much as i can -

There's a very distinct style of speech, that Twitter as a platform has cultivated, ever since it became the "Main" social media platform, God, back in like 2015? Where all that matters is the following:

Your thoughts are pithy (because of the character count limit)

They tend to lean towards more combative

You don't have (or need) any room to try and make it feel more like a discussion - it's just your thought, and you can't change it, or you don't want to change it.

Due to QRTs and Replies being the main form of response, and QRTs being displayed before the tweet they're responding to (I still can't even fathom how fucking stupid of an idea that is, and why that's still around), you better be ready to either vehemently (and pointlessly) defend what you said to the bitter end, or just throw up a red herring or strawman to wipe your hands of the affair. Any off-color word can ignite an angry mob that'll do their damndest to push you into the dirt, because they only know combativeness and disgust.

It also helped perpetuate and encourage that kind of apathetic irony that a lot of people were accustomed with when they were younger (I dabbled in it until, God, 6 years ago? and I'm 28), where you don't really share your positive ideas or notions, you just kind of reflexively point out issues or problems.

It's not necessarily that "it's not cool" to like stuff, it's more that you kind of get your "positive" corners sanded off. Hell, it might even be ADHD or other mental health issues - I legit had this problem until I finally got my ADHD meds. You just... don't see things positively. It's more "What interests me even a little? What gives me the smallest bit of

It's very distinct, because generally you'll want to be open and forward about what you love, right? But that doesn't happen when people are raised in this quagmire of a "community". You only point out flaws. Sometimes you let loose a perceived flaw that's actually just... we'll be optimistic and say "a social faux-pas that you picked up on".

Now, a person that isn't a 28-year-old transfem emotionally stunted poor "Communications Major" could easily research and expound upon that into articles or video essays - because it's not something that most people, I feel, are aware that they're doing. Rather, again, it's just the culture that they've kind of had to adapt to, that's been bred, again, because Twitter mainly sells manufactured outrage. You can even see it seep into other social media platforms, like Tumblr, like Tiktok.

It's very disheartening. The best way I can describe how I feel whenever I am confronted with it is, pathetically, this Simpsons meme image.

Being positive is fun. Liking stuff is good. It's ok to criticize and dislike things, but at some point, it gets tiring if you only ever point out the flaws, and treat every little part of life like an Apathy contest.

this is not an indictment or condemnation of the creator or people that like what i'm about to talk about. I am Simply Musing (and alsl trying to collect my thoughts). So humor me.

i like beanytuesdays art (comics? novels? visual rants?) until i get to one where i just cant gauge any point or opinion beyond saying

1. things suck (especially capitalism), and

2. if its an opinion that isnt the most kosher, just going back to the "hold on now. remember. i'm just a big ol fat american pal you know how dumb we are" well

[xxplastic-cubexx]

it doesnt need to be said but its genuinely so funny how at-the-hip charles and erik are in krakoa like they really had the green light- the OBLIGATION- to be as obnoxiously close to each other as possible and abused that right to the fullest extent

[simswoon]

I give up.

[yikes-ajax-thats-sad]

"BPD makes you have low self worth" well apparently not because my brain still insists that things that have nothing to do with me surely are because of me :/

[wutheringmights]

I won’t lie gang this chapter is killing me

[selfinflictedgunshotwound]

sorry for only saying this type of shit lately but i kinda wanna drive a car straight into a brick wall at the highest speed possible

[sysig]

Coding woes (Patreon)

[transmechanicus]

Kind of hard to ask as anon

But you doing ok?

Need to vent?

Hi very kind and thoughtful of you to ask, i am doing mmmmm suboptimal but i do not need to vent to a person per se, so much as i need to say absolutely insane shit in my tags and have everyone pretend not to see <3

[felinecabinet]

[ID: An uncolored sketch of Cabby and Lifering from Inanimate Insanity. Cabby has fangs and glasses added to her design. The two are at a swimming pool; Cabby is just outside the pool, watching Lifering as she writes in her file. Lifering is staring up at Cabby, raising his arm up while one arm is still in the water, presumably speaking to her. End ID.]

It may not be a good idea for Cabby to swim, but nothing says she can't at least learn about it :)

First one to encourage her to use what's necessary.

[fisheito]

friend fish!!! do you have any super specific headcanons for nucarni you'd want to post about? like from the serious to the silly. im talking from like how did little yakumo deal w humans and snakes hating him and then his grandparents loving him to who are the left handed mfs and who are the right handed mfs. how did kuya handle huey disappearing vs can garukaru wink. i like your brain and i like the very specific little things that come from everyone's brains and just wanted to see if you wanted to post any sillies or seriousies :3

why, friend anon, it seems like You are the one bursting with ideas... if u wish to share with the class i shan't object ohoho

MMM>....UUHHHHH boy ain't it just appropriate that once u hand me the microphone, my mind blanks hmmm........ ............(leaves ask and comes back in several hours)

OH I got one!! yakumo and chickens

s o one day, i wished to draw yakumo holding a chicken. just snekboi holding an absolute buff orpington orb of chicken, because it would be, how u say,... grotesquely adorable, yes??

but before i could, i wondered.. is that possible? do chickens like yakumo? or would they sense his snakeyness and hate him? was it ever discussed in the story?

my immediate thought was of those chickens who get hypnotised into a catatonic state when u draw a straight line in front of them. u know all those gifs of the chickens that just go [plop] with HARD FOCUS on the line? and as soon as line was erased, chicken blinked back into existence/Killer Peck mode?

i remember ppl hypothesising that it was bc the lines reminded them of snakes and the chickens were like shhhhh play ded the snakes will want nothing to do with us.

i can;t remember if they ever actually found the answer to that behaviour. i wish i knew. but i don't. so instead i imagined eiden placing a 🧍‍♂️yakumo horizontally in front of a chicken to see if the trance could be replicated

the whole thing made me think about yakumo's relation to animals, especially farm animals, bc idk if his grandparents ever farmed animals or if it was JUST produce. the story so far seems to say vegebls only but *I* want *FARM ANIMALS* and *YAKUMO* ***toGETHER*(*(***** so we continue the train of thought

yakumo has pulled Princess-Snow-White-shenanigans in the past (Idol Fest). those forest animals didn't have a problem rolling up to yakumo just to listen to him sing. i don't remember if exact animals were mentioned in the story, but i'mma assume it was lil guys like rabbits, birds, rodents, deer. i mean... snakes have been known to share habitats with these guys... so it would make sense for some of them to be scared if yakumo's energy is more snake>human.

but then KUYA??? he's a fox. yet he's got parades of adoring forest worshippers everywhere he goes, regardless of predator/prey status. so maybe the vibe of Yokai overrides whatever trophic chain dynamics are supposed to exist in this world. So instead of EEK! A SNAKE/FOX! the animals be like Yokai=cool nature powerbeing let's hang out ?

but then i wonder if the Yokai Vibe is moderated by Yokai expertise. bc kuya of course has way more experience as yokai... he's more likely to embrace his foxy traits than yakumo with his snakey traits (what is this.... a competition of self acceptance now??).. so maybe the animals all trail after kuya bc of his confidence,,, but would they do the same for yakumo who hasn't yet transcended to that Power Strut Aura?

which relates to childhood yakumo. to surrounding animals, what was his vibe? snakey? human? yokai? did it matter? he mentioned that the other snakes used to bully him .. and that people also used to chase him away... so his vibe was. what? like the king cobra who eats other snakes, and can bite people? at this point, it's not like yakumo has the self-control or self-acceptance to consciously manipulate his outward appearance. his vibe is his vibe.

so, in this unsure, untrained, scared snake-self stage of his life, he still appeared as a Threat to other snakes (and probably other animals that typically fear snakes). i imagine that if i were to introduce yakumo to farm animals at this point, they would react like they saw a potentially dangerous snake. chickens angy. cows might stomp u. goats might eat u

and yet Grandma and Grandpa , like many humans, promptly threw convention out the window and went [lol what threat?? he scared. let's give him some soup]] -> for further proof of ppl being like that, look at. any dangerous creature. cute as heck. i'll fawn over apex predators. angry bear incapable of empathy? deserves my respect. sure i'll share my room with a snake if it looks like it's crying . self-preservation? why would i care about that if i have the chance to make the snake less sad??

i mean, farm animals are domesticated so they're supposed to be pretty chill. i like to think that once yakumo spent more time on the farm with a loving family, his energy became more stable and more human. and surely with daily exposure, those farm animals would acclimate to yakumo's presence. maybe even grow to like him if he takes care of them.

THAT IS TO SAY even if the animals initially shun him or treat him like Danger... they eventually associate his energy with the good times. and yakumo would learn how to act around each specific animal so as not to upset them (just like any good zookeeper!!). As both parties build upon their experiences, the likelihood of positive interaction between yakumo and another animal goes up up 🆙☝!!!

IN THE END, ALL THIS MEANS is that, simply bc i like animals, i'm gonna pretend that yakumo's grandparents also farmed creatures (dang, an undertaking for 2 elderly ppl. i know. but this is gay fantasy isekai). ok, maybe more believably, a neighbour farmed animals and yakumo was the only young'n around to help. and because of all that, yakumo has experience dealing with animals.

according to my made-up timeline (😄) if i drew him at human age ~7, it would make sense if it was a pic of a cow chewing on his hair (being bullied by ungulates. he's crying), or chickens pecking him en masse

and if i drew him getting ALONG with those same animals, it would more likely be a yakumo at human age -- well- older than that. he's got some working experience at that point.

(slams fist on table) SO I CAN JUSTIFIABLY Draw A FLUFFY CHICKEN RESTING HAPPILY IN YAKUMO'S ARMS AND IT COULD BE IN-CHARACTER.

i crave interspecies friendships. humans do nonsensical things to befriend other critters. why can't the chickens override their snake fear for this one special boi. it is what i want to see and i will twistturn canon until i see it.

[autisticlee]

seriously though, where's the line between "don't care what others thing" and "maybe the problem is you and you need to change something" ???????? WHICH ONE IS IT?!?!?!?? i'm so lost and confused