#intrusive thoughts can't win

[anachronic-cobra]

One big misunderstanding I see people have is that contamination OCD isn't the only or most common type, just one of the easiest to notice from the outside. Maybe it's specific, like you're afraid your family will die if you don't check on them at your lunch break to make sure. Maybe it's more general, like a sense that something terrible will happen if you don't follow an exact route to work or school every day.

There's also medical OCD, stemming from fear of illness, where you may compulsively go to doctors or check webmd, as the comic touches on. I used to spend a lot of time laying in bed, paralyzed with the fear that I may be actively dying and that no one would take me seriously if I said anything. Obviously it wasn't a rational fear, considering I'm not dead, but OCD had me checking webmd on a daily basis.

One people don't often talk about due to lack of understanding from others or fear of backlash is the fear that you (straight) are secretly gay, or that you (gay) are secretly straight. The underlying fear can stem from a lot of different things, and doesn't affect your sexuality in any way, nor is it a reflection on your personal morals. It's purely anxiety.

Similarly, other OCD types people tend to not think about include violent or sexual intrusive thoughts. That person does not want to do horrible things to family, friends, children, or animals. It's a terrible fear that they maybe they do want to do those things and just don't know it, or that other people will for some reason think they do. In some cases, a person with sexual OCD might compulsively watch porn to prove to themselves they have normal sexual interests, which can lead to porn or sex addiction even outside those compulsions.

Working at a call center, I had to have disability accommodation through my therapist because I was so terrified I would say something massively fucked up to a customer for no reason that I would avoid taking calls. I had to get extra time to psych myself up. I compulsively went to sit in the bathroom for five minutes after every call because my intrusive thoughts would spiral to worse and worse things until I left my desk. I avoided my family because the spiral of worsening thoughts that they hated me gave me panic attacks on a regular basis. I sat in my car for fifteen hours a day. I could not live a life.

It took me years to get therapy for it, and that only happened because I went to therapy for a completely unrelated event and my therapist recognized something else was up later. It's important to talk about OCD frankly, because it is SO hard to recognize that those thoughts are your worst fears, not secret truths. Since starting medication for it I've been SO MUCH BETTER, and I cannot emphasize enough how much I did not realize it wasn't normal until I did. I didn't have any point of reference.

Greetings bugs and worms!

This comic is a little different than what I usually do but I worked real hard on it—Maybe I'll make more infographic stuff in the future this ended up being fun. Hope you learned something new :)

If you are still curious and want to learn more about OCD, you can visit the International OCD Foundation's website. I also recommend this amazing TED ED video "Starving The Monster", which was my first introduction to the disorder and this video by John Green about his own experience with OCD.

The IOCDF's website can also help you find support groups, therapy, and has lots of online guides and resources as well if you or a loved one is struggling with the disorder. It is very comprehensive!

Reblog to teach your followers about OCD

(But also not reblogging doesn't make you evil, silly goose)

[unfortunatelyfortunatee]

Okay, this might seem like a dumb question, but who told her this?

[Screenshot taken from ep. 45 "Wolf in Sheep's Clothing"]

She grew up completely sheltered and lived off the radar of most Aberrants. The majority of the people who were around her didn't know she was related to criminals.. unless it was someone from the Crimson Society?

It can't be Samin due to how Sayeon's wording the sentence. Can't be Min either because he barely talks at all and she doesn't even know he knows about her history. It has to be someone old enough to have seen Sara while she was alive, knows that Sayeon is related to her, and be able to easily talk to Sayeon before she came to the Corps.

It could also be someone from the inner circle of Sea Wolves, since they're both close enough to have known Sara and Sayeon's relation to her. I don't know why they would've went out of their way to go talk to her and not Samin or how they could've gotten to her. "Hey, it's been a couple of years since your mom died! She was hot and so is your sister"

I don't think it's any of the boys from the Crimson Society, since she didn't recognize Min at all and didn't know who Jungwoo was when he told her the warehouse location.

[Screenshots taken from ep. 11 "No-Kill Rule"]

You could argue that she's seen Black before, since in 'End of the Tunnel' she's seen sitting in the back of a car with them as the driver. The only problem with that is how Sayeon's classmate says that everyone who has ever picked her up was a woman.

[Screenshot taken from ep. 63 "End of the Tunnel"]

My best guess is that it's the yellow girl. They know Samin so they obviously know Sara and is put in a good position where she could've easily talked to Sayeon while picking her up from school. The only reason I don't think it's Pink is because she doesn't seem to like Sayeon enough to talk to her about her mother.

[Screenshot taken from ep. 56 "Red and White"]

There's not a lot of information known about this character though, so I'm probably just blowing this thing out of proportion. Whether I'm correct or incorrect, I want to see who told Sayeon this and what kind of relationship they had with each other. Even if it's something like "They're just this person I know".

[smile-files]

just a kind word for all of you lovely folks out there: if you say the r-slur or you don't call out your friends for saying it then i hate your guts :)

[ryctone]

Unlikely places.

Thinking about that headcanon about Sea cookie couples having this 'tradition' about nicknaming each other after the moon and/or sea ever since I watched the mermaid's tale event,,,

[unusualwhatsits]

[ravendruid]

One of my first attempts at a recipe from Exquisite Exandria was the Berry Surprise Pie. It was an adventure, to say the least, but 100% worth it.

I'm still learning how to make pies, and this was the first time I made dough from scratch, but overall I think I did a fine job. A solid 6/10 for looks, and a 8/10 for taste (I cut the sugar in half because I was afraid it would be too sweet, but next time I'm going to add all 200g of sugar). I had a little bit of dough left, so I got creative on the decorations.

Props for including metric measurements in the ingredients. It's so much more helpful and easier than using cups.

[thatdude-noah]

sometimes im doing great and im happy and my depression isn't hitting me too hard. and then my intrusive thoughts become debilitating and suddenly the world is awful again!

[etlu-yume]

suddenly reminded of how I described feeling the PMDD ... mood swings? Hazard zone? Darkside? whatever you want to call it. When you can FEEL it coming in;

It comes from behind, soft and subtle at first. Like a comforting back hug. Until it tightens its grip, until it's got you by the throat. And it keeps you in a chokehold until either you outlast it and the danger is over...

Or until it kills you.

(Sending hugs to all the PMDD folks struggling hard this cycle, hang in there <3)

[deathbydelete]

Bro what are you supposed to do with the stickers on computers... can I peel them...

[sureuncertainty]

officially covid negative!!

[julissart]

POV: Fishman Island

Someone had to do it

I CANT FUCKING DO IT

[kyonite]

bro why is my brain so evil like I had a stray bad thought about teeth 2 days ago and now I literally have to hype myself up and distract my brain with something else so I can literally do the bare fucking necessity of eating food.

[professionalqueerbookworm]

I know my mental health is getting BAD again when I get the urge the reinstall Twitter

[starmocha]

Pretty sure that someone will be me. I write all of the obscure AUs and random ships 🫠🫠🫠

Anyway

AU where Sylus and Zayne are husbands with twins, a son and daughter, and they live a very happy and domestic life that is tooth-rottingly sweet

[nochepsicodelica]

Perv Toji thoughts in the brain 😔 Fed you guys the fluffy pieces, now i'm thinking of the little weirdo in him.

Suggestive

Perv!Toji who slips his thumb past your lips when you start drooling after falling asleep on him. He wipes the drool that seeped out of the corner of your mouth before gently pushing down on the plush of your bottom lip and easing the digit into your slightly parted lips. His eyes remain lidded as he feels your soft, wet tongue with the pad of his thumb, and when you start to stir, he coos at you, soft murmurs of, "sleepy princess" and "I got you, baby". He's got the most satisfied look on his face when you don't question why his thumb is in your mouth, too tired to even bother.

Perv!Toji who cancels his gym membership and starts working out at home, because you said you wanted to join him in his workouts. He could never say no to something like that. This is just something else you can do together, but it'll have to be an at home thing, because he can't have people ogling you the way he does when he puts you to work. He won't make you do his exact intense routine, but he does push you to the point where you break a sweat. It's a must. He slowly walks around you, observing his favorite parts of your body as you do the warm ups he instructed you to do. Jumping jacks are one of his favorite things to watch you do. He likes watching your boobs and ass bounce, and because it's not just a simple set of ten or fifteen, you end up panting, a sound that sends his blood rushing down, down, down. When you get tired, he does the parts of his routine that he exempts you from. He has you sit on his lap while he does bench presses, he does his pushups, but he wants you wrapped around him as he does them, and so on. Everything is skin to skin because he's not gonna have you just sit there and watch when you have a better purpose.

Perv!Toji who can't hold consistent eye contact with you when you go braless and your nipples are poking through your shirt. He understands, from the many times you've said it out loud, that not all bras are comfortable. The prettiest ones, some of his favorites even, are usually the least comfortable to wear. They're a courtesy to the rest of the world, but when you're walking around at home, you free your chest from those constraints and he has absolutely no complaints about it. "Free those puppies" is a recurring line of his, and when you do get the bra off, your boobs instantly attract his attention, like they're magnets to his eyes. Sometimes his intrusive thoughts win and he'll reach out and grab a handful of tit. He's definitely not shy about it, either. He knows his hands are better than any bra you own. He can hold onto your tits and never get tired, he offers great support for your back when he's behind you, and massages are included <3

Perv!Toji who has the weirdest obsession with your tummy. He's constantly rubbing and pinching the soft flesh as a form of stress relief. The area is never clear of hickeys, there always has to be at least three on that part of you because he can't be gentle when he's kissing that area. I don't know, he's just internally feral about it and sometimes those feral feelings start to trickle out. Loves when you eat a good amount of food and you get a little belly. He's constantly thinking of putting a baby in you, so when your stomach protrudes that way with a food baby, it gives him the illusion of what you would look like in the early stages of carrying his baby.

That's all for now, buh-bye <3

[chuluoyi]

✎ rivals... in love?

- gojo satoru x reader

gojo is in shambles—so suguru might have a crush on you too?

genre: high school!gojo being a menace but pls spare him he just can't take losing, you see... crack, totally jealous!gojo, justice for geto, enemies to lovers, fluff

note: people have been asking for this so this is up next! i'm writing this while listening to bigbang's bang bang bang and fantastic baby so if gojo is a bit unhinged... you know why

a part of gojo's love entries

general masterlist

No way. There is just no way.

Satoru felt his eyes itch and twitch uncomfortably. Despite the opaque black tint of his sunglasses, he could still distinctly see you happily giggling.

“Geto-san, that’s so funny!”

With Suguru. His ride or die. Your massive crush.

Your crisp laughter rang in his ears, scorching his ego and igniting it in flames—that was precisely the reaction he had hoped to receive from you too!

"Aren't they just cute?" Yaga was suddenly beside him with a wistful smile, looking at you and his other student a few feet away. "What do the television say again... a perfect match? In this case, a perfect match made in jujutsu school, then."

And responding to your bubbly self, creating the very picture of perfect match made in jujutsu school indeed, Suguru was every bit as enthusiastic. “Nah, wait until you see this—”

"Perfect match my ass," Satoru grumbled outwardly, rolling his eyes, but he immediately dashed away before his teacher could bonk him in the head for cussing.

It was harmless conversation, or jokes, or whatever. Because Suguru couldn't possibly reciprocate your feelings. His type is women of gravure magazines—Satoru had deemed it as such.

…Right?

At this point, he wasn't in enough denial to say that he didn't like you, because he had made it so clear that he was, in fact, obsessed. He wasn’t shying away from the things he did, which included annoying you constantly, asking you out after school, helping you in missions, and sending you few pick up lines here and there.

And he thought he was certain he could whisk you off your feet. After all, who else could measure up to him and win?

Heh, no one.

(or basically that's just him ignoring the intrusive little voice in his mind that whispered, “Suguru!”)

“So what's with the nice act, huh?” Satoru blew his bangs in a huff as he questioned his best friend with a twinge of dissatisfaction. “Do you like her or something?”

Suguru quirked his eyebrow at him. “What?”

“Don’t play dumb. I have noticed how you two have been joined at the hip lately,” and with deliberate intention to spite his best friend, he made the sourest face as he mockingly recited, “Wait till you see this~”

Instantly realizing what he meant, Suguru burst into a loud snicker. “Come on, Satoru, really? Surely you aren't that petty. We were just chatting—”

“Not that. I know. What I'm asking now is that do you like her or not?”

It wasn't a rare sight to see Satoru with a pout and a frown, and usually he'd humor him. But this time, even Suguru could see that there was something different in the way he asked this. And should he say something that irked him then—

“Heh, so what if I am?”

That's the wrong answer.

Satoru halted abruptly, whipping his head around in sheer shock. "What the heck?"

“She’s a nice junior, kind, easy on the eyes,” Suguru shrugged, flashing him a dauntless smile. “Only a fool would let the chance pass up. Satoru, if you keep dawdling, one of these days, I just might—”

“Wha—hey!? That’s totally foul—!”

“Nah, they do say all is fair in love and war now, isn’t it?”

By a mind-boggling twist of events, apparently his best friend was also a guy after his dream girl. Satoru was irked, challenged, and he would never admit it, but a tiny part of him recoiled because Suguru clearly had an early start and a boost—you favored him first.

This was unexpected, and now he was conjuring up various scenarios of what he should do. He must act fast or else...

Little did he know that Suguru was thoroughly relishing his restlessness.

Everyone around you said that your relationship with Gojo Satoru... is intriguing to say the least. And especially ever since that one botched mission you two went, you also felt there was a shift in your dynamics.

And if by intriguing they mean him constantly blocking your way and invading your space, then yes, it definitely is.

"Okay, okay, but wait, just hear me out!"

You halted your steps and faced him with an annoyed frown. You really had no time for this. You were about to be sent on a mission. "Gojo, really, can't you just—"

"Okay, I know he's dashing, or whatever," he huffed, the last word he said with a hint of disdain. "But hear me out, and I'm sure you'll reconsider."

"Who are you talki—"

"Who else!? Suguru, of course!"

You couldn't possibly arch your eyebrow even higher, and before you could say anything, he somehow took it as his cue to keep going.

“First, he eats curses. Cursed spirits! He eats them like rice balls! Can you imagine just how foul the taste is?”

"Gojo, I don't have the time—"

"Then! Going from that, just imagine kissing him," he stressed, eyeing you intensely as your own eyes felt like popping out by the sheer suggestion. "What if you taste the cursed spirits rice ball?"

"You're unbeliev—"

"Wait! Can you even kiss him? What if his cursed spirits suddenly pop out of him? Are you willing to kiss his little friends—"

"He's your best friend!" you finally interjected, obviously and utterly in shock by his unhinged rambling. "How could you say all of that?"

"No, you're getting me wrong." Satoru's clicked his tongue. "I'm just listing facts why it's better for you not to end up with him."

You barked a dry laugh. "And? Better with you, you mean? That's awfully biased."

"Why yes of course! Self-promo is never bad," he blatantly retorted. "Let me just tell you aallll you need to know about me!"

He audibly cracked his knuckles and puffed out his chest. "You know already, I'm strong. I can protect you well. My cursed technique doesn't involve eating curses, so you don't have to worry about tasting the said curses on my lips."

How could he blurt all of this with that perpetually playful expression? A chuckle escaped you unwittingly and that only spurred him to go on.

"And I'm handsome!" he boldly claimed, pointing at his face with pride. "And obviously I don't need to say this, but I'm filthy rich—"

At that, you burst into hearty laughter, unable to hold it in any longer.

Satoru's eyes sparkled, lit as if someone had just made his day. "All in all, you know what I mean. Everything with me, all of it is going to be fantastic!"

Even you couldn't deny that all of this exchange had been so amusing. Hilariously so. "You're down bad, huh?" you tried to taunt, although it seemed like a burst of snicker. Yet, you were caught off-guard when he said:

"For you?" his little smirk made your insides suddenly all jumbled up. "Yes."

Huh? What is this? Your bravado faltered a bit as your heart did a somersault inside.

It wasn't supposed to thump this hard. You weren't supposed to feel this overwhelming urge to squeal too. And your face wasn't supposed to grow this hot...

Seeing that, Satoru celebrated his little win, a wicked smile on his glistening lips—that somehow looked rather attractive to you now. "How? Thinking twice now, are we?"

But he couldn't believe that after all this, you would still cunningly retort with, "Ha! You wish, Gojo Satoru."

His stunned face was so comical that you chuckled once again. You wanted to rebuff him more, but before you could, Haibara's voice called you from a distance. "Heeey! Let's go! Or we're gonna be late!"

"I suppose that's my cue," you lightly shrugged, and before you left him in a dust, you could've sworn you saw a flicker of brewing tantrum behind those glasses, which brought a smirk on your face. "See ya, try harder, and I might look at your way."

Satoru was at his wit's end as he saw you sauntering away. What more that he could do so that you could be his? To keep your eyes on him and him only?

And yet, little did he know, in that beginning of summer in 2006, even before you realized it yourself, you had already did.

Epilogue

In another corner of the school, eagerly spying on you were...

"Wait! Can you even kiss him? What if his cursed spirits suddenly pop out of him? Are you willing to kiss his little friends—"

"Did he just..." Suguru gaped, utterly in disbelief at what his own best friend said of him. "Did he just say that?"

Shoko let out a satisfied guffaw. "Oh, he definitely did."

"I can't believe he's tarnishing my name over a girl."

"Well, you know very well he could do way worse than that just to get what he wants," she threw him a thin smile, while exhaling a puff of smoke. "And hey, you lose. You gotta pay me."

Suguru turned to her in surprise. "Huh? Oh—oh, darn it. Shoko, can't you be less stingy?"

"Well, whose bright idea was it to pull that stunt on him and bet on whether Gojo would approach her in less than a day?"

-> continue to extended cut !