#intrusive thoughts can't win

[anachronic-cobra]

One big misunderstanding I see people have is that contamination OCD isn't the only or most common type, just one of the easiest to notice from the outside. Maybe it's specific, like you're afraid your family will die if you don't check on them at your lunch break to make sure. Maybe it's more general, like a sense that something terrible will happen if you don't follow an exact route to work or school every day.

There's also medical OCD, stemming from fear of illness, where you may compulsively go to doctors or check webmd, as the comic touches on. I used to spend a lot of time laying in bed, paralyzed with the fear that I may be actively dying and that no one would take me seriously if I said anything. Obviously it wasn't a rational fear, considering I'm not dead, but OCD had me checking webmd on a daily basis.

One people don't often talk about due to lack of understanding from others or fear of backlash is the fear that you (straight) are secretly gay, or that you (gay) are secretly straight. The underlying fear can stem from a lot of different things, and doesn't affect your sexuality in any way, nor is it a reflection on your personal morals. It's purely anxiety.

Similarly, other OCD types people tend to not think about include violent or sexual intrusive thoughts. That person does not want to do horrible things to family, friends, children, or animals. It's a terrible fear that they maybe they do want to do those things and just don't know it, or that other people will for some reason think they do. In some cases, a person with sexual OCD might compulsively watch porn to prove to themselves they have normal sexual interests, which can lead to porn or sex addiction even outside those compulsions.

Working at a call center, I had to have disability accommodation through my therapist because I was so terrified I would say something massively fucked up to a customer for no reason that I would avoid taking calls. I had to get extra time to psych myself up. I compulsively went to sit in the bathroom for five minutes after every call because my intrusive thoughts would spiral to worse and worse things until I left my desk. I avoided my family because the spiral of worsening thoughts that they hated me gave me panic attacks on a regular basis. I sat in my car for fifteen hours a day. I could not live a life.

It took me years to get therapy for it, and that only happened because I went to therapy for a completely unrelated event and my therapist recognized something else was up later. It's important to talk about OCD frankly, because it is SO hard to recognize that those thoughts are your worst fears, not secret truths. Since starting medication for it I've been SO MUCH BETTER, and I cannot emphasize enough how much I did not realize it wasn't normal until I did. I didn't have any point of reference.

Greetings bugs and worms!

This comic is a little different than what I usually do but I worked real hard on it—Maybe I'll make more infographic stuff in the future this ended up being fun. Hope you learned something new :)

If you are still curious and want to learn more about OCD, you can visit the International OCD Foundation's website. I also recommend this amazing TED ED video "Starving The Monster", which was my first introduction to the disorder and this video by John Green about his own experience with OCD.

The IOCDF's website can also help you find support groups, therapy, and has lots of online guides and resources as well if you or a loved one is struggling with the disorder. It is very comprehensive!

Reblog to teach your followers about OCD

(But also not reblogging doesn't make you evil, silly goose)

[smile-files]

just a kind word for all of you lovely folks out there: if you say the r-slur or you don't call out your friends for saying it then i hate your guts :)

[ryctone]

Unlikely places.

Thinking about that headcanon about Sea cookie couples having this 'tradition' about nicknaming each other after the moon and/or sea ever since I watched the mermaid's tale event,,,

[unusualwhatsits]

[unfortunatelyfortunatee]

Okay, this might seem like a dumb question, but who told her this?

[Screenshot taken from ep. 45 "Wolf in Sheep's Clothing"]

She grew up completely sheltered and lived off the radar of most Aberrants. The majority of the people who were around her didn't know she was related to criminals.. unless it was someone from the Crimson Society?

It can't be Samin due to how Sayeon's wording the sentence. Can't be Min either because he barely talks at all and she doesn't even know he knows about her history. It has to be someone old enough to have seen Sara while she was alive, knows that Sayeon is related to her, and be able to easily talk to Sayeon before she came to the Corps.

It could also be someone from the inner circle of Sea Wolves, since they're both close enough to have known Sara and Sayeon's relation to her. I don't know why they would've went out of their way to go talk to her and not Samin or how they could've gotten to her. "Hey, it's been a couple of years since your mom died! She was hot and so is your sister"

I don't think it's any of the boys from the Crimson Society, since she didn't recognize Min at all and didn't know who Jungwoo was when he told her the warehouse location.

[Screenshots taken from ep. 11 "No-Kill Rule"]

You could argue that she's seen Black before, since in 'End of the Tunnel' she's seen sitting in the back of a car with them as the driver. The only problem with that is how Sayeon's classmate says that everyone who has ever picked her up was a woman.

[Screenshot taken from ep. 63 "End of the Tunnel"]

My best guess is that it's the yellow girl. They know Samin so they obviously know Sara and is put in a good position where she could've easily talked to Sayeon while picking her up from school. The only reason I don't think it's Pink is because she doesn't seem to like Sayeon enough to talk to her about her mother.

[Screenshot taken from ep. 56 "Red and White"]

There's not a lot of information known about this character though, so I'm probably just blowing this thing out of proportion. Whether I'm correct or incorrect, I want to see who told Sayeon this and what kind of relationship they had with each other. Even if it's something like "They're just this person I know".

[peeledstrawberry]

Younger me would be so freaking happy about how I turned out. I have pink hair and I study psychology. I initiate conversations with strangers and I talk the most in class now. I lived past 15 and I found words that could describe what was wrong with me.

It really got better :0

[ravendruid]

One of my first attempts at a recipe from Exquisite Exandria was the Berry Surprise Pie. It was an adventure, to say the least, but 100% worth it.

I'm still learning how to make pies, and this was the first time I made dough from scratch, but overall I think I did a fine job. A solid 6/10 for looks, and a 8/10 for taste (I cut the sugar in half because I was afraid it would be too sweet, but next time I'm going to add all 200g of sugar). I had a little bit of dough left, so I got creative on the decorations.

Props for including metric measurements in the ingredients. It's so much more helpful and easier than using cups.

[thatdude-noah]

sometimes im doing great and im happy and my depression isn't hitting me too hard. and then my intrusive thoughts become debilitating and suddenly the world is awful again!

[etlu-yume]

suddenly reminded of how I described feeling the PMDD ... mood swings? Hazard zone? Darkside? whatever you want to call it. When you can FEEL it coming in;

It comes from behind, soft and subtle at first. Like a comforting back hug. Until it tightens its grip, until it's got you by the throat. And it keeps you in a chokehold until either you outlast it and the danger is over...

Or until it kills you.

(Sending hugs to all the PMDD folks struggling hard this cycle, hang in there <3)

[deathbydelete]

Bro what are you supposed to do with the stickers on computers... can I peel them...

[gideonisms]

grits teeth this anxiety is just an excuse to treat myself better that's all this is telling me. It's just the sign to go on more walks and make myself my favorite tea and read more. Things that WILL feel good and luxurious so help me

[sureuncertainty]

officially covid negative!!

[kyonite]

bro why is my brain so evil like I had a stray bad thought about teeth 2 days ago and now I literally have to hype myself up and distract my brain with something else so I can literally do the bare fucking necessity of eating food.

[whimsicalpdf]

learning to be more comfortable thinking things i vehemently disagree with (this is me winning against my ocd btw) (i am not endorsing containing to sit in objectively 'bad' thought processes under the pretense of not truly believing it) (pls practice critical thinking)

[professionalqueerbookworm]

I know my mental health is getting BAD again when I get the urge the reinstall Twitter

[nochepsicodelica]

Perv Toji thoughts in the brain 😔 Fed you guys the fluffy pieces, now i'm thinking of the little weirdo in him.

Suggestive

Perv!Toji who slips his thumb past your lips when you start drooling after falling asleep on him. He wipes the drool that seeped out of the corner of your mouth before gently pushing down on the plush of your bottom lip and easing the digit into your slightly parted lips. His eyes remain lidded as he feels your soft, wet tongue with the pad of his thumb, and when you start to stir, he coos at you, soft murmurs of, "sleepy princess" and "I got you, baby". He's got the most satisfied look on his face when you don't question why his thumb is in your mouth, too tired to even bother.

Perv!Toji who cancels his gym membership and starts working out at home, because you said you wanted to join him in his workouts. He could never say no to something like that. This is just something else you can do together, but it'll have to be an at home thing, because he can't have people ogling you the way he does when he puts you to work. He won't make you do his exact intense routine, but he does push you to the point where you break a sweat. It's a must. He slowly walks around you, observing his favorite parts of your body as you do the warm ups he instructed you to do. Jumping jacks are one of his favorite things to watch you do. He likes watching your boobs and ass bounce, and because it's not just a simple set of ten or fifteen, you end up panting, a sound that sends his blood rushing down, down, down. When you get tired, he does the parts of his routine that he exempts you from. He has you sit on his lap while he does bench presses, he does his pushups, but he wants you wrapped around him as he does them, and so on. Everything is skin to skin because he's not gonna have you just sit there and watch when you have a better purpose.

Perv!Toji who can't hold consistent eye contact with you when you go braless and your nipples are poking through your shirt. He understands, from the many times you've said it out loud, that not all bras are comfortable. The prettiest ones, some of his favorites even, are usually the least comfortable to wear. They're a courtesy to the rest of the world, but when you're walking around at home, you free your chest from those constraints and he has absolutely no complaints about it. "Free those puppies" is a recurring line of his, and when you do get the bra off, your boobs instantly attract his attention, like they're magnets to his eyes. Sometimes his intrusive thoughts win and he'll reach out and grab a handful of tit. He's definitely not shy about it, either. He knows his hands are better than any bra you own. He can hold onto your tits and never get tired, he offers great support for your back when he's behind you, and massages are included <3

Perv!Toji who has the weirdest obsession with your tummy. He's constantly rubbing and pinching the soft flesh as a form of stress relief. The area is never clear of hickeys, there always has to be at least three on that part of you because he can't be gentle when he's kissing that area. I don't know, he's just internally feral about it and sometimes those feral feelings start to trickle out. Loves when you eat a good amount of food and you get a little belly. He's constantly thinking of putting a baby in you, so when your stomach protrudes that way with a food baby, it gives him the illusion of what you would look like in the early stages of carrying his baby.

That's all for now, buh-bye <3