#a weird mix of. im not depressed but im not. doing well.

[phagodyke]

my supervisor AND my manager both aren't in today so I'm just practicing shit... im boored

[coffeesleep-ooc]

pos canon bingqiu that die and lost most of their memories, except they transmigrate into the settings of Hua Cheng and Yin Yu

idk, i have many thoughts and little time, will def add to this

I donothave more time but i do brainrot. Im thinking, in this au, LQG or YQY could be QYZ

like, YQY would forgive everything and still keep looking for SQQ…but also mixed feelings anout it bc this SQQ is technically SY!SQQ!YY so…unless we apply the SY is SJ au here i feel guilty ;-;

i wa leaning more towards a LQG that arrived there when hr was looking for SQQ in his universe, and unlocked his memories when they ascended to godhood! But the tragedy of them is that, every time he tried to get close, YY|SQQ brushed him off, until everything exploded with the incident we all know about (when YY exploded at the worst possible time and ended ipcast away from heaven yes we know about that haha), LQG, just like QYZ, would be shocked but would know that those hurtful things he said and almost did are not his actual wishes or intentions, and that he is horrified of what he did. YY and SQQ both have the flight reaction to their own mistakes, and they pujish themselves for it.

also SQQ with a cursed shackle, living around with the weight of hurting his best friend and favorite shidi…meeting a kind ghost king that gives him work…and over time SQQ starts appreciating his new life, and starts ro admire this person that has worked so amazingly hard to build this city. And well, he is also devilishly handsome and open and affectionate with him and they end up entangled!

as for LBH|HC backstory? In this au he would pray to the defunct god of kindness Shen Qingqiu, who disappeared with his husband many years ago… he would be thankful to this au’s XL! Im thinking that it could be NYY reincarnated who has a soft spot for him bc she remembers bit can’t tell him(? God laws?? Idk), but anyways, he would find himself praying to SQQ over and over again and receiving barely a hint of a response, maybe a ‘????’ Or a ‘sleepy’ or something like that, like a broken phone connection. He survives to solve the puzzle of this, and creates this city in case his god is dead and a lost soul!

the problem is that LQG|QYZ, artives in ghost ciry and wants to take LBH’s moon officer back to heaven??? Hell no???? Either back off this cute obedient subordinate is mine, or stay here to make a trio, your choice martial god!

————-

Or alternatively!

LBH is Yin Yu. And SQQ is HC! ofc they don’t quite have a shizun-disciple relationship but also, SQQ being the kind of ghost king that just drifts through afterlife without even know why and repressing the hell out of his half-formed memories, only to find himself drawn to a pair of cute little mortal disciples that work very hard and are insufferable to each other! He really wants to mediate bc they are so! So!!! To each other!!!

Hc that BingLiu show all of their feelings fighting

SQQ is also there, smiling when they ascend. And LBH locks eyes with him in the crowd for a segond qnd then SQQ is gone, LBH tries to go back but never finds him.

And when HC!SQQ finds one of them lost and wandering the human realm after their ascension he takes the guy in, he is so depressed that SQQ cooks him and pats him and clothes him.

LBH falls in love. Even if the food is disgusting.

And again, QYZ!LQG regains his memories after godhood and searches for his wayward shixiong/shizhi (and isn’t that weird for him? Well, he doesn’t actually care) and finds SQQ in the process…

[richardsphere]

Watching Climatiqueen

Headed into the first episode of the season, as the sixth episode to watch. (because nothing makes sense in this franchise) --- Ok so to start: Im on the page and im seeing the end-of-episode splash-art. Either this is a new character, Aurore has had a major overhaul, or the people who headcannon Adrien as Trans are about to rejoice quite loudly. (I think that this is probably either a new character, or an Aurore Redesign. But they look very Adrien, and the light makes it hard to see if the eyes are blue or green so that isnt helping) ---

Rose with the Unipony. Why does this read like an Ad? Has Kitty Section got itself a sponsorship? Did Rose sell out to RothToys Industries?

Ok so its an Aurore redesign. (good for her, sorry Trans Adrien fans, you'll have to stick with headcannons). Oh Chloe is back. She's claiming to grant wishes now? (and is clearly resentfull of the heroes... with a notable exception that she mentions Unicorns? which seems to be unrelated to any existing hero. Also no mention of Cat's. Is that Alec? I'll be honest, his wig looks weird, but He do Him. Ok Plagg and Adrien are alone. There is no timepressure, nobody about to enter the room and the Big Lie has just been brought up: Will Plagg's writing actually acknowledge the fact that Plagg knows the truth. Or are we going to have to invent some kind of "timetraveler stole Plagg's Memory" theory, because all Plagg's appearences this season have seemed to go out of their way from even acknowledging the fact that Plagg knows. Nope. No acknowledgement besides Plagg looking sideways in worry for Adrien being sad. Also Marinette is gone for some reason, Maybe this takes place during a summer vacation or something? --- Ok Marinette is still just home? So i guess "wait for you to arrive" just means Marinette is going to come over to his place. The Melodramatic tone of that line did not match with the degree of Marinette's absence. She's going to some kind of workshop?

French Plagg looks weird. And i dont like the flanderisation in this scene, continuing the "Plagg=cheese" thing and nothing more. Nathalie being a supportive mom is nice. Adrien doesnt know what he wants.

--- Placide with the hose. Ok so she's just going to Adriens place after all, not a workshop? Seriously what the heck are even the plans? This is mixed messages all over the place.

seven out of a hundred in one greeting... Marinette switches from French Pronounciations to an english-pronounced "fantastic" (which is weird, i remember from my french classes that the french also just... have 'fantastique', so the loanword feels redundant?) Ok like the little picture of Sublime playing the violin in the background, before turning to what apears to be a depressed Lila? --- Aurore is depressed as well. (did she get fired from her weathergig? I know she lost the contest but i think i remember them co-hosting anyway?)

I like that Placide has decided to just... carry a pressurised water-backpack with him.

Ok so we're meeting this Aglae character now. She looks like a vampire. Also it seems that she isnt sad about anything in her life but just... trying to win Chloe's Contest for 'greatest rise in subscribercount'. It's becoming very obvious now that this app is more then just a stylised way to represent character connections. It looks like Tomoe's plot is probably going to be a repeat of the "social media is evil"-angle from the rings)

Ok but why are there animal-themed communities? It was one thing when we thought it was just... using the symbols as profile pictures but its some kind of clique/caste system? Is that what the overarching plot for Tomoe is going to be? Some kind of Die Welle for Kids? Max's mom has a book about space weather. (My prediction: Adrien's Passion is going to be 'networking' and connecting his friends, fixing peoples problems and stuff, so this episode ends with Adrien getting Aurore to meet with Max so Max can get his mom to sign her book)

Ok so... I hate to say it but those people who assumed (just of the fact it was a character they didnt know yet) that Aglae was gonna be secretly Lila might have been hit with the sacred dodgeball. This scene could very well end up with a 'turns out it was lila, pretending to be supportive but deliberately planting the suggestion'. that is not to say i think they're right. (we literally only have 1 scene of the character, and nothing in this scene is truly damning). But it is to acknowledge that this character's introduction fits eerily in line with 'what would Lila do'. (just... if the writers actually wrote Lila as legitimately competent at her manipulations, which i still dont think they'd ever do.) Oh i see where this is headed... Placide is going to break her phone with his waterhose, leading to the akumatisation... (honestly, at this point, im just happy that we're akumatising aurore rather then going full-maya and introducing a new character to take her place like Maya took Manon) --- Ok. getting off the elevator im going to go into an aside. Because this seemingly small scene feels (to me) like its secretly a very big scene indeed. This scene seems to confirm a suspicion/hypothesis/theory i've had for a while: Adrien's Senti-Power. Ever since the Senti-stuff was introduced, and it became obvious that someone at the Agreste Manor was a senti (which is to say, the Ladybug episode introducing the concept of human-senti's), i've been speculating to myself which character it was gonna be. initially i was 20% Gabriel, 25% Nathalie, 5% Placide, 50% adrien. With Adrien having grown quite quickly. My main lead on Adrien was the fact that he was the only one that seemed to have a 'superpower' in their human form. Adrien's status instant mastery of anything. His nature as a polyglot and Homo Universale rendered him my main suspect for the Senti-twist early on. (even moreso then him being the most 'important' member of the family). Especially when combined with the Gabriel's "perfection" talk having had a big "ultimate lifeform"-tone to it. Which is to say, i posited the theory that Adrien has, all along, had a secret senti-power. The power to instantaneously master any skill he tried. Up until now, that hypothesis has been limited to indirect evidence, in the form of his wide and eclectic portfolio of skills and seemingly disparate fields of competency. But lacking the explicit 'instantaneous learning' proof required for an outright confirmation. (It having never been clear how quickly he took to learning Chinese, Piano or other skills) But this scene particularly? Explicitly stating he did all these things, from painting to macarons (which i understand to be a relatively advanced pastry-recipe) amazingly 'on his first try'. To me feels like it's meant to confirm exactly that suspicion. either that or Marinette is lying to spare his feelings. Which could theoretically be supported by the comedic-hijinks of the montage. But it's clear that Marinette, in this scene, is entirely 100% comprehensive of the fact that Adrien is indifferent to his competence and only trying to find the field of his passion. which is to say, 'lying to spare his feelings' has no place within this scene, as no one in this scene 'cares' about wether adrien is good at the thing. Basically. I feel like this scene is carrying big evidence for my 'Instant Mastery'-hypothesis. --- Ok Marinette is switching tactics: Instead of trying to see if Adrien likes the things she likes, she's trying to Yin Yang "opposites attract" this problem. I like this, its a scene of Marinette actually performing explicit self-sacrifice out of a desire to support her boyfriend. Please show do not ruin this the way you ruined werepapa's. We've gotten so little of marinette being a genuinely good girlfriend. Please tell me that everything we've seen so far has been an unfortunate series of aberattions, rather then a deliberate pattern established in episode one of your new season.

--- huh... its the aproaching deadline that gets her akumatised? I had legitimately expected them to make it to be the established 'placide sprays paparazi' running gag for this episode. Im gonna say it. That's dissapointing to me. Ok so here's a thing: Aurore still has her old akuma design right? And Millie had the same hair as Ringmaster (to the point where, in the promo-shots where Ringmaster had the Microphone, i legitimately thought it was Stormy Weather 3.0) and now Aglae also has the same 'skunk-type' hair. It feels like the writers heard the "too many blondes" complaint, and just copy-pasted Stormy's hair to compensate. --- Ok so the 'baricade yourself' scene does feel like... if the Lilaglae theorists are right, this scene would've been deliberately more drawn-out for a later "from Lila's perspective" reveal. (and yes, that does require the "Chrisalis is two people" theory to be true as well, but that theory is much more substantive on the evidence, with the notetakers clearly looking like different models and the two seperate voices). --- Now its time for the Climatiqueen fight. Now remember: The one thing the writers claim they want, is for Lila to be a 'worse' and 'more legitimate' threat then Hawkmoth was. Aurore has had 2 previous akumatisations (though only the first was on-screen), and given that Stormy Weather was the original pilot, and this is the season opener. this is the best chance at a direct comparison. And im gonna say it, the mind-controll 'press like on my video's' power is just... kind of a lame and worthless addition. And at least initially, the power-uses feel a lot more simple. She's pretty much limited herself to smaller scale effects. No giant, slow-growing glacier of suspence threatening. just some generic point-to-point lightning, a minor windblast and an iceslick.

At what point did Maribug hear Aurore refer to herself as climatiqueen? It feels like Mari should refer to her as Stormy and be corrected. Adrien gets to dodge some lightning. (its nice to see him portrayed as on-screen competent for once... usually the closest we get to "adrien is still badass" is "Marinette leaves and Adrien doesnt get killed off-screen so he must be somewhat competent" so the little lightning-dodge sequence is nice) Ok we're wind-blasting cars... thats better then when this fight started, but still feels small-scale compared to OG stormy Ok... so why cataclysm the train when you were already going to be running through it? It feels to me like Marinette could've easily side-dodged or followed him through the train. The Cataclysm feels wasted.

Ok when the heck did Lila get to skip 'regular' akuma and go straight to 'ultrakuma'. That has not been earned.

--- "everything on the internet is lies" ok so i really hope this "dangers of social media"-storyarc isnt going to end up swallowing the "big lie" storyarc, but given that both this first episode and the episode explicitly about the big lie seem to be focussing on the "evils of the social media"... i feel like that's waving a red flag. It could be that theoretically they manage to weave the "internet of lies" and "Marinette's big lie" stories together (through the shared themes of Ignorance VS Truth)... but given how Revalator ended i dont trust them to stick the landing there. Oh we're doing "superheroing is Adrien's passion" as well?.. I dont like it, if this was the first episode of the season I might be cautiously optimistic about that.. but given that I already know what happens in the next couple episodes (and especially how Daddycop turns this line into "Actually, i love being a disposable meatshield for you to sacrifice without agency of my own"). I just dont like this being his "passion".

--- Am I misremembering things? Arent they supposed to eat special cheese to go Astro-mode? Or did they lose that limitation at some random point off-screen as well. Seriously this feels like the writers just dont care about anything anymore. Ok it feels really weird how little Max has to do with this episode only for him to be called in here. (same problem as the Weredad episode. But at least that episode primarily featured a Fetch-based solution with him as a mere cameo. This episode is going to be a Portal-based solution for a character whose motivations directly connect to Max' mother. His only appearing 3/4ths into the episode feels wrong).

Ok max im sorry to say it but... your portals dont stop momentum At most you turned a 270-ish meter fall (viewing platform heigth) to a 10 meter drop, but most of these people were already falling fast enough to get badly injured. (also, to see season 6 be the first to acknowledge that the Eiffel tower, which our heroes have destroyed in the past has people on it feels a tad late. It casts a shadow backwards throughout the canon that makes previous seasons a lot darker)

---

Oh nice, lila herself acknowledges that her debut villain was lame. It seems the writers themselves acknowledge their failure to 'sell' her as the 'worse and more dangerous' antagonist. I dont even need to write some witty punchline. They're just going to be frank and honest about the fact that Lila just... lacks punch as an antagonist. Good on you for being honest Thomas --- Oh we're making running his passion-answer? I actually like that, movement, wind through the hair, freedom and mobility contrasting the imprisonment of the gabriel-era mansion. it's nice... or at least a lot nicer then "being ladybug's disposable human sacrifice is my passion" at least. I do not like how this scene has the dark ominous musical sting, The Sublime=evil theorists are going to take that sting and i just know the fanbase is going to find a new level of toxicity as a result. I also do not like the implication that Adrien meeting Sublime is bad, and that therefore Marinette's choice in this scene not to stalk adrien must be a bad thing for allowing it to happen.

--- As a final note this episode is underwhelming, but mostly harmless (at least on its own)... I do dislike how this episode seems to be feeding both the 'Algae=secretly lila" and "Sublime=lila' theories. (the former in a rather subtle manner, the latter in a very obvious poster-change and musical sting). I really worry about those theories. It feels like both of those theories are going to be the big thing in the fandom... And i dont trust either of those theories to end up 'good'. I also want to end this by repeating my big question: Does the app lack a cat-emote, or is that actually some kind of "chloe doesnt hate Chat Noir like she hates the other heroes"-clue that might pay off later?

[kittygaykitty]

fuck it, making a proper intro post. not doing fancy styling, cause idk how to do that

hi! im kitty! and from the next sentence onwards, im gonnya be speaking in third person and using cat puns for reasons that will be explained later. if nyu find this kindnya talking annoying, then nyu probly won't wannya hang around kitty anyaway, so ciao and have a nyice life

rest of the bio under the cut

so! who is kitty? well, kitty is a 27 year old trans woman cat who happens to be both really nerdy and really stupid. kitty is homoromantic*, asexual*, polyamorous, plural, neurodivergent (if nyu couldn't already tell), British (ew), and always down fur nyew furiends. kitty's pronouns are kitty/kitty, which will also be explained later. nyu can see what kitty looks like here!

to elaborate on several parts of the above;

polyamorous as in dating three wonderful girls. two (Ashy and Jess) don't have Tumblr, one ( @salix03 ) does. kitty is nyot currently looking fur myore relationships partners as kitty is fully saturated, and truth be told, even if that was about to change, kitty has about eight other people who have admitted to having (reciprocated) crushes on kitty, and two further people who admitted to having (unreciprocated) crushes. nyo, i have nyo idea how kitty found a total of thirteen people who a admitted to having interests in kitty, it just kindnya happened, help

plural as in undiagnosed, but kitty doesn't hold much faith in the UK mental health services' ability to handle such a thing. there's about 17/18 of us up here in this noggin, depending on how nyu view it, tho it's only likely to be kitty, and one other which is basically a... median subsystem of the system? kdk it's confusing. brains are weird but really cool

neurodivergent as in autism, likely ADHD, whatever caused the plurality, and a handful of other stuff like anxiety and depression, tho that last one ive found success with antidepressant prescriptions so

asexual is a funky one, but discussion of that will likely go on the intro to kitty's horny blog, @kittygaykittycat

kitty has many interests, including but nyot limited to; Project Moon, Skyrim modding, mewsic of a wide variety, video games in general, the way video games are made and why they're designed in certain ways, video essays, ttrpgs, a little bit of anime, a little bit of psychology, a little bit of philosophy.

as a general rule of thumb, pawlease dun compliment kitty's intelligence. calling kitty dumb or stupid, though, is a compliment to kitty, so feel furree. to summarise why, gifted kid burnout mixed with certain interests means that kitty has a very particular relationship with the idea of being seen as smart

kitty uses the queue almost exclusively, cause that's just what's comfy fur kitty. if nyu see kitty like but nyot reblog, the reblog might come much later

if we're mewtuals, feel furree to reach out! kitty is always down fur a chat, tho kitty may be slow to respond due to nyot checking Tumblr super super often. if we get along and nyu want quick responses, just ask fur kitty's discord, kitty is on there practically every waking mewment lmao

feel furree to send asks, anon or nyo. kitty is always happy to answer questions, always :3

[cherriesnkisses]

first of all, I hope you get better soon!!! Take your time to heal and get better!!

So about the mofa guy... I was sick the last few days so it was my first school day today. I don't know how it is/was in America but here we need to wait in the hall in from of the classroom until the teacher comes to open the door. I was sitting with a friend opposite of the door. He and his friends walked in school and obviously you look at people sitting there, but we had like eye contact until he walked past him and then I kinda sat with my back to him. Then we were I'm class and I was kinda sad and depressed he doesn't like me (I had like no sleep 💀) and my friend said he always looks towards me but every time I look at him he doesn't look at me, so this was really confusing. We did a little 10 minute break. Me and my friends (we were 3) walked out in the hall, then he and his friends followed. Then I walked in again and guess what, he walked in again. Then I walked out (because I just picked something from the class room) and he walked out again. After a while he walked in with his friends and we wanted to because we thought the break was over. They (he and his 2 friends) were inside and stood in the middle of the classroom so we couldn't move past them. He turned around and noticed us standing there, and after exact that second he got really loud and made some jokes and all (I'm sorry that sounds really weird). After a while we had a pretty long break because of afternoon school and we don't really have a cafeteria like you in America have. So we were in the city to buy some food and drink and guess who was there, Mofa guy. And guess who had eye contact again!!!! During the next two lessons we didn't really talk but I was able to admire him a bitz especially after walking into the classroom again, we needed to stand really close, and I noticed how tall he was!!!! I'm already pretty tall as a girl (5'8 I think), but he was much taller! Like at least a whole head! So he needs to be AT LEAST over 6'1!!!! After that we had SO MUCH eye contact!!! I swear, I was about to faint! The thing is, yes, I did stare at him, and I also did git caught by him and a few friends (it was a bit embarrassing), but I also caught him staring! So often! Whatever I did! Then we needed to walk in the classroom for a new lesson again, his one friend tried to push him against me I think, it just didn't really walk well because his friend is around my height and Mofa guy is like said pretty tall, and I'm sure he's also very muscular... God, he's giving me so many mixed signals!!! What am I supposed to do?!?? (Sorry for so much text)

do you guys follow each other on social media or talk outside of school?

guys give advice pls im bad at love advice

[askcannibalistickitties]

ASK THESE GOOBERS ANYTHING!!!

(Nothing weird plz)

colt: -“IM NOT GAY” says the fruitiest man on earth

-One of the more “popular” kids.

-feels inferior to all his peers

-Hurts himself frequently from playing sports

-13!!

-GAD (generalized anxiety disorder)

-GAD does affect sports

-Has no idea how he even became friends with the group, kinda just got dragged in

-Tweaks whenever there’s a dog nearby

-“Am i a girl?”

-“Yes?”

-“No.”

-Relentlessly bullies 4th graders on roblox

-Divorced parents

-64 little white things

-Likes to wear layered jackets

-Doesn’t like being popular, it doesn’t mix well with anxiety

-Sometimes has panic attacks

-Likes picking up bugs and scaring Spoop shitless

-Cuddle piles with Donnie as bros do (PLATONIC BROMANCE💪)

-Has a cheeky smile

-Glitch forces him into at home fashion shows (he secretly enjoys it)

-Loves bubbles

-Nicknamed, Colts, Colty, and Cole by Glitch, Spoop, and Donnie (in that order)

-Felix.

Glitch: -Glitch loves space and her shoes have the NASA logo on them

-ADHD + depression (i swear not everyone’s depressed it’s just spoop and glitch)

-Loves to read

-Once burned a poptart in the toaster, was never allowed to even attempt to cook again

-Has no idea where the hell the stars come from, her dad and mom both don’t have them, nor a family history of them

-Glitch is always wearing a sweater or hoodie

-Despises PE

-In a robotics club

-Has the entire Hamilton script memorized

-Donnie and her nerd about their interests to each other

-Sometimes gets panic attacks over loud noises

-Favorite animal is the hedgehog

-Had a Danganronpa phase

-Likes to play with spoop’s checkered belts, thinks checkers are cool

-Doesn’t have any cool nicknames:(

-Born june 19th, making her the youngest out of the group

Spoop: Spoop is 13, being born on January 21st (my birthday!!)

-Spoop has a weird fear of butterflies and moths, hence why she hates them

-Doesn’t have a set fashion style, anything alternative

-Absolutely loves the stuffed peppers their mom makes

-Anxiety + Depression

-Loves the smell of lavender

-Loves thrill, especially water slides

-Likes to swim, despite being a cat

-Doesn’t like ELA, hates writing

-Watched the ROTTMNT movie and sobbed

-Does the smolder face to jumpscare people, it’s actually really fun

-Spoop doesn’t eat food if they don’t like the texture

-Likes to play with slime

-Collects rocks (and eats them /hj)

-Thinks space is cool

-Takes a photo of every sunset he sees

-Cannot sit still

-Once wandered reddit when they were 8, she’s still traumatized

-Sleeps with a gazillion plushies

-Is nicknamed “poop” by Donnie, gets mad every time he’s called it

-Can eat sour food like it’s the end of the world, it ends up hurting the roof of her mouth

Donnie: Donnie has asthma and always carries an inhaler on them

-Cannot handle spicy things for the life of it

-Freaks people out, Spoop and Glitch are kinda their only friends

-that’s fine though bc Donnie absolutely despises socializing

-Donnie can be very quiet while walking and sometimes accidentally sneaks up on people, this gives spoop a mini heart attack each time they get snuck up on

-Donnie’s dad was diagnosed with skin cancer when Donnie was six, at age seven Donnie’s dad died.

-Donnie’s mom is actually really nice and a bit spooky like her kid

-Donnie is 14, making it the oldest out of the bunch (spoop and glitch are both 13)

-Likes to read poems

-Uses words like “skibidi” ironically

-Absolutely despises their aunt, she’s a total bitch

-Was given the nickname “donns” by Glitch, “Freaky Clown Dude” by Spoop, and “Glue God” by Spoop

-Its ear was clipped as a child, no one really knows why

-Choir kid, liked to sing upbeat pop songs

-soprano voice, always manages to impress Spoop

-Favorite subject in school is history

-Sometimes gets really giddy for no reason

-Salty > Sweet

-Absolutely loves rats

-Has an absurd amount of glue, that’s where they got the nickname Glue God

That’s all for Donnie >_<

[treezxu]

Hai :3 do u have any wacky wild michael hcs

oh do i!

both adult and teen. loser has been on my mind again.

He gets super fucking cold for no reason and blamed it on ghosts until after fnaf 6 where he brought it up as a joke and the ghost kids were like "...none of us did that" and now he's convinced theres a whole extra ghost after him. (it was cc he didnt mean to initially but cassidy thought it was funny)

He talked to the animatronics all the fuckin time. like he just. chatted with them. especially the fnaf 2 ones. charlie had to sit there and watch him talk to actual robots thinking they were kids. they werent and she told him that in fnaf 6 because she found it so fucking funny

clumsy as HELL i know that man was banging his knee in the SL vents and swearing under his breath

teen mike was also clumsy. probably split his lip on concrete all the time as a kid.

he was also the kinda kid to say "nah, check this out!!" and wake up in the hospital

this is a gross one but. he dealt with bugs a lot post scoop (especially. flies. and what comes with them. iykyk). he'd come into work on mondays smelling like a can of bug repellant. you wont believe what he showers with instead of water.

He was williams least favorite but they had a weird relationship between him moving out and elizabeths death. like some days william despised him and michael just wanted to blow them both up with his mind and some days he comes home like "Hey mike whats up want some pizza for dinner tonight?" and michaels like "fuck yeah why not."

he's henrys favorite afton as a teen and he knows it. and he uses it. Henry fuckin loved that kid he had the man wrapped around his finger. William also notices it and he gets mad at henry over it.

in relation to that, henry was really gentle with michael which was. not helpful im sorry 😭

mike sleeps pretty casually. hes not a light sleeper but not a deep sleeper. unless hes tired. if he hasnt been getting enough sleep youll know because he sleeps like a ROCK.

he fucking loves italian food. for no reason. he just does

he unironically eats beans on toast. He tried it as a joke and then just. never stopped.

he still has his foxy mask it just doesnt fit him. he tries it on again and it hurts his head

cannot afford to go out to eat often and GOD does he complain about it. he is SO FUCKING LOUD when he complains about it. he wants his takeout man

Loves animals but they hate him. A crow tried to take a bite out of him post scoop once nad he had to fight for his life. bro saw his family for a moment there

he is so polite most of the time but if you talk to him after his shift he'll fuck you up. rudest bitch on the block and he was an asshole teen so he knows how to run his mouth

he plays solitaire.

does not know about the context but whenever hes depressed he says "tomorrow is another day" because time moves on anyways!!!! also idk i think its neat

he ate shit in the middle of his shift once and bashed his face on one of the counters and his coworker found the blood the next day and managed to start a rumor that someone died there until michael came in to work with his face bandaged up.

these are so rambly but funny so im gonna keep going

skateboards <3 totally tried to show off and ate shit until william told him if he went to the hospital again he'd take the skateboard. he still ate shit. just hid it better.

taught evan to do a lot. If he didnt feel like bullying him (for an array of reasons, but the biggest is just. boredom. or loneliness. or a mix) he'd teach him something just because he could. skipping rocks, flying a kite. michael doesnt remember it very well but evan does

cassidy kicked him in the knee so hard he was limping for an hour and so he found the golden freddy suit and kicked it too at one point. she didnt feel it tho. and jumpscared him out of spite.

he loves dogs and once brought evan to see one because his friends were busy and he hates being alone and the dog bit the shit out of evan. foreshadowing.

oh yeah i totally think he gets lonely btw. do not leave that guy alone he will get very sad and pathetic!!!

im capping myself here because jesus christ.

[lautity]

WHAT WOULD LINDA'S DRUG OF CHOICE BE. as in like, drug of choice. not something all rich people do so she does it too, but what she'd actually go for just based on the effects & not where she got it

RAN up the stairs to answer this because i get to talk abt one of my dream drugs <3

i think linda Has Done cocaine. obviously. who hasn't. she's probably tried like xanax or valium or some sort of benzo as well and thought it was okay (they're anxiolytics so you just get to kind of drift through life carefree. me when im coping w my comphet marriage and kids i hate). i think she'd be drawn towards these drugs that let her be sort of out of it which is why she drinks LOL so for her the ideal is definitely a sedative of some sort.

methaqualone, aka quaaludes (us) or mandrax (uk) is a hypnotic (sleepy) sedative (less anxiety + sometimes euphoria). it's generally been lumped in with benzos and barbituates (the two larger classes of sedative depressants) but it has a different chemical behavior. i've seen it described as a sort of meeting point between benzos and opiates because it gives more euphoria than benzos. also shel silverstein wrote a song about quaaludes???

for awhile these were like. the Most prescribed sedative all over the place. handing this shit out like candy to depressed insomniac housewives "for sleep" and "for anxiety". by the 80s they were basically withdrawing it cuz of its crazy abuse potential but it's still a big party drug in south africa (where they also tried to use it as a chemical weapon??? lol)

i think linda would like this because it feels good and she's a hedonist <3 she doesn't care if she breaks shit stumbling around her house, or if she gives one of her sons permisssion to do something horribly dangerous, or if it makes her actually smile at gerald. she's more relaxed and less stressed, she's less likely to snap at her kids or husband (could even make her stupid and sloppy enough to be nice to them) + she just falls asleep after a few hours. makes all her memories soft and fuzzy and she doesn't have to think about hating her life and she doesn't have to be mean and she can just brush it off as "too much wine" (many depressants/sedatives do give a body feeling very similar to being really drunk) (nobody believes she's getting blackout drunk every single day but they do not say anything). it's not trippy as in your reality isn't altered, but you are also not fully locked in on reality. if that makes sense.

it can also be empathogenic. as someone w pretty low empathy who has taken empathogens it's weird being like Oh i care, suddenly, and can comprehend empathizing with you. i think linda while stoned would sometimes try to have heart to hearts with her sons or just like want to hug them. very awkwardly and sleepily she Tries to sit on the floor and color with them or watch tv or whatever. until she falls asleep.

taking them with alcohol can also ramp up the euphoria but this is a terrible idea . never mix depressants you can Fucking Die. but she would do this.

[geee-three]

uuuuh my tablet is basically overheating bc ive been drawing so hard for the call boy fan mv (WHICH I CANT WORK ON UNTIL NEXT WEEKEND FUCK MY STUPID BAKA LIFE) so. throws some incomprehesible sekai oc scribbles at you plus elboration

a little explaination of how the gacha system ive made up works. so bc i have 3 people in one unit (sunken starlight) plus 6 people in another (unnamed orchestra) (yes thats their unit name theres a reason okay) and 3 in the third unit (whihc i havent created yet but its gonna be a nightcord-esque thing) heres how the systems gonna work

4*, 4*, 3*, 2*. the orchestra guys will have 3 ocs at a time plus a vs. all cards are hakolims and mixed events can have any previous mixed card OR initial card (every character will have an initial 4*, which doesnt give you an outfit or hairstyle bc its their regular unit one).

also it'll go sunken starlight, unnamed orchestra, mix, [yet to exist], unnamed orchestra, mix

this is not a real game thats being made i am not that good at coding nor do i have that much dedication

okay so this one is for dami1. rockstar set i think. idk if you can see all that well but in the corner its called 2 to overcome our past resentment. basic summary:

erynn is pissed that damien and siobahnn keep "teaming up against her" when in reality her ideas are just shit

damien overreacts. bc its damien and his ego is fragile. so stops talking to erynn altogether.

so now erynn is sad and siobahnn is going to get to the bottom of this no matter what but damien doesn tknow that

damiens mother (who. has a l2d!!! yay for npcs) is like "kid you are acting weird and lonely again dont tell me your new friends dumped you" and ehs like. nooo.... i maybe dumped them.... and shes like talk to them goddamit. but he doesnt want to

he remembers he has a secret pocket dimension he can go to and goes there. but siobahnn is already there (TOTALLY NOT running those lyrics for the untitled track past len). she talks to damien in the sekai and explains how erynn is a little bit depressed bc she really wanted to make amends!! adn sehs really scared she came across accusatorially

damien tells her not to speak for erynn and she can find him herself. and siobahnn, poor social anixiety ridden girl she is, summons all the courage she has to tell him "WELL IM YOUR FRIEND TOO AND YOU GOTTA COME BACK BC WE MISS YOU >:(" except she whispers it rlly fast bc shes so scared of him still

and damiens like. oh. okay. i will. and yay forever!!

next day. siobahnn summons all the courage she has. and gives the lyrics to damien when he comes back like "REALLY SORRY I LIKED THE SONG THAT TAKES US TO A POCKET DIMENSION WITH MEIKO AND LEN IN IT I MADE US LYRICS FOR IT ITS OKAY IF YOU HATE THEM AND ALSO ME" then hides behind erynn despite being a full five inches taller than her.

and damien loves them and untitled track has lyrics :D and that is the commision song for the event

but yeah the cards themselves. damien has the. emo red spikey guitar like any proper secret nerd who thinks in python with emotional attatchment and anger issues. also he dyed just the roots of his hair black (LIKE ERYNN AND ATTICUS) and cut it short. and he has a red leather jacket and black ripped jeans and spikey earrings because hes EMO and its NOT A PhASE (the event disappears in a week sorry bestie) (this isnt. intended to poke fun at actual emo people but hes very much pop culture emo not actual subculture emo. he will be proper emo by the time im done w him though.) and siobahnn.. oh siobahnn... most egirl outfit youve ever seen. implied that damien picked it out for her.her hairs pretty much the same style as normal but in braids and shorter... i promise i;ll get more creative with the other ones but i dont want to randomly change her hair texture in between events and its not 4c or anything. the braids are more frayed on the right side and shorter too going to her ears rather than her shoulders on the other side.shes singing on stage in the trained btw. bc. her whole thing is that she WANT to be famous but shes not sure she can mentally deal w it ect vs damiens im not sure i have the talent to get there vs erynns can you two PULL YOUR SHIT TOGETHER PLEASE (im going to have a luft-core event at some point where her shit gets rocked. watch out.) yay and the erynn 3* is her talking to siobahnn about damien and her trained isher on keytar for reasons (she learnt piano alongside atticus learning violin but refuses to do so bc its boring unless a keytar bc thats Fun and Cool) and the len 2* is him holding. a basse guitar. in a shirt with a bass fish on it. yeah. soryr.

AIGHT and here's atticus mixed 1. 4* atticus 4* siobahnn 3* erynn 2* ivy. ik yall dont know who atticus and ivy actually are but theyre besties atticus is erynns twin brother theyre both in the unnamed orchestra. okie dokie lessgo. the plot of the event is very simple:

atticus is a Funny Guy who tells Jokes and Silly Stories including one about erynn falling off the roof

this intruges siobahnn who asks him to elaborate. he gets this paniced look in his eyes and runs away

siobahnn now tracks down anyone who might knwo. first she goes to ivy whos like what the freak i dunno??? =so she goes to erynn which would be the easiest solution in the first place.

erynn says its all atticus's fault and to ask him to admit what he did

siobahnn is IN DEEP now and needs to know

basically long story short atticus locked erynn on the roof and she jumped off to get down (she was fine and thought it was funny but teases him about it to this day)

but i made it an assasin set for no reason. yes i gave atticus a side part. deal with it.theres like a big ass bloddstain on his back and more on his trousers bc its a formal fancy assasion set whereas siobahnn is having funsies stabbing people!! her hair is more. think frye onega grandfest

being dragged back to family matters so i cant elaborate further but yeag!!! THE LITTLE GUYS I LOVE EM... if it feels like siobahnn is my favourite youre wrong i just wanted to doodle her so you get events featuring her. shes also a master at pushing the plot forward but i ahve an event in mind where she breaks bc she cant keep being the only reasonable person and does something really impulsive (challenges the arata-esque guy to a duel) (she looses) (this becomes her crawl green iykwim)

@socks-wizard-money-gang <- if you wanted to read a bunch of bullshit

[bird-of-eternia]

The Journey

Alright, so i spoke of this a little bit in other posts but i'll do a quick (hah!) run through of the journey this far.

**This baby is gonna be long, strap in**

I grew up in the church. My parents started off Pentecostal I believe. i remember people in church speaking in tongues and raising their hands up high. I remember the pastor putting his hands on people and them falling to their knees in passion of God. We went every single Sunday.

As time went by the old pastor passed away and my parents started saying how it wasnt the same. They went less and less talking about how we didnt have the gas or they didnt have any clean church clothes. So as I got older they sorta stopped going to church but held on to that faith hardcore.

They tried out some other ones and even tried our first church after it was upgraded (with a cafe any everything). The music was better apparently and we stayed for awhile but it didnt last.

I always felt like this was the only way. You loved God and went to heaven or you just went to hell. I was constantly anxious that my every move was a sin. My mother once told me "If you think its a sin, it is." you know that saying that goes something like -For your parents its just another Tuesday but for you it was formative-

yeaaaaah

so i was scared of literally everything i thought MIGHT be a sin.

I love my parents and they did the best they knew how but my dad was an alcoholic and my mom struggled with depression. We also were not well off so their was alot of lying. "Dont tell your dad i didnt pay X" or "Dont tell your mom im drinking." and obviously tons of swearing and low key racism and high key homophobia from other relatives. I thought these things were bad=sin but my family loved god and read their bibles and prayed over every meal and before bed so we were okay, right?

Well as i got older being bisexual was a trend (as my mother said) that kids in my highschool were trying out. "Your not a lesbian right?!" Because i didnt want to date my best guy friend. I thought it was kinda scary and kinda gross to be gay but like...they were not necessarily hurting anyone so like...what does it matter?

High school was me trying to mix my belief of the golden rule and kindness with the rhetoric my parents and Christianity were feeding me.

I cried myself to sleep countless nights asking God to please please please let me fall in love first. Let me leave home and have a life before the end came and we all went home to heaven. I didnt realize it at the time but i didnt want to go to heaven. I was terrified of hell but i wanted to live HERE on EARTH and experience life. I didnt want to die. I wrote songs about god so my parents would be proud of me. I tried reading the bible and writing notes in a notebook.

I thought i had a couple divine events in my life. I was weeping and crying before bed (regular routine) and i thought god had sent me a message through the band The Fray as they sang Never say Never. I thought "Okay, i wont let God go. Ill keep trying Lord, i love you, please help me."

Then my cousin had a cancer scare and i literally cleaned out a little space on my closet floor. I put some sort of small wooden table on the floor. Then on top placed my bible, a candle, my bible notebook, and various bits and bobs. I sat down with my lights off and candle lit and prayed. I prayed so hard that i believe this is the very first time i put myself into a meditative/trance state. I was rocking back and forth asking god to save my cousin.

Turns out he didnt have cancer.

Turns out my parents found out what i had done.

Turns out now my gma has lung cancer and wants me to pray for her now.

HEY, HI, THATS ALOT OF WEIRD PRESSURE FOR A LITTLE KID WHOSE QUESTIONING THEIR FAITH?!?!?

so anyway, thanks grandma R.I.P

Turns out praying doesnt always work.

I felt a strange guilt because maybe if i had prayed harder god wouldnt have let grandma die.

I go through the rest of High school in a funk. deeply depressed, moving from house to house. we end up just living in my grandparents old house. I'm truant in school, hardly show up. I begin an alternative school and love it. Through this period i don't think about religion much at all during the day. But i do still cry at night begging for God to wait because my parents and extended family say we are living in end times and itll happen soon.

my best guy friend comes out as gay.

I love him.

my mom says "I love him, you know i do. But hes still going to hell."

I get so scared about not getting into a college that even though i applied to a community college that lets in anybody i get severe neck and shoulder pain from stress. Maybe they'll reject me for some reason? (Looking back i know this was because i was desperate to leave the house. I wanted out so badly. I felt like I didn't fit anymore for some reason. Why was my family making me uncomfortable?)

I get in. in the fall of 2014 I go to my sisters every morning at like 4am so my brother in law can drop me off at school on his way to work.

I meet new people. My sister convinces me to be brave and join a club. I attend anime club ( i know i know....save the comments. I know how it sounds.)

I have a small group of new friends, and a boyfriend (now husband).

I spend every day , all day- from 4am until 6-9pm on campus. I start spending weekends at my boyfriends house. I get a job at school. I get a car.

I start forming my OWN thoughts and feelings about the world.

I meet someone and they make me nervous. They say theyre pagan. That genuinely scared me.

I move in with my boyfriend to be closer to school.

I feel....lighter.

I feel more like myself?

My boyfriend lets me talk about my feelings surrounding religion. He says he loves me no matter if I'm christian or not. He'll go to church with me or he'll support whatever else i choose. I cry.

I've never had the choice before.

We talk about beliefs often.

I make amazing friends who are not christian. who are trans. who are gay. who are atheist, pagan, agnostic.

I begin getting upset when my parents talk about God. "Dont ride his coat tails to hell."- my father talking about my boyfriend. He believes in God but does not agree with the values. He says his father is one of the best people he knows, a man who fought for the people of his country and got kicked out so they had to immigrate to america. If that man, a man who cares so much and fights for people, is going to hell just because he doesnt believe in god....no thanks.

I think about this.

I love my boyfriend with every fiber of my being. I love my friends. They are GOOD people. They try every day to be better and do better.

They're going to hell? but the people who keep pushing hate are going to heaven because they like God?

I'm confused and angry. Maybe i just need to find the right church. a more liberal church. i just believe differently but im still christian.

am i?

I find Aurora Aksnes.

I listen to her music constantly.

I start feeling like maybe there is more out there.

Tarot interests me.

Nature interests me.

symbols and runes interest me.

Could I be a christian witch?

i cry and cry.

am i losing my faith?

I think i like woman.

I think im pansexual.

i cry and cry and cry.

months go by and finally i figure out that...no i'm not christian anymore.

(2016-2017)

but what am i then? what god do i worship now?

I spent so long trying to find a new god to turn my attention to. I begin with Cernunnos and a little bit of Brigid.

i get really into norse stuff.

then i look into irish folkcraft.

then i go back to brigid.

then i decide, if it happens itll happen. i'll just hang with the Earth for now.

Then there were a few years where i went back to brigid and the horned one once in awhile. I took a break for a long time, only dipping my toe back in when the feeling is too much. When the wind blows just right and i just need to light a fucking candle or something lol.

Took some Druidry classes in a phase where i thought maybe that was my path.

Then i landed here. (2024)

I read The Crooked Path by Kelden and felt....inspired.

And so now I'm trying to walk the crooked path in my own time. So much has happened since i started down the witchcraft trail...

i have kids now, i have a full time job, im looking for a house, i need a new car. im having thoughts about my own gender.

So i will walk this crooked path in time. i will walk it and sit down for breaks if i need to. I will listen to the trees and find symbols in their branches. I will be okay.

[omghallucinations]

Your brain is everything 😭 honey i do not understand half of the shit you are saying but you are SAYING it 💅 im new to astrology so forgive me if this is a stupid question or i dont make sense, but i was just looking at my chart and i realized something kind of cool? So hyunjin has a Pisces stellium, and I have a virgo stellium, but get this- he's a Pisces sun Virgo moon, aren't those signs opposite each other's? Aaaand on top of it, I'm a Virgo sun, Pisces moon *jazz hands* theoretically bc obv im never going to meet this man, would that be harmonious? Im not talking about those two ppl dating, but ive just been reading ur analysis for him and it hit so close to home for ME and idk it was really weird and trippy the way it resonated and how connected i felt to his personality. Or like could this explain why i feel such a draw to him? (Not in like a i wanna marry him kind of way, but like in a "the suffering in me feels the suffering in you" kinda way lol) any additional guidance or lessons would be appreciated or you can just skip this ask all together hahha. hope you're doing well 💗!

oh word!! i love this topic. and: yes for sure. imo pisces and virgo are both really karmic signs--pisces is the 12th house, so like the end of a cycle, and virgo is the 6th house, which is like purifying before the next step of life? so they both have that resonance, and often someone with those placements (especially a stellium) has a lot of karmic Stuff going on. i mean everyone does, but i think pisces, virgo and scorpio placements (and 4th/8th/12th house placements) have it on a really personal like "through yourself" level. (aquarius and capricorn and 11th house placements are also super karmic but i see it as more like The Universe works on you/through you more 😩)

and yeah it's common for people to feel a strong connection when their sun and moon reverse match, or even like sun matches their moon by itself! hilariously jisung is also a virgo with a pisces moon so you can look at that relationship--immediate strong feelings (of some kind 😂) that leads to a real emotional understanding or sensitivity. on one level you'll understand each other completely, and on another you deeply will not lmao. there's often some envy or projection mixed in, but more importantly both people can make the other one feel really secure emotionally. and ur lessons and Issues often overlap too. i wouldn’t be surprised if your lunar nodes are similar in some way too (either signs, element, aspect, houses).

like a virgo moon is a real particular placement (my gf has a virgo moon lmao) and that moon is incredibly almost pathologically critical in a way a pisces moon isn't (altho she has her own very Real Struggles, both these moons love to give u depression!!). a virgo sun needs to embody a version of that energy--like, picking out what is actually important, learning to get rid of ego, helping others, doing practical things--so you'll recognize that impulse in someone else’s moon. i feel like especially when your sun is someone else's moon, you can really Key Into that. tho tbh both ways it can be like a laser for REAL.

it’s so interesting!! i feel similarly about ateez wooyoung (my suffering recognises Your Suffering, although we are insanely different people) and i think it’s because we both have a bunch of yods (and quincunx aspects generally) and the yods have tons of planets/houses in common. My Issues recognize Ur Issues in a major way 🫠

[daenystheedreamer]

pls more abt viserys Omaegorverse I'm so fascinated it's insane and i honestly think grrm would b proud

im so happy u love it and this means so much but i do NOT think he would be proud 😭 he would read my posts (gun to his head ofc he wouldnt just. do that.) and sit in silence for a few minutes and then he would say. Maegor isnt gay what are you talking about. and i go well thats not really the point and anyway sexuality is kinda fluid and its more about opportunity and power than about sexual attraction although i will concede- and then he sends elio and linda with spears to hunt me down.

he's canonically a nothing character with personality of 'Beloved Of The Commons' n nothing else so i can kinda do whatever tf i want with him which is fun. he's also mostly there to be a sad wet cat that gets kicked by everyone and everyone he loves dies or is weird about him in some way. he's my special little sad uke twink i brutalise for my personal entertainment <3 im so maegorcoded so tyannacoded... anyway more about my babyboy viserys below<3 warning its SOOO long like fifteen fucking paragraphs Jesus christ

trigger warnings for like everything. incest death depression mental instability murder psychosis uhhh. torture and suicide. just all of it do NOT read unless youre like super certain you wanna read about my deviantart OCs because guys it is NOT worth it

childhood pre-Torture Labyrinth. he's born in 29 AC and was 8-ish when he was at the deathbed of Aegon1. aegon the uncrowned is three years older than him, and rhaena is six years older. jaehaerys is 5 years younger, alysanne is 7 years younger vaella who i kept alive is 10 years younger. just to give an idea of ages and general canon info :>

his only personality trait is Promising and Beloved of the commons. i think him and aegon were friends :) younger brother so he followed after him a lot. slightly scared of rhaena the big cool older sister who has a pet dragon. think his granddad is soooo cool doesnt really think about The Implications of conquest or anything. normal boy normal childhood (as normal as possible when ur siblings are married...) also he is gay because it adds to the horrors later on 🥰

something i think is Inchresting is the rhaena, aegon and viserys are named for rhaenys, aegon and visenya :3 i think viserys is like hercules right where he was named in an attempt to appease The Wife. aenys was like hiiiii auntie/stepmum visenya look i named a kid after you you dont wanna kill me right?right? and she looks at this kid who didnt claim a dragon isnt a girl isnt maegor and goes oh so youre insulting me huh.

i think rhaena aegon viserys had a slightly weird dynamic. rhaena the lesbian getting forcibly betrothed to her younger brother by her father is gonna make things weird, also aegon was 15 and rhaena 18 which adds just the best most awesome sauce to the mix. i think viserys had very complicated feelings on that especially if he is gay cos like... rhaena obviously does not love her brother romantically right. so u are a boy and ur sister is a lesbian but you dont have that word. and you are gay and your brother is cool and the crown prince and everyone is screwing their siblings and that makes your brain chemistry weird. and now your brother is marrying your gay sister. What about you. the dragon has three heads??? idk he's like 12 at this point he just goes back to playing hide and seek with jae+aly.

Uh oh daddy's dead. daddy's dead and uncle maegor is king now with his three wives. Uh oh. oh awesome he's kidnapped you and you're his squire now that's so cool. well its mostly a power play and hes not actually making u do anything as long as you stay locked in the red keep all day he leaves you alone. also maegor's insane girlfriend stares at you like you're a baby lamb that would make a delicious lamb tostada. but hey your big brother aegon has a dragon now and him and rhaena are gonna save you soon. Uh oh aegon's dead. aegon's dead and maegor is king for real for real.

everyone steers clear of you in the keep. you used to play with your siblings and the commoners and you used to play on dragonstone and kings landing and now no one wants to touch you. no one is calling you maegor's squire now, the pretence is gone. you are maegor's hostage. you fantasise about a different outcome, where maegor took you to the battle as his squire, and that you being there might have changed what happened. maybe you could have warned aegon. but you know nothing would have changed. youre not a dragonrider. you're worthless you're powerless. youre 14 years old :)

alys harroway is dead. maegor killed his wife. you knew alys, you saw her around the keep. she seemed very nice. she was very quiet and stayed in her rooms. she was always pregnant. you wonder why she married maegor, why she and tyanna are so strange with each other. you hear rumours. you wish you had talked to her. but she's dead now. maegor killed her. maegor tortured her. she's a whore now. you look out the window and see her rotting leg on a stake outside, her torso on another. you wish you had talked to her.

visenya targaryen the looming shadow over your life, the woman you're named after who looked at you with nothing but scorn, is dead. your mother is gone and she took jae and aly. what about you? what about you? is she not your mother too? are you not her little boy anymore? you are 15 years old. maegor killed alys' family when he was angry with her. is he going to kill you now?

ok second person pov over the gimmick is getting lame. anyway this is where the AU deviates: instead of viserys dying of torture, maegor is like hey maybe my nephew will be more fertile than my BITCH wives. and visenya the blood witch before her death compiled a bunch of old valyrian a/b/o fanfiction and said son if you ever find yourself with infertile wives. Consult These Texts. then tyanna and maegor made viserys mpreggable i dont care about how or like. what his body looks like. im not into the fetish of omegaverse LMAO i dont want to think about the fertilisation or birthing process or what organs he has thats unnecessary. only thing thats important is viserys can incubate babies and they are birthed via c-section :3

quick lore dump: vis is forced to maegor -> rhaena crashes the wedding but vis is so broken at this point he just doesnt want anyone else to die and has resigned himself to maegor so rhaena reluctantly surrenders -> alyssa jae and aly DO go to the red keep after they find out about the wedding and jae dies fighting maegor which makes viserys fully break -> alyssa now has husband dead 2 kids dead her son is queen and she also loses her fight :( lives on dragonstone with alive vaella -> alysanne is given to the faith -> rhaena agrees to a truce and she is hand of the king now and viserys' main protector -> vis gets pregnant and the kid is basically a reincarnation of jaehaerys -> tyanna loses her shit and tries to murder/sterilise/whatever viserys so maegor kills her cos he's finally got his babymaker -> vis has a daughter who's the reincarnation of tyanna -> faith uprising, shut down -> vis has his second daughter final child daenys who's birth is heralded by the martyrdom of poxy jeyne poor in the quashed faith uprising

vis is in the torture labyrinth for a couple decades. life sucks husband sucks everyone is weird about him. very death in venice people are weird about the boy type deal. has to wade through gender and sexuality politics of westeros which means several men going utterly insane about him including a couple kingsguard knights (celibate hypermasculine freaks bound to be insane sexually). one point early-ish on he DOES start believing this one kingsguard knight will save him from The Hells The Horrors but maegor finds out and kills that guy adn sexually humiliates viserys in front of the kingsguard and makes their son watch. So that fucks up vis' psyche for a while :3

rhaena and alysanne try to convince him to rebel and run away that they will use their dragons and fight. but maegor has made vis so paranoid and crazy he thinks maegor knows everything knows all his thoughts so he's terrified of plotting escape cos he thinks maegor will kill everyone. plus maegor made sure to force kids onto him early so that vis wouldnt be able to leave :3 world's most evil babytrap of all time.

vis doesnt interact with anyone except rhaena aly maegor his kids and the kingsguard so yeah its bad for him. ceryse hangs around for a while but shes like yeah i dont want any part of this shit dude being queen is NAWT worth it and she goes back to the hightower to plot marrying her niece off to maegor's son.

also there's a curse on the kingsguard all of them die really horribly and early. its a fun little thing for me personally because in f&b maegor's kinsguard is cartoonishly bad and jae's is cartoonishly perfect so i though Hey what if we did a little curse on the kingsguard ey. that would be fun. the only guy who stays long is a bracken because brackenfail cancels out knightfail. he's all godly and pissy about the gay marriage thing but he's also a monarchist so even though he think maegor is satan he's like well. he is my king i must serve him i obey my vows. he thinks viserys is a freak of nature but slowly grows to respect him and helps kill maegor + takes the fall for it. they have a weird father figure/white knight/weird tension thing that never gets consummated yay ^_^ the maegor torture labyrinth will have you 21 years old and best friends with a 50 year old celibate knight like dang where tf ser bracken at today 🥹

viserys snaps in 66AC with no like big catalyst or anything. he just has a good day where he's mostly lucid and he's angry and he's tired of everything and he's sick of maegor and he wants freedom he wants to be free. he wants to breath the air without panicking that maegor is going to hurt him. and maegor says some disgusting comment to him while theyre alone in the throne room and vis just snaps and start fighting him. daenys shows up cos she had her own Visions and Voices and they just start whaling on him. bracken knight helps too he takes most of maegor's counter attacks his organs are all over the floor but maegor dies impaled on the throne YAY

vis is like. A bit better for a while. his son is now king and vis is seeing that oh it doesnt get better does it people will still die. also his son jae has this weird oedipus complex about him thanks to maegor's insane parenting and viserys is fully aware of that so its not fun times for him. jae and daenys try to make him better try to invent therapy but its the middle ages they dont have that yet. they finally send him off to harrenhal (BAD IDEA) because they think viserra (the elder daughter btw, the tyanna one) might be able to cure him with her weird witchcraft. they think she's insane too but its the last option... viserra thinks vis is lame and weak but she does love him in ehr own way or maybe just pities him. anyway she does her best and it works for a while but viserys sorta gives up cos the depression is too much. and viserra believes in euthanasia as a mercy and thinks this is best for him this will let him be at peace. daenys has a premonition about it and tries to stop him. she has a big blowout fight with jae about it too and curses his bloodline and prophesises the long night. burned the red keep a little bit, you know how it is.

blah blah blah anyway daenys and vis end up dying in the gods eye together in a murder/suicide suicide/suicide murder/murder whatever. viserra has the lake dragged and they're found holding each other like a mother and her fetus :3

Fucks sake this post is long. holy shit holy fuck. my fucking bad guys my bad im so sorry. Holy shit. anyway thats my deviant art oc tee hee ^_^

[mamamittens]

I was getting a little frustrated with myself for not just hammering out the next Spooktober fic before the workweek and wondered if I was going to do the same thing to myself for Christmas/Winter season.

Mainly giving myself deadlines for writing when it kinda requires my Utmost Focus Only On Words And Maybe Lofi Mix, which is great when im in the Zone but not so much when I get that... Weird squirmy feeling where I wanna do some unspecified Other Activity.

It's dumb. I do these events cause I love it but it's like the dog meme of "No Write! Only Fic!" And unfortunately I don't have boundless time during the week to Get Shit Done.

Anyway, I was thinking of what I'm going to do for Christmas season since I know it'll be so much worse at work lmao. And how I could instead do pinups again. Those are fun. Maybe write fics if I'm feeling it. And I had...

An idea.

For Christmas.

In October.

(please don't kill me lmao, I don't know why I'm like this either)

But! Basically! It's Izou and Thatch (separately) having lost the Spirit of Christmas and Togetherness. They both keep skipping out at spending the holidays with family and each other because they're super busy and mutually pissy about it (hence why they've been On Break).

Anyway, both of them end up setting up sad little trees cause they're sappy dumbasses too prideful to admit they were wrong (for separate but similar reasons) and find that, suddenly, there's an angel topper on them? That they didn't buy themselves?

It'll be hard to bounce between them so maybe they share a place but keep "giving the other distance" or whatever.

Anyway, this angel topper is pretty fancy and cute so they mostly just think it's weird.

Until Hallmark Bullshit Shenanigans ensue and the damn thing comes to life to bully them into fixing their personal issues before Christmas.

Nikia is like, a very low-key guardian angel of the season meant to bring back the spirit of the holiday in those that need it but aren't like, Scrooge or whatever and require three whole ass ghosts.

Anyway, neither one realizes the other sees her as she goes about her bullshit until near the end. It's very Shenanigans and shit as she pulls their heads out of their asses in time to spend the holiday together with family.

Mayhaps, after they've learned their lessons, she disappears and they're super depressed about it. Until they spot her (not as an angel, maybe it's a part-time gig lmao) and collectively decide they could hardly let HER spend the holiday alone either!

Super cheesy Hallmark Fluff.

Anyway, it sounds like a nice thing to brighten up what I KNOW will be a gruelling holiday season since I work online retail.

Hopefully I get my shit together and smash out those fics before I wind up doing them in November or all in one week (which I nearly did last year but it was literally Get home->write->eat->shower-> bed with no break)

Yeah.

I... Really do this to myself lol, but it's better this year cause I'm not doing 13! So there's that! And so far the reception has been great so it's not like I'm doing a little solo party for no one! Here's to hoping the rest of the fics hit well too!

[freakywizard]

hiii r&m anon here again!!! i noticed you mentioned liking season 7, so i was wondering if you had any favorite or least favourite episodes, plotlines, all that jazz. season 7 debrief, if you will. would love to hear your thoughts!

ram anon gracing my inbox once again (always a pleasure)

huge rant below the cut (talking about rick and morty triggers the longwinded newspaper art critic in me sorry)

s7e2 and e4 were the best episodes in my opinion. absurd, darkly funny, overall just so perfect. i was especially excited about s7e2 since the rick/jerry dynamic has intrigued me since episode s3e5. i love that that episode basically just confirmed Rick and Jerry may be foils but are also perfect complements? they can only understand / appreciate each other when they are literally existing in each other's flesh? i try not to wax poetic about ram but this episode was tempting meeeee

and re: e4, i think this show's writing is at its best when the writers come up with a stupid concept and treat it seriously. i love that this episode saw the concept of 'what if corpse spaghetti' through to the end. classic dark comedy, absurd, wacky goodness. lovee it

one thing i do hate about this season (as well as seasons 5 and 6) is the number of callbacks to 'old' rick and morty. s7e3 and s7e8 were some of the worst episodes this season, mostly because they just reused old plotlines and developed them in the least interesting ways possible, imo. did the mid gag from s3e5 really need its own episode? it really did not. i think that this is one of the worst consequences of the show becoming less episodic and more serialized - the writers just endlessly milk the early seasons to recycle into plotlines, one-off gags, whatever. the self-referentiality and meta humor of newer seasons will always, always grind my gears severely.

also, s7e7 was almost unwatchable. it reminded me of s6e2 in all the worst ways - just dedicating an entire episode to a SINGLE movie reference, doubling down on the singular reference as the episode drags on. god that episode sucked. so boring, annoying, unfunny.

i have extremely mixed feelings on s7e5. On the one hand, I'm still annoyed that the backstory from s3e1 is even canon, and Rick is yet another entry in the long tradition of flawed male protagonists turned into a nihilistic depressed shitshow by the death of a wife. it's such a pat trope, imo.

HOWEVER, i really like how this episode developed Rick. I'll always be a fan of ruthlessness and revenge plotlines, so im biased. but i've come to appreciate Rick Prime as a villain, as a testament to how much Rick hates himself -- there's a version of himself out there that would torture himself across the universe by killing off his own loved ones, just to try to prove his own superiority? it's all very mindfucky but im super into it. Rick C137 killing Prime with his fists, all while Prime goads him? it was such a cool scene. i love when the show does selfcest

i also still have mixed feelings on the evil morty and his growing prominence in the series. it was nice when he was just a little treat, but it became clear in s4 the writers were aware of fan expectations for the character. i can't help but wonder if that's shaped the way they're writing him, especially giving him the centralized role in the story of possible-future-final-antagonist? that being said i've always liked evil morty, he's a fun character to watch on screen. although i'm extremely cautious of my enjoyment. he's already starting to feel like a fanfic rip-off of himself a little bit (that one line where he said 'well, they don't call me good morty' was so bizarre. evil morty was the fandom name for him, and the writers adopted it and made it a diegetic epithet for the character???????)

s7e10 was refreshing after a long season of Morty getting sidelined. I love how this one starts with a classic rick and morty set-up (what if *weird thing* in *random place*) but turns it into existential horror? really cool. i don't think it was the most subtle way to do morty character development, but it was interesting enough that i was invested. also, rick pinning morty's picture to the pinboard. so good

overall my reaction to this season is 'we're so back.' it was LEAGUES better than s5-6, which i think are like the ram dark ages. i don't think s7 was the best season yet (as some are suggesting) but I think that this season marks a positive turn for the quality of writing in the show.!!

here's my episode ranking in ( i mostly did this for fun)

E2

E5

E4

E10

E6

E1

E3

E9

E7

E8

Basically, e7 and e8 were irredeemably terrible. e9, e3, and e1 were mid/fine. e6, e10, e4, e5, and e2 were all varying degrees of peak rick and morty.

other mics. thoughts:

i felt like there was a lot of long, no dialogue, sad music montages that felt like references to the famous scene from s4e8? the one from s7e4 comes to mind immediately. but there were another few sprinkled in

s7e3 rick telling a scientologist "worship how you want" ??? he would not say that. who let that slide in the writing room?

the fight scenes and gore were all really well animated!! since s3 the animation has only gotten better and i love the gore

i actually love the new VAs. they're different from roiland, obviously, but i honestly think they're both doing a better job. the performances are more naturalistic, and less grating? i thought the change would weird me out, but it's subtle, and i like it

Rick canonically bad at eating pussy in his youth

[sweetsparadise]

about that ask thats like 'u post lolis!!!'

i think people fail to realize moe entirely as a genre and style is lolicon and its like getting angry at meat in a kfc. they are infact the intrusion getting into something now that is cool and then getting angry at things there since day 1 . pre covid anime community i miss you so much!!!

ur so right cuz im literally jst squeeing over cute moe girls like the rest of thm!!! i jst happen to call loli characters lolis, bc they literally are n theres nothing wrong OR inherently sexual with loli character design!!! u guys literally LIKE IT!!! theyll like it n say "aw wish this wasnt pedobait" like... bro ur literally telling on urself, to like the art, n then imply the art is meant to appeal to pedos...??? im not attracted to thm (or much of anything for that matter cuz this troublesome thing called depression) or attracted to ero chibi art i just.... like them ;_; with junko mizunos art for example, it doesnt come off as something ur meant to get off too despite featuring lotsa titties. i just love an artful mix of ero n kawaii!!!!! like when dudes had pinup posters, u think theyd get a boner looking at em everytime? that they put em up to get off to? no!! pinup is more overtly sexual n even then its main purpose is to be ART appreciating the beauty of the feminine form!!!

so heres my philosophy on erokawa. FIRSTLY the "ero" doesnt have the typical english meaning in the sense that it is MEANT to arouse, just that it involves sexuality or nudity, basically. heres some examples of what i consider n enjoy as erokawa/erochibi (under the read more to be considerate of minors or those who jst dont care to see, but its pretty much only implied nudity)

these characters have no age in my mind (the artist usually doesnt have one in mind either) it doesnt even cross it, ESPECIALLY FOR CHIBIS. i do not think abt the age of a subject unless the artist clearly wants u to. u cld have a chibi grandma n still have ppl calling it a child bc they are so uninformed abt chibi n what it is. they are not even human to me (its literally refered to as super deformation, basically as inhuman n unrealistic as possible) some ppl treat literal drawings as things with agency n act as if they have feelings n thats jst incredibly weird to me, but its fine to be that way as long as u arent imposing it on other ppl. if only we cld all jst live in peace o(╥﹏╥)o

also, this is a long ass post already but i have more to say on ppls hypocrisy. if ur gonna block me for liking erokawa, go ahead n block sanrio too!!! theyve done SOOO many collaborations with artists who then go right back to drawing erokawa, straight up pinup or even hentai (ie their super sonico collab) as well as slightly sexualizing their own characters even. i have pleeeeeenty of evidence of this if anyones intrested lol. i actually have like, at least 5 officially liscensed n approved sanrio drawings embracing panty shots x3 ...anyway thanks to anyone for actually reading this, especially if it makes u reconsider the way u view some things :3 i hope ppl will understand my perspective, but the most i can ask for is that ppl stop accusing me of disgusting things ( ;´ - `;)

[the-s1lly-corner]

Does Jeff ever miss his little brother? Does he know he's alive?? And how would he react to seeing his baby brother?

not going to structure this like my normal posts since this might be more rambly but but!!

tackling the first question first: my personal interpretation of jeff is still standard to what you would expect from many other interpretations (at least.... i think so... i must admit i havent interacted much with the fandom since the 2010s sooooo... not sure if it stills holds to any present day hcs!)... you know, arrogant immature and full of himself, just about still as unhinged as before... but i like to think that every now and then he has moments where hes just. normal. well not normal normal, definitely not going to get there anytime soon especially given that in my au hes on the run and bouncing around. cant really receive any mental help when youre hiding from authorities.. getting back to the topic, these moments are few and far between and its in a weird way, him reminiscing on how things used to be. i fully blame this on a fic i read in middle school, that literally shifted how i view some crp characters (shrugs)... but yes, i think in those moments he would miss him. a lot. those small pockets generating enough guilt to get him to slow down and think over everything that's happened since then. i think it would send him in a short little moment of depression, actually. at least as long as hes alone and by himself where hes left with his thoughts. again, these moments dont come often nor do they last for long. slaps that man with mental clarity

second question! at least within the context of my hcs and au! i dont think he would know unless he stumbled upon him! though imma be real ive considered making liu... dead in my au since i never got into his lore and stuff but who knows.. maybe hes out there doing his own thing while jeffs over here doing his own stuff.. but as far as jeff is aware, liu is deceased

third question: i think it would be a mix of emotions! i think it fully depends on jeffs current mental state that will determine his reaction. theres so many factors that can go into this too; is liu trying to get revenge? was jeff going to kill him before realizing who he was chasing? do they just casually run into one another? loads of possible scenarios, really! but as i said, i never got too into lius lore so im unsure which is most in character for him. i feel if jeff is having one of his moments mentioned above i think he might try to apologize and make it up to his brother... might be totally crushed when he receives no forgiveness (rightfully, in my opinion).. or maybe he'll try to act buddy buddy with his brother, like nothings changed (i can see this being more likely when jeff is just. being jeff).. though i dont think any real connection can be made between these two anymore... though reading through lius wiki, its said somewhere that liu forgives him.. so maybe theres an understanding between the two, but still no connection. peaceful parting, you know? many ideas many thoughts, im just unqualified to build on them at the moment due to not knowing much of liu