#interested to hear what other people think esp people who are. actually attracted to men

[pillowfriends]

WoT men ranked by hotness by a random ace lesbian (me)

(mostly going off the show)

LEWS. THERIN. TELAMON. who allowed this. from the books I was picturing him as some crusty old white man and then I started 1x08 and GASPED. he took my breath away. I was twirling my hair like a 14 year old all through his serious conversation in the Old Tongue. I literally turned the show off bc I was so stunned. I would let this man do anything to me fr

al'Lan Mandragoran. it's about the devotion. it's about the stoicism and the hidden softness. also the long hair ngl. and also the fantasy that someone is bonded to me and would know how I felt and what I needed without me having to voice it. and also he's just really pretty ok I have eyes

Logain Ablar. sorry about this one he just has crazyman swag and a cute cardigan in season 2 and long hair. his nose is kissable. I would cuddle him and he would probably snap my neck

um......... list canceled I don't think any of the other men are hot. ig Perrin is sort of good looking but I feel fond of him like a parent would be fond of their child lmao. have a nice day

[uncloseted]

Idk if this is just me but does anyone else ever look at celebrities (esp women) who are beautiful, wealthy, talented and have everything in life and see their relationships still failing and even the women still being cheated on and you're just shocked bc like how am I as a normal not very pretty girl going to have a good relationship if these people can't you know??? Idk

I think a lot of people feel this way, for sure. I just read through a thread on Reddit about Benjamin Millepied cheating on Natalie Portman and the responses were basically all the same thing that you just said- Natalie is so beautiful, talented, wealthy... how is it possible that she's being cheated on? And if she's getting cheated on, what hope is there for the rest of us who aren't as beautiful or talented or wealthy?

But I think that train of thought fundamentally misunderstands what cheating is about and why people do it. Men who cheat actually usually consider their significant other to be better than the person they're cheating with. Only 30 percent of men cheated with women younger than their current partners, and only a quarter of the men found their mistresses more interesting or more in shape than their partners. Cheating is motivated by dissatisfaction within a relationship- either emotional dissatisfaction or sexual dissatisfaction. A lack of communication between partners, a feeling of not being understood, and sexual incompatibility are the most common reasons people give for cheating. From that same study I linked to above, men said that they found their mistresses to be more passionate, better listeners and more caring than their significant others, and 89.6 percent of the women who responded indicated that the man they're cheating with makes them feel more appreciated than their significant other. Even the best relationships require upkeep and effort to maintain, and sometimes people let that maintenance go by the wayside as time goes on. But there's no such thing as a person that's "good enough" to not be cheated on- the problem when there's cheating in a relationship is the person who cheated.

And with celebrities, I think it would make sense that they're actually more likely to experience infidelity than the average person. Celebrities are often people who grew up in chaotic environments and who were adultified at young ages. They're often people who spend a lot of time away from their significant other because their job requires them to shoot films on location or on a soundstage that's away from home or because it requires them to tour. They're often people who have tons and tons of opportunities to cheat because they're attractive and the people around them are fans, and they're often people who have people around them that are constantly validating their decisions. If you're someone who hasn't seen healthy relationships modeled in your life, who became the primary breadwinner for your family at a young age and was pushed into adult situations as a child, are constantly away from your partner, and are surrounded by people who want to sleep with you and will tell you that it's totally not your fault that you cheated and you didn't do a bad thing, you would be way more likely to do it, you know?

Being in a successful relationship doesn't require a person to be uncommonly beautiful or talented or smart. It requires a person to be willing express their own needs, to hear their partner out, to be empathetic towards them, to find ways to make them feel appreciated, and to be willing to work on making the relationship stronger. And people can do that no matter how they look or how talented they are or how much money they have. It just takes effort and practice.

[cornerstorebitch]

that rfg ask you posted actually got me thinking about something. my experience of bisexuality was intense crushes on women but something i thought of as repulsion when thinking about intimacy with women/female bodies, but the "repulsion" went away and changed to unmistakable physical attraction literally as soon as i had my first same-sex experience.

i'm writing this because i wonder if a lot of women and esp young girls who think they're lesbians suffering from "comphet" because they crush on men but think they're repulsed by their bodies/sex with men are having a similar experience but the other way around.

i've never considered that but i do think you're onto something there.

sexual orientation is most obviously related to actual physical attraction and what your body responds to but attraction is also just about who holds your interest, who you want to look at, who you find fascinating. maybe an odd perspective to take but im generally more dubious of people who claim to have had opposite sex crushes despite being gay than i am of people who say they had straight sex before realizing they were gay.

i think its so strange to hear people act like they dont know what it feels like to b romantically interested in someone or to have a crush on somebody as a kid. it really just seems like denial to me lol

[capricores]

I have never dated an air sign man are they really that bad? Im an air sign myself, but weirdly enough I don’t attract air men into my life, i always hear such horror stories skgfsfgh

well at the end of the day, regardless of astrology as i always say, anyone can be good or bad!! but there’s certain traits/behaviors common to certain placements; especially when they’re undeveloped. undeveloped signs (aka, immature people; who haven’t worked out their flaws/issues/etc) of the same element and/or mode have a lot of things in common, and i feel like undeveloped traits are always the most noticeable when you date/get extremely close to someone 👀 so that’s probably why undeveloped air sign men get roasted a lot lmao. i’ve fucked with a lot of undeveloped men and imo undeveloped air sign men are the worst to deal with, for me 😭 (but it really depends the type of traits you can’t handle. for me selfishness & detached behaviors/lack of emotional intelligence are the biggest things i can’t deal with. so undeveloped air energy is not good w/ me)

but again, i’ve had my heart broken by gemini men more than any other sign but i still love them more than any other sign (for men, libras are always my fav for everyone else lol) fdjlkfjdfkld so i would never let astrology and my experience w/ air sign men actually stop me from saying good things about said signs nor dating them/befriending them/etc ofc!!

however, if ur interested in my personal air sign men reviews (this is biased bad astrology based on my own countless experiences pls keep this in mind JLFKDJFD):

aquarians: -1/10

i actually love aquarian energy when developed SO much it’s one of my favs. esp aqua moons. but undeveloped... holy shit

undeveloped aqua energy is often accompanied by undeveloped cap energy so i think thats why aqua men r so awful

gets their heart broken once in 3rd grade and never recovers so they take it out on everyone they date after that

self victimization on water sign levels 💯😳

rly obsessed with u for the first month of dating and then they hate u

gaslighting kings

more trust issues than scorpios.. pick a struggle

[ruins your life, perception of love and mental stability] why don’t u wanna stay friends????????

great to talk to though i can’t lie, it’s really easy to have deep convos with them and they even make small talk interesting so plus one for that

tbh they teach you a lot about independence and self love so another plus one

once they develop and get over themselves they’re super loyal and fun tho but damn they take longer than any other sign to develop i swear

libras: 3/10

I LOVE LIBRAS but fuck the men

community ass (i saw this on a tiktok this is a stolen phrase but it’s right)(i’m not slut shaming btw i’m also a hoe)(this initially said dick but i realize that’s super exclusive so i’m changing it)

sends you super cute msgs that make your heart flutter but he also sent it to 18 others and tweeted it for fame

if he has one he’ll call his dick a third arm but it’s 2 inches??????????? speechless at how big their egos are in general

talks like they’re a god in bed but rly my pinky finger does a better job

would moan their own name in bed probably :/ and for what?

makes you think you have a thing together but then has a new gf a week later

they’re pretty so that gave them +100 points

but usually too attractive. and it threatens me ? tone it down u sexy bitches

they’re SO funny. no sign is funnier than libra regardless of gender and i stand by that

so indecisive tho it’s unreal?? them and geminis will play with your own feelings undeveloped bc they don’t know their own

geminis: 7/10

ive had so many geminis break my heart but i cannot bring myself to give them a low rating they are so hot funny and everything i want in a person</3

ceos of ghosting. will ghost you for a month and come back acting like you’re still dating and everything’s fine

super into you for like two weeks and then dumps you for their ex<3

really good convos and plans great dates????????? their egos and heads are so big because it’s full of ideas :/

showers u in affection and compliments…….ceo of hyping u up and making u feel great about yourself

moody as fuck. you thought cancers were bad? wait til you meet a gemini man 

comes back every venus retrograde.. they’re like annoying little mosquitos u can’t get rid of no matter how hard u try.. even bug repellent won’t work on them i’m gonna try installing a net tho

everyone hypes libas/aquarians up for intuition but tbh i think geminis are the ones with really amazing intuition in terms of air signs 👀 they’re really good at reading the room/your thoughts/etc so they know what you need/are thinking before you even say it

[fastwalker]

2, 8, 8, 12? And in regards to your previous answer, I would be interested to hear if you a) think consensual, heterosexual intercourse is even possible in a patriarchy and b) if your take on homosexual erotica is the same one as the one you’ve described? (Only if you want to of course :) ) greetings!

aaah I think my first reaction to any of these ask games, thank u :’)

2. How do you feel about racial dating preferences? Are they racist, or okay?

this is a hairy one. to my knowledge people chose partners who look familiar, so they’ll look for people who sorta look like the community they grew up with, so people who didn’t grow up in a mixed community will have a rather narrow dating pool, their own “race” or ethnicity usually (also explains while I’ve always ended up with or only had crushes on other slavs so far :I ). oh and ofc this doesn’t only apply to looks but also to culture, religion (or lack thereof), traditions etc. bc you’re more likely to relate and have stuff in common with each other if you have similiar experiences.© goes out to some other radfem I can’t remember the url of where I read about this sorta race discourse for the first time ^^” at least the culture part bc I’m a superficial pos (ofc I’ve read abt attraction before and not only on tumblr!)I think that’s ok bc trying to force people into dating someone is really fucking creepy no matter if you reasoning is “progressiveness” or whatever. also most countrys don’t experience much migration and don’t have a very mixed population so it doesn’t have that much of an impact on peoples’ dating options anyway, unless you live in the us or central europe I guess. but even in countrys with huge mixed population people tend to form microcommunitys, based on their similiarities and not mingling much.

like imagine what an attempt at widening someone’s dating pool must look like: you’d have to expose them to as many different people as possible in their childhood, which is good when it’s done to combat racism and xenophobia, but if you do that with the specific goal to widen future generations’ dating options…. that’s fucked up man

I mean, stuff like better interwoven communitys, discouraging  the formation of microcommunitys (as an immigrant, I hated that my parents were doing this!) and media representation WILL result in people being more likely to date different races/ethnicites imo, but the reasons are key here, and manipulating someone into dating people they’re not attracted to for whatever reasons, whether they be actually racist or just due to lack of exposure and therefore no natural attraction developing, should never be someones’s goal ever. that shit is dangerous and unfair mainly for the marginalized target group!

so tldr: I don’t think that “race” preference is inherently racist due to what I know how attraction forms BUT I think people who are not attracted to other races, ethnicities etc. often justify that with racist bullshit.

8. How do you feel about the fat acceptance movement (the body positivity movement)? Why do you think it’s mostly women in that movement?

generally ok, I think people should not be bullied for how they look and I think doctors should be more attentive to their fat patients and not brush all of their symtpoms off as “well you’re just too fat”. I personally know people who suffered a great deal because of that negligence. for example a friend of my mom’s had an uterus infection (I think it was?) and it made her belly swell, her doctor thought she had just gotten fat so the infection got unnoticed for a long time before she got extremely ill and she had to have a hysterectomy to survive.

and I think it’s mostly women bc we’re socialised to show or rather perform (not necessarily feel…) in more empathetic ways. also we try really really hard to heal the world through individualistic self help stuff, because we tend to internalize problems. also obviously we face more harassment for our looks than men do, so we have more interest in making it stop.

some fat positive individuals are a tad weird and claim that you can still be mobile and healthy even if you’re morbidly obese which is wrong, but you get weird positivity nuts who are taking it too far in every movement I guess. I still think even very obese people shouldn’t be bullied, even if you claim you’re just “concerned for their health” bc that’s a blatan lie. Also bullying has enver helped anyone get better.

12. How do you feel about religions? Can a radical feminist be religious? Do you think all religions are equally bad (for women)?

my knowledge is mostly limited to abrahamic religions and yeah i think they’re bad. their very foundation is based on the reversal of creation and the worship of the father, both a punishing almighty ghost in the sky and an allmighty tyrant at home. and they invented all sort of rules to cement womens’ role as subhuman, worthles servant to men.

I don’t think abrahamic religious women can be feminists, at least not if they properly practice their religion, misogyny, homophobia, xenophobia and all. if they just pick and choose the “good” stuff and are interpreting bible verses in different ways than literally every other person practicing the same religion, I don’t think that has anything to do with said religion anymore and they’re just making up their own one at this point

I get it that religious communitys can be a massive support system, especially when they’re on of these more pick&chose kinda communitys, and I would never judge a woman for seeking support and belonging among welcoming, generally nice people who don’t really have much to do with conservative christians. but it’s still sorta sketchy that she and her friends would follow a belief system that is misogynist at its core :/

also churches sometimes help feminists, I think a church or at least a pastor (uuugh it’s been a while since I read that article, sorry) is helping sisters ev, a german foundation campaigning for the nordic model and helping women in prostitution. he seems to be helping out of the goodness of his heart and not because he is judging these women negatively. but I’m generally sceptic towards patriarchal religions and their followers bc of their misogynist foundations.

I don’t know enough abt other religions to have a propper opinion on them, I’m generally neither a religious nor spiritual person (was raised catholic tho) so not really interested in that stuff, but I think rituals like this witchy stuff and singing together etc. can be a nice bonding experience. I enjoyed it whenever I tried to engage in it with other radfems. the togetherness is just… well nice. people just like doing rituals and doing stuff together. .

so yeah I don’t think religion or spritiuality is necessarily bad, the rituals and sense of support, community and belonging is obviously good. It only becomes bad when it clashes with human rights, medicine and science, which christianity, islam and judaism do.

and I don’t think liberal religious people (the pick and choose ones) are “true” believers bc they don’t fully adhere to their religion anyway. but I think they are massive enablers for more orthodox believers, also even liberal followers are usually extremely protective of their religion (and therefore the more conservative parts/people) even if they don’t really practice it anyway which often leads to conflict with people who are critical of their institution

aaaah sorry this is already massive I’ll adress your other questions in a seperate post! sorry I tend to ramble and overexplain bc I don’t want to be misunderstood esp when the themes are “controversial” :x

[synodicatalyst]

what do u think abt rose/m and vriska/m in fandom? if u search the tags u can still find active shippers (notably joh/nrose n j/ohnv/ris) w ppl denying that they can be lesbians. common arguments r like "its biphobic to say shes a lesbian bc on page 5471 line 39 she canonically flirted w a boy!! lol" while ignoring,,, that comphet is a Thing... what i find esp interesting as an actual bi person is that these ppl are seldom bi themselves; it reads more like theyre trying to justify their (1/2)

like of the pair (like dirk/f shippers saying "jOhN is a hETeroSexual but people ship [joh/ndave joh/nkat etc]!!!! str8 oppression!" or "uhhh in this pesterlog with roxy he said he ISNT GAY" while ignoring all other textual evidence that goes against it,,, or altogether cherrypicking the parts they want to hear to support their het narrative). its honestly a bit disheartening to see this like. ok in some instances things are left up for interpretation, but why would you want to say (2/3 whoops)

(for example) that rose is bi bc she "flirted w john/dave" when there are so many interactions in-canon where she was only interested in women!! and for bi rep, why would you want her instead of NUMEROUS characters shown to express attraction to multiple genders (eg dave, roxy, karkat, jade just to name a few!) like i personally find that to be more than a bit iffy, especially in 2018 and not like. 2010 when dav/ejade joh/nrose etc was popular. (3/3)

wow anon really spicing up my inbox today huh [its ok i love some spice]

uhm..hm. i think..well.. i gave up being super angry about j/hnr/se (and other rose/dude) ships a lil while ago because i mean, there is literally nothing i can do that will stop those folks. like me being like ‘yall shes obviously a lesbian’ isnt going to stop user ilovejo//hnro//se69 (thats not a real user tho afaik) from shipping their ship

i will say that its 2018 and if you havent gotten the memo yet...rose is pretty clearly a lesbian [see: jasprosesprite’s unabashed flirting with like All The Girls and zero of the boys] and i genuinely dont understand why you’d want to ship her with a dude

it is pretty disheartening and i do find it genuinely disrespectful towards both lesbians and bisexual folks (especially bi women) because using bisexuality in order to “validate” your boring m/f ship that died in 2012 is a shitty thing to do. it feels like people are commodifying bisexuality because they can’t handle that perhaps lesbians exist

with regards to vriska - i think that her situation is a bit different, because she was never explicitly stated to be a lesbian in the comic, and this new age of lesbian vriska is definitely just largely in part due to this sect (i.e. the lesbian sect) of the fandom seeing vriska and realising that she has Big Lesbian Energy and also shares very large portions of her story with The Lesbian Narrative (in that her only important relationships that actually affected her emotionally were all with women; xtine once said that vriska got more worked up about aradia’s indifference towards her than she felt about tavros in the entire comic which is very true) and her arc definitely shows lots of traits of like, comphet (going after tavros because of her ancestor and because she thought that’s what she was supposed to do) and general social dissonance.

so like, there’s a lot about vriska that points towards her being a lesbian, and frankly i genuinely cannot imagine her being in a fulfilled or happy relationship with a man, at all (and it surprises me that some people can). however this was never stated outright in the comic, and a lot of this evidence is probably more difficult to pick out or relate to if you’re..not .. a lesbian, obviously, which is fair. i still dont put stock in people who use john, tavros, eridan or fucking nic cage as “evidence” for vriska being attracted to men because all of those relationships (if they were even that) fucking sucked and vriska was not invested in like any of them emotionally [apart from john but there’s like a Lot to that and ultimately i think vriska wasn’t romantically interested in him, she was just not used to being treated like a normal person and john helped her realise that the hyperviolence imposed upon her by society was shitty]

i.. dont want to be Like That but i genuinely just think it’s unfair when people take characters who are very obviously Lesbians [or gay men i.e. dirk] and be like ‘ya well heres an m/f relationship i like with u in it’ when homestuck has like. COUNTLESS characters who are bi/attracted to folks of another gender

and i get annoyed about rose’s lesbian identity being erased in the same way i distrust folks who erase dave’s bisexuality, because similarly, his bisexuality is an important, integral part of his character and erasure is bad

I WILL ALSO SAY bi terezi is more valid than bi vriska though i hc both as lesbians 90% of the time, but folks that go “uhhh calling terezi a lesbian is bi erasure!” and ignore the whole “you dont need him” retcon arc really don’t... get it and are failing to empathise with the folks who see their narrative in her (i am not trashing on bi terezi its a headcanon that i love too dont twist this shit)

also in general i just question the motivation of people who see characters in loving relationships with folks of the same gender, squint at it, and go “nah this sucks my m/f ship is better”

not to invalidate non-het folks in m/f relationships but yall cannot make me fucking care about like.........d/vej/de on my goddamn life

[warmbeebosoftbeebo]

I’m dehydrated and you’re one of my faves. Where did ya go?!

been here, falling hopelessly behind on posts, both my own n others. i did just do a bden’s booty post with brallon, vices era that’s quite…uh…educational. yeah, educational.

i’ve been reading on orgasm gap research between het women, bi women, lesbians, gay men, bi men, straight men too. you know something is profoundly wrong with our (cultural) definition of sex when researchers and laypeople can say straights have more sex than lesbians, who supposedly have the least, but straight women only average 7 orgasms a *month* while lesbians average 55 monthly, more than anyone else. *x-files music with gillian anderson quoting some piv & porn-critique*

i wondered something the other day: imagine if only people who really liked women and wanted to just show people having a great time sexually made sexual material? bc most porn is so clearly “women are trash/cum dumpsters/whores/cunts so let’s hurt and humilate them” i’m astonished most people can’t see it. (it’s amazing how common women’s faces are visibly distressed, in pain, etc, and this is either irrelevant or the whole damn point.)

i’ve also had so many dirty thoughts about b i can’t even… like outercourse/tribadism/frottage are criminally underrated–been thinking lots lately about that with b (not that i don’t do that usually haha). am also working on a part two of bden’s tongue–that man’s so oral n his mouth generally is just… so sexy n ridiculous at the same time? how does he manage to get me thinking these filthy thoughts about his mouth on me, esp on my vulva, when being a complete goober with his lips and/or tongue? fucking houdini. (he’s my favouriteeee. precious lil boob) also, how is my life now in significant part “contemplating” him having a smaller than average dick. (bden has a small peepee ok peeps? on what planet does he have a bigger than average one? bc it ain’t earth.) god, i wanna touch that man’s dick, feel it in my hands n in my mouth n between my thighs n between my labia n on my clit n dsfkldfskl;dfskl;dsf

i’ve also been thinking of doing an imagine with a trans character, esp since it’s been requested a couple times, but was thinking of doing one with one who was starting to desist/recently desisted. i don’t consider myself a desister bc i never took steps to transition medically, and was never publicly socially out, due in large part to my environment (structural feminism, livejournal vs tumblr, my mom & her own history, knowing my brother had also been trans when younger than me for a few years and desisted, eg he used to steal my underwear n menstrual pads to wear them, wished he was female, wished there was a magic way to become one), but from 12-16 i was trans (intensely wished i was a gay man, contemplated medical transition sometimes, had a vivid fantasy life of being a gay man, wrote about being a gay man, i still to this damn day get dysphoric/anxious/panicked/distressed at the idea of wearing a dress or skirt in spite of my trying to rationalize it away, etc). given tumblr, being born later in the age of lupron for preadolescents n medically transitioning adolescents, no radical and other structural feminism (eg shere hite, kate millett, audre lorde, dworkin, alice walker) my life would’ve turned out very different. 

i would be super interested in talking with someone(s) who wanted to look at ideas around an imagine with bxreader with that, like struggling with seeing one’s body as female, having genitalia being called vulva/cunt/pussy/etc, wondering how to be seen as a person while being female during sex–i think a lot of what drives the fact that 70-80% of young trans are females who identify as male/nonbinary/etc, and what drove it in part for me, was rejection of porn culture/pornification/women being seen as holes for males, and not wanting to be treated like women in porn & mainstream culture (which is pretty much the current softcore porn and softcore virtually isn’t actually made anymore by pornographers) are treated, combined with how completely Barbified teen girls, 20something and 30something women in mainstream culture are, with a few rare exceptions for older women like Ellen (who are generally not seen as sexual but only funny, talented, etc). (asperger’s, anxiety & depression, eating disorders/disordered eating (anxiety n disordered eating also played a role for me), same sex attraction & lesbians being seen as boring and so last century at best, and evil oppressors at worst who are treated incredibly poorly by others, inc "the queer community" or being redefined out of existence are some other issues at play.) i’d love to hear from desisters and people contemplating desisting in particular, but others are welcome to chime in around these themes.

bden’s own history with “crossdressing” and the dress-up box (from about 6 on thru adulthood–he’s spoken repeatedly about wearing his mom’s clothes n heels n his sister’s cheerleader uniform, would wear his mom’s jeans all the time from 13 on, and even in fever era wore whole outfits from the women’s section), wrapping curtains around his waist to be a dress at 5, playing female roles in family plays, wanting to sound like female singers like gwen stefani, carly simon n beyonce n not like a man, etc could also be interesting to look at. b’s family being strict/traditional mormons kind of boggles my mind, bc they seemed to have left him to it, n he was (and still is) a big momma’s boy. like you can tell boyd loves his son but have you seen that man’s political views on twitter? omfg. i imagine he bit his tongue a lot around his youngest, and i wonder if b’s gender nonconformity played a role in b’s brothers coming to live with them (b, his 2 sisters, mom, dad) when he was 8. i bet grace (mom) stood up for him a lot, n that b was more feminine than his sisters (altho for sure there’d be a lot of shared interests with plays, the dress up box, n such).

[broadwayyhoe]

Falsettos Teachers AU !!!!!!

I love teachers aus !!!!!!!!!!! so !!!! much !!!!!!!!!! so here’s a falsettos one! au where the tight knit family are all teachers at a high school. I love these characters so much goddamn it. I’ll call the school McKinley High bc it sounds good (I did not intend for this to be a glee reference but it happened. oops) 

MARVIN RICHARDS - he teaches english lit.  - he gives out loads of hw so a lot of students complain about him, but none of them actually HATE him.  - bc his classes are pretty interesting.  - all of his classes end up turning into a huge debate about the themes of whatever book they’re talking about.   - obviously Marvin n e v e r backs down abt his opinion.   - so his classes are always vv heated, and it always ends up dragging on (and Marvin receives several complaints from the teachers w/ classes after him) - for some reason he’s the coach of racquetball club, a fact that is considered one of the biggest mysteries at McKinley High, because he is absolute shit at it, members of the club will vouch for it. - BUT despite his lack of talent in racquetball, he is quite buff (I’m imagining Christian Borle as Marvin here so…. y’all have seen his arms, right????? Marvin is totally super buff)

WHIZZER BROWN - obviously he’s the young PE teacher  - that came to the school recently  - all the students love him  - he’s super chill and the Cool Teacher™, he has loads of cool stories about past hookups and things, reeeeeally lax about rules and everything  - he becomes coach of the baseball team as well  - and he’s the ya know the hot young fit PE teacher, so all the female teachers were all flirting with him at the beginning, and he made it V E R Y clear that he was not interested. - but yes he flirts with the male teachers a lot (he flirts with Marvin too, and Marvin just gets annoyed, although secretly he enjoys it) - he definitely complains to his students about his love life (which leads to the revelation of Marvin’s sexuality, will write more abt this later)  - the students are the biggest marvin/whizzer shippers & tries to set them up together - Takes the students out for ice cream during class sometimes, bc who the hell cares? 

TRINA  - music teacher music teacher  - she oversees choir club and drama club too :) - she acts like a mother to all her students :’))))))) - when she doesn’t have classes to teach (which compared to esp Marvin and Charlotte, she has way less) she goes out and gets coffee for everyone. (or donuts. they all love donuts) - She visits Mendel a lot bc they’re bored a lot, the rest of tkf have more classes than them. 

MENDEL  - obviously the school counselor!!!!!!! my god - right so he has a cat (THIS IS CANON) and he brings her to school sometimes, it just sits with his in his office and students just swarm his room during break times to see the cat - it becomes the Official Mascot of McKinley High - the tkf eat lunch together in his office sometimes bc its v cozy and he keeps loads of snacks there (also the cat) - students get sent to him if they cause trouble but they end up playing board games and eating snacks together and cuddling the cat - students love him and would go visit him even when they have no reason to (mainly its cuz of the cat, but the students love Mendel too don’t worry) - has had a massive crush on Trina forever, and he thinks he’s being really discreet and everything but actually literally everyone knows

 CHARLOTTE DUBOIS - teaches science !!!!! most likely chemistry  - “does loads of experiments and gets more excited about it than the students” type of teacher - always has the white lab coat on - close with Marvin, complains about their students together, and also marks papers / tests together over unhealthy amounts of coffee and red bull

 CORDELIA  - home economics :)))))  - all the students love her  - she’s supposed to be the teacher but she burns SOMETHING every time they have to cook - (the students always have the fire extinguisher ready just in case) - no she is a good cook and everything it’s just,,,, she’s also hella clumsy - The students try to set her up with Mendel at first (they’re both rays of sunshine and literally the sweetest people ever,, hear me out) but then she comes out to them - and then they decide,,,,,, Ms. Dubois was saying she needed an assistant for her chem classes 👀 👀

other things!!!!!!!!

IMPORTANT FACT: the students play matchmaker for the teachers omfg

- whizzer’s students were the first ones who told him that Marvin was gay (he’s not the type to go around yelling about it, although he’s out of the closet) when whizzer was complaining about the lack of attractive gay men in the school 

“They’re all either old, or married, or straight! Why did I decide to work here again?”

“What about Mr. Richards though?”

“the WHOMST” (secretly whizzer had his eye on marvin but assumed he was straight) (but now he thinks about it OBVIOUSLY he’d be gay)

- ALSO, Whizzer’s going home for the day when he walks past the racquetball court and sees Marvin trying to teach and failing horrifically, while the students are just laughing.

“God, have you ever heard of form?” 

and Whizzer ends up becoming coach of racquetball team. Marvin is demoted to “assistant coach” aka sulking as he loses every game to Whizzer. 

pls add more !!!!!!!!!!! I would like to see y’all’s headcanons about this :)))))

[semiconducting]

some sexuality talk because ive been reminded of it lately

so as of right now i currently identify as being bisexual. like. just plain bisexual.

but somethin about it doesnt feel right still.

like when i realized i Wasnt Straight (when i was literally 12) i thought hey know i think im panromantic asexual! i dont like thinking about sex its icky but i wouldnt mind dating anybody!

and then after a while it sunk in that i wasnt really pan because i just. dont have a whole lot of interest in men. like there is a slight attraction i guess because i have had crushes on guys in the past. but im not sure if thats a heternormativity thing and i just couldnt distinguish between romantic and platonic feelings.

and its not like ive had a crush on a guy since middle school. everything afterwards has been fictional characters or celebrities so.

so yknow, i was biromantic asexual. i never once questioned the asexuality thing that was the thing that was Right.

and then in a bit romantic feelings were so weird. i felt it sometimes but not always? and it seemed like i was more in love with the idea of a relationship because when actually considering a relationship i always got scared and didnt like it.

grey-biromantic asexual.

and yknow i was one of those aces. sex is gross! i dont wanna see that pda bullshit! 

but at the same time? by “pda” i meant straight people like sucking each others faces off and feelin up each other in public like. i never really went to the extent Some People do and act like hand holding or hugs (esp for wlw/mlm) was Just As Icky.

and the “sex is gross” thing. sex was just gross about me. i didnt care if other people liked it, or even talked about it (so long as it wasnt like. in a situation/environment where its Completely uncalled for if you know what i mean?). that’s their business and i’m glad if they enjoy it. it’s their choice and just be safe about it! doesnt affect me at all.

like i still feel some of the same stuff in that i dont really like sexual comments directed at me, some of that may be a rejection of sexuality in a hypersexualized society, some of that may be personal body dysphoria as well, fear of a relationship (especially a sexual one), etc etc

but sex jokes? talking about it? fine. i didnt care much.

and then the ace discourse whatevers popped up on tumblr and i just. really did not like that bullshit. so i separated myself from the ace community and publicly identifying as such. i didnt want to be associated with that, all the homophobia and acting so oppressed in places where nothing was really there. i was ace nonetheless.

also i frankly dont want to dive into my stance on it so let’s skip that.

anywho. so im bi right? always been. 

and then, yknow, things sat for a while, and i thought about it and realized that the asexual label just doesnt feel right anymore? like. i still dont like sexual comments. im scared of the idea of a sexual relationship. as a dfab person im still vehemently against hypersexualization.

but also i just realized it wasnt that simple? am i attracted to other people sexually? i dont know really. but its not that strict and also i dont? need to specify it? its not anyone’s business except my own and perhaps a potential partner’s. 

and its been really difficult coming to terms with that. i feel so dirty. i feel like not being Completely Against Me Having Sex and Feeling Sexual Attraction is just...like i was lying. for attention for all those years of calling myself ace. i feel like i betrayed myself because this is how ive identified for so long

so its just. trying to recognize that the incoming feelings about sexuality is complicated but....okay? its alright to feel this sort of thing? i kind of looked at myself a little young on the sexual end of things and while that can work for some people it just. didnt for me. 

and im a strong advocate for labels change, people and feelings change, its totally okay for you to identify as something different than you once did

but its just one of those things thats ingrained yanno. ive considered myself a part of the ace community forever and its been such a part of how ive approached things.

and like, i know ive been obnoxious about it to some people on occasion. but those who come to mind are people that also loved to take my declaration of asexuality as a chance to shove sexuality back into my face when ive expressed discomfort so. :/ not that im right, but theres reasoning i suppose???

but yeah i dunno. distancing myself from the community was rather easy as ive never had a huge hand in it (not that i do with much in general, but i do post opinions about things and whatnot and im much more an advocate for lgbt rights publicly in general so?). its just separating myself from the label. embracing the sexuality as i grow older and recognizing that it’s okay. that it doesnt make my discomfort with sex any less prevalent, and my stance on sexuality in society and culture any less strong.

in general, like i said, its my business! and i dont think anyone particularly cares to hear about my feelings about sex in deep detail, nor do i need a label for it. so im just bisexual. 

but remember the heteronormative crushes and things we were talking about earlier?

that’s what’s ticking me lately.

ive seen a lot of posts on my dash recently about heteronormativity and how it affects lesbians in particular in recognizing their identity.

and like. god my feelings about calling myself a lesbian are really complicated.

like just to name a few

i’m afraid i’m doing shit for attention and im not Really a lesbian

im not really a girl, and i separate myself from femininity so much in favour of my gender identity so i can be a Real Nonbinary Trans 

i feel like im invading in the community, and that being sapphic/bi is enough to keep myself around other wlw

 it’s not like there arent nonbinary lesbians and im not denying that identity in any way shape or form, its just something for me

like, i always considered myself bisexual because im not a girl. but to people ive “come out to” in person, im a lesbian, because as far as they know im female, right? im not really into men, and i like girls, and that’s usually the quickest way to getting it across.

i think its just an issue of conflicting with my gender identity is all. which has also been recently a little less clear and defined than i thought. 

and its another one of those betraying my labels/looking for attention. im bi, and ive always been! so why should i change that yknow.

so thanks if youve read through this mess of me trying to make sense of my thoughts. 

[strawberryspeachy]

K so like I talked to another dude from tinder last week

(I was talking to 5. The asshole my preivious posts were about, a dude I worked at the haunted house with, a French dude a state away, a Swedish dude who I’ve been talking to for a while and hopefully is not my next nightmare story cause he seems really cool, and this terrifying dude)

Anywho I add this dude and he talks pretty normal. He went on about how he didn’t have any friends which the other guy with 1000s of friends said as well - idk why tinder guys always give some kind of sob story- but he talked about how he likes doing art and stuff blah fine

So I agreed to meet him sometime and we picked getting pizza which was actually the same day I went out to meet the other guy afterwards.

So I see him and he looks a bit different and is just generally not what I find attractive at all - but I’m like whatever - I’m lonely I could always use more art friends.

Now what should have been strike 123 bye - he showed me a picture of a dead animal “he saw on his way and wanted to show me” and I was like wtf um why would you take a pic or show me. And he backtracked and talked about other stuff - I so bullits

1) he kept trying to shame me for not watching dragonball super recently while trying to tell me spoilers even though I told him repeatedly I didn’t wanna hear about it

2) he kept trying to convince me I should like random anime’s I don’t like and should get back into that shit

3) he kept shining a light on his keychain in my eyes when I told him to stop and tried to ok this by saying he liked being annoying

4) I said I was gonna leave if he kept doing one of those things and he put his foot up on my bench and told me not to

Ok so I should have never talked to him again after that esp since I was so bored that I just wanted to leave - but I wasn’t suffering. I also hung out with annoying ass kids in high school like that and didn’t really take most of it as grounds to just opt out

So he messaged me the night that dude had me drive to his house and then blocked me and I was upset and I mentioned it and also told him I’m not interested in him that way but that I’m ok with being friends (bad me bad me)

And he responded by saying he just wants friends and it’s fine but also immediately going “so this means you’re free Saturday” and since I felt bad entirely rejecting him I said I was and after a lot of me saying ya we can just meet up and hang out and him going let me take you to dinner and the movies and pick you up

And I just said fine after like 40 min of that

Ugh so Saturday comes and he didn’t overtext me or anything so I thought it was fine... time for bullit points again

1) it was pouring rain and he sped and stopped at the last second

He ran every stop sign I didn’t point out and when he’d see them as he passed them he just got angry

He had major road rage for absolutely no reason and was generally a bad driver and terrified me while he got angry at red lights and other people while he attempted to merge really badly. Also at me when I gave him directions far in advance and he’d act like it was last second as he acted like he didn’t understand “get in the right lane” for over a minute

2) he told me he bought me a Christmas present that was over 200 dollars and did this thing I realized he had been doing where when I tell him no thanks he gets offended going “you’re rejecting me??”

3) he told me he likes to cat call women but one time a girl liked it and it was weird to him and made him awkward

4) he told me when he lived in Mexico there were wild dogs that he and his family one time went and hit with baseball bats because sometimes they were territorial and would pretend they were gonna bite you and it scared him — mind you not in the same instance

5) he still kept shining that fucking light in my face all day no matter how many times I told him to stop

6) he was playing that whole “I’m a really nice guy so you should date me” russe and just making me really uncomfortable constantly asking me if I’m happy and that he’s doing this all to make me happy and like... I was being nice and friendly and hiding how uncomfortable I was so like... there was no reason for that

7) at the movies I took out my little squishy toy which I had showed him earlier and he had no interest in but because I was about to play with it he like demanded i give it to him to play with first which I didn’t cause the way he seemed he was totally gonna rip it in half

8) he spent like 10 minutes throwing his phone at me because “it was too heavy and he didn’t wanna hold it” HIS phone

9) he kept making plans for us for the future the whole day and ALL these things we were gonna do together

10) every story he told me from him not wanting birthday party’s to his friend cancelling plans with him after being so happy she cried last time he saw her to the male half of his family physically fighting over small stuff because that’s how men do things - was just creepy

By the end I seriously wanted to cry I was so uncomfortable and miserable like I couldn’t breathe.

Before we went in the theatre i thought “this boy might actually kill me and for the first time I would not appreciate that - I do NOT want him to be the last thing I ever see” that’s a first for me

And yet again my being stupid had got me in a predicament where a terrifying guy knows where I live and I’ve never wanted to block someone more but am afraid they’ll show up at my house

Like like like it’s not fair. It’s like life punishing me for freaking out at guys who entirely go out of their way to fuck with me and play with me and just be super mean to me after saying they want the complete opposite to me. And I just try to treat people nicely and considerately and instead get myself in situations with.... these terrifying guys

Like like I had a legit stalker in 8th and 9th grade. I wasn’t friends with this boy but he followed me around right behind me. Watched my every move. Memorized my schedual from when my bus got there to which hallways i took to each class and my morning hang out spots. Do you know how I got this stalker? He was a super weird kid that stuttered and picked his nose and shit but I didn’t make fun of him with everyone else. I don’t even specifically remember ever going out of my way to be nice to him I just remember telling my friends “aw leave him alone - he didn’t do anything to you” I assume I probably said hi to him in passing sometimes - or smiled at him briefly as I do with people I accidentally make eye contact with

What did I do to get a stalker? I treated him like a normal person and wasn’t an asshole to him. This is always how I end up having to deal with crazy people.

Literally so many that havnt entirely freaked me out to the point where I think they’ll show up at my house (I seriously had a strategy for if they dude from 8th grade showed up at my house) but just in general. I’ve had weird experiences with so many crazy people just because I try to give people the benefit of the doubt and treat them like humans.