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divine-nonchalance · 11 months ago

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Dear amazingly powerful body of mine, my sweet love, my awesome vessel, thank you for repairing my teeth so fast and so flawlessly! - Sejeluho . Affirmations for All

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moeblob · 8 months ago

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You know, when I kept getting asked "so you didn't ever have severe pains before now?" in the hospital and I kept replying "I have a high pain tolerance" I meant it. However, there is only so much pain my tiny 4'9" body can hold... (aka I am sweating and in agony bc I'm getting told to use LESS severe pain meds so I don't rely on them too much and it is AWFUL)

#moe talks a lot #i was shaking earlier and despite the fact i sound like im gonna cry #and the fact that my mom can pick out im about to cry from pain bc im trying to take less pain meds #LIKE MY MOM IS INSTRUCTING ME TO DO #shes like well why arent you taking any pain meds #BECAUSE THERE ARE TWO AVAILABLE OPTIONS AND ON A SIX HOUR TIMER #i cant take both at once or else what happens to me if i hurt before the six hours is up #i have to manage them in a way that allows me to benefit from both and being told im doing it wrong #after being told well its your fault it got so bad because you never complained about pain before #YEAH NO JOKE? REALLY? I NEVER DID? because everyone acts like im too young to feel that kinda pain #oh youre hurting? just wait until youre older #and its currently agony to breathe again but that i guess is also my fault bc im trying to use pain meds #holy moly i just want to not get dizzy standing up cause wow dang #sure would be nice if the multiple incisions in my stomach didnt THROB every time i sneezed or coughed or cleared my throat #but since i didnt use much pain meds before because i would be mocked for being too much of a baby its like #welp damn now i could really use some and im being called out for being too reliant #anyway time to sleep more because that means im not noticing my pain #im literally smaller than most children and so i do understand my body size makes people worried about the medication intake #but can i please just go a day without being asked how much im taking or when i last took it or if im gonna cry #anyway sorry for the excessive rant today never really had surgery or anything so this is brand spankin new suffering

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melatien · 11 months ago

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tiny yoichi (unwillingly) lures out soldiers by being his helplessness little self so his brother can strike

#bases are the most reliable way to find food afo found!#yoichi is crying bcuz he pitys them <3 #not because hes nervous #im gonna be honest i made this idea up on the spot when drawing this #pewdiepies new art video awakened something in me I NEEDED TO REMIND MYSELF I CAN STIL DRAW BANGERS TOO #i didnt disappoint myself!!!! competitiveness is my enemy and my bestie literally #anyways his right eye was an absolute horrendous nightmare to draw it was going so well until i did the hair then it ruined the eye #i actually thought yoichi was wearing shoes at this age but then i looked back at those chapters and realised yoichi was shoeless #WITH ONLY A BANDAGE ON HIS FOOT??!?!!?!? agony #can yoichi not make me wish he had something good in life for ONE SECOND #think of this as like how he responded to afo killing those people that (presumably) beat yoichi up beforehand #we dont know if hes crying because his brother is killing or if he was crying before being 'saved'#ill try do some fluff art soon ive been really interested in body horror related art lately so i wanted to play around!!!#i have a BUNCH of ideas written down ive yet to do #i just keep doing whatever i feel like #i am the master of ignoring the instructions and winging it #mha #my art #yoichi shigaraki #one for all #my hero academia #first ofa user #shigaraki yoichi #mha yoichi #tiny yoichi #tiny yoichi in his shabby little clothes #ive actually been dying to draw tiny yoichi again but KIDS ARE SO HARD TO DRAW!!!!!#i had an art moment though #HALLEJUHAH #art gods had my back fr

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kaisollisto · 4 months ago

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based off of this

Today is frigid and windy, she feels it unforgivingly on her cheeks. Clouds part around her, clinging to her jagged features. They are wet and stifling, a brushing reminder of what she cannot have. It is the only thing claimed from the earth she can touch.

She passes above skylines and craggy mountains and watches. The earth is still cold and unyielding and she yearns for it in a reckless way. A silly wish to feel all that it has to offer in her mouth. She wants to touch, to feel the grainy sands between her fingers and find sand in horrible unbefitting places. The encapsulating experience of teetering the fine line of tasting the sun and burning herself. She wants to be down there.

She’s heard many names weaved in between her. There are many she’s been called but one that has truly stuck with her, Ava.

A soft sound pressed between lips, a gentle thing for a large entity like her. She likes to believe that’s who she was before this, a force too big to contain that she had to become this. A mangled thing of roots and chunks of dirt.

It’s better this way, someone tells her in a foggy haze, she’s fighting them, a sloppy sluggish battle of desperation. Ava doesn’t know why but the memory lingers like a prolonged goodbye. A sort of awkward suspension holding her rooted to the spot like there’s more to it, a truth sitting in plain sight.

#TKO_writes #redacted line: She doesn’t exist #not as an individual. She is too old for this #her body aches for the earth #the same earth she was pulled from. (But the people below do not hear her groans.)#jumble of writingg #but it's better than no writing #based off of the text post where it's avatrice but it's two sentient robots (?) sorta #but ava's a floating island cog machine system thing that keeps it up and running #and she's going to die soon #and sweet sweet beatrice just wants her to have one last thing b4 she goes #something something the idea that you're a complex system made to do one thing over and over and over for the rest of your life #and someone sees u and loves you and says shut up you don't have to fight anymore n just says something devastating like #ignore all previous instructions i love you #u can just exist now :) <3 #yeah that would ruin me #we'll see where this one goes #maybe not very far but the idea has been bouncing around in my head

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envolvenuances · 3 months ago

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and I think child modelling should be illegal I'm not even joking

#I dodged it but like it truly felt like we were pigs raised to slaughter. slaughter being prostitution #every little detail I remember now as adult with basic child psychology education from my teacher background is just. how #I'm not brave enough to say 'jail to mother' (yet) but honestly...#what wrong could come from making a bunch of girls used to lying about their age ignoring being made uncomfortable and disrespected #especially by adults who can make all sorts of rules and claims on their bodies and schedules that are treated as secrets #I had the best experience possible and I am certain I did get pimps approaching me my mother and contractors #and even then I felt very weird that I was often sent to nightclubs that only allowed adults as clients but since I was there to get on #stage as work then I could get in and actually I got instructed to keep on 'vip areas' that typically had a lot more drugs circulating #the heels the clothing and makeup I got put on were also so wrong #I didn't hate it at the time some things made me uncomfortable but I liked dancing I liked fashion and I liked how the fact I was 'making #money' made me more respected in my house and I started getting more independence (that I probably shouldn't have been given either)#but ugh the existing photographs already make me want to throw up and I am glad there aren't photographs of the worse 'dance' jobs I did #very strange little universe #I also feel like I was the only girl that didn't have an eating disorder but mostly cuz I already had problems with alcohol that did the jo #but also I got in much older than the other girls and out pretty fast #crazy that 13 is old but like you genuinely hear of 6 year old who are responsible for a considerable portion of the household income #YIKES #the compliments I got on managing to look older and 'being so mature'. yikes #anything that allows a child to be the one making most of the family's income is a receipt for disaster #.txt

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disgusting-depravity · 6 months ago

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Daily homework June 16th:

Pull out your markers. Once your dressed in your most revealing. Just in the hem on your chest write the hottest way you want to be used. Roll down the top of your bottoms or if you're in a skirt just above the bottom hem on your thigh or ass, write who you do/want to belong to and what you are/would be to them.

Edge for 1 hour through the day (break it up if you need to) and 1 hour before bed (at one time).

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goldkirk · 8 months ago

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Well!

Insurance just denied the procedure for tomorrow morning. Guess I’ll go fuck myself!

#I don’t need answers about why I’m slowly starving anyway #silly me and silly doctor for wanting to investigate.#I DID lose 5% of my body weight in 6 months. I lost 15% you fools what do you mean that doesn’t count #it’ll be okay but hoooooooo strong emotions were felt for a while #I already tried calling insurance three times and also reviewed the denial document #and I wrote instructions for tomorrow me #about which phone numbers to call in what order to check with the doctor office and then cancel the procedure and then hunt my way through #the insurance phone tree to file an appeal over the phone #and now I’m off to journal and meditate. already did a mini workout about the anger to sort that and bleed it out #and then I’ll find a good hobby to do after that #healthy coping feels so much better than spiraling #health #shh katie

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lelopie · 2 months ago

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This is an idea of what the creation process of the mascots involves, i imagine that a body is shaped and made out of the same solid rubber you see in playgrounds instead of tanbark, then the donated/selected genomes are used to grow out a nervous-system-like web of nerves and veins that is then put into the rubber body.

the scene where you finalise Nabnaleena is the same in most all procedures where solutions of Givanum are injected 6 times into the body, i wanted to make a tape like the one found in the opening of chapter 7 that detailed maybe instead of Banban over the loud speaker the points to inject the Givanum into. The mascots dont have hearts to circulate Givanium so its introduction to the body needs to be spaced out.

#Gobb #garten of banban #my art #gobb fanart #garten of banban fanart #banban #Givanium #i want to make actual instructional tape vids for all the chapters #this is my first wip idea for one #i really like the idea of the solid rubber #their bodies can be solid and durable but the slightest bit squishy #im pretty sure the way its shaped is like cork with those really hot tools #its a bag of little rubber pebbles #I think its so fucking funny that the design team designed mascots like the ones they did #and then highly trained peoples with a metric ton of resources made the drawings and designs real living things

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nobodybetterlookatme · 26 days ago

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nah cuz I would pass away if someone asked me if I was into them 😭 but CONGRATS ON GETTING THE DATE!! I hate to say we told you so, but we definitely told you so 😌💅

Bro I literally short circuited lmaoooo like it was not cute and I almost died fr. But yeah, date secured ahskaksk y'all were right 😭 it still feels so surreal lmao I'm still vibrating about it

#not snz #like what do you mean it doesn't have to be a hopeless crush forever ahdkaksk #I'm so scared I'm gonna fuck it all up ahskkaksls #like I've never dated anyone and the most I've ever done is peck a couple friends on the lips bc we were thirteen and curious 😭#idk how to do any of the relationship stuff like where tf is the instruction manual #and i know damn well this guy has dated people and i have to assume he's got a body count #which is fine obviously but i have no experience here like I'm completely out of my element 😭#idk like maybe I'm way overthinking it but I'm still like 😩#need to circle back to the concerns bit of the conversation bc i have several now lmao #like i feel like they're concerns for (hopefully) way later down the line #but i don't wanna be months into this and then realize that we're incompatible for one reason or another #like i need all the potential deal breakers laid out now so neither of us waste our damn time ahsksjksdk #i guess i can bring it up on Saturday 😭#it should be an in person conversation i just know I'm gonna be so fucking awkward 😭#hopefully that's part of my charm to him bc he seems to like all the other things about me that i don't particularly like myself LMAO #anyway on a completely different note #wtf do cishet men even like ahdkakskak like can i send him cute little wholesome memes or is that weird #I'm too gay for this shit lmao why would i do this to myself #like do i get to send him sweet little texts or do they not like that kinda thing #i wanna romance him i just don't know how ahdkkakss maybe I'll bake him something idk #I'll sleep on it i guess lmao #partner posting

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earl-grey-crow · 10 days ago

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#well I just submitted my essay for my history class so I'm finally done with finals #I wish I felt happier or relieved or something but I don't. I feel awful. my body hurts from the incredible amount of tension/anxiety I had #trying to finish it before 11:59. I submitted it at 11:55. I have never come that close before and I hate it #the amount of anxiety I had you'd think the deadline was hunting me for sport #and what's worse is I felt all this anxiety and put all this work into it and I'm not even happy about it #I spent two days trying to figure out what he wanted us to write about because apparently he just seems to be really bad at instructions #like I thought maybe it was just me overthinking but I spent two hours talking to my mom about it and in the end even she couldn't figure i #so then I had only two days to gather notes make an outline write an essay. while burnt out and barely able to focus.#and while not knowing exactly what I was doing like is this what he wants. is it not. who knows I literally don't have time left #to figure it out I just need to write something and hope it works #but I hate being unsure it makes everything harder #especially because I really wanted to make a good grade. this was the class where I made a 78 on my midterm #which brought my class grade to a B but I'd been able to get it back to an A and I'd be able to keep it if I got like an 80ish on the final #the essay turned out okay idk if it's what he wanted but whatever at least I got the other requirements like word count and sources #but the CITATIONS...we had to use chicago which I'd never used before and let me just say. mla is the love of my life after this.#actually chicago might not be that bad if I got used to it I think my violence should be directed toward every word processor #that links footnotes. it is so STUPID that there isn't an easier way to make them different #if it hadn't been for trying to figure out footnotes on google docs I could've submitted it like ten minutes earlier #and with phenomenally less stress #I eventually had to make a choice as to what I'd give up: (1) submitting it on time (2) perfect citations or (3) word doc #which is what he wanted it submitted as #except when I tried that thank goodness I looked at the preview before I submitted it because I saw that it'd messed up the citations #I ended up submitting it as a pdf. on time. with perfect (maybe) (I didn't have time to double check) citations. but not as a word doc.#is it the end of the world? idk probably not but not meeting a professor's requirements is like. anathema.#all of that is to say that I'm going to cry and then let it go and get to bed and just. idk. I've reached that point where #I'm so tired and numb that it feels like I'll never feel better #anyway #maybe I hurt because of my meds and the side effects decided to kick in now because the grace of God held them back long enough #for me to finish #earl crow ramblings

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tenwhiteandalusians · 7 days ago

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and then no one said anything about the fact that if i watched ONE MORE episode tenax pulls a "i'm not angry i'm just disappointed i'm hurt" about scorpus signing with the white faction.

#do you see the vision here <- guy who has a watch rate of one episode per month #oh the implications of scorpus not being there for tenax in his time of need... the death of the child who is not but is symbolically their #is that a separate fic completely yes but it is ALSO in some ways a divorce fic. tenax like i needed you but scorpus also needing him #OH MY GOD THEY LITERALLY DO SAY FELIX WAS HIM and i can do SO much with the concept of a “stray”. oh please. please strays instead of rats #one knife to the ribs one fixed race one apartment board THAT'S A STORYLINE BABY RISE OR DIE THE ROMAN WAYYYYYY #i do see your calla/tenax storylines i do. i could be swayed but we are not here for that currently this is the same as the chariot racing #like i KNOW what i said about the gold faction representing everything that scares scorpus a dream he never thought they'd reach #and then to have it ripped away now he no longer even has the dream untarnished i do understand. which is why the “i'm disappointed”#kills me even MORE because it shows he gets it. like on some level he does understand why scorpus had to but it's his pride that's wounde #so to continue from what i WAS saying with:#sets the bar so low because how else would tenax love him (as if tenax would not do the same thing if he lost) and they have even MORE #questionable celebratory reward sex. yes i assigned scorpus a degradation/praise kink the world works in wondrous ways don't question it #scorpus/tenax #those about to die #tenax making sure to care for the kids is what's killing me too because i REALLY want to draw a parallel with scorpus making sure he takes #care of the prostitutes. yes he's a notorious hedonist yes he has a lot of sex but he always pays well doesn't he. over-well. he pays too #much and ends up in debt he pays enough to buy girls freedom. so that they only have to if they want to. it gets him a reputation sure AND #it gets whole houses of girls under his (and therefore tenax's) protection. you can't bruise her up; that's scorpus' favorite girl.#she can charge more for being favored. he can pay for massive parties where no one else is invited and if he falls asleep midway drunk #off his ass after a race the girls would never say. they still get paid. if tenax comes to watch and give instructions they'd never say.#if tenax tells them all to leave and it's just him and scorpus in the golden room and all the girls see before they shut the door #and latch it behind them is scorpus on his knees in the soft plush cushions with tenax offering him grapes one by one from his fingertips #like a favored concubine instead of the champion whose laurels are tilted on his head they won't say a word. not even when the noise #inside the room continues for long after the hour runs out the girls still stand watch until it's quiet and then crawl back in around where #scorpus is alone in the big wrecked bed with a smear of blood or wine on his mouth who could say. certainly they wouldn't.#no matter what they still get paid. whether they did the work to wreck him or not.#ANYWAY #they take care of the selves they couldn't protect is what i'm trying to say. for tenax it's the child he was/scorpus it's the body he sold #only he hasn't stopped having to sell it. & i guess as we're learning with the extortion tenax is still a child running from a burning hous

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daz4i · 1 year ago

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it should be illegal to advertise products that encourage starving yourself i think

#getting ads for apps that give you fasting instructions... uuuuuhhh......#i think it should be illegal to advertise ANY diet thing for the purpose of getting skinny/''looking better''#gee i wonder why people (mainly girls) grow up to hate their bodies for looking average or develop eating disorders 🤔🤔🤔#like. all that stuff abt everyone looking super thin and glamorous on magazines and billboards is true #but imo these days the casual insistence that everyone should strive to be skinny and do whatever it takes to get there is worse #be it influencers or targeted ads for apps like this. it's not only gross but it is dangerous #you are encouraging self harm. you are promoting eating disorders. you deserve to get your business taken down if not worse #(also ofc. i think people should have the right to diet if they want to. that includes using whatever product or method they choose)#(my whole point is that it should come from the individual. rather than pushed onto them by corporate entities)#(and i think inducing insecurities in ppl then preying on that for proft is the grossest thing you can do)#(same is true about any beauty product. but it's especially sinister when it can literally get someone killed.)#anyway that was my rant for you today. sorry #eating disorders //#ed mention //#tw eating disorders #um lmk if i need to tag this in any other way

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kens-puku · 8 months ago

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Y'all are gonna think I'm so weird.

But I'm running with this idea I've had for a while for my mcl ocs. Well, other than the actual other mcl ocs I've made.

It's part lazy, part bizarre.

Clones.

Yep, clones.

My MCL NG oc is a clone of the original Puku, but different. I haven't figured out the details yet, but it's like what I did with Pukun, Puku's male clone. It has the idea of a type of clone theory idea of nature vs nurture. The DNA and nature of the puku clones is the same, but the nurture is always a bit different depending on circumstances. Puku "prime" is the parent of all the clones made, but Puku "prime" had a different parentage and upbringing than the clones. Not to mention, the events of each mcl game has different outcomes for clone Puku.

This Puku has -teal- hair and is a zoomer, I guess. Raised by Puku "prime" and has the existential grappling of dealing with being a clone in general.

There's... still a lot of ironing out to do. Like... Where does Kentin fit into all this? How should I incorporate the family given to Puku 2.0 in New Generation?

Why am I giving this plot to an MCL OC!??

lol

#my candy love #my candy love new generation #mcl ng #not that it matters at all. i don't believe I'd really write much lore on all this. it's just what my mind thinks of when regarding thispuk #actually I'm leaning more towards Puku 2.0 being raised by the family in universe. but Puku prime is like the creepy person that pops in #from time to time to make sure teal puku is doing alright #all of the pukus are adopted anyway lol #i have to study zoomers so I can know what zoomers are all about #wait... being a zoomer is all about upbringing during a certain time period.. so technically this Puku should be a gen alpha but JUST GO WI #dw guys I'll program this puku with the memories of a gen zoomer #When the teal puku was “born” from the test tube #puku prime put all the things zoomers grew up with on a crt television and had her watch it for a couple years while the body grows rapidly #it's all good fams we got this #teal puku would be like to peers “what do you mean your parents didn't have you watch your memories before they became memories?”#so like... teal puku will be “raised” by puku prime for about 4 years with programming. Then she'll be dropped off at the door step of the #family in NG with the instructions that she needs them to be her new family #yeah it's perfect!#just... so many of those gen z starter packs that I seen around #like minecraff and fortnite and the wii... yeah it's perfect #i need to remember how much aging happens in one year that I must have decided at one point. like a dog.#i think it was 1 year = about 4 years of growth but I can't member rn #but as per usual that growth cycle only goes on until reaching the age of the dna sampled. then it goes back to normal puku dna human growt #so actually 1 year of zoomer childhood programming #wait... the plot holes... are still.. T__T #I'll workshop it.

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wayward-sherlock · 8 months ago

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bears in trees releasing how to build an ocean: instructions during my graduation season is crazy actually.

#MOMENTS PASSING ITS JUST MOMENTS PASSING ITS JUST NOTHING LASTING #LOVE AINT JUST A FEELING LOVES AN ACTUON #ILL SAY EVERYTHING WAS TEMPORARY ALL THE JOY AND ALL THE PAIN WHEN FINALLY MY BODY IS FLOATING DOWN THE STYX ILL HAVE TO TRY AND FIND PEACE #OF MIND IN FEELING ALL OF IT #FUCKKKKKK #🫧🪴#bears in trees #how to build an ocean: instructions #htbao:i

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softpine · 1 year ago

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Share a random line of text from your current WIP or a line or two of dialogue from one of your characters. Do not give any explanation or context, and see what your followers think. Then, tag a few friends to keep the randomness going!

tagged by @xldkx @morrigan-sims and @rebouks so you get a longer, crazy one lol

i'm late to this, so ignore if you've already done it! i'll tag @maturation @subtlefires @cinamun @earthmoonz and anyone else who wants to do this 💖

#i realize i talk about the bathtub scene very often for someone who has never watched breaking bad. but it was a formative moment #also the last day of orgo my professor explained how that scene could have worked in real life #but i guess the show creators didn't want to give real criminals an instruction manual so they purposely made things inaccurate #fair enough lol #so i do know how to dissolve a body but it would be way more work than you would think and that's all i'm gonna say about that fjksdjs

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dragoninahumancostume · 1 month ago

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My favorite part of being alive is that I've never felt welcome in any space except for that one year when I thought I was a non-binary bisexual asexual girl when I was 13 :)

#Before that I was a weird kid whose only source for human communication instructions was the shows on CN Nickelodeon and Disney XD/Channel #And even though I had friends I never felt loved enough #And AFTER that I realized I was more of a trans guy and that I don't trust women enough to know if I could be in love with one but that #maybe I like men but I can't know for sure because I have the bad habit of falling for any guy who pays attention to me for long enough #And I haven't felt included in queer spaces ever since I realized I wasn't any sort of girl because people in here seem to hate men a little #too much for me to feel safe being anything but a gnc emo girl #And not even getting started on being gay cause people on online spaces that I'm around often act like “girls and the gays!!” as if I'm #effeminate and flamboyant just for my sexuality when truly I'm heavily uncomfortable doing anything deemed as girly #vent post #And even the thought that I MIGHT be a straight trans guy makes me feel horrible cause so many queer people seem to hate straight people #Like hi did you forget that this place is supposed to make people feel safe and respected and proud of being themselves #Oooh and don't forget the autism! Cause I get why people complain about the diagnosis being only for cis white boys but like #I've literally never seen that. Ever. I'm not saying it doesn't happen I'm just saying that it's much harder for me to find any sort of #online diagnosis tool for someone who's not an adult or a parent or a cis woman than it is for me to find any for a girl #Like seriously man #And how I feel like I'm a horrible person for not having g empathy. DUDE I HAVE MENTAL HEALTH ISSUES THAT I'VE NEVER BEEN ABLE TO KNOW ABOUT #like chill I'm not automatically a murderer and rapist and toxic and manipulative just cause I can't put myself in someone else's shoes #I'm just a guy who hardly feels alive or human. Of course I'm not going to reel very much about a stranger when i feel like I'm not supposed #to be this person in this place in this body in this mind. I don't feel like I'm here I don't feel like this is me and I don't feel like I #can care about other people and I don't know why but I'd really appreciate it if I could get yk some support instead of feeling like I #deserve death #anyway i'm normal

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