#innerworld shenanigans

[cambriancrew]

So we've always used Earth years to denote the ages of people in our system. But a lot of the time, that's still really an approximation and I'm not talking about mental age. I mean more like, how do you state the age of someone who spends a good deal of time using portals that take you somewhere and you stay there for however long then you come back through the same portal and return a moment after you left? Or in some cases, before you left?

How do you estimate age when you're talking about a person native to a planet where the years are longer than Earth's? And with time flowing faster on that planet than on Earth, how do you handle it when someone goes back and forth between Earth and that other planet?

Makes me glad our innerworld and the outerworld are more or less connected, timewise. We can stretch it a little - connect with Jas in the innerworld but she's busy so we try again a moment later outerworld time and hours later innerworld time. And sometimes we check in and it's been a few days since we've checked and they're still watching the same movie/doing the same thing they were last time we checked. This goes the other way too - sometimes they'll check in on us and it'll be a bad time and so they check back in a few hours later for us and only a moment later for them. Per tests, the most we can stretch this out in either direction is about a couple Earth months of experienced time, local to the Earth time of the main universe of the paracosm.

And there's one further wrinkle in all of this, relating specifically to portals. When you go through a portal, your body is broken down inside and reformed as you leave based on the pattern of it that exists in the Void. This normally isn't an issue - if you stick to your own universe. Which Jas doesn't, nor does Doc. (Though Doc we don't even try to estimate his age.) When you leave your home universe, a copy of your pattern is placed in the Void of the universe you go to. You use that when you teleport in that universe. But when you come back, you get reformed based on the pattern of you when you left. So if you go and spend months in another universe, as Jas did a lot growing up, you come back into a body that hasn't aged at all. But you still, heart and mind and soul, have the lived experience of being that other age.

Kinda like Narnia - the Pevensies grew up into adults in Narnia before coming back to Earth as children again.

So some of our ages are more just educated guesses than anything else lol.

Kinda makes me glad that at least for me, my inner age is basically just "I feel younger than the body. By how much varies."

[onismsys]

*gets an "i miss you" text*

nyx: *replies "i miss you too" to be kind

angel: killer fanservice!

luciel: sometimes i wonder about our ethics and morals..

[the-fictive-haven]

Sonic Prime spoilers buuuut

Random headmate: Y'know the paradox prism is probably canon to our innerworld.

Me: ... Do you have any fucking idea what you've just done by making me aware of that?

So anyway chat multiple shatterspaces have spawned here now

[fanficks-from-fictives]

Nico (yelling): LIFE IS FLEETING, DEATH IS FOREVER! WAAAAAAAA

Nico: *jumps off the balcony.*

Morty, who lives on the 4th story and whose balcony Nico just jumped out of: You okay?!?!?

Nico (from a rose bush): ... yeah!

[archaeopronoouns]

In this world, im god, so if i say rice heals the injured

Rice heals the fuckin injured

[rottentarsoul]

HI Okay Im not dead

TMI infodump below

OKAY So yall know how we were at the gyno last week and had to get bloodwork and shit done right???

WELL IT TURNS OUT IT WAS A REALLY. REALLY BAD UTI. So they sent over antibiotics to combat it, and hOLY SHIT THE DROWSY SIDE EFFECT??? WE SLEPT THROUGH MOST OF THIS WEEK AND ITS RUDE. Im talking they'd be awake for maybe 2-3ish hours at a time then needed to lay down for another 5-7. It was hellish.

ANYWAY Last night was our last dose, things have been going okay and while we're all still a bit drowsy they actually feel alot better physically.

Miraculously it also fixed our sleep schedule again.

ALL THIS TO SAY HI IM BACK BITCHES <3

[the-cosmic-collective-sys-blog]

🥀We're in a little town that the innerworld connects to. Eddie says that he needs to go somewhere. I follow him out of curiosity and simpage.

🥀He notices that I'm following him and reiterates that he needs to go somewhere. I follow him out of curiosity and simpage.

🥀He notices again, and decides to fly away this time. At first I walked, then I ran. Because I'm a fucking simp-- I MEAN. ERM. I was curious.

🥀And, because he knew damn well what was going on and we were mostly just playing around with each other, he giggles and promises that we'll cuddle once we get back home.

🥀I love him so much <3

[thecircularsystem]

Something that’s made me particularly uncomfortable in the system community recently (moreso on tumblr than any syscord I’m in) has been the mentality around recovery.

I’ve never felt more isolated from other systems since I’ve started a recovery process. I don’t consider myself “recovered” in any sense of the term, but I’m doing particularly well with my systemhood. I can communicate with my parts, I don’t experience as much amnesia anymore, and stress doesn’t lead to full meltdowns… most of the time.

But in this community, it seems like people around me are constantly demonizing recovery while simultaneously putting it on some sort of pedestal? And meanwhile, I’m sitting here in the, “This is a very mundane part of my life, Minecraft is genuinely more interesting” stage, feeling… really awkward and alone.

By one token: there’s all the recent posting about fakers, and even posts about resenting those who have “reached recovery.” They call out all sort of things they hate about other systems, often labeling it as a sign of faking, such as:

They can tell you everything about new splits

They have perfect communication

They celebrate splitting

They talk about exotrauma/source trauma

They talk about all being people

They treat their DID like an identity instead of a diagnosis

They don’t have visible dissociation/aren’t dissociative enough

They focus on the alters instead of the disorder

They have a constant certainty of who they are, no blurriness

They’ve got a vivid innerworld with shenanigans happening

And they speak in such a negative way about “those” systems, like:

“I definitely don’t have the fun alter DID like those systems do.”

“Why do you get the helpful DID and I get suicidal DID?”

“I wish I had the perfect version of this instead of the miserable version”

And by the other token, there’s when people do talk about recovery, and they talk about it like it’s a cure. Like my DID will go away.

“Oh if you catch it younger, kids with DID can go through a full recovery and fully fuse so much sooner.”

“I hope everyone fully fuses.”

“I wish I could just get rid of my parts. #recovery.”

Is no one else feeling uncomfortable?

The list of things that show fakers, and the constant misery and hatred of systems, followed by the constant flow of “can’t wait to no longer deal with this misery, can’t wait for final fusion” is…

Its isolating. I’m a diagnosed system who experiences every single thing on that list of “signs of faking,” and even while many of them were on that list before recovery, they only got more pronounced as I worked on integration. I feel so alone in the system community when everyone says that being me (a system in recovery) means I don’t have DID.

It’s distressing. Seeing these posts constantly makes that little worm of self doubt I’ve spent years quelling start to wiggle again. “They’re right, you need to show how miserable you really are.” “You should trauma dump, that’ll really show them.” (The first draft of this post was entirely just my life story, showing my recovery process, until I realized the brain worm won that day)

It’s misinformation. Final fusion doesn’t cure DID. DID is a lifelong disorder. It doesn’t mean you’re no longer a system of parts; you’ll always have parts. But recovery makes that look different for everyone. Recovery is different for everyone.

It’s posts like those I’ve seen lately that remind me of when I was 19 or 20 or so and first seeing system spaces. Fusion was death, because everything I saw about fusion was that it would “make you a singlet, not a system.” Everything I saw was that fusion was the cure.

Now I know better. I really hope others realize soon that recovery can only come if you work hard, and stop hating a major aspect of who you are.

It might feel a bit less lonely.

[syscultureis]

system culture is not knowing who the actual FUCK you are and wanting to figure it out but you keep getting distracted by innerworld shenanigans

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[chococrepes-art]

Bfdi:Tpot: One is going to make a deal with Six or steal their power theory + some other theories

(Idk if this is necessarily a theory I just wanted to talk about this lol)

Am I the only person that thinks it's quite possible One is gonna make a deal with Six? Because that's how it sounds like from what One said in the episode, it's kinda implied. The problem is that from Six's reaction I think Six would know that it's not a good idea to accept a deal with One, so how would One even try to convince Six to sign? Using the objects that signed her contract and are with Six to attack Six for her or something? Possible, but even that I'm not sure if it's gonna work considering Donut declined just fine (by that I mean you can decline and she can sometimes accept that more or less) Or threatening to harm the objects that are with Six after they got some time to kinda bond with eachother?

One seemed to be running out of time and I'm not sure why, it could be for another reason, or it could be that she's leading up to this very important deal with Six that would help her to get Two's power later and knows it'd be hard to get Six to sign because Six is a fellow algebralien and probably has some power at least, so maybe that's why she's panicking. In fact, what if she wants to steal Six's power to make it easier to steal Two's power later and to get used to this stealing power thing and not be completely rusty or a newbie when she'll do the same with Two or whatever contestant that wins Tpot? (Or maybe she wants to steal as much power as she can/everyone's power)

The thing is I'm not sure if One can make Six do anything since who knows, more powerful in other ways or not, maybe Six is better at fighting compared to One, even if the subscriber specials are dubiously cannon and we're still not sure if they're cannon or not (since they would kinda mess with the timeline), I think their purpose was to help us understand the personalities of the numbers and how their species works so even if things from the subscriber specials could be retconned or completely re-witten, I think it's important to note that Six is characterized there as knowing how to fight, almost being eager to fight and harm others from getting annoyed very easily (causing them to be aggressive and harm/fight others!), and as someone who doesn't care what happens to others or about other peoples well-being in dire situations (kicking Seven, beating up Nine, leaving the other algebraliens behind instead of trying to help them escape the apocalypse as well) (also, again, also possible the subscriber specials are not cannon at all meaning that cannon Six could have a completely different personality regardless and be actually caring instead) however the thing is that, it's possible the subscriber specials are supposed to be a sort of prequel to bfdi, and if the subscriber specials are actually supposed to be a prequel to bfdi or some seasons of it, it could be that Six is the only remaining algebralien from that algebralien-filled planet and that 2763's apocalypse happened such a long time ago that Six changed as a person, the apocalypse situation changed them as a person, and now Six misses being with other people instead and is nicer because they realized how much they miss the other numbers, so this could make Six vulnerable enough to One's shenanigans.

We don't know if all the other algebraliens died and Six is the only one left or if, after the apocalypse, the other algebraliens moved and Six was the only one that decided to stay and continue to live at the equation playground. It could even be that some died and some moved afterwards, like Seven and Ten might have also survived since we saw them as drawings in Four's innerworld AND they along with Six also appeared as possible alternate universe versions of Two. (We don't actually know if algebraliens CAN die, we know they don't need to sleep, and I'm pretty sure they don't need to eat either if I remember correctly, algebraliens are very god-coded with their immense power and ways of being honestly, I've always seen them like a species of alien-gods for the most part)

It's Also possible if other algebraliens survived but decided to move from the planet that they decided to let Six, or make Six, live at the equation playground and be the only one that doesn't move from that planet to stay guard in case something massive happens again and make it harder for disasters that would affect the whole species to occur, making Six a caretaker of the planet where the equation playground is located basically as that planet seems to have some important algebralien things like the division symbol and other things that might need to be kept in check, preserved, and guarded so the wrong people don't use them.

(Of course it's also possible Six works with One, and is waaaaay better at pretending then One, or more serious about their job, but from that scene I just really doubt that's the case, thought Six trusting those random aliens (the objects that found Six at the equation playground) and the objects trusting this random algebralien (Six) dosen't necessarily seem that smart, but the situation seemed urgent so it's in a way understandable, still very easy for them to trick eachother, we know the objects won't but have no actual idea about Six, the way One looked at the map makes me concerned for Six more so then think Six is working for One to trick the objects so that's why I find this possibility unlikely)

Uhh? Idk what to put here lol

Another small fun theory, that idk if it counts as more of a theory or more of a head cannon/ au idea, is that maybe once algebraliens gain a certain age (and algebraliens live a lot, and I mean a lot of years, thousand of years if not more it seems) they are meant to leave the algebralien planet and go find their own planet to live on, instead of having their residency on the mother planet anymore, and maybe Four, X, Two, One, perhaps even Three and potentially Fifteen have reached that age and that's (at least one reason) why they've left earlier. And maybe out of all of them Six is the youngest, explaining why they're the only one left at the equation playground and why Four and One have a door in their innerworld specifically designed to bring them back to the equation playground, so that every algebralien if needed could go back to their species's home planet where young algebraliens reside to protect them if needed. This would be cool since algebraliens are meant to be aliens but they don't really feel very alien they always felt more like gods up until this point, so if they made such a lore thing it would make them feel more alien. And like that's why Six would say they're the only left, because any other algebraliens their age are further away on the planet in their own communities, and they're grouped in different communities that are further away from eachother on the planet, and the other algebraliens Six was apart of a community with, Seven, Fourteen etc. left because they came of age, and everyone part of Six's community group came of age except for them being the reason Six was left all alone.

I wrote this post late at night a few days ago right after watching tpot17 when I got the time

Edit: I also wanted to add that the 2763 subscriber special is VERY different from all the other subscriber specials, formula wise and in general, so even if all the other subscriber specials may be not cannon, the 2763 subscriber special (and it's continuation when it comes out, or continuations) could still be cannon in itself since it's so differently made in general and seems more important. But again we're not sure if any of the subscriber specials are cannon or not, but I really wanted to mention that it's very possible the 2763 subscriber special is cannon while the other subscriber specials may not be. Could also be that the first subscriber special is the only non-cannon one honestly since Four and X are there and there's objects that shouldn't be that at that time.

[innerworld-ooc]

welcome to @innerworld-ooc !

to begin, this blog is not a safe space for endos or supporters. i am warning u now. we will not be nice to u.

if you have out of context innerworld stories to post, they can be submitted to our ask box (please read our submission rules)

a group of CDD systems blogging about innerworld shenanigans.

note: this may include the more frightening / upsetting parts of having a CDD. these will be tagged as follows (will be added to):

#tw-internal-violence : descriptions of OWIE that occurs internally / issues between specific parts

#the-horrors : generally more odd / unsettling iw stuff

# tw-medical trauma : yeah

will do our best to tag specific triggers!! our intent isn't to make innerworld stuff seem all silly goofy and fun, but also we want to find some entertainment in the disorders we live with.

other tags (will be added to):

#the-shadow-beast : the cryptid ass creature that haunts @the-io-collective specifically

#hell-adventures : one guy goes insane as he venture into the depths of hell (mod 🌙)

who are the mods?

🕯 - hi! we're the io collective. we're an osdd system. our collective pronouns are they/them and we're perpetually haunted by the shadow beast. from us, you'll mostly see:

♠️ ace (he/they) -- primary protector

🐇 zee (she/they) -- uplifter / ace-sitter

🚀 - did system, collective pronouns he/they, co-parent to one of io's parts. our alters want to remain anonymous

💫 - Mod 🌙 || we are a did system. Bodily 18, collective pronouns are he/hxm. Post from us will probably be one part losing his mind as he goes splunking in our innerworld hell.(we might sign off who knows 🤷‍♂️)

💿 - yet another did system, and resident meatwall haver. we're genderqueer as fuck, so for pronouns we accept anything masc/neu. expect meatwall horrors.

final note

no part of any system owes anyone signoffs. some of us chose to do it more than others

if u start shit on this blog u are not entitled to a kind and diplomatic response

overall don't be a shithead and we won't have an issue

[onismsys]

angel: *bursts into front randomly*

nyx: ..what are you drinking?

angel: boba tea

nyx: we've never had boba tea..?

angel: sounds like a you problem

[sophieinwonderland]

could stress perhaps limit innerworld control/access? I started getting more access to view my innerworld freely and interact and while sometimes I can it seems limited again and communication suffered as well. Im not even sure what I did to improve it in the first place tbh haha. I kinda wish I could send the memes alters made when innerworld shenanigans were easy to see on anon lol.

Absolutely. Running the inner world takes processing power just like anything else. If all of your brain power is focused on things that are stressing you out, then that's going to make it harder to access the inner world. This might also be why communication is giving you trouble too.

Finding inner peace and calming your mind can help you a lot with both of these things.

Sorry you're going through this right now. Hopefully, you'll be able to get things figured out and more under control soon.

[the-alice-killer]

Innerworld shenanigans with Dragon

He drew this. It was an adventure for sure.

Don't know why but he decided to pop into front in the most hipster outfit possible and then challenged some others to a dance battle in the back of the room

Also this happened while we were at work, to make it weirder

[void-zzzyztem]

i should make like a tag system huh

okay soooo #host posts - Asher's posts #{alter name} posts - self explanatory #persecutor posts - posts made by a persec #protector posts - posts made by a protector uhhh #{alter name/role/host} memes - memes #{alter name/role/host} vents - venting #{alter name/role/host} random - whtvr else we post #void intros - alter intros #void funnies - sys shenanigans like quotes or innerworld convos yeah okay sure that works (this was half-assed if you couldnt tell, jus tryin to distract ourselves lmao) -Ellen/🦈 OH DESCS I ALMOST FORGOT LMAO

▶ Role Call!~ ◀

× Name: Ellen Joe ⪧ Age: 17 ▷ Gender: Female ↪ Pronouns: She/Tail/Chomps/Candy/Sweetself ↳ Height: 161cm ⫸ Species: Shark 》Source: Zenless Zone Zero ▻ Sexuality: Lesbian ⫐ Relationship: Taken; Corin [Void System]

⫸ ☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆ ⫷

♤ Other: ♡ Role: Depression Holder, Social Aniexty Holder ♧ Favorite Song: Bubblegum Bitch - MARINA ◇ Triggers:

☆ ☆ ☆ ☆ ☆ ☆ ☆

↳ Boundaries:

Touch: Ask

Teasing: Ask

Flirting: Ask

Nickname: Ask

Source talk?: Depends

Front Request?: Ask

Okay with doubles?: No

≡ Interaction?: IWC

☆♪☆♪☆♪☆♪☆♪☆♪☆♪

◇ “Hm. How annoying.” ---------------------------------

▶ Role Call!~ ◀

× Name: Asaba Harumasa ⪧ Age: 24 ▷ Gender: Male ↪ Pronouns: He/Tests/Experiment/Wrongself ↳ Height: 173cm ⫸ Species: Human 》Source: Zenless Zone Zero ▻ Sexuality: Queer ⫐ Relationship: Single

⫸ ☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆ ⫷

♤ Other: ♡ Role: Trauma Holder ♧ Favorite Song: ◇ Triggers: My past, Ether Aptitude Regression Syndrome (E.A.R.S), My 'mAsTeR', Seth Lowell

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↳ Boundaries:

Touch: Ask

Teasing: Ask

Flirting: Ask

Nickname: Ask

Source talk?: No.

Front Request?: Depends

Okay with doubles?: Depends

≡ Interaction?: IWSC/IWSCare

☆♪☆♪☆♪☆♪☆♪☆♪☆♪

◇ “Need something? Go ask my colleagues.” ---------------------------------

▶ Role Call!~ ◀

× Name: Phenomenon 228 / Phen / The Boiled One ⪧ Age: ??? ▷ Gender: ??? ↪ Pronouns: Fear/Startles/Rot/Guilts/Eerie/Hospitalself ↳ Height: Interchangeable ⫸ Species: Entity 》Source: Doctor Nowhere

⫸ ☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆ ⫷

♤ Other: Looks scary, is very kind. Nonverbal ♡ Role: Trauma Holder, Comforter, Drowser ♧ Favorite Song: Misery Meat - Sodikken ◇ Triggers: being treated like a monster, hospitals, locked-in syndrome

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↳ Boundaries:

Touch: 🟨

Teasing: 🟨

Flirting: 🟥

Nickname: 🟨

Source talk?: 🟥

Front Request?: ✅️

Okay with doubles?: ✅️

≡ Interaction?: IWECare

☆♪☆♪☆♪☆♪☆♪☆♪☆♪

◇ “.gnihctaW .ereht eb ll'I dnA” ---------------------------------

▶ Role Call!~ ◀

× Name: Zhu Yuan ⪧ Age: 29 ▷ Gender: Female ↪ Pronouns: She/Secured/Protection/Powerself ↳ Height: 175cm ⫸ Species: Human 》Source: Zenless Zone Zero ▻ Sexuality: Lesbian ⫐ Relationship: Taken; Qingyi & Jane [Void System]

⫸ ☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆ ⫷

♤ Other: ♡ Role: Protector ♧ Favorite Song: Hit Me - Winchifrost ◇ Triggers:

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↳ Boundaries:

Touch: Ask me

Teasing: Sure

Flirting: Only Partners

Nickname: Sure

Source talk?: Yeah

Front Request?: Of course

Okay with doubles?: Sure

≡ Interaction?: OTI!

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◇ “Officer 148, Zhu Yuan, ready.” --------------------------------- In front when making the post: Corin, Ellen, Harumasa (Asleep rn), Jane, Koleda, Phen 228, Qingyi, Seth, Zhu Yuan

[afuckingsystemsthoughts]

the plural community is so toxic. its also very confusing. its stressful, its mentally draining. (note:this rant is not anti endo, even though it seems like it. i just dont like the black-and-white dogmatic structure of the plural community.)

i dont like how the plural community is so divided. and how theres so many stereotypes in it encouraged and/or created by the plural community itself. the anti endo side is all about negativity and gatekeeping. they dont like when systems love their alters, would miss their alters, are friends with some of their alters, do activities in the innerworld or real world with their alters, have shenanigans with their alters, have plenty of fictives or celeb or friend factives, dont have abuser factives, dont dissociate severely all the time, or anything seen as "cringe" especially according to systemscringe. then you have the pro endos and endos themselves who spread positivity, are for systems loving and being friends with their alters, and realize not every system has dissociation all the time and some DID systems dont even dissociate more than half of the time. but some pro endos have also said DID and osdd can develop without trauma if the person is just naturally dissociative enough and that DID and osdd develop from being naturally highly dissociative instead of trauma (when really DID and osdd develop from disorganized attachment/emotional trauma according to the theory of structural dissociation.) ive been downvoted and called out for saying DID and osdd can only develop from trauma. and i usually dont fakeclaim people but sometimes peoples alters are just cringe I wonder if they're faking and usually its bc of the anti endo standard but i saw a system have an alter that was supposed to cutesey up autism even more, a tbh creature alter with aw/tism pronouns. i got the ick. they are endos btw. i hate how anti endos make it seem like if youre a "real" DID system you dissociate all the time severely. when the average DID system has a DES score of 48 (ill send the link) meaning the average DID system only dissociates a little less than half of the time. sure some dissociate a little more or a lot more than that, but anti endos are openly exaggerating symptoms and making an exclusionist environment based on what makes them feel valid. pro endos, meanwhile, literally go for anything. do you think DID and osdd develop without trauma? most pro endos seem okay with that. do you think its okay to create tulpas/willogenic systems to cope with trauma and call it traumagenic when its endogenic? pro endos are okay with that. do you have an alter that uses pronouns offensive to people with trauma (ive seen someone use rape/rapeself as pronouns in the endo community and murder victims and their families ive seen kill used as pronouns or disabilities like the aw/tism or wtv thing i saw? theyre ok with that too. pro endos are too lenient, theyre too scared to call out misinformation or even fakers because it might make the endogenic community as a whole look bad, when im ngl it already does. because of the whole "anti endo vs pro endo" the plural community looks like a joke or some dumb trend. both sides are toxic. anti endos spread hate and make unrealistic standards, but pro endos support anything and think people have the right to identify however they feel no matter how disrespectful it is to other people (like the "i created my system consciously so it didnt develop from trauma but because i created it to deal with trauma im traumagenic!" thing) im definitely not anti endo, but i also dont like what most of the pro endos ive seen support or let happen. basically the whole online plural community is exhausting and confusing. and it makes me wish i never knew i was plural.