#innergypsy

[desiredspirit]

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[littledreamerlady]

New Years resolution

2019! It’s finally here, the last year before a new decade! And let’s face it every year we set out with new resolutions, promises to ourself of how we can live our best lives and be the best version of ourselves. It’s easy to set resolutions that gain be unrealistic, and even though we have all the right intentions we kick ourselves once we’ve broken the promise we made to ourselves.

We promise to lose weight, eat better or sad more money. And feel guilty when we miss a day at the gym, eat a burger or buy the dress. So we fall off the band wagon and promise ourselves better next time.

Life isnt new year new me! It’s what will make me happy right now. Making sure you are healthy mentally and physically is more important than beating yourself up over one bump in the road. Life’s path isn’t straight. There are twists and turns and bumps along the way. And if we spend to much time focusing on that we miss the view and the bigger picture.

I look back on 2018 as the year that flew past me. I feel like I didn’t quiet achieve enough. That the holidays I promised to take myself on but never did, or the money I planned to save but ended up spending, wasn’t enough. But it’s time to take a second and realise that I may not have done things I originally planned, but I did some incredible things in the bigger picture. And now I can enjoy the view.

2019 IS the last year of this decade, so we need to make it count! Try and keep the promises you make yourself, but if you don’t.. it’s not worth beating yourself up over. It’s ok to go out, do the things you’ve been trying to. Spend your money cause experiences don’t always come around twice! Wear your heart on your sleeve. You only get one chance to say how you feel. Don’t be afraid or rejection... in any circumstance, it really is just an opportunity to grow and move onto being a better version of yourself!

Wishing everyone a great 2019... just have fun x

Keep dreaming,

Queen Dreamer

[annedennish]

"The Gypsy"

“The Gypsy”

I  believe that we all have an inner gypsy, and I’m missing mine these days. You know what I’m talking about, that “roll down the windows in the car, hair blowing in the wind, radio blaring, bare feet,  that free kind of feeling.” It’s your inner gypsy and mine has been silent for too long.

My inner gypsy is the girl who dances barefoot in the grass under the fall moon, spinningin circle and…

[innergypsy]

"I can see the light flashing through a window in the pouring rain. It reaches through the night, casting silent images upon my brain..."

From the Inner Gypsy single "Hard Time in America"

[theiridescenthippie-blog]

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[texasultry]

New Post: Was saving it for tomorrow but I couldn't wait! My inner Bohemian is coming out because of SPRING! 🌷 🌻🌷 (Click in my bio for more) 📸: @michellinnie Texassultry.wordpress.com #bohochic #bohostyle #bohemian #innergypsy #inspirationoutfit

[innergypsy]

#innergypsy

Inner Gypsy playing Edgewater Marina, Aug 9

[beafreehippie]

Daydreaming of living

Can I just buy a old 70s vw bus and travel the country already!? My inner gypsy is dying to live already. ⛺🌅🌲🌻✌😊💜 *beafreehippie

[littledreamerlady]

Ever had that little voice inside that says, “Just pack up and go!” and “Just become a gypsy and live wildly!”? I do, and the compelling need to follow this voice becomes stronger every time she speaks. Then I open my eyes because my real-life responsibilities kick in and off I go again, going about my day as normal.

Being stuck in our twenties is hard. Were in a place where we want travel and explore, to find out who we are, and if we leave it too late we won’t get there until our thirties. People expected us to know what we wanted at 17, in high school. Our life was pre-planned. In our twenties we are supposed to do the hard yards. Study, work, maintain a social life, create our career, have entered the property market and be settled down all before we hit the big 30. Now people might say I’m just a gal freaking out about expectation verse reality, but c’mon the struggle is real at twenty!

My inner gypsy says “Go and travel! You’ll make your way around. You can study when you really know, you can buy a house at 45, sure you won’t pay it off before you’re eighty, but its fine. Do it now!” my little dreamer friend is mad! Mad and exciting. She has a solution to all my rationalisation.

“What about money?” I ask.

“Work around the world, in bars and hostels and fruit picking and cafes!” my dreamer friend dances around.

“what about studying for my future?” I ask.

“Don’t worry, you don’t really know yet. So why waste time with something you won’t use at 45 anyway. You have your whole life to study – it’s time to discover yourself first.” she replies.

“What about buying a house and setting myself up?” and again her sassy, wild at heart answer is,

“Look haven’t you ever heard of renting? Some people do it forever, it means you’re never tied down. You can do all that later, your parents didn’t do it until their thirties, I’m sure you can to!”

It’s hard to argue with my inner gypsy. I mean she is the woman I wish to be – free spirited, carefree, sassy, adventurous – she has a point. And yet, I’m still here, twenty something and still up in the air about where life is taking me. And we all have an inner gypsy, our little dreamer friend on the inside telling us to just go with it. Sometimes it’s hard to ignore her, and sometimes we must. As we navigate through our twenties, she will stick by us! That thought alone is what really keeps me excited, because what is life but one big adventure.

So here I am fumbling through our twenties, dreaming of the time it will all fall into place. Writing about all the in-betweens where it doesn’t. however it goes, my inner gypsy and I will keep walking hand in hand until we figure it out.

Keep Dreaming,

Queen Dreamer.

[innergypsy]

Inner Gypsy

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[littledreamerlady]

One year on..

I recently watched a video about “how to survive a breakup” with Russell brand. In a nutshell he explained that the thing about breakups was accepting that the reality you built for your future with that person was over.

This is something that hit close to home for me. It made me realise that’s why I didn’t completely survive the end of my 5 year relationship.

I went through the motions. Shutting the feelings out, letting them all in at once, drinking until I was numb, a suicide attempt and unhealthily relying on the people around me as a crutch instead of working on myself to be better.

And it’s taken almost a year, but I can finally say I can see a future for just me.

I had to redefine myself. I wasn’t paired with that person anymore, and I had my own identity, I’d just forgotten what that was. The relationship you have with yourself sets the tone for all others. That was something I had to relearn.

A lot has happened in the last year, I’ve seen myself change and evolve. I’ve seen myself through heartache and kept moving forward. And even on the hardest days I just kept telling myself... life keeps going. Moment by moment you make it through the day. That day turns into a week. That week to a month, and then you look back and say “hey a months gone by” you may not feel any better, but life’s kept going, and you can either get through each moment or make the most of them. Work on yourself, make plans for yourself, take time out for yourself or just remember who you are right down to your core, without anyone else or any distractions.

Now I know the direction I’m heading in, and I can stand on my own confidently knowing who I am.

[littledreamerlady]

At the beach life is different. Time doesn’t move hour to hour, but mood to moment. We live by the currents, plan by the tides and follow the sun ☀️ . . . #beach #sunshine #feelinggood #tides #current #moveslower #feelfree #saltair #nocares #followyourheart #littledreamerlady #innergypsy #travel #queendreamer https://www.instagram.com/p/BpbIp8anWbk/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1w3cij7we5j97

[littledreamerlady]

Entirely consumed

Sometimes things become too overwhelming to handle. Like you have to shut everything off and block everything out just to get through it. Often we feel so alone, like even our best friends don’t really understand how we’re feeling.

Sometimes my friends act like I’m too fragile to handle certain situations, even though I know I’m strong enough to handle it. And other times I can fool them into believing I am too strong and it doesn’t bother me.

Our feelings can be so consuming, to the point we give into the thought that whatever it is, is all it will ever be. Sadness, happiness, pain, desire overwhelmingly and all consuming. But when it stops it can feel like everything around you comes crumbling down. Like everything you’ve worked towards has fallen apart. I recently wrote this passage:

Even now

I’m still waiting for you to walk through my bedroom door, pick me up, hold me and make my heart better.

After all this time. After everything.

I keep thinking you’ll walk through the door or towards me from across the room, run your hand through your hair, and pull me in by my waist.

I’ll put my head against your chest, and everything will be ok.

Even after all this time...

It was all consuming. The hurt, the longing, the love. But I was expecting the right things from the right person. And that was something I had to let go of.

Sometimes we just have to realise that it’s over, and to stop expecting the right things from the wrong people. And even though it feels like the hardest thing possible. Like you want to take out your own heart and put it on a shelf... it goes on, and your heart keeps beating, and you keep breathing. And then you become consumed by something else.

[innergypsy]

Live in NJ at Lenora’s Bar 1/27/18

[littledreamerlady]

Returning to the nest

Hey Dreamers,

Moving back in with mum! It’s that dreaded that sentence that at some point makes us feel a little less. Less independent, less adult-ish, and just less likely to have our shit together! It’s like a big kick in our gypsy nads! “You have to go back to your mum, you couldn’t make it by yourself. Back to the nest!” she sings dancing around my head. And unfortunately, I can’t just flick her out – that bitch rents that space for free!

I’m not as lucky as my inner gypsy that lives rent free. I live in the real world, I’ve got real bills. So, I’ve dragged myself back to the nest – but hey it really isn’t so bad, here’s why!

1.       FREE RENT! WIN

Thanks mum and dad for not renting my room to another struggling uni student, cause let’s face it that was a possibility. In some cases, coming back to the nest means a free place to rest your head in return for household chores. In other cases, some board is required for your stay, due to an increase in the grocery, electricity and internet bill! Because realistically we eat cause were bored and watch funny videos forever… and they say we have no culture!

2.       MY OWN SPACE!

My siblings have flown the coop too. Now it’s just us three in a big house, almost my own bathroom! I can decorate my room again, and I don’t have to label my food anymore, cause guess what, mum just buys in for me!

3.       Ok so I’m in my twenties and my mum still needs to know where I’m going and when I’ll be home. But hey, at least I know in the morning, after I’ve forgotten to put water and Panadol beside my bed – mums got my back!

I know it’s a small sacrifice to save a few dollars but look – free electricity, free wifi, free food, free washing/cleaning, bigger bathroom, your own room again, and dads always there when you start having car troubles. There’s an in-house nurse (mum), when we’re sick. On call best friend, cause she’s not like a regular mum, she’s a cool mum. And all the other benefits that come with having your family close by, (like being the first to know that over achieving cousin just messed up in some way). It’s always good to pitch in and do a load of washing, mop or shop… we don’t want to take advantage of our new nest. But all in all, “moving back into mum’s” isn’t always a disaster.

Shared housing is great. The more people, the cheaper the bills. But that’s it, its shared – and that means EVERYTHING! The bathroom, the kitchen, the living and the dining are all shared. Unless you live with a great group of people, and even then, sometimes you just need your own space. A space that isn’t your half-decorated room, because you can’t hang anything without approval!

Dreamers if you’re looking to save a little extra, and your parents have will take you back, it really isn’t the end of the world going back to the nest. Were still chasing that dream and letting our inner gypsy dance!

Keep dreaming,

Queen Dreamer.