#incoherent we love to see it
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
i want to get mabelled so bad. when i was 13 i wrote a song on our piano about being a faerie changeling child (undiagnosed moment) and literally nothing has changed since then. yes trading one form of imprisonment for another isn’t glamorous and the reward is bittersweet at best but i’d rather have vines and ivy and rose thorns sprouting from my veins locked in a silver cage out of time out of body out of mind than trapped in this frigid callous place ruled by imagined numbers floating in the ether and strange laws that exist to justify themselves. there is nothing new under the sun or under the hill but i feel mostly moon and mirror. flesh and blood being is sheer horror and nothing but
#incoherent we love to see it#(<they have only listened to 17 episodes so far)#mabelpod#blah blah capitalism. this world is overwhelming and rotten not in the nourishing way#jamie.txt
16 notes
·
View notes
Text
these two are so interesting to me
characters belong to @canisalbus
#clenches fists. im so sosososo normal about them. i think about them a normal amount (lying)#actually the 2nd image is based on some sort of anime couple pose template(?????) that i saw a while back and wanted to draw them in it#but i swear to god i CANNOT FUCKING FIND IT. i was literally knee deep in yuri and yaoi fanart for hours trying to find that god damn photo#but i dont even know who the characters were and pinterest just shows me bakugou and deku making out sloppy style whenever i try#so i gave up an tried drawing it from memory and cried the whole time. i hate anatomy.. but they look so happy so its fine#god whenever i see Lore or sweet little tidbits for these two i want to tear into something with my teeth and throw something /pos#i genuinely want to study these gay little renaissance dogs under a microscope#what fucks me up is the fact that we all know it ends horribly but u cant help loving them anyway.. they are so. incoherent hand gestures#my art#myart#others ocs#vasco#machete#vaschete#furry art#fur#anthro
5K notes
·
View notes
Text
Mike loves taking care of people. He loved taking of el in season one, and he loved taking care of will in season two, he loves feeling needed. He desperately wants to be the knight(paladin) that will sees him as. Mike and el love each other but not the way that mike and will do. Mike was only able to say he loves el because will told him that “el” would always need him no matter what:
Mike even says that he knows el doesn’t need him and that’s why they’re having problems. It isn’t mikes monologue that gets her out of Vecna’s vines, it’s max. We even see it in the last scene of s4 where el is separated from the rest of the group. She’s become independent, doesn’t need just mike, as a romantic interest, she’s not a damsel in distress. What she does need is the support of her friends and family.
You know who does need mike though? Will! He makes it clear through the painting and his monologue in the van scene, and we see how happy this makes mike, to know he really is needed. That’s why byler works.
#this is so incoherent and there’s so many holes in what i’m saying#can you tell i’m trying so hard not to say anything bad abt milkvan#I don’t hate the ship it’s just clear what theyre trying to do with this#we see that wills always had his platonic relationships but what he really needs in the end is mike (his romantic interest)#and that el has always had mike(the romantic interest) and what she needs in the end is her platonic relationships#duffers love subverting tropes and the shy tortured gay kid not dying and ending up with his love interest will be the perfect example#again incoherent but whatevs#byler#byler endgame#byler proof#byler s5#byler evidence#byler nation#will byers#mike wheeler#stranger things#st5#st5 speculation#milkvan is bones#william byers#michael wheeler#stranger things 5#don’t come for me yall it’s 2 am and i don’t make sense 🙏🙏🙏🙏#mike x will#miwi#cleradin
121 notes
·
View notes
Text
📚 Fanfic Classics Series: The Lettered Special (Part One)
Some covers for @letteredlettered's beautiful fics, which have kept me company over the years. The Drarry fandom is extremely blessed to have so many talented writers and to me lettered's fics are foundational texts. I've had a number of these already saved and when I started making ebook covers for my Kindle I knew I had to make covers for these. Life-changing!!!!! I know I use the term "life-changing" often whenever I recommend fics, but it is what it is. Please, it is 3AM. Read (or re-read) these masterpieces and thank me later.
Away Childish Things Harry gets de-aged. Malfoy has to help him.
Friends at Last This can be considered the sex extra from Away Childish Things, if you like, but you don't have to have read that to enjoy this. It's porn.
He Who Must Not Be Normal Potter has fame and fortune and posh clothes and all he wants is a simple life. Draco has a flat and a cat and a steady job and all he wants is a complicated life. Which makes you think this story has something exciting like body-swapping, but it doesn’t. Instead it has Indian takeaway and a blue jumper and people wanting a whole lot of what they can’t have, discovering themselves as they discover each other.
Hope Springs Eternal (But Love Springs in the Forest, Unannounced) Draco falls into a love spring. Harry saves him! And now they’re bonded for life. Draco is horrified. Harry thinks it’s kind of neat.
By the Grace Harry is an Auror instructor. Malfoy wants to be an Auror.
art credits + comments under the cut :)
Artworks used, in order:
“L'Atre (The Hearth)” by Édouard Vuillard (1899)
"The Open Door" by Edouard Vuillard (1900-04) 💬 Away Childish Things is one of the first fic covers I made, ever. I've reread this fic often, mostly because Harry deserved a better childhood for real!! This is, like, THE kid fic ever. Seriously. I enjoy making covers for fic series because it means I get to do matching covers by the same artist (thank you sir Vuillard). I chose the first piece because it fit the visual mood of the first fic: kind of dreary, but still warm (Draco's lab, baby Harry and his terrible childhood). I also remember some adventures involving Floo powder here :) Honestly, I think Harry and Draco were lonely in their own way before the de-aging incident happened, and both Harry and Draco (in their older and younger counterparts) needed one another. It's so special to me that they were able to meet each other where the other person was without romance involved — they weren't even friends at the start but they still managed to meet each other halfway... For Friends At Last I wanted to choose a painting with a brighter mood because hello, resolution. They're friends at last (okay, title drop)! They have communicated and [insert ACT ending here because no spoilers]! They.... have sex! The same style of chair being featured in both paintings is a happy coincidence. Perhaps Sir Vuillard had an inkling that one day his artwork would be used to make ebook covers. IDK.
"Still Life" by Pablo Picasso (1918) 💬 I was thinking of Draco's apartment here. He Who Must Not Be Normal is a dynamic I can't get out of my head (and it was published in 2013!!!). Basically, all of lettered's works are so compelling. I could be wrong (I wasn't really an active participant in the fandom until this year haha), but I swear I can see lettered's influence on other fics in the fandom...
"Schizonema Dillwynii" by Anna Atkins (1853) 💬 This is actually a cyanotype of a plant LOL but it reminded me of a spring. Sometimes the process is that literal. Anyway, this fic... It kind of set the bar for magical bond fics for me??? I still can't describe why or how. But please read it if you haven't yet!!
"The Lone Tree" by Caspar David Friedrich (1822) 💬 Because of Timothy Tree... I couldn't find a good tree artwork that perfectly got the vibe (in the public domain, at least) but I like this one too.
#by the way if any of you actually read fics bc of me (i hope u are showing the authors love) CAN YALL LET ME KNOW im trying to see something#(also we can gush about the fics together)#it's 3AM forgive my incoherence. i will elaborate on why i love these fics another time!!!#fanfic covers#book covers#drarry fanfic#hpdm#fanfic book covers#drarry book covers#harry x draco#drarry fic recs#hpdm fics#lettered#public domain art#kiss my covers#kiss with a list
29 notes
·
View notes
Text
alright everybody can we please stop tagging me/talking about me in the notes of pro keefe/sokeefe posts. i know strieefe has made it so that it's really funny to talk about how much i love him and how much i'm in denial when i say negative things about him under those posts (and that's all in good fun and not the problem), but we have to think about the fact that the ops are just trying to make a positive post and probably don't want a keefe hater in their notes /srs
#i'm not mad or anything like that. promise. it's just a phenomenon i've noticed that has slowly started becoming a trend#it just becomes increasingly difficult to respond in a way that stays true to my opinions while ALSO trying not to offend op#so i usually end up ignoring those mentions or reblogging with like “no comment” or something. which isn't fun for anybody#i've had this happen more than once by more than one person. this is a pro keefe/sokeefe post why are we talking about me of all people#i don't want to offend op with my inevitable anti keefe opinions. talking about keefe haters on a pro keefe post is . . . a choice#i make an effort to try to stay out of pro keefe/sokeefe spaces. trust me when i say i have seen whatever post you're tagging me in#i'm a kotlc tag stalker to the core. i have SEEN these posts don't worry. i just don't interact with them. that's all#when i see them i am definitely tempted to go on a rant about how wrong op is about sophie and keefe's dynamic and how it actually SUCKS#or how much keefe is a shitty character with a poorly written arc and atrocious six-year-old humor. i have written about this AT LENGTH#but guys. the notes of a pro keefe post is NOT the place to be summoning me of all people. what do you even want me to say#i've been @ed on posts like “i love sokeefe” “keefe sencen. you agree. reblog” “people that don't understand sokeefe just don't get it”#<- all fake examples btw. but close enough to real posts i've been summoned to#and it's like. i mean yes i COULD go on a rant about how much i thoroughly disagree. but like. it's just not polite. so i won't#atp how am i even supposed to respond to your mention? i don't even know#on top of that if i reblog a pro keefe post with an anti keefe response for all my probably mostly anti keefe followers to see----#----then they'll agree with me. that version will get reblogged and soon there might be more people on op's post that disagree with them#okay this got way more incoherent than originally intended. hopefully it got the point across. and so on#just things to think about! nothing wrong with @ing me on keefe posts just think about how you want me to respond before @ing me----#----or if i will even be able to respond in any real capacity at all#kotlc#kotlc fandom#keepblr
22 notes
·
View notes
Text
ik it’s probably a classic case of extrapolating way too much but... the way raph’s character design lines up w his whole arc and role and struggles...
like the fact that he is so so so much bigger than the others. raph is big, raph is strong, raph is steady and sturdy and he can literally pick up his entire family and carry them all at once.
and like, when raph is so big and so strong and such a reliable thing. when raph is the protector, the one calling the shots on missions, the mother hen, the first point of authority. when raph is there, overprotective, when raph (for all that his brothers poke at him not being good under pressure) always always ALWAYS comes through at the end of the day when things are serious, ALWAYS gives it everything he’s got.
his design and his learned role/behaviors in this family are just the perfect storm of why it took up to the season finale to drive home the issue.
so much of the series carries the default energy of “raph will handle it.”
raph will hold up the ceiling above you. raph will throw himself over you and take a hit and get back up and keep fighting. raph has a power that makes him even bigger and draws more attention and makes him able to carry MORE. raph will be the substitute parent. raph will be put into the mentor role through leo’s leadership arc.
and raph is big. he’s built to carry heavy loads. raph is strong. raph is bold and loud and always ready to try to push on. even if he doesn’t know what to do or what he’s doing, he won’t give up and we’ll all pull together and things will turn out okay.
(his room is full of teddy bears. he dipped out on a mission to try to take a picture of a pigeon carrying a slice of pizza. he’s terrified of being alone.
he’s just as much of a kid as his brothers are. he’s just as new and inexperienced with the things happening to them as his brothers are. but for him, for some reason, there’s like this double standard where that becomes a huge glaring flaw.)
idk this got very sloppy and uncoordinated. i’m very in my feelings about raph right now though.
#rottmnt#rise of the tmnt#rottmnt raph#rise raph#rottmnt raphael#honestly i could go on forever and ever about the double standard thing where raph is concerned#like. w movie leo especially leo is learning lessons raph also had to learn in the series! making very similar mistakes!#but you never see analyses or essays pointing to those bad calls as signs that leo isn't up to the task...#(i mean there are some clear Reasons why that happens.)#(its the reason why raph and mikey are the bros who get the least content by a MILE. but. not the point of this post.)#the whole point is just the idle subconscious assumption and associations of it being fine to let raph carry everything#literally physically sure but also metaphorically#and the plight of the child who seems to Need Nothing (all children need; some sadly learn not to appear to need)#even my tags are incoherent rn clenches fists i love him so much is all#like there is a reason it takes to the series finale for him to have a proper breakdown and get actual support from his bros#and i am still mad we never got real good content for him and splinter#considering how similar their arcs ARE....#thats a whole other thing whatever
245 notes
·
View notes
Text
i think one of the things i'll always appreciate abt maomao is that even though she's the protag, it's not really that the world revolves around her or that things always happen to her, it's more that she gets involved in things (usually at the request of other ppl but whatever) that usually don't affect her immediately. idk but it's nice that she's kind of our dispassionate window into palace life instead of the person everything happens to
#hm... idk if i worded that right it's kinda incoherent#probably just my personal preference bc i slightly dislike when things start Happening to someone just by virtue of being the protag lol#i understand that that's the whole point of the plot but im like that would not happen irl /hj#i love maomao.... i love that the book flat out states her budding sense of justice and then we see her execute that by not being completel#transparent with the higher ups in order to protect a multitude of women in the ways she can access#knh logs#the apothecary diaries#unrelated but#i also wonder abt her and gaoshun... he's so pragmatic about his job and treating her as a pawn and useful card but she thinks hes very#considerate and would make a fantastic husband (then learns that he is a husband lol) but like. the relationship arrow descriptions would g#insane: 'gaoshun felt bad for the young woman [...] let people say the way those cards were gained sometimes required cruelty'#vs idk. some quote on maomao's end about him being perceptive and truly helpful etc etc aaaaahh....#well. at least he calls her xiaomao. pokes her cheeks . cute......
20 notes
·
View notes
Text
*pathetically rattles can* spare shockshipping content ??? spare shockship please sir ???
#saw#mark hoffman#daniel rigg#hoffrigg#shockshipping#PLEASE SIR I JUST THINK THEIR DYNAMIC IS FASCINATING#WE WERE ROBBED OF APPRENTICE RIGG#ROBBED I SAY#come on mark spent 70% of saw 4 pretending to be a damsel in distress there was something going on here man#i just want daniel to join the weird fucked up death cult is that too much to ask#robo rambles#this is possibly all incoherent but WHATEVER it is fine it’s good i’m good#i’m just thinking about daniel initially believing in mark’s philosophies on justice and punishment but#he gets to watch mark’s descent further and further into madness and it’d be SO INTERESTING AUUUUG#don’t get me wrong i also really love coffinshipping i just. would really like to see more shockship content#please sawblr make it happen
72 notes
·
View notes
Text
[Start ID. A drawing of @mieczmaszyna 's character Izzy. In the words of its creator, Izzy is a humanoid robot with a white chassis, oval head, black headset, square green glasses, claws, and a tail resembling a cable plug. Ai wears a cowboy hat, vest decorated by a star and bottle cap, pants with tassels, spurred boots, and a red bandanna. He's viewed from the side, kicking up one leg and holding both arms out in front of itself to shoot finger guns, looking excited and rather jaunty. The background is a dull yellow-green, muddied by the warm reddish tone of the drawing, and in paler green are the words "BANG BANG!!" by ais arms. End ID]
robot cowboy!!!
#peridots-art#bots#others' ocs#izzy#mieczmaszyna#gotta admit doing all the shading here was. very fun. insert medic hoo noise#i don't know if people usually read these but @ the intended recipient of this post! if you are!!#i remember first liking your art a year ago (actually only about a week off now lol) when it crossed my dash for the first (/only) time#and then found it again whilst enjoying the funky robot dudes (yesm/p03) and their respective games and I fell in Love with your style#i also was always enthused by the number of my fixations that you also liked! fnv! insc! ultkll! tf2 and hylics which i've never played!#and then there's hk which has been my most prominent special interest for close to two years so. safe to say that was. AWESOME to see#ALSO ALSO!! i think we may be like. mutuals-in-law*2??#by which i mean one of my two closest friends on this site (holly) is mutuals with a cool artist (sodapop)#who i learned by accident that you've sent asks to before. either way it's cool :]#reserving the caption 'robot cowboys my beloved' for the future cause there are too many! victor and p03 and my own guy atoya and now this?#it is a wonderful problem. anyway i'm also looking at P3RI and realizing how many traits they and izzy share by accident lol#think. that should be all the tags (see: incoherent rambling). really like your stuff and have been meaning to draw something for you for#a while just got nervous 👍
240 notes
·
View notes
Text
Misconception About Patton (SvS)
I think I've seen a lot of takeaways from this episode be that Patton pushed for what he wanted regardless of how the others felt. However, I believe this is ignoring first that he's a facet of c!Thomas and represents his core values and thus what Thomas ultimately believed was right as well, even if he wasn't happy about it.
Interesting quotes that I think get forgotten or removed from context about how SVS went down:
I find it interesting that people claim Patton manipulated the others, namely Roman. I dispute this because of the intent required for something to be manipulation vs misguiding someone and the word is thrown around carelessly. Janus, however, was the one to actually "manipulate" Roman to his advantage in the situation, and while you can justify it, I am simply pointing out that people do not get on his case as harshly for this thing they claim Patton did.
Patton is the product of c!Thomas's inner learned morality + his feelings, which makes the host as guilty as any of them for that representation of trying to break out of a learned mindset, which Patton is. He's changing as c!Thomas learns, and making mistakes such as not listening to the other parts of Thomas that may suggest he is not a perfect, "good" person by their original standards. Categorizing yourself as a "good" or "bad" person based on some scoring system is not something you want to do: people DO good and bad (and neutral) things, they aren't good or bad themselves.
Labeling yourself as "good" may just help you justify everything you do even when it's objectively bad because "well I'm a good person so this is good too". And labeling yourself (or others labeling you) as "bad" might just make you feel stuck and like you can never be anything more, and so you just become it with all your decisions. These are not the human experience. Nuance aside, everything is relative and you'll be picking apart every aspect of yourself trying to figure out "which you are".
Thomas is essentially trying to convince part of himself that it'd be okay to go against his morals for a beneficial reason. There was no right answer (going to the wedding or not) that would make everyone happy; Patton was doing what they asked and giving Thomas the moral answer based on c!Thomas's sincere priorities (like his friendships and being trustworthy).
(Pat's the emotional center AND the moral center of Thomas, which conflict more often than not, and are part of the reason this guy really struggled with separating the two while making his case-- he's unfortunately the holder of both.)
Where Patton was wrong was putting others first 100% of the time. Now, to be fair to Patton, he did agree that there are times when you should put yourself first, but they were circumstantial and in service to helping others more. This isn't healthy and is on the extreme end close to self harmful because you're prioritizing others even when you don't have the means to give, which can lead to burnout and neglect of yourself. The "opposite" end of this is only caring about your own means and using others as a means to an end. Both of these can lead to ruining your social and emotional connections to others.
And again, these are manifestations of the inner turmoil c!Thomas is having. These are his beliefs (read as "moral code") vs his wants battling it out and no matter what he settled on given the options, he'd have been unhappy. (note though: Roman did bring up simply asking Lee and Mary Lee about this directly and sometimes open communication is the best solution-- a lot of the time, actually)
At the end of the day in this part, Patton was defending c!Thomas ' character and relationships (which are important to them) while Janus wanted c!Thomas to not feel obligated to put his own goals behind the wants of others, especially with minimum benefit in both regards (Thomas's presence at the wedding was less impactful for them than the callback would have potentially been for Thomas, and it was a high Opportunity Cost).
Patton is essentially a representation of a religious upbringing sticking certain ideals in your core beliefs that even once you separate yourself from it, still for better or worse guide a lot about you. He's changing and evolving from that, and I do get why a character like this puts a bad taste in people's mouths and they associate him with that. That's entirely valid and I get it. This isn't about that-- I'm not over here arguing he did nothing wrong or that you can't hate him for whatever reason you want, that's not what I'm saying nor what I care about here-- I'm just clearing up what I've seen in canon versus how a majority neurodivergent fandom with certain life experiences might have warped the view of him in hindsight. This is not a malicious jerk trying to get his way and at the other extreme, he's not an innocent bean who wasn't ever in the wrong.
There ARE other examples of him pushing points associated with his roles and having to change throughout the series to this point. He just is the one looked at the hardest out of the sides (who all do this at some point in the series) because he's supposed to have all the answers when morality is one of the most difficult things you have to figure out in life. He didn't claim to have all the answers, but c!Thomas needs them from him to be the best person he can, and that will ultimately conflict and be more complicated than the black-and-white morality kids get taught and then have to alter as they grow up and see a complex world.
We all have to deal with that and it's uncomfortable to confront it. It manifesting in one character separate from yourself is easier than consolidating that that's a part of everyone, and one that isn't fun to examine all the time. I just really like how the show brings philosophies I studied into the next episode, but do think that a chunk of the audience did misunderstand / block out what Patton was actually saying/trying to do...I'm gonna rewatch the Redux episode and also keep an eye out for what people might be talking about when they specifically talk about his actions being problematic there, but I definitely believe the intent of this character (and how Thomas has presented him) does not get to the conclusion of him being willfully any more pushy or mistaken than the others at one point or another.
#patton sanders#ts patton#sanders sides analysis#it just pains me man#sanders sides#this is probably incoherent#i dont think i kept a linear train of thought but I am also in that neurodivergent crowd#i just really love all these characters and the genuine hatred I see for Patton just shocked me as far as in context for the show#outside the show IK ppl just don't like what he represents and that's chill#like and write about who/what you want#it's very cathartic#i'm just also gonna say something when people say it's supported by canon#and like-- i dont think we are watching the same series lolol#hopefully the finale clears some of it up#selfishness v selflessness
12 notes
·
View notes
Text
if netflix makes Luo Ji non-chinese I'm going to throw myself off a fucking cliff
#*incoherent screaming*#if i have to see another “but netflix has to make the characters appeal to the bigger audience” comment im going to fucking lose it#i have a bar of deviation for adaptations. examples:#lotr: its all fine and dandy i love it#the hobbit: getting a little close to dangerous territory but i'll take it#dune: perfection#foundation: no wtf#rop: DO NOT FUCKING SPEAK TO ME OF THIS SHOW#i will still watch 3bd when it comes out#but I will be fucking PISSED if what i'm seeing about the characters is real#“give them personalities” ok yeah sure im fine with that#“the plot affects the entire population of the earth” ok sure but why are 75% of the cast non asian now.#“we need diversity! plus you need the audience to appeal to the audience” im going to fucking bite you. fuck off.#no hate to the actors i'm sure they did a great job its not their fault anyway#but seriously if they made luo ji non-chinese im actually going to fucking lose it#3 body problem#three body problem#remembrance of earth's past#netflix#actually if they made zhang beihai non-chinese as well then i'm just going to- *internal screaming*
48 notes
·
View notes
Text
i really need to finish this one day
#one of my fave ideas but i keep getting stuck or starting over. third time's the charm hopefully#anyways. posting it as an excuse to rant because i'm losing my mind over this rn for no reason#incoherent but i just need to Talk or my brain won't shut up#you ever think about how fucked up it is that aoi feels guilty over what happened. i do. i think about her a lot#he can't even look at me. we aren't even blood related but he still had to go to jail because of me. i still love him#in reality none of it is her fault. it shouldn't be about doumeki in the first place. baby girl you were 15 when it happened.#you can say that yashiro is cruel in his dismissiveness (on the surface) of doumeki's trauma but you can see where he's coming from#you got a glimpse of what your sister was going through? of what i went through? and now you're sooo guilty over it? and who does it help?#doumeki's so focused on his own feelings that he ignored aoi when they were living together. “saves” her by pure chance#proceeds to focus on his guilt and ignore her again. if yashiro didn't get involved she'd be sitting in the rain for god knows how long#yet she still loves and to some degree idolizes him#yashiro and aoi both saying that doumeki isn't the type of person to be a yakuza too. doumeki's good doumeki's better than that#and then ch 24 happens. where yashiro says that he's going to throw up and doumeki's response is “i probably won't stop even if you do”#“guess i am like my father after all” and yashiro still goes “you're not. you're pure and im the problem”#(touches doumeki's face. rare gentle gesture. he's gentle afterwards too before leaving. man.)#he's not cruel enough to repeat what he said in the earlier conversation and he doesn't actually believe it anyway#but i wish yashiro was cruel there. it shouldn't have been about doumeki and his feelings. again.#something about yashiro throwing a knife at another person and it flying back at him huh#for all the talk about how doumeki supposedly romanticizes yashiro it really is the other way around. always has been#which is a whole other conversation but yeah. everything about aoi and yashiro in relation to doumeki makes me so fucking sad#but this is also what i mean when i say that aoi doesn't haunt the narrative per se but still has this weird presence?#she's in the parallels. she's in the brief but important mentions. she's in the “your sister was lucky she had you”.#wips tag
29 notes
·
View notes
Text
it's about the fact i've got all this love screaming inside of me and i can't do a thing about it
#i will love you if i never see you again and i will love you if i see you every tuesday#penni yeets her thoughts into the void#i hope she's blessed every day and i want only the best for her. also. hhhhhhh.#we might have been in the same place in the same time and years ago we would've constructed elaborate plans and shrieked with joy when we#saw each other#now i'm just confused and angry and upset#and maybe seeing her would've made it worse. and maybe i'd have gotten closure#idk. i gotta pray but idk where to start but incoherent noises#it's a tangle in my chest and i thought i had it figured out. but i don't#and we can't go back we can't be how we were. and i just have to move forward
13 notes
·
View notes
Text
just reread the tgcf extras. tldr hualian’s married life is just, chilling, hanging out, having great sex. they are so free and comfortable, they spend so much time laughing together. which is exactly what marriage should be tbh (silently wipes away tears)
#tgcf#hualian#don’t look at me#not like i’m getting emotional over how comfortable and happy they both are#i also love how mxtx affirms that like. hualian have great sex#because they’re open about their desires and preferences with each other. communication kings.#but at the same time it’s like. we don’t see any of their sex life beyond matter of fact details and innuendo. which as it should be#they have great sex because they communicate but also their sex life is none of our business#but on another note. hua cheng spends so much time laughing like really laughing out of humour and delight#xie lian gets to be straightforward and borderline rude to bc#like. they are just so free they are so secure#this is a complete incoherent ramble my meds are gone for the day i just. just them. they. augh#rambling
101 notes
·
View notes
Text
welp. fix it fic in my notes draft on my phone 😭😭😭
#the quest was. fine.#I am still very happy that they were included as much as they were but#as someone who fell in love with the book#and the complicated MESSY dynamics and multilayered people it portrayed#it rang hollow to me ;-;#there were a few (easily missed) nods to Isseya's choice (or lack thereof) and the impossibility of the situation#but the much more prominent messaging was that Isseya was evil and bad and that *she* had Blighted the griffons#it really came across like she was some sort of mad scientist experimenting on them#not that she wanted to SAVE shrike#not that she swore she would never do it again and then was FORCED TO#or how it literally destroyed her from the inside out both physically and psychologically ;-;#and nothing about her being garahel's brother WHICH#is actually backed up by Valya's fears in the book BUT I would have taken that better if there was more nuance about Isseya's motives#I would have loved to see them lean on Valya more to be the voice of Isseya the PERSON and her life and thoughts#in counter to Davrin's Isseya the MONSTER perspective#like I said it was fine. it wasn't technically *untrue* to the book. it just rang hollow to me ;-;#and I hope that doesn't become pervasive in the fandom bc I can't take that for her ;-; she deserved to rest#I'm not even mad at the idea that this happened to her! but I wish they'd done more about *her* and less about how she was evil#anyway. that's why we have fic#I will fix this for you isseya ;-; and valya#fr if they did anyone dirty it was valya ;-;#but really kind of shortchanged both of them#mer plays dav#pt: incoherent screaming#veilguard spoilers#da4 spoilers
5 notes
·
View notes
Text
The interaction with another GNC man that sticks with me the most was with this guy who sometimes shops at the grocery store where I work, and often comes in wearing a pencil skirt, tights, and high heels. I don't think I had my nails painted and we wear a uniform, so at work nobody can really tell I'm GNC. I was the self checkout attendant that night, and he called me over to ask for a bag. While I was there I got up the courage to compliment his shoes. His response was a very earnest "Thank you for saying something."
It's hard to describe the amount of shared pain behind those words. It was not thank you for the compliment. It was thank you for identifying yourself, publicly, as like me. Thank you for telling me there's a person here who supports me. I'm alone, you're alone, but right now we're alone together.
#really hit me#i always try to compliment other gnc men now when i see them#even if it's just 'i like your nail polish.' we're in this together y'know?#it's hard out there and men are trying. and i love that for us. we need to be there for each other#incoherent rambling
54 notes
·
View notes