#in the span of what 8? 9 months?

[mcytegg]

I want Derap to steal Ro from the sticklers as his back up plan teammate

LMFAO???? i can fw that, it could be interesting but if its bc he thinks zam will betray him or smt then ro is such a funny secondary option bc zam is one of ro's most favouritest people on the server. and like. even w zam and ro being good friends aside, isnt one of the biggest issues in zam and derap's relationship derap's insecurity over devotions? if he wants a teammate who Isnt obsessed w mapicc then going from zam to ro is like saying "i hate citrus fruits. im gonna eat this lime instead of this lemon!" 😭😭😭

[icewindandboringhorror]

misc photo diary stuff.. also this unintentionally all matches sort of lol.. warm toned photos?

[tojikai]

Sundered 4: GEARS

Pairing: Gojo x reader

Part 1  |  Part 2  | Part 3 | Part 4 | Part 5 | Part 6 | Part 7 | Part 8 | Part 9 | Alt. Ending

Genre: Angst

tags/cw: angst, mean!gojo(kinda), babydaddy!gojo, babymomma!reader, motherhood, insecurities, suggestive smut, arguments, name-calling, L-bombs(lol)

word count: 6.7k

Decisions take seconds to make but can take months and even years to realize and regret. 

“I still love you, Y/N. So, so much.” 

Satoru wept, sniffing as he ran his fingers through his sweat-soaked hair. His vision was cloudy but the memories in his head were crystal clear. The day he met you, the day you told him the news; it was unexpected, but it gave Satoru a warm feeling in his chest. How could he let himself forget that feeling so easily? 

You don’t get to get her back. A voice in his head once again whispered to him, allowing sobs to erupt from his lips. 

The day he separated from you, he told you you’ll make things work, no matter what it takes. A few weeks after that his mother introduced Naomi to him. It wasn’t her job but she helped him work on himself, gave him all that she has to offer, and held him when he felt like losing his mind.

You were almost out of reach, mostly just talking to him when it concerns your daughter. It almost felt like he was fighting alone. It made him feel like he was not changing anything. He barely sees your face; barely feels you. 

And then it happened, in such a short span of time. Naomi was the only one he sees, the only one he feels with him. 

“It could work, you know? But only if both sides are committed to making it work.” She said, “But like these gears,” She pointed at the constructible toy train of his daughter, “The gears will only work if they fit.” Satoru didn’t need to hear any more of her words to understand what she was trying to explain. 

He found himself smiling at her smiles and laughing at her laugh. He found himself saying: “We kinda fit, don’t you think?” nudging her playfully as they walked Yui to the park, earning a shy laugh from her.

He found himself spending more time with Naomi than spending time figuring things out with you. It all just happened in such a short span of time. 

It felt like setting himself free when he didn’t have to think about the problems with you. It was emancipating to just lie under the covers, snuggled up in bed with Naomi’s skin against his. It was a breath of fresh air to share the same breath as her every morning and night as they soak in each other’s embrace, feeling the warmth of their swollen lips on one another.

He wishes that he considered the day he’ll see you like that with someone else. 

To say that he was shocked when you came and saw him with Naomi was an understatement. He didn’t want it to be like that. He wanted to introduce her to you, to explain things to you, but for some reason, he couldn’t bring himself to do it. He didn’t want you to think that you meant nothing to him. But at that time, he thought that he meant nothing to you. 

He searched for the emotions in your eyes but failed. He waited for your questions of “Why?” and “How?” but they never came. It’s like you just really stopped giving two shits about whatever happens in your relationship. And Naomi’s words reverberated in his head: “The gears will only work if they match.” 

And that’s how his decisions were made. 

That you deserve someone who’ll treat you how you want to be treated; that he deserves this serenity with Naomi, too. He’s not some kind of hero to keep heading for war when there’s a humble abode waiting for him. He thought that there was nothing for you and him but different paths. Maybe this is how falling out of love happens, he thought.

And that is how he learned that decisions can sometimes take months and even years to realize and regret. 

“I love you too much to fight anymore, Y/N.” Satoru was pretty sure that he was inaudible and incomprehensible by now. The cracks in his voice and his occasional hiccups were probably louder than any sound near his phone. “You know, I never meant any of the shit I said to you that day. You and Yui were the best thing to ever happen to me, never will I regret you, love.” 

He couldn’t even pay attention to your voice as he harshly wiped his tears away, blinking his eyes to look up at the blurry, colorful lights “I know you’re happy, I know you don’t even want to see me again if you’re given a choice.” Satoru shook his head, undoing the first two buttons of his shirt so as to help with the ache that is now smoldering his chest.

“But I just want to take those words back.” He whispered, running out of breath before quickly gasping, “Hell, I just want to take everything I did after I gave up on us back.” Getting nothing was painful enough, and so is getting up. 

He doesn’t know where he’s going but he trusts that his feet will take them to where he belongs.

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“Yeah, she’s sleeping now. Sunburnt and all.” You laughed, tilting your head as you tried to hold your phone between your ear and your shoulder. “‘Gumi talk, Daddy. Pwease,” You heard Megumi’s voice over Toji’s chuckles. You and Yui spent all day at their residence once again. The kids had a mini swimming party with the neighbor’s son, Yuuji. 

You can’t deny that your little girl’s been a bit more energetic nowadays. She’s also learning things, like pouring beverages into a cup; something from the internet that Toji has been teaching Megumi to do. “What do you wanna say?” Toji answered before the little kid’s voice followed. “Yui later. Come later. Uh, bye.” The little message made you giggle.

“She’s asleep now, ‘gumi~ We’ll visit again soon.” You heard Toji playfully scold him to go to bed already before getting back to the call, “I’ll tuck him in now. I’ll see you tomorrow, babe.” Humming, you said your good nights before ending the call. You watched Yui sleep, caressing her soft, blushing cheeks. 

Everything’s been going good, and you could only hope that it’ll also be good for her.

Placing a gentle kiss on her forehead, three knocks at the door almost gave you a heart attack. It’s already late, who could it be? The place is a three-unit, up-and-down apartment, maybe someone got the wrong door. Wrapping yourself in a robe, you walked to the door. There was a muffled sound behind, and you can’t miss your name being mumbled.

You know the voice too well to wait any longer for confirmation.

“Satoru?” You spoke, brows knitting together. His hair and shirt were soaked in sweat. “Hey…” He laughed, standing straight as he stared at you with bloodshot eyes. Has he been crying? “What’s going on, Satoru?” You opened the door, letting him make his way inside as you gave him a concerned look.

“I mean it, Y/N.” What is he talking about? You wondered as he looked at you, sobbing all while trying to catch his breath. If somebody else saw him, they’d probably think something really awful happened. Not once have you seen him this broken before; not even when you fought so bad he had to leave the house.

“Satoru, I don’t understand you. You’re dru–“ You were cut off when he wrapped his arms around you, crying on your shoulders as he grabbed the sides of your robe, like a child not wanting to be left alone. “Y/N, please. I know what I’m saying, love.” He was gasping for air as he spoke, pulling away 

“I know I’m drunk but not drunk enough to make wrong decisions.” His laugh lacked enthusiasm. Pulling away, you could see the smile on his face contradicts the big tears cascading down his cheeks. “Did you drive here?” You pulled away from his grasp, thinking about the next thing to do. 

“No, I walked here. Let’s talk, please. Just a few–“ His face was close to yours, begging. His voice broke, and it broke you too and you know you can’t keep listening if he’s like this. “Satoru.” You turned, taking a step away from him. You could hear the shaky breath he took by how quiet it was. 

“Yui’s already asleep.” You informed him, a subtle reminder that you wouldn’t want her waking up to a commotion again. Satoru nodded, lips quivering. “I can call Naomi to pick you up–“ You trailed but it was now his turn to cut you off. “No. I don’t…want that.” He knows it doesn’t sound right, and it gave you the impression that they fought.

“Fine, just your mom, then.” You turned to get your phone but his hand caught your wrist, a secure yet gentle grip. “No. Please.” He sounded like a kid. What has he done that not even the both of them can know that he’s here? “Can I stay here? Just for the night. I’ll sleep on the couch, Y/N. W-we’ll talk later… right?” He was on the verge of crying and you can’t stand there to watch any longer. 

You don’t think it was a good idea, but this is the father of your child. Whatever happens to him will affect your daughter too. 

“Just…wash up. Change. Check on Yui, if you want. I got a folding bed if you want to sleep there.” You turned around before walking back to your room, not waiting for the man to answer. You were planning to have some tea before going to sleep but now you just want to call Toji.

In two rings, you heard his voice from the other line. “Sorry, were you sleeping already?” You paced around your room, pursing your lips. “No, I was just checking on some files. Are you alright?” Concern was prominent in his voice. You wanted to tell him about this because he has a habit of coming over in the mornings. You surely don’t want him getting the wrong idea.

“Listen, Satoru’s here. I feel like he fought with Naomi, I don’t really know. He’s in Yui’s room.” There was a long silence and you got a feeling he was thinking carefully about how to react. “Is he trying to…” Toji cleared his throat before sighing, “Do you need me to go there?” He asked, and you could tell he was not very comfortable with your situation.

It’s only been a couple of months but Toji’s proven nothing but sincerity to you and it was all unconditional. You’re aware of the tension between him and Satoru; the latter being more impolite than the former. But even so, Toji never tried to take away the father role from Satoru. This only heightened your respect for him.

“It’s fine, I just wanted to tell you. I don’t want you thinking anything if you saw him here tomorrow.” You plopped on the bed, massaging your temple as you closed your eyes. “So, you know I’ll be going there tomorrow?” There was a chuckle behind his words. You felt a blush creeping up your cheeks.

“Go to sleep.” You rubbed your eyes, with a small smile on your lips. Once again, good nights were exchanged between the two of you. You’re just glad that Toji isn’t as shallow as other men. You were worried that your decision to let your ex stay for a night would upset him. Putting your thoughts to rest, you lay down on the bed, feeling the soft mattress against your skin. 

Not even half an hour has passed and another set of knocks startled you. The fact that you have no idea what happened with Satoru made you worry. Could it be Naomi? Was your name involved in their fight? You doubt that she’d come here at this hour, though. You don’t see her as that type of woman at all. 

You don’t even know if they really fought. Thoughts raced through your head as you hurried to the door. You wondered if Satoru was woken up by the knocks. He’s drunk and he sleeps like a log when he's drunk. But it would be different if your daughter starts crying. You don’t really want to talk with him about whatever it is. 

It scares you when you think about how ‘the talk’ with him ended the last time. The day he shredded the last remaining hope you had of him, you and your daughter being a family.

Seeing headlights shining down your window pane, you wondered if Toji really drove here to accompany you. But he can’t be that fast, you thought as you opened the door.

Dressed in her expensive coat and a designer scarf, was Satoru’s mother, and you could already tell that she was not in her best mood. If Naomi and Satoru fought, you’re sure that your name’s mentioned.

Without thinking, you moved out of the doorway to let her in, “Good evening, Ma’am—” Slap. The next thing you know, you were already grabbing your cheeks. The skin was throbbing from the force of the contact and you were sure that this is about to leave marks later on. 

“Won’t you quit being a slut?” You thought that the stinging sensation on your face was already painful, but those words proved you wrong. You felt degraded, humiliated even when no one was around; you felt like your whole being was trampled on. You don’t even know what you did. Does she hate you that much?

She used to claim that you ruined her son’s life. That you were just trying to leech off him so you wouldn’t need to work or use your brain. Those words broke your heart, not for yourself but for your mother who tried so hard to give you all that she can. When Satoru confronted her about it, she cried to him, blabbering about why she was right.

It wasn’t easy to speak about those things, you don’t want to make it seem like you were tearing him away from his mother, all while you were tearing him apart due to your situation back then. But you made sure that he knows the reason why you don’t want her around your daughter so much. 

You wouldn’t be surprised if she’s the one who coaxed Yui to call Naomi Mama. After all, she’s also the same mother who shoved someone else into her son instead of helping to make sure that his granddaughter would grow up with a whole family. Do you disgust her that much? It shouldn’t be painful anymore at this point. She already won in kicking you out of her son’s life.

“I-I don’t know what’s going on, Ma’am. My daughter���s sleeping can we talk outside—?” Her scoff halted you. You found yourself wishing that you let Toji come over or for Satoru to wake up. “Now, you don’t want your daughter hearing about her mother’s mess?” She hissed at your face, laughing as you pushed yourself to walk out and close the door behind you.

“Satoru’s here Ma’am but I don’t—” Another slap landed on your face and this time it took everything in you not to throw the punch you were saving in your fist. “How fucking desperate can you be?” With her eyes blown wide in surprise, she pushed passed you, mouth foaming with her nasty words. 

“Satoru!” She called out, walking like she owns the place. “You really took advantage of his feelings for you. You’re always so ready to ruin his and Naomi’s relationship so he’d go back to you.” She turned, pointing a finger at you. Your eyes widened at her words. Satoru’s feelings for me? You were confused.

“Just so you know, my son’s never been healthier ever since he left you. He doesn’t need a toxic relationship with a woman he didn’t even choose to be with.” The words were sharp and the way to your daughter’s room felt like you were being shot with each step. You already know that. 

Why does she have to keep rubbing it to your face that you weren’t someone he voluntarily chose to love?

“Please don’t bring the child to this. I know you—” You felt like you never had the chance to speak a full sentence. “Of course, I won't. I won’t let her grow up with you. For what? So she could turn out to be like you, too? Satoru!” The words filled you with dread. You feared that they could easily take her away from you by any means they can. You got nothing to give. 

Before she could even open the door to your daughter’s room, Satoru already came out. The emotions on his face were indiscernible as she stared at his mother. “Don’t take Yui, please. I won’t talk to Satoru if you want, just don’t take my child away.” You cried, ready to get down on your knees but Satoru was immediately on your side.

“What is this? What is going on? Mom!” Satoru held your figure, shaking violently and your skin, cold. You tried to get out of Satoru’s grasp, wanting nothing but to get close to your child who’s already starting to cry. You hated yourself for putting her in situations like this.

“Let me get Yui, Satoru, please. You can’t take her away.” Satoru was now the one baffled. His head felt like someone was hitting his skull with a hammer from the inside. Now, he wakes up to his mom causing commotion in a house where his daughter is in.

“No one’s taking Yui away, Y/N.” One of his arms wrapped around your waist, and the other, shielding you from his Mom. Satoru used to believe that his mother only wanted the best for him. He didn’t realize that what his mom wants for him is not the best for his daughter. “Mom, what are you doing?!” He reiterated through clenched jaws as you slipped away to get to Yui.

“You ask me what am I doing? You! Satoru, what are you doing, letting this whore ruin you and Naomi?” Satoru’s eyes widened, "Mom!" he looked at you and his wailing daughter, holding her against your chest. Terror was clear in her tear-stained face as she peeked over your shoulders, while you try to keep her eyes away from the chaos, “Bad Meemaw, Bad!” She sobbed, pointing her finger.

Satoru was about to close the door when his mother tried to beat him to it. “Is this how you want to raise your daughter, Satoru? In this environment?!” She was fierce with her words and Satoru’s just slowly putting the pieces together as she spoke. “She’s messing with your head, Satoru. Look at her, getting it on with another rich guy to milk, trying to make you come back to her.”

“You're the one creating this environment. Why did you even come here?” He questioned, stepping in front of her to prevent her from getting to you. “Where else would you be? You just called me saying you still love this bitch—” You don’t understand how a person could hate you so much when you’ve done nothing but try to respect them. “Don’t speak of her like that, Mom! You’re not of any help.” There was a hint of exasperation in his voice.

Satoru’s mother was the second wife to his father. Your mother used to say that 'the woman's just bitter because she knows that she’ll never really have his father’s heart even if she’s the one with him.' The first wife of his father went away, not wanting her only child to be in such tough and disconcerting conditions and just letting Satoru’s father be with his Mom. 

Thinking about it now, you realized that your situation is kind of similar.

“Ma, no cry. Ma.” You heard your daughter reach for your face, making you ache even more. History really does repeat itself, you thought. “Mama’s fine.” You felt sorry for your child; for allowing her to witness something this chaotic. You wished that you’re a bit more well off, maybe her mother wouldn’t be so small and fragile against people like her grandmother. 

“I didn’t call Y/N...” Satoru whispered, turning to look at your back as you tried to protect your daughter from the scene. “Just because he’s wasted and he’s telling you that he loves you, doesn’t mean you get to slither up at him like a snake!” Words were thrown at you and only now have you realized the situation. 

Satoru tried to call your number to tell you that he loves you.

Your eyes snapped up at him, catching him looking already looking at you. He did plan to let you know about how he feels. But he didn’t want you to find out like this. He already messed up by letting himself break down and call the wrong person. Hell, he shouldn’t have even said it in a call.

It just hurts so bad. It’s like the words would pierce their way out of his heart and lungs if he didn’t get them out.

He can’t even expect anything, and he doesn’t even know how you’d take it. He could lose you completely after all this and that’s the last thing he wants. Now that you have Toji, he’s got no choice but to stand aside and watch. Like how he made you feel with Naomi. The thought made Satoru swallow as he took in your crying face; his chest throbbing with pain.

“Mom, can you please just leave?” He spoke in a low voice, breathing hard to stop himself from exploding. “You said too much already. Just go, this is my problem to fix.” His mother’s face tells Satoru she’s not letting up so easily and it took everything in him not to scream back at her. 

“Of course, I have so much to say. I am helping you because she has done so much to you–“ Before she could even her sentence, Satoru was already raising his voice at her, making you cover your daughter’s ear. “Mom, all you did was make things worse!” It was a bad sight, you’ve never seen him get angry at his mother. 

Knowing her situation with his Dad, Satoru always chose to be understanding to her. He once told you that he always wants his mother to feel loved and cared for because his father would never give her enough of that. “How could you? All because of–“ She trailed.

“You’re trespassing, Mom.” He said firmly, forcing himself to calm down. She knows what Satoru meant by that. You could file a case against her if she continues to cause trouble. “Listen, I don’t know what this woman fed you, but you better get your head straight.” She pointed a finger at Satoru’s face.

“I created this problem. Let me fix it by myself.” You could tell that fighting with his Mom is the last thing Satoru wants to do. There was a tired look on his face as he shook his head, “I wouldn’t want to create a space between us Mom. But I can’t let you involve yourself in every decision I make.” His mother can sense the light threat in Satoru’s words.

“Then, make the right decisions, Satoru. Stop ruining your life for someone with no future.” Before any of you could even talk, his mother was already stomping her way out of the room, slamming the door like it’s hers, causing Yui to start crying again. You sat there, thinking about everything you just heard.

“Shh, it’s okay, love. It’s alright.” Satoru took Yui from your arms, eyes full of worry. Rocking the weeping child in his arms, he hung his head low as you stared at him. You wiped the tears that were about to fall as you stood up, heading to the living room and letting him put Yui back to sleep.

You let yourself cry, you let yourself think. Just when you thought you were getting better, just when you started to accept everything that has happened. Yui’s cries slowly stopped after almost half an hour. You wanted to go there and put her to sleep by yourself but you don’t want her to see you cry anymore. It’s not good.

“What were you trying to do, Satoru?” were the first words that came out of your mouth. He stood there, motionless as he watched you turn away to wipe your eyes. “I…I love you. I didn’t mean it when I said I regret you or Yui. I love you.” His answer was a whisper but it was firm. Your eyebrows furrowed, tears once again threatening to fall. “Why?” You sobbed, “Why now?” 

Satoru doesn’t know what to answer. He doesn’t even know if there’s a right answer but all he knows is he can’t expect anything from you. “I…I still do. I don’t think I ever stopped, I—“ He was cut off by your sharp intake of breath as you clutched the fabric of your robe to your chest. He let himself see how much he destroyed you again, how he heartlessly tore you apart once more.

“Why are you trying to ruin me again? Why are you trying to take away what I just got?” Your shoulders shake as you lean your forehead on your clasped hands. He wanted to hold you but he feared that you'd run away. Like how you’re getting harder to reach right now, with every passing second.

“You have no idea how much I wanted you to say that before all this, Satoru. You have no idea how many nights I had to cry myself, putting myself back together while you were trying to make someone else whole!” You turned to him, cheeks and eyes swollen from crying. “You have no idea how many times I blamed myself for not being the better one for you…” You whimpered.

It felt as though your words were a blow to his body, determined to crush his diaphragm to gouge his heart out as payment for yours that he stomped on so many times. Your hands were visibly shaking as you wiped your eyes with the back of it before speaking again, “You can’t say you love me now just because you want to, Satoru.”

“I know I can’t change anything…” Everything that comes out of Satoru’s mouth makes him feel stupid. If he was you, he wouldn’t even listen to him. While you both had your shortcomings in your relationship, Satoru knows that you wouldn’t have pulled yourself away if he didn’t give you a reason to. 

“...but I can make it better, Y/N. I can prove it to you. Just let me—” He was getting desperate to put his feelings into words but you don’t want to hear it. He should’ve known. “Naomi is a good woman. She’s…a perfect fit for you.” You laughed bitterly, “Don’t hurt her. You know why I didn’t fight even when I wanted to get you back?” Each snivel that you make was a nail to his heart. 

“Because you looked happy together.” The pain in your voice was thick before you gasped for air. “And I didn’t want to be unfair to you and to Naomi.” There was a sad smile on your face, probably reminiscing the day you found out he moved on from you. “So…please. Let’s not be unfair to Toji, too.” You looked up at him, smiling through your tears. 

You looked tired; so, so tired of it all.  

“But I love you…” He breathed out as you stood up, ready to retire to bed. “...I just wanted you to know that.” He grabbed your hand, urgently kissing it as he sobbed. You watched his face contort with sadness, closing his eyes and letting his tear slide over the bridge of his nose as he tilted his head to your palm. 

You looked away, suppressing your cries; feeling it harder to breathe through the pain the more you feel his touch. You pulled your hands away slowly before quickly walking to your room. 

Before you locked the door, you could hear his wails of anguish and the sound of two hearts shattering once more.

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You woke up to the feeling of the bed dipping on your side. What time is it? When did you fall asleep? Yui. Remembering your daughter made your eyes snap open, trying to stand up immediately.

“Hey, hey. Calm down, it’s me, I’m here.” It was Toji, when did he come here? The brightness of the color of your curtains indicates the light of the sun shining down behind it. “I forgot that I fell asleep.” You sighed. In fact, you don’t even remember getting on your bed. The last thing you were doing was crying on the floor beside the bedside table. Did Satoru put you in your bed?

“Satoru left after feeding Yui her breakfast. She’s playing on my phone.” He got closer to kiss your forehead. “It’s too early for phones.” You yawned, covering your face with a blanket before sitting down. “Megumi’s with her, I’m taking their phones away after we eat.“ You nodded, pursing your lips as you remembered all the events from last night.

“Let me brush my teeth, I…got something to tell you.” You can see Toji licking his lips before humming, “Alright, we'll talk about it. I cooked something.” Letting him kiss your cheek as you stood on your knees and wrap your arms around his neck. His hands automatically snaked around your waist, murmuring “Let’s talk while eating.” 

You told Toji about what happened the other night. Not as detailed as you remember it but you made sure that he knows everything he needs to know. No matter how awkward it was to discuss for you. There was a blank look on his face throughout the story and you can’t help but feel concerned.

“So that’s why he told me to take good care of you before he left.” It was obvious that he was tense, “I should’ve come last night.” Sighing, you shook your head, “It’s alright, I handled it. Please, try not to worry. You’re my boyfriend now.” You moved to sit beside him, pecking his lips. 

You didn’t know how else to reassure him, you don’t like seeing the defeated look in his eyes. Throughout the day, he would randomly kiss you; burying his face in your neck. He’s more clingy than usual, and although it worries you, you find it really cute.

The following weeks proceeded the same, Satoru picking up Yui and Naomi tagging along wasn’t new but it happened for consecutive weeks now. You don’t know if Satoru told her, but she showed no signs of it. Though her gazes linger between you and Satoru at times, but there’s not a hint of hostility to it. 

You don’t really know how they are with each other in private, but there’s a noticeable change in Satoru’s behavior towards her. “Get your bag from Naomi.” Satoru once commanded your daughter when you came to get her from his house. “Naomi?” She repeated, and running only after he nodded at her, confirming how she should address her.

“Did you take a cab? Toji’s not with you.” He would speak to you in a voice he never did before, it almost shocked you. He lost weight, he looks exhausted. “Yeah, he’s at work.” You answered earning a hum from him. “If you’re comfortable, I can take you home. It’d save you money, you know?” It was now your turn to hum, locking eyes with him.

When did they start looking this gently at you?

“You ready to go?” Naomi cleared her throat, suddenly appearing with Yui behind Satoru. “Yeah, I’ll be driving them home then I'll head straight to work.” He gave her a small smile, picking Yui up before taking the bag that Naomi was giving to you. “Bye, I love you.” Naomi stood on her tippy toes, kissing the side of his lips. “I'll see you later…love you." He responded.

The change on Naomi’s face cannot go unnoticed as she glanced at you. You looked down, feeling bad that she was probably anxious. And the fact that she’s clueless about it all just made it heavier than it already is. 

Satoru opened the door of the passenger side for you. Now, he would usually let you sit on the back. You had to glance back at his house to know if Naomi saw it. You don’t want her to have problems with you when in fact, you're trying to help her.

“How are you and Naomi?” You found yourself asking Satoru as he sat beside you, his eyes watched you from the rearview mirror. “I’m trying. I really am. But I can’t force myself, Y/N.” He looked away, biting his lip. Your daughter was talking to her doll behind you and you’re just grateful that she’s still too young to understand this.

“Satoru, she’s been nothing but good to you. She did a lot of things for you.” You spoke gently. You’re surprised that you could now talk about this more calmly. Because it involves you. And you wouldn’t know what to do if Naomi finds out that her boyfriend’s still in love with you, begged you to take him back and never told her. You don’t owe her anything but you’re not that type of person.

“Would it be right to stay with someone for that sole reason?” He asked, and suddenly, you don’t know the answer. “It might only hurt them more if they find out that you stayed with them just because you feel obligated to and not because you truly love them.” He explained, smiling when he heard his baby daughter call his name randomly.

“It’s Dad. Not ‘Toru” You reached over to pinch her cheek, silently thanking her for breaking the ice. “Toji Dada too? Hm?” You can see Satoru tense up before a sad look flashed in his eyes. “I don’t know, love...Ask Mama?” You can tell he was hurt by how he got quiet. The little joy left in his eyes, now completely gone.  

“You know Toji corrects her for that.” You defended as you stopped at the red light. “It’s good, though. I…” Pausing, Satoru took a deep breath. “I think he’s gonna be that, anyway.” He laughed, tapping the wheel before turning to look at you. 

“You know I just want to prove to you that I love you, right? You don’t have to love me back, I know you’re happy with him.” 

—----------------------------------------------------

Naomi’s been observing her boyfriend for the past few months. She can’t really determine what exactly changed but she knows that it wasn’t the same. The day you picked up Yui with Toji for the first time, she noticed that Satoru prepared more than he usually does. 

At first, she thought it was just him getting more responsible. But when she saw that you came with your new boyfriend, she got a feeling that Satoru wanted to impress. She figured that it was because he wants his baby momma’s boyfriend to think highly of him and left it at that. 

He’s been having mood swings but he’s also been getting more projects to work at so, it’s understandable. She also noticed how almost every movement of his daughter was documented and sent to you when she's with them. It was new because he rarely does it before. But she thought that it was only because your co-parenting plan was going better.

Everything that she notices about Satoru has valid reasons so, why is she feeling unsettled whenever the two of you would meet? It’s an unreasonable feeling because you’re already dating someone. There shouldn’t even be a single concern in her body.

Just a few weeks ago, his mother called her in the middle of the night, asking if Satoru was with him. When she said that she’ll call him to ask where he is, her mother quickly interrupted her, saying that he already replied that he was working overtime for a VIP client. She also said something about not interrupting him because the client’s a big person.

She still texted Satoru that night asking why he didn’t tell her about it. Satoru replied hours later, saying that it was an emergency project that needs to be discussed as soon as possible. After that, he sent another message with ‘I’m sorry.’ 

She came over the following night, intending to give him a soothing break. She prepared thoroughly during the day, wanting to please her boyfriend. Fatigue was obvious in his eyes when she arrived. Like he didn’t get an ounce of sleep.

“I’ll take that tiredness away, just relax in there.” She giggled, sensuously running down her fingers on his skin as she makes sure every physical contact they made was as soft as possible. She went down on him, watching him close his eyes as he grabbed her hair eliciting moans from her.

“Let’s do it without one,” She smiled, excited as she positioned herself on top of him, allowing him to feel her warmth as she pressed her chest against his. It was slow, passionate. He was so gentle with his touches and Naomi wanted to convince him to do it inside her so badly.

She was sure that all those perturbing thoughts of her would also be put to rest if that happens, she thought as she smiles, grinding onto him. But before she could get to that, he halted her, “Wait,” he spoke, reaching for the packet in his bedside cabinet. 

Before she could even speak she was flipped over and it’s now Satoru on top. “I can take Plan B, just do it inside.” She bit her nail, giving him the eyes which only earned a smile, “Can never be too safe.” Not long after that, they both finished. Back then, he would agree to do it inside as long as she takes an emergency contraceptive after.

How come he wanted to be ‘too safe’ this time?

Her worries were put to rest for a little when he held her close when they came to get Yui. It also helped that you're still with your boyfriend. It only lasted for a bit until you had to pick Yui up on your own. Satoru found out that you were taking Yui out for an ice cream and the little girl asked him to come. 

Naomi wanted to join; she was ready to dress up. But Satoru suggested that it should just be the middle day in your schedule, where the three of you would spend time together. It took everything in her not to frown in front of you. She felt rejected, she felt left out. The last straw was the talk she had with Satoru three days ago. 

“What do you think about civil weddings?” She spoke to him, sitting on his lap as he watches T.V. “Huh?” He turned his attention to her, “Civil weddings. Maybe we could have it before the grand wedding, don’t you think?” She wiggles her brows at him, laughing as she daydreamed. Placing his hands on her waist, she kissed his lips softly.

“Or maybe we could put a bun in the oven first so, she’d be with us in wedding photos.” She whispered, half-joking. “Why are you dreaming? It’s still early.” Satoru laughed, taking his hand off of her to get the remote, switching between channels.

“I’m serious, though.” She pouted, hugging his neck. “Yeah, I know. But…It’s not in my plans, yet.” Her heart dropped at his words. She knows that he doesn’t mean it that way but it hurt her that after all the family talk and jokes he made with her, she’ll find out that it’s not even in his plans yet. Naomi wanted to cry, but instead, she got upset. She didn't let him know but she chose not to stay over at Satoru’s that night, claiming that she has paperwork. Before, he would persuade her to stay even if she has to do something.

How come he just kissed her goodbye this time?

It was tough on Naomi. Whenever she would ask Satoru about it, he said that he just got really busy with work. Even when he tells her that he loves her, she can say that he’s not even fully into it. And he doesn’t want to talk to you because she doesn’t want you to think that she’s accusing you when you got a whole new boyfriend.

Picking up her phone, Naomi decided that she just can't take the mystery anymore. “Hey, Mom. Are you free for lunch? I’d like to catch up.”

She just needs some advice. And she thinks that no one knows sons better than their mothers.

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[raven-at-the-writing-desk]

Hello Miss Raven!!

I wanted to ask (but please feel free to dismiss this ask ajdgjags) about some info I have been seeing now that Book 7 is almost finished (maybe there's still a last chapter to tie everything together before Book 8?) about people saying that some characters have 'officially' aged one year.

I cannot play on the JP server and I have yet to reach Book 7, so I am not sure where that information comes from. But by that info, wouldn't that make (for example) the Leech brothers around 18 at the time of the Octavinelle Book or even fully 18 at the beginning of the Scarabia Book? Or even Ace, wouldn't he be already 17 by the beginning of the game, since Riddle is only one month older than him?

Wwwwww this game is messing with my perception of time. What I wonder is if that's referenced in any part of the main story.

I understand it's a very difficult question, so there's no need to answer this if you don't know, but I thought I would still ask since you are so insightful about this game <3 please take care of yourself and thank you if you end up answering this!!

Thank you for your question! It's a busy time right now since everyone's buzzing about the main story update, so I ask that you be patient with me as I comb through the pile of related asks 💦💦 I think there's probably one more book of this main story arc to go! We still have to tackle questions like Crowley's motives, Grim's OB, Yuu going home, the mystery of Mickey, and that May spelldrive/magift tournament against RSA. Book 7 even ended on this "To be Continued", so there's definitely more content to go.

Silver first mentions that his birthday is still "a little while away" in Cater's dream. In the final book 7 update, we skip forward to his actual birthday (May 15th). Malleus arranges a party on this very day, sending out invites which denote that date:

Then, at the actual party, Malleus asks, "Today is your 18th birthday, correct?" which Silver confirms.

Silver's character profile (released at the game's launch) states he is 17 years old. It is the same in both EN and JP.

Based on that, we can assume that all first years are 16, all second years are 17, and all (most) third years are 18 at the start of the school year in September. (UPDATE: Yana confirms in a recent tweet that the ages on everyone's profiles are the ages they are at when Yuu was summoned at the start of the school year.) However, because the main story spans all the way to May 15, several students and even staff would be one year older than what is currently stated in their profiles:

Jamil would be 18 (Sept 12)

Ace would be 17 (Sept 23)

Jack would be 17 (Oct 11)

Trey would be 19 (Oct 25)

Jade and Floyd would be 18 (Nov 5)

Trein would be 59 (Nov 19)

Rook would be 19 (Dec 2)

Idia would be 19 (Dec 18)

Lilia would be one year older than however old he currently is (no exact age on him, but assume 700 + 1) (Jan 1)

Malleus would be 178 (Jan 18; it’s said in Lilia’s dream (March) that he’s turned 178 this year)

Rollo would be 19 (Feb 2)

Cater would be 19 (Feb 4)

Azul would be 18 (Feb 24)

Sam would be 26 (Mar 4)

Sebek would be 17 (Mar 17)

Vil would be 19 (Apr 9)

Ruggie would be 18 (Apr 18)

Crewel would be 33 (Apr 20)

Epel would be 17 (May 6)

And, of course, Silver is now 18 (May 15)

The characters who haven't aged up yet are:

Fellow, still 26 (May 17)

Deuce, still 16 (Jun 3)

Kalim, still 17 (Jun 25)

Leona, still 20 (Jul 27)

Vargas, still 30 (Aug 4)

Ortho, still 16 (Aug 14)

Riddle, still 17 (Aug 24)

Hope that helps!

[sebadztian]

So I don't see many people talk about this when talking about Sebastian's character development, or even when talking about Sebaciel.

But Sebastian went from throwing his master into a den of venomous snakes for 'the thrill of the game'

To freaking out because of a needle prick.

In the span of 8-9 months.

The Circus arc happened in February 1889 and the Music Sphere Hall events happened around Halloween.

Soooo... What the hell happened to that insolent bastard of a demon?

Well, the first change is Agni. Agni's words of putting their masters' health, happiness, and well-being really got to Sebastian and he has followed his advice. For butler aesthetics, of course. After all, he's one hell of a butler. And while he appeared to have disregarded Soma's words about being kinder to Ciel, he did show more sympathy/concern after that.

What started as a butler aesthetics became a habit and soon enough, it became ingrained in him. He started carrying around a physician book, he showed some concerns over Ciel's health in Campania and the Easter special.

Don't tell me that he wasn't fooled by Ciel's act, because he was. He looked just as surprised as Soma & Agni.

And then... GWA happened.

I won't rehash it all over again about what I think of what happened in GWA, how important it is for the development of Sebaciel's relationship. But it's here that Sebastian realized that he could've lost Ciel and there was absolutely nothing that he could do about it.

The game has changed.

It's no longer about the thrill of the game anymore. Now it's about taking care of his charge, about putting his health and well-being first. He's no longer interested in being a 'beast'. What he wants now is to be Ciel's boyfriend butler.

[galaxythreads]

hey psa for newer fanfic lovers!! :) got this comment on a fic today:

i updated this fic in november, around 8-9 months ago. which probably feels like an enormous amount of time, but isn't unreasonable for a fic. sometimes they don't get updated for years, but they do still get updated. i know of a fic that wasn't updated for over fifteen years, and then the author came and took the like 50k they'd written, edited it, and wrote a 300k+ fic in the span of like six months.

This fic is not abandoned and it feels a little bit frustrating to me that rather than wait, this person - who I love that they love the idea so much they want to continue it themselves, to be clear. that's really nice to know, but - this person wanted to just take over the fic for me. I do have a life outside of fics. and outside of that, I'm very mentally ill. I completely understand the instinct to want more of the story, but part of the culture of fics is that sometimes you've just gotta wait. it sucks. It's not enjoyable. But that's just the nature of how fics work. And to make this clear:

95% of authors will let you know if the fic is discontinued.

until that point, encouragement, support, and reassurance that you're still there waiting for the next update is always welcomed. A detailed analysis of why you love the fic will probably get you an update within 3 months, or at least the reassurance of knowing that the author knows how much the fic means to you.

Please don't offer to take over the fic unless the story has been explicitly stated to be discontinued, no matter how much you love it. I understand the instinct, i promise, but all this did was make me extraordinarily anxious. I've responded to the comment and made it clear that they don't have my permission to continue the fic, but part of me is like. do i have to give an update this week to prove that it's not abandoned and they don't disregard what I said and take over the story for me? Do i have the energy and mental space TO write an update that quickly? Am I going to be able to finish this fic or will be stolen out of my hands because I didn't write fast enough? Do I have the right to say that I want to work on it if I'm not updating quickly? What if they still ignore me saying no and then they start working on their own version before getting pissed with me for continuing?

It's made it a lot more convoluted for me than it needed to be. So just. Just wait. Please. Thanks.

-very tired fic author

[a-man-in-the-crowd]

it's just occured to me the entirety of nevermore has happened within the span of like a week. it's been a week and the charas have experienced an entire season's worth of shenanigans this is CRAZY 😭

episodes 1 - 8: day one

episode 9 - 29: day two

episode 30 - 44: day three (this time period is ALSO when monty plots to kill lenore, meaning it took like a day of knowing her to decide this ☠️ also the same time they put duke in a wall)

episode 45 - 78: day four

episode 78 - 110: day five (i think??? bc everything in the cellar + staircase + garden happened in one morning, and then everything with the stag is happening in the middle of the night)

also presumably the rest of the stag arc also happens in day five

so in conclusion the entirety of nevermore season one + the first arc of season two takes place over the course of five days, and lowkey i'm laughing bc we're already analyzing them when we haven't even seen a month of these guys' lives (not to say we shouldn't, what's the fun in that??).

[crustaceousfaggot]

*Active here means that you're actively creating or engaging with fanworks/fan communities at least once every couple months, and/or that you're engaging with new material as it is released.

So I wouldn't consider myself as having been an active fan of Doctor Who for over a decade, even though I've been watching it since I was a child, since there have been large spans of time where I didn't watch the show or think about it at all

[thebluester2020]

[SDV] "Camgirl"

Summary: Contrary to what people like to believe about you. You're actually a very busy shut-in! Being an office worker is no simple thing, especially when you have to get ready for your second job later in the day. Watching your favorite camgirl, Haley.

Warning(s): [Set in a AU where reader is an office worker instead of a farmer] , The reader is a loser in this ngl, Dildo Reviews, Haley being a size queen, A hint of Shane x Haley in this (Mostly her getting fucked in front of a camera by him), Rough Sex/

Side Note(s): I had a Skyrim modding video playing while I wrote this man. Idc what anyone says from this point on, my attention span is unmatched.

Also, some things may be inaccurate when it comes to how camming works. I don't feel like ruining my search history so I had to use my imagination here and there. 😔 (Also this is low-key a way for me to get my crack ships out of my mind <3)

♡ - It wasn't easy being a bit of a shut-in.

In the small circle of friends and family that you had, you constantly had people in your ear criticizing you and saying that all you did all day was rot in your room and sleep the day away! You had people trying to convince you to get outside more, meet new people and pick up new hobbies even! Of course, this all went in one ear and out through the other, you were actually a very busy person during the day and it was all to prepare for what you did at night!

From the start of 9:00am to 5:00pm, you were an office worker.

During those hours, you'd become a zombie as you'd sit in front of your computer and finish documents, sit through boring meetings, and drink gallons worth of coffee to stave away the temptation to sleep. Once your working hours were finished, you then had to catch a train that would take you to the city closest to where your small apartment complex was located and even then? You still had to walk at least twenty minutes to get home!

By this time, it was nearing 8:00pm, and you were cutting time extremely. You barely had enough time to get some food in you, take a shower, and try to watch a little bit of your show before, finally, 9:00pm struck and then you were racing to your computer to sit down and get comfortable before you tuned in to your second "job".

Watching your favorite camgirl, Haley.

You had first heard about her when you overheard some of your male and female workers talking near the water station a few months back.

They went on and on about how absolutely angelic this one camgirl was, that her body was something to die for and that her attitude was an addictive mixture between bitchy with noticeable undertones of sweet and maybe a hint bit bashful.

At first, you rolled your eyes at their words and you were going to ignore them! But...one night after another uneventful orgasm, you decided to look her up and from that day onward...you were hooked.

The first stream you caught, you joined in the middle of it when Haley was impaling herself on a girthy tentacle dildo. Her slick from multiple previous orgasms coating the toy as it noticeably bulged her stomach, each tantalizing movement of her hips and how the toy disappeared and reappeared from her dripping cunt only served to make you your sex ache and your breath quicken. Of course though, what really got you off was her moans and how her baby-blue eyes looked at the camera with confidence, one that screamed that she knew she was doing a good job at entertaining her audience.

Since then, you've been a loyal fan of hers.

Each time you would send her a generous donation, she'd be so kind to notice your contribution and flash such a pretty cavity-inducing smile! If she was doing a toy review or performing a solo act on herself, the way she'd moan your name...how could you not resist touching yourself. Your hand would move in tune to how she'd fuck herself, on her fingers or a dildo, it didn't matter. You were too concentrated on how she looked while starting into the camera. As if she were looking directly at you—

"Thank you [insert username] for your generous donation~" Your eyes fluttered closed to the sound of your username leaving her lips. Although you would never dare, far too nervous to even think of doing much less requesting such a thing.

You wanted to hear Haley say your name just once.

Whispering it in your ear, praising or belittling you as you touched your sex to her, it didn't matter. You just longed for a second or even a greedy minute, of her being with you!

But for now, your imagination of Haley being bent over your desk as you ate her out on your knees would have to do. The image in your head of her hand reaching behind her to grab at your hair and force you to tongue-fuck her pussy deeper enough to make your sex twitch and leak even more of your juices as Haley's moans playing in the background only made your imagination feel even more real.

"F-Fuck—Y/N!" Haley whined. "Such a nasty tongue~" She laughed breathlessly. "Next time, we'll have to try face-sitting. I bet your mouth would feel even better on my pussy that way." You groaned at her words, the reverberation making the blue-eyed blonde unconsciously buck against your face.

As your tongue plunged in and out of her cunt, the combination of the taste of her juices as well as them dripping from your chin further encouraging you to work even harder to reach your orgasm, all so that you could topple over alongside Haley. Just as that knot in the pit of your stomach tightened to the point of nearly being unbearable...

You were shocked out of your daydreams by the foggy ing goodbye to the chat. "Thank you all for coming to the chat!" She said as she waved her hand in front of the camera.

You couldn't help but pout, if only you hadn't joined in so late...you would've been able to finish with her. No matter, you'd just have to finish yourself off later on after she was done with saying good bye to the chat. "Maybe I'll send a thank you tip..." You mumbled to yourself, your body already moving to grab your wallet before you paused at Haley stating jokingly that she wanted to the chat to "quiet down".

"Everyone...I have a special announcement to make~!" She squealed. "I know you've all been yearning to see me get fucked stupid by something a little more...real than a boring ol' toy. So, coming next week. I'll have a special guest with me!" Your eyes nearly bulged out of your sockets.

Haley was doing a collaboration stream!?

Since you've found her, she's always made it clear here and there during the talking streams that she wasn't a fan of doing collabs. Something about her living in a small town and not wanting word to get out that she was fucking herself on camera for money. Since then, the chat had been graceful to not bring it up again aside from a few rude people here and there. But this? This was an interesting change of pace.

"See you all next week everyone! I hope you're as excited as I am to greet our guest properly." And then, the stream shut off, leaving your reflection staring back at you through the dark screen. You let out a heavy sigh as your hands moved away from your still throbbing sex, you hadn't even gotten to cum! And preferably, you didn't want to now, in a perverted way...you wanted to wait.

At least until next week rolled around so you could see who Haley would be fucked by.

And when that next week rolled around...almost faster than you could process it...

Aroused?

Shocked?

Dumbstruck?

You didn't know what word fit your mood the second you tuned into the stream! Once again you were a little bit late and the second the video finished loading...you were introduced to the sight of Haley dressed in a cow outfit as she sucked a man off. A real rough and grumpy-looking man, bearded and with a slight belly to him. His entire energy radiated "constantly pissed off at the world", even through the screen. However, the sexy smirk on his lips as he gently patted Haley's head, whispering words to her that the camera just barely managed to pick up...it was hot.

Who was he, you wondered as you felt that familiar throbbing between your thighs once more.

"Since our lil' camgirl's mouth is stuffed right now—" Your brow rose at how deep the stranger's voice was, almost as if he were a bear fresh out of hibernation. "—what do y'all think I oughta do to 'er?" He continued before moving the camera down to angle at Haley who greeted the stream with tears eyes and a moan of delight. Your sex twitched at the sight, your hand already unconsciously moving to touch yourself to the arousing sight as the chat fired away. All until one comment in particular, one that caught the man's eyes before he chuckled. "Fuck her till she passes out?" He read aloud until he forced Haley's mouth off of his dick, a single stream of spit mixed with pre-cum, still connecting her to him as he scoffed. "Nasty ass chat you've got here blondie, guess all that bitchin' you do in public is just front, huh?"

"Oh shut up," She coughed out, her cheeks tinting pink in embarrassment. "As if you hadn't done worse—"

"Fuck the local town's pretty bitch on camera? That's new, even for me." Without another word, the stubble-faced man helped Haley onto her feet before he shoved her onto the bed. A gasp escaped her lips before the stranger roughly turned her onto her stomach. A low whistle left the stranger's lips before he glanced back at the camera. "I'm jealous, your viewers get to see this pretty pussy all the time Haley? How come you've never mentioned your show to the locals around town?"

A squeak left Haley's lips as the man fingered her, a moan of your own follower suit as your eyes couldn't decide on who to focus on the most! The handsome man currently prepping Haley for his dick by fingering her cunt, lewd squelching noises reaching the camera even from their position on the bed or the camgirl you've been lusting after for months on end! The man brought a sense of...danger, almost a taboo nature to the situation as each sentence from his lips was oozed in such a way that made your entire body shudder. The sight of his large hands rubbing all over Haley's ass and along her backside made your toes curl and in combination with Haley's soft moans and pleas for the man to go ahead and fuck her stupid.

Could you be blamed for imagining yourself in that position as you began to touch yourself to the sight on your screen?

"S-Shit blondie—" The stubbled stranger groaned as he pressed his hips against Haley's ass. "You've been hiding a tight cunt like this?" He sneered as his hand found its way to the blonde's hair, pressing her face down into the bed as the sounds of his hips meeting Haley's ass echoed throughout the room.

"F-Fuck you!" She managed to moan out despite the drool that dribbled from the corner of her lips. "You should be thanking me that I'm letting you even fuck me right now—" She interrupted herself with a cocky giggle, the stranger's hand easing up on her hair just enough for Haley to look up at the chat with teary blue eyes that radiated the deliciously addictive arrogance that made her so popular to begin with.

"D-Did you—Ah!—H-Hear that chat?" She moaned out, each word punctuated with either a loud yelp or squelching. "This asshole should be thanking me! H-He doesn't get to fuck anyone normally, I'm being soooooo nice by letting him do even this to me." As if something had snapped in him, the man had suddenly pulled himself out of Haley before he flipped her over onto her back, taking care to make sure that her head was hanging off the edge of the bed as he angled himself up to her pussy once more.

"You seriously need to stop being a bitch, y' think that shit is cute?"

"Has to be," The blonde smirked, her eyes still focused on the camera even from her awkward position on the bed. "You said yes to my offer so quickly...I barely had time to get the full sentence out." The man's eyes would've rolled to the back of his skull at the woman's arrogance if he weren't on the bridge of cumming with how wet her pussy was. Not that he was going to admit it anytime soon, the blonde was a bombshell and even if she didn't live in their middle-of-nowhere town, she'd still be a pretty thing to look out!

But, in a town where everyone knew everyone? Not to mention the options here being rather...limited.

He wouldn't deny he jumped at the opportunity to have sex with Haley.

It was a nice way to empty his balls rather than using his hands. "S-Shan—" He quickly shut the blonde's moans up with a sloppy kiss. His teeth briefly digging into Haley's bottom lip before his tongue snuck in to explore her mouth. Cherries...and a hint of whine, alongside the natural sweet taste of whatever lipstick she was using. A tasty combination that made him drag out the kiss longer than what he originally wanted. But, he couldn't have her say his name out to her audience, could he?

"Not so mouthy now, ain't ya Haley?" He cooed to Haley at the sight of her eyes rolling to the back of her head, her nails scratching and clawing his backside as he had to quickly grit his teeth together to withhold a moan from escaping his lips. Instinctually, Haley's legs wrapped around the man's waist to keep his dick deep inside her as her pussy clenched around his length, her fast-approaching orgasm making her nearly forget about the camera entirely as she relished in the feeling of the local drunk's dick digging out her insides. If she was capable of keeping a single thought in her head at this moment, she'd tell herself that this would be a mere one-time thing!

Something only for the recording.

But...damn, she didn't know that he could fuck like this.

"Such a lucky fuckin' audience, I'll have to start tunin' in...especially if you cry and go dumb on cock like this for them." He grumbled, to which Haley whined at his words. The only warning he got before Haley squirted against him was that her back arched off the bed before her mouth fell open in an open-mouthed scream, her pussy twitching repeatedly against the man's dick as if trying to coax him quicker to his orgasm. Something that didn't take much as he was right behind Haley, a hearty yet choked-up groan leaving him as he stilled against the blonde.

As he removed himself slowly from Haley's heat, however, his cock wet from their combined orgasms. His gaze traveled to the camera before he smirked. "Hope you had fun watching me fuck your favorite streamer chat, hopefully she'll be a little more ready to speak in a few days."

Then the stream cut off, a tired moan leaving your lips as your fingers, wet from your recent orgasm, left your sex. You didn't even have time to send Haley a tip for the show, you had planned to send more than you usually did too! Mostly in the hopes that some would go to the handsome stranger that fucked her within an inch of her life.

But, for now, you just prayed in your mind that this wouldn't be the last time that she brought in a guest.

And thankfully, it wasn't at least...not until people continued to pester her for another collaboration.

"When will I bring in another guest?" Haley read out from the speeding chat with a hum.

For the past month or two, her numbers had been growing exponentially. It seemed like you'd blink one moment and then she suddenly had another a thousand followers! The video of her with the bearded stranger, titled "Blonde Bimbo Gets Dicked Down By Drunk", had gone viral on the cam website, but no matter how many people wished to know his name and if he was active on another site or not. Haley would immediately shut down all conversation topics of that nature immediately. Haley then groaned as she leaned back against her chair.

"I may~" She giggled. "Being fucked instead of having to do all the work was fun. Wasn't it chat?" Another series of giggles left her cherry-red lips as people agreed, after that, she placed a finger to her chin as she seemed to think something over. "It'll be hard since where I live is such a small town but...I may have some other guests I can bring on. I think you'll like them! One of them's a bit of a loner but it's somewhat cute, and another's a friend of mine."

Your eyes widened at her words. A friend?

Haley smiled. "I'll keep you all up to date!"

You'd just have to wait until then.

[cosmerelists]

How Well Cosmere Characters Would Do At Speed Dating

"Speed dating" is an event where a bunch of people move from table to table, having like 5-minute conversations with a bunch of different partners. Then people fill out cards ranking the people they met, and the organizer pairs up any people who both feel that they hit it off. Basically, it's a way to meet a lot of potential romantic partners in a very short span of time.

So let's say that yesterday, for Valentine's Day, Cosmere characters attended such an event. How did it go for them?

1. Kaladin: It went badly; 0/10 stars

People have to reach like Friendship Level 5 to unlock Kaladin's tragic backstory. People talking to him for like five minutes will only read his surface vibe: glowering, uncomfortable, and tall. He might get some good ratings for sheer hotness, but I don't think he's walking out of this with any dates (if only because HE doesn't rate any particularly high).

2. Adolin: It went SO well; 10/10 stars

Adolin (single in this universe I guess) is personable, good at flirting, and very adept at getting dates. He's being ranked as a top-tier catch by everyone he meets, and he's ranking everyone he sees as top-tier too because hey, he could probably maybe see it working out for a while. That boy's calendar is FULL for the next month.

3. Elend: It was not great; 3/10 stars

Elend is obviously carrying a book the whole time, and he has a tendency to start reading during the conversation, even though--again--each conversation is only five-minutes long. Most of his partners find this rude and off-putting, but he'd get a least a couple who are intrigued either by him or by his book.

4. Leshwi: It was okay; 5/10 stars

She's magnificent and tall, so that's gonna get her some positive feedback. I also do genuinely think Leshwi is good at connecting with people. On the other hand, she keeps asking when the "stabbing part starts," and, uh, that doesn't go over very well with most of the people.

5. Denth: It was pretty great; 8/10 stars

To be honest, Denth would be GREAT at speed dating. He's disarmingly funny and self-deprecating but in a self-confident way. He might lose a few potential partners who are like, "Ew, mercenaries" but I do think he's walking out of there with plenty of dates if he wants to.

6. Ulaam: It was mostly a failure; 1/10 stars

He's quick with a compliment, but his compliments are usually along the lines of, "What a nice elbow you have. Can I have it? Only after you die of course, ha ha!" I'm sure there's at least one person who's into that, though.

7. Kelsier: It went great; 9/10 stars

I think Kelsier would be great at speed dating if he wanted to be. He can definitely smile and get people on his side. He 100% has an ulterior motive for this speed dating thing, though...

8. Shallan: It was so-so; 5/10 stars

Can Shallan rock a social event? Yes. Can she resist making that slightly inappropriate pun when the opportunity presents itself? Absolutely not. For this reason alone, I think her ratings are...varied.

9. Charlie: He ranks it 10/10 but everyone else ranks it 0/10

Charlie has EXACTLY the speed dating experience he wants! AKA, he is as boring as possible so that nobody wants to date him. He has a great time. Nobody else does.

10: Nightblood: People died; 0/10 stars

The people who partnered with Nightblood either tried to unsheathe him and died, or being near Nightblood just made them feel sick. Nightblood had a great time! (And is not allowed back.)

[tgmsunmontue]

Season to Taste - 36/42 WIP

Explicit Hangster - Celebrity Chef Bradley and Naval Aviator Jake Seresin who have a relationship spanning the globe before they realize how tightly bound they are to one another.

PROLOGUE/1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 (interlude) 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 (interlude) 21 22 23 24 25 26 27 28 29 30 (interlude) 31 32 33 34 35

CHAPTER THIRTYSIX

                “Okay. Listen up. My boyfriend is in town. I’ve got him on the chef’s table. Now… he fucking auto-condiments. It’s a character flaw, but also it’s so very much him that I don’t think he’ll ever stop. So… don’t get your hackles up worrying about it. Or worrying about what I might think. He’s either added ketchup to everything I’ve made, or said it’s too sweet, or that his mom and grandma can make it better… I don’t think he’s actually ever paid my cooking a compliment now that I think about it.”

                His staff are all looking at him in undisguised horror and Bradley knows he’s probably exaggerating a little, because Jake has been plenty complimentary, but he also knows what he likes and isn’t ever afraid of letting Bradley know in no uncertain terms.

                “Oh, also, he doesn’t really know quite how famous I am. At least I don’t think so. We met a decade ago and he knows me as Leonardo, so he gets to call me Leo or Leon or Leonardo if he’s really pissed off.”

                Jaws lower even further toward the floor and Bradley grins at them all.

                “Yeah, I know. I’m in a good mood. My boyfriend is in town. Let’s have a good service okay?”

                “Yes chef!”

…            …            …

                “How did it go?”

                “Fuck…”

                “Again? Seriously? Bradley!” she punches him on the arm and she doesn’t hold back any strength and he flinches away. “What does he do? Suck your brain out of your dick?”

                “Uh…” he not sure whether to confirm or deny, because the weekend had been… illuminating. And amazing. And exhausting both physically and a little emotionally, just with them talking about more things which they might like to try out.

                “Ugh! It’s your funeral. Just tell him over the phone, or through Facetime. I think this is going to be a bigger deal for him than your fame and fortune.”

                “I know! Which is why I want to tell him in person!”

                “Well next time you see him I’m coming as chaperone to make sure it actually happens. You keep beating yourself up over it and it’s not good for you.”

                “I know…” Bradley says, and from the look Vi is giving him he knows it maybe isn’t contrite enough. “I’m… I do know. Sorry. I’ll try to not let it bother me, okay?”

                She snorts at that and rolls her eyes, but Bradley knows he’s forgiven when she rests her head on his shoulder as their plane takes off.

…            …            …

                Jake looks at the email attachment and pulls a face.

                It’s fine.

                This is the life he signed up for, and he’s been spoiled the last few months with being stationed at Fallon. It’s not the closest he could be to Leo, but he’s still seen him fairly regularly. It’s been really nice and he knows he’s going to miss him even more than usual. He rings in his lunch break, know Leo will be deep in the prep stage in the kitchen. He never thought he’d understand so much about how a restaurant is run, but he could listen to Leo talk about it for hours. Has listened to Leo talk about it for hours in fact.

                “Jake! He’s just stepped out front. We didn’t want to ignore the call though… how’s it going man?”

                “Uh, Kieran right?”

                “That’s me! And don’t worry, I know you’re probably on a time crunch. I’ve sent someone to fetch Bradley.”

                “Thanks. I appreciate it. And I’m going good. You know. Pretty standard…”

                “Lather, rinse and repeat right? Same here. Same shit, different day!” Kieran says, the last few words a little louder and he hears other jeers and laughter, has met most of them now and they’re Leo’s squad. He’s glad he has a good bunch of people working with him.

                “Get back to work you bunch of reprobates…” Leo says, his voice loud and clear and happy and Jake can’t help the thrill at hearing his voice. “Hey…”

                “Hey. Uh. Can you give me a couple of minutes?”

                “Of course,” Leo says, and Jake can tell from the change in sound that he’s no longer on speaker, that Leo is moving somewhere quieter. “What’s up?”

                “I got new orders. Direct to Kitsap, then Ronald Reagan for about five months.”

                “Shit.”

                “Yeah. I know you’ll get you hand on the manifest and meet me when you can. Just… I’m going to miss you.”

                “Yeah. I’m going to miss you too. So much.”

…            …            …

                It’s fine.

                Not the end of the world.

                The first few months slip past quickly enough.

                It is grating that he can’t meet Jake in Brisbane when he has leave. The entire crew are slated to take part in the Talisman Saber, which Ice has been telling him about, because he’s involved now that he’s the COMPACFLT and Bradley tries not to think about telling Jake that. He’s going to be seeing Jake when he’s got shore leave in Japan, when the Ronald Reagan berths there after it has done whatever it needs to do in the Pacific Ocean. Bradley can, and will, finally tell him all about Maverick and Ice and he can stop waking up in a cold sweat thinking about Jake being hurt and upset that he didn’t tell him. He runs his finger over the gold band on his finger, knows that the ring he bought Jake is hanging around his neck right now wherever he is and it makes him feel grounded somehow, despite their distance.

                His phone rings then and he startle a little, not expecting anyone, a little wary when he see Ice’s contact name showing. Since finding out how much it hurt’s Ice to talk Bradley has insisted on video calls where Ice can type out what he wants to say. The fact that he’s calling is… worrying.

                “Hey Ice…”

                “Bradley…”

                The scratchy rough pitch does nothing to lessen the tone of Ice’s voice has his knees shaking and he grabs for a chair and lowers himself into it. Is reminded of the time Mav told him about Ice’s cancer, but right now he has Jake somewhere in the Pacific Ocean… Don’t go borrowing trouble a little voice in his head whispers, and it’s been a while since he even remembered his mom saying that.

                “What’s wrong? What’s happened?”

                “Maverick is missing.”

                He feels relief flood through him, quickly followed by guilt in equal measure, that it’s Maverick Ice is ringing him about and not Jake. Shit. Mav is Ice’s though, and while he might still be cautious around Mav he doesn’t want Ice hurting. And he doesn’t ever want Mav dead.

                “What? How?”

                “He was flying…”

                “He… Did he crash?” Bradley asks, because how is he missing if he was flying? A plane is pretty fucking thing to go missing. “Or is the plane missing as well?”

                “I…”

                “Shit. Sorry. I know you can’t talk much.”

                “Classified.”

                “Of course it fucking is… Do you think he’s alive?”

                “He’s Maverick.”

                Bradley lets out a long annoyed sigh, because that shouldn’t be an answer, or an end to a line of questioning, and yet…

                “Yeah. I guess he is.”

THIRTY SEVEN

[theinquisitxor]

March 2025 Reading Wrap Up

In March I read 7 books, 1 dnf, and 1 short story, so 9 total things read. I thought it was a good reading month overall, and I read a lot of young adult-- which I don't read much of anymore. I feel like I've aged out of the genre for the most part, but there are a few books/series I still enjoy. Let's get into what I read!

1.World of Wonders: In Praise of Fireflies, Whale Sharks, and Other Astonishments by Aimee Nezhukumatathil, 4.5/5 stars. This is a collection of memoir essays and a love letter to nature. Aimee connects a different moment of her life to an animal or aspect of nature. I found her writing very enjoyable and a very refreshing read.

2.Oathbound (Legendborn Cycle 3) by Tracy Deonn, 4/5 stars. One of my most anticipated releases of the year, and one of the few ongoing ya-fantasy series I'm still reading. I had such a fun time reading this, and it had some tropes that I also found very fun to read. I didn't love it quite as much as books 1 and 2, buuuttt it was still solid and very good.

3.Fable for the End of the World by Ava Reid, 4/5 stars. If you were like me in the early 2010s obsessed with The Hunger Games and read a lot of the other dystopian books that dominated those years, this is a solid return to that genre but with a bit more of a 2020s lens. The ending is a bit polarizing and I have mixed feelings about it though.

4. The Naming (The Books of Pellinor 1) by Alison Croggon, 5/5 stars. This was one of my favorite books of my early teen years, and one I've been wanting to reread for several years. Safe to say I still loved this book and it stands the test of time. Reading it as an adult I picked up on so much more. I highly recommend this book/series!

5. The Riddle (Pellinor 2) by Alison Croggon, 4.5/5 stars. Unlike the first book, I did not remember anything from this book before my reread. So it was almost like reading it completely new. To me this one was even more emotional and our characters go through some soul-searching. Our main character deserves nothing bad to happen to her ever.

6. Ancillary Justice (Imperial Radch 1) by Ann Leckie, DNF. Unfortunately I was bored trying to read this, and I don't really care to see what happens. I first tried the audiobook, and then switched to a physical copy, but neither were able to keep my interest. It's not bad, I just personally couldn't get into it :(

7.Stolen Focus: Why You Can't Pay Attention— and How to Think Deeply Again by Johann Hari. I've felt for a little while that my attention span and ability to focus is not as good as it used to be (and that smartphones/social media/big tech is responsible) so this was very refreshing to read, affirmed my thoughts on things, and I learned quite a bit on how our collective ability to focus has been damaged. Highly recommend if you feel the same!

8. Wildwood Dancing (Wildwood 1) by Juliet Marillier, 4/5 stars. This was my Random TBR Pick for the month of March, and a book that was on my tbr since 2020. This is a ya-fairy tale retelling that was a mix of several tales set in Transylvania in some unspecified historical period. I enjoyed this and was glad to read another Juliet Marillier book!

9. The Library of Babel by Jorge Luis Borges, 4/5 stars. This is a short story by the acclaimed author, and his imaging of an infinite library containing every variation of the alphabet, and those how search through the library. This had been on my tbr since 2018, so I was glad to have finally read it!

That was all for March!

In April I'm hoping to read:

Finish Pellinor series (books 3 & 4) (prequel at some point?!)

Wildwood Dancing #2

Nonfiction -- Backyard Bird Chronicles maybe?

Random TBR Book -- Child of a Hidden Sea by AM Dellamonica

Whatever else I feel like reading! (maybe attempt The Luminaries ?)

[mdconfession-blog]

I'm still concerned about the age thing so I think, maybe, we shouldn't use human logic when they're obviously drones, but at the same time they're SUPER advanced AI that can mirror humans so uuuuuuhhhhdhjdjkkabhdgsjagdhdbdkwbfkbwkdnfkej *has a stroke*

A while ago, I wasn't those who straight up considered N x Uzi a proship but the "age gap" was kind of weirdddd.....

Nowadays I ship nuzi, BUT IM STILL CONCERNED BECAUSE imagine a guy kills your mom, drinks her blood to survive, you grow up, AND DATE HIM???

-The blood thing could be "fine" since everyone is basically a cannibal here. Nori as a solver user ate(💅) and killed people too.

-They're not humans, therefore they don't have our morals and shit, and they also definitely don't share our biological logic. We're kind of forgetting they're robots, N was manufactured. We don't know how long it took for Uzi to grow up, but V says this in the pilot: "I've been trying to open these doors for months!" That was the first time they entered the wd colony, so that could imply everything before canon* happened between 1-13 months (don't forget seramorris, copper-9's extra month)

*Cabin fever labs, Nori-Yeva-Alice are taken out of the mining factory (that's where she got the pickaxe) to run absolute solver tests on drones, oops, goes wrong, get possessed idiot, core collapse, Nori gets visions, marry khan, build uzi, DDs arrive to copper-9, lots of death, brand new blast doors, there might be a plot hole, I forgot what I was saying, oh. yeah. Uh. They're machines so, Uzi's childhood (she says she chose her username when she was 8, I think) lasted just some months. My theory is they go from pill baby to the common worker drone body we know, in the span of 13 months. If my theory is untrue, that would mean N, V, and J, spent at least 18 YEARS outside doing ABSOLUTELY NOTHING besides the corpse spire from the drones that couldn't make it into the colony, which means the wdf is even more useless than J (unbelievable)

There's no age gap because there's no physical age. They're immortal machines (if not killed). They don't develop like humans. THERE IS THOUGH, A MENTAL AGE!!!!!!!!!!. So no. You can't ship J and khan. (+he has nori) So, no, N is not a creep, he's a genocide robot, Uzi's a genocide robot.... everyone is a genocide robot– ok I'm done

—🌜❄️

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[lynnaredfield3383]

Burn

Warnings: Swearing, angsty, mentions of anxiety, verbal fight & mentions of sex.

Reader has paralysis quirk & hero name is Burst because the quirk works in short bursts that shoot from finger tips. Sorry if this is too much of an OC for you, but it's just easier to write this way for me.

“Want anything?” you asked standing from the couch.

Bakugo shook his head with a grunt, continuing to scroll through his phone. You moved to the kitchen to grab a drink from the fridge.

Bakugo's attention turned to your phone on the couch beside him when it buzzed in succession. In a span of five seconds, six text messages came through.

Bakugo picked up your phone and read the messages glad you'd left your phone unlocked.

The good EX: Can we talk?

The good EX: I rly fucked up, but tht hero isn't treating u rt.

The good EX: don't b mad I js want 2 make sure ur ok. Keiko spilt all

The good EX: Idc if he kicks my ass. U desrve 2b happy

The good EX: I knw I made u happy. Pls call

The good EX: I miss u

Bakugo nearly exploded your phone, but once he looked over and saw you weren't coming back right away he went to work. Deleting all the messages from your ex and blocking him.

Bakugo knew it had been a year since the two of you last spoke or text so you wouldn't suspect anything.

You finished your drink and decided to go back to your apt. For the last four months Bakugo hadn't shown any interest in you.

Sure, he was busy with hero work and keeping up with his friends, but you were too. Yet, somehow you were the one always compromising your schedule for him.

The one time you brought it up, he'd snapped reminding you that the number 8 hero had far more to do than the 22nd hero. Which absolutely hurt, but you didn't argue or bring it up again.

Bakugo expected you to sit back down when you finally came out of the kitchen, but you just grabbed your phone.

“I've got a busy day tomorrow, so I'm gonna go back to my place. Bye.”

Bakugo jumped over the couch and blocked your path.

“I'll drive you in tomorrow.”

You cocked an eyebrow surprised by his sudden attention.

“I'm good. Besides you have that meet and greet with Red Riot & Chargebolt at 8.”

Bakugo cursed softly knowing you were right. You took another step, but he blocked you again.

“Just stop. Let me figure this out dammit.”

Bakugo grumbled more than yelled and you began to wonder what was up.

“What the fuck? You haven't given a literal shit about me in months. So what is your problem now?”

Your words cut him deep and the fear of losing you began to take over him.

“I've always cared...I just…”

“You're busy I know.”

“Stay...please…”

You were stunned by his sudden desperation, but then your phone rang. It was your manager.

“I can't. Hello?”

Bakugo took your phone and hung up the call. Now you were pissed.

“I'll text my manager and I'll push my arrival time to 9. I can get you to Icyhot's agency by 8 and…”

“Gimme my phone before I paralyze your ass.”

“No.”

Bakugo tossed you over his shoulder and carried you to his bedroom. Upon dropping you on the mattress he immediately caged you in with his body your eyes locked.

“I'm not having sex with you.”

Bakugo's cocky expression faltered and then became angry.

“Is that all you think I really fucking want?”

“I honestly don't care anymore. We haven't really been a couple for months so the last few times we had sex were more like exercise.”

A searing hot pain ripped through Bakugo’s chest clawing it's way down to his gut. It was unbearable. He grabbed his chest, backing up against the wall. His breaths becoming short as he realized he was having an anxiety attack. He hadn't had one since you two started seeing each other 2 years ago.

“Fuck,” Bakugo seethed between gritted teeth.

“Breathe, hey! Look at me and breathe!”

Bakugo locked his eyes with yours the genuine concern calming him. You held his shoulders until you heard his breathing become normal again.

“Don't leave. Please. I…just don't leave.”

“Shut up and focus on your breathing.”

You grabbed the pills out of his nightstand and handed them over. It wasn't surprising the survivors of the war kept medication in their bedside tables. In fact it was pretty much required. Especially for the nightmares and in the beginning of your relationship those had been awful.

“Not taking them unless you stay.”

You stared at him in shock, this tactic not something he'd ever used on you.

You sighed, knowing he'd hate you in the morning.

“Fine. I'm going to bed now because I have to leave early,” you warned him.

Bakugo accepted the water bottle you handed him and downed his meds. You knew he'd be unconscious in an hour, exhaustion from the anxiety attack and the pills put him down quickly. The clock read 7:48.

At exactly 8:48 Bakugo was out. However, he had attached himself to you so tightly, it took you an extra fifteen minutes to free yourself. Once you retrieved your phone, you bolted from his apt. On your way out of the building you turned your phone back on and called your manager.

“Where the hell have you been?” Mae demanded.

“Long story. What's got you uptight?”

“Oh, I just got the notification that you jumped up the hero charts.”

“Why do you sound so smug?”

“You're number 16.”

Your feet stumbled as you entered your apt, the news hitting you hard.

“How…wait, I thought numbers don't come in until…”

“Director Hawks reached out to me today. I think he has a crush on you, but that's my opinion," Mae chuckled.

You laughed it off, giddy about the news.

“I still don't get why I suddenly shot up in the ranks.”

“All those heroes you've been working with have been singing your praises, but more than that the #2 hero gave you credit for that raid last month.”

“Shoto? It was a combined effort…”

“You found the lead, gave him the lead, planned the perfect raid and executed it flawlessly. He was your partner, not the other way around. He made that clear during every interview. He didn't want the credit.”

“Wow. I, uh…wow.”

“Hmm-mm. Now get some sleep because I'm picking you up at 5 and your day is full. Also you'll be spending most of it with Shoto and Ingenium at multiple events. So night. Oh, did u finally dump that idiot boyfriend of yours?”

Your mouth went dry as you thought about your answer.

“Not yet. But I need to tell you who it is…”

“No, you don't. Two years and I don't know and don't want to. However, the fans of Shoto think you two might be dating because he's been so chatty about you. Bonus is they love the idea of you two together.”

You groaned. Bakugo was going to lose his shit on so many levels, but you did plan to end it so…

“Look, when I end it with this guy he's going to lose his shit. Be real loud about it.”

“Still don't care.”

“Dynamight.”

The line went silent, Mae caught off guard or so you assumed.

“if this is a joke or prank say so. If not I'm jumping right now.”

“He won't ruin my career or….”

“Being with that idiot and having the world know will ruin you. You'll be lucky if you even stay on the charts. Between his overprotective rabid fans and that dumpster fire personality of his you'll be shunned. Fuck…”

“Look…”

“No, you don't speak from now on unless I give you a script. You two are over, do whatever is necessary to keep his mouth shut. Get to bed while I strategize how to keep this from hurting you.”

"Okay. Thanks, Mae."

As you lay in bed, you realized you were already hurting. As much as Bakugo pissed you off and had basically written you off these last four months, you still loved him.

You should be happy and ready to celebrate all the good things coming your way, but instead you were wracked with guilt. So much guilt, you found your way back to Bakugo's apartment and slipped back into his arms.

If you were going to burn, it was going to be Katsuki Bakugo that set the fire. Because no matter what, you couldn't bring yourself to hurt him.

[whalesongsblog]

🪷 Namaste! Welcome to my blog 🪷

I write my little fics here, with the occasional whale appreciation post thrown in! Currently obsessed with HL even though I’ve never played the game lol 😭✌🏾My ask box is always open, so feel free to yap with me. 🐋

(Profile pic art cred to the wonderfully talented @syrooo)

Fics: (Characters are always 21+)

Ao3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/63762433

Stars, Hide your Fires (WIP)

dark Ominis Gaunt fic. The synopsis is here

The Princess and the Parselmouth (WIP)

(Thank you to @butternutt613 for the name!!)

[part 2, part 3, part 4, part 5, part 6, part 7, part 8, part 9, part 10, part 11, part 12]

Synopsis: Ominis Gaunt wants to finish his postgraduate education at Hogwarts University, distance himself from his family as much as possible, and keep his head above the darkness that threatens to consume him. However, a wand is quickly thrown into that plan, in the form of Princess Miradevi Surya Lakshmi. She saunters into his life with her razor sharp wit and sunny disposition, and suddenly the world seems so much brighter than the shadows he thought he’d live with all his life.

But carrying the Gaunt name is a heavy weight. He can let it drag him down, or free himself of its shackles.

(ft. Eventual political intrigue, conspiracy, power plays etc because that’s the good stuff and I love getting into wizarding world politics)

The Explosion of a Star (angsty little oneshot)

Synopsis: It had been six months since the assassination of princess Miradevi Surya Lakshmi, and six months since prince consort Ominis Surya Lakshmi was completely consumed by the darkness he’d been fighting against all his life. But that darkness suits him well, and a surprise trip to Azkaban coupled with a horrific revelation about the murder of his wife prompts the prince consort of one of the most powerful empires in the world to take advantage of his position and do what he had always sworn to do; ruthlessly destroy anyone that was involved in the death of his wife.

You and I, Always (fluffy little oneshot!)

Synopsis: Pure, tooth rotting found family fluff ft. Girldad Ominis

Home, Finally (oneshot)

Synopsis: more girldad Ominis, what can I say? The prince consort of the Surya empire settles into his new home and learns that the promise of the future he’s building is so much more than ghosts he’s leaving behind. Slice of life, pure and simple.

SPECTER (WIP)

Synposis: plot still to be figured out, but basically: Ominis and Mira are special agents in the wizarding worlds’ version of MI6

Out of What Crypt, they Crawl (WIP)

(Modern horror au. Part 2, part 3, part 4)

Synopsis: You and me, always. Together, we’ll leave and go somewhere incredible.

Ominis Gaunt and Mira Lakshmi have been best friends since as long as he could remember. His ray of light in a world otherwise saturated by grey, Mira had been at his side through every high and low in his life. But the small town they’re trying to escape holds secrets- secrets he’d do anything to keep her from knowing, and being in danger from. But in the wake of a string of disappearances in the vast forests, and a conspiracy that spans centuries, Ominis realizes that nothing stays buried in the town of St. Ives.

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And finally, here’s a picrew of my girl, princess Miradevi Surya Lakshmi 🇮🇳 🩵 Thanks for reading, and I hope y’all enjoy!

[sebadztian]

Yet another proof of Sebastian's character growth. And I will not shut up about this subject because that demon went through so much character development in the span of 8-9 months.

The demon went from this...

To this...

I've been wanting to talk about this for a while.

In the curry arc, as you can see above, Sebastian talked about how nobody would serve another without a reward. His very contract with Ciel is the example of this. At the end of the contract, he will be rewarded with Ciel's soul. He wouldn't have served Ciel so faithfully without that.

But in Green Witch arc, he got down to his knees and offered his service to Sieglinde. What was his reward?

Ciel's recovery.

Now, when Ciel was reduced to that state, Sebastian wasn't obligated to continue to serve him. I'm not a demon, but even I could see the gaping loophole in the size of black hole that he could've taken advantage of. He could've taken Ciel's soul right there and right then.

But what has stopped him?

2 things:

1. His aesthetics

2. His growing care for both Ciel and his role.

What would he get from offering his service to Sieglinde? Nothing!

Not for himself, anyway...

He didn't offer his service for free. But for once, the reward is not his own. He offered his service in exchange for Ciel's well-being.

This is the very panel that goes against those who said that Sebastian hated Ciel and only saw him as a meal.

If Ciel was just a meal for him, why would he lower himself to serve another without gaining anything for himself? Why would he make a deal with Sieglinde? Even a three years old knows that nobody would enter a deal with another without a reward.

But this time, he's not doing it for himself. He did it for his young master. So, for those who said that Sebastian was a selfish bastard, you're right.

He's still selfish. That's his nature. Selfishness and arrogance are Sebastian's greatest character flaws. He liked this game so much, he wanted to keep playing butler, which is kinda weird, but hey, I won't judge. Ciel's calf and the sex must be worth it.

However, you're also wrong to say that he's still the same self-serving bastard who made a contract with Ciel three years ago. He's gone from thinking only about himself to willing to lower himself for his young master's sake.