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Was just a witness of a last minute wedding for my sister and her (boyfriend of many years and father of their three children) now husband. Was weird but sweet💝
#<3!!!!!#even my dad showed up which was a shock#he cried#mom cried#almost everyone cried lol#Love them#last minute wedding#in my aunts living room#IM WEARING A TANK TOP AND JEAN SHORTS#not even business casual#insane#funny tho
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This holiday season, I am BEGGING you guys to be aware of and kind to the guests at your house who are afraid of /uncomfortable around / allergic to animals.
#if you don't grow up with animals. having an animal in the space you're in (especially a poorly trained one that WILL jump on you when you#sit down) is a very uncomfortable experience and I'm tired of acting like I'm okay with it#my cousins actually brought their new puppy to thanksgiving and we had to explain to them that we can't have their dog out of his cage#because my mom's allergic to dog hair and can't have dog hair all over the not puppyproofed home she lives in#as the acting eldest daughter i've grown more accustomed to animals in defense of my siblings#since I'm more okay with dogs i have to hold the leash when my aunt brings her dog on a bus tour unannounced and i have to stand between a#four foot dog that is jumping and barking at us and my siblings#one night when we stopped on my way to college i didn't even sleep much because i had to make sure the cats that were in the room my littl#e brother and i were sleeping in didn't climb on him in the middle of the night#like this may seem like a 'oh just deal with it!' but you CANNOT 'just deal with' it. that's not how fear works.#i have more thoughts on this matter but i will keep them to myself unless asked#kazzy has opinions (rare)#kazzy rants in the tags#but i will also add that i very distinctly remember my three year old brother crying and shaking with fear as my grandpa and my uncle forced#him to pet a dog and wouldn't let go of him or let him down until he had pet the dog and it still makes me cry to this day
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These are from June cause I don't take pictures of myself, but happy selfie night besties
#ttpdselfies#and yes behind me there is a creepy baby painting#my great aunt painted it and my mom insists it belongs in the living room#the turtles face
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Picked up a check from the city's cultural coalition for my electrical box design and got a holiday check from my aunt on the same day...I might actually feel comfortable buying an easel even though I feel like I don't deserve one
#'real' easels are shockingly expensive#maybe I can find one used somewhere...#I gotta save my neck. no more craning over paintings on the dining room table#shout out to my aunt who lives overseas and has without fail always sent me holiday money even though I have been fully an adult for years#we don't talk much but I do like getting to be like 'hey you let me get fancy takeout with my husband that was nice'#boring text posts
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plant photos?
hmmmmmmm okay.
mother and her 3 children. i picked her up at ikea like ten years ago. i hate them actually i kept overwatering them constantly and i do not need five hundred more stop beeding more!!!!!!!!!
little spikey boy. the mercedes stern showed up there someday idk where it came from hm. would defend me in case of a burglary though. little hoya circle with my year round christmas decoration and the dragon egg i had to fill with something that infested some plants with aphids. below are cuttings from bestie when i slept over for a hockey game <3
something i picked up at ikea years ago. my cats kept eating it. one of the heart leaf plants that’s still manageable because it keeps dying for three weeks whenever i move it one millimeter. a lucky plant that liked me way more when it was little and didn’t lose leaves over nothing. the mentioned monstera base - estimating i should make one more cutting from it and can maybe repot what’s left into 2 pots.
the plant that keeps tipping to the side. it hates me. the flowers have a sticky honey like substance to it and it bleeds milk when you injure it. very uncomplicated with water intake though i swear i forget it’s there if i don’t look at it. the other lucky plant hates me even more. lost leafs left and right. babies are so much easier to take care of somehow. and the kitchen window that i can’t possibly describe anymore. it has everything except a view to the outside. 1000/10 would recommend. there’s little lucky plants all over that i just put somewhere and forget about and they don’t hate and don’t lose leaves like their parents i love baby lucky plants!!!!!
#asked my dad to help me build shelves for my window sill to stack plants. idk where to put the monsteras when it’s time tbh#like my flat is very limited in windows that actually allow in enough light for plants and i’m just piling shit in front of there.#also idk what i’m doing so if you see gross negligence or plants in places that are Not Good just don’t tell me.#all i’m doing is trial and error when it comes to watering and positioning lol#also augh i’m so mad i didn’t take pics of the monstera before i cut it back. it was fixed to the wall because it was more than 2m high.#had 3 stems that grew upwards as a curtain. my aunt used it to part the living room once. when i finally got the ok to take it#out of the office one was tried up completely and the other two only had leaves at the ends left and the bottom.#my other aunt has no idea how to deal with plants like she straight up told me we should’ve repotted it sometime in the last 20 years lol.#fällt dir früh ein junge
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Huh. If my life was a quote, it'd be "one of those sad ones with a deceptively happy tune"
#quote from MLP:FIW#sorryyyy been kinda angry about my step family all day#sorry but im so tired of my Stepmom acting like she raised decent kids#my step brother is like 25 and living in my dads home. hes unironically an andrew tate fan and treats his very disabled girlfriend like shit#step sister always got compred to my sister who's the same age and put step sis in the light every time EVEN THO MY SIS WAS LITERALLY BETTER#<- like grades n shit#also both step sibs are gross. never cleans up ever. step brother and his gf are banned from the basement#step bro went to juvy when he was 16 and step sis had a trial last year and almost went to jail#also step sis has mono and would rather die than cover her mouth#i feel bad for SB's girlfriend because she has no other support system and sometimes it feels like SB or SS is trying to kill her?????#my dad threatened to kick out the adults if the house is dirty (adults being SB. SBG. SS. My sister. Aunt.)#My sister does SO MUCH HOUSEWORK and nobody cares and im mad#also bullshit rules recently have made my potential eating disorder worse#i don't think its healthy to rather starve than wash a dish but i actually have cried several times over this#not to mention how much i accidentally starve myself#also our food has been less and less because I don't know what I'm allowed to eat anymore because of my step family#also i have to share the smallest room with my sister. its okay tho ilh and i wouldn't want to get rid of her#sometimes it feels like my stepmom doesn't like me or my sisters because we're “weird”. childish interests and artistic#she lectured me about having missing assignments and I started crying#i said i just forgot to turn in some before the deadline and she called me lazy#<- Oops! so close. its actually THE MENTAL ILLNESS#my sisters and i feel like shit#i feel like my safe space is with my oldest sister.#and you all too! i love you guys#i just feel trapped. trapped by my step family. trapped by my own mind.#i was just starting to feel free from the burden of school and she just made me feel more stressed.#i didn't want to study because she killed the little motivation I had#Spanish exam is now “Fuck it we ball”#sorry for the personal post
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tagged by beloved unnamed mutual tags:
i love to have fun
tagging: whoever wants to do it if i'm honest
#i love the light of my dead name because it feels like a celebration of a little girl that no longer lives here#it's bright purple and it keeps my room lit all the time and it's very comforting to me. my aunt didn't know she was helping me reconcile#some shit with that gift but. yeehaw#tag game#poll#mer fact
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I honestly had a better introduction to Beetlejuice than any other kid, because when I was a kid a local haunted house went ALL OUT one year for Halloween and the opening room was a sort of safety brief fakeout that had a call and response that "accidentally" led you into summoning Beetlejuice, who literally crashed in through a wall with two demons on four wheelers who laughed at us and revved their engines and they circled us while Beetlejuice finished the brief. I straight up encountered that motherfucker for the first time in real life.
#betelgeuse#beetlejuice#but for just some backwater midwest haunted house the theatrics were fucking AMAZING#there was a hospital room where live actors were being “dismembered” and it looked very real#i mostly remember my older cousin cowering behind my aunt as we went through a corn field#they had it set up where you could hear things moving around you but not see them#and apparently one of the actors knew my cousin because he started calling out his name specifically
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Had a dream that I went to a Sanrio shop and they had South Park plushies. Only Kennies and Kyles though
#I went in there wanting some hand soap. Found like 50 shower products; but no regular soap#Then at some point the shop turned into a furniture and home goods store. My aunt and uncle were there ranting to my parents about how--#--a big vase would make their living room look better#Then these two cyborgs showed up and had sex with each other in a weird cyborgy way
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Okay, so my aunt looks very much the stereotypical 'Urban Floridian/Southern Californian White Blonde Woman Who Thinks The World Revolves Around Her'. And in a lot of ways she is that. She also, is one of those people who I swear buys everything that could be considered 'girl power' like she's forever trying to make up for having been too young to participate in the Miss America Protest, to the point where she will gladly buy this shit for other people and is real lucky to have lived through her last visit because dear gods the amount of misgendering my closeted ass is dealing with right now even without her shit.
I tell you all this purely so you can get some idea as to the fucking shutdown my brain had just now as I scrolled through etsy and saw someone who looked the 'Urban Floridian/Southern Californian White Blonde Woman Who Thinks The World Revolves Around Her' part modeling a 'He/They' t-shirt.
#do i kinda wanna come out just because dear gods if i have to spend however fucking long my sister's family is living here#getting called 'aunt achi' every time my niece is in the room or somebody is talking to her i may just fucking kill something#but also i live in florida where if that shit got out my sister could lose my niece so long as they're still living here#so ya know my life is currently suffering
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christmas day aka yesterday was the big meal so today people just eat whatever leftovers they like best day and you are one of the people who does Not like any of the traditional casseroles or the salads so your 4pm lunch-dinner is delicious yes but the whole time youre eating you cant stop thinking about that skyrim meal post
ham, potatoes, gravy, two kinds of mustard, cheese, mushroom 'salad'*, red grapes and uhhhh,,,, ummm a glass of coke
#*in the sense of chopped up mushrooms and onions mixed with a soured cream product#just life#it was. so good#the only way it couldve been better was if there was fish also but like. i dont fault my aunt not including fish there was plenty of food--#i thought about taking a pic but i was already in the dark living/dining room w/o my phone so i . cba
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packing for my trip this week and i’m like when was the last time i actually went on a vacation that involved a flight…well it was 19 years ago. and 19 years ago i was 7 so i’m sure i was only minimally involved in the packing process
#last time i went on a vacation it wasn’t really a vacation because i only lived like 11 miles away#but that santa monica hotel room was much nicer than my hollywood shithole apartment so it still counts#anyway most vacations i have taken have been like. 4-8 hr drive to the beach#but when i was 7 i flew with my grandma to san antonio to visit her sister#i was soooo obsessed with texas after that. i dreamed about it every night for the next 3 months#but my aunt has been dead now for over a decade. and i never made it back to texas until 2021#thought of visiting her grave but didn’t. spent the night in a crummy motel 6 then drove to el paso#and my stupid a/c died in the middle of the desert. god i miss driving but if i had a car i could never afford rent when i’m back in LA#Wait what was this post about i think i lost the plot somewhere
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anyway whatever. im whining AGAIN because i get #triggered when im truly reminded of how much of an ugly retarded loser freak incel i am. blah blah everyone is so tired of this and of me but this is my blog and i can bitch and moan all i want.
#in a few months (i need to save up to pay something off asap) i will buy ketamine and dmt maybe#id love to do shrooms again esp since i actually have some but ive not had the house to myself in ages and my room is a shithole mess. lol#maybe I will take up my aunt's (who's living with me) offer to help me clean and pick up my room#and use that as motivation. so i can actually trip in a nice ish environment if im gonna keep to my room
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Shout-out to everyone who survived a "fun" easter with the family
#fucking hell#it started with finding out my dad smoked in my car when I picked up my sister#who was equally dreading the day#my mum turns into the world's tensest and judgemental presence. worsened by my aunt#then hell for autistic people (of which there are multiple present)#multiple deaf people means one uninspired conversation that isn't interesting in any way.#combinations of passive aggressiveness and people not saying a thing because they can't participate. voice volumes too damn high#weirdass food situations. Very full table. so many smells.#this goes on for over an hour. wishing for literally anything but being there. soul crushing.#then you still have to sit in that room for 2.5 hours. it just goes on and on.#my autistic deaf dad physically looks like how I feel. my mum and aunt keep piling on top of him to demand his mental presence#i leave the room once (to get my phone to show pictures to my uncle) and am immediately followed upstairs by my mum#who demands I don't leave the room (What's next. following me when I need the toilet?)#me and my sister are so bored we start throwing paper planes and fake fighting.#Which amuses the bored and the deaf#but of course my mum and aunt have opinions and this is not allowed. only soul crushing boredom allowed#they complain to each other over it while aggressively doing dishes#finally it ends because my mum and aunt start insisting my dad should go to bed if he's 'that tired'. *sprinkle on some additional ableism*#still sitting through a conversation about allergies one of my sister's friends has. my mum preaching that people should take that seriously#(meanwhile i had to cook for myself for 9 years because when my allergies were really bad no one bothered to check if i could eat something)#me and my sister go sit upstairs to discover our mum has made things we care about vanish in her room#and made things appear that should not be there#I've washed the interior of my car and hope the smell will go#you think it's over after that. but woke up with the realisation that even more things have disappeared from my sister's room.#i can't remember a time when things left outside of my room didn't disappear#I don't know why we do these family gatherings at all. no one has fun on days like that.#the housing crisis isn't making these things easy. my sister is losing her place to live again as well#she'll go hiking for a month and then work on a campsite over the summer#maybe I'll go house sitting again. idk.#can't make commitments a few months in advance like that because I'll cancel everything the second Sparks announces anything important
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I miss the thanksgivings we used to have where we’d go to my Abuelita’s and cook/eat a bunch of nicaragüense food. I miss eating indio viejo, nacatamals, vaho, vigorón, yuca, etc. I’d rather have than than a turkey dinner :/
#too bad there’s no room at my uncles house that’s to my obese ass cousin and her fugly ass husband still living with him#also too bad that the last and only time we went a couple years ago/it was a bad experience tbh for several reasons#from my brother getting sick cuz of all the smoke in the hotels to my aunt & father of her son being absolute cunts as always#I don’t really enjoy the holidays or this time of year/ I wish I still did :(
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always fascinating to see the "biology or socialisation?" question cause controversy on the feminist bubble of the internet, especially when it reaches the 'otherwise feminism would be hopeless' line of thinking. because this is what the original critique by marxfems of some radical feminist theory as "biological determinist" and/or "vulgar materialism" was about before neoliberals appropiated and distorted it.
one of the reasons why by now I can identify at least three distinct praxis opperating under 'radical feminism'
#the ORIGINAL marxfems x radfem beef (from the marxist perspective radfem had other problems with marxfem first). the war my aunt fought#also why 'how we feel on Shulamith Firestone?' is still arguably the best manner of identifying#altough 'how we feel on Mary Daly?' can be more fun#(no secret I kinda hate the lesbophobe)#SRT has its answer and as always I align with it#but I admit I dislike how the women who view it as purely biology tend to be treated#like I disagree I do. as theory and with most lines of action it has organized as being the only/best route.#but the 'you are stupid and will cause feminism to fail' hm. I thoguht we all agreed on not driving women away especially the ones with#first hand direct experience#and that is like the elephant in the room it annoys me not to engage with#because a lot of these women come to feminism via their lived experience#and knowing how alienating hearing women who talk about first reading theory/hearing statistics can be... hm.#.txt
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