#in case you were wondering he does end up punching one and losing all his items in the lava tango was using to kill them
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Zedaph, about a naturally spawned iron golem: If I try and murder one of these guys, are they gonna hate me?
*the longest, most suspicious pause ever*
Tango: ... No.
#hermitcraft#a quote#zedaph#tangotek#oh zed. buddy#in case you were wondering he does end up punching one and losing all his items in the lava tango was using to kill them#this is from! zed's s7 vod: 'hermitcraft season 7 3 | blindfoldded bridges!!!' timestamp 1:35:50#which is a *fantastic* stream by the way. the bridges are. so stupid#mod rhys
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The wildest part about people being mad on Imogen's behalf is Imogen herself understood Keyleth's position in spite of her own wishful thinking, helps acquire the blue flowers for her, was the first to acknowledge the Changebringer's help, and the first to say "I'm sorry" to Orym losing more of his people. I'm really baffled to read these "Orym is manipulative" takes and that it was dangerous of Keyleth to validate his anger. Do you think it goes back to the god stuff, or is it just Imodna?
I think a little of column A, little of column B, little of several other things. Since I've been on the "hey could we consider that Imogen and Laudna are adult women who are responsible for their own actions" train for over a year, the specific "Imogen can be mean-spirited as well as unintentionally insensitive" train since at least this past February, and the "Orym is correct and Bor'Dor signed his own death warrant by casting Vitriolic Sphere at a group of people who were not violent towards him" train for a month, let's break it down.
There are a small handful of people in the fandom who just really hate Liam. Per a very salty rant I put into my drafts shortly after 3x63 to describe this type of person, it is a small, scattered, bizarre group of people who for no apparent reason have decided to be foaming-at-the-mouth levels of furious because, as far as I can tell, a nerdy Gen X-er dad who went to Tisch is kind of corny sometimes. Anyway nothing he does will ever sit well with them so we can ignore them forever. Moving on.
Some is Imodna; I thought the whole issue of Imogen and Laudna as agency-less infants against a cruel world would have been ameliorated by them entering a canon relationship (one currently compatible with the 2013 Pinterest board vibes of fanon no less) but it appears to have not been the case. For more on this, see this still relevant post and, while I personally haven't ever written something up, there's just, again, a complete black hole of empathy from a segment of the fandom when it comes to any of the other characters; my post from this morning about Imogen as compared to Caleb touches upon it. You know the Far Side cartoon where a guy is talking to his dog and the dog only recognizes a small handful of words? I feel this is similar, like, they see that Imogen wanted one thing and Orym and Keyleth wanted another thing that wasn't even, as you point out, terribly incompatible, and then the "well if not thing Imogen wants and not 100% deferential to her then BAD BAD BAD" attitude kicked in.
But I do think, in the end, a lot of it does come back to if not the gods exactly, the idea that the Vanguard is, unmistakably, the enemy. They are not the revolution here to usher in a new era of rule by the people. Keyleth is not here to raze Vasselheim to the ground but to have a diplomatic discussion; neither is she here to grant any leniency to the woman who attacked Vax regardless of her connection to Imogen. And she finds the idea of a world without the gods, regardless of her own personal feelings, to be one to be avoided. [sidebar: I hope we get Matt on 4SD; I am wondering, after the one-two-three punch of Hevestro, the Raven Queen, and Keyleth all placing a heavy thumb on the scale opposing the Vanguard if he did not expect the party to be as conflicted about the role of the gods and is trying to wind up an argument that I think as of last episode reached the end of its useful life.] When you couple that with Orym's positive attitude towards the gods, that explains the animosity towards him.
The undermining of Orym's position over the past few episodes has always been one of emotion. First he was not objective - as if anyone else was objective! As if any moral decision is ever 100% objective! We all have biases! What kind of early 2000s atheist forum shit are you on to claim perfect rationality that conveniently matches the ideas that apparently came to you in a godless vision? It's insane. Then it was his grief; grief makes you irrational (unless you're Imogen grieving Laudna, in which case you are objectively right at all times, even as you shout down every other suggestion, beseech Laudna's first murderer, not a month later consider the potential validity of the her second, and try to to undo her immutable past) and remember, moral decisions must be made by the rational. Then it was his impatience (nevermind that Imogen has absolutely no patience). And now it's his anger, and he's apparently been manipulating the party the whole time by...having suggestions for the group which he mentions, and openly stating what he was feeling and what he wanted, and not intuiting that Laudna reawoke Delilah with his approximately no magical ability and then encouraging her to finish a job she had started herself. Because god Rational Objective Conceptual Being forbid women do anything; it is the role of the man to protect their fragile souls from all consequences.
Even more generally I think a lot of people- not just in this fandom, though certainly within this fandom - are terrified of anger. Like, they think they like it - they say they love barbarians (though rage is its own beast and I think very different from the anger Orym and Keyleth exhibit) but most of the discussion of them tends to veer more into angst, and most players of barbarians are often exploring emotions like grief, self-pity (as Ashton says), or frustration just as much if not more so than anger. I think a lot of people perceive anger as this awful thing inside them to be controlled and denied, or alternately to only be let out for whatever they think is a sufficiently righteous cause, and instead sit in an increasingly toxic stew of simmering resentment and conflict avoidance until they begin to think this is not just normal but aspirational - anything but that awful beast they call anger. It's not new in discussions of Keyleth, and it's not limited to her and Orym; I can point to nearly every single character who has had even the slightest of outbursts - even something as mild and controlled as Orym's whispered profanity or less - and I promise you there's been pearl-clutching for every single one of them.
Anyway, you make great points! One of the things that struck me about this episode and prompted my frustration and my post earlier today is that Imogen has changed. I think she's been mulling over Liliana since her appeals to her during the Key's activation were unsuccessful; she hesitantly told Chetney when he asked in Uthodurn that yes, if Liliana's death is necessary, she understands; and I think seeing the utter devastation and pain that was inflicted on Keyleth brought it into focus. She was much more open to FCG and the coin as well. And, you know, if one had embraced Imogen's moral ambiguity in the leadup to the solstice, and the possibility that she could betray the party, instead of shouting that down? Then one could see this as a beautiful moment of growth for Imogen. One could, in fact, if one was so inclined, attribute it to her new sense of ease thanks to her circlet, or even to her nascent romantic relationship. If one, of course, had wholeheartedly embraced Imogen's past moral ambiguity and the possibility of her betrayal.
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Rain, BL Boys, and Reciprocity
Made @bengiyo and @lurkingshanshan get up early today so they could experience me and @neuroticbookworm's reactions to My Ride Episode 8. Mostly because NBW has been wanting Por to get punched in his stupid goddamn face for the last two weeks, and because I think everyone knew I would lose my shit at that undressing scene. Which I did, in case you were wondering.Â
ANYWAY. Over the last couple weeks as Iâve been watching My Ride, these clowns have had to listen to me say over and over again how much I truly appreciate the dynamic between Mork and Tawan. And by that I mean helpers helping helpers, and because I have seen how Mork and Tawan interact with each other throughout this show, I have started developing a theory as to why so many BL boys get sick (especially when it rains or when people are stressed), and a lot of it has to do with reciprocity. Obviously, this will not hold for all shows but, neverthelessâŚ
When I think of BLs where someone gets sick and has to be taken care of, I think of shows like The Eclipse, Bed Friend, and Our Dining Table (I know rain and sickness feature as a heavy part of Tokyo in April IsâŚbut that illness serves as a completely separate plot device) and I think about how the dynamics of the characters play out in terms of how frequently they are being taken care of by their partners versus how often they are taking care of their partners.Â
And in pretty much every case, the person who ends up getting sick and needing to be cared for, is the person that spends more of their time caring for their partner. Which is to say, that there is frequently an imbalance in how much (typically) emotional support characters need. [And again, I will take a moment to specify that imbalances happen in relationships and that does not make the relationship bad, or toxic and that does not make a person or character who does not give or receive support as frequently bad people either. It is okay for people to have more needs, it is okay for people to require more support, it is okay for imbalances to exist in a relationship]
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In The Eclipse, Ayan spends a lot of his time throughout the entire show making sure that Akk wonât kill himself. Sure, he pokes and prods and is annoying about it at times, but it goes without question that Ayan is putting in a lot more time and energy, especially before they get together in trying to pull Akk out of the mess he has gotten himself in to. Ayan, who is himself grieving the loss of his beloved uncle, pushes that aside time and time again to hold Akk when he cries, to let Akk know he can be weak with him, to being patient and guiding Akk as he navigates his internalized homophobia, to push back against the mindset Akk has been developing thanks to Teacher Chadok. And, it is at this point I will say that Ayan is not alone here, Akk supports him plenty, but in the beginning it is much more tentative and in those moments where Akk wants to comfort or support Ayan, Ayan still has to guide him- Akk sees Ayan being targeted by the teachers, and part of him knows that isnât right or fair, and he goes to seek out Ayan after Ayan does not appear in class, and all the support he is capable of showing Ayan is sitting there with him in silence. It is Ayan that puts his head on Akkâs shoulder, it is Ayan that asks Akk if he will treat him the same way the teachers are. Akk wakes up to find Ayan gone from the tent and crying outside alone and he takes the words that Ayan said to him when he needed support and gives them back to Ayan, and once again it is Ayan who sinks in to Akkâs shoulder, initiating contact. Ayan guides their first kiss, Ayan is honest about his feelings, Ayan does not get upset when Akk cannot at first admit his feelings for him, he does not get upset when Akk tries to provoke a fight. Akk holds Ayan when heâs having nightmares and that is the one time that he initiates actual physical comfort with Ayan before they kiss, and it is when Ayan is not awake to witness it, and Akk does throw it in his face a little bit the next morning.Â
But in Episode 9, Ayan gets sick and Akk takes him home, and Akk gives him a sponge bath, and Akk holds his hand, and Akk falls asleep next to him, and Akk jokes around with him when they are washing dishes, and you can start to see the shift. Akk has started to question his school, his place, himself and his desires, he has started to get more comfortable with his sexuality, to get more comfortable around the boy he likes and so Akk takes care of Ayan. Because Ayan needs to be taken care of too. Because Ayan is stressed out too. Because Ayan is depressed and grieving and angry. And that has suddenly become too much for him to handle, and so it is time for Akk to put aside his own anxieties, his own doubts, his own fears and focus on giving comfort to the person who has given so much care to him.Â
And it is worth mentioning that I do love the fact that after Episode 9 almost every single time one of them is upset, the other is also upset, especially in Episodes 10 and 11, I am so here for the way that both of them are comforting each other while they cry over different parts of the same problem.Â
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In Our Dining Table, Yukata is always going to Minoruâs house, he is always cooking for Minoru and Tane, he is always helping take care of Tane. While Minoru is unaware of the way that being around him and Tane has been helping Yutaka heal old wounds, Yutaka is spiritually and physically providing a lot of support to those boys. When Ueda-san is out, the burden of raising Tane has been lifted in part by having an additional set of hands. Minoru doesnât have to worry about Yutaka being upset that Tane is with him, Minoru doesnât have to worry that Yutaka will be annoyed at Tane for being a child. Minoru, who has given up so readily and so willingly so much of his life to make sure his baby brother has the love and support he deserves, finally has someone enter his life that loves and supports him in a way no one ever really has. Minoru doesnât have a career, Yutaka does, Minoru has not completed his education, Yutaka has, Minoru has a lot of family responsibilities, Yutaka doesnât. So in their relationship to and with one another, Yutaka typically needs less support. Then he gets sick. And that becomes Minoruâs opportunity to repay all the kindness Yutaka has shown him and his family. Minoru gets to cook for Yutaka instead of Yutaka cooking for Minoru and Tane (or Minoru gets to cook for Yutaka instead of with Yutaka), Minoru gets to replace the fever patches on Yutakaâs forehead, Minoru gets to stay there, with Yutaka and listen to him, to be a literal, physical support for Yutaka when he rests his head on Minoruâs shoulder. Yutaka finally gets to put all the things he has picked up aside, and just allow himself to be cared for for the first time in a very, very long time.Â
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And Bed Friend, as the show from my examples that feels most in keeping with the traditional tropes of the genre, highlights this give and take particularly well. Because Uea has been through what he has been through, and because Uea still continues to go through what heâs going through, he is heavily reliant on King for emotional support. Which is not to say that King is acting as Ueaâs savior all the time, or that Uea isnât capable of supporting King, but that objectively, fundamentally, Uea has much bigger, much more pressing, and much more intense problems than King currently has. Which means it typically falls on King to run emotional support for Uea. King helps Uea through his panic attack in Ep 1, he drives Uea to the hospital and pays for his motherâs taxi ride, he comforts Uea when he is nervous at the doctorâs, he bears witness to Ueaâs trigger and tries to help, he is decently patient waiting for Uea to process that, he rescues Uea from Pock in Ep 4, treats his bruises, he notices when Uea is anxious and makes him take a bath and brings him birthday cake, he gets Krit fired, he helps Uea make a decision around what to do about his stepfather. And because Uea is constantly in some crisis or another, the only time he really offers any support for King for the majority of the show is when King is venting about not wanting to go home and the expectations his mother has for him. Then King goes out in the rain and gets sick, and Uea finally has an opportunity to spend all of his time taking care of and doting on King. He gets to give King meds, and cook King breakfast, and cuddle King and King gets to just be sick and sleepy and not have to worry about anything but getting better.Â
All of this to say, that I frequently view the reason BL boys get sick as a way to make a typically imbalanced support dynamic between characters have some reciprocity.Â
But My Ride doesnât do that.Â
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My Ride is one of the first BLâs Iâve seen where I feel like both characters have an extremely reciprocal relationship the entire way through. Before they even really know they like each other, before they get together, every time Mork helps Tawan, Tawan almost immediately helps Mork in return. Both men are caretakers, Mork gave up his chance of education to pay for the tuition of his girlfriend so that she could get an education, Tawan is a doctor and always covers his coworkerâs shifts all the time. He leaves the house early and leaves work late because he is always finding someone to help. When they first meet, Mork is crying over his break up and Tawan comes up to him asking for a ride, sees Mork crying and says: âAre you okay? Is there anything I can help with?â and from there the entire rest of the show is just Mork and Tawan see-sawing back and forth when it comes to taking care of each other (the next two paragraphs are every example but if you are like âwka there is no way in hell iâm reading all that, just skip to the tl;dr).
Tawan needs a ride to get stage props but doesnât know where to go, Mork takes him to a market he knows and gives him a tour to orient him, Tawan buys Mork a drink, Mork holds the supplies Tawan bought and Tawan helps feed Mork the drink he bought
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Tawan helps a dog that has been hurt, Mork helps Tawan fix the props that got run over because he was inspired by Tawanâs kindness, Tawan takes Morkâs hand and is so excited and grateful that Mork would do something like that for him, Mork fixes the props and Tawan invites him to join the party, Mork drives Tawan around when he is off work to help him find Nadia, Mork is sick but crucially Tawan does not take care of him, only uses Morkâs fever and sore throat to make an in universe public speech announcement about not taking antibiotics for a virus, Mork goes with his uncles to the hospital and puts on a nice shirt and catches Tawan when he collapses from exhaustion and goes to buy him food, Tawan takes Cheepâs case so that Morkâs uncles can get treated faster.
Mork sees Tawan is bummed and brings him to the river where he usually goes to make himself feel better, Tawan invites Mork to Loy Krathong, Mork goes to indulge Tawan, Tawan gives Mork the popsicle flavor that is his favorite so he can share something he likes, Tawan helps talk Mork through his panic on the ferris wheel
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Mork runs back in to the park to look for Tawan during the shooting, Mork washes the blood off Tawanâs hands from helping the injured child and drives him to work, Tawan treats and loses a patient and Mork waits outside the hospital to make sure he has water and comforts Tawan when he breaks down. Tawan thanks Mork which is something that Tawan has always hoped the people that he helps would do for him and havenât, Mork avoids Tawan cause he is uncertain about his feelings and then makes up for it by letting Tawan drive the pillon, Tawan crashes the pillon and makes up for it by treating Morkâs wounds, Mork brings Tawan chicken heart rice, Tawan brings Mork snacks to repay the favor, Tawan confides in Mork about his concerns around Por, Mork tries to comfort Tawan and lets him ride the motorbike to cheer him up, Tawan buys Mork food.Â
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TL;DR time and time and time again, for the length of the entire show from when Mork and Tawan were strangers, to acquaintances, to friends, their entire relationship has been completely reciprocal. Kindness is repaid with kindness is repaid with kindness, in a way I have truly not seen in most BLs, as I have told poor Ben, Shan, and NBW enough times they are probably sick of hearing it.Â
Which brings us to Episode 8, in which an expectation I had from BLs was subverted, because these boys spend half an episode soaked to the bone in the rain. Now, having watched approximately 60 BLs in the last year, I know what happens when a BL boy gets rained onâŚsomeoneâs getting sick (off the top of my head I can name Ren, King, and Win who all get rained on and then immediately get sick).Â
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THAT
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That doesnât happen in the slightest, and Mork and Tawan are in the rain for a very long time. Tawan doesnât get sick even though he trudges through the rain to Porâs apartment, Mork doesnât get sick even though heâs driving around on his motorcycle in the rain, Tawan doesnât get sick even though he collapses on the ground in the rain, Mork doesnât get sick even though he drives and then carries Tawanâs unconscious body through the rain all the way Cheep and Dejâs house.Â
And my theory as to why is because neither one of them needs to get sick in order to be cared for, neither of them needs to get sick in order to prove that they both can act as support for each other.Â
Because even when Tawan is upset, even when Tawan is heartbroken, the reciprocity remains: Mork gets in a fight with Por and Tawan treats his wounds, Mork finds Tawan collapsed on the ground in the rain and carries him to his uncleâs house and changes his clothes, Tawan wakes up and cooks Mork dinner in return.Â
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This is a show about helpers helping helpers and I love it so much. I love that everything Mork does for Tawan, big or small, is revolutionary for Tawan (I mean, I donât love it in the sense that Tawan should be being treated better by the people around him but just that Mork does things because he wants to, because he sees Tawan is sad, because he sees Tawan is tired, because Tawan was nice to him and it is wonderful that Tawan has found someone that will care for him like that). And Mork, Mork has someone that will do the same, Morkâs last partner left him and moved on to another man very quickly (and possibly while they were still together) even after Mork had spent so much of his time and money on paying for her education. Even in the happy memories Mork has in that apartment after their breakup have his girlfriend making comments related to money, that they are eating too many instant noodles, that the house is too small, etc. and it breaks my heart because Mork lives that way because so much of his money is going to fund her education.Â
Let me tell you what line will haunt me forever, itâs something Tawan says in Episode 5: âNo one has asked me how I am for awhile. These days, people are always asking me to do things for them and I do it without expecting anything in return. But deep down, I guess I do. So, thank you���Â
Because this is what their relationship does and will boil down to, Mork does things for Tawan without having to be asked, without asking for anything in return, and Tawan does things for Mork without having to be asked, without asking for anything in return. And because of that they are both receiving care from one another in a way they have never been given before. And it is part of why I am so okay with them not getting together until the end, because we have seen from the very beginning just how well these two work together, and get a deep understanding of how they will navigate low points both for themselves and for when conflict arises between them.Â
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Anyway all of this absurdly long essay (Captain Hands who writes 20,000 word essays returns @bengiyo) to say, that I am beginning to suspect the purpose of BL Boys getting sick is to balance the scales of physical care in stories where one part of a couple does not have as many support needs and that it is very lovely and refreshing to see a story where every single action is repaid in kind. (Again, not that disproportionate levels of care are inherently bad, but because so many BL stories rely on tropes around a character with emotional fortitude, and a character without it).Â
Loving this show, sad that it is ending next week and I donât get to experience the rewatch live, but you better believe this is going to become a comfort watch for me going forward.
#my ride#mork x tawan#tawan x mork#morktawan#the eclipse#akkayan#bed friend#kinguea#our dining table#minoru x yutaka#my ride the series#wka long post
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Alexander (Grimm) - Crossover AU - Chapter 37
The next two weeks everything seems okay.
Well, aside from the dreams about Alexander, or the heat in your chest when you catch a whiff of something that smells even relatively like his scent.
Then thereâs the way his voice has started to actually make you a bit wet over the phone.
You were careful to keep it under control because you donât want to worry him, but itâs driving you a little crazy.
Thatâs why youâre consulting one of the best.
âIâm hoping when you finally see him it should all level out. I canât say for sure whatâll happen. This is still new territory.â
You give her a smile.
âItâs okay Rosalee. Thank you for all your help. I just feel a lot better knowing itâs not something detrimental. â
The last thing you need is any more surprises.
âItâs been three weeks. It should be wearing off soon. Iâve been reading up and if Iâm right, by the end of the month I should be in the clear.â
Since itâs your first time around, it might get easier every time it happens. The next time, youâll have better control.
âLet me know if anything changes.â
You nod.
âWill do. Iâm about to head to the office. Alexander got in last night and he wanted me to stop by.â
âThatâs great. â
âYep, see you later.â
You wave happily as you leave, anxious to see him.
Youâre already dying to tell him about the last few cases and of course that one guy you punched unconscious. You probably shouldnât feel so proud about that, but itâs still a bit funny. You practically skip into the building. Jogging up the stairs you hum to yourself. The second you get to his door you knock.
âCome in.â
You enter with a broad smile. Alexander looks up, mirroring that look.
âMs. Jane, what a wonderful surprise.â
Thereâs a teasing in tone to his words and you close the door to ask about his trip, but the second you catch his scent in the air, you inhale. Your body pauses and you feel the heat of everything just rush through your body. Alexander looks a bit confused at your sudden shift.
â(Y/N), is everything alright?â
He gets no response. He is however a bit startled when you climb onto the desk. His words arenât able to leave his lips, you move right into his lap and you let out a soft sound right before you kiss him. His hands clumsily move to your waist, puzzled, but definitely aroused. Youâre usually more controlled. Heâs typically the one to lose his reason, especially at work. His mind finally seems to register your strange behavior, because he pulls back to speak with you.
â(Y/N), have you taken something?â
Your pupils are fully blown and your lips immediately change course, tugging at his collar to get it free. Once you undo the first few buttons you start leaving kisses along his neck. He grips at your hip, closing his eyes at the sensation. The last place he should be doing this is his office. Especially after Benjamin had walked in on the both of you that last time. He needs to exercise restraint, but he can already feel himself tightening in his pants as you press into him.
âCallâŚRosalee..â
Itâs a mutter you let out between your hungry kisses. He just barely processes the statement. The second he does, he tries to reach for his phone on the desk. Your hands have started to undo his tie. He swallows, dialing the number as he tries to maintain what little composure he has left. He needs to keep a steady mind so he can formulate words when Rosalee answers the phone.
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The ringing makes Rosalee reach for the cell phone. She doesnât recognize the number, but still answers.
âThis is Rosalee.â
âM-Ms Calvert I..â
Alexander groans and Rosaleeâs brows furrow on the other side of the phone.
âAlexander?â
Thereâs some movement, and Monroe walks in when he sees the confusion on his wifeâs face.
âWhatâs wrong?â
âIâm not sure, I think something is wrong with Alexander.â
She clicked the button, putting it on speaker phone.
âAlexander, I'm here with Monroe, whatâs wrong?â
Thereâs some more rustling and a short gasp before he speaks again.
âThere is..thereâs something wrong with (Y/N). S-Sheâs attacking me..â
âAttacking!â Monroe asked in a panic.
Another grunt left his lips and he cursed. He realized that he might have used the wrong word.
âNot in that way I-â
His words are cut short and when a moan echoes over the phone. Their eyes widened in surprise. Suddenly the background noise makes sense. The sounds of your frantic kissing seem very loud over the phone.
âMs. Calvert!â
Alexander sounds a bit flustered and Rosalee winces.
âIâm so sorry, she didnât want to worry you. Thereâs nothing physically wrong with her. Sheâs just in heat.â
âHeatâŚâ
He mutters distractedly.
âYes. I was hoping when she finally saw you the pheromones would dissipate, but it seems to have increased. You can try to talk her down, but Iâm not really sure how useful that will be. Your best option might be to..â
She wasnât sure how to word it without it being awkward.
âIndulge.â She finished.
The sounds of something crashing made them both jump and Monroe eyed the phone. There was a stretch of nothing but movement. She wondered if heâd dropped the phone.
âAlexander?â
âFuck, you smell amazing.â
The sounds of your voice felt a bit too intrusive. Rosalee reached over and hung up the phone quickly.
âYou hung up!â
âWhat was I supposed to do? That was weird, I feel kinda dirty. Do you think heâs okay?â Rosalee asked.
âLetâs just try not to think about it.â Monroe suggested.
âGood idea.â
Alexander was a big boy, he would figure it out.Â
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Evan Buckley came into Eddie Diazâs life way too late, and left way too early. Eddie would love to be able to hate the other, hate the way that he carved a place into his heart, only to leave it gravely empty, hate the way he canât even open Wikipedia anymore without his tears blurring the words, hate the way the DiazâBuckley household is once again only the Diaz, hate the way his son had to lose a parent once again.
But he canât hate the other, even as he punches the very wall Evan once helped fix up, he canât help but hate himself. He knew nothing couldâve prevented what happened, that if it wasnât Buck up there, it wouldâve been Chimney. He canât help but wonder what Buck was thinking in his last moments. He wonders if he felt the whiplash of falling from the ladder or if he was still reeling from the lightning strike. Eddie has had his share of near death experiences, times where he has drifted off into consciousness not sure if he would ever wake again. During those moments, Christopher is usually the last person he thinks of, and he wouldnât be that surprised if it was the same in Buckâs case. Not that Evan could ever tell him. Buck couldnât ever tell him anything anymore. His best friend wonât talk about the history of wardrobes, or odd habits that whales have.Â
The death of the youngest member of the 118 hit everyone hard, not even the station's firefighters and close community of them, Eddie has gotten texts from other firefighters that they have only worked with once or twice wishing him well. They had to hold two funerals for him, one for the immediate side, and another for the public, and Eddie never saw so many people in one place before. He still had tubs and tubs of tupperware full of food in the kitchen that could very well last a lifetime, but he hasnât felt hungry ever since he watched Buck take his last breath.Â
Christopher was with Eddieâs parents, they said it would be good for both of the Diaz boys to have this time. Christopher caved in, but only for a month. The school was more than willing to give him the time seeing as Buck is always brought up by the boy, and they watched as Evan would pick Christopher up from school, and attend parent-teacher meetings, everything. Eddie is sure that the teacherâs thought he and Buck were dating.
But they didnât get the chance to. Buck died while they were still walking the tight-rope between platonic and romantic. Buck died before Eddie could admit to him that he imagined what it would be like to call him partner in more than just the job sense. Before Eddie could admit that he wants to grow old with Buck, wants to be able to share a bed and hold him in his sleep, and wants to worship each and every part of Evan Buckleyâs body.Â
The house was deathly silent, pun not intended. All that could be heard was Eddieâs laboured breath. He doesnât understand why he can be sitting here while Evan is dead. He knows Buck isnât religious, and neither can Eddie be, not when the so-called God can let Buck leave before they get their happy ending, but if heaven does somehow exist, he hopes that Buck is waiting at the gates for him.Â
He doesnât want to leave Buck waiting long, but he canât make an orphan out of his son, he canât have Christopher lose two of his dadâs within one year. Maybe sometime, but not now. He doesnât know how long he stood staring at the wall before he faded into sleep, wishing he could dream of him and Buck, but instead it was an endless pit.Â
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Hen liked to deal with her grief alone. She finds it easier to sort out things alone before letting someone inside her head. Karen didnât always like it, but she allowed it, gave her wife some space. With the death of Buck, she made Hen begin therapy, and had some herself. This wasnât like a bad call, or stress building up after an injury. This is death, permanent death, you canât come back from this.
It was after a therapy session that Hen pulled up to visit Eddie, theyâve each texted the groupchat sparingly, each dealing with his death in different ways but she decided a visit to the Diaz household wouldnât be the worse. When Eddie answered the door, he looked much better than she thought he would, if she was honest. He was put together in a way. When she last saw Bobby he couldnât bring himself to shave and had an unruly beard, but Eddie had none of that, but the looks of it he was even just out of the shower and making the most of the day.
âOh Hen. Come in,â he left the door open and she closed it behind her, noticing the three pairs of shoes by the door. Eddieâs black trainers that he debated on getting for the longest time until Evan surprised him with them, then Christopherâs school shoes, and on the other side of the smallest pair was Buckâs beat up trainers, full of dirt and stains. They were lined up neatly, with each personâs coat hung above it as well. âTea ? Coffee ?â
The question was the only thing that made her move on from the display at the entrance. âOh uhm, green tea please.â She was never a tea person, but Karen had the idea of drinking it when off shift in a way to separate the two lives, itâs been working. During the small walk past the sitting room into the kitchen, Hen could only find more and more instances of Buck being in the house. The green blanket he talks on and on about the comfort of was draped halfway off the couch, like he spent the night and left in a rush.Â
âBuck isnât back yet, but you are welcome to wait.â Hen had to stop to be sure she even heard that right. She knows the five stages of griefâ denial, anger, bargaining, depression and acceptance, and she has jumped from one to another during the last few weeks, yet it seems like Eddie has kept himself in the denial box. Hen could only look around in the kitchen, where three plates were set on the dining table, but only one chair pulled out.Â
There was a whiteboard on the fridge, one she knew Buck got them ages ago, and Eddieâs purple marker was the only new one, adding notes as if there was someone else to read them. Henâs stomach twisted and she tried not to show the discomfort on his face. She could only stare at Eddie, who moved around the kitchen with an unsettling amount of calmness, as if everything was normal. As if his partner in crime didnât leave them all without being able to even say goodbye.
Hen just wanted to scream, to shake Eddie and tell him the dark trust that he seems to be unaware ofâ no, not unaware, but actively avoiding, but she held back. Not yet. âThanks,â she mumbled as Eddie handed her the green tea. He at actress from her at the table, his fingers tapping rhythmically against the surface.Â
They sat in silence for a few minutes. It wasnât exactly an uncomfortable one, but it was clear that there was a lot that needed to be said, but Hen couldnât find the right words for the life of her. How do you even talk to someone whoâs drowning in grief but doesnât know it yet ? It is easy to comfort people on cases because she doesnât know them, but she watched as Eddie built a life with Buck, and now he is doing the same with his ghost.
âEddie...â she trailed off softly, as if she was talking to one of the kids she had fostered. He looked up at her and a slight smile tugged at his lips, but it didnât reach his eyes. In fact, his eyes seemed hollow, as if they were clouded by mist and he wasnât really seeing her. He hummed in response as if everything was normal. As if he isnât living in the shell of the life he had once imagined with Buckley.
Hen took a deep breath in an attempt to steady herself. âI uh. I just wanted to check in ?â It came out more like a question than she wanted it to. âJust see how you are doing. Itâs been a few weeks and...â Her voice faltered but she didnât really have to continue. She couldnât just say that Evan was gone. That he isnât coming back and they have to accept it. He isnât bouncing back this time. How could she even attempt to say that when Eddie kept glancing at the door as if he expected Buck to walk through them at any second ?
Eddieâs smile wavered only for a moment, and if Hen wasnât constantly looking at him, she mightâve missed it. Then he spoke and his voice was way too calm and collected to seem natural. âIâm okay, Hen. Really.â Hen didnât believe that one bit. âChris is with my parents for now, and Iâve⌠I mean Iâve had a lot of time to think you know ? To figure things out.â He paused to take a sip out of his cup. âItâs hard but... Buck is coming back. I can feel it.â
Out of everything Hen thought sheâd hear come out Eddieâs mouth, this was not it. She nearly choked on the warm drink. She had seen grief manifest in all kinds of ways over the years, and so had Eddie. Theyâve watched people react in anger, or sadness or downright full of numbness. This wasnât denial though. Eddie wasnât just in denial, he was living in a whole new alternate reality. One where Buck was still alive, where a part of his world was still going to come home.
âEddie,â she said gently once again, placing her cup down on the table and the sound of ceramic hitting against marble was the only thing heard for a moment. âI know this is hard. We are all struggling. But...â She couldnât continue her sentence, not when Eddie suddenly interrupted her. Something she was glad for considering she wasnât even sure where she was going to go with that.
His face hardened with an expression she has only seen a small handful of times over the years they have worked together. Usually when the Buckley parents are talking, or sometimes towards Buckâs ex-partners. âI donât need you to tell me how hard it is,â he said with no room for argument. He took a breath and continued with a lighter tone. âI saw what happened. But heâs stillâ He is still here,â he tapped his temple with his finger, his eyes burning with a level of conviction that terrified her. âHe is still alive.â
âEddie,â she could only repeat his name, a total loss of words as she leaned over and took one of her hands. They were cold, she remembers how he would always complain about that and Buck would hold them cause that boy was a human heater if she ever saw one. âI know you want to believe that. So do I. But Buckâ He isnât, he canât come back.â
For a moment Eddieâs eyes flickered and Hen thought he might break, he mightâve finally let the reality settle in. But then he stood abruptly, ripping his hand away from hers and leaving a mark from the chair on his usually clean tiles.âSee this ?â He grabbed a plate by the sink and lifted it up as if held all the answers that only he could dissect. âItâs Buckâs. He had breakfast here this morning. He is justâ He went out. He will be back.â He said the last sentence to himself instead of Hen.
Hen was surprised she hasnât cried yet from this, having to swallow the lump stuck in her throat. She glanced at the plate, and then around to the meticulously cleaned and organised homeâ house; it hasnât been a home for weeks now. She couldnât keep watching this, she couldnât just watch Eddie dig a deeper hole for himself. âBuckâs gone. Heâs not coming backâ she whispered, feeling like they are going around in circles.
âNo !â His voice cracked and dropped the place into the sinkâs basin without a care for it breaking. âNo heâs not gone.â He stressed out. âHeâs here, Hen. He is here.â He pointed around the room, his breath coming out in ragged gasps. âHis shoes, his jacket, his blanket, his goddamn plate ! He is not gone.âÂ
He had tears in his eyes at this point, ones that he mightâve brushed off as frustrated ones but Hen matched him, tears welling up in her own eyes as the grief she had been holding back as well for weeks crashed over her. She got up softer than he had and moved over to him as he continued to mutter that Buck was going to come back. She touched Eddieâs arm gently in an attempt to ground him and pull him out of the spiral he was quickly falling into.
Eddieâs face crumpled, and for a moment Hen genuinely thought he might collapse right then and there in front of her. His chest heaved with sobs that he was trying to hold back and his hands curled up into fists. For a moment Hen thought he might last out, at her, at the world, at the unbearable weight on his back but instead he sank to the floor, she didnât hesitate to kneel beside him and wrap her arms around his shaking form, only barely keeping her own tears from spilling over.
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Itâs Not The Life It Seems
Pairing: Frank Iero x Reader
Era: High School AU
Requested by: N/A
Word Count: ~900
Summary/Request: Frank keeps getting into fights and Y/N is always there to help clean him up. But sheâs starting to get worried.
A/N: This is just an idea I had after seeing that gif of Revenge era Frank showing off his forehead wound (you know the one). Also Iâm always a slut for Iâm Not Okay Frank
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âUgh, you got into another fight?â You asked your best friend, Frank.
âWhat do you think?â He asked, arching an eyebrow, then winced, as that apparently caused him pain.
âCome on, you can clean up at my house so you donât give your mom a heart attack,â you said, taking his hand in yours and ignoring the flutter in your chest.
You and Frank had been best friends since you were eight, so almost ten years. Youâd instantly bonded when he moved next door to you and knocked on your front door to introduce himself. But lately, heâd been getting into fights almost every week. Heâd never tell you what they were about, but it always seemed like he lost, his face banged up and his knuckles swollen and raw.
Thankfully, the two of you lived close enough to your school to walk home together. It was the end of the day, so you could help him clean off the blood and ice his bruises, as you were quickly becoming accustomed to doing.
Frank was quiet and almost sulky on the way home, so you just left him to his thoughts. Soon, you reached your neighborhood and led him into your house.
âHey Mom,â you said.
âHi honey,â she said, then caught a glimpse of Frank. âFrank, what did you do?â
His face flushed in embarrassment as he looked down at his shoes, so you answered for him. âHe got into another fight.â
âI see that,â your mom said, nodding. âI donât know what it is with you boys, always needing to punch each other.â
âMe neither,â you said, sharing a smile with her.
âWell, you better get him upstairs so he can clean up. Frank, are you staying for dinner?â
The promise of your momâs cooking made him smile. âAlways, Mrs. Y/L/N!â
She smiled back at him. âWonderful.â
With that, you and Frank headed upstairs and into your bathroom, as was quickly becoming routine for you. Frank obediently sat on the closed toilet lid as you began to take out bandaids. Once you were done ministering to him, youâd make him go back downstairs for an ice pack, since his face was already beginning to turn purple in some places.
âYou ever gonna tell me why you keep getting into fights?â You asked, taking his hand and running it under the tap water to rinse off the dried blood. You tried to ignore the fluttering in your chest as your fingers brushed over his.
âProbably not,â he said.
You groaned. âCome on, Frankie!â
âWhat?â He asked, a challenge sparkling in his hazel eyes.
âYou canât keep doing this. Your mom is gonna collapse from worry one of these days. Or you could get kicked out of school. Have you ever thought about that?â
He rolled his eyes. âI donât care.â
âCome on, Frank, what could be more important than not getting expelled?â
âYou,â he said.
You frowned. âMe?â
âYeah,â he whispered.
You tried to catch his eye, but he was staring at his knees, stubbornly refusing to meet your gaze. Still, you were a bit relieved. This was more than youâd ever managed to get out of him about his fighting.
âWhy are you getting into fights over me?â You asked.
He snorted. âYou know why.â
âNo, I donât. Tell me,â you said.
âBecause I like you, okay? I know you know, but you never wanna talk about it,â he said.
There it was: the elephant in the room. You did know Frank had feelings for you, and of course, you felt the same way, but you were too scared to take things further, in case it ruined your friendship. You couldnât bear to lose him, but you were slowly becoming afraid that youâd lose him anyway if you kept ignoring all the signs he was giving you.
âI still donât get it. What does this have to do with me?â You asked.
âI donât wanna tell youâŚâ he said, ducking his head. You wanted to tell him that hiding his face made it harder for you to help him get cleaned up, but you held back.
âWell, now you definitely have to tell me,â you said.
âItâs stupidâŚâ he whispered.
âJust tell me,â you said.
He sighed. âTheyâŚthey say bad shit about you.â
âLike what?â You asked.
âThey call you a whore. No, they call you âIeroâs whoreâ to be exact. They say youâre ugly and a know-it-all and shit like that,â he said.
You rolled your eyes. âSome guys are assholes. They say that stuff to my face. You canât let it get to you because I donât.â
His cracked lower lip jutted out. âBut I canât just stand by and let them get away with it! Itâs not right, you donât deserve that.â
You raised your eyebrows. âDo I deserve to watch you get beaten to a pulp every week and have to clean you up afterwards?â
His hazel eyes clouded with tears he was clearly trying not to shed. âIâŚIâm sorry, I know you hate this shit and I justâŚâ
You sighed. âLook, Frankie, if you promise to settle down a little, maybe we can go out sometime.â
He frowned. âWe hang out all the time, whatâs--oh. Oh!â You watched as the wheels turned in his head and he realized what you were implying.
âYeah,â you said slowly, nodding.
Then you leaned in and kissed the corner of his mouth, careful to avoid the parts of his lips that were cracked and bruised.
âI love you, Frankie,â you whispered when you pulled away.
âAnd I love you, Y/N,â he whispered, grinning at you.
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Heartache (Shouta Aizawa x Pro-Hero! Reader)
A/N: Ooo-kay, finally back from my month long, needed break from writing. Iâm kinda attached to MHA at the moment, so that is what I am taking requests for.
Summary; The two times where two of UAs teachers nearly lose their lives to protect their students, mindful of the child they have at home.
Request; Can we have some pro hero love where reader (pro hero) and Mr. Aizawa have a daughter and Thirteen who is readers best friend is said daughters god mom while Present Mic is the god dad plz
Akari- Japanese name meaning âLightâ. Readers quirk is the ability to send large waves of energy a selective distance, and shield herself with said energy.
Two months prior- U.A.
âAlright, everyone,â
Shouta Aizawa seemed well too calm this early morning. Too calm despite the fact that he is holding a child on his hip, who looked all too like him.
âTodayâs lesson is simple. Based on communication,â He starts, âCommunication when it comes to citizens. This lesson will teach you how to comfort an injured or scared citizen during an attack, specifically women and children,â
âUh, Mr. Aizawa?â Denki Kaminari was first to speak up, hand half raised in confusion, âWhy do you have a baby?â
âIsnât it obvious?â Mina leans forward, eyes wide and gleaming happily, âThatâs Mr. Aizawas and Neutron Shields baby! She looks just like him,â
âLets not jump to conclusions,â Shouta hums, but the barely visible smirk on his lips lets his class know that the toddler is, indeed, his own, âI brought Akari here today for the lesson that will be taught. You will all need to learn and know how to comfort a child during an attack if the child has been separated from its parents,â
âOnly, however,â Shoutas eyebrow raise causes his students to watch as his daughter leaned against his shoulder and glanced outward to the class, âAkari does have a quirk. It is similar to her motherâs, as Mina predicted, Neutron Shields. Meaning if she were to get defensive, you would have to calm the child from harming herself more, or you,â
âSo weâre fighting a little brat,â Bakugou mumbles, rolling his eyes so when he looked back up to his teacher, said mans hair had raised and his eyes glowed red,
âInsult my daughter again,â Shouta threatens, instantly dropping his intimidating act when Akaris hand reaches up to pat his face. With a deep sigh, Shouta looks away from his daughter to his students, âNo. Youre not fighting her. Simply consult her into comfort so she knows youâre not a threat. Akaris been taught how to control her quirk on demand,â
Lowering the toddler onto the floor, Shouta steps back as soon as his daughter began to tear up, twisting to reach for her father with quiet sniffles.
âWell?â Shouta eyes the students, when Akari hiccups and looks back to the teenagers, âSheâs distressed,â
âI got this,â Kirishima is first to push out of his desk, hands out and steps slow as he approached the child, âHey, Akari, itâs okay,â
Akari is swift to shake her head and twist her upper body away from the red head. On cue, a purple bubble surrounds herself, Bakugous brows pinching as Dekis mouth dropped, hand reaching over to pat Todorokis shoulder in amazement.
The bubble then expands to hit Kirishima and throw him off his feet, landing hard on his back so Akari blinked and giggled, loudly, the bubble then vanishing.
âMe next!â Mina exclaims, Akaris eyes flicking from the red head and to the pink skinned girl, who knelt down next to Kirishima and opened-closed her hands.
Hesitantly, Akami leant forward onto her hands and knees, ready to crawl up to the girl, but instead blinked so a bubble formed around Mina, the bubble suddenly shrinking so Mina shrieked and pressed her hands to the sides in an attempt to stop the shied like bubble from crushing her.
âAkari,â Shouta speaks up, his daughter blinking so the bubble vanished, her eyes shifting to her father before looking back to the class, Mina exhaling in relief and backing away.
âCome on, shit for brains,â Bakugou scoffs, standing to his feet so Akari stared at him, âWeâve trained with Neutron Shield before. The brats no different,â
âAkari is a child,â Todoroki reminds, on his own feet and stepping forward so Akari instantly reached up, the fire and ice powered male pausing to stare at her.
Her whine when he makes no move to pick her up causes him to do so, Shouta smirking as Akari stared at Bakugou and stuck her thumb into her mouth.
âIt seems she has a favorite,â
USJ Training Facility
You werenât sure what happened. As soon as you were in line of view, two of Shoutas students- Uraraka and Ashido- immediately began to panic from where they knelt down next to Thirteens collapsed figure.
âMrs. Aizawa!â Mina cries, tears in her eyes as her hand rests on Thirteens shoulder, âThirteen- she took a hit-!â
You are quick to move next to Ochaco, hand opposite of Minas so Thirteens head turned and her eyes weakly looked up at you,
âThirteen,â You call, softly, âHey. Itâs okay,â
âI tried to protect them,â Thirteen murmurs, and you nod, sliding your arms beneath hers to heave her to her feet, Mina and Ochaco quick to stick their hands out in case she fell,
âYou did,â You promise, âYou did amazing, Thirteen,â Your eyes flick to the class, âWhereâs Iida?â
âGetting help,â Mina heaves, shakily, âWhat- whatâs going to happen to Thirteen?â
âShes going to be okay,â You reassure, and shift Thirteens arm around your shoulders so she fell slump against your side, âIâm going to make sure of that,â Your eyes shift to your best friend, âDo you hear me, Thirteen? Akari needs her godmother in her life,â
âIâll always be here for that angel,â Thirteen breathily laughs, watching as you looked over in alarm at the sounds of fighting, âEraserhead. He stayed behind,â
âHe can hold his own,â You murmur, but the doubt in your tone causes Thirteen to grasp the back of your suit,
âGo help him,â Thirteen demands, extending her free hand for Mina to drape at her shoulders, âIâll be fine,â
You hesitantly peel away from the pro-hero, glancing between her and where the fighting could be heard, before you sprint down the steps, looking up in time to see Noumu, Shigarakis weapon, on top of your collapsed husband.
âHey!â You call, raising your hands so a bubble surrounded you, expanding in a rush to hit Noumu so he stumbled off his feet, a good distance away from Shoutas figure.
Protect him. Protect him now.
With quick steps, you throw out a hand that forms a bright (Favorite/Color) bubble, which you slide under and next to Shoutas collapsed form so the bubble shielded both you and him.
âI always wondered when I would get to fight the famous Eraserhead and Neutron Shield at once,â Shigaraki speaks, your eyes shifting over your shoulder where he stood at one end of your bubble, while Noumu stood opposite of his leader,
âBut defeating them both?â Shigaraki chuckles, âA dream come true,â
The first punch Noumu sends against your bubble creates severe damage to your shield. It cracks beneath his fist, giving the monster the confidence he needs to continue punching and clawing at the barrier,
âMrs. Aizawa canât take them both- not on her own,â Midoryia heaves from his spot in the water, where he, Mineta, and Asui hid a good distance from the battle.
âShe has shields!â Mineta reminds, shivering in a panic, âSheâll be fine!â
âRibbit, her bubble can only take a certain amount of damage before it breaks,â Asui states, âAnd the damage her shields take, her body takes,â
Whereâs All Might when you need him?
With a weak breath, you slide your hand beneath Shoutas head, resting it in your lap as your muscles screamed for you to drop your shields.
âHoney,â You call, pleadingly, free hand resting over Shoutas chest- thankful to feel a heartbeat, âBaby, wake up. Please,â
Looking up, you watch as the top of your bubble cracks and shrivels in defeat, Noumu stepping back enough for the shield to drop and leave not only you, but now Shouta, vulnerable.
With a startled gasp, you raise your hand as Noumu then lunged at you, the shield only protecting your face, so the punch Noumu sends forces you feet back, tumbling backwards and onto your front, leaving Shouta out in the open yet again.
Fingernails grabbing at dirt, you moan out in pain, forcing your arms to push you to sit up, raising your head in time for Noumus claws to latch at your shoulders, shoving you onto your back, his weight forcing you to gasp for air at the pressure of him on your chest,
Raising a hand that clawed at his arm, you are quick to throw a shied, the edge slicing Noumus face so he only jerked back then growled down at you.
With wide eyes, you look over to Shoutas form, then up, at a distanced- âI am here!â
Noumus weight lifts as he departs, your lungs expanding as you gasped, coughing as you sit up, slowly moving up to Shoutas form.
âHelp me get him up,â You demand, when Tsuyu and Mineta rush next to you, âPlease,â
âMrs. Aizawa- youâre bleeding!â Mineta stammers, your hand raising to your mouth where blood dripped.
Shaking your head, you allow All Might to take your hand and help you stand, âIâm not worried about me. Get him out of here,â
Camp Attack
Why were you struggling so hard to fight a girl with a knife? Maybe it was because you just couldnât stomach the thought that your students- your husband were still somewhere in these woods, being attacked by someone else.
Your breaths are shallow by the time you pull yourself from your thoughts. With a hand grasping Togas wrist that held the knife, your eyes wildly search behind you, landing on two of your students,
âAsui, Uraraka, go,â You heave, grunting when Toga shoves at your front, âGo, now!â
Uraraka gasps in fear when Togas foot skillfully hooks around your ankle, jerking so you fell on your back with a pained grunt. Toga is quick to pin over top of you, knife held against the skin of your neck.
âArenât you supposed to be a pro-hero?â Toga grins, voice high as you narrow your eyes and suck in a deep breath through the nose, âYouâve gotten weak after having that stupid baby of yours,â
âDo not ever mention my child,â You heave, raising a hand so a shield formed, that instantly vanished when Togas knife slid across your neck, startling you to gasp in quick breaths,
âMrs. Aizawa!â The two students shriek, your eyes pinching shut as you form a small bubble around you, successfully pushing Toga off of you so you could sit up and cough, hand covered in dark red blood.
You look over and form a bubble around Asui and Uraraka, looking back up at Toga when she giggles, dragging the blood covered knife across the bubble,
âYou think a small bubble can stop me from getting what I want?â With a quick jab, the knife plunges into the bubble so you flinched and raised a hand to your neck.
Vision blurry, you blink, the bubble shattering so Toga giggled and lunges forward, not before a tongue shoots out and wraps around her, tossing her to the side and into a tree nearby,
âMrs. Aizawa!â Uraraka quickly moves next to you, eyes wide as she watches you slowly lower back onto the dirt in defeat, âMrs. Aizawa, stay awake!â Uraraka looks to Asui, alarmed to find Toga gone, âTsu, go get help!â
âUraraka, Asui!â The two girls look over, to find a group- consisting of Midoryia, Todoroki, Bakugou, Shoji, and Tokoyami- rushing towards them, âCome on! Weâre heading back to the Camp!â
âOur pace will be slower with two injuries,â Todoroki states, eyes flicking to Midoryia on Shojis back, before he moves to help lift you up, your arms around his and Urarakas shoulders, âWe need to find Mr. Aizawa, first and foremost,â
âThey said we can use our powers to defend ourselves, and now we have two injured, one being a teacher,â Shoji states, âSo donât let anyone stop you,â
Present
âYou shouldnât be moving around so much,â
You hum through a light laugh, lifting your head from where you rocked back and forth on your feet, your daughter curled against you.
âIâm not dying, Shouta. Iâll be fine,â You feel Akaris hand graze across the stitches at your neck, as you turn to face your husband.
âThatâs nothing to joke about,â Shouta steps up, sliding his hands under Akaris arms to peel her away from you and against his own shoulder,
âJust thought Iâd give a little pay back for the heart attack you gave me during the USJ incident,â You shrug, frowning at Shoutas glare, âOkay. Sorry. But honestly, honey, Iâm okay. Recovery Girl said I should be fully healed by next week,â
âUntil then you should be resting,â You roll your eyes at Shoutas statement, turning to then pluck a shirt from your pile of laundry to fold,
âTake your own advance, honey. You havenât slept a full night in three weeks,â You turn, hand at your hip, âWhy donât we call Hizashi and let him take Akari for a day or two? Give us time to rest?â
âIf you want another kid, just ask,â Shouta smirks, your lips parting as he moves around you, laying Akari in her own bed in the corner,
âThatâs not what I meant, and you know it,â
âDo I, though?â Shoutas hands rest at your hips, and you smile, hand at his jaw to pull his lips against yours.
âSeriously, though,â You hum, âHizashi would love to see his god daughter. I promised Thirteen Iâd help her with her own recovery,â
âI swear you love Thirteen more than me,â
âOh, definitely. No questions asked,â
âFine, go ask her for another kid,â
âNah, I like my kids to have your attitude,â
âOh, sure,â
âReally!â
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hi! love your writing! could you possibly do dating headcannons for technoblade?! possibly including some kissing/cuddling :)
Iâm so sorry this took so long!! Iâm finally on break so Iâll be posting a little more frequently for now! Also I got very carried away with this one,,,, um,,, itâs almost 4,000 words long,,, can you tell Techno is my comfort streamer?? And gender-neutral pronouns as usual! (Edit: This is C!Techno btw, didnât think I needed to point that out seeing as we all know the actual streamer is not a bloodthirsty half-piglin man but I just got an angry anon in my ask box, so Iâm specifying.))
Dating C!Technoblade HCs
Techno being half piglin shares their obsession with gold, and in turn, likes to gift you gold as often as he can. Usually, in the form of jewellery that matches his own, he even gifts you a âfriendshipâ emerald, embedded in a choker you wear most days. And of course, if you ask for it, he makes sure to acquire a crown for you to match his own. As a man who forges his own weapons, he is aware of the process of smelting and sure, he could make the jewellery himself but heâs not very crafty with his hands. Dealing with the small potion vials he uses to brew is difficult enough for his large hands, let alone something as finicky and delicate as jewellery. But when heâd asked you to make your relationship âofficialâ per se, he did persevere and make a ring for you, he ended up making several and scrapping too many he didnât think were good enough. This continued until Phil had to intervene telling him that if he wasnât gonna hurry up and ask you he was gonna do it for him, mortified at the thought Techno buckled down and despite the ringâs faults, which were only obvious to him, he gave it to you. You adored it of course, and then he told you he had made it, and it only made you love it more. Techno had underestimated how he would feel when he finally saw you wearing it, he almost killed Phil. The two had been sparring outside in the snow when you had come riding up from the nearby forest, the ring on your finger glinting against the early morning sun and stunning him. Him blindly thrusting his sword forward, head completely turned to you as you approached. Only turning away when he noticed your horrified expression. Thankfully Phil was fine, but you were banned from flashing anything too shiny whenever you came to visit. Techno never heard the end of it from Phil and yourself, however, teasing him for it whenever you had the time.
Techno is a man of few words, for the most part. His love language leans closer to physical touch and acts of service. This man craves your touch, you can hold him so gently in your small hands and he can hardly describe the feeling that washes over him. He wonders if he feels contentment, or if he just feels whole for once. The latter terrifies him because he has no idea what heâs going to do if he ever loses you. Thatâs a lie. He knows what will happen. The voices will finally win, and itâll be over. Heâll be lost in the consciousness of a mind that was never truly his own, to begin with. But when you hold him he forgets about all of it, his mind feels clear and quiet. Even if it's just for a few minutes he cherishes those moments, holding you tightly to his chest and simply letting himself breathe. You are his rock, undoubtedly. And now that heâs lived without you for so long, he never intends on letting you go.
Technoâs favourite way to cuddle with you is when youâre both lying on the couch, you draped over him, head on his chest. Sometimes heâll read to you and sometimes youâll lie with him for hours, begging him to take a break for once. Even Phil canât pull him away from his work on his worst days, but you never fail to tempt him with warm cuddles by the fire. Another one of his favourites has to be when every blue moon you wake up before him, heâs quite a light sleeper so once you stir, heâll wake too. But if you manage to remain undetected and get downstairs he will groggily trudge down the ladder, shirtless and hair an absolute tangled mess. Without a word he will simply wrap his arms around you, pulling your back tightly against his chest and nuzzle his face into your neck all whilst grumbling that you left him alone to wake up. You will always giggle and apologise with soft kisses and a steaming cup of coffee, of course, he begrudgingly forgives you. Those slow morning cuddles as you cook are some of his favourites. When you desperately try to scoot around the small kitchen to stop the eggs from burning and he merely holds you tighter, strength easily holding you back as you whine out complaints as he chuckles against your neck.
Techno is such a sucker for you whenever you kiss his scars. He has a few on his hands that you will always target if you ever feel if he is getting quiet or distant. Your lips on his skin always pull his spiralling thoughts back to the present, back to you. Whenever he starts to feel less than human you practically drag the man to your shared bedroom to remind him of how human he is. Sometimes Techno will tell you the tales behind the scars you pay particular attention to, others he wonât, you focus on those the most. Doing your best to lighten the dark clouds that plague him on his worst days.
Techno isnât one for a lot of PDA, content to hold your hand and occasionally kiss your forehead. However, if he ever feels threatened by any of the other members of the SMP he is likely to hold you close and glare down anyone who dares look your way. But Techno isnât intimidated by anyone at the moment, meaning he has no reason to act particularly possessive whilst youâre out. This man adores your hands, he loves watching how small they look in his own. Heâll kiss along your knuckles, especially if youâre wearing the ring he gave you, heâll murmur a soft, âLooking gorgeous your majesty.â Just to watch the way you smile brightly at him when he does, almost always leaning forward to meet his lips with your own.
Techno is plagued by the memories of his past, the voices a constant reminder of this. He can handle them during the day, but itâs at night when heâs most vulnerable to them. The first time Techno wakes from a night terror you are practically thrown out of the bed as he violently jerks around. Which instantly sets you on alert, Techno sleeps like a rock usually. Itâs only when you manage to stand up that you can see him, his body is caked in sweat, strands of his long hair sticking to his skin, the sheets are even damp from it. âTechno.â You try to wake him, knowing heâs a light sleeper. But that doesnât work. Eventually, you cautiously climb back into bed, tenderly holding his face in your hands, noticing tears slipping down his cheeks as he practically trembles. âTechno.â You call his name again, nothing. âTechno!â He shoots up, sending you flying backwards again in case he threw a punch with him. His eyes are wide, pupils blown out. Youâve never seen him look so terrified before, he scans the room, eyes darting every which way until his eyes finally land on you. âA-Are you okay?â You probe, the tears start again, but they are silent and run quick down his cheeks. His breathing is shallow and quick as his eyes seem to lose focus, looking straight through you. You move closer to him, âHey, hey.â You coo, unsure what the hell is going on because of course, Techno wasnât going to tell you he has night terrors. You take his face in your hands again, wiping at the tears on his skin. âTechno youâre safe, youâre okay.â You speak clearly before he pulls you closer, shoving his face into your chest, his arms tight around your middle. You wrap your arms around him as best you can, repeating comforting phrases until his grip loosens, and eventually, he pulls you back down to lie with him. You donât ask him about it until he mentions it the next morning over breakfast. You hold him close as he talks, face emotionless and eyes blank, trying to distance himself from the events even as he retells them. You deserve to know the atrocious things heâs done. And yet you still choose to stay. Even after everything he tells you, you donât budge from his side. That speaks louder to Techno than any confession of your undying love could.
Techno is a wanted individual and just by interacting with him, youâre put in danger. But being his partner doubles that danger by tenfold. His enemies will see you as his weakness and desire to use you against him. So, he takes it upon himself to train you, he knows the last thing you want to do is be the cause for his capture or untimely death. As much as Technoblade claims he never dies, if it were your life or his he would not hesitate to sacrifice himself for you. This terrifies you beyond belief of course, so you agree to let him train you. No matter if you already are somewhat skilled Technoâs paranoia surrounding your safety will always encourage him to push your skills further. Most early mornings the two of you spend together, sparring for hours until the sun is high in the sky or until you grow too exhausted to continue. Which in the early days, was often. But there comes a day when you finally best him. He doesnât remember if he was going easy on you or was distracted by his surroundings, scanning the perimeter. He only remembers the moment you knocked him down onto his back, you look down at him panting with such a shocked expression. Techno looks up to you and holds out an arm, you take it ready to pull him back up only for him to pull you down with him. Techno holds you tight to his chest, the sun warm on both of your faces as it reflects upon the surrounding snow. Neither of you speak but you both understand what this means, youâre ready.
Techno isnât one for grand gestures to prove his love to you. The man is dramatic, sure. But he finds himself yearning for simplicity, and you provide it. He doesnât tell you he loves you very often, he is a man of few words, youâve always known this so you never expected it. However, his actions scream it to you. Countless times you have mentioned small complaints about little things in your life and Techno takes them on as if the draft in your window had a personal vendetta against him. As if it had threatened your very life. Youâd never seen a man fix a window frame so aggressively before. It was funnier to watch than youâd admit to him if given the chance. On one particular occasion, you mentioned his absence from the cabin, his explanation of the importance of the Syndicate and the new room Phil and himself had constructed. You understood and didnât mention it again, not thinking anything of it but a necessary and temporary inconvenience. Only for Phil and Techno to be set up at the kitchen table when you came downstairs the next morning, the table covered in tattered books and coffee spill-stained scrolls. You were confused for a moment, spotting the Syndicate plans, codenames, etc sprawled out in Philâs chicken scratch. Until it clicked. Hauling all of the stuff up from the Syndicate room had been a bit of a pain but the way your eyes lit up in realisation was more than enough for Techno to know it was the right choice. Â
This man cannot keep a secret from you. Most may think he isnât very talkative, but you can hardly get him to shut up sometimes. Not that youâd ever want him to, eager to listen to whatever he has to say. He will always come to you when he feels he needs advice, knowing you will offer a fresh perspective that may give him the breakthrough he needs to make an informed decision. You are his rock and he never wants you to forget that. He may be more talkative with you but that doesnât stop him from being a fantastic listener. Sometimes he can get zoned out when the voices become too much. In the beginning, you found it difficult to tell when he wasnât able to listen, but after being around him for so long youâve got a better knack for it. And sometimes you canât and you keep talking, heâll just silently press a hand to whatever part of you is easiest to reach. And that usually gets the message across. Sometimes you can pull him out of his own head, and other times you canât. So you just sit with him in comfortable silence, usually, youâll place your smaller hand in his and lean into him. The two of you have fallen asleep countless times like that.
However, sometimes the fact he canât keep a secret from you leads to some comical miscommunication neither of the two of you foresaw. Phil, Techno and Ranboo had left for around a week in search of a new woodland mansion to raid, following one of Ranbooâs countless maps. Upon their return, Techno seemed visibly, off. He wasnât being distant or getting lost in his own head, it was more as if he were actively avoiding you. Which was something very un-Techno. What made your worry increase tenfold was when you asked Phil if he had noticed any kind of difference the blonde merely shook his head. âHe seems normal to me, mate.â Because thereâs no way Phil didnât notice Technoâs change in behaviour, which means theyâre both hiding something from you. Knowing the two men quite well, you knew they wouldnât break. But Ranboo would. So with your head held high, you sought out to find the boy, only to find out he was staying in Snowchester for the time being but would be returning in the morning. That night thoughts of self-doubt plagued you, wondering if it was something you had said or done that made Techno act strangely. But just as the moon was reaching its zenith, Techno came into your shared bedroom. He beckoned for you to follow him, after putting on some snow appropriate outerwear the two of you were on the back of Carl headed towards the forestâs tree line that faced the cabin. You asked Techno where you were going his only response, âItâs a surprise.â And to say your heart soared would be a slight understatement when the two of you finally reached the forest clearing. A small candlelit dinner for two inside of a dark oak gazebo. One that looked as if it had only been finished recently, the veneer on the wood still in impeccable condition as Techno led you over to it. You were truly floored by this display, stars illuminated in your bright eyes. âPhil and Ranboo helped. We brainstormed on our way back from the woodland mansion. And I, I knew Iâd spill the secret the moment you asked. Sorry.â His apology and explanation are curt, much like the man himself. Â You hold him tight then, arms wrapped around him for as long as heâll let you. He chuckles after a while, âCâmon, the foodâs getting cold.â He pulls away after pressing a soft kiss to your forehead, pulling your chair out for you because Phil told him to. The blush you provide lets him know he should do it more often. As the two of you begin to finish your food you hear the soft strumming of a guitar and an equally soft voice to match. Floating atop one of the branches in a nearby tree, as if he were trying to sit on it, is Ghostbur. He sends a small and quick wave when you spot him before his hand drops back down to his guitar. âWow, you really pulled out all the stops for this, huh?â You look back to Techno to find him now stood up, offering his hand to you. âFor you. Anything.â You take his hand and he leads you into the middle of the gazebo with a grace you always knew he had. Ghostbur continues to serenade, the two of you dancing in your own private world until the moon was low on the horizon once again.
Whenever Techno leaves to go and fight he knows you worry about him. You do not doubt his skills but his luck is bound to run out eventually. Skill and resources only account for so much of the outcome, luck and fate determine the rest. Techno worries when he leaves to fight as well. He worries about what will happen if he ever loses. When his enemies will come for you, his past now liable to catch up with you as well as himself. He canât have that happen. Thatâs why he keeps fighting, he wonât stop until he knows that if he ever falls in battle you will be safe from his enemies past or present. When Techno eventually does get back from the battle, without fail you will swear up and down that he cannot keep doing this and that next time youâre going to leave him to bleed out in the snow on the porch. You never do. But some days Techno thinks youâd be better off if you did. But those are the kind of thoughts you happily kiss away with a soft smile and a few gently spoken words. You are always the one to patch him up when heâs injured, which isnât often but you remain swift with sutures and bandages despite that. No matter how badly heâs been injured you will always hold him so reverently, with such a gentle expression that it never fails to floor him. Most sessions in which you patch him up devolve into soft gasps and warm hands on your body to repay you for your âservicesâ. Â
Techno knew you were different from the moment he met you. He acknowledges how stupidly clichĂŠ that is, but itâs true. The constant chatter of the voices in his head drowned out the first time he saw you, even if it was just for a moment. They stuttered and stammered, just as he did. You floored them as much as you floored him. When you were with him, they would quieten. As if they wanted to concentrate on what you were saying as much as he did. Not even Phil made the voices act in such a way. Only you. Nowadays they only bother him on certain bad days that grow more and more infrequent the longer you are in his life. You drown them out in a way nothing else in his life ever has. He doesnât know how he can ever repay you for that but vowing to be by your side for the rest of his life seems to be a good enough start for the two of you.
The first time Techno tells you he loves you is when youâre in battle together. Techno, Phil and yourself had decided to raid a woodland mansion, something all three of you had done before with no trouble. But upon arriving, everything that could have gone wrong did go wrong. This led to the three of you becoming separated within the confines of the thick wooden walls. You were managing to keep a level head but fear was growing in the pit of your stomach. With every vindicator you took down another only seemed to replace it, leaving you tired and heaving for air. You were in good shape all things considered but you were getting tired and soon you would get careless, you needed to find Techno and Phil and get the hell out of here before things got worse. Your totem of undying tied tightly to your waist glints against the setting sun pouring through the large floor to ceiling windows as you charge past, enemies remain at your back as you plough forward heading for the set of stairs you know are here somewhere. As you spot the sacred stairs you hear a shout of pain followed by a deep snarl. You look over the stairs balcony to see Techno swarmed by a group of stubborn Vex. He looks exhausted. Bloodstains him, youâre unsure whether itâs his, the enemies, or a combination of the two. Techno fails to notice the Ravager charging towards him from behind, the axe raised high above its head. The half-piglin far too distracted by the Vex and the aiming of his crossbow at their stupid little bodies. It takes only a moment for you to vault over the second-floor railing and plummet towards the Ravager. You land on its shoulders and it stumbles, your hand shoots out to restrain its axe-wielding arm. The other hand desperately clawing at you as it grumbles and groans grow high pitched and panicked. Your legs wrap tightly around its throat until you hear a sickening pop and you fall to the ground along with the now very dead Ravager. You donât manage to catch yourself, despite the adrenaline pumping through your veins. You let out a soft groan as a hand comes into view, Techno following it. You take his hand and he hauls you back up and onto your feet. Now that youâre closer to him you can tell that some of the blood staining his clothing is his, but youâre sure you mirror his look. He doesnât let go of your hand now that youâre stood up and neither do you. You look up from your entwined hands to his face, heâs staring at you with an expression you canât quite determine. âTech-â His lips plant firmly onto your own, swallowing your words instantly. He grips the small of your back, trying to pull you closer into him as if the two of you could fuse into one single being. When he finally pulls away to let you breathe your lungs are burning, soft gasps heaving in air. âI love you-â He mumbles the phrase repeatedly against your lips like a prayer, a mantra, only to capture your lips again before you can even respond to his confession in kind. Eventually, the two of you break apart long enough for you to be able to tell him you love him as well. You knew he loved you before that moment, but in reality, he finally realised how much he loved you. And for the first time, it didnât scare him.
~Requests are still open! But itâs a little full so please be patient!~
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Hey! Love your stories so much I just had to ask! Do you have any favorite drarry authors/stories? I sometimes compare the quality of other stories to ROA (oops!) because ROA is just that good. My personal favorites are ROA (of course!), the Foundations Series (saras_girl), the ordeal of being known (louisfake), denouement (the_never_was), Good to Me (And I'd Be So Good to You) (AWickedMemory), and To Hurt and Heal (cassisluna). Have you read these? Have a wonderful day! :)
Thank you, so glad youâve enjoyed my stories! And thank you for so patiently waiting for a reply. I havenât been online much in the past couple of weeks. Unfortunately I havenât read any of your recs, but Iâm always happy to add another fic to my to-read list.
I did a rec post a few months ago, but Iâll post an updated version now. The Skyhawke Archives appear to be down, which is crushing news. Iâve had to update a lot of the links.
So here are my favourite Drarry fanfics:
And We Are At Our Apogee (PG-13) by angelgazing
Summary: Draco wanted revenge, but it didn't work out that way.
My notes: Californian beaches, supermarkets, road trips, and a bittersweet ending.
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A Reckless State of Mind (T) by Lomonaaeren
Summary: Draco is a Psyche-Diver, and his newest patient is Auror Potter, whoâs been a pathological liar for over a yearâand has just tried to violently end his own life.
Notes: The plot alone guarantees inclusion on this list. Probably the most creative fic Iâve ever read, and the twists and turns will keep you guessing.
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Berlin, In the Year of Our Lord (PG) by Are
Summary: Harry is a green-tea addict. Draco stalks him.
Notes: Probably my all-time favourite fic, along with Blue Vase. Itâs sparse and minimal and I love that writing style.
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Blue Vase (M) by ivyblossom
Summary: Letâs pretend.
Notes: Draco finds an amnesiac Harry and befriends him, pretending they were once lovers. Itâs pensive, short, and bittersweet.
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The Boy Who Only Lived Twice (E) by lettered
Summary: Harry Potter is an Unspeakable. Draco Malfoy is the wizard who shagged him. Adventure! Intrigue! Secret identities, celebrities, spies! It's all right here, folks.
Notes: Action-heavy fics are damn hard to write, but lettered nails it. The action scenes are breakneck speed, the conversations are threaded with double meaning, and even the silences are tense.
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Draco in Darkness (T) by Plumeria47.
Summary: Following an accident in his seventh year, Draco loses his eyesight.
Notes: This is one of the first fics I ever read (when it was over on FF in 2003) so itâs probably here just for nostalgia points alone. I read it when I was a kid and just thought it was a lovely golden fairytale, the best romance Iâd ever read in my (very short, thus far) life. I love reading it again, even years later as an adult when I can see the tarnish on it; the things my childhood eyes didnât notice. I donât care. Itâs my soft and fuzzy comfort fic.
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The Flesh is Frail (NC-17) by wildestranger
Summary: None
Notes: Draco has injuries from curses and spells, and Harry keeps him company. Draco is angry; Harry is stubborn. They argue their way into a grudging relationship. Itâs a short read and well worth your ten minutes.
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Good-bye to Yesterday (NC-17) by furiosity
Summary: Draco felt ready to face even a million years in Azkaban as long as it meant that at the end of it all, he would make Potter pay.
Notes: Itâs not a dark fic, but it certainly dips in and out of the shadows. If you like your romance to be sharp as a razor and bitter as black coffee, give it a read.
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Hymn to Color (PG) by Lomonaaeren
Summary: Months after Draco cast a curse that took Harryâs eyesight, Harry is still trying to come to terms with it. Draco still wanted forgiveness, which was probably the problem.
Notes: Probably my very inadequate idea of âfluffâ. Itâs a quiet, introspective fic. Draco and Harry are well-written.
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Kings among runaways (PG) by enderxenocide.
Summary: Later, the toast will be slightly overcooked, Draco will burn the eggs, and there will be another fist fight in-between the living room and the front door, but theyâll eat breakfast with second-hand plates and Dracoâs great-grandmotherâs silverware.
Notes: Dreamy descriptions, abstract scenes, and the characters are lovingly delineated. Beautiful writing.
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On Broken Glass (PG-13) by coffeejunkii
Summary: After the final battle, Draco is holding the shards that are left of his and Harryâs life.
Notes: Established relationship. Harryâs forgetful and seems to suffer both short-term and long-term memory loss; Draco stays by his side through six years of post-war amnesia. Very short, just a tiny ficlet. Thereâs sequels (in bite-size pieces) but I prefer to read the first ficlet and leave it there.
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Paper Dolls (M) by cupiscent
Summary: In the final year of the War, Draco gets a letter, makes a choice and pays the price.
Notes: Short, succinct, and packs a punch. No character deaths, in case the summary has you feeling nervous.
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Portrait (PG-13) by Silent Blast
Summary: None.
Notes: Dorian Grey, but Drarry. Of course itâs going to be good.
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Shattered (NC-17) by femmequixotic
Summary: One damned accident involving one too-lucky curse, and suddenly you'd think he was five again, with their Harry, be carefuls and their quick Levitating charms ready the instant the potion gives way and his rebelling hands lose hold of whatever's in their grasp.
Notes: Dracoâs an artist. Harryâs intrigued by his sculptures and paintings.
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Snatch (PG-13) by didntyoupotter
Summary: Harry is comatose, Hermione and Ron arenât much help, and Draco isnât sure about anything anymore.
Notes: The opening scene fools you into thinking this will be a light read with a streak of good humour. Donât fall for it. By the third act, youâll be hanging onto every word and feeling a lot of emotions. Also, back in the day, this was one of the Draco/Harry fics. Everyone knew of it. Pay your respects to your fandom history and read this beloved classic.
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The Stages of Acceptance (T) by Lomonaaeren.
Summary: Harry, already happily married to Ginny, receives the news that he's Draco's mate. Law and custom don't give him the option of ignoring the news. The stages of his reaction, one by one.
Notes: This is not a romance, and I love that the author just casually chucks all the Veela tropes in the bin and says ânopeâ. In Lomonaaerenâs own words, this fic is more practical than romantic. Harry is unfamiliar with the Veela concepts and hates the very idea of being âshackledâ to someone; he rejects Draco at once. Draco is miserable and lonely. They do eventually come to understand each other better, but itâs a huge struggle with lots of setbacks. The general air of pessimism and misery does make the small glimpses of compassion and empathy feel so well-earned. I love a fic that rations out its happiness.
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The Stately Homes of Wiltshire (E) by waspabi
Summary: Malfoy Manor has mould, dry rot and an infestation of unusually historical poltergeists. Harry Potter is on the case.
Notes: This one needs no introduction. The writing is polished, the characterisation perfect, and the dialogue is fun. I love the humour woven throughout it.
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Then Comes a Mist and a Weeping Rain (E) by faithwood.
Summary: It always rains for Draco Malfoy. Metaphorically. And literally. Ever since he had accidentally Conjured a cloud. A cloud that's ever so cross.
Notes: Another one that most of us know. Itâs a lighthearted and fun read.
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Tomorrow, and Tomorrow, and Tomorrow (M) by novembersnow
Summary: In the war-torn years after Hogwarts, one man has no knowledge of his yesterdays.
Notes: Another classic back in the feverish heyday of the Harry Potter fandom, when books were still being released and everyone had worked themselves up into a shipping frenzy. And no wonder this fic was an instant hit. Draco has lost all his memories and Harryâs investigating as an Auror, but the longer you read, the more you start questioning everything. Good twists and turns that lead to a tender ending.
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Turn by Saras_Girl
Summary: One good turn always deserves another. Apparently.
Notes: An inevitable inclusion on any favourites list. I think my favourite thing about it is the characterisation. Everyone is so well-rounded; the characters are brought to life and feel like old friends. All their habits, styles, mannerisms, even the way they walk or talk. While I love everyone in this fic, I have to admit that Blaise is just amazing. Of all the thousands of Blaises imagined by fanfic writers, I love this one the best. âOld beanâ indeed.
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Under the Ivy (PG-13) by coffeejunkii
Summary: It is impressive how much you can learn about someone by simply sharing a few rooms. They donât spend time together, not really, but Harry still knows that Malfoy prefers raspberry jam over strawberry, that he hums along to the Wireless when he thinks no one is around, and that his leg is bothering him more than usual when the temperatures drop below freezing.
Notes: Another old, old favourite of mine. Itâs like snuggling into a soft blanket. Remus owns a cottage and Harry moves in after the war. Later, Remus lets a room to Draco, who is an outcast after the war and has limited housing options. Harry isnât happy at first with the new lodger, but he eventually warms up to Draco. A slow and gentle romance.
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Vale Sanare (M) by rurounihime
Summary: Dracoâs world gains a new component, just when he thought heâd sorted everything out.
Notes: London nightclubs, one-night-stands, loud music and lonely nights. Draco has seizures due to a curse from the war, and the seizures have led to a fear of intimacy. Short and sweet.
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The Way Down (T) by lettered
Summary: Malfoyâs all, âCome out of there,â the way you say to a cat who is badly behaved. And Harryâs all like, âNo, what, Iâm a hermit! And I have a chest-monster! And I am crazy magically powerful!â and Malfoyâs all, âWe all have problems, bub.â (thoughtfully) âYou are crazy though. Iâll give you that.â
Notes: I just adore this fic. The fic starts well-grounded, giving you a solid backstory and matter-of-fact context, but as it goes on, it slowly unravels into dreamy scenes, lush settings, and repeated motifs. Itâs just such a beautiful story.
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When Love beckons to you, follow him (PG-13) by megyal
Summary: Draco wakes up, lost, somewhere in a forest. He has no idea where he is or how he got there. As he is blundering around trying to find his way home, he hears Harry's voice in his head, telling him what to do.
Notes: I generally like my fics to be bittersweet or with a bit of heartache â but this fic is just a little cloud of softness. If you need something light and lovely without being syrupy-sweet, this is a good choice!
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The World of the Living (M) by fourth_rose
Summary: A traumatised war hero and a convicted criminal under the roof of an eccentric journalist make for a rather odd ensemble, but Luna has never had a problem with oddities as long as they make sense.
Notes: The story is told from Lunaâs perspective, which gives everything a lovely dreamy quality. She takes in a couple of strays after the war â first Harry, who is avoiding his other friends and has quit his Auror job â and then she offers a room to Draco right after his trial. Draco is rude, angry, and ungrateful; Harry is churlish, withdrawn, and moody. Luna doesnât seem to mind in the slightest, and over the course of the next few months, her house guests slowly warm up to each other.
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Voices From the Fog (E) by noeon
Summary: After years of running away, Harry crosses paths with an all-too familiar face and follows him to Amsterdam.
Notes: Harry drifts across Europe, trying to forget the war. He ends up in a woodworking shop in Amsterdam, alongside a moody Draco. Atmospheric settings and solid characterisation.
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Frostbite
yandere!childe x (gender neutral) reader art credit - GNSN_FA on twt cw: yandere, blood, minor gore (lacerations), unhealthy behaviors/relationship, mentions of death/hypothermia, fighting
Itâs borderline animalistic, the way you cling to warmth and life like a starved, neglected hound. Your fingers stiffen in a vain attempt to flexâto successfully grasp your sword like a true warrior. The furs that were once draped over your body are ragged, torn to shreds from a dangerous battle between the elements and him. Thereâs no mistaking the excitement that lights his every nerve like bulbs hanging from a Christmas tree, coated in the maddening swell of potent bloodlust. If surrender was an option, you would have done it long ago.
Even then, youâre certain he wouldnât give you such a benevolent chance no matter how hard you were to beg and plead.
Your breath materializes like a phantom in front of your face, a cruel reminder that youâre still breathing in a battered body. Your fingernails are chipped, blood running down the tips from an icy struggle, but you refuse to succumb to the cold. Instead, you allow yourself to be swept up in his electrified stare.Â
âWhatâs the matter, comrade?â Thereâs a wry smile pulling his chapped lips apart, showcasing flawless teeth aligned in a perfect face. Despite the brutal wear of this current fight, heâs still handsome. And that makes you sick. âI thought you said youâve gotten stronger. If I wanted a real battle, I wouldâve challenged one of my subordinates and thatâs nowhere near as fun as this!â
Keeled over in the snow, your lungs burning with each rattled inhale, you struggle to meet his eyes. The deathly chill of the Snezhnayan climate claws at your exhausted form like the porcelain fingers of a skeleton. You might as well surrender to the freezing temperatures. After all, the frostbite is far kinder than the fighting machine looming over you, the toe of his boot nudging your trembling self.Â
âI... I am strong,â you manage to say before the dangerous wind pierces your throat like a dagger. Like the icicle Childeâs wielding, a happily convenient reaction between Hydro and Cryo elements. You cough and crimson paints the snow. âStrong. Iâm strong.â
âThen get up.â There isnât any warmth in his tone. Cold like ice and devoid of his former playfulness. Under all of that nonchalance, a fierce, chiseled warrior lies in comfortable wait. When his eyes trace your hunched form and he spots the blood that dribbles past your lips, practically freezing as soon as it makes contact with the frigid air, those dull hues widen. Surely heâs hit a weak spot, a vital organ or something close to a fatal blow. He wonders for a brief moment if youâre afraid of death. âYouâll freeze if you donât move.â
A flash catches your attention and then there is the flow of suffocating water. Sharpened blades of ice surround you on all sides, nearly scraping your arms, so you force yourself onto unsteady legs. Internally, youâre searching for a way outâfor a way to give up before you bite off more than you can chew. This sparring match wasnât your request, but you had been a fool to accept, having been so certain of your strength and wit. But you arenât accustomed to Snezhnaya, whereas Childe has spent years of his life here: training, learning, and fighting until he was worthy of the Tsaritsaâs praise.Â
With sloppy movements, you cut through the ice as if itâs butter, eternally grateful for the sharpness of your trusty sword. You canât tell when this fight will end, but you hope an opening with present itself. As soon as it does, youâre running as far as your frozen legs will take you. Like a feral beast who fights desperately against the unfair hands of the Grim Reaper, you stumble forwards, slashing blindly at your target. Heâs thoroughly amused with your struggle, having seen this sort of desperation many times before on the battlefield.
Itâs a depressing thing, knowing youâll be destined for failure and yet you still push onwards. As if that will turn the tide of this battle in your favor. Childe almost admires your persistence, but it isnât all that special. Heâs seen it all before but not quite in the way you portray it. Your despair is far more delectable than that of any low-ranking Fatui soldier. Childe could bask in this for eternity and heâd never grow bored. To have you by his side as his punching bagâit excites him just a little too much.Â
Naturally, the more he spars with you, the more heâll grow accustomed to your attack and defense patterns. A strategy is only worthwhile if it rakes in victory. No matter the cost. No matter how many fall and grovel, begging for their pitiful lives. In a way, his moral compass is rather skewed. He supposes that makes him a bad person, but heâs never been one for the hero role.Â
Childe taps your shoulder and you whirl, slicing upwards with your sword. The blade cuts the air, not the torso of the man who jumps back with such deadly precision. The expression heâs wearing haunts you: a wicked smile, pupils blown wide with the thrill of life and death, and a blooming bruise from where you managed to hit him in your earlier scuffle. In any form, he looks good, be it blue and purple, red and pale, or even frozen stiff by the very ice that reacts to his Hydro abilities. You canât stand your weak heart, as youâre well aware of the face heâll bear tomorrow. Friendly and disarming, a total opposite to the grinning madman twirling water-turned-ice blades like theyâre circus batons.Â
Like always, youâll return his kindness because youâre a fool. Because you like the soft, wholesome Childe that cares lovingly for his familyâthe side heâs displayed in rare instances that glimmer beyond the gilded portrait of a battle-hardened soldier.Â
You fall hard on your back, landing in the thick snow with a wheeze. There is no warmth on the battlefield. Only pain, suffering, and the certainty of death. You push yourself to get up, but your muscles wonât move, too heavy and sore. You know youâre strongâyouâve faced many opponents before and youâve lived to boast of your successes. You can beat Childe. You have to if you intend to avoid fights with him in the future.Â
âWell, this is upsetting.â Heâs frowning now, idly tapping the crystalized water while he circles you like a sharp-toothed predator. âDidnât expect this to end so quickly.â
Liar. You already know I canât beat you, you want to say, but the words escape you. Not yet, anyways.
A sneer splits your dry lips and blood trickles down your chin like a woeful river. You donât need a mirror to witness the damage.Â
âTeucer wonât like this,â you say, staring up at Childe with dead eyes, hoping to prod at his weak spots. If the mention of his brother affects him, Childe doesnât let it show.
âHe doesnât have to know,â he retorts, brushing aside such a possibility with ease.Â
Right. Because you expect me to put myself back together like a toy. Of course, almighty Childe, the greatest toy salesman in all of Snezhnaya.Â
âWell.â You pause to exhale and pain shoots through your side. Through your bleary gaze, you can see a deep laceration. Blood stains whatâs left of your attire, and you move your rigid hands over the wound to prevent anymore blood loss. âCongrats. You won.â
âYouâre giving up?â Bewilderment flashes across his face for an instant before it melts away into an emotion you canât place. Anger? Sadness? Is he unhappy with this win?Â
âWhat does it look like? I canât possibly fight with these injuries.âÂ
It hurts to speak and you wish he would just stop. If he could accept the outcome of this battle, this wouldnât be such a problem. Youâd be able to patch and heal yourself up before your condition gets any worse. With the chill seeping into your open cut, harshly kissing slick, wet blood, you doubt youâll make it inside before passing out. Vaguely, you recall the unfamiliar stages of hypothermia. At worst, if you stay out in this fatal weather, pinned like an entomologistâs butterfly under Childeâs monstrous gaze, youâll freeze to death. At best, youâll escape, build a fire, and warm up to the best of your ability. Weighing your options, youâd rather lose a finger or a toe as opposed to your life.Â
âYou can fight.â His blade is at your throat, the pointed tip niggling into your jugular. Itâs more of a threat than a warning, a means to spur you into action. âYouâll never get stronger if youâre always running away, comrade.â
Your life has some value; Childe just canât see that. In his eyes, a fight should be seen through to the very end, even if itâs marred in death and destruction. Yet here you are, choosing to abandon your pride. That must have some strength in itself, right? You hate his face, his childish nature, and the fact that his everything is making you reconsider. Youâre doomed to fail if you continue to push your frostbitten body past its natural limits.Â
âI...â The blade slices along your throat, a mere surface wound. You canât feel the sting or the sticky blood that spills out like flowing tears, having become as numb as a fish-eyed animal near extinction. âChildeââ
You donât want to hurt him and he knows this. It twists his insides like a knife in flesh, turning and turning until organs pop and leak into soupy conflict. The blade leaves your throat and another harsh wind blows between the two of you, glacial and prickling. He distances himself, tracking your form in case you happen to move. Youâve stopped shivering at this point, lying flat on your back and staring up at the dark sky. Snowflakes cling to your lashes like the hands of death, pulling you closer to an invisible grave.Â
âYou can fight.â Is that desperation in his voice? You almost laugh at the idea. Heâs not a desperate man; he doesnât need to be when he has it all. âGet up, comrade.â
âI think...Iâll stay here,â you whisper, your heartbeat irregularly slow. Youâve never counted the beats before, but now it makes for a fun distraction. âGood job, Childe. Youâve definitely...â
Gotten stronger.
You possess strength, just not the type Childe wants to experience firsthand. He has no use for a lonely, unseeing corpse. And when your eyelids flutter, closing upon a face that reflects frozen death, he releases a sigh. His blade falls at once, landing in the snow with a thump, and he bends down to gather your fallen frame in his arms. Somehow, whenever he spars with youâwhenever heâs within touching distanceâhe feels alive. As if youâve breathed meaning into his frostbitten soul, warming the cold beast that lurks and pounces at the sight and smell of fresh bloodshed.Â
If heâs learned anything, itâs that thereâs always going to be room for improvement. You just need to train more, and heâd be over the moon to fight you until itâs your blade slicing through his skin. In the meantime, though, heâll have to kiss color and life back into your monochrome world of death and despair.Â
As the greatest toy salesman in all of Snezhnaya, itâs only fair if he repairs the damages done to his favorite toy. Break, repair, and repeat. A cycle befitting a messy relationship and an even messier slew of choices. Rinse and repeat, like waves licking up a carcass bound to the shore.Â
Come morning, youâll be shiny and new, ready to sit by his side for another leisurely ice-fishing outing. Childe isnât known as the greatest toy salesman for nothing, and youâre just barely scraping by with each battle scar and bandageâcourtesy of such an illustrious, experimental toy salesman.Â
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Lifeâs a Beach (1)
I underestimated how long this fic was, so I smashed them together. I will continue just posting snippets and writing it like that (and then smashing them together), but since most of you will already have read it, I will include a bonus scene at the end. My thank you for putting up with my unconventional writing process.Â
Summary: Tarquin comes to town and Cassian is jealous.Â
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Cassian doesnât like when Tarquin visits. Â
Never mind the ban from the Summer Court or that at one point, blood rubies pilfer their court. Never mind that Summer crowns him holier than the seas and the sun. Cassian doesnât like the ease in which he walks. He may not have his usual royal garb, but he glides along the Sidra. The mighty king out for a stroll. Â
Nesta looks like his queen. Â
His mate is bright and beaming, huffing laughs and smiling wide as she praises his ideas. Cassian has ideas, too. Â
But Nesta isnât interested in his ideas as he follows them around. Nesta just continues smiling. Her skin glows with the sun, the apples of her cheeks turning a pretty shade of apricot as Tarquin notes the dying rays. Are you a poet Tarquin? Cassian wants to ask, but knowing the High Lord, he just might be and Nesta fucking loves poetry. Â
Her cheeks remain pink and Cassian resists grabbing her hand and dragging her back to the house. Youâll die of heatstroke; he might say if she protests. But no. Â
He wonât. Â
He promises to be on his best behavior. Â
Even so, Cassian canât help eyeing buildings as they pass. Just break one, he urges. One and we can ban you from the Night Court. But that might mean, Nesta spending some time in Summer, with her good friend Tarquin, who makes Nesta beam like that, make her cheeks red like that. Â
All Cassian sees is red.
All Nesta looks at is Tarquin. Â
âYou know, I never thought someone as young as you would be so conniving.â
Conniving? Cassian isnât paying attention, but at the word, heâs ready to deem it insulting enough to fight Tarquin if Nesta so much as gives him a look. But Nesta only listens as Tarquin speaks. Cassian canât even read her expression. Itâs blank as she stares. Â
âI admire that quality,â The little high lord says. Â
Admire someone else, buddy. Â
Nesta only snorts, the words making her laugh. Â
The light plays with her eyes as she smirks. They look bluer today. Less silver. Cassian has to think that it has something to do with Tarquin. Tarquin who brings out the blue in Nestaâs eyes, who brings pink to her cheeks. Never mind that it probably has more to do with how bright it is today. Â
âYouâre too smart,â he remarks, and Cassian wants to roll his eyes. Nesta is too smart, too smart to be hanging around with some pompous flatterer. âNo wonder youâre good at this game.â Â
âWhat game?â She asks, lightly, but even Cassian can hear the caution. Her voice slowing as if coaxing an answer from his lips. Â
âThe game we all play. These situations that have us playing with life whether we want to or not.â Nesta lilts her head curiously, waiting for further explanation and Cassian waits too, because heâs not sure he understands. Tarquin looks like heâd rather not speak of it, but he continues even so. Â
âFae are good at gamesâinvented them really. Court politics, morality, marriage, and bargains. I have to believe youâre good at them. Not just because Iâve seen you, but because I know what Eris offered as soon as he had you in his arms⌠Itâs always the smart ones who win these gamesâthe most clever.â Â
Nesta rolls her eyes as if his words offer no great importance, âItâs never the smart ones who win.â She counters. âNot the ones who are strongest or the most magically gifted or the one who smiles the sweetest while she glides across the floor. There is no game that you can win by being the most beautiful person in the room⌠No game Iâd want to play anyways.â Â
âThen who does win?â He urges. Tarquin almost sounds desperate for the answer, and Cassian has to wonder if Nesta has woven a spell around him too just as much as Eris. Â
âWhoeverâs luckiest,â Nesta shrugs simply, âSo thereâs no point in trying so hard⌠We all end up in the exact place we were always supposed to be in.â  Â
She doesnât sound happy about that either, and something about the tone makes Cassian want to hold her close. Make her remember that itâs a joy to be here. To be together, even if it is with another male who skin beams with the summer sun.
Iâm lucky to have you.Â
He hopes she knows. Â
âThen youâre lucky,â Tarquin notes, âAnd blessed. Youâre blessed and lucky. Smart and clever.â He laughs as if brushing the seriousness off, âIs that why youâre so good at cards? Azriel was moping last night. I thought that had something to do with you.â Â
Nesta lifts a casual shoulder, a soft smile playing on her lips. Cassian thinks even that is a playâsome move she knows will help her counter his attack. âAzriel loses because he wants to win and itâs easy to win against someone whoâs already shown their cards.â Â
âMotivations are everything.â Â
âYes,â Nesta nods frankly, âso why are you here?â Â
Cassian wants to know, too. Â
Actually, Cassian wants to push him into the Sidra and see if pretty fishman can float, but heâll take Nestaâs verbal spar in any case. If he runs back to the House with his tail between his legs, Cassian will consider it a win for the both of them. His lovely strategist.
But Tarquin doesnât run. Cassian doesnât think Tarquin will ever run from Nesta and that simple fact makes him furious. That there is another male in this world who will see Nesta and not balk, who will know Nesta and not grimace. Â
Cassian is not the only male who stays. Not for the power or the beauty or the poise, but because underneath all of that is a female who can conquer as much as she can tame. Whose voice sounds like the sea, whose eyes are crystal clear waters, whose mind rages against the tide. Â
Tarquin breathes in ocean air. Â
Every morning, he fishes on the coast. Every evening, he sleeps to the humming sea. Who would know Nesta better than someone who dreams of waves? Â
So, it doesnât come as any surprise when Tarquin looks to him, as she asks her question. Why are you here? Â
âBecause I want to know you.â Â
A foolâs choice. Â
âIâm not foolish enough to claim you,â He adds, âand Iâm not foolish enough to think youâll ever be claimed, even if you have a mate. No offense, Cassian.â
Offense taken. Â
âIâm not even foolish enough to think I can even begin to know who you are or what youâve been through⌠But when you looked at me that day in the Summer Court, and asked me to help your family, offered me anything that you could give me alone.â Â
What? Cassian looks to Nesta, but she promptly ignores him, staring at Pompous Prince Tarquin. Â
âIâd never seen anyone want so badly. I wanted to know what that felt like. Know what stirred so deeply in your heart that you looked at me like youâd give me the entire world for just one yes.â Â
Tarquin raises a shoulder and Cassian tries not to swallow so loudly. He thinks he might have to shove a fist down his throat to stop his screaming, âYouâre a question I keep mulling over and Iâve yet to figure out what the answer is. I donât even know if I could know the answer if it stared me in the eyes, but I would like to learn. To feel half of what you feel, to learn how to love so truly.â
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Cassian replays her answer as he sleeps. He goes over it and over it and over it again. At some point, he wakes her up in the middle of the night, shaking her shoulder. Â
âNesta,â he whispers, âNesta? What did you mean?â
His mate only groans, her brows furrowing, as she burrows further into blankets. Cassian knows heâs playing in dangerous territory, but he canât stop thinking about. Itâs driving him insane. Â
âNesta, what did you mean?â Â
He says it once louder, shaking her again. Nesta only juts out her elbow, hitting him in the rib. Cassian holds in the heavy moan as he clutches his chest, and Nesta settles in her sleep. Â
Still, Cassian canât give up now. âWhen you told Tarquin youâd think about it, what did you mean? Nesta?â Â
Cassian grasps her shoulder, shaking her lightly, âNesta!â Â
âWhat?â Nesta yells, leaning up so fast, she almost hits her head on his chin. âWhat do you keep yelling about? Iâm trying to sleep!â Â
Even furious and half-asleep, she looks beautiful. The strap of her nightgown slips down one shoulder, and he trails the movement as if his own fingers push it down. Nesta crosses her arms, and he swallows down the want. Not an appropriate time, Cassian. Â
She raises a brow, âWell?â Â
âI wanted to talk,â he says simply. Â
Nesta looks to the clock on the wall, glaring at him exasperated. âAt two in the morning?â Â
âGood a time as any.â Â
She looks mad that much is true, and Cassian wishes to appease. Â
His mate is tired, so heâll fluff her pillows, rub her shoulders while she relaxes enough to tell him exactly what she means when she tells Tarquin sheâll think about it. As if his I want to get to know you is an offer she canât refuse. Â
But as he fluffs her pillows, Cassian can only think of Tarquin. Â
He would have waited to speak to her, prioritizing Nestaâs health over his wants. Just this morning⌠or yesterday morning, the High Lord of Summer makes sure to ask Nesta if sheâs eaten as she reads her book on the couchâa fact he finds rude to say the leastâand when she says no, he offers to make breakfast for her. Oh, so generous of him. Never mind that they have a House who cooks their meals. Â
Cassian scoffs as he thinks about it. What High Lord plays chef? And who is he to ask if Nestaâs eaten as if his mate isnât being taken care of? Â
He yanks at the pillow, beats at it, punches it. He canât help but imagine Tarquinâs face. He can see feathers jutting from the cushion, and still he hits. The cloth lays in the cinders on the bed before he stops. Â
Nesta sighs at the mess, grabbing one of the pillows from his side, clasping it to her head. Â
âWhat are you doing?â Cassian asks. Â
âHoping I suffocate enough to pass out.â
Her voice is muffled, and he grasps at the pillow. Her hair is a ruffled mess. It splays out on the pillow in waves. Cassian canât help but breathe at the sight of her and the sound is a sigh of relief. Â
Sheâs his⌠Or as much as Nesta can be his. Â
She chose him. Â
Nesta with her matted hair, the side of her cheek pink from where she pushes up against the pillow, her silver nightgown making her skin glow in the light of the moon, chooses him. Â
Shouldnât that be enough? Â
Cassian rubs at his face, feeling all too shameful. âIâm sorry. I justââ He takes in their bed, feathers littering the duvet. Suddenly, he feels like a little kid. What was he doing beating a pillow like that? Waking Nesta in the middle of the night?Â
âYouâre jealous,â Nesta says. Â
Her voice echoes in the room, and Cassian frowns at the words. Of course, heâs jealous. That much is obvious. Heâs always jealous. Â
Nesta is beautiful and powerful and smiles like she grants the sun its light, and males flock to her like moths. Not just any males either but stupid princes and arrogant High Lords and stupid, arrogant Tarquin!
Nesta only grabs at the pillow in his hands, setting it under her head as she closes her eyes. He waits for her to speak, but he can only hear the ticking of the clock, on and on as time passes. Â
Nesta doesnât say a thing. Â
âThatâs it? Thatâs all you have to say. Youâre jealous and you go back to sleep.â Â
The pretty pink of her lips purse, but she doesnât even open her eyes as she says, âIf you were looking for comfort, you shouldnât have woken me up at two in the morning.â Â
Well⌠damn. Â
Cassian settles back at his side, crossing his arms as he stares at the ceiling. Heâs one less pillow down, but that doesnât bother him much. Itâs the thoughts that donât quiet even for a second. Stupid mating bond. Â
That thought though has him looking to Nesta. No, he loves that mating bond. He loves her. And even if Tarquin wants to impede himself like a wall between them, Cassian will still love Nesta Archeron. Â
He closes his eyes repeating those words as if theyâre a lullaby that will let him drift off to sleep. I love Nesta Archeron. I love Nesta Archeron. I love Nesta Archeron. Â
The words donât comfort him even a little. Â
But Nesta sets her head on his chest. She tucks herself in to the crook of his arm and Cassian squeezes gentlyâhe tries not to hold on too tight. Â
She must sense his surprise. Whether that be from the bond or because Nesta knows him like that back of her hand, he doesnât know. But she blinks one eye open, looking at him with bright grey and all his fears are assuaged.
âYou should hold me since you woke me up.â
Cassian can only blink, nodding his head as she wraps his arms around her, and he settles in. He can hear her heart beating and he can hear her soft breathing and Cassian can go to sleep to this. He can. Â
Cassian will hold her until she tells him let go. Cassian will not let go. Â
Still⌠he canât help it. Â
âI bet Tarquin canât hold you like this.â Â
Cassian only gets mouth full of feathers.
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Tarquin tells Rhys that heâs going to stay for two weeks. During this time, theyâll talk of treaties, draw up some plan of trade, some easy comings and goings of Night Court and Summer Court residences. Cassian tells Rhys that they donât need a treaty. Throw him out now, he thinks. Â
âIs something going on with you?â Rhys asks, leaning back in his chair, ever the High Lord. Cassian is starting to hate High Lords. Â
Cassian crosses his arms, grinding his teeth. Heâs in the sitting room in the estate. Amren solves a puzzle as if nothing about this meeting is important at all. Mor talks to Feyre by the dining room, gossiping rather than listening to Rhys moan about Tarquin and peace treaties. Nesta, not that she goes to these meetings, is out doing gods know what with Tarquin who wants to view the city. Â
Take me to all your favorite places, he says. Cassian rolls his eyes just thinking about the way Nestaâs light up. Bookstores and restaurants and museums. She knows them all. Nesta goes with him, first. Why does Tarquin care? Is he planning on buying a winter house in Velaris? Â
Cassianâs blood runs cold at the thought. Â
âHeâs jealous,â Azriel says, throwing a scroll at Rhys which he easily catches. Â
Morâs head jerks up at the word, even Feyre smirks with interest. Â
âNo,â Cassian dismisses, but heâs never been a good liar. His voice pitches high and Rhys eyes him with humor, âI⌠just think that we donât need Summer Court resources, when we have an abundance of them already.â Â
âYouâre also banned,â Amren comments helpfully, âI would say that makes you the most biased towards these dealings.â Â
âYour boyfriend is from the Summer Court; wouldnât that make you the most biased?â Mor asks. Amren simply shrugs. Â
âI mean have we considered that. That male banned me and now weâre opening our borders?â Â
âOur borders have always been open,â Feyre says, not so helpfully. The look she gives him has him sinking in his seat. âAlso, you wrecked the central magistrate.âÂ
âTheyâve rebuilt it,â Cassian argues. Â
âYou mates are all the same,â Amren groans loudly, âSheâs not going to fuck Tarquin.â Â
âShut up Amren!â
âThatâs the best you can do? Iâm sure Tarquinâs more eloquent.â
âAmren,â Feyre says, giving her that motherly reprimanding look. An expression that Cassian supposes comes with the motherhood package. Â
It does the trick.
Amren sneers, but she settles back where she sits on the floor, picking at her puzzle. Cassian has the sudden urge to knock the pieces off the table, just for the comment alone.
âNesta loves you, Cassian,â Feyre says, her voice light and calming. Too bad it doesnât calm him, and he doesnât want to talk about this now even if she goads. âWhatâs there to be jealous of?â Â
Cassian already knows this answer. He knows this answer this morning, the other night, the minute summer enters Velaris spring. Itâs not that Nesta loves him. Cassian knows Nesta loves him. Itâs that he lets his guard down. He forgets the most crucial information of allâ
Nesta is easily lovable. Â
Sure, she might give a sneer or two at someone who annoys her well enough or beat the living daylights out of someone who threatens those she loves, but Nesta is an easily lovable dork.
She laughs at stupid things and itâs the most beautiful sound heâs ever heard. Sheâs a goofball! He swears she knows every book in that library. She absorbs information like a sponge, will rant for hours about everything she learns. Her thoughtfulness knows no bounds. Theyâll be off at the market and if she sees something that looks like Gwyn or Emerie or himself or whoever, she has to have it. She has to give it to them. They go to get cinnamon buns and she orders enough for the priestesses. She remembers everyoneâs birthday. She learns the name of every patron and their families and their language and their holidays. Itâs not hard to love Nesta. Â
Who would not love Nesta? Â
So yes, he has something to be jealous of. Â
âYou look stressed,â Mor notes, her eyebrows raising. Â
Amren nods, âYou look like youâre going to fight someone.â Â
âOr puke,â Azriel adds. Â
âJust donât fight Tarquin,â Rhys concludes, âI canât ban you from the court, but I can certainly make sure youâre away in Illyria while heâs here.â Â
âYou guys are really supportive, you know that?â
âWell at least weâre not trying to steal youâre girl,â Mor teases. Â
âYet.â Â
Cassian gives her a glare, but she only laughs a bright sound. Â
âIâve never seen you jealous,â she says.
âIâm not jealous.â Â
Azriel raises a pointed finger, âwhat about that one time you threw that rock at that window?â Â
âOr when you broke that maleâs nose,â Rhys suggests. Â
Amren rolls her eyes, setting down a piece of her puzzle, âHow about the last time we all went to a bar.â Â
Mor, Azriel, and Rhys look to each other, contemplating the words. Cassian watches as they nod their heads slowly. Â
âOh yeah.â
âYouâre right.â Â
âYou were jealous then, too.â Â
âI was not jealous,â Cassian insists. Â
Thankfully, Feyreâsweet Feyre offers him relief. She raises her hands, and Cassian thinks heâs glad to have such a loyal sister-in-law. âGuys, he was not jealous.â Â
Thank you, Feyre. Â
âHe was territorial.â Â
The others voice their agreement before Cassian has a chance to speakâto defend himself from this defamation of character.
Not that he can defend himself. Â
He remembers that day all too wellâŚ
Itâs the first Nesta goes to a bar with them. The first time she goes to a bar in a while, and sheâs nervous. But she looks beautiful. So damn beautiful that he thinks he might suggest staying in. She has on a black dress with these tiny straps and a necklace that makes him want to trace her neck with his tongue until sheâs mewling and soft and pliant. But sheâs nervous, so he only kisses her forehead. Â
We donât have to drink he says. I wonât drink either, he promises. Â
Cassian turns out to be a bold-faced liar. Â
Heâs drunk by the time the first band plays. He keeps gobbling down the drinks. Nesta gets them for free. Martinis, vodka sodas, gin, and whiskey. All manners of shots. Every alcohol keeps floating her way. The males seem to think they only need to find the right one. The one Nesta prefers and they take it as a challenge. He remembers asking if she even needed their money all those months ago, and she only shrugs a shoulder. Haughty and much, much too beautiful. Â
Nesta offers to send them back, but Cassian gulps them down one by one before she can even call over the waitress. I can take it, he says. Â
Once again, Cassian is made a liar. Â
They have to carry him out of that bar. At some point, he remembers flying over the city as Rhys and Azriel chase him through the streets. Â
The only way they get him down is by Nesta calling for him. An easy trick, he thinks. If they asked him, they should have tried that first. Of course, he answers his mate when she calls. Â
When he meets her, crawling back with his wings drooping to the concrete, Nesta only opens her arms as if she wants him to hug her. Cassian hugs her. He⌠climbs on top of her, really. Â
But she combs her fingers through his hair and Cassian hunches over to lay his head on her shoulder and the next thing he knows⌠heâs lying in bed, a glass of water and some headache powder on the side table. Â
Sheâd hit that nerve in his neck. Â
Cassian wants to scoff just thinking about it. Â
âWhere is Nesta anyway?â Â
The question has Cassian grinding his teeth, he can hear the noise in his ears. With fucking Tarquin. Â
âSheâs out,â he says instead. Â
âOut where?â Â
âOut to museums,â He lists thinking of all the places Nesta enjoys. âOr picnics.â All the places that Nesta will smile at. âOr restaurants.â All places Nesta will bubble up with laughter, that sheâll blush with glee, that sheâll gaze at wistfully with that bastard Tarquin. âOr maybe romantic boat rides. The one in that fucking swan.â Â
Cassian doesnât even know he grabs on to the throw pillow, but the next thing he knows the cushion is torn in half and the stuffing falls out like billowing snow. Â
The others look at him strangely, but itâs Feyre who takes a cautious step towards him, taking the pillow from his hands. Â
âAnd when will they be done?â Â
Cassian rolls his eyes, looking to the clock. âI meet them in a half an hour. Weâre getting lunch,â he mocks in a voice that doesnât sound anything like the High Lord of Summer. Â
Feyre hums in answer, her eyes widening innocently. Cassian stares in suspicion. Â
He watches as the others look to each other, too. Azriel to Mor. Mor to Rhys. Rhys to Feyre. Feyre to Amren. And then all of them look back to him. Â
Itâs Mor who bounces brightly, âI want to go!â Â
âIâm going, too,â Rhys announces. Â
Feyre crosses her arms, âYou canât go. Iâm going! Someone has to watch the baby.â Â
âLet Nuala and Cerridwen watch the baby! Iâm supporting my brother.â Â
âIâm supporting my sister!â Â
âOh, for cauldronâs sake,â Amren groans, âjust bring the boy!â Â
Cassian frowns as they start packing up around him, yelling at each other for their coats and⌠baby carriers. Â
Amren only pauses to laugh at the look on his face. Â
âIt could be worse, you know,â She says, her voice something she probably thinks sounds soft and comforting, âTarquin could have already made some move. What do males say these days? Oh right, I want to get to know you or something equally as vomit inducing.â Â
Cassian simply picks up the throw pillow to his left and screams. Â
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BONUS SCENE 1:Â
The evening of their first outing, Cassian canât button his shirt. He should've taken that as his first sign that things would inevitably go wrong.Â
âAre the buttons winning?â Nesta asks lightly. Cassian huffs a curse, hiking the shirt over his head. It gets stuck around his neck and he groans out a response.
Fine, he thinks. I give up.Â
Nesta laughs at his slumping shoulders.Â
âItâs the wings,â He says, muffled through the cloth. His wings drift up and down as if huffing themselves, showing her that they too are thoroughly annoyed. âThis shirt isnât made for Illyrians.âÂ
Thatâs a lie, but Nesta only hums.Â
âWell... as much as I like you topless and I do like you topless.â Cassian can feel her hands trailing up his ribs and he squirms at the ticklish touch. âI donât think it would be appropriate for public outings.âÂ
âYou mean youâd be jealous,â He breaths. Nesta pulls the shirt down, unbuttoning and buttoning it again. His mate makes it seem far too easy, and she smirks up at him when the shirt is fully on. Her lips painted in red.Â
The fresh air is cool in his lungs without the noose of dress ware, and he winds his arms around her, breathing in her scent. âAll those females looking. Males too. What would you do if they propositioned me?â He urges, holding her closer, bringing her hips to his. âCassian, Cassian, take me in your arms.â
He dips her low as if theyâve finished some waltz, and lifts her high until her leg is around his waist. Thatâs when he notices the slit in her gown, running all the way up her thigh.Â
âTheyâll chase me through the streets, you know. Iâm a very hot commodity.âÂ
Nesta doesnât even laugh. In fact, she merely lifts her eyes, her expression blank in that very Nesta way of hers. Â
She fingers the collar of his shirt and Cassian canât help but follow her hands. He thinks of every place those fingers can touch. âYou wouldnât be so difficult to catch. All itâd take is some buttons.âÂ
Cassian roars with laughter and Nesta smiles at that. A small turn of her lips.Â
She turns back to the vanity, though he canât say sheâs not already perfect. Heâs about to say so too, but thatâs when he notices the dress.Â
Itâs hugs her every curve... the way Cassian only wishes to hug her. The black brings out the gold in her hair, in her sun-kissed skin. Thereâs a slit, Cassian knows, and tiny, tiny straps.Â
Cassian moves towards her without a second thought. How anyone can think when they look at Nesta Archeron, he doesnât know. He grasps her arms, dipping his head low. He places a reverent kiss on her shoulder and Nesta looks at him through the mirror, blinking up at him with those big, magnificent eyes.Â
Theyâve never fucked in front of mirror before. Â
Cassian makes a note.Â
âYou know, we can always skip this... thing. Who would even notice if we're gone?âÂ
âConsidering itâs for us, Iâd say plenty.âÂ
She says the words with enough disdain that Cassian frowns at the tone. She looks away as he catches her eyes.
âDo you not want to go?â He asks, dropping his hands.Â
âI want to get this night over with,â she says, with a certain bite that has him backtracking. He runs over the day and all things she can be mad at him for, but he finds nothing, so he doesnât understand. Â
The night is for them.Â
To celebrate her more than anyone. Thereâs been so many celebrations for her these past months as if theyâre making up for lost time. Cassian doesnât mind. Nesta should be celebrated. And Nesta doesnât seem to mind, though sheâs rather quiet during those outings.Â
Thatâs not unusual.Â
He used to think Azriel was the most introverted of them all. But Nesta beats him by miles.Â
âWhy--â
âI just donât like that we always have these. Why canât everyone just leave us alone?âÂ
Cassian stares at her reddening skin. The way her eyes dart back and forth, trying not to look to him. His frown deepens at the way she hides.Â
He thought they were past this.Â
Cassian is the first person to admit that he doesnât know Nesta. Not in the way he wants to and Nesta seldom tells him much. But he at least knows her well enough to know that when she gets upset, itâs rarely what she says it is.
So Cassian takes inventory.Â
Theyâre going to a get-together. Theyâve done that before. Theyâre wearing formal clothes. Theyâve done that before. Theyâre meeting the same people. Yes, thatâs correct. The only thing thatâs different is... the location?Â
âYou have a problem with the restaurant,â he guesses.Â
Nesta merely lies her chin on her palm.Â
âItâs new... they have good food... so I hear. Itâs got great music, which you like. Itâs got a bar,â Cassianâs gaze whips to her, âIs it the bar?âÂ
Nesta rolls her eyes, but he can see the way her cheeks flush a bright pink. The color softens something inside of him, makes him want to hug her and hold her and get rid of every bad thought in her head.Â
The bar. Of course. He sees the way she cringes at alcohol, the way she shifts in her seat when a dinner turns into an after party. She doesnât even like most of their holidays for that reason, because they all get drunk and she sits in the corner not knowing what to do. Nesta hates being embarrassed.
She can drink if she wants, he tells her, itâs her choice. They wonât judge her for it, he affirms, but... Cassian canât guarantee that and Nesta knows thatâs a lie. Nesta doesnât even touch liquor.Â
Cassian feels his chest start to sink and he must show it on his face, because she scoffs.Â
Itâs bad enough she doesnât want to go to the city most days. Sheâs told him itâs because sheâs scared to face who she was, afraid that sheâll be back there soon enough. Cassian canât reassure her well enough. We can face it together, he says. We can face it all. But itâs been baby steps and these outings are the only times she pushes her limits.Â
Cassian shifts her around, laying his hands on her cheeks, rubbing at the heated skin. âWe donât have to go if you donât want.âÂ
âI donât want to be a coward.âÂ
Cassian shakes his head, âyouâre not going to be one if you go and youâre not going to be one if you stay.âÂ
Nesta sighs, and Cassian kisses her forehead because he doesnât know what else to do. He doesnât know how to instill in Nesta that sheâs the strongest, bravest person he knows. How does he convince her of a truth thatâs so obvious? Â
She isnât going to change her mind that much he knows, but damn him if he letâs her wallow alone. Â
âI wonât drink,â He offers, âWe can play cards, dance a little... I promise Iâll try not to step on your toes again.âÂ
âI want you to enjoy yourself,â She says, her lips pouting in that way that makes him want to kiss her nose and her cheek and every place that he can touch. âTo have fun.âÂ
âYou are fun and I enjoy myself plenty with you.âÂ
Little does Cassian know that the enjoyment of the night is him knocking back barrels of drinks, stripping to his underwear, and running head first through the streets.Â
To be continued...Â
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Fandom: The Falcon and the Winter Soldier Pairing: Bucky Barnes/Sarah Wilson Rating: T Word Count: 3214
Summary: Sam told Bucky not to flirt with Sarah. But this is her house, so Bucky's pretty sure she makes the rules.
Buckyâs missed white lies. Ones that donât hurt anybody.
âIs that cigarette smoke I smell on your coat, James Barnes?â âNo, Ma. âCourse not.â
âAnd youâre sure this dame knows itâs my arm sheâll be on?â âSure, Steve. Sheâs been after me to fix the two of you up for weeks.â
Stuff like that.
Past few years, Buckyâs either been transparent or a brick wall, all lies or all truth. Which one he loses more sleep over just depended on the day. The most human thing, heâs learning, is to work with a little of both: fact and fiction. Give something here, hold something back there. Lying doesnât have to be mean-spirited and telling the truth doesnât have to make him feel hollow and guilty. Maybe you can only realize this kinda thing when you find your way home, even if the home isnât yours.
Buckyâs standing in the kitchen listening to Cass teach him how to fish. Itâs purely theoretical, no gear involved, just the overexaggerated motion of Cassâs arm as he mimes casting. Laughing, Bucky lightly grabs the boyâs elbow before it can collide with the refrigerator on an especially big swing. Cass downsizes his demonstration without pausing the excited flow of his instructions.
AJ catches Buckyâs eye; from the look on his face, heâs beginning to suspect that Bucky might already know how to fish. While Cass is focused hard on his hands pretending to show how to fit live bait onto a hook, Bucky smiles at AJ over the smaller boyâs head and raises a finger to his lips. White lies. Let Cass believe heâs the expert.
When Cass is winding down, Bucky moves around him with a grin, carrying an empty plate to the sink.
âI got it!â AJ declares, whisking it from Buckyâs hand and pumping a squirt of dish soap in the center while his other hand runs the hot water.
Cass slotted the Pop-Tarts the plate lately held into the toaster for him (no better end-of-the-day snack, Bucky was told) and now AJâs cleaning up. Theyâre a hospitable family, all day long. No phoniness, no insincere offers of help that theyâre hoping Bucky wonât take them up on. He actually had to race the kids to the shed to store a toolbox earlier. On the boat, Bucky has room to put in the effort for the Wilsons, but inside the walls of their home heâs not allowed to do a damn thing because heâs a guest. Per square foot of property, he doesnât think heâs ever been treated this well in someone elseâs house.
âFine,â Bucky concedes, âbut Iâm doing all the dishes tomorrowâbreakfast, lunch, and dinner. And donât get up early to drink a glass of orange juice and try to wash it before Iâm awake, âcause Iâll be listening.â
The boys giggle and Bucky leans against the counter, hovering while AJ hands the plate off for Cass to wipe dry and pretending not to listen to Sam and Sarah talking in the next room.
âŚBut there isnât a full wall separating the kitchen from the living room and Sam knows Buckyâs hearingâs good, right? He doesnât think theyâre discussing anything that private and if Samâs annoyed with him later for what he supposes Bucky mightâve heard, Buckyâll just offer up another white lie and swear he couldnât hear a thing. And Sarah⌠Sarah wouldnât think any worse of him if she knew. Bucky imagines sheâd have a lot of compassion for his frequent urge to give Sam a hard time just for the hell of it. He flicks a quick glance over his shoulder, just to see her, and concentrates on what theyâre saying, giving himself vague permission because he overheard his name.
âThis was your idea,â Sarahâs saying. âYou brought the stray cat home, just like when we were kids.â
âDonât compare him to something cute,â Sam complains. Buckyâs mouth tenses to keep his smile from spreading too far.
âHe is a guest in my home, Sam, and heâs more than earned it after the work heâs been putting in with the boat.â
âAnd what about the work youâve been putting in watching him do that work?â
âSam. Grow up.â Sarahâs voice is playful and Bucky almost turns, wondering what her expression looks like.
âSo youâve just been appreciating his skill with a wrench and some sandpaper,â Sam says skeptically.
âIf Iâm also appreciating his shoulders in that shirtâ ifââ she emphasizes when Sam tries to interrupt, ââitâs nobodyâs business but mine.â
âOk, you definitely canât have him sleeping on the couch.â
âWhat do you think Iâm gonna do? Try to sneak him to my bedroom after lights out? With you listening, trying to catch us? Uh uh. Your sister is a grown woman with two children, a home, and a boat she couldnât manage to sell, and she can lust where she damn well pleases.â
Bucky snorts out a laugh and AJ gives him a funny look. Kidâs too perceptive.
âHeâs tricky,â Sam lectures. âYou canât see it, but I do. Iâve been around him a hell of a lot more. You think he smiles like that at everybody? If he smiles at me at all, I gotta assume he just looked up and saw a meteor hurtling towards where weâre standing and is only smiling because weâve got seconds to live and I wonât be able to tell anybody.â
âYou are hilarious.â
âNo, Iâm not.â
âYouâre telling me your friend is charming. Thatâs what youâre describing. Donât I deserve to be charmed? Where else is he gonna sleep, huh? With you? In one of the boysâ little beds while they share the other one? Because I know youâre not suggesting we skip the pretense and put him right in with me.â
Sam lets out a noise of obvious frustration.
âTime to intervene,â Bucky tells Cass and AJ, leaving them to swap confused shrugs in the kitchen as he saunters into the living room.
âHey,â Sam greets stonily, arms crossed over his chest.
Just for fun, Bucky decides to be all the friendlier.
âItâs so great of you to put me up. Thanks, Sarah. This beats a hotel by a mile.â
âOur gourmet kitchen does offer an impressive range of sugary cereal,â she jokes. âI might even cook you boys a special breakfast tomorrow before you head back to the dock.â
Buckyâs grin widens.
âOh yeah? I wouldnât wannaââ
âNo, itâs no troubleââ
âWell, that would beââ
âBoth of you stop it,â Sam orders.
âSam, go outside,â Sarah orders right back. âPlay some tag with your nephews.â
âSarah, Iâm beat. Weâve been working on that boat all day.â
âMhmm, you and the rest of the neighbourhood. You worked all day and you come home and thereâs still two kids to entertain. But guess what?â She smiles deviously at her brother and throws a few fake punches at his stomach. âYouâre Sam Wilson, the Falcon! Looks like youâre special after all. Me and Bucky here know youâve still got some gas in the tank. Go on.â
Sam looks fairly planted to the spot as he glares from his sister to Bucky, but he eventually moves with a lurching step.
âIâm gonna be right outside,â he warns.
Bucky sidesteps out of his path and says nothing, though itâs hard to resist the instinct to egg him on.
âWeâre gonna have a super-secret discussion about which towels he can use,â Sarah goads at her brotherâs back.
Sam ignores her, corralling his nephews in the kitchen and guiding them out the door into the fading daylight with a hand on each of their narrow backs.
âGreat kids,â Bucky observes.
Sarah nods, watching her family disappear, then turns to him.
âWeâre not really gonna talk about towels.â
âNo?â
Buckyâs eyebrows rise in surprise and delighted anticipation until Sarah grabs a folded blanket off the back of the couch and passes it to him.
âWeâre making up the couch.â
âOh.â
This is ok too. Actually, really nice, standing next to Sarah and unfolding the blanket as she stuffs a pillow into a clean case. Her eyes find his already on her and he swears he almost blushes; heâs been smoothing out the same crease in this blanket for a good thirty seconds with no result, just watching her easy movements, the way she flips her braids back when they fall forward over her shoulder.
âI hope youâre comfortable,â she says, lingering once theyâre done.
âI woulda slept on the floor. A closet, even, like Harry Potter.â
âYou read Harry Potter? Donât tell the boysâtheyâll be bugging you to play wizards with them.â
Bucky laughs and shakes his head.
âNah, I just watched the movie.â
âWhich one?â
âThereâs more than one?â
âYou really better not bring it up then,â Sarah advises. âTheyâd try to tell you everything at once.â
âYeah, wouldnât want to get in out of my depth.â
It feels like a significant look they exchange after his words. Bucky wants it to beâhe thinks he doesâbut he feels awkward, romantically clumsy. Heartstrings tied together like shoelaces, waiting to trip him up. Heâs been telling himself sheâs only being kind, but after eavesdropping on her conversation with Sam, he knows sheâs interested. In his shoulders at the very minimum. Was that right? His shoulders? Just in case, Bucky does his best to square them. Canât hurt.
Heâs fucking ecstatic when Sarah does glance down briefly, her gaze returning to his face with something flustered in it. Sure, sheâs a mom and she runs a business, but itâs like she told Sam: she deserves to be charmed. Buckyâs not entirely sure heâs doing it right though.
âSo,â she says, âSam was just being a pain when he tried to convince me you canât sleep on the couch because youâve got a bad back, right?â
Bucky sighs but keeps smiling. Itâs natural in her presence.
âIâd say thatâs him making old-man jokes about me.â
âI apologize for my brother and his bad manners.â
âAh, heâs not totally wrong,â he concedes, perching on the arm of the couch. âThese last few birthdays have required more candles than you could fit on a cake.â
âThen you just have to get yourself a bigger cake.â
Bucky laughs.
âI guess optimismâs pretty much a family trait?â
âWe work at it. They say you need to take the good with the bad, but they donât tell you that means creating the good out of nothing a lot of the time, if you want any at all. The Wilsons worked that out some time ago, so we mostly do alright.â
âItâs a good feeling to be around,â he tells Sarah earnestly. Clearing his throat, he gets to his feet. âFeels good, being around you.â
âWeâre⌠Iâm happy you could stay with us.â
The lightâs softened in the room and her voice has gone with it. Bucky shifts on his feet.
âItâs a pleasure to be here,â he assures her.
Sarahâs eyelashes flutter when she looks from his mouth to his eyes. Probably too try-hard to bite his lip now. God, Sam thinks Buckyâs so suave with Sarah, but it feels like heâs only got one move and itâs fucking smiling. Some Casanova he is. Sarah, meanwhile, is beautiful and authoritative and generous and moving closer to toss the pillow heâll rest his head on tonight onto the couch.
âAnything else you need to be comfortable?â she asks, gaze slipping from one of his eyes to the other. âAnother pillow? Pajamas?â
âIâve got some, butâŚâ
âBut?â
Sarah gives him a questioning look and Bucky starts summoning the courage to make a move. Heâll touch her waistâno, take her hand. Heâll cup her sweet face so thereâs no doubt what he means.
âBut,â he picks up, âif I get cold in the nightâŚâ
Thereâs longing in her eyes, Bucky knows it, but Sam bangs in the screen door right then, one nephew squealing where heâs been slung over Samâs shoulder.
âWell,â Sam announces loudly to the house at large, âthatâs it! No more gas in the tank! Everybody get to bed!â
Sarah appears sorry as she steps back. Bucky almost reaches out to pull her in, to take another shot with another lousy line. Shit, heâs bad at this.
âThere are more blankets in the hall closet,â she says, and slips away.
âThank you,â he calls after her.
Sam walks past, Cass still dangling upside-down over his back while AJ runs ahead, and watches Bucky like a hawk (or some other bird of prey) as he digs through his overnight bag. Whatâs Sam expecting him to pull out? A strip of condoms? Bucky extracts a green toothbrush and holds it up with an expression of fake wonder. Sam rolls his eyes and heads off down the hall.
They are going to bed early, barely 9pm. Thatâs probably late for the kids though. Buckyâs pleasantly weary after a day outdoors, more working than talking, feeling like part of something as the Wilsonsâ community came together to repair the boat. Seeing Sarah throughout. Flashing Bucky a smile while she spoke to a neighbour, grasping his outstretched hand to let him help her aboard so she could see their progress, checking Samâs work like sheâs his foreman while Bucky grinned and watched the siblings good-naturedly pick at each other. Sam was probably out like a light and Bucky should be too.
Heâs not.
He canât get to sleep right away, but itâs peaceful to lie here on the couch, on his back, while the house gets dark and darker. Sarah left the nearest window cracked for him and a gentle breeze washes in with the chirp of insects. Buckyâs already looking forward to being woken by the sun streaming through in the morning. Itâd be good to get from now to daylight in a single stretch of sleep; thatâs what he fantasizes about while he lies on his back: no nightmares. His headâs propped up by the pillow he tells himself smells like Sarah, though it probably just smells like her laundry soap.
Itâs hard to put his finger on whatâs missing, why he canât fall asleep, until he hears the soft shuffle of footsteps on carpet. Theyâre too close together to be Samâsâeither hesitant or made by child-sized feet. Bucky cranes his neck around, expecting to see someone walk past on their way to the kitchen for a glass of water. His gaze roams over nothing for a minute, then he slumps back as the footsteps retreat. Maybe it was Sam after all, getting up to look in on his nephews or something. Itâs the sorta thing Bucky would do if he were an uncle; heâd treasure the time with those kids, try to remember everything about his visit so he could hang on to it when he found himself half a world away, in Berlin or Riga or Madripoor.
Heâs settling, trapping the blanket against his chest with a heavy hand, when he hears the footsteps approach again. Then back away seconds later. Slowly, Bucky starts to smile to himself. Itâs Sarah. Can only be her. Sheâs either trying to psych herself up to come in here and talk to him and failing, or trying to resist venturing down the hall and succeeding.
On her next attempt, she gets closer, and Bucky sits up, kicking the blanket aside, and drops his feet to the floor in anticipation of her rounding the corner. Heâs nervously gripping the couch cushion on either side of his knees when she does.
âYou sneaking past Sam?â he asks quietly.
Sarah jumps, pressing a hand to her chest.
âYou scared me. I wasnât sure youâd be awake.â
Bucky shrugs, dreamily fixated on her smile. One of her neighbours turns on their porchlight and now Sarah can probably see his smile too.
âCouldnât sleep,â he says.
âShoot. Did you need something else?â
Kinda funny how sheâs pretending she was coming out here for another reason and is just making a detour for him. He knows better, but heâs got enough remnants of being a gentleman not to call her out on it.
âNah. Itâs nothing to do with you.â Bucky stares at her a few seconds and changes his mind. âYou know what? Actually, it is you.â
âWhat is?â Sarah asks with a hushed, confused laugh.
âThe reason I canât get to sleep. SarahâŚâ
But she smiles and does what he did to the boys earlierâholds a finger to her lips.
With the confidence of a woman at ease in her own home and her own body, she steps forward. She wore a yellow t-shirt today, but the one she wears now is pale pink. Itâs loose and worn and reveals the strong, elegant curve of her shoulder when she moves and it slips. Gazing up at her, Bucky shifts until he feels the back of the couch. His hands hover in the air as Sarah digs one knee, then the other, into the cushion on either side of him. She lowers herself onto his thighs.
Moving slow like the hour, deep like the black sky, Bucky runs his hands up her back.
Sarahâs palms land on his shoulders and, smiling, she confesses to him, âI like these.â
Heâs smirking when she ducks her head to kiss him.
Now that he has her hereâon his lap, in his armsâBucky forgets every way he wanted to touch her earlier. How he was gonna woo her with tender contact applied just right. Well, thank god for Sarah. She sets the pace of the kiss and, when his hands go still at her upper back, reaches around to bring one of them back down to her waist. He can feel that thereâs no bra beneath her shirt.
âRusty,â he breathes when their mouths slide apart.
âYou were on that old boat all day,â she reminds him. âYou know Iâve got patience for rusty.â
Still, Bucky wants to do a little better, prove that maybe heâs what she had in mind when she decided he was worth smiling at. He cradles Sarah closer, pulling her in, dipping his fingers into the valley of her spine when she arches into him. They kiss firmer, then faster. At her quick nod of encouragement, he moves his hands to her hips. Lower.
âSarah?â Sam slurs sleepily from down the hall. âYou outta bed?â
Sarah presses a hand to Buckyâs chest and pushes off his lap, other hand over her mouth to muffle her laughter. He chuckles too.
âAs the Falcon, timing is one of his greatest strengths.â
âAnd as his sister,â Sarah counters, âit gets on my last nerve.â
âWell, I didnât wanna say that, butâŚâ Bucky grins.
âSarah?â Sam calls out again.
She sighs.
âIs he trying to wake the boys?â She takes a step away from the couch, wearing a regretful smile. âI better go.â
Bucky catches himself before he can blurt out Iâll miss you. Overeager fool.
âSee you in the morning?â Sarah checks, something shy about her now, but not in a bad way. Cautiously hopeful, Bucky thinks. Heâs been feeling that way himself.
He gives her one more smile for the road.
âYou bet.â
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Demon Brother headcanons for trying to get their attention
You're trying to ask them on a date but they're ignoring you, then you figure out the best way to get their attention
Includes demon brothers, lord diavolo, barbatos, simeon, and solomon
No Luke cause that's your brother, tf??
Lucifer
He was outside of RAD talking to Lord Diavolo about something
You honestly didn't know what they were talking about but hoped it would end soon
Barbatos knew you were there but also knew where this was going
Lord Diavolo knew you were there too but thought it best not to say something since it was Lucifer you wanted
You were starting to get aggravated
Then you had an idea
You went and held his gloved hand
He was taken aback by the sudden weight on his hand
He turned and saw you and your hands intertwined with his
He would've been happier for the affection if it wasn't in the middle of his conversation with Lord Diavolo
He asked what were you doing with an intrigued yet confused tone
"Well I was trying to get your attention but you wouldn't pay attention to me. Anyway, there's a new place that opened up that sells different varieties of princess' poison apples. I wanted to ask you if you wanted to go with me."
"Why you didn't ask Beel to go? He likes princess' poison apples."
Yes Lucifer liked them more than Beel does, but he didn't see why you had to interrupt the conversation to ask him
You ad to repeat the part where you wanted to go with him, only him
That's when he asked if you were asking him on a date
Once he figured that out he agreed and told you that your going as soon as be finishes talking to Lord Diavolo
Diavolo let him go since he knew how long you've been waiting to ask him
You two walked and he did not let go of your hand at all
Mammon
He was trying to sell something to a demon
Or was he trying to get them involved in a new scheme?
You didn't know and couldn't care less
He kept talking while you tried to get his attention and you were getting fed up
Then you realized what you could do
There's two ways to do this
Route A- hug him from the front with your arms around his shoulders
He'll be flustered and all you have to do is let go but keep your arms draped over his shoulders and he's a cherry red tomato
Route B- hug his side and snuggle ino him
He'll still be flustered but just look up and he'll almost lose the ability to speak cause of how cute you look at his side
He'll ask what your doing in either case cause your getting in the way of money
"You weren't paying attention to me and I wanted to ask if you will to go to the human world with me. There's this new place I wanna go to and Lucifer said I could bring someone if I wanted and I kinda wanted to bring you."
"Of course you'd want to take the great Mammon!"
He didn't get that it was a date
You had to be more specific on why you wanted to go with him until he realized it was a date
It made him happy that his human wanted to go on a date with him
The demon was quickly forgotten about when he realized this
You two went to the house of lamentation with his arm around your waist
Leviathan
He's talking to someone about some game
Possibly an online mutual or someone with an interest in it
Either way you we're being ignored
You knew his rants can go on for hours
You were seriously having thoughts of kicking him, then a better idea came
While his head was still enough, you kissed his cheek
He stopped dead in his tracks and looked over at you
He flushed red and asked why you did that
Part of his redness was because this happened in an anime he saw once
But it was mostly because you kissed a yucky otaku
"Lucifer switched cooking shifts with me and I wanted to know if you wanted to make some of that food we saw in the anime we watched the other day. We're gonna need to shop for ingredients too."
Of course he agreed to make some anime food with you, but he was taken aback that you wanted to make it with him
He didn't know it was a date and you could tell by how calm he was compared to when you kissed him
You put emphasis on the fact you wanted to make it with him
That's when he realized it was supposed to be a cooking date
Leviathan.exe has stopped working
He lost the ability to speak but you knew he wanted to
You grabbed his hand while looking on your D.D.D for the ingredients
Once he calmed he built up the nerve to put his arm around your shoulder
He was over the moon when you leaned into him
Satan
He was talking to someone about some book
All you needed was 3 minutes of his attention and he couldn't spare that
He was getting into the conversation and so was the other demon
You were getting annoyed and wanted to punch one of them
But a thought overpowered that one
Right when he was still enough you grabbed his hand
He immediately stopped and looked over at you
He'll be greatful for the gesture and considered rubbing the back of your hand with his thumb but didn't
"What was that for?"
"I wanted to ask if you will go to this new bookstore that opened up. There's also a cat cafe near it too."
You lost him at bookstore
He was dragging you by the hand to go there
You had to physically stop him so you could tell him it was a date
That made him even happier to go
You both walked there hand in hand
Asmodeus
He was telling Solomon about something
You didn't know cause you wanted to punch both of them
The conversation felt like it qould never end
You were considering actually punching them but then something better came to mind
You hugged Asmo from the front with your arms around his shoulders
He stops before giggling a bit and hugging you back
"Awww, what is this for?"
"I wanted to ask you if you would go to this store with me that just opened up."
He agreed and asked Solomon to come too
That's when you had to say that you wanted to go with just and only him
The dots connected immediately
He kissed your nose agreed
He held you with trying to speed up the conversation with Solomon so you two could go
You didn't care now cause you got what you had to say out
You were also happy that you were so close to Asmo right now and he was stroking your back
When their conversation finished, he walked with you there with his arm around your waist
Beel
He was talking his fangol coach
You didn't know what about exactly and you couldn't care less
All you wanted was to talk to Beel and apparently that was asking for too much
You were about to give up when you had an idea
You grabbed his arm, pulled him down and placed a kiss on his temple
He looked over at you curiously
"Mc, are you ok? What was the kiss for?"
Don't get him wrong, he loved the kiss. He just wonders if there was a reason
"There's a new restaurant that opened up and I wanted to go with you. And maybe also go to a movie."
His mouth was already salivating at the thought
He agreed but really wanted to finish talking to his coach first
His coach let him go cause Beel's been a better player since you arrived
Beel almost dragged you, but stopped when you called his name
You had to elaborate more on why you wanted to go with him
When he realized it was a date he was even more existing to go
You walked there holding onto his arm and he loved how small you looked next to him
Belphegor
He was talking to Beel and he didn't notice you cause he was sleepy
He was awake enough to hold a conversation with his brother but not enough to notice the obvious next to him
You were mad with him and wanted to stab him awake
You decided against it
Instead you held his hand
It was warm and soft so you could've fallen asleep to just at the touch
The sudden heaviness made him finally look at you
You figured he was awake enough tobhear what you needed to say
"Do you want to go to this stuffed animal store later today with me? I want to get you something from there, my treat."
The fact you added my treat made him curious
"Why did you say my treat? Usually people only say that if..... Mc, are you asking me on a date?"
Your silence answered everything for him
He pulled you close to him and buried his head in the crook of your neck
"Ok, but let me nap right here real quick."
You and Beel laughed a bit
You allowed him to use you as a pillow to sleep and talked to Beel
When he woke up you two went to the stuffed animal store
He had his arm around your shoulder cause you were so comfy earlier, why would he let go?
Lord Diavolo
He was talking to Barbatos about some royal thing or something
You knew you couldn't always have his attention but just this once for 2 minutes you wanted it
You were growing impatient
So you decided to hold onto his arm
He felt the weight and looked over at you
The way you were holding his arm had him worry a bit
"Mc, are you ok?"
"Yeah, I just wanted to know if you wanted to go to a restaurant with me. Maybe not today, but someday soon."
He immediately asked if it was a date
When you confirmed he was so happy
He put a hand over one of yours
He tried to quickly finish his talk with Barbatos
When he did he asked him to make the reservations at the best restaurant he knew
He was excited to go on one with you
When you did go with him, he had you hold onto his arm again
He loved how your fragile human body looked against his
How you weren't scared in the slightest either, even in a world of demons
It was everything to him
Barbatos
He was talking to Diavolo about butler things or whatever
He knew you were there but couldn't talk
He also had a vague idea on what you were going to do
Seeing multiple different timelines mad eit hard to know exactly what was going to happen
The conversation with Diavolo was making you irritated
You decided the best way to get the butler's attention
You put a hand on one cheek and tried to pull him towards you for a kiss on the cheek
Then he turned his head so you ended up actually kissing him
He looked at Diavolo
"If you'll excuse me, my Lord." He turned to you "Is there something you need? Or did you already get what you need?"
"I wanted to ask if you'd go to the movies with me one day. There's a movie playing but it was released a while ago so the theater should be empty."
"Sounds like a date."
Diavolo told him to go and decided himself that what they were talking about could wait
Barbatos followed the orders and took you to the theater
He walked you there with his hand on your back
He did put his hand on your waist cause he knew you'd prefer that instead, and he'd do anything to make you happy
Simeon
He was talking to Luke about the Celestial Realm
Or was he saying how angels aren't so drastically different from demons?
It didn't matter because the angel was ignoring you
All you knew is that Luke was too busy being in his "the devildom is evil and so are the brothers" mood to tell Simeon you were there
You wanted pull his hair out
But you thought of something better, better for both of you
When he was sighing from Luke's mood, you hugged his side
He put a hand on your back when he saw it was you
Luke was surprised himself to see you there
"Mc! What are you doing here? Did those demons scare you out?" Luke asked, still in his mood
"What are you doing here? Did you need something? Are you ok?" Simeon asked, now stroking your back
Damn, this angel knows how to make you feel loved
"I'm ok Simeon. I just wanted to know if you'd go to a restaurant with me. But not like, as friends."
He got the message with the last part and agreed
He was greatful, knowing that you liked him back
And enough that you asked him on a date before he asked you
Luke was excited that you two were going on a date
You spent the next thirty minutes talking to Luke and Simeon, with Simeon's hand still on your back
Solomon
He was talking Asmo
Asmo was being Asmo so Solomom couldn't really pay attention to you
You wanted to hit Asmo at the moment
Then you wanted to do something else, so you did
You reached down and held his hand
He looked at you and held back a slight laugh
"Is there something you need?"
"I wanted if you'd go to the human world with me to go to a new store. Ya know, just us."
Immediately realized it was a date and said a flirty remark back
He was happy that you had feelings for him, the only other human in this world of demons
Asmo was upset that you didn't ask him for a date
You simply reached over a gave him a head pat and he liked the touch
You both went to Lucifer and he changed you using his magic into your human world clothes (the magic just immediately changes clothes, no nudity)
He walked with you hand in hand, planning on taking you to dinner there too
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The first thing to talk about with this episode is the pacing, and I think this might contribute to why people think itâs the best/least bad of Season 4 (personally, Iâd rather watch âFurious Fuâ but thatâs just me; also, this isnât the only contributing factor as to why I think people might feel this way, but Iâll get there later).
The episode has a very serious pacing issue, particularly with its more intense scenes. Thereâs only one minute of time dedicated to Ladybug landing on her bed, de-transforming, and her snapping at her friends plus them leaving. More time was spent on Chat Noir and Ladybug in the movie theater and Ladybug storming out.
I particularly remember watching the episode and getting eighteen minutes in, at which point I had the realization of, âIt feels like nothingâs happened?â
This episode is supposed to be a big gut punch, but the season has been going by at the speed of sound, like theyâre trying desperately to play all their cards at once (Lukanette break-up, Adrimi break-up, then Alya is told Marinetteâs secret identity). Instead of letting things build and play out for a while in the interest of suspense, the show just throws whatever will get a big reaction out of the fandom (whether positive or negative) and it doesnât care how shoddily put together everything is. The first two episodes feel like hastily put together drafts, and while this one is technically more put together, it still feels like a draft.
Letâs just start with Chat Noir, who feels completely out of place in the episode. Not only does he imply that he intentionally calls Ladybug âBugabooâ (which she has told him to stop doing) in order to get a reaction out of her, but when Ladybug insists that she doesnât want to talk, he tricks her into thinking that he has a good location to do so (and my heart breaks a little at how readily she trusts him) only to then take her to a romantic movie, then shush her when she calls him out for it because she âsaid she didnât want to talk.â
Gee, and people wonder why she didnât tell him her secret (even outside of âChat Blancâ existing)?
And... look, I know itâs a joke, but I do not find it funny. The âjokeâ is basically that Chat Noir is taking advantage of the situation to flirt with Ladybug, and though I find it at least mildly cathartic that Ladybug is unaffected by all the people staring at them while Chat Noir is embarrassed, this episode is coming right after the one where Kagami broke up with Adrien, and here Chat Noir is getting his flirt game on. I already talked about all my problems with âLiesâ so I wonât do it again, but Iâll just say that itâs not a mystery why Ladybug doesnât want to talk to him and would rather avoid her problems.
(Not to mention that Ladybug knows that Chat Noir likes her, so talking about her romantic problems with him is awkward to say the least and would come off as insensitive.)
Honestly, at this point I feel like they must be building to something with Chat, like Ladybug finally going off of him with no mercy and that forces him to give up/fall out of love for her because reverse love square, but if thatâs what they intend to go for, then that means Marinette is going to fall for this guy whoâs repeatedly disrespected her feelings for multiple seasons, almost abandoned her and let Paris drown because she wouldnât tell him a secret that wasnât hers to tell, and just generally all the other things he did????
Ugh, I donât wanna think about it. Letâs just move on.
Talking about Ladybug and her rant next, it basically summarizes the whole show in a nutshell, but simultaneously casts a shadow of sorts over âTruthâ for people who maybe missed the episode entirely (which is also sort of the show in a nutshell). I mean, Ladybug confirming to the audience that she was genuinely in love and happy with Luka (you canât watch how depressed she was over the break-up and not think that) was great, but Ladybugâs dialog implies that Luka âhated secretsâ and thatâs why they broke up, when Luka was more just... hurt that she couldnât be honest with him, and he didnât actively hate secrets. Marinette broke up with him because she felt like she had to; because she had to keep ditching and lie to him.
In addition, what she says also hints to the audience that theyâve both held and kissed each other, which not only indicates cowardice on the part of the staff (âyeah this happened but--um--off-screen; weâd still like credit tho plzâ), but may perhaps go back to the theory I had about how Adrimi and Lukanette were supposed to last longer in Season 4 but their arcs got cut (based on the Adrimi kiss having supposed to have gone off). This could mean that Ladybugâs statement was originally accurate to canon but the scenes got cut and the scriptwriters just awkwardly left it in, which is made more awkward by the cinema scene in âTruthâ that felt like Luka and Marinette were kissing for the first time (again, alluding to the whole, âthis entire season has been a draftâ thing).
Also, if you think about what that actually means - that Luka and Marinette did have successful dates and kisses but they were off-screen - then all it adds up to is that showing Marinette happy and comfortable was something that the series didnât deem as âinteresting/fun enoughâ to show, because Marinette being happy isnât something they want to see; only watching her be miserable, which is exactly what Ladybug says, along with how everything was âalmost too simple, too easy,â because Marinette isnât allowed to have nice things without being jammed through the wringer first.
And... sure, letâs say that Chat Noir thought the movie was genuinely a good idea; letâs assume that it could be a joke, him wanting to flirt, and him believing that itâd make her feel better somehow.
If thatâs the case, then whereâs the apology when it fails miserably? Ladybug goes from her semi-anxious state at the start of the episode (a little scatterbrained but ultimately just looking for a distraction), to outright enraged by the movie, and then to this upon leaving the cinema.
She just got her heart broken from being forced to break up with a boy she genuinely wanted to be with and thereâs not a single, âOkay, maybe coming here was a bad idea, Iâm sorry,â (which couldâve been seen as another joke with the audience like âlol no duh Chat Noirâ so thereâs no excuse not to have it) or, âMy bad, that was insensitive of me. I really thought this wouldâve helped but I wasnât thinking about what you wouldâve wanted.â
No. The only people Chat apologizes to are the other people at the theater because heâs embarrassed by Ladybugâs reactions, yet he himself feels no remorse for taking her there and has the gall to go on now about how heâs âthere for her if she wants to talk.â
Again, itâs no wonder Ladybug doesnât want to open up to him.
And Iâm sorry, I just donât buy that Marinette suddenly has all this free time. Itâs one thing for her to have a little more time now that sheâs broken up with her boyfriend (likely avoiding spending time with him altogether now), but âTruthâ went out of its way to talk about all of the emergencies she had to deal with and how she doesnât have any spare time. which is causing her to become forgetful and lose track of certain events (patrols with Chat, dates with Luka, etcetera), yet Marinette spends most of âGang of Secretsâ simply sulking on her bed. Itâs so jarring to go from âTruthâ where she was doing âtoo muchâ (which I called them out on for not describing what the âtoo muchâ she was doing was) and now âGang of Secretsâ where sheâs not doing anything.
Itâs almost like they invented that plot point to break Lukanette up and it served no purpose outside of it.
Furthermore, the scenes of her finally talking to Tikki and then deciding to live as Ladybug does nothing outside of making the plot more predictable, the latter because of the âAlya almost sees Ladybugâ moment (an obvious indicator that Marinette is losing control and is struggling to maintain her secret identity due to her emotionally breaking down) and the former because of Tikki herself and what she doesnât say.
Because, really, think about what actually goes on in the scene. Marinette (eyes rimmed red and filled with unshed tears, as she is for a good chunk of the episode) is venting to Tikki about - yes - her love life, but also that she has to lie to everyone in order to keep her identity a secret. The fact that Tikki focuses solely on the note of Marinetteâs love life and not say a word about the identity/lying issue or even consider telling Marinette, âhey, this is clearly too much for you, you should tell someone, I think the benefits outweigh the risks right now,â really proves that the episode tried to avoid the topic altogether to try and make the ending more shocking (which ironically made it more predictable).
So yeah, not only does Tikkiâs dialog with Marinette provide nothing except for a line about how she canât help Marinette with love issues due to kwami not falling in love (alright, I guess aros canât give good love advice then or have any input whatsoever), but Marinetteâs line about lying to everyone being why she canât pursue Adrien nor Luka is repeated in the very last scene of the episode. The only reason that scene and the scene after exist is because the writers needed Marinette to be emotionally devastated enough to leave for her balcony as Ladybug for the almost-reveal to Alya and so Rose would get close enough to the dollhouse to have an almost-reveal with the Miracle Box, making the scene feel further contrived because the emotional punch of Marinette wanting to live as Ladybug lasts for barely any time at all.
And it couldâve served a purpose, like if Ladybug had genuinely left and Alya finds her goggles and towel, recognizing them from a news story about how Ladybug had gone to the swimming pool after losing her temper at the cinema, which couldâve led to Shadow Moth making the girls believe that Ladybug was no longer heroic and had kidnapped Marinette, or... heck, Ladybug coming back inside wouldâve been so much less jarring if she came back because she heard the girlsâ voices talking about the dollhouse and had to hurry (but of course, then theyâd have to point out the ridiculousness of Ladybug not hearing Alya calling her and the girls not hearing Ladybug literally shouting for Shadow Moth to come fight her, even though the kwami heard the girls calling for Marinette from the balcony).
But instead, the entire scene feels off and unnatural, forcing every part of it in order to get to where Marinette has to snap at the girls to make them leave.
(Oh, by the way, just a little detail to add to the annoyance: they bothered putting Tom and Sabine in the episode when the girls are leaving, clearly saddened by something that happened, and neither parent even bothers to go and check on Marinette to see if sheâs upset or just to see what mightâve happened. Theyâre such a âblink-and-youâll-miss itâ moment in the episode and itâs not like Iâm surprised because theyâve done this multiple times by now but really?)
As for the girls themselves... oof, where do I even begin?
Alright, first off is the annoyance that they assume Marinetteâs problems relate only to lovesickness. Marinette has been an anxiety-prone mess throughout the entire series, and suddenly now the girls care about Marinetteâs love problems on an emotional level rather than âweâll meddle sometimes unless we donât feel like it and be wholly inconsistent on how much we push for it.â? Itâs not that I donât see how they came to the conclusion (hearing that Luka and Marinette broke up and now seeing Marinette is depressed, it checks out), but considering they bothered noting that Marinette hadnât told them anything, one would think theyâd come to the conclusion of, âokay, we havenât talked to her, we have no idea of whatâs going on, maybe we donât know her as well as we thought then and shouldnât make guesses.â
Secondly is the âeternal friendship bracelet,â which comes off as a copy of the âSecretsâ game from âSyrenâ extremely manipulative. Mylene goes on to explain that one is supposed to give a secret to the pearl âmentally,â yet when the girls actually show up to see Marinette, they expect to be told the secret directly. Iâve already talked at length about peer pressure and the mental stress Marinette goes through when they mock her and/or meddle for her, but this idea of, âwell we all used this friendship bracelet after we mutually agreed to it so now itâs your turn because we said so!â just comes off really bad. I know the episode is going for this idea that their hearts are in the right place, but theyâre really not. It feels like theyâre the ones in denial and are trying to compensate by forcing Marinette to prove that theyâre friends, unable to handle the idea that they might not be as close to her as they thought.
Thirdly, the show acts as if the girl squad are her only friends when we know thatâs not true because weâve seen episodes like âBefanaâ (the guys in the class), âReverserâ (Marc), âIkari Gozenâ (Kagami), and âSilencerâ (Ivan) that all established Marinette having more friends than just them, but for the sake of âdramaâ and the depressing line of, âat least I donât have any more friends to lie to,â the episode just pretends like Marinetteâs friends are limited to Luka (who she had to break up with) and the girl squad (who she forced to leave and refuse the friendship of).
Fourthly is the actual set-up and the sheer grossness of it all. The girls call Marinette and leave a message about how they much they love her and how she can talk to them âwhere and whenâ she wants, and then - immediately afterwards - decide that theyâre going to go straight to Marinetteâs house completely unannounced, go into her room completely unannounced (not even knocking, by the way), and when Marinette begs them to leave, Alya basically tells her that sheâs overreacting. When Marinette demands that they leave, Alya refuses and makes demands right back that they wonât leave until she tells them whatâs wrong.
So much for âwhere and whenâ she wanted, right? Itâs already one thing for the girls to invade Marinetteâs privacy and demand/guilt-trip answers out of her, but itâs another thing to give the illusion of respecting her feelings and personal space only to actively plan to go back on it. I canât tell if itâs a bad draft that they didnât catch in quality check (you know, the quality check that they definitely donât have) or just an intentional way to make them seem more sympathetic so Marinette looks worse for driving them out, but either way, itâs awful and I hate it. I wouldâve rather had them be all in on invading Marinetteâs privacy and learn a lesson in the end than outright contradict themselves.
There are also little nitpicks I could make (like Julekaâs constant mumbling despite Lukaâs crush on Marinette playing a role in the episode, Horrificator getting sidelined due to being mute, and the girlsâ akumatization ultimately being for spectacle and nothing else, serving no purpose to the plot and being furthered by the fact that Timebreaker goes after Marinette despite it being a bad idea and Reflektaâs power clearly not lining up with any sort of plan), but the real issue issue here comes down to the fact that these are Marinetteâs so-called âfriendsâ and the episode refuses to address their actual issues.
Alix, who is known for making rude comments at Marinette (âGigantitan,â âChat Blanc,â âMiraculous New Yorkâ) and then gives mixed messages by going along with meddling anyway.
Mylene, who is the closest thing to a background character in the girl squad but nevertheless finds her way into being definite voice against Marinette in âChameleon.â
Juleka, who blamed Marinette for things she didnât do in âReflekdollâ and got huffy with her until Marinette apologized for said things.
Rose, who outright screamed at Marinette in âChat Blancâ over a freaking stuffed animal, which pressured Marinette enough that she snuck into Adrienâs room to deliver her gift which nearly led to the end of the world.
And, of course, Alya; freaking Alya. I donât even have to go into every single thing sheâs ever done because I have a history of giving her absolutely no mercy.
...But letâs go through some anyway because I want to.
âCopycatâ - Alya gives Marinette a script and tells her to memorize it, then immediately pushes the âcallâ button when Marinette hesitates after Marinette had just told Alya that sheâs awful at improv.
âDarkbladeâ - Alya takes a jab at Marinette when Marinette says that sheâs too busy to be class representative, implying that Alya thinks that Marinette does absolutely nothing with her time.
âGamerâ - Alya is busy recording the gaming competition when she and Marinette were supposed to be researching for a term paper. Alya then scolds Marinette for wanting to use the competition to get close to Adrien only to do a 180 and put up a fight about it when Marinette decides to quit.
âAnimanâ and how âThe Puppeteer 2âł follows up on it - oh, Iâm not going to touch that particular point right now, but keep those in the back of your mind, because I am going to absolutely go off later
âSimon Saysâ - Similarly to Marinetteâs parents, Alya gives zero damns about whatever might be going on in Marinetteâs life that's causing her to miss classes.
"Despair Bearâ - Alya laughs at Marinette being forced to kiss Chloeâs cheek and then outright compares Marinette to Chloe after knocking Chloe multiple times during the episode (sure, just compare your âbest friendâ to her multi-year bully, how "hilariousâ of you).
âGigantitanâ - Alya has no qualms about mocking Marinetteâs over her failures, even if it embarrasses her and sheâs been through enough already.
âFrozerâ - Alya tries to find ways for Marinette to prevent herself from third-wheeling for Adrien, but when Marinette tries to show character growth by wanting to go, Alya gets into a shouting match with the other girls over how Marinette has âliked Adrien forever and isnât going to give up nowâ.
âCatalystâ - Alya claims that Marinette is only salty over Lila out of jealousy when âFrozerâ exists and literally is the prime evidence of Adrien liking another girl and Marinette telling Alya outright and very genuinely that sheâs not jealous.
âChameleonâ - Alya doesnât care about her best friend sitting in the back by herself while Alya herself get to sit next to her boyfriend and everyone else in general gets to sit where they want (Alya even acting confused at the mere suggestion that sheâd tried to engineer things to let Marinette sit next to Adrien), then not only believes Lila over Marinette but contradicts herself twice (asking Marinette for proof when she has none herself, then claiming that she wouldnât let her best friend sit by herself).
âChristmasterâ - Alya leaves Marinette to babysit so she and Nino can go out on a date.
âDesperadaâ - Alya suddenly is for Lukanette for literally one episode and doesnât know how/doesnât even try to cover for Marinetteâs Adrien blindness despite mocking her for multiple seasons over it.
âReflekdollâ - Alya invites Adrien to something thatâs crucial for Marinette to focus on after Marinette has already told her not to and continues meddling to the point where it gets Juleka akumatized (she also doesnât get punished for it and the blame gets thrown onto Marinette).
âThe Puppeteer 2âł - Alya pushes her luck with Nathalie to try and get Marinette to come with her, Nino, Adrien, and Manon to the museum, then traps Marinette in a room with Adrien to force her to spent alone time with him, even abandoning and forgetting about the child that she offered to watch for Marinette so she and her boyfriend can go off alone.
âMiraculous New Yorkâ - Alya is told directly by Marinette that she needs help seeing Adrien as a friend, which leads Alya to do the exact opposite throughout the entire special, at one point shouting at Marinette and pressuring her to chase after a car, in the rain, while thereâs a supervillain rampaging through Paris, and all of this right after the scheme that Alya had set up caused both Marinette and Adrien to go missing.
And just saying, as Marinetteâs supposed âbest friend,â Alya sure doesnât know how to handle her. It was acceptable back in âThe Bubblerâ when she asked Marinette about signing the gift too late and the same goes for âDark Cupid,â but by the time we get to late Season 2/3 and Alya refuses to learn Marinetteâs weak spots (unless itâs to mock her) and adjust accordingly (like if sheâd already made sure the gift was signed in âChat Blanc,â which wouldâve prevented Adrien seeing Ladybug at all due to the time difference), it starts getting infuriating.
A best friend is supposed to cover for their friendâs weaknesses. Alya doesnât do that; she meddles and often drives Marinetteâs anxiety even further up a wall with absolutely no consideration for Marinetteâs feelings (âDark Cupid,â âThe Puppeteer 2,â âReflekdoll,â âMiraculous New Yorkâ).
And here, she and the other girls are rewarded for it. Luka actively resisted his akumatization whereas the girls gave in immediately, yet Marinette still opens up to them in the end, likely because they had pressured her and made her feel bad for the secrets she was keeping while Luka was willing to actually wait for her to be ready to talk to him. I canât put into words how frustrating it is watching these girls trample all over Marinetteâs feelings, not have their worst actions called out, and then jump cut post-deakumatization to Marinette telling them exactly what they wanted to know about her love life.
You know what this entire episode is really missing, outside of a coherent plot, properly-paced development, and a basic understanding of rewarding a character for things theyâve held firmly to?
Itâs missing the apology. Chat Noir apologizes to a bunch of moviegoers and Rose apologizes for the broken dollhouse, but no one apologizes to Marinette for how they treated her, especially not the âfriendsâ who got rewarded in the end.
âSorry, we shouldnât have told you that weâd respect your feelings and then showed up unannounced to make you talk about them.â
âWeâre sorry we came into your room and invaded your privacy. You were right to be mad at us.â
âOh my gosh, Marinette, we got akumatized and weâre so sorry for literally all five of us going after you and probably scaring the living daylights out of you.â
And as if that wasnât enough, guess what else this is missing? Itâs kind of important and brought up directly in the episode, yet the episode simultaneously goes out of its way not to bring it up again.
Itâs the reason why Marinette didnât tell the girls about her relationship with Luka. Itâs not there - itâs missing - and the girls never try to pursue the subject. They talk about how Marinette didnât tell them but donât think for a second that maybe itâs them who have failed as friends. Instead, they donât guess anything about why Marinette wouldnât tell them (which is already strange considering how much they already assume about her) and jump straight to, âwell clearly we just need to push for her to talk to us.â
Gonna just go out on a limb here and say that maybe - just maybe - Marinette didnât tell them because they are habitually pushy in everything they do.
Because they wouldâve teased her relentlessly about, âohhhh youâve got eyes for Luka? what about Aaaaaadrien~? arenât you sooo tooorn between both of these cute guys?â
Because they wouldâve meddled to force her and Luka together and gotten on her case when/if she ever had to bail on him.
Because their intrusion on her feelings for Adrien had caused her nothing but problems and she just wanted to be with Luka in peace without them forcing their way into things.
Because--hey, wild thought--maybe theyâre not really friends???
But the episode completely avoids it, because that wouldâve meant addressing it; it wouldâve meant acknowledging that they messed up, which - fun fact - they actually donât do in the episode.
They invaded Marinetteâs privacy, insisted that she tell them how she feels (not about them of course because that would imply that they felt like they screwed up), and in the end itâs Marinette who gives them exactly what they asked of her, and the closest thing we get to acknowledging anything is Alix telling her/joking with her that theyâll help her confess to whoever she likes as soon as she tells them sheâs ready.
Thatâs not an apology. Thatâs not an acknowledgment of wrongdoing. Even when the five of them are about to get akumatized, itâs not a circle of them saying, âhereâs how I screwed up, I couldâve done better but I didnât and I lost Marinette because of it.â
No. Itâs just them talking about how sad the situation is. Mylene has the closest thing to remorse in saying, âI hoped it would work,â but where does it go? A grand total of nowhere, especially because Marinette still takes the bracelet in the end instead of the girls mutually deciding, âokay, maybe the bracelet was a bad idea; how about we all agree on making something together instead, no requirements attached?â
And then the episode has the gall to act as if Alya has gone through character growth when all they did was put Alya through the same thing that Chloe did. Iâll explain that last bit momentarily, but first letâs talk about the whole âgrowthâ thing.
Because thereâs no apology or acknowledgement of wrongdoing, all Alya does when sheâs finally alone with Marinette is do a 180 from where she was at the start of the episode, going from, âfriends have to tell each other everything,â to, âhey, if you donât want to tell me, then thatâs your right.â
The crucial part thatâs supposed to go in the middle is missing. Instead of acknowledging her failures, Alya just cuts straight to âââbeing a better friend,âââ but storytelling doesnât work that way.
It literally would have taken zero effort to fit an acknowledgement into that scene. âYou donât have to tell me everything, I get that now. All my meddlingâs done is hurt you and Iâm so sorry. I wouldnât blame you if you didnât trust me.â
In a world where Marinette has to apologize for everything, has to learn lessons and suffer because the narrative says so, I will not accept anything less from other characters who are trying to develop and improve. Thatâs not fair to Marinette, nor has it ever been.
Instead of properly developing Alya, the show does whatever it can to get its audience to root for her as Marinetteâs âbest friendâ (ugh) without having to put in the effort of admitting that Alya hasnât been Marinetteâs âbestâ friend.
Remember when I brought up Chloe? Yeah, âMalediktatorâ did a similar thing, showing Chloe doing something awful, then being sad (while not actually acknowledging the thing she did wrong), and in the end she was rewarded with a miraculous prematurely.
One show of character from Chloe and Marinette gave her a miraculous. One show of character from Alya and Marinette told her that she was Ladybug.
(Also, for the record, I think Chloe is far worse than Alya character-wise and Iâm not comparing their characters; this is just the simplest comparison I can draw here from a narrative standpoint.)
âMiraculerâ is another apt comparison, perhaps even more so. Chloe got Hawk Moth in her head after an akuma landed in her photo of her and Ladybug, but Chloe resisted and fought back, ultimately forcing the akuma out of her and freeing herself from Hawk Mothâs control.
But it wasnât to develop her character; no, it was to convince the audience of Chloe and Sabrinaâs friendship so theyâd feel something during Sabrinaâs happy flashbacks, then lay the foundation of tricking viewers into believing that Chloe might not go to Hawk Mothâs side.
At the end of the day, it was doing something thatâs ânever been done beforeâ in order for the character to earn brownie points for something that the writers can just have them do because willpower is an easy thing to just write in. âGang of Secretsâ does the exact same thing when Lady Wifi breaks free from Shadow Moth, with Ladybug even hammering it home by talking about how no oneâs ever done it before.
And the pacing is - again - awful. Not only is Ladybug banking on this working when she herself says that itâs never been done, but the conversation between her and Lady Wifi where Ladybug tries to convince her doesnât even take a minute.
It also has nothing to do with Marinette herself; Ladybug relies on Alyaâs adoration/friendship with her as Ladybug (you know, after Alya took a photo of LadyNoir kissing and posted it online without Ladybugâs consent, betrayed her by putting information on the LadyBlog that Hawk Moth was able to take advantage of, and is the only hero outside of Chloe to resist returning a miraculous) in order to break from Hawk Mothâs control, because talking about Marinette with Lady Wifi didnât even work.
(Ladybug also uses her yoyo as a portal to the Miracle Box when this has never been pre-established to be a thing despite Ladybug acting as if she knew it was; further proof that this episode was rushed.)
And of course talking about Marinette didnât work, because that wouldâve meant convincing Alya that her reason for getting akumatized was âwrongâ and the episode didnât want to do that. It didnât want someone else actually learning something and feeling bad; surely, this is just Alya being manipulated by Shadow Moth and having the power to break free because Ladybug âneeds Rena Rougeâ and not because Lady Wifi and her friends are chasing after their supposed best friend and thatâs--you know--wrong???
Rena Rougeâs reappearance is also yet another thing the episode refuses to address because it avoids the topic of âbut my identity--â. At least âHeart Hunterâ had the tact to have Kagami question why Ladybug was giving her the dragon again, but âGang of Secretsâ treads as lightly as possible on any discussion of identities outside of Marinette saying that she canât, as if it were Marinette who made the choice of concealing her identity and not the basic idea of heroing that has been stressed over and over for the whole show.
Even Plagg of all kwami stated back in âOriginsâ that no one is supposed to know about secret identities, a rule that continues becoming flaky and muddled with each passing season, almost like they kept attempting to retcon and make the audience dulled to the idea so that the reveal in âGang of Secretsâ would be more acceptable.
But now, with the way they did it and how they donât even have Tikki comment on the matter, it once again has it look like theyâre making it - say it with me, everyone - Marinetteâs fault.
Alya says that Marinette has a choice in telling her secret, Marinette insists that she doesnât and goes on and on about how itâll change everything, and then just... tells Alya her secret in the end.
And remember all the way back in Season 2? âSapotisâ?
Alya: What were you saying about her secret identity?
Marinette: Ladybug needs it to protect her family and friends. Otherwise the villains could use them to get to her.
Alya: Well, if I knew who Ladybug really was, I'd keep it a secret. I would even help her! Like say, if you were Ladybug, I'd cover for you â when you needed to transform in school, go fight the "baddies", you know?
Marinette: Oh yeah? Well, if I was Ladybug I wouldn't even tell you, to protect you from the "baddies", you know?
Alya: You serious? If I was Ladybug, I'd totally tell you! Because I tell my best friend everything.
And now here we are in âGang of Secrets,â as if the narrative is saying, âSee, Marinette? Alya was right all along, you were just being ridiculous and making yourself suffer for no reason!â
Yet Marinette had a right to keep her secrets. When Alya and Nino learned each otherâs identities, Alya took a hit for Nino in âCatalystâ and both of them fell to Scarlet Mothâs akumas. Chloe was a mess and a half because of Hawk Moth knowing her identity. Fu had told Marinette that her miraculous would get taken if she and Chat Noir learned each otherâs identities.
The only ones who received no consequences due to someone knowing their identity were Pegase (who Chat Noir and Markov knew), Ryuko (who Chat Noir, Ikari Gozen, and Hawk Moth knew), and Viperion (who Adrien knew). âChat Blancâ also exists where Marinette got the impression that people discovering her identity would be a disaster, and even all the way back in âLady Wifiâ insisted that not telling anyone her identity was âlistening to her head and not her heart,â and the narrative has relentlessly humiliated her for going with her heart, so yeah, probably for the best.
I hate that the episode avoids talking about anything identity-related outside of what comes out of Marinetteâs mouth to make it appear like it was her choice all along. I hate that they had Tikki fixate on Marinetteâs love problems instead of having her actually support Marinette and admit that Marinette should tell someone before she has a mental breakdown. I hate that the episode inserts Rena Rouge into the plot as if to brush all identity issues away so as to make Marinetteâs identity reveal seem less jarring.
Now, of course Iâm glad Marinette told someone. Of course I want her to get love and support from someone. Of course I think the benefits outweigh the risks, or I wouldnât have written multiple fix-its where her identity gets revealed in some way or someone already knows.
But I didnât want it to be Alya, because I knew how theyâd do it. I knew theyâd do it wrong and I knew that they wouldnât have the courage to address Alyaâs issues properly.
Those familiar with my blog will know that Iâd been taking negative predictions for future seasons for a while and adding them to cards whenever they were proven right. Does anyone remember the Season 4 predictions that were proven correct for âGang of Secrets,â specifically these ones?
- âAlya will suddenly be portrayed as a good/worthy friend to Marinette in/if there's an episode where Marinette tells her that she's Ladybugâ
- âAlya resisting Shadow Moth/fighting back against him will be used to excuse telling Alya Marinette's secret identityâ
- âAlya will know that Marinette is Ladybug first because "BFFs" despite being one of the worst candidates for itâ
- âThe secret that broke Lukanette up will be resolved in episode 3 when Marinette tells Alyaâ
Each and every one of those were mine, because I knew that whether Season 4 had a proper chronological order or not, the writers would not have the guts to develop Alya first and then have Marinette tell her in a future episode after Alya has properly earned it.
I knew that they wouldnât take time to develop Alya. I knew that they would have Alya resist Shadow Moth to make Alya look âworthyâ of the secret. I knew that Alya would swoop in during the last minute and a half of an episode, insisting that Marinette âdidnât have to tell her anythingâ when Alya had been pushy and insistent for the entire rest of the episode and the whole series in general, and would ultimately be rewarded with the big secret simply because sheâs âthe best friendâ and thatâs it.
The Alya at the end of the episode isnât the Alya Iâve known for the entire rest of the series before this, or at the very least they turned her into an Alya I donât recognize.
Alya claims during the ending scene that she knows that Marinette is hiding something beyond her love problems because she - as a reporter and âher best friendâ - can sense such things, and all Iâm left wondering is
w h e r e ?
Where and when has Alya been suspicious or worried about Marinette keeping a secret from her? What, back in âThe Pharoahâ where she didnât immediately disregard Marinette for the role of Ladybug, or âSimon Saysâ where she vaguely teased Marinette about having a double life, both Season 1 episodes?
Where was Alya in âTruthâ saying that she didnât know Marinetteâs secret but knew that she was keeping one? Where was Alya anywhere in Season 3 being concerned that Marinette hasnât told her something? Where was this âsupposedly very observantâ Alya when Marinette needed her to out Lila because Lila got her expelled--oh wait, Alya âobservedâ that Lila did nothing and Marinette was just jealous.
What, is it only now that Alya suddenly âknowsâ that Marinette is hiding something else? Now, after Alya has already not known that Marinette was literally dating someone, even when Alya had multiples pictures of Marinette and said someone giving each other heart eyes and saw Marinette leaving school with said someone riding on the same bike together, you know, like normal, typical, average friends would?
Whereâs the line where Alya acknowledges the problem? Whereâs Alya sitting down with Marinette and admitting, âhey, Iâm sorry I havenât noticed this stuff, but I promise Iâll do better starting right now, and thatâs how I know now that youâre hiding something else, and Iâm sorry it took me so long to realize that itâs been hurting youâ?
I canât tell you where it is, but I can say that itâs certainly not in this episode. 60% of the episode features the Alya we knew from the rest of the series and then switches her out the second sheâs de-akumatized for another Alya who hasnât done anything that the old one has because she pretends like it didnât happen.
You know how I know? Because of this absolute gut punch of a line that showed that the series wanted to handwave everything away.
âI know how to keep a secret.â
...Really? Does she now? Well, I hope everyone remembered my point about âAnimanâ and âThe Puppeteer 2,â because Iâm bringing it right back.
Considering that âTruthâ has been burned into all of our memories, we all definitely remember when Truth shoots Alya and questions her on Marinetteâs secret, to which Alya states that Marinetteâs secret is, âSheâs in love with Adrien Agreste.â Now, at the time of Season 4â˛s airing, this is very much not a secret, as most characters already knew about Marinetteâs crush, to the point where itâd been broadcast on television during Season 2.
But do you know when it was actually a secret? Back in Season 1, specifically in the episode âAnimanâ where Alya told Nino.
And not only did she tell Nino, but she lied to Marinette by claiming that she didnât, acting as if Nino knew that Marinette had a crush but didnât know who she was crushing on, which is then directly proven false as Nino accidentally implies that he does know who it is. This is also after Alya had gotten on Marinetteâs case for trying to set her up with Nino, and then she had the gall to say that she wouldnât spill Marinetteâs secret because she, and I quote, âdoesn't go around making decisions for other people,â a statement that is directly contradicted by this little thing known as everything Alya has ever said and done in the entire series.
And while Marinette meddling in Alyaâs love life actually ended up working out for Alya, Alya meddling in Marinetteâs by telling Nino who Marinette is crushing on comes back to bite Marinette - not Alya (because of course) - in the infamous episode of âThe Puppeteer 2,â where Marinette realizes that Alya really did tell Nino that she was crushing on Adrien.
Marinette: You told me you wouldn't tell Nino!
Alya: I haven't told him. Right, Nino? I didn't tell you anything. (elbows him)
Nino: She didn't tell me. And besides, I told her I wouldn't tell.
Then, when sheâs called out on it, Alya lies again, and shamelessly so.
Marinette: Why did you tell Nino everything? You promised you wouldn't!
Alya: I didn't, I swear! Besides, even if I had told him everything, he would still be clueless. Ugh, who cares anyway? I've set everything up with Nino, who doesn't know a thing, so you can finally pour your heart out to Adrien, girl!
And now, here we are one season later - and not even half of a season if you go by production code order - and Alya claims that she knows how to keep a secret.
No. No, she does not. In fact, she does even worse because she wonât even admit when sheâs spilled said secret. I absolutely refuse to accept that Alya is âworthyâ or âdeservingâ of learning that Marinette is Ladybug when she couldnât even keep a basic secret like who her friend was crushing on.
And no, it didnât matter that Nino was her boyfriend, or that maybe she thought it would work out because Nino was friends with Adrien. By that logic, Alya would tell Adrien that Marinette is Ladybug if she heard that Ladybug is who Adrien was crushing on and we all know how that wouldâve gone.
Marinette has a right to tell her secret to whoever she wants and Iâm glad that a burden has been lifted from her, but that doesnât mean I have to be happy that itâs Alya. That doesnât mean I have to be happy that, after so many moments of Alya disrespecting Marinetteâs feelings, she is the one who gets to hear the big secret that the fandom has been waiting for someone to find out about since the very start of the series.
Luka said it best in âTruthâ that the truth is meant to be shared, not taken by force, but Marinette was forced to tell Alya by the narrative because Alya is her supposed âbest friend.â It pushed Marinette to her breaking point, forced her to break up with the guy who has respected her agency and feelings since the day they met, and gave her a version of her âbest friendâ with the same name and face but with none of the responsibility from previous events so that said version was there at the right time and the right place to hear what had to be heard.
And in the end, I end up feeling nothing. Marinette doesnât even have a âMarinetteâ reaction to saying it as one would expect; for her to blurt it out and then immediately start panicking until Alya hugs her to calm her down. Instead, Marinette just says it and stares silently at Alya - after blabbing this huge, very big deal of a secret - until Alya goes in for a hug (the âhappy/hopefulâ ending of which is why I feel like this episode also gets less flak, as the previous two ended off rather depressing/upsetting).
Itâs off. Everything is off. The pacing, the delivery, and the logic that the episode uses. The emotion in Marinetteâs voice when sheâs rambling about how hard it is to keep her secret is so powerful, but then the ending hits and she just says it, breaking the momentum they had going. They pulled the card of Alya walking away too soon when they couldâve saved it, having Marinette go quiet and letting Alya take a few steps away in order to let the moment build before Marinette finally blurts out the secret sheâs been painfully holding in.
But they didnât, and Iâm so many levels of dissatisfied. I wasnât against the idea of Alya learning Marinetteâs secret at some point (though honestly, Alix wouldâve been a better pick considering that Bunnyx will know eventually anyway, and I say that not even liking Alix!), but not now; not when Alya had so much to work towards.
And now what? What happens now? Now Alya will turn against Lila, not because she learned to have faith and believe in Marinette, but because Marinette is Ladybug, which disproves Lilaâs ultimate lie that got Alyaâs attention in the first place? Now Alya will be supportive and less teasing/mocking whenever Marinette will be late, not because she understands that Marinette isnât perfect and has so many other things on her mind, but because sheâs Ladybug and has âhero stuffâ to take care of? Now Alya will be careful about what she puts on the LadyBlog, not because she respected Ladybug and what Ladybug would want, but because Ladybug is now her best friend and that changes everything?
Because now, Alya has a free pass to all of that, the show making her spontaneously âdevelopedâ now so they wonât have to develop her later, and disappointing doesnât even begin to describe it.
#category: salt#episode: Gang of Secrets#other: ml spoilers#category: long post#word count: over 7000#other: ask and answer#((I know this is long so I did what I did in ''The Puppeteer 2'' where I had pictures to break it up.))
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Donât Touch HerâSpencer Reid
Word count: 3.6k
angst and fluff
Synopsis: you and Reid go undercover for a case and it goes wrong. You finally hear how Reid feels about you.
Warnings: mention of violence and gore.
A/N: Iâm quite new to one shots, so I hope you enjoy. You are free to send in requests. I am still new to tumblr, so I hope to figure stuff out soon on here. I plan to do more characters, make a master list pinned to my board, and do smut chapters in the future <3
I was originally getting my morning coffee until I got the call from Garcia. I pressed my lips together as she confirmed it was another case before I proceeded to ask what coffee she wanted. If I ever got a call about a case and I was already at a coffee shop, I would grab coffee for the rest of the team. It was only fair, and they would do the same for me. Weâre all a family.
I carefully carried the trays of coffee in my hands to the building.
âDo you need a hand?â I didnât have to look up to see who it was. I would know that voice anywhere.
I turned to look at him with a smile. âThat would be great, Spence.â
He shot me a smile as he reached over and grabbed a tray. The brief contact of our skin touching made my heart flutter momentarily.
Without hesitation, Spencer opened the door and let me in. âYou shouldnât spoil us with coffee all the time.â
I shrugged my shoulders as I glanced up at him. âItâs fine. Iâm keeping tabs,â I joked. âDonât worry. I got your coffee how you like. Although, I donât understand why you insist on dairy since youâre lactose intolerant.â
âWhat can I say? I like dairy.â âBut tummy aches,â I replied. âA little pain is worth it.â
I rolled my eyes at him. He could be so stubborn at times. We stepped into the elevator to go meet the rest of our team. Most of them were already seated at the table.
âYouâre such a life-saver,â JJ told me with a grin. I smiled back as I started to hand everyone their coffees.
âLast, but not least,â I said as I turned to face Spencer. âDr. Reid,â I finished in a softer tone. I couldâve sworn I saw him gulp, but I was probably imagining it.
As soon as everyone showed up, Garcia went on to tell us about the new case. We all flipped through our files as she spoke. Itâs not hard to admit this job is difficult, especially with how monstrous some people are.
âWheels up in 30,â Hotch told us as he left the room.
***
Spencer and I were partnered to go to the coronerâs office. The person went over the details as I looked at the bodies and Spencer read the files.
âCan he really read that fast,â the woman asked me, making me briefly glance up at her.
âYes,â I replied before looking back at the bodies. âYou said the male was most likely hit with an iron chain that was also used to strangle him afterwards?â
âThatâs what it points to. Why?â
âWielding a big chain is a lot harder than most people tend to believe,â Spencer informed as he handed her the file back.
âHereâs the other thing though,â the forensics started to speak, âthe female victim had lacerations on her skin from leather. Itâs possible she was whipped with leather while he was whipped with a chain.â
âWe could be looking at two unsubs,â I thought out loud as I looked up at Spencer. He nodded.
âI think so too.â âIâll call Hotch.â
I stepped outside of the room as I called him. Not long after Hotch answered. âWhat did you guys find?â
âWeâre looking for two unsubs. One is strong enough to wield an iron chain as a whip and the other is weaker since they used a leather whip on the female victim.â
âThanks. If you and Reid find anything else, let me know.â
And with that, the call ended. I found my way back to Spencer to catch up on any more details he learned. He caught me up on the information, which shocked forensics to see he spoke every detail verbatim.
We thanked the woman before leaving to head to the precinct to catch up with the team.
âWhat are you thinking Reid?â I glanced over at him as I drove. It was as if I could see the wheels turning in his head.
âI know it seems weird, but I think it might be a couple who committed these murders.â
âSo the guy kills the male and the girl kills the female. They probably get off on watching each other torture and kill their victim.â
âThe male uses a chain to beat and kill the guy showing his dominance and strength.â
âAnd the woman uses a leather whip which is usually associated with BDSM.â
âExactly,â Spencer agreed.
As soon as Spencer and I got to the precinct, we told the team what we came up with and what forensics showed. We all went around putting in our input based on the evidence all of us gathered and learned.
Unfortunately, thatâs when we all received news there were more victims just found.
I went with Emily and Morgan to look at the crime scene. The victimology was the same. The male was brutally tortured and killed with a metal chain and the female with a leather whip. Itâs unsettling to know there are couples who do these things together, let alone a single person.
Once we returned to meet with the rest of the team, we learned each couple went to the same bar the night they went missing. It was no coincidence. That bar meant something to that couple. With all the information we gather, we were finally ready to deliver the profile.
After it was delivered, Hotchner began to talk about a plan he had in mind.
âWe need to set up an undercover operation for tonight,â Hotch spoke. âWeâll have multiple people stationed throughout the area to keep an eye out.â
Everyone nodded. Everyone understood the plan.
âTwo of my agents will be the ones going undercover. I need as many others as possible to be around the area ready to catch this couple. Be careful and aware of everything, but remember to be subtle. We donât want to announce our presence before theyâve made themselves known. Any alarm could ruin this.â
And with that the plan was set in motion.
Hotch pulled me and Spencer aside to speak with us. âI need you two to go undercover as the couple.â
I almost wanted to look at Spencer and imagine it was all real. I desperately wanted to know what it would be like to be with him, but I made sure to keep my mind fixated on the case at hand.
JJ helped me get ready. I wasnât exactly great at doing my makeup myself, so I was glad she helped.
âTry to explain to me why you and Reid arenât dating in real life again,â she asked with a small smirk.
âI donât know..,â I softly said.
That was the truth. I didnât know how to make a move or what to do with Spencer. Every time I thought about it, my palms would sweat profusely and my heart would race that I would have to change the subject in my head.
âI see the way you both look at each other. Trust me, everyone does.â
I quirked a brow. âWhat?â
JJ let out a small chuckle. âAfter we close this case, I think you should go for it. I just hope you do it soon, otherwise Iâll lose this bet going on.â
âYou have a bet going on about me and Spencer?â
JJ did a sly smile and shrugged her shoulders. âGood luck tonight. Weâll make sure nothing happens to you two.â
âThanks, JJ.â
I felt a little odd wearing a dress. I prefer slacks or skirts but dresses always felt different to me. I at least felt more secure having one of my smaller guns strapped to my thigh.
âHey, hot mama,â Derek said with a grin.
I lightly punched his arm. âI can still kick your ass, Morgan.â
He let out a laugh as I rolled my eyes. Hotch walked up and handed me my earpiece. âWeâll be listening to everything. Weâll tell you and Reid if we notice something.â
I nodded as I listened and put the piece in. I let my hair fall over it to help conceal the device.
As soon as Reid walked over, my heart raced at the site of him. It was rare to see him in jeans and a plain button down. He looked good in anything.
Hotch gave him his earpiece as well and told him what he just told me. I almost felt that out of the corner of my eye I saw Reid glance at me a few times.
Spencer and I made our way outside of the precinct to use one of the undercover cars to drive to the place. He got on the drivers side.
âYou, uh, look really pretty,â Spencer spoke. His voice came out a little broken and nervous.
I felt my cheeks heat up as I smiled. âThanks. JJ did a good job.â
I watched as his mouth parted but closed after a second. I wanted so desperately to know what he was planning on saying. Usually he never thought about not speaking once something was on his mind. It made me even more curious.
âYou look good too,â I decided to speak. I watched as he gulped and lightly blushed.
âI-I do? I havenât worn jeans in about 20 years.â
âYou always look good,â I mumbled. I was afraid he would hear what I said.
âWhat?â
âOh, sorry,â I replied in a fast tone. âI was mumbling to myself.â
âOh⌠Okay.â
I glanced over and saw a ghost of a smile on his lips. My heart raced as I asked myself if he heard me or not.
When we arrived at the bar, Spencer opened the door for me like he usually does.
âSuch a gentleman.â I smiled and looked up at him.
âWell, you deserve the best.â
My heart fluttered. Did he mean himself? Was he trying to be the best he could? For me?
He held out his hand before I grasped it in my own. I couldnât deny that it was a wonderful feeling holding his hand. Mine felt so small in his.
We walked inside to find it crowded. Apparently it was a popular bar. It was also happy hour, so that explained a lot of things.
âWhat would you like to drink,â Spencer leaned in and asked me. His breath on my skin sent exciting shivers down my back.
âCranberry juice. That way it looks like I might be drinking a mixed drink,â I whispered to him. He nodded.
I donât know how long we were there, but it felt like a while. Spencer and I sat at the bar sipping our drinks, talking, and looking around inconspicuously.
I leaned in and whispered into Spencerâs ear. âI donât know if this will be enough to attract them. But when I pull away, act as if I said something enticing to you.â
When I pulled away, I saw a smile on Spencerâs lips as he looked at me.
âIâve never seen you two in before.â
Spencer and I turned to see a guy in his mid-30âs holding two beers.
âWeâre just visiting. We had to try this place out because we kept hearing so many good things,â I replied with a smile.
âWe always love welcoming new people. Iâm John, by the way. Thatâs my fiancĂŠ Cindy over there.â
He turned and pointed to a blonde woman seated at a table who waved over at us with a bright smile.
âFiancĂŠ? Congratulations,â I told him. âWhen is the special day?â
âWeâre still settling on one. You both are more than welcome to join us at our table.â
I looked over at Spencer to meet his eyes. âDoes that sound good, Matt?â
He nodded with a smile as we walked over and joined them at the table.
âHi, Iâm Cindy,â the woman said with a smile.
âJune.â âMatt.â
âItâs a pleasure to meet you both. I hope John wasnât bothering you. Weâve just never seen your faces around here before.â
âWeâre visiting,â I answered.
Something in my gut told me this was them, but I didnât have any proof. Yet.
We spoke with them a for a while. Without thinking, I reached under the table and searched for Spencerâs hand. It was almost like he knew because his hand found mine and squeezed it reassuringly.
âHow about another round of drinks,â John asked as he stood up.
âIâll come with,â Spencer replied as he stood up.
They left leaving me and Cindy alone. âYouâre a lucky girl,â she told me.
âYou are too. You and John look so happy together.â
âBut the way Matt looks at you,â she spoke and bit her lip lightly. âJohn never looks at me that way. You got yourself a winner.â
âI think we both do.â
I suddenly had a nausea wave over me. âWoah, hun! You okay there?â
âYeah, I, umâwhereâs the restroom?â
âHere, Iâll help you. You donât look so good.â
I didnât have time to think since I felt like I was about to puke any second. Cindy stood up and helped me stumble my way to the restroom.
I rushed into a stall and immediately threw up. I plucked the piece out of my ear and held it in my palm so the others wouldnât have to listen to me puking. I know I wouldnât want to listen to it.
I slumped over after I finished.
âAre you finished yet?â
I could barely form a word as I glanced over and saw the end of a barrel. How could I be so stupid? I just hoped someone would come crashing into the bathroom to get her, but no one came.
âGet up,â she told me.
I could barely stand as I did what she told me to do. I briefly looked around and noticed the restroom didnât look like a public one but a single person one. I cursed myself in my head.
She grasped my arm tightly and held the gun to my side. âWalk with me like normal and I wonât kill you right here. I want to at least have some fun before I do that.â
There was excitement laced in her voice. It made me sick again hearing it. How someone could be so excited to kill something else. Another human being.
I was led to a van. Every step I prayed someone would come help. Anyone.
I was shocked inside with the door immediately closed behind me. I threw up again. I couldnât think of when my drink couldâve been drugged.
My legs and arms felt numb as I slumped onto the floor of the van. I wanted to reach for my gun or do something, but my body wouldnât let me.
I could barely make out the sound of Spencerâs voice as he clung onto me.
âWhat did you do to her,â he demanded. I donât think Iâve ever heard him so angry.
âRelax, why donât you,â John snapped. âSheâll be conscious enough soon.â
And with that, Spencer went unconscious beside me after the end of a gun butted against his temple.
***
My eyelids flickered open adjusting to the lightly. My arms were tied being my back with rope. I looked over to find an unconscious Spencer. I knew my gun was snatched away by them, so the hopes with that were gone.
I softly spoke his name as I tried to move closer to him. A hum left his throat as his head slightly moved. I nudged him lightly a few times.
As soon as his eyes opened, they landed on me with a worried expression.
âDid they hurt you?â
I shook my head as I looked at the small patch of blood on his temple.
âIs your head okay?â
âItâll be fine⌠Iâm so sorry.â
âYou have nothing to be sorry about, Spence.â
âI shouldâve paid attention more, then we wouldnât be here. I couldâve done more to protect us, protect you,â he said as he looked away.
âSpence, look at me,â I pleaded. âNone of this is your fault. Weâll get out of this.â
I looked around, but we were in a completely bare room with nothing that could help us. When I looked back at Spencer, he was looking at me.
âWhy are you looking at me that way?â
âI want to make sure the imprint of your features are engraved in my brain in case something happens.â
How could he make my heart swarm in a situation like this?
âThis might sound insanely morbid, but if I had to die with anyone, Iâm glad youâre the last person Iâll see.â
A small chuckle left his throat. I loved that sound so much.
âThat is extremely morbid, but I understand what you mean... I have to tell you something.â
I stayed silent to let him know I was listening. I watched as he glanced down and swallowed hard.
âI want you to know that Iâve liked you ever since you joined the team⌠I regret never doing anything about it. I guess I was scared.â
Spencer slowly looked back up at me. I almost felt like I was going to cry from both the situation and finally hearing those words leave his mouth.
âI like you too, Spence.â
I wanted to say more, but the door busted open and the couple walked in.
âWell, ainât that precious,â John said in an amused tone.
Cindy walked closer to me. I tried to move away, but I was helpless.
âDonât touch her,â Spencer demanded as he lunged forward but was held back my John.
âYou donât get to make demands. I canât wait to see you watch her die. Cindy is amazing with her craft.â
I felt sick at his words as she wrapped a hand around my throat. Her grasp tightened as she pulled me up. John ordered Spencer to get up as well as they led us to another room.
Spencer was forced into a chair and was tied down as my arms were lifted above me to be locked to a chain.
I watched with disgust as Cindy stroked Spencerâs face. âOh, Iâm gonna enjoy this one. He loves her so much.â
She smiled wickedly as she glanced up from beside him. âI canât wait to see the look on your face when she takes her last breath. Iâm getting turned on just thinking about it.â
âKill me first,â his voice broke out.
âWhat?â
âKill me first. It should be me.â
I yanked on the chain as tears threatened to stream down my cheeks. I wanted to scream at him for saying such a thing.
Cindy stood up as she hummed. âI thought John told you that you donât get to make demands.â
I kept my eyes on Spencer that I didnât even notice her pick up her whip. It wasnât until the first slash cut into my skin that I noticed.
A cry erupted from my mouth as my eyes squeezed shut.
Spencer screamed out as he tried to get out of the chair to help in some way. Tears poured down both of our faces.
I could feel my own blood run down my skin as the slashes kept coming. It soaked my torn clothing and my body. My throat finally started to feel hoarse from my cries. My legs couldnât even keep my body up. Only the chain kept me up.
âFBI, put your weapons down!â
I could barely raise my head to see what was going on. I heard a shot ring out before I felt hands on me.
Spencer gently held me and made sure to not touch the cuts as someone else freed my wrists from the chains. I fell into his arms as he kept me up.
âI need a medic,â he cried out.
My heartbeat was going incredibly fast. The pain was unbearable.
âSomeone get a medic now!â
Everything was a blur. One moment I was in Spencerâs arms, then I was in an ambulance with Spencer holding my hand firmly in his before I went unconscious.
***
I woke up in a hospital bed.
I felt something beside me and saw Spencerâs hand holding mine with his head slumped over on the bed asleep. A small smile formed on my lips.
I moved to readjust as I felt a wave of pain sear throughout my body. I hissed at the sensation, which immediately woke Spencer up.
âWhatâs wrong?â He instantly asked as he looked at me with a worried expression.
âJust the pain,â I replied.
I saw guilt wash over his face as he looked down. His hand left mine. It felt cold and lonely without his touch.
âItâs my fault youâre like this.â
âHey,â I reached up to hold his face with my hand closest to him, âNone of this is your fault. Donât you dare feel guilty about any of this. You did everything you could.â
Spencer reached up and grabbed my hand. He brought it back to the bed and held it in both of his hands.
âIâm so sorry.â
I gave his hand a light squeeze. âIâll let the others know youâre awake.â
I grasped his hand tighter to stop him. âIn a little bit. I just want to be with you right now.â
Spencer sat back down as he nodded.
âCan I ask you a question?â
âAnything,â he said as he looked up and gave me his full attention.
I took a deep breath before I parted my lips to speak. âDid you mean everything you said back there?â
His brows furrowed together. âI meant every word. I would never lie to you.â
My heart fluttered at his words. It made me so happy to hear him say that despite all the pain I was currently in. In a way, having him beside me and talking with him made the pain easier.
âI, um, was wondering if maybe we could try a real date once youâre better and everything,â Spencer softly spoke as he looked down at our hands. I smiled at how cute he was being.
âIâd love that.â
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DIABOLIK LOVERS Haunted Dark Bridal ăź Sharonâs Route [PROLOGUE]
Monologue
The most painful thing in this world,
is losing your home. Your place-to-be.
No matter how dire the situation,
if you are surrounded by people who love and care for you.
No obstacle is invincible.Â
Then ăźăź Where do I belong?
Having long lost the place I once considered home.
I spent many years in a place which would provide for me.Â
I had food, a roof above my head, a warm bed to sleep in at night.
But could I truly call this my home?Â
Those doubts would lurk in the back of my mind, keeping me up at night.
Until one day, I was made a special offer.Â
If I complied, I would be given the thing my heart longs for the most.
ăźăź A new home.
Location: Sakamaki Manor ;; Outside
Sharon: This is the place, right...?
( Woah...Amazing. Iâve never seen a house quite this big. They even have a garden! )
*Knock knock*
Sharon: Excuse meăź! My nameâs Sharon. Iâm supposed to move in here today!Â
...
...
( No response...? How strange. They should have been informed through the Church. )
*Knock knock*
Sharon: Hello...? Anybody home...!?
Sharon: ( What to do...? There doesnât seem to be anyone home right now. Itâs already getting dark. I canât just stand here all night either. )
*Creaaaaak*
Sharon: ...Huh? Did the...door just open by itself?
( Does that mean I can go inside? I feel a little hesitant just entering someone elseâs home butăźăź I was told I could live here so it should be fine, right? )
She enters the manor.
 Location: Sakamaki Manor ;; Entrance Hall
Sharon: Just as I thought, the inside is equally spacious. I canât imagine just one person living in such a large house all by themselves. Cleaning must take quite some time as well.
She puts down her suitcase.
*Thud*
Sharon: Phew...
( ...Itâs so quiet. Almost as if the house is deserted. I wonder if the owner is out at the moment? In that case, I should probably wait in the living room. )
Sharon looks around.
Sharon: I guess itâs...that way?
*Rustle*
Sharon: ...!!
( I...Did I just...step on something? It felt...strangely soft and... )
???: ăźăź Oi.
Sharon: ...Kyah!
Sharon: ( A person...!? Oh my gosh. I just arrived here and the first thing I do is step on someone! )
???: ...
Sharon: Iâm terribly sorry! I didnât think there would be someone lying on the floor and...!
( ...Speaking of which, what were they doing down there anyway!? ...Sleeping? No way, right? When you have a house this large, you definitely donât need to use the floor as a bed... )
???: Haah...
Sharon: Oh no! Are you feeling ill, perhaps? In that case, I shall call a doctor right away!
???: ...Youâre loud. How am I supposed to enjoy my Rachmaninov when youâre screaming the place down?Â
Sharon: Rach...mani...? ...E-Either way, if youâre not feeling sick, then what were you doing on the floor?
???: Wasting his time away listening to music rather than making himself useful, per usual, I would assume. Well, I suppose it is best not to have any expectations of this man in the first place, as he will only let you down in the end.
Sharon: ...!?Â
( A voice...? Out of nowhere...!? )
Sharon: ...Wah!!
( Where did he come from...? )
???: Now, who might you be?
Sharon: Ah...Iâm sorry! My nameâs Sharon. Iâm an orphan at the Catholic orphanage downtown. I was told by our related Church that the resident of this manor has been so kind to take me in. Are you...perhaps the owner?
???: ...I see. It seems you are the next...sacrifice.
Sharon: Excuse me?
???: Nothing. I was simply talking to myself. ...Ahem. My name is Sakamaki Reiji. The second eldest son of this family and one of the residents here. ...The man you had the âhonorâ of meeting earlier is Shuu. While you may not suspect so given his deplorable behavior, he is - quite unfortunately - my elder brother.
Sharon: Reiji-san...and Shuu-san, was it? Itâs a pleasure meeting you both!
Shuu: ...
Reiji: I assume that is your luggage over there? A room has been prepared for you. We will have one of our servants bring everything upstairs.
Sharon: Thank you very much!
( Thank god...So there wasnât any mistake after all. )
Sharon: Oh! Right! I actually brought a little gift with me! Theyâre homemade muffins I made this morăźăź
*CRASH*
Sharon: ăźăź ning...!?
Startled by the loud noise, she drops the box with muffins.
*Thud*
???: YOU FUCKINâ BASTARD!! I swear once I get my hands on youăźăź!Â
???: Ahaha! I canât believe you actually fell for that one! Lame-o!
Reiji: ...
Shuu: Haah...
Sharon: ( H-Hold on, hold on, hold on! Eh? Eeeeh!? Iâm not dreaming, right!? That person just punched a hole through the wall!? )
Reiji: Ahem. ...Allow me to introduce. The one who destroyed the wall is the youngest son, Sakamaki Subaru. Next to him is Sakamaki Ayato, the eldest of the triplets.Â
ăźăź You two, explain this situation at once!
Ayato: ...Che. Reiji. I didnât do anythinâ! Not my fault that Subaru ate those prank chocolates I left out on the kitchen counter.
Subaru: Fuck off! You definitely did that on purpose! ...I can still feel my mouth burninâ...!!
Sharon: ( ...Prank chocolates? I guess he means those filled with mustard and other spicy condiments, right? I didnât know people actually bought those. )
Ayato: Of course! I was hopinâ to catch Kanato. Can you imagine what kinda face he would make when poppinâ one of those bad boys in his mouth?
???: ...Say, did you hear that, Teddy? ...I hope Ayato sleeps with one eye open tonight. He might just run into...unfortunate accident.
Sharon: ...Eh!?
( Another person just appeared out of thin air!? )
Ayato: Keh. The lunaticâs here.
Reiji: Sakamaki Kanato, the middle triplet.Â
...Kanato, If you wish to commit a homicide, please do so outside of the walls of this manor. It takes forever to remove blood stains from the carpet.
Kanato: I donât recall having to take orders from you.
ăźăź However, youâre lucky as I happen to be in a good mood right now. I believe I heard someone mention muffins?Â
Sharon: ...Ah, yes! I made these myse...Huh? ...Oh.
Shuu: Itâs not blood, but I think the carpet will need some cleaning regardless.
Reiji: Good grief...
Sharon: Oh no...! The box must have slipped from my fingertips when I heard the sudden crash and...
Ayato: Ah-ahăź Look what you did, Subaru. Itâs always the youngest child causinâ trouble.
Subaru: HAAH!? All of this started âcause you left those stupid chocolates out!
Sharon: ...They turned out really good too. What a shame.
Subaru: ...!! ...O-Oi...You...Um...My bad.
Kanato: ...Unforgivable.Â
Sharon: Eh?
Kanato: ...HOW WILL YOU MAKE THIS UP TO ME!?
Sharon: ( W-Why is he getting upset at me all of a sudden!? It was obviously just an accident!? )
Um...Iâm not sure...I could make some new ones later?
???: There, there, Kanato-kun~ Relax! Even if the muffins were wasted, thereâs a delicious snack just waiting to be devoured...
*Rustle*
Sharon: ...!
( Someone wrapped their arms around me from behind!? )
???: ...Right here~ ...Nfu~
Sharon: ...Eh!?
( I-Is he talking about me!? )
Reiji: ...And finally, the youngest triplet, Sakamaki Laito.Â
Ayato: Oi, Laito! No way youâre gettinâ the first taste again! I still havenât forgotten last time!
Laito: Eeeh~? Itâs not my fault youâre so slow, Ayato-kun~ However, if youâre so insistent on taking a bite out of her, I wouldnât mind sharing, you know? Iâm sure itâd make for a refreshing and thrilling experience~
Ayato: Geh! In your dreams, you perv!
Sharon: ( Taste? Bite...? Why are they talking as if Iâm their food!? )
Excusăźăź
Shuu: ...Strawberries.
Sharon: Eh?
Kanato: What are you talking about? I donât see any strawberries around.
Reiji: Shuu. Explain yourself.
Shuu: Your panties. They had strawberries on them.
Sharon: ...!!
( When did he...!? Ah! When I stepped on him...! )
Ayato: Pfftăź!! Strawberries! How old are you, five? Thatâs hella lame!
Laito: Hm...~ Strawberries are not bad but with such a lovely body, Iâm sure you could pull off something a little more erotic~
Subaru: ...
Laito: Oh, my bad~ I forgot baby bro was in the room. I suppose talking about a womanâs underwear is still a little too much for him to handle.
Subaru: S-Shut up...!!
Reiji: ...Enough! No more on this topic! ...Haah. Is it really that much to ask for you lot to behave? Just for one day?
Ayato: ăźăź Anyway, Reiji. Whoâs this chick anyway? Tonightâs dinner?
Sharon: D-Dinner...!? Iâm sorry but...Why are you all talking as if Iâm food or something!?
Ayato: Shut it! Nobody asked for your opinion, Ichigo Pantsu.
Sharon: I-Ichigo paăźăź!? I have a name...! ...Itâs Sharon.
Ayato: Yeah, yeah. I-chi-go Pa-n-tsu.
Laito: Hm~ This Bitch-chan does smell sweet just like strawberries. Perhaps I should call you âIchigo-chanâ instead~?
Kanato: She really does. Iâm sure her blood would taste just as sweet...Oh? Whatâs that, Teddy? Youâd like to have a taste? Fufu...Good idea. I was just feeling a little peckish myself.
Reiji: Haah...I shall be in my study room. ...Ayato, Kanato, Laito. Please treat our new resident with some respect. It would be a shame to lose another one so soon.
Sharon: ...Wait, please! Iâm afraid I donât quite grasp the situation yet!
Reiji: Haah...Good grief. You must not be very smart, are you? Did you truly believe you would be allowed to stay here for free?
Sharon: ...Eh?
Laito: Nfu~ Heâs right, Ichigo-chan. Everything in this world comes at a price. In your case...That would be the delicious blood pumping through your veins...
Sharon: M-My blood...?Â
Ayato: Heh. You seriously havenât realized?
Kanato: Teddy...Humans are truly so foolish, arenât they?
Subaru: Che...Stop beatinâ âround the bush already and just tell her.
Shuu: We are Vampires. So the only thing a human such as yourself would have to offer, is your blood.
Reiji: In return, you will be allowed to stay here in this manor. Food, clothes and all other daily necessities willl be provided as well.
Sharon: Vam...pires? That must be some sort of joke, right? It was the Church who arranged this place for me! They would neverăźăź!Â
Besides...Vampires only exist in fairytales!
Reiji: Good grief. This is why I simply cannot deal with humans. Not only are they incredibly foolish, they are horribly naive and trusting as well.
Subaru: In other words, you were set up. Just deal with it.
Sharon: ...
( No way, right...? This has to be some sort of mistake? Or a bad dream...? )
Shuu: Pwaah...Anyway, you guys do as you please. Iâm going to my room to nap.
Subaru: Iâm leaving too.
Reiji: Well then, if youâd excuse me now.
The three of them leave.
Sharon: ...
Laito: Oh dear~? Is that despair I see in your eyes? You poor little thing! Donât worry, Laito-kun wil make sure to comfort you. After all, there is no better cure for betrayal than pleasure.
Ayato: Donât be so down, Ichigo Pantsu! Itâs not that bad of a deal! You get to offer your blood to Yours Truly after all!
Kanato: Fufu...Iâm sure weâll get along just fine. If youâre lucky, you might even make it into my precious collection one day~
Sharon: ...!!
She suddenly pushes them away.
*THUD*
Ayato: ...Woah!?
Laito: ...Aah~ Not bad, Ichigo-chan! I like myself a feisty girl at times!
Kanato: Ugh! ...What are you doing!? I nearly dropped Teddy just now.
Sharon: ...
She runs upstairs.
Location: Sakamaki Manor ;; Hallway
Sharon: Haah, haah, haah...
( Say, God...? )
( Is this my penalty...? )
( Are you punishing me for my crimes of the past...? )
Monologue
I just kept on running and running.
As said question repeated itself inside my head.
That must be it.
Those guys were exactly right.Â
Humans are foolish. I was foolish.Â
Foolish to believe I would be given a new home.
After all, people like me.
ăźăź They donât deserve a happy ending.
ăźăź PROLOGUE: END ăźăź
[ Dark Prologue ] ->
#diabolik lovers#diabolik lovers oc#sharon's route#(( aaaah it's starting !! ))#(( feedback is welcome and encouraged <33 ))#(( this general prologue focuses on her arrival at the S manor and her first meeting with the boys ))#(( dark prologue will touch upon her backstory a little and her first time attending the academy ))#(( then the other dark scenarios will develop her relationship with all 6 brothers through different scenarios ))#(( if there's a specific idea you have for a fun scenario idea ))#(( please let me know!! ))
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