i really need to do more things i wholeheartedly enjoy. not just filling my days to stave off the boredom or escape from The Horrors. i feel like often, recently, im so exhausted and everything fatigues me. but how can i exist on this earth when im not thriving? everytime im spending time with my sister and mother (in this combination) im realizing that i need this shimmering, vibrant connection to life and humanity to be in touch with the core of me. i feel like in that brain fog mud slush thats my life i forget parts of myself, and i forget even that i forget
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By implying that children are too stupid and rude to learn about the world and learn how the world works and how to interact with others, you are casting responsibility away from the people who are responsible for that child's upbringing and placing the blame on the children (who don't have the autonomy given to them to be allowed to decide what they want) who can't help what they do and do not learn, often.
If the children aren't okay, then investigate why before turning to thought-terminating clichés of, "Well, the kids are just stupid and dumb and aren't even worth the effort because they're lazy!"
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although i have a lot of hard feelings about romance novels and often come out of them 9/10 times with hatred and embarrassment laced into my heart i do think most people can agree that romance novels at large have developed in response to the control over people's sexual lives and how that's subsequently led to a desperate desire from the sexually repressed to be equal participants in a sexual environment. it's not so much that women want to be in relationships with dominant men to whom they play housewife or baby incubator or worse. it's that women want to be in relationships at all. and because the standard for relationships at large is the nuclear family, this is what subsequently shows up in your literature. why do you think religious women in particular are such a huge audience for romance novels despite the often conservative environment they grow up in? it's bc the consumption of romance novels does not exist in spite of that conservatism but bc of it. to be gatekept from any expression of sexual desire until you marry or until you fornicate for the purposes of having a child is to breed in young women a desire for what we would now no longer consider practices entailing any self-respect. you're kept in an ideological cage all of your life, naturally you reach for what's immediately out of reach rather than consider that there could be more out there that is available to you. it sucks! it's sad, it's horrific, it makes me wanna cry. but i can also never quite blame women for it bc they're not the ones who've created this environment of sexual conservatism (ie the real puritan culture, the one that hypersexualizes virgins by obsessively protecting their chastity prior to marriage bc said chastity can only ever belong to one man). man has. religion has. patriarchy has. why would i focus my hatred on women who are merely coping with the status quo rather than the systems in place that we actually have to change to allow for more sexual freedom and agency?
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the saga of my newly fucked up sleep schedule is apparently not over!! even tho i did get a normal 8 hours last night i was in a show today and when that wrapped and i got back to my dorm at like 4:30-ish i decided to take a quick nap which turned into me waking up at almost NINE PM
on the plus side i'm fairly sure i lucid dreamed a couple of times during the nap so that's a plus
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portal puzzles are pretty straightforward compared to HL2 ones because in portal you know the basic logic every puzzle operates under and it's just figuring out how to apply that information creatively. half life though its just such an open sandbox sometimes that you really just have to know how to scan your environment, and there are so many things going on at once. & half the time when figure it out im like wait i can /DO/ that?
astute individuals probably solved this already since my diagram is so simplified, but you remove the wedges behind the back wheels of the combine car. it rolls back off the cliff and snaps the power lines, the barrier fizzes out. but at this point, i had never in the game 1) followed the power lines to the source (they usually lead inaccessibly offscreen and the thing that shuts down the barrier is a nearby lever you find) or 2) observed a car with something holding it in place, removal of which lets it roll - let alone tiny removable back wheel wedges. this is stuff that seems pretty obvious, but if you go in primed for certain solutions but the environments do not always lend themselves to what you're familiar with, you end up always having to think on your feet. this isn't bad at all, just interesting.
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Does Scarebeast exist in your AU? And if so, does he/it and Man-Bat (in his giant bat form) ever have playdates? Because that's an adorable thought
unfortunately no u_u scarebeast as a concept is awesome but its not veryy. crane to me. not rlly his thing. but. speaking of kirk, he Does go on "playdates", with manbat. its rllt just it and kirk driving outside gotham and letting manbat go crazy on the local wildlife while crane just hangs out at the truck reading or whatever nerds do
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