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Cowboys in love (if that's what it is?) from Strange Way Of Life just because
[ID: A digital sketch of Silva and Jake from Strange Way of Life. Jake is kissing Silva's neck, and Silva is looking content. End ID]
#Strange way of life#Pedro Pascal#Ethan Hawke#This movie is so perfect#in a fked up way#Pedro Almodóvar#my art#Kyber Bonsai
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Do you ever wonder how the maurauders era is made up of canon stuff?!?!? like the only official thing we got was 5 pages or smth but ppl loved it so much that atp it's a completely different universe.
BUT
Do I love it? yes, Yes I do. I do love me some Wolfstar content like they're so CUTE!?!?! and how James and Regulus are together like how tf did that happen? and Lily Potter the queen is so sassy like?!?!I LOVE THEM The only person I don't see much is Wormtail But like every day I see new characters popping up and stuff. ISTG people have way too much free time to make this all up
#dumbledore is shit#mauraders#the mauraders#growing up is realising that Dumbledore let a 17year old sacrifice himself and that's fked up#snape loved lily and hated james but that does not excuse the way he treated harry like bro he doesn't even know his parent?!?!?#maurauders era#james potter#james x regulus#regulus black#sirius black#remus x sirius#sirius and regulus#remus lupin#remus loves sirius#wolfstar#lilly potter#mischief managed#harry potter#hogwarts#maurders era#maurauders fanfic
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not at all related to real life events
#but i'm tellin ya right now if i get another email i will explode#scream and explode like popola#also there were way too many choices for the 9S screenshot#ah bruh#i'll just be over here burning down my computer#don't worry i can post memes from the fridge#vague spoilers for everything#warning- people are fked up in a game full of fked up events#nier#but on second thought maybe they should've all just started meme pages#it's really good for your mental health
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I just had this random thought.
What if once Wu regained his memories in the First Realm, he just— stopped growing.
Like, his body physically stopped aging for some reason. The effects of the Time Blade had worn off but his body doesn’t return to good ol’ old man Wu. He just— stayed in his normal teenager form, possibly for good.
Just imagine, season 9 goes the same way except at the end Wu is still in his teenage body and everyone’s like, “Uh, isn’t he supposed to grow some more, why is he- like that?”. Whether it’s explained or mentioned in season 10 is debatable, but it’ll be more hilarious if they decided to gloss over it and say, “Yup, that’s how Wu will look from now on, buy our toys!”
#honestly i think the ninjas would be more happy with this wu than the old one#cause teenage wu is WAY more chill#and would probably join in on the ninjas shenanigans just because#he would be like the fun uncle instead of depressed relative#also i imagine the fsm seeing his son and was like#ok i kinda fked up heres a change to start over and refused to elaborate#yeah u kinda had a fucked up childhood heres ur chance to start over#so once garmadon and wu meet garm will be like#uh why r u so young#and wu will be like#why r u so annoying#i think itll be funny#do u think wu would say internet slang unironically now that hes a teenager quote on quote#lego ninjago#ninjago#ninjago zane#ninjago cole#ninjago nya#ninjago lloyd#ninjago kai#ninjago jay#ninjago masters of spinjitzu#ninjago wu
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THE WEDDING CONTRACT (2023) Episode 10
#the wedding contract#jao sao ban rai#care chattarika#ball jitpanu#asiandramasource#lakornedit#catagifs#the way their toxic is so much more interesting than whatever fked up dynamic the main couple has going on#im still winning so#ballgif
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yeah wtf
oh sh*t
OH SH*T
#I feel the same way babe#this is fked up#sh*t really hit the fan huh#this can't mean anything good#my thougts#kronthescoup#kamen rider geats#geats liveblog#geats#1 lucky toss#sakurai keiwa#the fox has a gun!
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I do not recommend reading The Chandler Legacies btw. Pretty aphobic, especially arophobic -- one of the MCs says "I don't think I can fall in love" in her first chapter and then proceeds to fall in love later on in the book with that never mentioned again. Message obviously being that if someone says they don't fall in love, they just haven't met the right person yet.
#the chandler legacies#the rest of it was good tho. besides the astrology is real bit but that's a more personal preference. tho it was pretty fked up to use it#to decide which students to give a major opputunity#arophobia#aphobia#acephobia#there was a bit that could be seen as that way too tbh#I said this#books#YA
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having to restrain from saying anything when my dad dares to say that men get paid LESS than women. in what world. are you out of your fucking mind old man.
#ow.err#IN WHAT WORLD ARE MEN PAID LESS THAN WOMEN.#like. i shouldnt be surprised he said that bc he watched and/rew t/ate and jo/e rog/an so like. of fucking course he'd think that.#but like dude. you have no idea what youre talking about.#and there is NO WAY im gonna even try to tell him otherwise bc he is. loud. yk.#im just gonna. leave that there. bc its not my responsibility to 'fix' my parents as much as id love to try.#its just not my responsibility. and itll prob just end in me getting screamed at anyways since they wont listen to me or anything i say#cuz im still a kid in their eyes ! ! ! !!!! ! ! so cool ! ! ! ! ! !#almost 20. father doesnt think i know how to wake myself up w/o being woken up by someone else.#SO INSULTING BTW. i always get up on time. no matter what. nearly 20 and he thinks im a fking child still#both my mom and dad do but my dad does it in an 'underestimating' me way and my mom does it in a 'tries to overly coddle me' way#you know? i dunno. i dunno. i wanna move out but money is so fked rn. and idk how to do like. anything. so im just...#gonna do my classes and try to get a nice job and save up for awhile before i actually move out to my own place#im also kind of scared bc idk if ill have the. will to care for myself once i move out. like im worried ill just let myself die#sso. things to. work on before i get out of here i guess. but the thing is this environment will not let me heal. ahhh !!!!!!!!!#the only way out is through!!! through and scared!!!!!!!!!!!! tmrw marks the start of my life potentially starting to change. for the bette#but still changing. and oh man. im very nervous. its scary#cuz like. i didnt think id live past like 12 ??? so to be almost 20 and very behind on 'adult things' is. scary?daunting?#it all almost feels unreal. like im reaching a part of my life i never thought id actually reach. it feels like ive been living on#borrowed time since 12 so now im like. damn i have to live dont i. i have to actively make this life worth living now#some days i still worry itll be my last but ... im just gonna try to take it one step at a time. its all i can do.#be as prepared as i can. and take it one step at a time. i clutch onto the hope that my life will get better#and i clutch onto it with an iron grip. because damn it. it has to get better than this. it has to.#wow this got derailed. oh well my poast my rules.
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I didn’t think tumblr acc of all things would need that but I am pro-ship-whatever-you-like(far away from me if it’s not my thing) I do not understand or support antis and their inability to just, not interract with whatever fictional! content they dislike
#I'm too tired to care about other people's preferences#even if my pairings usually fall onto anti-approved list#it's not by design#sometimes you go wild over something fked up#it's fine i promise#my literature classes introduced me to way worse stuff
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This is spot on, but I’d like to add something cuz I’m stupid; this is honestly why I don’t think Scourge’s character would work in canon sonic.
I always see people saying to bring him back (and I don’t necessarily disagree), but Scourge honestly doesn’t mesh at all with canon sonic. I mean, the basis of his character is that he takes all of Archie sonics worst traits to the max, all of which just…aren’t present in canon sonic.
For example, a good point brought up in this is that Archie Sonic is a lot more controlling and egotistical than in canon, and while Scourge being very present with these traits makes him like a dark mirror to Archie sonic, it makes him…almost a foil to canon sonic? Like, if you told me scourge was canon Sonics evil counterpart, I would not believe you, they just. Barely share any traits
And don’t get me wrong, I love scourge’s character, but I think dude is stuck to the Archie universe conceptually. Though maybe a retake on the scourge character in canon would be interesting, like a guy that stands behind freedom with no morals. Idk. Wouldn’t be scourge anymore tho lol
This also may be why I don’t like surge that much. In Archie, sonic was genuinely flawed, and seeing a guy take his flaws to the worst was interesting; I didn’t really get that with idw sonic and surge tho. The only thing they have in common is that they’re impulsive, that’s it. Maybe I should just stop comparing surge and scourge hah
Please give this threat a read. It's absolutely spot on. I obviously don't agree with every single point, but overall it knocks it out of the park.
#sonic the hedgehog#archie sonic#scourge the hedgehog#sega sonic#long post#also want to say that I’m biased towards Archie sonic but I like both versions in their own respects#canon sonic is cool while Archie sonic is just. a bit of a jerk. but in an interesting way#canon sonic is wind while Archie sonic is lightning. you feel me?#idk why I like azzhole characters so much. The sonic vs tails arc was what cemented him as one of my favorite characters which is. odd#maybe I just like characters doing fked up things and then getting their azzes beat for it. would explain why I like scourges character pff
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Just a weird au i have to unload from my head or else I'll never get anything done.
The System screws up and sticks SY in the wrong qi-deviating Peak Lord, freaks out and tried to undo it, and x number of svsss shenanigans later, there are two Qi Qingqis staring at each other from their sickbed.
SY promptly freaks out and outs himself as a dude in a lady's body, which QQQ is understandably pissed as all hell about ... until SY's very modern politically correct upbringing starts freaking out about how it's a betrayal to the girls on xian shu peak if he's allowed in it and how absolutely disrespectful this is to QQQ that some dude can see a perfect copy of her body etc etc ... and then she's like, oh no, he's *pathetic* and it's *adorable*.
SY is QQQ's didi now, but he still has to be rigorously tested for demonization and is declared to be just a poor wandering soul that got yoinked into a weird situation thanks to QQQ's qi deviation. MQF tries various things to help SY adapt to the body, but SY is all female all the way now, which, when he finds out he can avoid periods bc cultivator, he's all for since QQQ's body is way better than his prev one. The tincture that tries to meld body and soul does at least reduce his breast size, which thank GODS bc holy hell jiejie, how do you even deal with these?
SJ is his normal bitchy self... except he can't help but be a little curious about what it's like being a woman, and having been there for SY's freak out he feels... the slightest bit of a kindred spirit to a man who holds women in such high regard (bc ancient china). Also SY is a woman now, although he still calls himself a didi instead of a meimei, so... anyway, SJ's walls are slowly torn down and it ends in Shenbros somehow, with SJ and QQQ competing for title of best elder sibling. (SJ is aroace in this au.)
No one tells LQG about the two QQQ's for the longest time, and he is extremely confused at the softer(in personality) vers and why her boob size keeps fluctuating. He is very torn between his "just bros" sparring buddy (QQQ) and the... one who makes him feel... things (SY) and is not-gay panicking like crazy.
The System blocked SY's knowledge of PIDW and fked off in terror of the Main System finding out about its screw up, so SY didn't realize anything until LBH appears and his memory is unlocked (bc deus ex binghe), but by then he's invested in Cang Qiong and the Peak Lords' wellbeings, Jiu-ge is a lot more well-adjusted, and all the Xianshu ladies are addicted to trashy romance novels and have no time for rl pretty boys so...
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now he's in your bed, laying on my chest. | reo mikage, 18+
no explicit nsfw but still mdni, aged up characters, reo down bad, not very realistic s3x but alas, reader's feelings are ambiguous but they eventually get their hesitation fked out, no pronouns or specific body parts mentioned, not beta read sorry.
It's 10pm and there's a purple-haired, billionaire athlete on your doorstep, knocking a little too eagerly on the door.
"There's no one in there." You interrupt, spinning your keys on your finger and Reo turns around, shocked to see you in front of him. "So banging on my door like a madman won't be productive, I'm afraid."
To your dismay, all he says is an apology when you wanted him to explain why on earth he was here.
"Are you looking for Nagi? Try somewhere else, don't think he'll ever come around again," you murmur before pushing in front of him to unlock the door. The key enters, as it always does, your door hinges creak when you open it, as it always does, and you turn around to face Reo, who has never looked as frazzled as he does now.
"I'm not looking for Nagi," the athlete mutters, running a hand through his hair. "I'm looking for you."
"Well, here I am. Aren't you supposed to be on a flight across the world right now?"
"I'm flying tomorrow morning."
Such dry and icy responses, what's up with him this evening? Reo's always so talkative but you wonder where his words and usual mannerisms have wandered off to tonight. Perhaps he's holding a grudge against you on behalf of Nagi after your breakup.
"Have a safe flight. I'm gonna go now, see you-"
"-Can I come in?"
You narrow your eyes at him, alarms blaring in your head, flashing vibrant hues of red. Still, you step aside and let him inside your humble abode. He takes off his shoes at the entrance, letting you turn on the heaters and boil some water for tea.
He takes a seat on your couch, watching you in the kitchen that's adjacent. The loud noises from the kettle fill the silence that would otherwise be too awkward, giving you time to think about why Mikage Reo would seek you out at a time like this.
It's not like you were close friends. You were only friendly with him due to his position as Nagi's best friend, and you had barely spent any time together alone before. Even now, it feels like there should be a third presence, spread out and lounging on the exact couch that Reo sits on.
"Green tea," you mutter when you place his mug in front of him. The purple-haired thanks you silently, bringing the cup to his mouth and you two remain sitting in silence.
Are you going to have to carry this conversation when he's the one that intruded?
"Why are you here, Mikage?" You question.
"Why did you really break up with Nagi?"
Count on Reo to always be so brash and straight to the point. Time is money and there is no time like the present.
"I... didn't," you explain. "He's the one that broke up with me. Just... called me one morning and decided it was best for us to go our separate ways and that was it."
"That's all?"
"Yeah. I was surprised too, I thought things were going well between us. Guess not."
"Do you resent him?"
"No."
"Aren't you going to ask me how he is?"
"Life is bigger than being curious against people who come and go. I just hope he is well and happy with where he is."
"But you aren't happy."
You meet Reo's eyes with a bewildered stare, taken aback by his boldness to assume something and speak it outright as a guest in your own home. You fear you don't have anything nice to say, so you don't speak at all, opting to drink your tea instead.
"Did you come all this way just to interrogate me about Nagi and I's breakup?" You ask.
"No, I wanted to come and check on how you were. He didn't tell me much about it, didn't even tell me how you reacted, all he said was that 'you broke up' and that was it..."
Humiliation settles itself deep in your gut. You know of Nagi's infamous nonchalance, but after everything you did and experienced together, you'd like for him to show at least a little bit of sadness. But it seems like that is still too much to ask for.
Rubbing your eyes, you will yourself not to cry. You haven't shed any tears for him yet, not wanting to do so over someone who can't even break up with you in person. In fact, you thought you were beginning to get over it, going out with a few friends tonight for dinner to try and relieve your mind of overthinking too much. Why did Reo have to come by and ruin it?
"I thought he loved you, said he wanted to marry you too," Reo murmured.
That was your breaking point and you clench the pillow in your hands to stop yourself from throwing it at him. "Yeah, well, he didn't love me enough to stay," you spit with venom dripping from your tone, rushing to the kitchen with your now empty mug.
After a moment, you hear Reo's footsteps follow you and he places his empty mug next to the sink. You don't look at him when he leans against the counter with his arms crossed.
"Do you resent me?"
"Why should I?"
"By proxy. Just 'cause ya know, I'm his best friend."
"I don't resent you Mikage, if I did then I would not have let you in my home."
Two beats of silence pass before he speaks again. "I didn't come by just to check up on you."
The sink screeches when you turn it off and the newfound silence envelopes the atmosphere like a blanket of snow. "Go on."
"Don't tell him I said this but you've always been too good for him. You deserve someone better."
You scoff. "Like?"
He steps closer and you have to crane your neck to look at him properly. You don't back down, trying your best to breathe through the heavy air as he scans your expression for any hint of rebellion.
"Me," Reo's voice is unwavering, firm with his declaration. Determination sets his indigo eyes ablaze and his hair falls to frame his face perfectly, the light of your kitchen hitting his skin in all the right places.
Then you realise just how built he is. Broad shoulders, wide chest, and he towers over you so easily, all features that come from years of athleticism. You could fall for his trap, line, hook, and sinker, but whatever little integrity you had remaining keeps you on your feet, reluctant to fall.
His thumb comes to brush your cheek and your knees buckle instantaneously. "Isn't this against 'bro code'?"
"Nagi doesn't have to know."
Oh, but it's been so lonely recently and Reo is so warm, the fabric of his sweater feels so soft, and you just want someone to take care of you, but letting that person be Reo is too risky.
Still, you trail your hands up to rest on his shoulders. "This isn't smart."
"I'm just followin' my heart, pretty."
You're the one who kisses him, pulling him towards you with a tug and his hands slam onto the counter on either side of you. It's sweet, but so short that you don't even give him a moment to close his eyes and savour the feeling. Now you're pulling away and Reo is desperate to keep you close.
With the inch you've given, Reo steals the mile, sealing your lips with his again. It gets heated too fast and now he's everywhere, hands leisurely exploring your sides as his leg settles between yours, effectively trapping you against your kitchen counter.
"Reo," you whisper weakly as he's pressing kisses against your nape, but he stops as soon as his name slips past your lips, head retracting so he can look you in the eye. "Bedroom, please."
After Nagi broke you the way he did, you felt unlovable. As if the reason he left you so suddenly was because there wasn't anything good left about you for him to continue loving. Yet, Reo clings to you like an oath, hurried hands grabbing and squeezing everything and anything he could touch.
Where Nagi was lazy and unrushed, Reo acts like you could slip away from his touch any second, but he doesn't hurt you. He never grips hard enough to leave bruises no matter how much you want him to, and he never strays too far.
Slowly, he strips you of your clothes, taking the time to appreciate you as if he'll never get the chance to see it again. His pupils dilate with every piece he gets to remove and he hovers over you before leaning down to kiss every inch of your bare skin.
Gratitude oozes off him like honey, like he's thankful that you're granting him the luxury of the sight before him, like he's the lucky one out of you two.
Reo presses into you in all the right places and doesn't suffocate you with his weight. It's mind-numbing, he's making you feel so good and you curse yourself for choosing the wrong one and losing the time you could have had with Reo instead.
Every part of you erupts with bliss when he's finally inside. It's warm everywhere, he fits so perfectly that you wonder if you were meant to find heartbreak first so you can appreciate this blissfulness even more. When you arch your body moulds perfectly to his chest, and you can't remember what you were even worried about at the beginning of the night.
The more you kiss him, the more of him you feel deep inside is like a chip to your armour.
Pure euphoria flows through your veins, intoxicatingly slow. You never want this to end, even as you gasp for air, even as your throat turns dry and scratchy and your legs lose feeling, every climax causes you to pray that he won't leave. That just because you're spent doesn't mean it is the end of the night.
As if he can hear your wishes, Reo's craving is insatiable and his warmth never strays from you.
The clock strikes 02:30 and on a normal day, perhaps you would have been asleep, preparing for the day ahead. Except tonight there is a purple-haired athlete splayed on your chest, bodies coming down from the multiple highs you've experienced together. Oddly enough, this feels like the most intimate part of the night as his chest moves in unison with yours, idle chatter filling up the space as both of you drift off.
Reo tells you something before you fall asleep but you’re too close to unconsciousness to remember, eyelids heavy and senses dulling. “My flight is early in the morning tomorrow. I’ll be gone before you wake up.”
True to his word, he isn’t there beside you. There’s a noticeable dent in the sheets that traces his silhouette but excluding that, there’s hardly any evidence of his presence at all and if it weren’t for your sore muscles, the flicker of doubt in your mind wouldn’t have been extinguished so quickly. Then your eye catches sight of the exact sweater he wore last night, the same one that you tugged off him impatiently, it feels like a promise that he will return.
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#this could be the most shit thing i've ever written but i'm just out here posting this with a hand over my eyes#reo mikage x reader#reo x reader#mikage reo x reader#blue lock x reader#bllk x reader#reo x reader smut#reo smut#blue lock smut#blue lock x reader smut
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Repeat for emphasis:"sam and dean are asked to deny the evidence of their eyes and their ears if it dares to contradict that gloss."
Denial and gaslighting are almost "family traditiions" with the winchesters....no wonder sam n dean's pov-stories are so absolutely divergent and bonkers...n how they can both deny whTs in front of them when it comes to each other....
Which SPN character's crimes are you the #1 defender of to the end of time?
honestly probably john, but possibly mary.
both of them are truly messed up individuals, but the specific ways in which they're messed up are necessary for the plot to happen, and are responsible for shaping sam and dean into who they are, and the tangled webs there are so delicious that i can't imagine wanting them to be any less transgressive or fucked up.
like, mary clutched at john as a lifeline and lied through her teeth to him and made out with her father's corpse to bring john back and then must have gaslit the ever loving shit out of him about the details of how both of her parents died that night and how strange she was acting, and proceeded to continue lying to him for another decade. she went on freaking hunts and he'd get fed up and hurt and confused and not come home for a few days and "their marriage wasn't perfect until after she was dead" !!!! this woman had to be comforted by her 4yo kid! she was a train wreck!
and speaking of things not being perfect until after she was dead? boy howdy do these two sanitize the other's memory and it's so 🥴 dean literally would not be the fucked up codependent enmeshed king that he is without watching his parents' relationship and how fraught and messy it was prior to her death and then the immediate revenge obsession that followed. like "oh this is what love is? this is what 'family' looks like? okay cool just gonna integrate that into my belief system and comfort you the way i used to comfort mom when you were fighting". this poor goddamn child. but anyway.
john and mary are perfect for each other because they're both selfish and obsessive and withholding liars and they do it all for love but to them love is synonymous with selfish, righteous anger and damn near compulsion, synonymous with lying to 'keep people safe' and with hiding your vulnerability until you lose that person and then going batshit insane to resurrect or avenge them.
and again, i cannot stress this enough, sam and dean would not be at all the people that they are without these two deeply messed up parents. all their wrongs are excusable to me. they're horrible parents. they did the best they could. they raised soldiers and traumatized isolated little boys with arrested development. they wanted a better life for them. they loved each other to the point of madness. they only felt that way because a cupid made them. john was 'such a good father' and their marriage was 'perfect' before mary died, and sam and dean are asked to deny the evidence of their eyes and their ears if it dares to contradict that gloss.
absolutely no notes, no one is doing it like them. they should be worse.
#supernatural#Family tradition of denial n gaslighting#John n mary fked up their kids but good - but we like em that way hih?
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Oh sheeeeeeeesh
:(
What is that????
👆👆🤝 this.
The absolute pain in his voice—
(╥﹏╥)
Eyyy?
The drawingssssssss 🥺
#I hurt for George#his father did love him in his own fked up way#😞😞😞😞🥺#my thougts#bath 48#revice#revice spoilers#watching revice#kamen rider revice#ikki why is ur demon so cringe#kr revice#kronthescoup
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Ehhh totally understand if you don't post this because it's depressing af. I'm choosing violence today. I was awash with lovey dovey feelings for our couple after re-watching L&N interviews, re-watching B3, re-watching BTS footage. I was full to the brim with LOVE. These guys had me in a choke-hold. Actually had me reviewing and reflecting on my life and relationships, adding so much joy and self-acceptance, reflecting on my self-worth, improving my world view. Allowing me to breathe in deeply, and expand myself in ways I didn't expect it to.
BUT yesterday was a mess. For so many reasons, not just because of L&N-related content. There were some bad vibes circulating. Then I made a really poor life decision last night. I decided to do some stalking of third parties, which I don't normally do. And of course, it had to be the night where said parties were posting and I saw all things unfolding in real time. My predictions were coming true in real time. It was like the granting of a wish in reverse. And look, I'm not naive to think that these things aren't happening, but when you see it unfold in front of you, it just hits differently. These people are so. fkn. toxic. It drains the life from me. The same occurred this morning when I awoke to see a timeline of HBS. I knew about it, but seeing it, with receipts, fkn disgusted me to my core. It was a visceral reaction. All of a sudden, what looked cute and puppy dog became unsafe and ugly. My empathy dissolved. The thing that gave me the most discomfort was the possible connection to the young dancer who was in B3. It made me think such awful things. (the worst being, is he just a fuck boy who was starved during tour?).
But why, why does it have such an effect? I don't interact with these people, no real relationship. So why? I think because we have been sold a certain narrative, through B3 and the press tour, that being authentic, having depth, focusing on 'the real bones' of people is paramount. Beyond the aesthetic. 'The truth will set you free' kind of thinking, right? And here we have the literal antithesis to that. People who promote and value aesthetic over substance. People who are egocentric and appear to have a very limited worldview. People you expect more from given they sold that 'depth narrative' looking you in the eye. People who are old enough to know better. People who choose to surround themselves with younger folk so that personal growth is disallowed. People who care more about their shallow life fulfillment, their hedonistic desires, than the feelings of others whom they purport to love and care about. People who hide behind ignorance, as if that negates them from consequence. The stereotype celebrity. It's truly deflating. I expected so much more.
And my original thinking of 'oh it's ok, he needs to grow and learn from his mistakes, he needs to find himself...", well, I'm finding it more and more difficult to believe. Because why give him grace? Why is he deserving of grace? Because he acted real well? What does he add to society? What do these fked up people add to this already fked up world? You've got N literally changing a whole landscape, waving her wand and creating light in darkness, urging us to think deeply while laughing at the same time. And no, we don't all possess that kind of magic, but hell, shouldn't we all be striving to be authentic, kind, thoughtful people? Shouldn't we try to promote these things if we believe in them?
Look, in this life, people are always showing you who they really are, telling you exactly what they value, what fills them up, and it's up to us to really look and listen. I'm disappointed in myself for not properly seeing what was in front of me all this time... You can't change those who do not want to be changed. My respect and my fucks given need to be earned, and honestly, we need to reflect on our own self-respect if we are willing to fawn over or idolise someone undeserving. As always, I have hope for people, but I'm no longer holding my breath.
Please, give me that Xanax and wake me up when September ends.
#fkeverything #ohthereyouareteenangst
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oh you wanna see my donuts @vashito 🤭 ? I actually did this to learn the basic tools but learned way more than that! took about 4 hours total. I kinda fked up on the chocolate donut's sprinkles and was too lazy to trouble shoot it lol. definitely recommend doin it for anyone slightly interested in 3d, the donut dude is super easy to follow along to and he recently updated his tutorial
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